Oh man do I know how this man felt. I’m 56 and locked in my house with my body engulfed in arthritis and fibromyalgia. I also worked hard and played harder my whole life, it really sucks and depressing when our bodies can’t keep up with our brains and feelings. Sometimes I wish I had the guts to do what he did but could never do that to my family. For some reason they all still love me and want me around so I take it one day at a time.
@squamish42442 жыл бұрын
Neurofeedback has really helped me with fibromyalgia.
@rowleybirkinqclvocmg45172 жыл бұрын
I wish you happiness and an ease of your pain in your remaining years. I hope you strive to find things to live for and it's great you have family that love you. Good luck. You must have done many things right for you to be loved this much.
@rodmitchell85762 жыл бұрын
You're still young - is there nothing that can be done for your conditions? I think there is for the fibromyalgia.
@cherylgrec97012 жыл бұрын
Your family loves you. If you leave them, they will spend the rest of their life wondering what they could have done to stop it. Please don’t do that to them. Please ask for help. It may be exhausting but somewhere out there is help. 🙏❤️
@tomakafrankconlon32072 жыл бұрын
Monalyn, you are a full of BS troll and you know it.
@crisbrackett20673 жыл бұрын
Arrested development is a real thing. We either learn why we needed to be numb all the time and heal it or die trying to numb it. I'm so grateful to be 60 in 6 weeks. Never thought I'd get to 30.
@Anita_Backrub3 жыл бұрын
Amen. I thank God every day that I found my way out. ❤️
@jillianlabella75653 жыл бұрын
That is so amazingly and beautifully said. Im happy your turning 60 happy belated birthday
@JohnSmith-cx7zt2 жыл бұрын
Happy to be 67 last week. Now I get to see how the world ends on a bad note. Famine, war , plagues, lawlessness civil insurrection. Massive societal, unrest around the world. I still feel lucky , to be a spectator watching it all go to shit.
@booognish2 жыл бұрын
I feel that, but I’ve just turned 30.. Still trying to work on that whole, “healing it” part..
@danfield60302 жыл бұрын
@@JohnSmith-cx7zt Your nut.s This world is getting so wonderfully amazing , with Elon Musks Neurlink and the breakthroughs in medical technology's. Humans are about to live to be 200 years old.....also I've seen a live Monkey play a video game with its mind!!!! Also Quantum Computing and were sending a probe to another STAR SYSTEM. T We are already 3D printing actual FOOD! YOUR gonna miss the most exiting and happy time in history....and we may become immortal some day according to hard science breakthroughs
@Sameoldfitup3 жыл бұрын
“Has it ever struck you that life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quick you hardly catch it going?”― Tennessee Williams..
@paintingwithrosev7412 жыл бұрын
Sounds like BS.
@elvia30682 жыл бұрын
That is soooooo beautiful and true.
@barbarawelcome33732 жыл бұрын
Very true
@danaament53032 жыл бұрын
Guess you need to pay closer attention.
@charlottecobain69862 жыл бұрын
@@paintingwithrosev741 sounds like you don’t get it.
@bellaevans30433 жыл бұрын
My mom did the same thing, I saw her with gun and ran, first there was shock then came the grief, and then the hatred, I hated her for years, sure her pain was gone, but she had not known the devastation she left behind, I don't hate my mom anymore, I truly love and miss her now
@nclmbin83 жыл бұрын
Love to you, Bella.
@bellaevans30433 жыл бұрын
@@nclmbin8 thank you so very much
@scooterdogg75803 жыл бұрын
I was mad at my father for giving up , but now as I get older I realize he had a much harder life and must have been in incredible pain , God bless
@bellaevans30433 жыл бұрын
@@scooterdogg7580 God bless you too scooter
@bellaevans30433 жыл бұрын
@Patricia Crowell thank you so very much
@johnindo67712 жыл бұрын
My beloved mother, Mary Jo, committed suicide when I was 12. I have a Master’s degree in Psych Mental Health Nursing, and I worked for about 45 years as a nurse here in Houston and south Texas. I am 72. I never hated my mother. My sister, Karen, who was about 2 years younger than I, did have a lot of hatred and anger for our mother. My older sister, Linda, loved and adored and missed our mother dearly- just as I did! My mother’s suicide happened about 50 years ago. My mind and heart simply cannot fathom how I have survived without her! The pain and sense of loss NEVER leaves me!!
@imcopper2 жыл бұрын
I am sorry for ur pain, it's ugly and real, I can relate.
@paintingwithrosev7412 жыл бұрын
An abundance of love is what stops a parent from doing that to their children. You Get rid of the pain and sense of love. Some parents just don't have enough attachment to their children to stay here for them. She did not deserve such a lovely child as you.
@blessyourheart11672 жыл бұрын
I am very sorry for the loss of your beloved mother . I lost my mother who was also my best friend at a early age as well ( it was not suicide) however I was very young trying my best to bring her back with CPR . Unfortunately it did not work. My life as I knew it was over . I am 52 now it still haunts me, I still feel guilty, I still feel like I failed my mom. However she had heart failure and it sucks. I miss her every single day . I feel very bad for you John Indo I’m glad you have a degree in Psych Mental Health Nursing . I am also a mother myself . I do not know the circumstances of your situation. However I can not imagine a mother willingly leaving their children ( by suicide) unless the had a serious mental illness or a very unhealthy relationship making their life extremely unbearable. To the point your mom may have been very worried for her children . She may have thought you all would have been better off without her . It’s hard to hypothesize without knowing the dynamics of the situation. I do know that most mothers have very strong bond with there children . I also know mental illness it a horrible health condition that Carries a horrible stigma with it especially and that day and time. It’s unfortunate that even in todays day it still Carries that horrible stigma ( still to this very day ) I fear for what you’re mother Mary Jo may have been put through back then . I’m not saying she was mental Ill. I’m just saying back in that era things were so very different and you were so very young . Things may have happened you don’t or can’t remember. Moms usually will make sacrifices for their children to keep them safe even if it’s the ultimate sacrifice. Sometimes things are exactly what they seem . And other times we find out later in life … we were told wrong because people thought it would be in the best interest of the children at the time. Just go with your heart . I was so impressed and happy that you called and addresses your mother as you beloved mother Mary Jo . Congratulations on your degree I hope that has helped you throughout your life coping with the loss of your mother . I’m sorry if I said anything out of line . I was just so very touched by your “ life” thank you for sharing . God bless you and your family .
@TRIX-wn2sl2 жыл бұрын
I am sorry for your loss
@TRIX-wn2sl2 жыл бұрын
@@paintingwithrosev741 It’s not abundance of love that’s lacking that causes people to commit suicide that is wrong it is an emotional deep pain and psychological chemical balance issue it has nothing to do with lack of love
@Sameoldfitup3 жыл бұрын
“I don't know what's worse: to not know what you are and be happy, or to become what you've always wanted to be, and feel alone.”
@trougher0073 жыл бұрын
100%
@trougher0073 жыл бұрын
Well said ⏰
@bellaevans30433 жыл бұрын
I feel alone a lot,,, its really scary for me at times,, I wouldn't wish that for any one
@Sameoldfitup3 жыл бұрын
@@bellaevans3043 yes I know what you are saying
@BikingVikingHH3 жыл бұрын
I’m alone, but at least I know who I am
@brettcounsellor5372 жыл бұрын
We got to talk to HST on the phone once when I was in college back in 1999. Looked his number up on the "old net" and found it listed. Called him out of the blue and he actually rapped with me and a couple buddies for a while. We had been watching Fear amd Loathing and told him how much we loved it and asked him if it was really that crazy in Vegas. He said it was even Crazier than the movie could portray. He ended the call with "all right, that's it, I gotta go". One of my favorite books, movie, amd memory for sure!
@Probabalisticplane2 жыл бұрын
You legit just called him? Wow
@nickreynolds83919 ай бұрын
That's wild 😂
@pilsplease75612 ай бұрын
I miss days like that when you could just cold call someone and get ahold of them. Its so crazy now.
@michaelscrilla1253 жыл бұрын
Very true what his editor said about using substances. It only enhances creativity for so long before it hinders you instead.. Very well put together doc.
@conzmoleman3 жыл бұрын
It’s better to burn out, than to fade away ‘cause rust never sleeps
@DetroitFettyghost3 жыл бұрын
@@conzmoleman but turds do float to the top lol
@MikeGreenwood513 жыл бұрын
@@conzmoleman If a person's life style was really so great that exploding in to space was the essence of the high. Then was the high really so very good.Or just a drug induced illusion which would it self fade away some hours later. So why even consider 'burning out (exploding in to space)?
@bellaevans30433 жыл бұрын
@@conzmoleman I love that song !!!!
@TheClownfight3 жыл бұрын
"hunter s thompson the writer, became more and more Hunter S Thompson, the character". beautifully said, and 100% true. I feel the same happened to Salvador Dali. Both were creatures of their own imagination... and then became prisoners of that.
@jeffhair35523 жыл бұрын
Well said my friend
@giastake34923 жыл бұрын
@Kevin of Parker You're absolutely correct 👍🙂😉
@giastake34923 жыл бұрын
@@jeffhair3552 Ditto. 🙂
@christytaylor55543 жыл бұрын
Most all the greats end up that way.
