I Am Damaged

[@bellbottomss]

The line, "Please stand back now... Little further..." I've noticed, made a lot of people laugh during the performance, I laughed at it a bit as well, but it's actually quite sad if you think about it. He's saying that he doesn't want Veronica hurt in the slightest so he wants her to distance herself in his time of death, he wants her to not come near him in such a powerful moment so that she won't have a scratch upon her and she still ends up looking like she'd been dragged through a hedge backwards.

[@dawnrooeez817]

Honestly, in my opinion that line breaks my heart, because it just shows how much he truly cares for her, he just didn't know the right way to show it..

[@manicpixiedreamhurl03]

Also people think that Veronica was being bitchy for telling him to “Say hi to God”. But when you think about it, she believes that he can be redeemed and that he’s good enough to go to heaven. And that just makes it a lot sadder

[@citruslllad]

FloralMyTeapot Wait people laugh at that line???

[@deemsekow]

People laughed because she didn’t stand back, she just stood up in the show

[@artsyebonyrose]

Omfg the faciAL EXPRESSIONS MY DUDE HOLY SHiT The flashbacks made this 10x more emotional oml,, and the end where you show how he perceives Veronica and then how she really looks in the moment.. that fucking kiLLED ME

[@miaclaire3245]

same

[@maggiereed7395]

I AM FEELING EMOTIONALLY ATTACKED BECAUSE OF THOSE FLASHBACKS!!(It was great)

[@choy9166]

Maggie Reed the mustaches were great

[@miaclaire3245]

the mustache scene (so cute) and then......well yep inside breakdown

[@jayannadiscord]

I cried when he died ;(

[@greenville6531]

Maggie Reed im so sad I watched this 1:00

[@LHColliderX]

The flashbacks destroyed me. I hope you're SATISFIED.

[@shenaniganz4u913]

SpidergwenInfinite Ha Hamilton what are you doing here this is a Heathers video shoo-shoo

[@rinacasey7209]

TO THE GROOM! TO THE BRIDE! Sorry, I couldn't help myself

[@aristoteles3979]

SpidergwenInfinite OMGGGG

[@miaclaire3245]

TO THE GROOOOOOM TO THE BRIIIIDEEEE

[@serdivius]

FROM YOUR SISTERRRR WHO IS ALWAYS BY YOUR SIIIIIDE

[@luludaniels7346]

It hits me that hardest at the very end when JD finishes singing and it goes black and then just turns to Veronica with tears in her eyes and says "say hi to god" 0:56

[@CasMercy]

I haven't seen this musical and I'm already emotional.

[@1stshrimpofthemonth211]

Casey VA gurl hurry it's still on youtube!!!

[@blakesanimations9294]

I recommend u watch it!!!

[@emmae2520]

I'm...I'm just going to imagine to myself that JD, with all the time he has to think in the Heathers afterlife, really heals up, becomes less damaged, and understands what he has done. Hell, maybe heaven even has meds. If it's a paradise, there must be enough meds for everyone after all. (Free heaven health care! lol) And then, eventually, as we all do, Veronica dies, and JD gets to hug her. Just, like, a really long really good hug. That's what I'm going to imagine to myself

[@summeruylia8104]

What makes you think he went to heaven?

[@WeirdYetCool]

+Summer Uylia (Bluntly-Introverted) Repentance. No matter what he did, by the rules if he repents of his sins he is absolved. Hence the 'Clean up the mess down here'

[@irisd-n3435]

I agree with this. Yes please, make this happen.

[@fleurdesoceansproduction7820]

Emma TriesToSmile Purgatory seems fare enought.

[@annawright4067]

Emma TriesToSmile YOURE GONNA MAKE ME CRY!! NOW I CANT GET THE IMAGE OF HER WALKING THROUGH HEAVENS GATES,RUNNING TO JD AND TACKLING HIM IN A HUG

[@rileyfecsko1011]

thiS IS MY FAVORITE SO FAR OUT OF THE MILLION IVE SEEN, THE FLASHBACKS MAKE IT SO EMOTIONAL OH MY GOD YOU ART STYLE!! THIS IS PERFECT❤ IM TELLING YOU, IN A WEEKS TIME THIS VIDEOS VIEWS WILL BLOW UP! I CANT GET OVER HOW PERFECT THIS IS

[@enclinker7951]

Smiley Riley What was your favorite flashback? Mine was mustache one.

