I Can't Deal with This My Loved Ones Are Dying

[@DavidSoComedy]

Hi everyone hope y'all enjoy these solo pods. Lot of these topics are based on what you all ask for so please write in the comments below any questions comments funny stories or anything really! We'll be back to our regular schedule next week! but these aren't going to end! Appreciate you all! Hope some of this stuff is healing for y'all because its was for me so sometimes I get choked up but I'mma go punch some pillows and grow some chest hair real quick. See y'all next Sunday!

[@bethnichols2875]

Your podcasts are appreciated David, whether solo or with a guest, no matter the topics. Thank you.

[@JrokkShenanigans]

Hang in there man. Keep that love for Family and friends strong💪

[@itsfreddyfreaker1342]

Hey David, I was huge fan back in 2016 - 2020 ish didn’t stop watching on purpose just kinda got distracted for a while. hope you’re doing well prosaically your vids got me through a tough time ❤

[@DavidSoComedy]

@@itsfreddyfreaker1342gotta grow up and do big things! Just tappin in every now and then is good enough appreciate it :)

[@kylehayden6093]

Your solo pods are so intimate and genuine man, I love your insight and the way you tell stories. I’ve always looked up to you because of the things you’ve been through and done in your life. You’re really an inspiration and you’re gonna be a great father someday!

[@Carlinisalive]

I lost my brother(2022), my grandma(2023), and my sister(2024) and it’s crazy how people you see every day suddenly just disappear and can never speak to them again

[@bethnichols2875]

Condolences on your losses.

[@ishpreetsingh5086]

My condolences. I hope god gives you the strength to help get through these tough times.

[@selfiesenpie4118]

I used to work 2 jobs in fast food. Worked over 70hrs. I was in a really dark place. And one day a girl from HIgh school who was a really talented artist committed suicide. I kept thinking why did someone who deserves to live more than me die. I should've died. During work i kept glancing at everyone wondering why am i trying so hard to get these people to like me when i could've had that girl as a friend. These days the best I could do is try to be more present, spend time reading, working out and trying to be my best. Maybe I'll come across the chance to prevent people who suffer the way she did.

[@sandygonsalves4646]

What exactly makes you think you deserve to die anymore than she did? Sorry just curious

[@dz-yo3un]

@@sandygonsalves4646 i was thinking the same 🤔

[@user-iu2kq7nx8u]

​@@sandygonsalves4646probably significantly depressed like the rest of us, 70 hour burnout does quite the damage to mental health, but that's what we have to do to get by in this fantasy they call the American dream

[@47151632]

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

[@snoopdoff]

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

[@carly102982]

Yes, dr.porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@speedemonxs]

I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.

[@snoopdoff]

Is he on instagram?

[@carly102982]

Yes he is dr.porassss.

[@veroniquefaison]

I lost my mom on 16 January 2024. I miss her every day, minute and second. I love watching the video of you and your mom dancing at your wedding. I cry and laugh at the same time; it brings me joy and longing for my mom at the same time. Thank you, David; this was priceless.

[@bethnichols2875]

Condolences on your loss. 💐 I lost my mom in June of 2022. It's not easy and the emotions are a rollercoaster at times. May the memories you have of your mom bring a smile to your heart.🦋🕊

[@liymaf]

My older brother died on the exact same day. My condolences on your loss.

[@bethnichols2875]

@@liymaf Condolences on your loss as well. 💐🦋🕊

[@OooWeee11]

Sir, i lost my mom when i was 20. It's tough, man. She was in her late 40s and had a whole life ahead of her. I regret not spending time with her after leaving college and hung out with my toxic gf more than my mom. Right when she cheated and left me, my mom passed away. 26 now and i have a great career in my hand, and whenever i think about her; my tears will just dropped uncontrollably. Why? I think about where i am now and how she always wanted to go out and have me take her to Hawaii etc...i wish she could still be here and see me succeed as a man/son she wanted me to be. To all the people reading this: Prioritize yourself, but do ALWAYS love your parent! The reason they call you out of nowhere or lectured you is because they cared and love you. I wish she would call me once more and lecture me because it's her way of showing me tough love. 😪 Life is short, and dont waste your time on the toxic things in life. Enjoy the little moments

[@sc33h3o3]

Love from afar if necessary, some people aren't fortunate to have had sane parents, sometimes people have to go no contact if the abuse or toxicity is great enough

[@FruitWT]

This is exactly why I can't move away from my hometown. I'm a chubby Korean man (29yrs old) from Sacramento (elk grove area). Born and raised here. I also have a similar past as David. My family was very poor, korean church all my life, both parents too busy with work, etc. Literally every story David shares is deja vu. It's like we've had the exact same experiences growing up. I've always wanted to leave Sac and go to LA for the same reasons as David. I've heard of all the reasons why David chose to leave in order to better himself, push himself out of his comfort zone, being more productive in LA vs Sac, etc. But I just can't bring myself to leave my family behind. They say the moment you move to a different city away from your family, the amount of time you see them again only equates to about 1-2 months. That sht scares the fk out of me. Of course it's highly dependent on the individual, but from what I've seen around me, it's pretty darn true. One phone call a week turns to one phone call per month. Visiting during birthdays & holidays turns to "sorry I'm busy with work" or "I'm skipping thanksgiving this year for friendsgiving". Seeing my family grow older and older made me understand they don't have much time left with us. I looked through my phone photo album and snapchat memories from 2 years ago. They looked so freakin young. And now, they look so old. If you are away from your family, make sure to facetime them when you can! We just never know when it'll be the last time we get to talk to them.

