i can't believe this happened ...

[@jnknknk]

This feels like receiving a letter from a friend you have not seen in 5 months. Love the aesthetic

[@quitea]

5 MONTHS? at least 5 years

[@LilybethII]

I have SO MANY questions, because I've been following this channel for years, and it looks like A LOT has changed in his life...

[@m1h_1]

You’ve definitely been missed, but I’m so glad you’re looking after yourself & putting you first. You’ve been through such a lot, I hope you know you deserve so much happiness. It doesn’t matter how often you post, I will always watch & support, just continue to look after yourself. Your new home & the work you’ve done on it is stunning. Sending ❤ from the UK.

[@gagasluxury7458]

Damn Pearl, I didn’t expected this video to hit so hard and so deep. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, we love you ❤

[@laceisaverb]

Pearl I love you so much and I'm glad to see you healing. The drag fandom hasn't always loved you the way you deserve.

[@yellowtoad6803]

my god, to have these updates from you is just mesmerizing to see - the energy that is so unique and not anywhere near my current surroundings and I'm thankful that you're sharing some of your thoughts and life because it really resonates with a lot of people.

[@3337errorz]

Pearl - I relate so much to you, as I’m sure many of us do. Trauma and repressed memories are really freaking weird. I suffer from PTSD after years of abuse and it’s astounding how intuitive the human body is - for it to just know (better than we do) that a certain trauma or memory is not going to be healthy for us, and keep it filed away in a safe place until we’re ready - it’s just wild. I still disassociate from my body and the world at times, because there seems to be an overwhelming amount of venom out there. People who harm others, who harm animals, who harm the environment and the planet…it really is too much to bear sometimes and I still can’t make sense of it. I want to heal the world and everyone in it, especially the way animals are treated by humans. I lose sleep over all of it, and it’s hard not to just break down on a daily basis. It feels like there is just not enough time to deal with the poison in this world, how we treat one another, to make sense of it, and somehow maintain peace within ourselves amidst all of it. I’ve struggled to believe that this is a world worth living in, to bring children into it, and I’d be lying if I said that I never considered leaving this existence of mine. The world feels so broken beyond repair. But, I remember the voiceless animals in the world that have no choice but to keep living, who don’t ask to be born but have to deal with the consequences, and me dying will mean one less person on this planet who cares enough to help. Life is weird, my friend. But, I’m so inspired by you and I’m obsessed with your home aesthetic / vibes as they’re exactly the same as mine. Walking into that house must feel like a warm hug 🪴

[@RoxieJQ]

You are amazingly talented, kind and loved…we need more people like you in this world. Happy to follow you on your new journey 🖤

[@Starrgazed]

Great video Mr. Pearl❤ We all are human and we as viewers online need to remember that. You're doing well and focusing on healthy things and That's the love that you deserve. Much love and support to you❤

[@thomasbeeton47]

Yes ! Mr. Pearl is showing us all by demonstration how to practice gratitude , kindness , empathy with ourselves first …. Remodeling his home he shows vulnerability and faith …step by step with himself at center . That’s where the joy comes from ….. to often we all want to skip to the big perfect ‘reveal’ glamorous and shiny - but almost always that’s fake and certainly always that’s unsustainable and worse unsettling. Pearl is describing , doing and visibly looking like his own internal prayer. May we all find a way to do the same now. Tom , Los Angeles

[@drAgonheart580]

you look and sound like you are in a good place and that is all we ever want for you , looking forward to more from that happier place

[@Nikkiluvs_who]

First thing…beautiful job with the house, unsurprisingly. Second, I’m so glad you were able to take time off and take care of you. Thank you for sharing what you did here. You’ve illustrated, so well, a period in life where I find myself standing. This was so helpful to hear…knowing someone else is moving through a similar season. Having to accept that one may never feel settled hit home so hard. I needed that. I could say more but most importantly, I’m proud for you and thank you! 🖤 Always looking forward to your posts. (At your pace, of course😉)