[@rileyfecsko1011]

Magenvia I CanT chOOse

[@ShadyLampShade]

Smiley Riley the views will BLOW UP? UM....

[@kerri9524]

Smiley Riley Ikr

[@emmalee4074]

Shady LampShade get out

[@ilovepurple171]

The flashbacks though!!!

[@bazilisk4139]

Is there a way to like a video multiple times? Oh my stars, this is amazing. I love Heathers and your artwork so thanks for this!

[@a.i.rartist8950]

I think when he said "I am damaged" he meant mentally damaged to a point were he understood No one not even, veronica ,could fix him. he probably didn't do it for himself either. he did it for veronica because he thought he would not only be damaging himself but the one person that truly meant something to him. I could be putting to much thought to this but whatev

[@pussilanious]

A.i.r Artist i Agree 100%

[@tortoiseknight6998]

No no, continue thinking, I'm interested

[@pnea7253]

When JD says "our love is god" one time it's sounds really sweet, but after two or three times it sounds...wrong. Like if he's trying to convince or force it on Veronica

[@havenbarrow5557]

Yeah, even more so in the actual 'our love is god' song. At the end he sounds more manipulative than usual.

[@angeliquepe7248]

Idk when I hear it, it's like he's trying to convince himself that they were in love

[@angeliquepe7248]

But idk just a thought

[@pnea7253]

Peppers Junhui I haven't thought about that, that's a good theory

[@yorutsumetai]

Angelique Pe I think he did love her. Or he wouldn’t have taken the responsibility of trying to fix what he started. When you’re broken you don’t know how to love the way ‘normal’ people do. It’s hard, no matter how much you do. It takes years of therapy and change for that type of person to change. Sometimes a lifetime.

[@Jenns228]

I can imagina Veronice deciding to stay single after this. FOREVER.

[@Felina_Marina]

I LITERALLY THINK ABT THAT EVERYDAY LIKE HOW COULD SHE LIVE ON AND DATE ANOTHER GUY LIKE HOW-?

[@leelo2659]

I've never cried so hard at an animatic, this is so precious, said glad you made this ❤️

[@manicpixiedreamhurl03]