[@anferneec]

Google "the tail end wait but why" - this blog post visually depicts just how much time many of us have with our parents as we age. a poignant quote from the piece "It turns out that when I graduated from high school, I had already used up 93% of my in-person parent time. I’m now enjoying the last 5% of that time. We’re in the tail end."

[@Postwarinktrap]

I lost my mom in 2020 to cancer and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't feel broken without her 💔

[@FoNgThOnG]

I am deathly afraid of losing Mom. My other siblings, I'm not close with them...But Mom has always been there.

[@jasin95]

knowing life is so short makes it a lot easier to forgive and be kind to others. i still need to figure out how to be kind to myself

[@OHNSLaus]

I lost my parents 15 and 17 years ago. That pain has never gone away. It just got easier to deal with. But still, there are times it still just sucker punches me out nowhere like: DAMN, bxxtch, DAMN!

[@JosoLifts]

I love these real podcasts man. Every single time it's a solo podcast I tune in because I know some shit is about to hit me like a ton of bricks. I always feel like I'm running out of time now with my parents/grandma/aunts/uncles. I was born so late in this world that by the time I was 15 I only had one grandparent left. I lost my cousin and uncle within a year of each other. I didn't go to either funeral because my parents didn't want to fly out to ohio. I wish I could've at least gone by myself to see them in the casket but man... Death is hard to deal with and it always will be. God bless you David. You've impacted my life far more than you will ever understand 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@KevCo95]

I had to pause this half way through cause I couldn’t imagine the pain you went through. In life all we strive is to make our grandparents proud and enjoy as much moments with them as possible, I couldn’t imagine having that robbed away from me while she’s still there. Much love David it’s a somber reminder to us all

[@d.636]

it’s been a while since I’ve tuned in just been busy with life, work & responsibilities. I’ve been watching/subscribed since I was 12/13 … I am 25 now and I am watching my parents & grandparents slowly wither away same with some siblings. So once I’m off work I’m locking into the episode. just wanted to share as I believe this is relatable & understandable for us all

[@bethnichols2875]

Welcome back.

[@nonyobiz6481]

Losing my Pops (Jan 2013)was the hardest thing I had to deal with in my life. Even when my mom (July 2007) passed (dementia) it didn't hit me that hard. For my mom I was just glad she was no longer confused and no longer having any pain. My Pops was my rock, and even though he prepared me ahead of time that he was near....it still hit hard. I guess these are all part of life's experiences....

[@lauramorkel5554]

My dad died on the 26th of July last year so I really appreciate this David stay strong and keep laughing sincere hugs to both Bart and Geo life is short time is not endless

[@beckettjeffries131]

Grieving is so crucial and for adults and their parents it can be so hard to allow that whilst logistically managing family. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Lost my grandfather and my dad spent a year just trying to get a grip on his affairs , he didn’t even document his own life wishes. It could’ve been a lot easier with some communication about wishes and wants. I say this not directly to you David, but a PSA to everyone to please atleast take note of what your loved ones want if they are gone. Edit: Memory related diseases fucking suck for everyone involved.

[@droptopp3479]

Lost my older bro a little over 10yrs ago and man i have never ever felt these type of emotions and sadness. The fact that i looked up to him and wanted to be just like him, then to have him pass away before i even got to highschool was such hard time to go through. Losing family is the hardest thing a person will ever feel and we just never recover from it. when a person that you see and talk to often just passes away your whole life changes and nothing is ever the same. But its life so we have to keep moving, lifes hard so keep your family close and stay in touch. For me im not afraid of death either, its the regrets and moments that i havent done or who i will leave behind is what im afraid of

[@yannaedc5934]

I went to the crematorium of my grandmother yesterday. Today I moved all the furniture from the nursery home. The pictures...are hard to look at...Just seeing her smile in those pictures, the memories. Knowing she was happy in that picture, that moment, healthy. I've seen pictures at the crematorium ceremony service thing that I've never seen before. I couldn't handle that. I was quiet but I was breaking down. Your past video of saying that looking at your parents, despite them being old, you don't see them that way, they still look 'the same' to you. That line stung, because that was the day I said goodbye to her, and it's true, she was a mere shell of herself at that point, but I just saw her for how I knew her. Does it get better? Yes. I've lost a childhood friend back in 2016 and every now and then something will trigger a memory and I'll be down but I do rejoice in the fact I got to know her. The same will happen with my grandmother from time to time. But yeah...being sad for what happened, but happy for being part of her life, having met her. It's been said plenty of times before but these solo podcasts, I love them so much. Thank you for doing this.