[@austintaylorrose8046]

I’m blown away with your growth and everything you’ve accomplished. You definitely inspire me to push myself more. I have a bad habit of staying stagnant and just waiting time. Congratulations on your new house. All the remodeling looks incredible. Can’t wait to see future updates from Mister Pearl ❤

[@Skene63]

Dear Matthew, of course you have been missed. You took time off of social media to work on personal projects and that's amazing. I love what you do in drag or out of it. I doesn't matter. You are so talented in everything you do and that's what I want to see from you. Life is a journey and it is important oyu find your way, your iner peace, what makes you happy. I think you are on the right path. You are still young so you have plenty of time to discover your inner peace. With love. PIerre

[@rosetealatte9282]

I always loved your calm energy, Pearl. Thank you for sharing your insights and developments. I can relate to so many things you said, especially about dealing with trauma.

[@traceyg2703]

Your new space, ( especially with the renovations you've done ), is gorgeous. And this meal looks SO GOOD! Please - you have to do the Bigfoot storytime. I'm a redwood forest dwelling believer, so I can't wait to hear about your experience!

[@doubledragonasmr]

It’s a pleasure to see you again and to witness you using your craftsmanship to create such a beautiful space.

[@connorbowen8867]

You’ve forged your own path, so proud of you and just overall inspired!

[@vonlipi]

You have a very powerful vibe about you. You don’t need anybody’s approval! Spread your wings Pearl and fly!

[@BJ-mb2ug]

I remember that old vid- I was doing laundry and watching it. Then, I began my own healing journey. It really does sting, facing old trauma. But- the emotional growth is worth it!

[@Jeannette311]

I’m really proud of you, and excited for you. I’m going through something similar, so it really makes me feel emotional hearing your story. I’m so glad you’re back.

[@Eristotl3]

Your restlessness is so relatable... A wise person told me I can keep running but 'Wherever you go, there you are'... I think it is from some book. But it resonated. Take good care.

[@fantesiz]

this was so comforting. feel like i really needed to hear these words 🫶🏽 love you pearl

[@ElizaDEG]

What are you running from sweetie?” 💀I gagged because that was me until I stayed with this family that showed me, “hey it’s fine to put roots even if it’s temporary, you should be able to unpack and live no matter the measure of that moment of time (big or small)” is what I learned. I hope you found your peace of mind. I moved around so much and my family/childhood trauma got me so badly mentally. Even if this place is temporary or not truly mine, I will make it my home as long as I am here. If you can’t be comfortable then what’s the point of having things if you never use them. Things are meant to be used if it’s clothes or bedding etc. I learned to accept that this is who I am and it’s ok to feel unsettled, to feel like this is or isn’t my place etc. I know who I am and that’s enough. That’s powerful

[@donovanpavlekovic4372]

There are no words to describe how much you inspire me, your every word, every piece of art, look, even boy outfits. For some reason everything about you has a meaning and I read it deeper than it is. I just want you to know that you help others. You helped me. Esp. with creative processes. I hope to one day be able to thank you in person and show you my body of work inspired by you. You Mister are a true visionare and I feel like you don't even know how magnetic you and your creativity are. Thank you for being YOU.

[@veinsinneon9953]

This is truly inspiring. Well done Pearl ❤✨

[@marcocorona2839]

I’m so happy you have found some peace. I’ve been off Instagram for over 6 to 8 years now so I completely understand where you’re coming from. Cheers to positivity 🥂

[@trilobite-knight7746]

Absolutely adore this for you Pearl. This is the needed energy rn

[@Ummmmmkay88]

We need to hear the Bigfoot story ASAP! 😂

[@AaronPly7]

Thank you for posting this. Ive been sober for just over 90 days now, and find it hard to stay away from the stress and anxiety that social media causes. I was able to experience bliss in Kauai last September, when I accidentally dropped my phone in the ocean while on a boat tour. I haven't felt that free of stress and hate since I was a kid. This video has reminded me that I can do it with a little motivation and determination. Thank you, Pearl. ❤

[@EllieisaBanana]

So happy to see your journey, though I’m late to it. I am so glad you’re able to find yourself through all you have been through. It’s hard to be 100% but you look like you’re in AZ and I grew up and lived there for 20 years. I miss it so much and I’m glad, if it’s where you are, that’s it’s serving you!

