I don't believe it for a damn minute!

Join this channel to get access to perks:
/ @notgrowingold
Check me out on Facebook: / growingoldwithoutgrowi...
If you like my videos and want to say thanks, buy me a coffee.
www.buymeacoff...
Check out hubby's channels @notoshaapproved and @NoBSBatteries

[@1234singingismylife]

I wholeheartedly agree with you. I’m a retired licensed private investigator. Friends that close and with that personality would normally have left some clue, or would have exhibited some signs that something was going on. From what you say, it doesn’t make any sense. And women normally do not use a firearm, and from what you say, that’s what I surmise. If you have the means, and someone who could go with you, take evidence of the close “sister” relationship you two had and take a trip there. The police may feel that wasn’t what happened either, but if there’s no further evidence to investigate it ends up a cold case. I have three of those girlfriends. Vacationed every year together until we got too old. We’re 73, 75, 77 and 77. We finish each other’s sentences! If you have the means, just check, if only to ease your mind. I believe, it would be well worth it for the peace of mind. I’d have to mortgage my home and find someone to take me, and to take care of me (haha) and make that trip. Of course, curiosity is why I went into that field in the beginning. I now live in Virginia, and if you feel the need to talk to someone, I can listen. You had that seed of doubt that led you this far. I pray you are able to find the peace you so deserve.

[@leasagowers2293]

I’m sorry. Something similar happened to me with an old friend. I still feel bad that she was gone before I had the opportunity to reconnect with her. It’s so shocking. It gets down in your soul. 🙏

[@LesleyMcmillan-z9p]

They were NOT friends any more..

[@PiNkSpRinkLe1]

I am SO sorry for the loss of your friend. Please understand that the mental state of others is no fault of yours. If she did indeed have a role in her demise, you are not the cause. Take your time to grieve and accept this lesson to embrace all relationships that you are currently blessed with. Exactly, love everybody, do not be mad. Life can change on the turn of a dime. I do not know why your channel came up in my feed, but I truly sympathize with your loss.

[@tvmom]

I hate when I find a friend has passed on fb. It’s a particular kind of shock. Sorry for your loss.

[@jaytay8637]

She felt exactly about you as you felt about her, and most importantly she knew you loved each other.

[@glendaroberts8463]

There is a friend who lived in canada and i lived in tx. Many letters shared, we claimed one another as sisters. We were penpals but we shared kids growing up, meals we cooked, books we shared with one another, photos for many years as our kids grew up.....we had a pause on our letters, i was working alot and she got sick and that last yr promise of a letter from her, it never happened and she passed and i never got that letter from her. I know the deep hurt and sadness as i have the sadness too. You never forget when a friend or somebody you love becomes entwined in your heart. Please give yourself a treat, i so related, it touched me. I just saw you for first time and i just subscribed. Blessing to you from tx.

[@tears-ran-dry]

My deepest sympathy for the loss of your friend. Lifting you up in prayer and May she RIP & LOVE ETERNAL.((BIGHUGS))

[@kathyelliot9795]

I’m so terribly sorry for your loss!!!!!

[@laurastewart2418]

I sure wish peoples family would let people know when someone passes

[@cathyhopkinson865]

I’m not from the area, but was in the area on vacation during this time. I seem to remember reading that the owner wasn’t there that day and he also didn’t attend her service, which I thought seemed odd and perhaps even a little suspicious. I’m so sorry about your friend, loss is never easy. Find comfort in knowing that deep in her heart, she knew you loved her. 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

[@mariakatechis7072]

I’m so sorry for your loss !!! She was soo young ... May she RIP .....

[@NiaMeredith1971]

Im sorry to hear your sad outcome but throughout you video i could relate and sense your overwhelming humanity and warmth for your friend. Its rare to find people with true emotions these days. Its a cold unforgiving place, but grief is a process. Dont rush and be exceptionally kind to yourself.

[@CAY1900]

I’m so very sorry for your loss. Sending prayers🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@cindykane6227]

I feel your pain!! I lost my best friend 8yrs ago because I was a judgemental jerk. Ive looked hard to find her, but she lives in New York. Your gut instinct could be right, its sad and awful either way. Im so sorry for your loss😔

[@randomhodgepodge8902]

My heart goes out to you.