[@bethnichols2875]

Sincerest condolences on your loss. 💐🕊🦋 I know from experience that there will be a lot to do in the weeks and months ahead, yet be sure to take care of yourself in the process and cherish the memories you made.

[@stephiek.3267]

In a seven year period I lost 6 people close to me. My brother, my grandfather, my father, my grandma, my granny, and a very close friend. That time of my life was truly awful for me. It's been twenty years. Lost another two uncles in that time. You go on, and it hurts, but you do. 💔❤️‍🩹❤️

[@rey12958]

This podcast is so personal, I see why you were a Pastor. I Had a really grown up conversation with my mom today on the way home. Face that she can't keep working her entire life, that she is getting old and I may not be able to take care of her. This episode is really helping me stay grounded right now.

[@NatalieAliciaNorment]

I lost both sets of my grandparents years ago, my remaining grandfather died from COVID three years ago. I know what it's like to lose a loved one. Hang in there, David.

[@bethnichols2875]

Condolences on your losses. May you have many cherished memories to carry with you.

[@NatalieAliciaNorment]

@@bethnichols2875 thank you. I do cherish the memories I had with my grandparents from both sides and I still remember that one Christian poem I was taught by my grandmother from my dad's side. It goes like this: In my heart, I have a song Because I know to who I belong Jesus is my master, Jesus is my friend To him I will always be true Loyal to the end And I have stuck with that poem ever since my childhood.

[@bethnichols2875]

@@NatalieAliciaNorment That is a really beautiful poem. Thank you for sharing.

[@NatalieAliciaNorment]

@@bethnichols2875 your welcome and thank you. It's a surprise I still remember it but I hold that poem to my heart always.

[@number1Tone]

you think you can do this to me? Your story about the conversation with your mother really hit. I feel like that because at some point my mom lost her flame for life. I just had a conversation with my mother yesterday. I enjoyed it. my mother doesn't say much about her feelings but I know she loves me. I would like to connect with her more. I love her mother more than my actual mom because my grandmother has always been there. I learned so much from my grandmother. I forget that my mom is still my grandmother's child and that my grandmother lives through us. Thank you again David!!

[@Dinofrogg]

As im living through my 20's, the concept of death comes up alot. We all know, eventually we will all die but we don't think too much of it when we're young, well because we're young. So we don't think too much of it. The first time you experience death of a loved one, it REALLY changes you and you're never prepared for it even if you thought of it before. The first time i dealt with death was with my pet. It's been just over a year since but it was devastating at the start but it does get better dealing with the pain. Just like david said "the pain doesn't go away, it just gets better". There isnt a time limit to grieving a loved one because its a life long experience. I dont mean be depressed and sad forever but you'll continually process and feel appreciation of the loved one you lost. When i was at my lowest during that time, a stranger told me the deep pain i felt was the proof of my earnest love for them. That gave me comfort because i didn't think i was capable of love before and in a weird way i felt a little proud of myself.

[@Eclypseium]

build memories that will shield you when shit goes down...espcially when your soul is being prepped for travel...

[@BigHeartedAzn07]

This is what I need, lost my grandmother at the very end of 2020, lost my mother early 23’, and lost my very last grandparent in May. My mentality and life changed so much. Praying for better days. God bless you David.

[@melissaroldan7137]

I lost my father to lung disease in 2023, and my grandmother to Alzheimer’s this year. I was a caregiver for both. This hits home. Thanks for sharing, David. My condolences to you and Geo on the loss of your loved ones. 21:10 OOOF!!! my siblings did this to me and I fell apart!!! Shit this is a deep video! 😢

[@ZzFlamezZ]

love your podcasts david. don’t ever stop sharing your experiences, advice, and opinions. my condolences

[@nobody-n9s]

This topic scares me so much! It’s so hard… also geo revealing that her brother passed made me cry I felt so sad for her! I can’t even fathom what she is going through 😢 💔

[@hanasatsukii]

My grandma started showing signs of alzheimer's when I was young, and just watching her deteriorate over the years was something I'd never wish on anyone. The worst of it all was when she forgot my dad, that was one of the only times I ever saw him cry. Two years after she passed, my dad passed away in a car accident. Their deaths have changed my life forever, everything you said was so spot on. I'm still terrified of losing my loved ones everyday, and I try to cherish every moment.

[@amikuko]

I just lost my dad a month ago and its been tough. Watching him get worse and worse was probably the hardest thing I had to deal with. I was on the same boat with being close to my grandma and I wish I had just made more of an effort to call her the year she died as I was away to university. Luckily I learned from mistake and made more of an effort to see my dad when he got sick. Honestly making the effort to just call them will put a smile to their face~

[@ravvent6787]

Love this. Coming from an immigrant family my grandparents felt like another set of parents. I love and miss them soo much. Mahalos for the vulnerability

[@duskshadow25]

I remember when my grandma passed away and I have never seen my dad cried his entire life. That night, he closed his bedroom door and cried his eyes out, and that was my first time I ever heard my dad cried in my entire life. But David, ain't nothing a soap dropping on the ground can't fix.