This is one of the many songs that kill me from this musical. It’s up there with Dear Evan Hansen, Les Mis, Hamilton, and a few others. Today I’m going to be breaking down this song little by little. “I am damaged, far too damaged. But you’re not beyond repair” JD has always been broken. At the start of the musical he’s cracked. A crack is fixable. But as him and Veronica go on killing people, he begins to shatter until he’s nothing but a pile of ashes and broken pieces. A glass window that has been shattered can’t be fixed. While a tiny crack can, but if left unfixed the crack grows and grows until the object is broken beyond repair. Veronica has been telling JD to stop killing. After she accidentally kills Heather Chandler a crack grows. JD’s crack started when he witnessed his mother die after his father blew up the building she was in. Like I said a crack is fixable while being damaged can’t. JD is telling Veronica that he’s the reason all this shit happened. He’s what made her cracked. She can be fixed he can’t. “Stick around here, make things better. You’ve beat me fair and square” JD is going to kill himself, he wants V to live to fix the damage he’s done. But the line “You’ve beat me fair and square” reminds me of what V said in Dead Girl Walking Reprise. “I wish we met before they convinced you life is war”. Now who’s they? His parents. His mother killed herself showing that she lost her battle with whatever she was mentally going through. JD’s dad isn’t any better. He’s mentally unstable. He blows stuff up to let out his anger. JD is battling his mental state. JD inherited his parents “wars”. V was trying to help him fight his war but it ended up with them fighting against each other. V was fighting JD while trying to help him. JD is telling Veronica that the fight is over and there can only be one winner in this fight. So he lets her win by dying. “Please stand back now...little further, don’t know what this thing will do” Oh god, this part is where the feels and tears start coming. JD is holding the bomb. He doesn’t know how big the explosion is going to be so he tells V to stand back. Even if he’s damaged, he still cares for her. He knows she can and will fix things but she can’t do that with him around. This is also where we see that JD realizes that he can’t be fixed. Like I said earlier, JD was damaged from the start. Veronica wasn’t, yes she felt horrible after killing Heather, she felt horrible after shooting Ram when she thought it was a prank. She became cracked. JD was acknowledging that she can be fixed he can’t. “Hope you miss me, wish you’d kiss me, then you’d know I worship you” What V says while JD is saying that kills me. Yes, he’s a bad person but she believes she can fix him even though in the back of her mind she knows she can’t. And JD caught on to that pretty quickly. JD wants to hold her one more time before he goes but he knows he can’t or else she can’t fix the mess he’s made. “I’d trade my life for yours, but once I disappear, clean up the mess down here” JD knows how much damage he’s done and V is the only one who can clean it up. Her, Heather M, and Martha become friends and put an end to the Heathers. JD said in Dead Girl Walking Reprise “The only place for Heathers and Marthas to get along is in heaven”. The Heathers always bullied Martha. JD takes note of this cause in heaven there’s no tears, no sorrow, no fighting. Martha tried to kill herself. She couldn’t take the teasing from neither Chandler nor Duke. And Duke was a bigger bitch than Chandler ever was. Duke even caused her own friend to attempt suicide. Some friend. Like I said earlier, JD has shattered and left Veronica to fix up the damage he’s done. “Our love is God” Okay is it just me or does the first time he says “Our love is God” seem sweet but then as he continues it sounds wrong. Like it’s being forced on Veronica. Well, because it is. The song “Our Love Is God” was sung when JD and Veronica killed Kurt and Ram. That was when JD’s crack started to spread and leading him to shatter. It also led V to gain a few more cracks. JD had tricked Veronica into killing Kurt and Ram by telling her the bullets they were using were “Ich Luge” bullets which translates to “I’m lying”. So no they were not tranquilizers, they were actual bullets. And something that gives me chills is at the end of “Our Love Is God” V says “Our Love Is Gone” instead of saying “Our Love Is God” with JD. This shows that she’s starting to realize that JD isn’t as stable as he was when they first met. She notices he’s starting to crack. His mental state isn’t stable. And lastly when Veronica says “Say hi to God” I want to drink drain cleaner. This makes me want to fucking die! A lot of people though think V is being bitchy by telling him to “Say hi to God” when he’s clearly going somewhere else. Veronica isn’t being bitchy, she’s saying it because she truly believes that he can go to heaven. He’s a good kid who make bad choices. He was raised in the wrong way. She believes that even though he messed up and that he’s a broken mess, he can still be a good person. That’s why she stayed with him. Even though they both knew at some point that JD couldn’t be fixed, she still wanted to have hope. But he’s human, sometimes glass is the strongest thing on the planet and other times, it’s too fragile and breaks. Humans are like glass. Some glass is made stronger than others. some people are strong, while others break at the slightest word of negativity. We can only keep our thoughts for so long until we crack. Sometimes people keep them for so long that they shatter, just like JD. And that makes this song one of the saddest a musical production can ever make. Okay this has taken me an hour and a half - two hours. I’m surprised my mother hasn’t taken my phone from me since I haven’t done the laundry yet. Please feel free to add on your own opinions and discuss it

[@soderuarkira3592]

JD looking sad or crying destroys a small part of my heart every second I see him crying like small child pls be happy

[@irisd-n3435]

same. seeing him sad makes me sad ;m;

[@jayannadiscord]

Same!!!!

[@ManiacTenshiMakenshi]

I didn't shed a tear watching the musical but watching this scene of your animation made me freaking cry. I love your stuff.