[@conniepine1770]

It is terrible about your friend. My heart goes out to you. I just wanted to let you know that you are the reason I called my oldest dearest friend of 46 years. We hadn't talked in well over a year. Life gets in the way sometimes .Thank you for reminding me of things that truly matter.

[@ritacooke3175]

I’m so, so sorry for your loss. I understand your feelings and can relate. Please try and not be too hard on yourself. She was so young. I will be praying for you and better understanding of the situation. ❤

[@carlabullock8681]

Sending my deepest and most sincere condolences! ❤❤❤❤❤

[@donnawashburn1638]

So sorry for your loss ! You’ll be in my prayers ! 🙏🏻

[@doreen5951]

To have children and grandchildren, it seems very odd she would take her life. Also, statistics show women rarely use a gun to end their life. Frankly-the entire story is odd. God bless you. This is a terrible tragedy.

[@gabrielletanner5339]

She made her decision 😢 some peoples' minds work in mysterious ways, nothing to do with you...fromUK XX

[@stonecrestquilt]

I’m so sorry for your loss. With surveillance these days,, Nobody does anything without being seen.

[@sipvypkbj103]

True. Ever where. Have 📷

[@lueValentine]

My condolences. Yes we must let go of the insignificant things in life, silly disagreements. Sometimes u think u know someone, but we find out we didn’t know them at all. Cling to Jesus!

[@MrRottyduo]

I'm deeply sorry for your loss and that you just now find out. I can relate to loosing your best friend. Sending a virtual hug 💗

[@romalester1079]

So sorry about your friend. My daughter has not talked to me in3 years. So so sad

[@dmariewalker6880]

I have a son like that, but maybe some day our kids will come to terms with themselves. He also has a son that lives 30 miles away and he doesn’t have anything to do with him, it’s so sad bc my grandson really needed his dad in his life.😢

[@user-hh8eh7gb2j]

RIP to you friend, hope she is at peace.

[@createwithlinda5181]

So sad, I know how you feel. Losing a friend that you were distant from. It’s heartbreaking not being able to say goodbye, and speak the words that you would want to say…regrets are the worst. Hang in there and talk to her she will hear you and listen….🙏🙏🙏💔❤️

[@christophermondone6864]

Everyone that's alive year by year you're going to get older, can't avoid it, that's just life. It takes a toll on anyone. Just take it one day at a time and do the best you can with it. It's what I have to do to make it.

[@dorothygillespie4466]

I'm very sorry for the loss of your best friend.😢 I may be watching too many TV shows, but do you think you will take this any further investigating what could have happened to her? Any of her friends or relatives who you could maybe talk to in person? I and a relative had a friend who died alone in FL in his home. We called the Medical Examiner's office because an autopsy was done and were able to find out health details we had no idea about before his death, which was due to health problems. But it did help us somewhat to reach peace of mind. I wish you peace and love.🙏

[@VenitaBouldin]

Oh, my goodness that was a bad way to find out about your friend. So sorry and sending you prayers because I know you are grieving her loss 🙏🏼🙏🏼❤❤

[@ritakillett2991]

I was just scrolling on UTube and came upon this I just want to say that You are my inspiration today I am so sorry for your loss I wish I had a friend like you in my life ❤❤❤❤❤

[@sandradavis4551]

I am so sorry that happened to you, I feel your pain. Something similar happened with me and my twin brother. One day we had the silliest argument (I’m too embarrassed to even say what it was about). I remember being so mad at him. I moved out of town, we never made up. One nite I got a call from Mom. He was found deceased in his apartment. It turned out to be a medical situation. This happened in 1996 after we had just turned 41. Not a day has gone by that I don’t think about how we could have handled our disagreement better. I agree with you. Don’t keep harping on the stupid stuff. If you have a disagreement with someone, make up as soon as possible. You just never know. BIG HUG FOR YOU MY FRIEND. ❤❤❤

[@lynnh4923]

So sorry for your loss. It's very hurtful to lose a dear friend in that manner. I am in my 60's and have had to let a couple of my good friendships go but I know it was the best thing for me to do. I feel more at peace now. I can't imagine moving in with a friend and then trying to redecorate the bathroom without asking permission first. Please try not to be too hard on yourself. 🙏🙏

[@larryboysen5911]

My prayers go out to you...I have lost a number of family and friends...as an 81 year old man, never married and an only offspring...I know what loneliness is...however life has to go on!