[@Major_Lexx]

Holy shit! I subscribed to this guy years ago! Not sure why I have not seen a video pop up in my recommended in like 10 years????? Looking good, brother.

[@bethnichols2875]

Welcome back.

[@Major_Lexx]

@@bethnichols2875 I think the last videos I saw were some fitness things like funny fat or something? I need to go back and see what has been happening for the last decade lol

[@pinkteddy21]

Hearing your story of your aunt after the loss of your grandmother was hard for me digest. The growth and compassion for you to look back at the moment where you screamed at her is incredibly commendable! Your aunt was a daughter who lost her mother, and you were a young man and grandson you had to make sacrifices to be present for your grandmother and was also extremely overwhelmed with grief. I'm Korean, and I know the fucked up things Korean family members will say to us because they just weren't taught better regarding ways to express themselves in adulthood. I don't think you were in the wrong because you were there while, as you said, your grandmother "withered away." That's really difficult to deal with. She needed to hear your words - she was facing the harsh reality of how she let her fear of seeing her own mother fade away and now the guilt remained. Sometimes, those moments where we momentarily lose control (no violence or genuine harm done) is what we need in life when we have to face ourselves with deep regret and personal guilt. Grief is so hard - there isn't a right/correct way, so to speak, but there are certainly, at times, the wrong way to handle things. I know that I, myself, have unintentionally done the "wrong" things when handling grief and pain by hurting loved ones with my words. I've since learned and worked to reconcile. Nonetheless, we must carry on and forgive ourselves and others (within reason). Sending much love and thank you again for sharing your powerful story! What an incredible lesson.

[@pearlwong5601]

David, Thank you for helping some of us to open our eyes. It helps when we know that the reasons we think is right, but there is always another reason behind it.. it's not always worth being right. Life is way too short to always be correct.

[@DGazette]

What I'd give to have one more conversation with my mom who passed two years ago... even if its just a text. I just wanna tell her how much I miss and love her.

[@bethnichols2875]

Condolences on your loss. 💐 You can still tell her. She can hear you as she watches over you. 🦋🕊

[@Daisiabk]

Crazy week. Listening to this on Sunday but just this Friday we got a call from my uncle that my cousin, who was deployed in Korea, had committed suicide. I never knew the cousin but they are immediate family so my heart sunk hearing that. Hoping everyone finds peace no matter what you're struggling with or where you are.

[@imadori1010]

My daughter was born exactly a year after my dad passed away being a daddy's girl I can only imagine what their bond would have been like.😢

[@nianatura]

Wow thank you David. I’m going through some fam issues. Or whatever. I have to keep in mind at the end of the day I love them and I won’t allow them to control and constantly disregard my boundaries but I do love em and maybe just check up on them going forward since I will be moving and won’t look back. Maybe things will change though…Much loveee

[@kp82727]

Love this David! A movie I just watched was how to make a million before grandma dies. It definitely hit the feels. Loving the solo pods! We get to see the more mature and emotionally intelligent person you are. Very empathetic person.

[@Hey_heaven]

The hardest death was my grandma.. She died from cancer and she had Alzheimer’s. When the doctors told us she only had three weeks left to live, I went to her bedroom the next morning and she was lying awake in her bed. She looked at me and she said my nickname that she gave me (that never happens). She remembered the 5yr old version of me. Telling me to get my jacket and she’ll take me to the bus. I left to “get my jacket” but I really went to the other room to cry. I came back to her and I felt like she had a moment of clarity and she said to me, “you take care of your parents and brothers”. I was 11 years old at that time and that was 22 years ago… I would like to hope that I’ve been honoring her... I miss her so much she was my 2nd mother I lost a lot of loved ones. Some tragically… like suicide, car accident, and a double drowning.. it sucks. It never gets easier..

[@s2Marckkk]

I'm 32, and I lost my dad who's 81 the night your video came out. I was thinking about watching it in the morning but I decided against it. I'm glad I waited to watch it. It made my feelings feel justified and helps me know that I'm not the only one going through it. Long time viewer, I'm glad i've kept up with you. Keep doing what you're doing man, you're helping more people than you know.

[@Feilong4]

Your story of your grandmother reminded me of myself with my grandfather who passed 7 years ago this November. It was a pretty tightknit but huge Asian immigrant family (7-8 uncles and an aunt whose kids have kids of their own now) with my parents and I living with them but also with one uncle and his wife and kids in the same house. It was a duplex and our families lived on both floors. I can recall spending a lot of time with my grandfather growing up, walking to the Asian supermarket together, driving off to a patch of land they farmed on, and a lot more memories that I've forgotten by now. I always viewed him as an able-bodied and stern, but yet friendly and funny person. When I was around 8, we moved out due to, let's just say, a disagreement between our families. My parents and I would visit them once in a while. We've sorta drifted apart throughout the years due to growing animosity from said disagreement. One day, I've heard from my dad that my grandfather had gotten this condition that hospitalized him. I don't quite remember but it was something among the lines of fluid getting into the lungs. At the next family gathering when I saw my grandfather, my heart absolutely sunk. He was in a wheel chair and his skin looked just stretched out and sagging. For once, this man, who I saw as able-bodied and strong, looked sick and helpless. Honestly, it hurt me deeply to see him this way. I just didn't know how to react. When he passed in 2017, I felt paralyzed. For the first time in my life, someone so close to me had passed away. I remember my family being at his side after my grandfather had passed. We've just gotten there just 10 minutes or so too late. My grandmother was bawling begging him to wake up, saying, "Please wake up, I'll even cook you your favorite meal so please just wake up!" At his funeral, it's said that his final words or really his wish was for his sons and family to love one another. After my grandmother passed away just 3 years after in 2020 from her illness, my family has nearly all drifted apart. They were the cornerstone or glue that kept us all connected even if it was by a thread.