@jasonbourcier76063 жыл бұрын
²2²⅔3
@brianmurphy73723 жыл бұрын
In 1966 when I was fifteen, I read his book on the Hells Angels. His style of writing was revolutionary and was very influential in my efforts to try my hand as a writer myself. I feel he will influence many generations to come.May he R.I.P.
@VanHellsing123 жыл бұрын
That was the book that I enjoyed the most. Long time back, years before the internet we know of today. It was borrowed from my town library that closed and begin turning into a Ukrainian church during the current age of internet. I really should stop there on a Sunday just to experience if I feel nostalgic or get a chance to see a different culture.
@kevindouglas53333 жыл бұрын
Its funny they hated him and had to be bribed with booze,money and drugs to keep from killing him
@katjay31252 жыл бұрын
No peace in hell
@weldmonger1560 Жыл бұрын
So did u ever write anything worthy??
@vissitorsteve2 жыл бұрын
I went to one of his readings/signings when Shark Hunt had been released. It was at the College of Marin in CA. I was maybe 20 and an over the top fan, having read everything he'd ever published. His appearance was set up in a small auditorium, and he was scheduled to appear at 2pm. On a stage above us was his 'Samoan Attorney' who announced to the crowd that Hunter would only respond to written questions, so slips of paper and stubby pencils were passed out to each of us which we hurriedly and excitedly filled out just before someone came by to collect them all in a large glass jar...So, we waited, and we waited until about one hour later, a drunken, stumbling Dr Hunter S. Thompson, was helped up on the stage. His first action once seated at the table, was to knock the jar of our questions off the table with the swipe of his arm, then announce, "Any questions?" We abused admirers fell into laughter while he began to swig on a large bottle of Wild Turnkey 101...After a short, rambling and nearly incoherent speech, his Samoan attorney announced that "the DR' would now sign books. There were perhaps 200 of us, all racing toward the stage, each attempting to thrust a book toward him. This turned into a melee. After each of his rapidly circular signatures he would simply toss the book to the nearest person. He signed mine but someone tried to grab it and run. Fortunately I was able to stop the guy and take my book back...Still, the most memorable book signing I've ever attended.
@lisashrestha50232 жыл бұрын
What year was that? I also studied at College of Marin in Kentfield CA, when I lived in Corte Madera.
@MADMAX-oy8et2 жыл бұрын
@@lisashrestha5023 1978
@MrUrech2 жыл бұрын
Damn. (!)
@teaspoonsofpeanutbutter64252 жыл бұрын
@@julieann4616 wonderful? Did you watch the video? 🙄
@forreal2452 жыл бұрын
Just too funny. Your description of the event is excellent.
@lynnegackstetter27792 жыл бұрын
I am 68 and have gone through many things but have found that a Sense of Humor is key to getting older. I have days of discomfort but I take some Bayer Back and Body and get on with my day. I have good friends that are 25 years younger than me that both keep me young but are also their for me to help on the bad days. They make me laugh,they value my opinion and wise counsel and count on me to also help them. I stay physically active even when my body hurts. Mind over matter 😊 I pray that others growing older can do the same. We all need to be there for each other ❤️
@estellepatella25204 жыл бұрын
Old age isn't an option for people like Hunter Thompson.
@TheJpep24244 жыл бұрын
Neither is character
@gmy333 жыл бұрын
@Sam Myers you can call it character .. doesnt mean it is ..
@victoriaphilley10498 ай бұрын
Like he said "Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a Ride!"
@catherinehazur73368 ай бұрын
Maybe Hunter bought into the delusional stereotypes of "old age".....hope he has no cause to regret his impulsive lifestyle choices where he is now.....maybe he should have realized that when a loudmouthed and violently narcissistic rebellion devoid of wisdom collide with old age, it's no longer looked upon as edgy and cool, but appears as an ADVANCED STAGE OF DEMENTIA
@michellefletcher88912 жыл бұрын
An absolutely amazing friend of mine (a doctor) lived life as fully as possible.. She had a rare, nasty form of arthritis & slowly but surely stopped being able to do all the things she loved.. The pain became too much & she decided that when it became unbearable she'd go to a place in Switzerland called Dignitas & get assisted suicide... Her last year she spent time with her family & friends & did things she always wanted to do... Til finally she decided it was time to go... That was 5 years ago,, I love her & miss her intensely,, but she lived how she wanted & died how & when she wanted.. I believe strongly in assisted suicide.. I also believe that when it gets too hard we shld all be able to end our lives when & where we decide..
@wendycarstens99702 жыл бұрын
I wholly 💯 Completely agree 👍🙏 🙏🙏 Amen to that 🙂
@theKaufmanTapes2 жыл бұрын
This kind of thinking comes from the shame of taking pain medications. We have all types of pain, not just physical and people need various medications but they are often judged by society. I say medicate and live your best life. Just my 2 cents.
@Lunarstruck12 жыл бұрын
I think it just got too hard to be Hunter S. Thompson 24/7. That's not an easy job. I used to say "Pain is inevitable, misery is choice" but I no longer believe that now because now I know that chronic pain sure makes you miserable.
@terifarmer50662 жыл бұрын
Amen, its completely hell, to live with pain everyday!!!
@CatalinaFOIA2 жыл бұрын
Absolutely 💯 it is hell having chronic pain every second of every minute of every hour of every day, year after year. I've lived this for 22 years, multiple surgeries trying to fix my spine has only exasperated the symptoms and chaos that has left me riddled with unrelenting pain.
@sheilasmith77792 жыл бұрын
But real question is " how," miserable? We absolutely have control over the amount of misery, and length of time we are " miserable." So you were initially correct. Pain is inevitable, suffering is an option.
@lynncrf2 жыл бұрын
Yes. I have a condition that causes horrendous chronic pain when it flares up. I strongly believe that people with CP should be given every possible medical option. It's inhumane otherwise.
@allanwheeler61103 жыл бұрын
He wasn't an eraser worn down to the nubb! He was the No 2 pencil itself sharpened all the way down to the metal end. Still writing.
@catherinehazur73363 жыл бұрын
ALLAN WHEELER. Honestly, that was beautifully and poetically put💎
@smy84142 жыл бұрын
That is we’ll point but to think of it some people push the metal around the worn out eraser so in retrospect he’s the whole pencil that has been worn out to nothing but still continues to write
@AhJodie2 жыл бұрын
OMG, you should be a writer! That was the most brilliant way to explain him I have heard!!!!!
@ULOVEKYLE8 ай бұрын
@@catherinehazur7336 lol yeah very good imitation of his writing
@catherinehazur73368 ай бұрын
.....Metal end, all right. He injected that metal into his brain at high velocity leaving what was left of that corrupted matter splattered on the wall behind his desk for his children and grandchildren to find and clean up. What a legacy. Hunter making outlaw memories that will outlive his output in the long range scheme of things...... So impressive and worthy of emulation by fools
@donstanley99434 жыл бұрын
My grandfather committed suicide when noone was around, and at the time I was angry that he did it. But hearing stories like this I have a lot more respect for my grandfather He didn't do it with a house full of people to find him
@karendalsadik71192 жыл бұрын
Yes, it is tragic to lose someone.
@mindsigh42 жыл бұрын
@Don Stanley, yes, who can say what level the pain (mental, emotional, & physical) is at for somebody else? ive always appreciated & respected if people had the wherewithall to do it without making family have to find or clean up the mess. if they couldn't go away to do it i guess they were desperate, (or intentionally wanted to make a show?) but i feel sadness for my Aunt, who was like my big sister, she lived with us & looked after me as a kid, she must have felt so alone when she drove out to the Nevada desert to end her life, but i know that it wasn't a whim, she was done & i respect her right & i don't believe it should be judged by anyone, it's between them & their god.
@johnindo67712 жыл бұрын
I NEVER hated my mother for dying by suicide. I have ALWAYS loved , cherished and admired her!!! And she died in 1962, several months before Marilyn Monroe’s death!!!
@sophiasage13792 жыл бұрын
@@mindsigh4 Thank You.
@lauriefrohlich99012 жыл бұрын
I'm so glad you now get it and respect what he did. Fact is that he loved his family and if he had that awful talk your family wouldn't be able to understand or take it.🙏
@melissawilloughby96373 жыл бұрын
This is something that I would never had watched. I just accidentally hit a button and it started playing. But I really enjoyed learning about him. I can definitely relate with the drugs and drinking. It was good.
@melissawilloughby96373 жыл бұрын
@James MacAlister ketamine or fentanyl. 🤯
@staceyboomboom80313 жыл бұрын
My daughter's Dad was a chronic alcoholic. He was a lot like Hunter. I completely understand what his wife meant when she said she loved him, but she couldn't live with him. Mine also took his own life.
@TRIX-wn2sl2 жыл бұрын
Sorry for your loss
@lauriefrohlich99012 жыл бұрын
I completely get it. I'm a American cancer patient and I've chosen to live the rest of e like, my way. I have a wonderful kid that agreed my body my choice.
@StaciSchuck5 күн бұрын
I appreciate you. I have higher grade serious carcinoma. I break the rules whenever I can. I do me The Best of Life and love to you. I pray to God we live to see many happy moments xx@@lauriefrohlich9901
@bartjohnston3 жыл бұрын
Childhood Trauma will catch up to ya if you dont confront and grieve it, its a very painful process, full of horror and terror but pays off in the end
@rickyelvis32153 жыл бұрын
big bucks for the shrink to keep you on drugs for life !