[@victorjandre7276]

I loved how you are so different from me. I see Veronica really mad at JD, and in the "Say hi to god" line, she is saying he deserves to die, and also, in my mind she would never forgive him. Nice to see how the lyrics can open to various interpretations.

[@Nekomania]

I've never heard this song before so i'm happy the first animation i saw of it was yours. It really captured the feels. :') You knocked it out of the park!!

[@hannahhelms2233]

Nekomania11 she

[@Nekomania]

Hannah Helms she?

[@hannahhelms2233]

Nekomania11 I have absolutely no idea why I wrote that comment. 😂 I guess I did it accidentally, lol.

[@Nekomania]

Hannah Helms Hahaha okay that makes more sense. Cuz i was totally confused otherwise xD

[@LilyBudgie]

Okay... Those flash backs hit me like a feels train and I wasn't ready for that but you did an amazing job! Honestly this is one of the best animatics I've seen for Heathers songs! The way you've drawn JD, perfect! I just love your art style in general

[@bellasalazar6549]

THIS IS LITERALLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE POSSIBLY THE BEST ANIMATED VERSION OF THIS SONG OH MYYY GOOOODDDDDD THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT IN EVERY WAY. YOURE ART IS STUNNING AND SO UNIQUE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GRACING ME WITH SOMETHING AS AMAZING AS THIS

[@stephaniestumpf6660]

GODDAMIT IM CRYING I HATE THIS THE ART WAS TOO GOOD AND IT MATCHED THE TENSE AURA IN THE ACT I HATE YOU BUT I LOVE YOU AHHHHH

[@averywarner256]

I didn't sign up for the feels, but I clicked on the video so it's my fault.

[@requiringsleep7741]

Looks like all 3 Heathers disliked this video

[@daiseyjones1228]

Nelly Torres and the Heather's twins apparently XD

[@requiringsleep7741]

I guess so lol

[@sicko033]

Nelly Torres 34 heathers

[@havenbarrow5557]

Since when are their 55 heathers? Are they making more accounts just to dislike?

[@alzac]

I was scrolling and accidentally disliked and had a mini panic attack and said “wait no !!! I loved it nono-!” And liked it lol. I wanted to say that this is probably my favorite heathers animatic because of the little cuts to their relationship. Makes it have an overtone if purity. It almost makes me feel bad for JD. Also, the facial expressions and clothing are to die for, I was head over heals for it. Thank you for making wonderful things like this

[@irisd-n3435]

Fucking christ... This was like a knife driven through my heart holy CRAP IT WAS AMAZING YOU HAVE SO MUCH SKILL WOW. The flashbacks and the increase in his tears just make it MORE PAINFUL THAN IT ALREADY IS AAAAA

[@actuallyAtlas1989]

JD: "Stand back." *Veronica takes two steps back* JD: "... you know this is a bomb, right?"

[@savannahwells4943]

NO THE ONIONS NOT THE ONIONS AHH THIS IS THE BEST IVE SEEN SO FARR

[@recklessraven8865]

THIS MADE ME CRY AND YOUR ART STYLE IS BEAUTIFUL

[@saminaflores7466]

Literally crying on campus before my math exam, my professor thought it was due to stress but nope it was this video my soul aches for those two.

[@mimiqtt]

Why do you animators have to make JD so cute? I’m gonna cry -3-

[@teaffany8802]

J.D: Once I disappeared, clean up the mess down here.. Veronica: WAIT HOLD ON IM LAZY I DONT WANT TO!

[@havenbarrow5557]

Plus she'd have to mop up all that J.D splattered across the walls from that literal explosion.

[@mylo2016]

Bruh, don't be worried about all the other versions! Yours is AMAZING, and just having a different syle and vision can bring a lot to the table with these kinds of things!

[@ronrikage4146]

THAT ENDIN MADE ME CRY BTW I LOVE THE WAY YOU DRAW/PORTRAY JD BC ITS SO CUTE AND PURE AND I LOVE IT WHOOPS

[@MelancholyJubilee]

WHY YOU GOT ME SO FUCKED UP LIKE THIS? I discovered one of your animatics and then casually watched most of everything on your channel, and your art has me completely fucked up. I can't even imagine the hours that went into mastering expressions like you have.