[@quitea]

btw congrats on buying your own house!! it looks really comfy, I'd like to see you doing a house tour one day if you're confortable with that

[@janasteele-t1u]

I have to tell you i was smiling watching you so skillfully building you home- you ARE amazing it’s just who you are! Glad to witness your growth and changing- I do miss Roxanne a little- but I love mr Pearl💕

[@BorderOllie]

I just wanted to say that you have been a hero to me in so many ways, and I'm grateful that you always strive to stay true to yourself. You're an inspiration to me, and other people who struggle with intense trauma. No matter what life has ever thrown at you, you survive, then thrive. That's because you're real, and good hearted, at least in my outsider opinion. Always wishing you the best. ❤

[@danielp.sullivan8417]

You are a delight and an inspiration! I mean it, I’ve been feeling a little lost lately and I just stumbled onto your channel thru a KZbin rabbit hole because I thought you were cool and funny. You’re also a badass who’s sharing wisdom for free so I truly thank you. AND PLEASE TELL US ABOUT BIGFOOT!!!

[@WhisperedDelightsASMR]

I don't know how I arrived at your channel but I'm really glad I did. You'll probably never see this & I respect and understand why you wouldn't but a lot of what you shared here resonated with me. You seem like a beautiful soul that is blossoming into the person you have always been destined to be. What you have to say, what you have to share is important and so timely. What you've done inspires & encourages me. I wish you nothing but continued blessings, peace and love. 🌸🙏🏼

[@mamatogirls]

You are in a real growth phase. I love seeing this kind of evolution and you are so deserving of the peace that you are feeling right now. So happy that you found your path! Love you like a crazy.💖

[@bradfordvanschie2052]

Very relatable! I hit my own rock bottom, got a house, went to counseling, and i think it has so much to do with finally having a safe space of my own that allowed healing to really start. It took my therapist saying, ".... Wow. You have a lot of trauma" for me to even begin to realize the experiences, impact, and adaptations from which i now have the correct environment to address. Power to you, mister Pearl 💙

[@FPwLola]

I found myself nodding along and feeling uplifted, I 100% agree with your philosophy. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable truth, it's the purest form of art, imo. You SLAYED that remodel. In all ways. 💗✨

[@ianfrancis777]

Hiya Pearl, I just recently discovered you on KZbin. Forgive me for being so out of it. I am very impressed with the wisdom I hear emanating from you. Do you think you could do more spiritually based videos in the future, i.e. one or two a month? That would be so great. You are A-mazing. Best, Ian

[@Shucksofficial]

I genuinely appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing this with us. A lot of what you said feels like the thoughts I’ve been having over the past year and I think you would be a fascinating person to have deep conversations with. Like if people were open and receptive to it, they would gain so much from being close to you. Unfortunately most people don’t place value in inner peace or mental and emotional growth. I wish more people were like you, and did the internal work so that they could shift their mindset to have a more positive outlook on themselves and the world. And congrats on buying the house, the transformation looks incredible, and the amount of physical labor and design you put into it, you deserve so much credit because that’s really not easy. I’m so glad I chose to follow your journey since I saw you on drag race. The amount of growth I’ve seen is incredible and I hope you’re really proud of yourself. Also, as a big fan of cryptids, you gotta tell us about that Bigfoot story 😅☺️

[@leandrom5783]

I am so glad to see you back online, and the step by step cooking was wonderful. ❤

[@nr.l9375]

This video hits home. You achieved by delivering the message mister pearl, keep it up and I send you a huge hug ❤️