@christinab.28643 жыл бұрын
But there’s one more thing to added after he wrote the book hells and angels he gotten beaten almost to death
@michelekisly25353 жыл бұрын
You are right...before you go under any circumstances----- self reflect and repent of self absorption
@scottstokes8223 жыл бұрын
Anybody gonna say something about him hunting humans.
@christinemomy80182 жыл бұрын
@@scottstokes822 for real?
@cherrypickerguitars3 жыл бұрын
I did acid over 400 times, multiple hits, during the early to mid 1970’s - I NEVER had a “bad trip”! Violence was NEVER a facet of my trips, EVER. To have a “bad trip”, the “bad” part must pre-exist within the individuals own mind. I found LSD to be incredibly inspiring. I continued to take the occasional dose, maybe once every 15 months or so, as an average, until just a few yrs ago, and I’m 64 as of this comments posting. Hunter was huge for me. I was reading his books and articles in Rolling Stone as they were published. He had a profound effect on me. Peace
@Gallowglass73 жыл бұрын
You're brave bro, I'm happy it worked out ofr you though. Sure you had many good times
@chuckunplugged3 жыл бұрын
Keep going the light and the darkness the yin and the yang when you get far enough down the rabbit hole you'll see the darkness
@williamwhitlow24913 жыл бұрын
Pfft, we called people like you wannabes,pretending to do things the rest of us did. Suuuuuuuurrrreeee u did.
@cherrypickerguitars3 жыл бұрын
@@williamwhitlow2491 Who’s “we”, William? I sense a lonely man, with a boring life. Peace
@comments.are.turned.off...3 жыл бұрын
ABSOLUTELY!! 54 and right there with you mate. FEAR is the mind killer... everything else are tools and toys.
@dannydemonic47993 жыл бұрын
The actor who played an older Hunter here did a great job!
@iambullet20114 жыл бұрын
I worked at the pontchartrain hotel in New Orleans when hunter Thompson stayed there in January/February of 2005. He was a shell of a grumpy senile old man in a wheelchair. This girl I worked with in the bar ended up working for him as a caretaker while he was there staying in a suite. She told me he would take pills and drink all day and piss his pants. He was pretty much checked out already. I met him and Sean penn there. I got a gray gonzo tshirt from Thompson personally.
@lupusductus94064 жыл бұрын
How disgusting this is. I do not mean this old man with his feeble and weakened body, no, I mean this girl who worked for him. It´s such an abuse of trust not to keep silence about his true condition but to use it for 5 minutes of fame. So dishonourable...
@grose22724 жыл бұрын
Wow josh treasure that Tee! Hunter didn't want to be old it didn't suit his ideals ,who he was as a character, its why he ended it the way he did, on his terms.
@TheJpep24244 жыл бұрын
There was nothing honorable about Thompson
@DIVISIONINCISION4 жыл бұрын
I hope you framed that t-shirt!
@Anita_Backrub3 жыл бұрын
@@TheJpep2424 Agreed.
@kathipetersen22772 жыл бұрын
My oldest brother had a gun, put it to his head, pulled the trigger. Some time later he woke up, he was not happy. He managed to miss anything vital and left himself with physical damage similar to a stroke. Ot doesn't always go as planned.
@kellietaylor99132 жыл бұрын
Yes my friend blew off his chin nose a lil and had to live w the pain of what he did 40 years later
@teaspoonsofpeanutbutter64252 жыл бұрын
@@kellietaylor9913 what's a chin nose?!
@squeesmyth90252 жыл бұрын
@@teaspoonsofpeanutbutter6425 HAHA JUST GONNA OFF MY CHIN HERE
@AhJodie2 жыл бұрын
Good point!
@squeesmyth90252 жыл бұрын
@@teaspoonsofpeanutbutter6425 is the craze and will be on every children's Christmas list
@DrCarlBooze3 жыл бұрын
I was in Baghdad in 2005 working as an Army medic attached to a Infantry company. Hearing about Hunters Thompson’s suicide was a kick in the balls for sure I had only discovered him a few years prior and loved anything I could get my hands on that he had written. I am sure he would be devastated with what the world has become in the short time since his death. Johnny Depp is amazing in his portrayal of Hunter we need more movies about his life.
@User77anon3 жыл бұрын
Hooah brother and RIP Hunter
@seanmcmillz85373 жыл бұрын
Depp spent 3million on a cannon and shot hunters ashes out of it after his creamation and paid for every thing i cant remember what else but thats what hunter wanted .
@roslynagaltsova63582 жыл бұрын
Thompson's? Can you elaborate please
@DrCarlBooze2 жыл бұрын
@@roslynagaltsova6358 watch the documentary
@TRIX-wn2sl2 жыл бұрын
Thanks for your service brother
@patriciabarkley7352 жыл бұрын
I am now 70 years old and I understand how hard it is to deal with pain and wanting to be your normal self. I just came through a sick spell and it was a very hard time for me. I was afraid I wasn’t going to fully get over it. I quit working when I was 62, because of arthritis in my feet and ankles. Now my knees are bone on bone. Injections help, but I don’t think it is going to last long. I wish I was able to be more of a grandmother to my two young granddaughters. I could never do away with myself. Never. I have family to think about. My father and two older sisters were bedridden. My oldest sister was bedridden for 8 years. My other sister can hardly walk due to arthritis and neuropathy. She is on pain management and it doesn’t control the pain. Hell, she is 78, so get her meds that really help. Both of us get infection in the fronts of our legs. Horrific pain. God bless all who are in pain. ❤️🌹❤️
@susanmorgan71252 жыл бұрын
I have the same and it’s not fun I know.
@janetcarlson312 жыл бұрын
Oh man, I am 63 and at age 48, I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid, and Osteoarthritis, along with degenerative bone disease. I had no idea what other ailments these diseases could cause. I have several pinched nerves due to no cartilage between my joints. The one in my neck is absolutely horrific!! I'm having vision problems now as well. Pain is, well, like its own separate entity!! It will break you!! It is such a part of my life, I have to take everything into consideration before I go anywhere or do anything. Going out to eat, hmmm, what are the chairs like, will they kill my back, or will I be able to stand them for a couple of hours. No more going to the movies, those seats are killer!! If any amount of walking is involved, forget it, my knees are almost bone on bone! Who would ever think 2 bones rubbing together could hurt so bad?? I guess its the nerves involved. I am a relatively new grandma and it is my reason for living. My sweet little granddaughter always has a pillow ready for my back when I visit. She is aware I have something wrong with me, but like so many others, since she can't see it, its hard for her to understand. I get pain meds, but they do about as much good as an M&M would. It hurts me to push her on the swing but I do it anyway. I can't play chase with her and its very difficult to play hide and seek, but I try. We mostly color, have tea party's or play with her dolls. And i am very thankful I can do that. Before she came along, I thought about suicide. But i planned on driving myself out in the woods so not to make a mess or have a loved one find me. I would call the police and tell them what I'm about to do and where to find me. My oldest son tells me to keep holding on, maybe a cure is coming soon. It would be wonderful if he is right.
@mcz4282 жыл бұрын
My grandma had horrible arthritis, her fingers deformed and many other parts of her body. The time I spent at her house growing up were the best memories I’ve ever had. Don’t worry about your grand daughters they will love you and appreciate everything.
@pilsplease75612 ай бұрын
Pain sucks, I have a lot of autoimmune conditions and arthritis in my spine in my 20's and it hurts so flipping bad and I have been told I will need surgery some day and It just ruins my quiality of life and I have another health issue that makes me so tired i can barely make it through a day. I just hate it more than anything else.
@1972jojodancer2 жыл бұрын
Appreciate his first wife so much. It must have been very hard to walk away from someone she loved and watch him be tormented. She spoke so graciously about him. This synopsis of his life up to his last moment was very well biographed.
@plutoplatters4 жыл бұрын
Why is a poor person crazy when they're crazy and a rich or famous person's eccentric ? Ponder.
@cityslickeroutdoors83064 жыл бұрын
plutoplatters because we worship money above all else
@janedoe-hq9vn4 жыл бұрын
No lie..$ makes one "appear" different than one without....crazy...
@cedricwilliams62294 жыл бұрын
Eccentric isn't exactly or synonymous interchangeable with crazy. For example, I've never heard anyone call Tom Cruise "eccentric". We call him crazy. I agree though, I have never heard a poor person called eccentric.
@R.POWELL4 жыл бұрын
Asked myself that exact question 10 years ago- still asking!!! CRAZY IS CRAZY TO ME- whatever it's called !!!!!
@thadnipper94114 жыл бұрын
So being an adrenochrome abuser and Satanist is eccentric?
@MichaelAnderson-jo8iq2 жыл бұрын
At 56 I can totally relate. Being in constant chronic pain and of course now dealing with mobility issues is extremely depressing. It’s so hard to be happy go lucky when you physically hurt almost constantly so you try and numb the pain somehow. Of course underneath it’s still there for me anyhow. Just 4 years ago I was working 60 hours a week for a very long time and loving life. Yes I can totally relate to this mindset.
@FIONA21ful2 жыл бұрын
Me too at 54.