[@13luberri]

I found out my dad has cancer from my brother who I don’t talk to. Both of my parents are insufferable but I can’t get the shaking sunken feeling out. Feels like some drunken stupor that’s surreal. I don’t get along with my parents bc of who they are and I’m from typical Asian background. Like second gen, born in the USA… parents FOB. I don’t even know what to say to him bc of the trauma both him and my mom caused. I’m so tired of trying to connect to them bc I know there is only oh so much time I get with them as we get older…. But it’s like holding on to a rope of thorns.. Like all I want to do is cry, scream, and hate. Hate how much they fucked me up . How much narcissism there is and how hypocritical they are, condescending, and belittle me because I don’t make a million dollars or have a doctoral degree. Nonetheless, it’s my dad… what do I even do..

[@hellojinnyjinny]

I had to go to four funerals this year…it’s been a seriously heartbreaking and reflective year. Thank you for this podcast. Hearing how others process grief really helps.

[@maitzengchang6476]

Thank you for sharing your experiences and stories with us, David. I enjoy your solo podcasts!

[@dare_he_is]

I lost my older cousin who was like a big brother to me almost 2 years ago. He was only in his mid thirties.. he went through a lot serving in Afghanistan and Iraq. That paired with a multitude of things that went on with his family. It all became a lot for him and he took his own life in a field near his family’s home and his son was watching as the cops tried talking him down. I’ve talked to him down in the past when I was a teenager when he’d have PTSD episodes.. he was usually a very funny, goofy, and carefree guy. Always so selfless. Definitely gone far too soon, but it made me reevaluate my life and truly echoed in my mind that life is too short and there’s so many different things to live on for. I’ve been getting myself ready to go back to school, seek out and strive for my dreams and passions, and really give them a true try instead of putting them on the back burner till that passion eventually fades. He used to make comments about me not getting stuck at a comfy job and staying trapped in my hometown, he’d tell me to find something I love doing then followed that he hated what he’s doing and wished circumstances were different… These interactions play in my head from time to time among many more. I miss my bestfriend, I miss my big brother, I miss my cousin and his dumb laugh n corny ass jokes, I miss the cringe ass videos and memes he’d force me to watch, I miss him man. I’m pretty sure I’m fucked up having seen him in the trauma room the way I did.. With him gone and seeing what it’s done to my aunt(his mom) and his son. I now fear the day when i leave this planet one day. I fear about whether or not my younger siblings will be okay and I won’t get to be there to help them out or lend a shoulder or ear, i just want them to truly be okay when I’m no longer here.

[@KateLibby555]

On the 26th June 2024 my dad was told that his cancer had returned. Less than a month later he was dead. He went from being his normal healthy self in June to seeing him rapidly going down hill, bedridden, confused and dying in just weeks. It happened so fast. I had so many questions I wanted to ask him, just little things like what his favourite song was, his favourite vacation, I had a whole list but hardly got through any of it. He was in so much pain and distress then I didn’t want to upset him by asking my dumb questions. I’ve lived at home with my parents all my life due to my lifelong health issues so I’ve spent more time with my parents than most people but it still felt like there wasn’t enough time. He was the person I loved most in the world. I miss him terribly.

[@CherylCalitis]

❤️‍🩹 what a great episode. i grew up without a dad and grew up with my mom, sis and grandma (but we were raised by our grandma). Lost both my mom and grandma within a 3 year span of each other. my mom died last year, when i was 24 years old. so its really nice hearing conversations like this and hearing u talk about the appreciation and effort your put toward your parents & loved ones. i know im still young, but i look back and wish i coulda been better to the people that raised me; especially knowing that I will never have the experience of having parents moving forward/for the rest of my life and adulthood. thanks for this episode and for your vulnerability david

[@Kristinee1]

I lost my mom earlier this year… there is NOTHING I would not do to bring her back and give her the time and attention that she asked for. It breaks my heart every time I think of how oblivious I was to what I did and didn’t do. I hate it. I hate that I always said I was busy. I miss her and think of her every single minute of everyday!

[@jensumoreno1356]

Lost my grandma and my pops in the last couple years and this podcast brought me to absolute tears. I just want give my condolences to you and anyone that’s ever lost someone one. Absolutely right the pain doesn’t go away it just gets better.