[@MissNandiLaSophia]

The profundity of growth through self awareness is unmatched, honestly. I've lived in 11 states and so I know at least adjacently, how you feel. Being an insatiably curious person in my youth helped me make a lot of impulsive decisions that taught me a lot very quickly. Now entering my 50s, I still need travel and newness, however, stability and self care by way of healing trauma and breaking self destructive connections takes a front seat. Your home looks beautiful and you should be proud of your experiences and your hard work

[@giggles7179]

I envy the clarity you've started to find and your sense of purpose. It's a dark world out there and I'm sure while it seems you took a path with many insane obstacles most don't put themselves in the way of, you've managed to learn from every one and find the value of simplicity and tranquility. Few find it at all. ....Now that _that's_ out of the way, let's hear about that Sasquatch encounter. It's a shame that there are many out there that still feel we're supposed to laugh as such things, but there's just as many of us out there who know we understand so little of of this world and the magic of what's around us everyday.

[@cameronhertrich7866]

So happy for you on this new chapter of your journey✨🌟 always evolve and elevate- welcome to the desert! It’s a special place🌵🌙

[@godgang8818]

I couldnt have said itbetter. You do so muchbetter when ya self reflect and see what we really need. . and its inner peace. Inner happiness. Spirituality. Be righteous. Focus and make goals for yourself and achieve them. Im 62 and ive learned inner peace is most important. I havent had a relationship in years and found i dnt need anyone to ve happy n get what i wNt n need. Do what ya want. When ya want .. get a daily ritual structure n stick with it stick with your gut feeling. aLWaYs. Glad to see youre doing well. U always look good so .. focus inward.

[@montycas]

Thank you so much Pearl for reconnecting and sharing what you have recently learned. It was so authentic and lovely (and calming). I look forward to any more videos of you and this house. I’m wishing you so much peace and moments of love in 2024.

[@davidcollier9528]

Just sending love to you. I’m so happy to see you again. Love your dog. And also overwhelmed by your tenacity and creativity in transforming this house. It looks like a beautiful place that you chosen to live in… I have many questions, but I know you probably will tell your story in time. again, sending love to you , you beautiful being.

[@Picklesicle]

Great vibe, great message. Thank you for sharing some of your life lessons and perspectives with us. I hope many people hear this ❤

[@toucheaulait892]

Good for you, seriously! That view from the backyard is my dream view

[@hesamak]

Welcome back! You are in peace with yourself and life! that the main goal of life that most ppl are missing. I am on my own journey toward my peaceful life. Good luck and hope to see more of you Hesam

[@jaradaniels9289]

I wish i had a quarter of your talent. The designs and spaces you make are beautiful. You should be very proud of yourself. I find your talent inspiring.

[@zokisan9554]

i committed to my gratitude game and noticed wholesome improvement over the years but i am still so weak on the taking risk spectrum... thank you for this share, a good contrast and reminder to trust in our capabilities.

[@hayley8509]

Watching you take the time to prepare a meal for yourself really hit home to me as unless I'm cooking for others, I don't bother. I'm really going to start taking better care of myself ❤

[@j.b.abraham4175]

I love the experience and insights you have gleaned from everything you've been through and have done. It puts perspective into what is truly important. If you move on from where you are, that's ok. Maybe there's still more of you that you're discovering. I loved you on that "TV show". But seeing you, for the person you truly are, is far better!

[@thanatosonpluto5098]

Happy to see you are happy. Unfortunately miserable people feel entitled to bring everybody down with them and there are more miserable people than those who are at peace so it is inevitable that you will come across people on the internet who will try to tear you down. It's smart of you to try to create a community of positivity but maybe you should also take the tools you have learned and teach them to others to help equip others so they can deal with those miserable types out in the wild. The house is beautiful, as always your taste level is amazing, I didn't see him in the video but I hope you, your man, and your dog are thriving. Also needing to detox from social media is understandable, we all need to do it once in awhile to protect our mental health.

