It's always too late for me, why? Just why did it have to be like it was. No harm no foul, but harm was done. It's a disaster and now I am blind to hope. Such a shame. I guess my clean slate isn't so clean now. My entire future will most likely be uncontrollable in every way. My plans and intentions will be taken even if they are for the good. I am a product of bad luck and very negative hallucinations. I did not mean to be whatever you see me as.