@divadeb19072 жыл бұрын
Don't give up I'm 60 I know the pain your taking about. Try health healing meditation helps use Shea Butter for aches and pain. Drink turmeric tea it helps with pain. Eat raw garlic. Detox your body. Think happy thoughts ask God to heal you and to take away the pain. You are so important to many people. God 🙏 bless you be safe smile
@lizcosgrove81992 жыл бұрын
I've been in chronic debilitating pain since I was in my early 30s and it's only since I got cancer and got strong opiod painkillers that I'm beginning to live my life again fully at 56. Ironic isn't it.
@MichaelAnderson-jo8iq2 жыл бұрын
@@lizcosgrove8199, I wish you well and hope you can overcome your diagnosis.
@MichaelAnderson-jo8iq2 жыл бұрын
@@divadeb1907, thank you for the kind words.
@tomjeffery67082 жыл бұрын
My uncle shot himself and thats the only thing I know about him. Never knew him. What he did was leave behind only a legacy of pain and tears to his daughter.. She had it so hard growing up without a father.
@Spocklee7 ай бұрын
suicide is a selfish act
@gekolizzard2 жыл бұрын
Don’t know how this turned up in my suggested list but I’m glad it did. I’m looking forward to reading some of his work.
@sarahholland26003 жыл бұрын
I never get why people with addictions are admired for being 'wild'. Its a sign someone is incredibly troubled & in extreme emotional plain. Addiction is an attempt at temporarily escaping that pain.
@dmonikmusik3 жыл бұрын
They either canonize us or else demonize us instead. We can't just be people wit flaws.
@josec15383 жыл бұрын
Well he’s a hero for his work not for being an addict. Also during those times even now a man is suppose to be strong and not show weakness. Most people judge others with mental health issues instead of understanding them. That’s why most people with mental health issues and addictions stay silent because are ashamed and struggle with communicating their issues. Women have an easier time expressing themselves but most men have a really hard time and struggle in silence. I think In recent years that has began to change though as we learn more about mental health and sit down to understand instead of judging and jumping to conclusions.
@jackjackthompson57713 жыл бұрын
@@josec1538 idk, the hunter thompson drug binges are pretty legendary…disagree
@tonyjuliocappo54593 жыл бұрын
Because drug addicts tortured Souls whatever you want to call it are interesting people... more interesting than Joe Schmo who lives a miserable life working in a cubicle in a shity marriage to the day he dies
@sarahholland26002 жыл бұрын
@@josec1538 Agree. I have had grief related depression for years & in the UK there is still some stigma around that. As a result I put an incredible front on & most people I meet would be shocked that life is a struggle without anti depressants. .
@aquaescapeartist49153 жыл бұрын
When his publicist said: ‘Hunter was a robust guy. But 40-50 years of never being sober, I think it gets to you’.
@rickyelvis32153 жыл бұрын
that gives me 45 happy years ... cheers !
@stoner71443 жыл бұрын
Yeah! It does. Sadly got him.
@giastake34923 жыл бұрын
AquaEscapeArtist You absolutely hit the nail squarely on its head! 👍
@dannere3 жыл бұрын
@@rickyelvis3215 🤣🤣🤘🤙
@gmy333 жыл бұрын
Robust means nothing .. sometimes ..
@pamronning2 жыл бұрын
I agree with the arrested development I’ve seen it in people that started drinking at age 12 he and his friend. They have never pierced the veil of adulthood
@AhJodie2 жыл бұрын
I love your comment! Such a great picture, the veil! Lovely!
@canadiangemstones76362 жыл бұрын
Rubbish. Losing your father at 14 pierces everything you’ve got.
@glenncurley6803 жыл бұрын
I never read a lot but I did read a few of his books! Freaked me out at times being a teenager! But also opened my mind to different approaches with journalism!
@chantzarcher48073 жыл бұрын
The soundtrack to this is fucjing amazing. Loves the blues jam in the background
@deanafromchicago66614 жыл бұрын
The music is sooo loud it’s difficult to view the entire documentary
@democracysdoomsday79053 жыл бұрын
AZTEC GOLD 😲 MADALION OMFG!😵
@arjanpetersen3 жыл бұрын
Lol
@desivega946414 күн бұрын
stfu u still listening tho
@FookU2b3 жыл бұрын
Suicide is often considered an act of selfishness, cowardice, or submission to defeat, and maybe sometimes it is. But anybody who's ever been there, psychologically, knows it takes a lot of courage. Possibly the most courageous thing a human can do. The unknown is limitless, filled with fear and wonder and possibilities we will never comprehend, trapped in this realm. When the known is no longer a concept worth surviving, the unknown shall be the only comfort worth exercising.
@davidrodgers47603 жыл бұрын
It's hard to do..
@owlytimbre91032 жыл бұрын
Depends on your presence of mind. Physical pain and depression etc combined with a firearm made it quite easy for some friends of mine. The method is a huge factor. Not everyone is a coward not everyone is a warrior either. Why we need to look at things this nuanced so simply might tell us more about cowardice.
@BrianSmith-kk2wi2 жыл бұрын
@@BeRightBack131 It took alot of courage and love for your little girl to not go thru with it..
@BeRightBack1312 жыл бұрын
@@BrianSmith-kk2wi thanks. I'm doing much better now, and so is my daughter. It was an extremely tough time in our lives back then, but we're on the brighter side of life these days. I look back and think what a stupid thing I almost did. I'm so glad I thought of her and decided not to follow through. Especially because I was all she had. And that would have been a terrible thing to do to her.
@bigimskiweisenheimer83252 жыл бұрын
Thanks for that. A couple things needed to here. I'll be around for awhile
@WAWALa8802 жыл бұрын
I'm 42 for the last 18 years I have suffered with herniated discs in my Lower back arthritis all over my body and depression. I know that I don't want to live much longer because each day is just one more day of excruciating pain with no relief in sight. I have tried all the meds they work for a little while but then I build up a tolerance to it and it no longer works. I don't worry about anything other than my Sweet girl SIMONE my pitbull. I'll stay around to take care of my mother she's 80 now and she has health problems of her own but I refuse to live without her. I won't be missed, I'll be free from my pain and able to rest I only pray that God will forgive me and let me into heaven.
@tysonfranks640811 ай бұрын
Canada has medically assisted suicide
@catherinehazur73368 ай бұрын
Are you still here? What are you supposed to learn from what you are going through and what have you learned so far?
@mxreese69r67 ай бұрын
Where are you?
@TruthIsTheNewHate844 жыл бұрын
We can't stop here, this is bat country.
@Billcarsonstobaccobox3 жыл бұрын
Wash your shorts now, Mister.
@pimplepickerton3 жыл бұрын
Poolside, drinking Singapore-slings.
@DetroitFettyghost3 жыл бұрын
@@pimplepickerton the floors covered in snakes MAN!
@chiptoothrecordlabelgroup3 жыл бұрын
The most famous line. I was first introgued by the saying becsuse its nuts. Looking back I feel like there is something to it. Like their could be big flying organisms in some places like the desert maybe. Idk. And another thing; I find it interesting that "Hunter" used a 45...
@SariSmithArt3 жыл бұрын
As Eckert Toll said "Addiction starts with pain, and ends with pain. Self medication is a horrible road to go down. I don't believe he was actually a bad person, it was the drugs and the alcohol that turned him into someone else. Self medication with substances and alcohol is horrible.
@kennethross6243 жыл бұрын
I think he was a sensitive boy who still needed his father to learn how be a man. But his father was gone. So like alot of young males with no father, he learned had learned it from the world. How many know that comes with a price!
@shelby83642 жыл бұрын
yep, absolutely. currently going through the worst withdrawals and would rather be dead tbh. Such a vicious, ridiculous cycle
@TRIX-wn2sl2 жыл бұрын
@@shelby8364 Use cannabis and kratom it helps also get over the counter Imodium AD (loperamide) It will help with withdrawals
@jefolson69892 жыл бұрын
If a person is in pain, and there is a quick fix, like booze or drugs, of course they self medicate, or they find a Doctor to do the medicating. Quiting his addiction would not have save him. The end might have come sooner.
@amytrumbull1562 жыл бұрын
The name is Eckhart Tolle by the way.
@richardmundt78542 жыл бұрын
Lately I've been watching several of these "final 24" videos, and there seems to be a common thread with all of them, substance abuse.
@robertqueen34944 жыл бұрын
My heart goes out in how his disability affects him in how difficult to not hardly walk and be in constant pain. Being isolated cause of it. People have a loneliness in this condition. No one takes this serious.
@warriorwk4 жыл бұрын
Robert Queen you are right on the money, I live with chronic pain and limited on walking, I can only go so far and the nerve damage not only causes pain but limits my legs from working. I am on heavy narcotics that allow me some relief and life but also restrict some life. Part of the loneliness is caused by the fact that you can not do a lot of the things that your friends and loved ones can do so you are left out of the picture, some of my choice as to not be selfish and ruin their fun and some of it obviously just not asked, which is fine and completely understandable but nonetheless lonely, and at some point some people decide that the quality of life just isn't there anymore or enough and choose to end it. That is not where I am at but it does leave me with more understanding than most.