[@mikangz6754]

Wow this hits so close to home. Thank you for doing what you do and being so open. 😭🙏 Much love from Canada

[@jennib9116]

So glad to see you here again, but you know we got questions! Congrats on the house, where’s your guy? Where’s the camper van? What’s the pooch’s name? Why the name change to the channel? Any drag plans? Can’t wait to hear more.

[@LilybethII]

I was literally searching through the comments to find someone asking the same questions as me.

[@spomranka1961]

I am so happy for you. Thriving in the desert! It makes me hopeful for all of us that we can disconnect from material things and reconnect with human beings. Our collective thriving depends upon deep connections with others and ourselves. You are modeling that for us.

[@_l.w.a.]

You’ve had an amazing awakening, one everyone needs to have. With all sincerity, congratulations.

[@BitterSweetCoffee3]

Love the new vibes. You have always been creative and talented. Looking forward to the Bigfoot story.

[@helenehendrikse9625]

So nice to see you again. I was so worried about you !! Thank you for sharing where your at in your life. You have done an amazing job on your house. Congrats !!

[@e.victoria5151]

I hadn’t checked on your channel in almost a year, until literally two days ago, a here you are with a new one. Very excited to see you again! I hear you on ‘never feeling settled.’ I just moved to a new home too, without nearly as much DIY skills as you 😅, but it’s nice, quiet, warm, and safe. Take care Mr. Pearl. Peace and Love 💕

[@gabriellawaldi]

I always could relate so much with you. But your KZbin-Channel showed me you are one of us. There are so many influencers faking it online and you could definetely live this life because you are so good looking. But instead you decided to show it like it is. You could fake a perfect life but you are out there being authentic. Thank you for that!!!

[@RNCHFND]

6:39 "Turns out ... I'm just really not that girl" this is hilarious

[@JenniferHaselton]

i missed your face and so happy that your healing and on the mend. Life is full of times of reflection and learning from the past. I am in one of those stages myself.

[@johannaecheverrylopez2386]

Could we get the recipes (with guesstimated quantities) for what you made? What temp did you toast the bread at?

[@FlossyRoxx]

Wild restless hearts and finding oneself amongst the noise and chaos of this world is freaking hard. Living in a van as a queer person is a whole other level of challenges too!!

[@sarahpurnell8066]

Pearl you look really healthy , you speak a lot of sense and are very interesting 😊person ! Also you live in a beautiful place , and have made an amazing home , you are very talented at home improvement x . Your dog is beautiful,is it a boy or girl x x x melts my heart 💔

[@jerryhinds6009]

You're amazing and you did an amazing job on your home. Love how you think. Positivity is king. 🙏✌️💙

[@thefunctionofjames]

Pearl, this was just what I needed to hear. Thank you, girl.

[@caviersim3806]

About the fact that you constantly find change and want to reinvent yourself, I think we have to find a happy medium between change and stillness. If we don’t change, we can become stagnant and unfulfilled with the sameness. But too much change is exhausting and constantly uncomfortable. I think we should do what feels right in the moment ❤❤❤

[@ReachtheThirdLevel]

i love this self journey, gives me hope for myself!

[@PatrickRoss-f2g]

What a treat to see your post today! I have recently found myself wondering what adventures you might be up to! This is a beautiful video, Thank you

[@Luke-rm1kw]

Congrats on your new house!! Glad to hear you've been on a healing journey and getting in touch with yourself 😀

[@mxpujasingh]

thank you for sharing so honestly. congrats on the house, love what you did w the kitchen. excited to see what comes next for you! 💗

[@staceysneed9928]

What a beautiful video to wake up to, thank you. Know that you're not alone, so many others are feeling the exact same.