[@thatweirdpenguin3250]

THIS NEEDS MORE VIEWS!!!!

[@forestree4479]

oh my god ok. here's something I just noticed. when veronica says 'say hi to god' it's not just a witty line before he dies, or even that she hopes he'll get a good afterlife, I think she *honestly thinks that JD is still gonna get a good afterlife*, or even that he *deserves* a good afterlife. i don't know, i just think that's pretty damn powerful

[@JcThePengu]

I watched this video right after your meant to be yours way before I watched the full Heathers video. I am so glad I did not know what this music even meant otherwise I would've spoiled myself. You are one of the reasons why I got into Heathers, so thanks for your amazing Animatic. ^^

[@rdklzkydd]

WHAT A GORGEOUS UPSETTING RENDITION

[@soupedar]

this just destroyed my entire life. i have been crying for 5 days. thank you so much

[@ChronicRen]

Man, you’d think someone who has been in a downwards spiral their whole life after watching his Mum blow herself up would be a bit more sensitive to how that affects a person, And maybe try and avoid doing that to their already fairly traumatized girlfriend, but I guess JD has never been very self aware.

[@valkzh767]

"Say Hi To God" I'm crying

[@sammymain9229]

Dude seriously so good. the art gives so much meaning to an already outrageous song!

[@dave1049]

First JD with no shot wound, woah!

[@nkoto1]

I really do appreciate the flashbacks during the ending. it's very very sweet and even more heartbreaking

[@reahallu]

I Have found my favorite animantic...not just favorite Heather's animatic but favorite animatic in general!

[@fern1778]

Your heathers animations made me love heathers. Thanks for pulling my in the fandom

[@truciee]

when you added those scenes during j.d's "our love is god" I legit screamed ohmygod no !???#??

[@kmiaglr]

I LOVE all yours Heathers animation, it's far better than all those I've seen ! I specially love your Jason Dean (I'm french sorry if I've made mistakes)

[@romanticfreak3126]

SIR? SIR-, PLEASE STOP MAKING ME CRY.

[@1stshrimpofthemonth211]

I felt bad when he started crying but then remembered the rest of the musical... yeah jd kinda deserved it... a lot

[@EllyWinfield]

WHOA YES THIS IS ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC

[@spiritedrenee9895]

Maybe if his dad wasn't so horrible and cold he could have grieved over his mother's suicide and never did any of this.

[@randomgirll3123]

You're... You animation made this like... a million times sadder then it already was and... ugh... I just can't right now... (I love Victoria's hair too and how you gave JD that moustashe. That was really cute and painful at the same time.)

[@tofu2833]

randomgirl L Oh shit the animator did...

[@sxltyaye9425]

;0; I don't get it, but I love it

[@onion4297]

I didn't complete watching the musical because I don't like musicals but I mean it was cool and funny.

[@hobbedgoblin10]

Weeaboo Faggot I never liked musicals but now I'm obsessed with heathers and Hamilton lmao

[@alexamckee7389]

the faces and flashbacks are amazing! new subscriber!

[@jangelorum]

Fuck the flashbacks got me so bad Also I'm in love with your artstyle, it's really flowy and great ;0;

[@miki-rt7dl]

ah your aet style is great and this is amazing 💕💕 it doesnt matter that there are 1000 more of this song yours is unique and gr8

[@PhoxxiPlays]

Woahhhhh this is insanely good like damnnnn

[@Jay-hf3tx]

rhodetrip omg Mystic messengers 707!!

[@clarissacota2047]

I WAS NOT READY FOR THIS, IM CRYING

[@swillthesad]

Wowe I noticed during Meant to Be Yours that JD had scars but I just noticed that in the flashbacks your Veronica has them too. Depressingly fitting for her character, kudos to you for that little detail.

[@thelostanimegirl7333]

I really like your style and your OC characters I wanna see more them!! Keep up the good work!