@lorabetht92064 жыл бұрын
@@warriorwk I deal with chronic pain as well- I had 12 surgeries in 2 1/2 yrs and also deal with severe RA. I was a pain pill addict after all my surgeries. I never wanted to get “high” but couldn’t function without them. Thankfully now the only thing I take is Kratom and ibuprofen. But I do frequently have to listen to my body and rest when I’m having a flare up. It does get lonely sometimes- ❤️
@joannbowden62204 жыл бұрын
@@lorabetht9206 I'm intrested in Kratom for pain relief as narcotics are no longer working for my pain. I've suffered from severe, unresolved chronic pain due to OA, DDD, DJD, & nerve root compression of several spinal nerves all in my spine. Also bilateral DJD of my hips. Need I go on? Lol Also I'm allergic to morphine. Yay for me, huh. Any info u can give me would be greatly appreciated. Thx.
@joannbowden62204 жыл бұрын
@@warriorwk u just described my life! I hate that I can never plan to be therefor family events bc pain rules every day of my life. It's a sad way to exist.
@warriorwk4 жыл бұрын
@@joannbowden6220 yes ma'am it is. Also I at times get tired of explaining the issues with people so they end up judging you
@rebeccarayburncooper70623 жыл бұрын
As a boomer 71 next month, I regret that my generation glorified drugs and alcohol, as well as self destruction. I tried all the drugs, developed an alcohol addiction and after many tries, I am sober now for over 31 yrs. It does take caring about oneself to get free but for me it's been totally worth it. I don't think Hunter really cared about himself, as many don't.
@johnhenry30303 жыл бұрын
I just wanna say koodos on your sobriety it's not easy I know
@rickyelvis32153 жыл бұрын
coopers is my beer ... cheers !
@johnrogers94813 жыл бұрын
Rebecca Rayburn Cooper. For you to stop alcohol it was "totally worth it" to care about yourself. I don't understand. This sounds like caring about yourself is the "price" you paid for stopping.
@jamesanderson14153 жыл бұрын
Im really Glad for you , because its not easy to do , you are Loved !!! Thank you !
@suzintex20022 жыл бұрын
Rebecca, I have twenty years and am really enjoying not being the center of the universe and chasing my next drink or high. Shame he couldn't get there.
@zachsimmerock34203 жыл бұрын
I named my son Stockton....Hunters middle name, He was a fantastic writer. Anthony Bourdain, reminded me more of him that any other contemporary writers, And would say Bill Murray done a fantastic job, Johnnies was good, But Where The Buffalo Roam
@Swnsasy2 жыл бұрын
As a mother, as just a caring human being, I could NEVER EVER do this to my children, to a friend.. To have that memory of finding me MOMENTS after, it's so selfish in so many ways...
@dianereed482 жыл бұрын
I'm a mother of 3 and grandmother of 8. I think about suicide almost daily. Not wanting to damage them is what stops me. Naomi Judd suicide has been a trigger as I'm 73. I understand her and Robin Williams suicide 100%
@paintingwithrosev7412 жыл бұрын
Absolutely
@johnmuschaweck93953 жыл бұрын
I'll never forget the way he speaks. So intelligent.
@Nearly-famous-painter19606 ай бұрын
Aging is a tough thing. Pain from past trauma adds to it. I was a locomotive engineer, and when I was 43, I was in a serious derailment that injured my spine at the neck and lower back. Pain meds are all that keep me going. Much of my time is spent doing very little, I’m a pretty good artist, at least I’m told that, but depression is always prevalent. Having family and my pets helps a lot too, but sometimes it’s hard not to just end it all.
@michaeloesterle6652 Жыл бұрын
I didn’t know that about his father. As someone with a degenerative neurological condition I fight like hell for my own sons, to stay relevant and alive the best I can for as long as I can. I’m not so sure he ever got over watching someone he looked up to waste away. Tragic.
@AhJodie2 жыл бұрын
Added note to his funeral was a funeral that included blasting his ashes out of a cannon and a HUGE party that was largely paid for by Johnny Depp. For someone who loved firearms and explosions, the ending was in perfect character. His family talked about how everyone knew, even though they did not know the exact day. I hear a lot of people talk negatively, but, we all live our lives, and no one is perfect. The only thing that I would say, is for those who have to clean up the mess after a gunshot suicide, it is a nightmare and too much for anyone to deal with, I wish people knew that. I also believe that physician assisted suicide should be every-ones right and easy to get. It is legal in some states in USA and some other countries because people understand that people do not want to suffer, and everyone knows we treat our pets better. I hope everyone can find the help they need to be comfortable and joyous. I believe mind is strong and capable of a lot, but, I know that pain can make it very difficult to remain calm. I think it would be good if everyone learned some techniques both spiritual and physical that can help when things get feeling overwhelming. Love to you!
@nicholenoel3492 жыл бұрын
Johnny Depp was a good friend to a man hardly anyone could understand. JD was that true genuine sidekick Hunter adored.
@Mybeforenafters2 жыл бұрын
@@nicholenoel349 That guy did so much to ruin Johnny Depp’s life imagine if he hadn’t been glorifying drugs
@lauriefrohlich99012 жыл бұрын
That's why they have crime/ suicide clean up crews any respectable police would leave the family with the card's.
@AhJodie2 жыл бұрын
@@lauriefrohlich9901 I have talked to a few people that cleaned their families pieces up themselves. One in particular told me about how she didnt like her dad then he shot himself and they cleaned pieces off the brick in a room off the house and how mad it made her to have to do that.
@AhJodie2 жыл бұрын
@@Mybeforenafters hey...drugs were glorified and a lot of fun and even a path to enlightenment...it is alcohol that is so bad...ruins lives and families.
@BillMeyerComm3 жыл бұрын
Those who judge have no concept of the context with which we lived during those times, much like the shit we are going through now. Who are you to judge a society who was dealing with much the same social issues we have today. He was real for the times and spoke the hard truths without the aid of the radically controlled internet. He inspired a generation of writers to be honest and to be a part of the story, instead of lying for a narrative dictated by a rich publisher... He is the last of a true breed of generational writers that defined the times. No one today can come close to matching those qualities because they don't write for themselves, they write for fame & money...
@MJ-qb5ph2 жыл бұрын
Thank you
@paintingwithrosev7412 жыл бұрын
There's always shit to go through. And we're all in this together. Humans think too much of them selves. This is why we're the problem makers on the planet.
@Minivanmusician4 жыл бұрын
He didn't have to do it with a 6 year old there. Interesting none of them cared about that.
@stormy84274 жыл бұрын
Agreed. Let children have their childhood. Why not do his suicide when he was alone? Did he need an audience?
@Minivanmusician4 жыл бұрын
@@stormy8427 exactly!
@mr_werty24 жыл бұрын
There's a rumour the CIA killed him and a lot of the evidence suggests they did
@mbnsw4 жыл бұрын
Shows what a narcissist the prick was
@valsptsd8144 жыл бұрын
I’m pretty sure the child, and the effect on him, isn’t our business. And if it was my kid, you’d never know what happened to him that day.
@Andr3aHop33 жыл бұрын
He didn't want pass the way his father did. Watching his father grow fragile by the day till he passed.. Awe guy!💙
@susanmorgan71252 жыл бұрын
I’ve thought about it a lot sometimes the pain is just too much financial struggle too much I’m still working at 70 I know that when I can’t take care of myself my kids are going to stick me in some home I don’t want to be a burden to them so what are you do when you just can’t take care of yourself anymore I’m not there quite yet but it’s coming. 😪
@SupremeOracle2 жыл бұрын
@@susanmorgan7125 damn 70 and still working, I hope your children understand and find it in their heart to take care of you and make your last 30 years heaven on earth.
@susanmorgan71252 жыл бұрын
@@SupremeOracle thank you for your kind words
@crazyeyedme46853 жыл бұрын
Greg House from TV series House M.D. - "Our bodies break down, sometimes when we're 90, sometimes before we're even born, but it always happens and there's never any dignity in it! ... You can live with dignity; we can't die with it!"
@michelekisly25353 жыл бұрын
And we deny it until we're there
@WilhelminaH4 жыл бұрын
Wow, this was not what I was expecting. Someone correct me if I'm wrong but I remember the media coverage of this & I thought his family knew & was supportive of his decision to take his life. I don't remember it being told that he suddenly & without warning took his life with his family being there but they had no idea about it. I feel terrible for his grandchild. How traumatic!
@DasJackalope3 жыл бұрын
That version of the story isn't worth nearly as much.
@chiptoothrecordlabelgroup3 жыл бұрын
X = 45
@FookU2b3 жыл бұрын
If you believe Hunter married a woman that did not take drugs, especially psychedelics, you are very naive. This is a propaganda piece, not the real truth. Hunter was into Satanism/Crowleyism, but you wil never hear this from any mainstream media, such as this "documentary". I wouldnt be surprised if this entire series is sponsored and funded by CIA or FBI in some form. They never tell the real truth about the "stars" they present.
@chiptoothrecordlabelgroup3 жыл бұрын
@@FookU2b I get a funny feeling because he died from a 45. I always wanted to join the special forces so I could carry 1 insteand of a 9.
@andysmith19963 жыл бұрын
@@FookU2b Even if he was into satanism, so what? Who cares? And why exactly would the CIA or the FBI want to sponsor a series about celebrities' final days? Sounds to me like you're the one who has done too many drugs.
@danasarokon8873 жыл бұрын
I read this wonderful man's books while incarcerated in Westmoreland County Prison ☹🙄😒 But I loved his books they got me through my stay❤💯
@kimberlyjohnson31363 жыл бұрын
Good
@gmy333 жыл бұрын
He wS qonderfull and stupid at tbe same time
@ThunderDomeBoxingTalk3 жыл бұрын
New Ken in the house, that was my home jail growing up.