[@Caroleeena]

It's wonderful to hear from you. Your home is lovely. You have many talents and skills. I live in a little RV. I am happy to have it. I bought it salvaged after my landlord sold my longtime home during covid. I am happy to have this place AND it comes with all sorts of unexpected issues all the time, the biggest being finding a place to put it but lots of other things too, including a lot that you mention (though I've never seen Bigfoot. Can't wait to hear about that.) Here's to putting down roots in 2024. May be it be healing and transformative for both of us. Hugs to you.

[@kagestone56]

I'm SO glad to see you again, I've been wondering what happened to you. I love following along with your life and can't wait to hear about your Bigfoot experience! Plus everything that's to follow. Much love, enjoy your new journey! ❤

[@jessicathomas73]

Oh Pearl, so good to see you back. I wondered how you were. Beautiful home and well done on the renovations. I wish you all the best. You seem like a really decent person and I hope the rest of your life is filled with as much peace as possible.

[@GaiaCarney]

Thanks for sharing your healing journey 🌻 All the best!

[@kingatlas3501]

“Arguing with strangers online is the first sign of mental illness” Woahhhhhhhhh….that hits. I completely agree. It is pointless! Cheers old friend! Congratz!

[@arieswest]

I am truly amazed at and in awe of your talents and skill sets. Thank you for being an inspiration. The house is looking fantastic!

[@Saudade_Ana]

You're awesome Pearl. I'm very much looking forward to your next videos. Oh and your new place looks amazing btw. It shows you put a lot of effort into it ❤

[@zgfx2726]

I’m so glad you’re back. I’ve missed your videos so much. I agree with a lot of things in this video and I appreciate you for speaking on touchy subjects. Thank you so much ❤for

[@marinakyriacou6525]

Wonderful. Taking care of yourself is so important but can easily take a back seat to everything. The house looks amazing and what you've done with the kitchen is stunning! Also that view is gorgeous.

[@alexandra4873_]

So nice to hear from you Pearl ❤ glad you’re doing better

[@ArleneLevenson]

gorgeous us- great perspective on the inner landscape. Congrats!

[@higgaroc]

Hi Mr. - nice to see you and hear from you. What an incredibly rich live you've lived - thank you for sharing it. Your creativity and determination to understand and accept yourself are ever-inspiring. Also, what a beautiful dog - so glad you are each other's pals. xoxo PS The nature parts of this video were so beautifully filmed!

[@toxxicjayy4680]

I loved this!! And girl we need the recipe for everything you’ve made! That drink looked amazing can’t wait for more videos ❤️

[@Reninenos]

This was amazing and your home looks absolutely beautiful! I am further impressed by your skill and talent.

[@antoniobroccoliporto4774]

When You changed the name of your channel for some reason I lost it ...found you again when I thought of you and found you again... love that your back and I understand about internet.

[@Miz_Hunter]

Love this , love you and love what u made lol ! It looked so good . I’m here for the next chapter love. 💕

[@edwardmahony8160]

So glad your video came up on my feed.... I have missed you and your input whatever you decide to upload is great with me!!!

[@1wuzgray325]

YOu're certainly right about anonymity bringing out the worst in folks... However... we can also chose to treat each other well here too. The house seems like a fun project and I'm glad you've decided to get back in touch with people who follow you.

[@huhruserious]

I have so enjoyed following your journey since dr. Can’t wait to see where you take us 💖

[@SerdarAltinn]

This sounds so soothing! Happy to hear from you again :)

[@bonniecox217]

Pearl you are a wonderful person…I always enjoy your videos….you are true to yourself….be you….keep up the videos you truly help others….😊❤

[@guisodeuwu]

So glad you are doing okay, have an amazing life mr pearl you deserve it

[@picolesantos]

We can try to be happy. Seems you are on a great path for it. Amazing story, made me think.

[@johnfritz4096]

I am so glad to see and hear that you are doing well. I am grateful for each and every day and whilst we can all be better, that change comes from within. Positivity brings positivity. It is amazing what a safe, healthy and loving environment can provide. I am glad to see you happy. Keep on being wonderful! ❤️