[@artisticvix3n]

Holy molly this the best and emotional animatic for this song and I love it.

[@lil_hal]

beautiful characters, beautiful idea, beautiful style of drawing. omg. you're my musa now.

[@ThenaHoi]

you probably won't see this, but let me just say i really love your things and your OC's and i adore your artstyle!!

[@kiara7918]

THE FLASHBACKS I'M REALLY CRYING

[@emilyschwehr2806]

I can’t believe how well this is done the styles awesome.

[@sp0dium469]

U MADE ME WATCH HEATHERS BECAUSE OF UR ANIMATIONS THX SO MUCH!! !

[@ALJJInkGames]

10/10 almost made me cry, your great at this. I'm sorry things aren't working out for you in this community, maybe you could branch out, do more than just animatics. The animation community is still growing, so maybe you could do some more things that are personal to you too, something to set you apart from other people doing animatics.

[@milesa5347]

I AM IN LOVE WITH YOUR ART. MY HEART HURTS. SUBBED

[@jettgem]

everytime I crave listening to this song again, I seek out your animatic specifically xD

[@SleepyAshy93]

Oh my god the images with this is amazing.

[@ieatpie315]

this really fUCKED ME UP??? PLEASE??, STOP??? BUT DON'T ACTUALLY CAUSE THIS WAS AMAZINGLY DONE???

[@krystalglaude6299]

and there, along with the bits of JD that undoubtedly scattered, is my heart, guys! D'x

[@gianaoftheeasternrebellion1169]

I love everything about this.

[@sleepingjellyfishzz5627]

I love your art so much! your so talented!

[@Gdbyspdwgn]

No matter how many times I listen to this I still cry

[@ellison_4710]

DON'T MAKE ME CRY LIKE THIS. YOU HAVE BROKEN MY HEART, SOUL AND MIND.

[@keelyhardin]

Sometimes I like to watch your Heather's videos and cry myself to sleep, because I was actually in love with JD. Like I would have made him so happy and hugged him because in the end people like him just need love

[@pattykrabbies]

Oooooooomygosh I should really get around to watching this musical because I REALLY love these animatics

[@artlover4657]

. . . He's dressed up as Wilfred. . . *clutches my heart* . . . Why do you people give us feels attacks? . . .

[@livezinthemoment]

I absolutely love your art style!

[@litzyc7890]

You have destroyed me with those sad beautiful flashbacks

[@sarbear3246]

Notice she says "Say hi to god" beacuse she thinks that JD will go to hevean.

[@1or2lemonlimes]

I have one word that could of saved JD Hospital

[@xpxnchyx]

how did you manage to make me cry in one minute. hOW

[@planet_dawsey595]

I get chills every time I watch this!

[@willowmw9952]

GODDAMNIT THIS MADE ME CRY MORE THAN THE ORIGINAL I HOPE YOU'RE PROUD GTRJGVNRV.

[@ringzofmarz]

I wasn't sad, then the flashbacks hit. Now I'm crying

[@yuinya4434]

NO! No nO NO nO NO!! You do not get to mess with my feels!! WHY DAMN IT!!! WHY DO YOU DO THIS!!!

[@prismcosplays1604]

The end makes me cry so freaking much 😭😭

[@zeawesomeness]

Dammit I love your style so much!!! I wish my drawing style was like yours mines sorta crappy ;^;

[@beetlebrainspng7007]

mMMM THAT ART STYLE THO WHOOO DOGGY THATS SOME GOOD SHIT

[@tinasdf5876]

this uhhahaahaahhh THIS IS SO GOOOD

[@allisonangleton7813]

I always cry at this song And then this was so beautiful that I cried even harder.

[@minibeeYT]

Oh my goodness. This is wonderful!

[@fantasia7950]

i always cry by watching i am damage but its one of my fave song and i keep on watching it...

[@skylerlarssonhasasecondacc2968]

Video: * e x s i s t s * Me: **intense sobbing**

[@pandabee6393]

you made me cry. thank you.

[@svccubuspup]

This song honestly makes me cry so much *T^T*