@codytylek78363 жыл бұрын
Damn Dana. What you do?
@kimberlyjohnson31363 жыл бұрын
What did you do or didn't do ?
@paintingwithrosev7412 жыл бұрын
I'd like someone to explain how a man who plans to kill himself can be so selfish as to bring along a son and a grandson to a place where he plans to blow his head off. He was who he was I guess. Seems to me, he had great trouble saying no to himself. Self centered people typically live his lifestyle.
@zenith8082 жыл бұрын
I agree completely!
@feanorian21maglor382 жыл бұрын
Yes, that was my first thought, that he sounds like a total narcissist for doing that. Not unusual in talented artistic people, i suppose, but he must have been a very difficult person to be around.
@sadhu71912 жыл бұрын
The world setup so u can leave when ever u want. Would je a nightmare of not
@paintingwithrosev7412 жыл бұрын
@@sadhu7191 Yes. However, the last resort is not suicide. You didn't make your body, it's a gift. You got this body as a gift to have an adventure with and you are too great to be so weak. When you reach a point where you feel suicide is the only outlet, extend your arm out to the great I Am and ask permission out loud to let you go. This is because one life is greater then the entire planet. That's how big we are. If you could process our greatness, the act of suicide would seem ridiculous and laughable. Please consider, you are never alone because every life is precious. This planet has become a bit of a mess because of the lost ones. Don't become on of them. Reach out.
@sanelliott76952 жыл бұрын
Like Naomi Judd we cant judge the pain of another..not a choice Id make either
@warriorwk4 жыл бұрын
Doing it while on the phone with his wife was the most cruelest and selfish thing that he could have done and the second most was with the grandson, son and other people in the house. He should've written a letter telling a loved one where to send a sheriff's deputy to recover his body.
@reazallykhan4 жыл бұрын
Agree...totally
@susanparker98734 жыл бұрын
But you must realize he was a narcissist they really don't care who they hurt its all about them. Yes I know he had a painful past but who hasn't? If he did kill children for snuff films no amount of pain in the past you have no excuse for killing anyone period, God have mercy on his soul!
@nickhowatson47454 жыл бұрын
@@susanparker9873 he was assassinated. theres way to many inconsistencies around his death.
@gardensofthegods4 жыл бұрын
@@nickhowatson4745 I did hear that years ago and forgot ... I guess I'll have to look into that unless you want to explain a few things to us ...?
@estellepatella25204 жыл бұрын
Pathological narcissist. He's got to have an audience.
@Darjeelingla3 жыл бұрын
I remember reading “Fear and Loathing” while seated on a flight, when I burst out laughing!! All the people around me were alarmed, staring at my explosion. Yes, I was embarrassed, a little, but thrilled at this funny spasm nonetheless. The incident still makes me smile 😋
@kevinfoster21633 жыл бұрын
It’s a rag
@diannelaurier22483 жыл бұрын
So funny, I read Fear and Loathing on an overnight Grayhound bus trip. I was busting up all night, I couldnt help it, from the back of the bus. People kept looking at me crazy!
@jackdyer57403 жыл бұрын
@@diannelaurier2248 I read it in the car and got motion sickness
@ceciliaulrich28372 жыл бұрын
It’s not a monkey that’s my son (something like that) I lost it, one of two books that actually made me 😂
@arveyilleszender58092 жыл бұрын
I was in a hospital waiting room and I couldn't hold the laughter in either. I had to close the book when they turned up at the police drugs convention.
@DawnDiggetyNoDoubt2 жыл бұрын
johnny Depp really did an amazing job with fear and loathing. to this day one of my favorite books and books made into movie
@cynthiafrasheski66032 жыл бұрын
Johnny knew his friend
@hannahmitchell872 жыл бұрын
@@cynthiafrasheski6603 Johnny *was* his friend
@kyleknoernschild6348 Жыл бұрын
Fun fact Johnny Depp starred in fear and loathing in Los Angeles a film released in 1998
@alienzordfalcon5162 Жыл бұрын
Johnny was his friend in real life. You didn’t know that. But he was his friend and didn’t just play him, but he knew him in real life.
@alienzordfalcon5162 Жыл бұрын
Johnny knew his friend Hunter well. You thought he just played him in the 1998 film. But they were friends in real life. You didn’t know that, but now you know.
@jbower12143 жыл бұрын
“There’s a theory about drug abuse & alcohol abuse that, in a sense when you start using, you stop growing...internally & you don’t mature, you don’t develop as an adult, you’re stuck...” I’ve not heard that theory before, but from experience both in using & in being around people who have, I tend to agree with that theory.
@jackraintree43513 жыл бұрын
Your a silly poopie head😀 oh wait I just proved your point lol
@Ihatewater90003 жыл бұрын
Makes sense when I think about quite a few of people I know.
@bluedolphin57923 жыл бұрын
Arrested Development
@melissam95553 жыл бұрын
I agree wholeheartedly!!
@HECKSTER693 жыл бұрын
This is so true !!!
@janiebankston20033 жыл бұрын
Narcissistic relationships end in tragedy, no matter who you are ,
@johnd.28033 жыл бұрын
Good point
@Spocklee7 ай бұрын
That's what i was thinking the whole time, that he was a narcissist.
@realBarronTrump2 ай бұрын
@@Spocklee EVERYONES A NARCISSIST! WAHHHHHH
@markbabbitt70923 жыл бұрын
Funny how people don't get it about Fear and Loathing. Thompson wasn't dreaming up a vivid story, he was recounting an actual event that he experienced. Do some acid, top it off with various other drugs and write it down......, you'll end up with a great story too!
@MichaelWaisJr6 ай бұрын
A lot of people are shitty writers. Sorry, psychedelics/LSD don’t actually “make” someone who’s not a compelling writer a great one. On the other hand, one of the members of Velvet Underground did a one-man tour before he was clean from opiates and the whole show was dogshit! He was just babbling a lot like an incoherent homeless junkie. Some drugs can help untap some of what lies dormant, but not every recreational drug is like the “limitless” pill.
@ticopunkerz4 жыл бұрын
Best documentary I've seen in a long time. Thank you for doing this!!!
@LateshaRenee4 жыл бұрын
You guys posted like 5 vids that I'm about to binge watch! lol thank you
@AGirlHasNoName1.6184 жыл бұрын
This is my last one! Love these :)
@kimbam12824 жыл бұрын
lolol..me too
@mickswagger60864 жыл бұрын
Kiss me black girl
@area51r4 жыл бұрын
I thought the same thing and from what i can tell this channel is a lie. they leave out a bunch of important info in all of there videos.
@Miss_NatashaO3 жыл бұрын
I like these too! A little morbid, but who cares?!
@kevinhenderson55202 жыл бұрын
No one is to Judge... Some of us know how to bow out gracefully (I guess this was his definition of it). I think he felt he had accomplished everything he set out to do and he was done . My old Man has full blown Dementia and is bed ridden right now... Had we asked him 10years ago if he wanted to live like this, He would have said "Hell No".. Death is not the end IMHO...♥️♥️♥️
@tinawindham69582 жыл бұрын
Have a living will…I sure wouldn’t want to live in a bed with no idea who the hell I am…no thanks. Give me a dose of fentanyl and a chaser , I’m good. Long Island ice tea might bring back some good ol memories. Play my favorite songs and if my dog is still alive …I’d like him to be next to me. 👍🏻✌️
@johnindo67712 жыл бұрын
You are so right!
@johnindo67712 жыл бұрын
@@tinawindham6958 Clara Blandick was a Hollywood star who committed suicide by taking an overdose of sleeping pills in 1962. She was 81 years of age and played Aunti ‘Em in the 1939 movie,”The Wizard of Oz”. She died by suicide and was constantly full of pain from osteoarthritis and was going blind. She took an overdose of sleeping pills. I do not blame her , and admire her resolve and courage! As a nurse for 45 years, I abhor needless suffering.!!!!
@veronicafox3992 жыл бұрын
@@tinawindham6958 that sounds like a lovely way to go💜
@taylortrevino8814 жыл бұрын
Always very amazed at how spot on they are with these actors/actresses looking literally just like the people they are portraying. Very impressive indeed.
@Sandwich134553 жыл бұрын
The ji m Morrison actor wasn't like him,they should have foned Harry Hamlin.
@tjthrillajaw3 жыл бұрын
I'm non American so I never knew of Thompson until Rogan mentioned him on his podcast. Never realised that's who Depp is playing. Thank you.
@ehlerhog3 жыл бұрын
Yeah that but the opposite. They ALWAYS suck!!
@jr2904 Жыл бұрын
@@ehlerhog val kilmer and Jim Morrison, Johnny Depp and Hunter S, Joaquin Phoenix and Johnny Cash...
@chuckbankston45283 жыл бұрын
Ex wife “He trusted Juan more than any Juan”
@feleciaclemons50743 жыл бұрын
🤣🤣🤣🤣
@franciscacervantez16083 жыл бұрын
😂😂😂😂😂😂
@yamahakid450f3 жыл бұрын
There was,no Juan quit like him, he was Juan of a kind
@codytylek78363 жыл бұрын
Nobody ever mentions his brother two
@Bergnutz3 жыл бұрын
🤣🤣🤣🤣
@plk55203 жыл бұрын
Hunter Thomson's writing will never be irrelevant to me.