[@impact1209]

I lost both my grandparents and uncle (dad older brother) all a month apart from each other...talked being in a dark place...grandpa pass first...we barely got over his lost...then grandma passed the following month then my uncle...you can see it in my parent's and uncle next door...the pain of losing both parent's and brother while hiding the pain...2009 was a crazy year indeed...

[@resident1702]

I've been losing my folks since my early teens and early 20s. My mom just passed in jan. I'm surprised im still alive and haven't killed myself already. but in all honestly it kinda gets better overtime.

[@Sanyi941]

I’m in tears watching this. I love the solo podcasts, even if they get emotional, because they have such an in depth perspective and take on such a personal feeling in how you tell your stories

[@leenaravenwood]

I love this style of podcast tbh and Im glad you bring up this topic

[@user-iw2md2gl4q]

I put off watching this because I knew it would hit way too hard. Already started crying from 4 mins in. I relate to this so much it hurts and I truly don't know how to deal with it. I feel like I'm not living my life to the fullest because of my fear and anxiety of knowing I will unknowingly lose my loved ones one day. On one hand, I never take the time with them for granted, but on the other, the time always feels bitter sweet and I live in constant sadness knowing how fleeting time is.

[@puffpuffin1]

Lost my mom last year. I was her caregiver taking her everywhere she needed when I could. I was lucky to live nearby so I had dinner with her almost every night. It was still heartbreaking seeing her get older and more frail by the day. Then she was gone. It still hurts and I have bouts of depression where it's hard to anything on my "to-do" list. I just sit in front of the computer and watch YT videos now. It's especially bad at dinner time because I'm alone now. I don't know why but I stupidly thought after a couple months of grieving, I could finally shrink that "to-do" list down since I had to work and take care of my mom. Well, it didn't happen. I've already decided that "to-do" list is going to have to be put off another year. It's just too stressful to continue grieving and trying to get things done. Thanks for giving us all an outlet for this discussion. I'm sure it has helped a lot of people reading the comments.

[@PKAYAJ]

It’s crazy how a lot of us are going through the same thing around the same time. I laid to rest my brother (38 yr old) the past weekend and this hits home. Love you geo. Thanks David for this.

[@JackieTrainwreck]

I feel you. This topic hit me deep. I lost my grandmother in 2020 and then my grandfather not a year after right after i moved to Korea with my wife and son.... And then a few months after that, I spoke to my best friend, and then the next afternoon i receive a phone call from his wife that he jumped off a building a few hours after i spoke to him.... Those chain of events fucked me up so bad and took me to a very dark place that sometimes i still find myself in because i have never forgiven myself for his passing....

[@bestgrader4608]

David, your Aunt shouldn’t have said that to you.. what you did for your grandma was not your responsibility to bear. Listen I would’ve also taken care of my grandma because I love her too. Even if the anger she was feeling was directed at her inability to be present in difficult times, that shouldn’t have been the first thing she said when she saw you. You screaming at her was valid, maybe the wrong choice of words, but all your efforts, your stress and your grief were valid too.

[@bethnichols2875]

Thank you for saying that, esp. since I know David reads the comments.

[@jasin95]

Nobody is wrong or right in that situation, it's not appropriate to give one side more leeway in how they can express themselves

[@Ryansavagesstla]

Lost my grand parents, got cheated on, one of my close friends committed suicide all in 3 months, life will get better, struggle doesn’t last forever 🤍

[@localbraddah07]

Aloha e David! From Toronto, Canada! I hear you man and now that my wife and I are approaching our late 40s, we are dealing with family health issues and aging amongst our parents and aunts & uncles (grandparents are already gone). This video HITS and is a reminder, we aren't here long! With that, my wife and I will be visiting O'ahu so I'll come by Junbi to say aloha and dab ya (hopefully you are there!). Until then, be at peace and happy with this life you have!

[@x2pm]

I lost my grandpa 2 weeks ago. I was glad I was able to fly over and spend 1 week with him before he passed. It was sad watching him taking his last breath and how much pain he was in the hospital for almost 3 weeks. It was frustrating and we felt so helpless, and he just wanted to go home. We just concluded his funeral on Saturday and Sunday. It was beautiful that our family and extended family came together to say the last final goodbye.

[@celly57]

I lost my Mother April 2022 The 5 years leading up to it was the toughest years of both mine and my Mom's life. She had a rare disease called Multiple System Atrophy (MSA). And to see and watch my Mom physically deteriorate in front of my eyes was the most heart breaking thing. It was hard for my Mom to go through a non-curable thing and for me to take care and watch her go through with it. As much as I miss my Mom and wish she as here, It was honestly a relief that she has now passed on. It is because she is no longer in pain and it was the best thing for her not to be here and suffer. I love my Mom and she was the brightest star in my life. Now she has joined the stars in the sky. Every since day I still think about her and all the wonderfullness she was. No, the grief never goes away, but you learn to deal

[@DampPandaSauce]

I lost my brother, he was killed in 2019. I learned that the love I gave or "paid" him over years...His loss, my grief is the receipt I got for the memories and love we had. I miss him, I'll live for him. I hope anyone who reads this can learn that loss and grief will never be gone regardless of time. It just becomes bearable...I love everyone who reads this, be safe, love and crack jokes. - Oché from Denver.