@DaisyMae4393 жыл бұрын
Nothing like idolizing a piece of s***!
@xxyes88794 жыл бұрын
He was a professional drinker? In other words, an alcoholic
@queenluv83714 жыл бұрын
You feel me 😩
@jakebeck92634 жыл бұрын
Yeah furniture m w
@donnad66774 жыл бұрын
Exactly. Only One of the differences between the rich/famous...and the middle class/poor.
@tjthrillajaw3 жыл бұрын
The smartest people in the world always run a high risk of falling for drugs and alcohol to numb the pain of living in a world dictated by selfish retards. Who of course don't know they're selfish retards but rather just walk around feeling fearful all the time, and acting upon that fear, the no 1 hallmark of the selfish retard.
@Magumba_State3 жыл бұрын
It's just a way to put rich people who do drugs on a pedastil because they can afford to keep their addictions going where poor people cannot..
@jennydoyle48284 жыл бұрын
Amazing how society elevates people because of celebrity.............even when they treat their own families like this! Not to be admired.
@WindDancer4353 жыл бұрын
This is what Sean Penn has called the desire to be around celebrities as the reason for Trumps rise.
@JosannaMonik3 жыл бұрын
I agree he was a selfish assole who put his family through the trauma of finding his dead body cause his life wasn't a party anymore.
@tylerm54313 жыл бұрын
@Kristinkreuks STOLENFART im edgey
@imtired29833 жыл бұрын
He was an addict alcoholic who sat with his guns around him like a lunatic and mistreated his family. Basically he was a real tool.
@imtired29833 жыл бұрын
@@JosannaMonik nailed it
@MirandaWasHier4 жыл бұрын
You really got balls, writing a book about the hells angels, they want money and he refuses. Almost lost his life by beatings wow!
@TheRealFaceyNeck4 жыл бұрын
The account around 17:00 minute-mark is misleading. You can see a TV interview with Thompson and a member of Hell's Angels where they discuss the beating. It was over a member of the gang beating both his wife and dog, and Thompson said, "Only a punk beats his wife and dog." at which point he got stomped. It wasn't in regards to royalties from the book. However, because of the beating, Hunter didn't buy them a number of kegs of beer that he said he would in exchange for writing the book. So the non-payment came AFTER the beating, not the reason for it.
@shelby83642 жыл бұрын
THANK YOU!!
@amynoland9162 Жыл бұрын
I feel like he just didn’t evolve. Once he got to a certain age, he should’ve realized he didn’t have to be the crazy lunatic that everyone expected. He still could’ve been a great writer. He got stuck in a persona (and addiction) and didn’t know how to shake it. 67 is not that old, I’m 62!
@Cynthiabecker242 жыл бұрын
Gosh that's exactly how living does feel. Wanting any longer does feel greedy.... I've felt like that at age 40. At 67 and in constant pain, would lengthen anyones days. RIP.🙏🌏💙
@sunray81362 жыл бұрын
I recently watched a documentary about Jim Morrison bc I never knew anything about him. Jim Morrison seems like the same genius type of tortured soul as Hunter. They both seemed stuck at wild reckless age 16 never healing from whatever made them both traumatized souls
@beautifulstrangeable4 жыл бұрын
background loud soundtrack totally unecessary
@tadamonkey1114 жыл бұрын
It’s to create atmosphere :P
@kirstylee71074 жыл бұрын
Karen
@beautifulstrangeable4 жыл бұрын
Chata
@donnar98644 жыл бұрын
Yes..I'm having a hard time listening...
@johnrogers94813 жыл бұрын
Donna R. You may be doing fine listening. You are having difficulty hearing. Hearing the narration.
@barkingshark64132 жыл бұрын
Hope I make it to 67. I’ve broke my back five times, both wrists three times each, my right shoulder three times, my right collarbone once. My ribs twice and fingers twice. I’m sure Hunter was in great pain. He was an incredibly great and artistic writer.
@riandraegon5563 жыл бұрын
Would love to have had his insight and voice over the past few years and today.
@philwright24803 жыл бұрын
I met him at The Scottish Rite Temple in Los Angeles, Dr. Albert Hoffman was giving a talk on LSD my friend and I sat on the floor in front of the podium, we had a tape recorder, he sat next to us, he had a recorder also, we talked for about 20min before Dr Hoffman came out, I wish we would have recorded the conversation
@howiseeit51292 жыл бұрын
Without the writing talent he was just a jerk.. celebrate his writing but for the rest he was no different then many men out there who cannot write and make those around them miserable and destroyed.he was a self centred addict that thought the World revolved around him.his suicide was done to inflict maximum trauma on his family.
@paintingwithrosev7412 жыл бұрын
I love you view.
@suzintex20022 жыл бұрын
Exactly.
@janlundberg59242 жыл бұрын
Can you imagine living with this guy? For 15 years?
@lisapinkston92884 жыл бұрын
My husband & I fixed some things in this guys house a few years ago...I noticed he had pictures of Hunter in his office..my husband dodnt pay attention , but I did! I said why all the pictures of Hunter Thompson he said he was one of his best friends! I was mesmerized with his stories. We were down on the river in Ky. it was very cool hearing the stories it made me sad that he was gone!! RIP Hunter!!!
@billscannell932 жыл бұрын
To be honest, I don't judge him at all. He took his destiny into his own hands. A wild artist guy like that was not meant to die in a nursing home or go slowly from alcoholism. At least today he is remembered for who he was at his prime. Imagine how he would be remembered had he just slowly declined for many more years.
@ULOVEKYLE8 ай бұрын
a total loser for sure! /s
@katherinehunter95262 жыл бұрын
Until I saw this I wouldn't believe he committed suicide. Back when he did it I was still strong and healthy. But now as my own body breaks down and barely surviving the pain every day, from my own wild and crazy life I can relate. The fun is over, no more drugs, drinking, dancing, running, riding my horses or even a bicycle, no more wild sex, because the chronic pain is all I really think about or feel anymore. I definitely don't want to become a burden to my children and grandchildren. Plus now the thought of being in control of the end, being able to plan for it and know when you're going, would be appealing. Thankyou for sharing this video, it really has given me some peace of mind, knowing why he did it. That he too suffered from chronic hip, back and leg pain, that he knew the fun was all over now! I hope you aren't Resting Hunter but now you're free from that old broken down model, that your up and at it writing, drinking doing drugs and kicking ass again! Live on FOREVER GONZO! 📒🚘🍄🍻🥂🥃🍹🍸💊💉🚬
@TRIX-wn2sl2 жыл бұрын
AMEN 🙏
@tamzenkarma2 жыл бұрын
That's what you get when you live a Godless ego driven sick life...... The body can only take so much abuse
@lauriewinstead2 жыл бұрын
You realize, of course, that he's burning in hell now. I bet he wishes that he was back here.
@katherinehunter95262 жыл бұрын
@@lauriewinstead Wow what a cold hearted person you are Laurie! You don't know that for sure! NO ONE does, no religion, except Tibetan Buddhism, yes they do have comprehensively detailed of the death Bardo. Read "The Tibetan Book of the Dead". Which doesn't talk about burning because of committing suicide or anything! Regardless, it is very cruel and disrespectful behavior of you to be making that nasty hateful comment! Shameful! You clearly haven't known anyone close to you who has committed suicide? Or you would not be making a cold hearted comment like that. Hopefully you never have to experience that kind of devastating loss or be so lost enough, that you consider taking your own life. ✌💞🙏
@toastiestmoth9272 жыл бұрын
@@tamzenkarma I'd honestly rather live my life like him over worshiping a fake god my entire life
@whoknows84364 жыл бұрын
Most people who claim to like hunter s Thompson have never read a single word he wrote the only reason he is so well known is because fear and loathing in Las Vegas
@bruce84294 жыл бұрын
And the idiots who are nuts about his writing are conceited.
@MerkleAkrunphleuphle3 жыл бұрын
lol I bought his cd's of tapes pretty interesting
@matthewjdouglas64713 жыл бұрын
I loved the fear and loathing in Las Vegas. But had no clue who hunter s Thompson was
@matthewjdouglas64713 жыл бұрын
@mbr 11 drug's can cause some to have real serious brain damage. That's possibly a major contributer. The bends also very tough on the body
@dorotheaskov57723 жыл бұрын
You should read "A letter to Hume"....In this letter you"ll understand just how enlighten Hunter was, already at 20 years of age and you wish you read it much sooner,,,,,,,,.PS, and some people knew him before the fear and loathing
@JanetElson4 жыл бұрын
I don't think it was his painful back or knee, he was scared of losing his mind, like his Father.
@am_31224 жыл бұрын
Maybe remorse. He did lots of bad stuff. Also as he was probably narcissistic, he didn't like the image he was projecting anymore...
@nativeamericanfeather99483 жыл бұрын
I dont think he was scared of that..otherwise he wouldnt of fried his own brain with all of the drugs. I think he was just sad that he couldnt party like he use to
@ladylyrichere93733 жыл бұрын
@Kristinkreuks STOLENFART If he had the guts to go all the way, he wouldn't have killed himself
@DarkSkies723 жыл бұрын
His mind was lost years ago.
@gmy333 жыл бұрын
@@ladylyrichere9373 he qas a cheating guy . They never go all the way . .. but bless him he was brave enough to pull the trigger
@dellahicks72314 жыл бұрын
He believed his own schtick.
@johnd.28033 жыл бұрын
He got lost in his own sauce?
@darrylwillard79894 жыл бұрын
Hunter Thompson was a man who's demons and failings got the best of him. His out of control drug use and drinking led him to destroy his life, and affected his family life. He was a tortured soul, and unfortunately the drugs and the drinking made it worse.
@DaisyMae4393 жыл бұрын
He's in hell where he belongs!
@christytaylor55543 жыл бұрын
@@DaisyMae439 oh how PRECIOUS! Yet another ignorant; preaching and judging when their own religion they desperately cling to specifically says not to judge...
@DaisyMae4393 жыл бұрын
@@christytaylor5554 that's how much you know about my supposed religion, lol. if you've ever read the Bible you know the truth about What God Says about us Christians judging others!! But instead you just parrot what you hear other people say. I'm about to teach you what the Bible truly says about Christian's judging others but I doubt it even matters what the Bible says and what I believe in because you're one of those people who just can't see the truth even when it's before your eyes! First off I'm a Christian which means I follow God's word I follow what Jesus tried to teach us when he was on the earth the first time the second time he comes back he's not going to be so forgiving he's going to be bringing God's wrath. The Bible teaches that we as Christians are to judge other people but we are to do it righteously and without being a hypocrite. Righteously means it has to be God's word that we're going off of and being not being a hypocrite means that I can't be stealing something and then go after another person for doing the same thing! If you want proof that I'm right go read what it says after judge not least you be judged read the rest of that paragraph!!!!! also God says that we are to judge them by their fruits that means that we are to judge them by what they say and what they do not by what they look like. So, now that you know the truth about what the bible really says will it really make any difference on what the real truth is about us Christians being allowed to judge others. God is the only one that judges people on where they're going to go for eternity whether that's heaven or hell that's God's judgment we cannot do that!
@DaisyMae4393 жыл бұрын
@@christytaylor5554 WHO IS THE IGNORANT ONE NOW???????
@arjanpetersen3 жыл бұрын
@@DaisyMae439 holy cow....are you ok? Get to doctor.... you are insane...
@MB-gz1ji3 жыл бұрын
I understand what he was going through. I have a lot of physical ailments and mobility issues and am in pain most of the time. It sucks for sure. I can admit I’ve definitely considered ending it but that’s just not something I can do. I’m a huge fan of hunter but it was really shitty of him to kill him self with his family there.
@taneikaallison98992 жыл бұрын
Yea I really hate he did that 😔
@rueriddle2 жыл бұрын
Yeah. He should have waited until they left.
@mysmirandam.66182 жыл бұрын
Agreed
@Goldengirl482 жыл бұрын
Even shittier that he terrorized his wife the night before this a shotgun.
@susanmorgan71252 жыл бұрын
Yes me too and I exercised everyday ate right and had a very active job but am suffering with osteoporosis osteoarthritis multiple back issues and bad knees it really is overwhelming when you can’t do the things you love.
@michaelworkman55904 жыл бұрын
Cruel selfish bastard to inflict such pain and horror onto his wife, son and grandson (especially). No kind of man.
@mommabear59354 жыл бұрын
I think it's pretty right on on that Johnny Depp lived with Hunter S. Thompson for like a year so he could properly play the part. It surprises me how many people actually haven't seen Fear and Loathing.
@kimbam12824 жыл бұрын
that movie is truth in plain sight
@mommabear59354 жыл бұрын
Oh your not kidding....the little girl an the adrenochrome....👀 Been in our faces this whole time.... And Hunter S. Thompson tried to show us.
@kimbam12824 жыл бұрын
@@mommabear5935 exactly...it's actually show so much through EVERYTHING but people are too asleep at the wheel
@mommabear59354 жыл бұрын
They aren't in control of their meat suits yet
@JudgeJulieLit4 жыл бұрын
@@mommabear5935 He was a child trafficker, adrenochrome drinker and snuff film maker. May he roil in Hell. It is execrable to glamorize or want to emulate this spiritual abyss, black hole.
@amylee35314 жыл бұрын
Depp portrayed Hunter absolutely perfect. Hunter sure lived a fun wild life. If you dont know much about him or his writings, check into him.
@quincee33763 жыл бұрын
I thought Bill Murray was even better playing him.
@TRIX-wn2sl2 жыл бұрын
@@quincee3376 No way that’s opinion I guess but Johnny Depp played him way better
@quincee33762 жыл бұрын
@@TRIX-wn2sl ya maybe that was a stretch. But both did great.
@TRIX-wn2sl2 жыл бұрын
@@quincee3376 I will agree with you on that he did a great job and it definitely was better than most actors would do but Depp had just some way of capturing him almost like he was his twin
@amylee35312 жыл бұрын
@@TRIX-wn2sl well they were long time good friends right? I'm sure that's how Johnny was able to pick up his mannerisms and everything. Murray, as far as I know, based his info from interviews etc. Bill Murray is a legend...but a different scale then Johnny. Bill is all goofy(Groundhogs day!) I can't hate on either :)
@marilyndresser23773 жыл бұрын
Constant physical pain is extremely debilitating.., we don’t know how much the pain and the painkillers played into the loss of his writing genius. To not be able to walk or stand because of pain wears on the soul. One can’t socialize , enjoy the outdoors .... everything of pleasure is reduced to rubble.....
@MichaelAnderson-jo8iq2 жыл бұрын
Yes, completely. It is extremely difficult to be happy and be in constant physical pain and with that is the depression because of it.
@lisacranmer80052 жыл бұрын
I know...mind you, for someone who broke my back and almost my neck and Played victim and left me on the street when I begged for help and support and all he CLD do was scream at me and yell horrible things to me..no man will ever want you except for your body..
@owenscottdouglasjohnson19754 жыл бұрын
Hunter was wheelchair bound for a short time before his death. I'm sad this wasnt reflected. And they obviously haven't read the book.
@ripto29643 жыл бұрын
dude theres a wheelchair right next to the window less than 2 minutes into the video
@davidgould99743 жыл бұрын
He was also wearing diapers like I’d kill myself too
@DetroitFettyghost3 жыл бұрын
@MisGuided Me 💯. Obviously. Everybody is a 1 minute guru nowadays. Watch a video and you've instantly been a fan and historian of anybody since their inception.
@coolboy52452 жыл бұрын
@@davidgould9974 Is that true?
@LisaSmyth684 жыл бұрын
I feel sorry for his ex wife!.. Too many women lose they're identity in marriage!.. Especially back then! Seen and not heard!.. Strange how men can Love their mum's, sister's and daughters, But seriously treat the spousal wife like shit??? Wheres the logic???.. Who's the true loser in the end?...
@GetMeThere14 жыл бұрын
True. And let's remember that women never treat anyone like shit. Oh, wait. Maybe it's a bit twisted to turn everything into a gender issue....
@jomama51864 жыл бұрын
Both can be equally as sadistic and twisted. It's unfortunate.
@dfmontgomery914 жыл бұрын
Well-put......I harbored sadness and bitterness towards my mom...and came to blow my marriage to the woman who was truly a gift from God ....All is ok now except the suicidal ideation ...i"m 72 now...fight against the VICTIM role...It's being a whiny little bitch as bill mahar ..sp ? would say...ONWARD THRU THE FOG ! as R CRUMB might say...
@triscuitrotsef17994 жыл бұрын
@@GetMeThere1 I can see by your profile picture you like to turn things about race so why not gender? Anyone that supports BLM is noone I need advice from.
@GetMeThere14 жыл бұрын
@@triscuitrotsef1799 LOL. I hope you're joking.
@74the_magpie2 жыл бұрын
Alcohol, drugs, smoke, he opened the door to the negative energies… it’s a shame. That will destroy your body and catch up to you. But I’d be interested in reading his stuff, though self destruction isn’t admirable.
@AhJodie2 жыл бұрын
I think anger opens the door..... at least, it was so in my life. After stopping the drugs and alcohol, I found all these feelings underneath, which were ridiculous angers over things that were no longer even important, but I had been holding on to since teen years. Once I found AA and learned how to think better, and stopped using, I have never been happier in my life! My family I am sure like being around me much more now too! I am still not perfect, but, much happier!
@brysun12342 жыл бұрын
@@AhJodie Good for you! Seriously glad you are happier!
@AhJodie2 жыл бұрын
@@brysun1234 I didnt want to change...something stronger than me happened... Long story... But it was a wonderful blessing...thank you.
@brysun12342 жыл бұрын
@@AhJodie You are welcome!
@jefolson69892 жыл бұрын
The drugs were his " treatment" of demons. The alcohol and drugs didn't bring the demons.
@fnmjgcjkytv24383 жыл бұрын
Hunter just casually owned Ali's golden gloves trophy
@ralphbennett71353 жыл бұрын
We should all know when it's time to go!
@jeneendove9062 жыл бұрын
Wow! That was a amazing story I never knew! Thank you!❤
@rockinroberta99254 жыл бұрын
I often wonder what HT would think about 2020.
@DaisyMae4393 жыл бұрын
He would be going along with the lies! If you were alive today he'd be even more evil than he already was