[@yvonnenagel9428]

Thank you David! You are loved, thank you for sharing your view on grief🌅

[@freethepeople6437]

My condolences. One day at time and have a good week.

[@MyLife-og2kr]

My grandma had dementia at the end of her life too. Before I went to university, I would take her everywhere. To her appointments and store. When I was little, she loved me the most. She was the one who took care of me. Sbe couldn't remember me. But I feel like I know what point of her life she was living. She would remember my cousins. She stayed with my youngest uncle and helped raised my cousins. Her memories would take her back to when they first moved to NC, living by themselves. What she told me I reconnected to and Im not gonna lie, I was a bit scared. I was scared that she missed so much of her life. They moved here in 1998. She passed in 2021.

[@akarocket]

it's important for these kinds of talks. lost 2 sisters, an uncle and a family friend in 1992, lost my grandma on my birthday x yrs ago, lost a close friend of mine late last year. lost my aunt (dad's older sister) 2 months ago, lost another friend last month, lost a cousin sister just at the start of this month, and just lost my uncle (dad's younger brother). it's never easy.

[@brisker5524]

GBS lol i love that the solo cast is branded now. but on a more somber note prayers to everyone struggling with loss of loved ones.

[@jun1per435]

I lost two high school classmates last year due to health issues. My school was small, so everyone knew everyone. It was a heavy feeling in all our hearts. We're all in our early 30s, and it's true that in your 30s, you'll begin to unexpectedly lose people in your life. I've lived away from my family for a decade now, and I'm planning to move back this fall to spend more time with them. Time on this earth is precious, and it's more meaningful to spend it with my loved ones.

[@jjhb6804]

I love these more raw podcasts when you go solo mode. Life's fucking confusing mess and I could relate to your exp about your grandmother even though I had to leave my grandparents in Korea while I am carrying on here.

[@TORULEZ10]

Out of most things in life, I've never undervalued relationships in my life. I always hated and thought the "I wish I knew" or "I wish I had more time" sentiments were dumb and avoidable. I try to make everyone I meet feel valued, even commenting on a stranger's shirt. Now that I've learned boundaries, I can begin feeling that myself, too. TLDR; Love yourself and the people you value (and value you). The next second is never granted.

[@tahjesue-johnson9795]

Truly just went through this with my grandfather watching him pass away at home. Happens so fast and during the process you could just see the agony and you just wish peace for them. Truly a saddening life event that happens. 🙏

[@thegoat6147]

this resonates hard, it's a reminder of something I always knew in the back of my mind that I had to do but kept pushing it aside for trivial pathetic excuses. thx for this my guy

[@CuongChanster]

Death of a loved one definitely rips a whole in our chest 💔. Worst than breakups, heart breaks

[@Ryu62Alpha]

I lost my father in May (2024) He was 83, and had been ill for years. We knew it would happen, and in a way, we've been saying goodbye for so long, but it still hurts Coming to terms with the good, the bad, and the the fact that he was a person has been a sobering experience

[@V4Now]

My gran went through dimentia too, i wasn't as upset with her passing as with my Grandad who passed years earlier. My Dad has no parents now, i often wonder how badly I'll take his passing because similar to your Aunt, i've been a worse son.

[@jacobhope4657]

I just watched you on Theo Vons podcast great one. Sorry for your loss bro!

[@nikko2thep]

Dementia is crazy. Got to experience this myself with my grandma. She would have fits and get pissed because she wanted to “go home” when she was already home. It was tough.

[@normamedina]

Beautiful video! Lost my grandma ten years ago but we still deal with it because it was sudden especially for someone who very healthy. I agree with David is how we long to preserve our loved ones in our world, forgetting our mortality. Send condolences and prayers to Geo ❤❤

[@ihaveamoustache35]

My grandpa actually just passed away on July 14th 2024. My mom, dad, and I flew to China immediately to be with my grandma and support her. I was laid off in January and was able to spend lots of time with my grandparents and make really fresh memories. I'm grateful and blessed that I was given such valuable time with them. If I wasn't let go, I would not have seen my grandpa before he passed. My perspective has changed now with my parents, they're getting older and I'm an only child. Its really hard to think about my parents passing away, but it also forces me to straighten up. Have more patience with them, call them more, tell them I love them more, etc. But my grandpa's passing really taught me a lot

[@lolohugs]

i just want to say 1) i love the solo pods, it reminds me of the vlogs back then when i was growing up and 2) thank you for being vulnerable with us. i'm sorry about your losses. everyone grieves differently but i think that pain we feel shows we are human and that we care (: love you david

[@EightAutumns]

I lost my great grandma 2 months ago. She was a mean old hag to me, I truly have no idea why, anyways, I went to the funeral to support my mom because she did love my mom and my mom loved her, and that was enough for me. I just have to say, go see your loved ones and put in effort for them IF you have a good relationship with them or if it’s a REPAIRABLE relationship. I say this because, it really is traumatizing to go see someone during their last days, but they won’t talk to you, won’t look at you, won’t acknowledge you. It’s really messed me up in a sense. I don’t regret supporting my mom, but I do wish I felt better about it? I feel so bitter because my great grandma was such a witch to me, and at the end of the day, no matter what I do for my family, I’m the one who goes to bed by myself knowing that I had to face someone who hated me with all their soul. Maybe it shouldn’t bother me so much. But for some reason it just does, because I don’t know why she hated me and acted so bad to me. So anyways, if you’re someone like me, go see the people you actually love and care for Who Love You Back. Don’t waste time on people who don’t love you and will never change.

[@TrixAreForKids33]

This podcast really hit home for me. My dad has Lewy body dementia and a lot of the points David hit, I could relate to. It’s hard watching your loved one suffer and wither away. It’s frustrating having to repeat yourself and knowing they don’t understand or will be forgetting in the next hour. It’s hard thinking that one day he won’t be here and having the internal struggle of what life will be like once you don’t have to worry about them anymore. It’s slowly destroyed my immediate family and has weighed heavily on all of us. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

[@rosioreynoso]

My heart feels for Geo I've been there ... I lost mom and Lil sis a year apart. 2022.2023. Was hard..I Pray for comfort for them. My heart breaks for her mom I can't imagine losing a child regardless there age. I send a big hug and prayers for them in this horrible time of grief. It never gets easy we just adjust ❤

[@pantherman3]

There was a point in my life that I didn't care if I die either so I can sort of relate. Meeting my wife changed all that. Looking forward to creating a united family gave me purpose. This part of my life I quickly had to disconnect with a lot of people that were toxic. Some of those people happen to be my mom and sister. After not speaking to them for a while I found out that they are not in good health, and this made me rethink of my life choices and now making sure that those I NEEDED to talk to I reach out to because no one knows in what way any of us are going to move on. We all hope we all go out in peace but unfortunately that is not always the case. So, yea...David thank you man. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us and your life experiences it means a lot.

[@A.lowkee.savage]

I love the solo podcast David. My 2 hour commute to the bay with your solo podcasts helps me really reflect on a lot of things. Thank you for being a kind human being and we appreciate you

[@zanbaqmotta9811]

It’s been three months since I lost my dad and the thought of never being able to talk to him is such a battle

[@MyLife-og2kr]

Lost my grandma in 2021, my aunt in 2022, and my brother in 2024. Can people stop dying!? 😡 This is why when your loved ones are still alive, love them as much as you can so when they're gone, you can be sure that you loved them.

[@spndrtwentythree5239]

Brother lost is very hard and you never really recover. Sending my ❤and my condolences to you. Dementia is a terrible disease, its a slow death and a prolonged grief. Like you sad by the time they actually pass on its a relief . My aunty died from a liver transplant and it was also during the pandemic she lived in an other state by Grace of God we made to our cousins before sydney locked down. I have gone to Melbourne 100 of times but that flight going home has changed going to Melbourne for ever since. Even today I still get caught and tear up when I think of her. It's hard. Hang in there brother sending u ❤❤❤❤

[@oceanbreeze1110]

Sending prayers and love to Geo and family.

[@RustleXer]

I look forward to when you are gonna start having guests back on the podcast again. The solo stuff is good but would like to see actual conversation happen.

[@casethreat]

hearing david talk about his relationship with his mom is how me n my moms relationship are im young im in my early 20s and i can relate to it a lot thank you for giving me those thoughtful advices and i hope later in my years i can develop a good relationship with my mother

[@just88]

Aside from swearing and the dementia part, I definitely can relate to your story - mainly losing loved ones one after another. I've lost 5 so far, although just like what my father said before he died - "I have my replacements" as he pointed to his numerous great-grandchildren around him. I am lucky that the only dementia I have experienced is at the facilities where I work. Most people do not know that one can die because of dementia. And families who are not aware of this, have the hardest time coping when their loved ones eventually die.

[@ritchierich2793]

Damn, this hit in my soul.. My father is having a early stage of MND, and its horrible seeing a family member not being themselves.. You dont know the time we have with our love ones, it teaches us that father time remains unbeatable..Its depressing seeing family members deteriorating..

[@youwillabayme9477]

My Lolo had Alzheimer’s and eventually passed away and was incredibly difficult to deal with, everything David says is so true you’re never prepared, it breaks your heart and it’s hard on everybody around them

[@addiegraves3]

Loosing loved ones is tough, My next trip is going to be the last time I see my Dad before he passes 😭

[@bethnichols2875]

May you find the comfort, strength and courage for what lies ahead, Addie. 💐🕊🦋

[@addiegraves3]

@@bethnichols2875 Thank you for your kind words Beth 💞

[@Richardarbizo]

My uncle just passed last month and we're finally having his funeral in a few weeks. Obviously sucks when it's someone you really care about and love, but it's definitely a blessing to have had a relationship reliant on roasting and laughing that's helped me and my family grieve much easier.