[@notgrowingold]

Yes, it does, and by some Grace, I am still here. But it is getting a bit lonely 🙁

[@larryboysen5911]

@@notgrowingold I will keep you in my prayers, as I do to several other in the "lonely boat"!

[@sandraletsche7236]

Sorry to hear of your loss x

[@sipvypkbj103]

Yes what a shock. For her

[@yourfriendbonita]

Me and my son are so proud of you. You got so many things done.

[@isolda980]

❤My condolences to you, young lady. Keep working thru it. I pray that you will be fine; in time.

[@notgrowingold]

It will all work out, thank you, I am keeping the faith.

[@inkkeysful]

I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend. It really hurts to find out like that on FB too, it's awful. I've lost a few friends that I wasn't so close to, and a very close friend and that I found out by seeing the RIP posts. The worse was finding out about my best friend's son who lost his life in a car accident. I watched him grow up from a child and the shock hits hard. She hadn't had a chance to even call me yet and I was at her door by the time she got back from the hospital.

[@JanetWalker254]

I’m so sorry. I too have friends like this and you most likely knew her better than she knew herself. Talk to her children. See how they’re feeling about this. Again, my heart goes out to you.

[@coressaclark6354]

My Condolences and Prayers

[@CraftyMomma05]

I am sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. I wish I could send you a hug. Please take care of yourself.

[@leasaharmon7700]

I'm so sorry for your loss and the shock. I just happened to discover that a friend from another state died a few weeks ago, like you I learned on line. No one bothered to give me a call and tell me and they all have my phone #. Be gentle with yourself, as close as you were it's likely going to take you some time to heal from this shock. Sending you hugs and sunshine.

[@notgrowingold]

I'm still not able to wrap my head around this.😔 Thank you for your kind words. ♥️

[@LilyGazou]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine losing such a dear friend.

[@thegraceofalady3629]

I agree with you. She was set up. I think she wanted to move with you because she felt in danger and she trusted you. I think she wanted to change the bathroom to feel more at home. I think she knew she wasn't safe living alone. They let that mail pile up in her office because they knew they could blame it on her. My thoughts only.

[@joankirkland6255]

You knew her more than anyone as a.best friend❤

[@americatravel7357]

Sorry for your loss. I am with you. She did not do it. ❤😢

[@trudyramgren8817]

I'm sorry for your loss and sadness. I feel your pain. My best friend ended his life many years ago which left me devastated. I had no clue what had lead up to him doing this. It's a hurt that never goes away. Most of us think that they wouldn't or couldn't do this type if thing. As you said, we just don't know. We don't know what has gone through their minds or how deeply they must have been hurting. Please don't internalize this and feel guilty. I did that for awhile and it serves no purpose. Just know that relationships change and sometimes we go in separate directions. And just know that your friend loved you as well. Think of the good memories with her and be grateful for her being in your life. My friend was a college professor, quit his job and moved across country. I couldn't figure that out. Losses are a terrible part of life but yes we do go on. Thank you for sharing this. ❤

[@lindaklahr871]

Lord please take her in your healing hands n help her get thru horrible times . I also had almost the very same thing happened to me and have kicked myself in the butt, I know I have to accept and go on 🙏♥️🙏♥️

[@redlanterns]

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you🙏❤️

[@notgrowingold]

Thank you.

[@jackmedcalf6254]

Life and friendships come in seasons. Don't think for a moment that she stopped loving you. Don't believe that not checking in for a couple of years is something to feel bad about. If you believe it wasn't an accident, then stand tall in that belief. The truth is that she's with you still and the last thing she wants is you to feel guilty. It may be that those last few years you didn't see her were meant to be that way. The season simply ended.-the love endures. The best thing you can do to honor her memory is to live a full life without guilt. Celebrate her life and friendship with joy- just the way you remember her. Bless

[@emeraldc.8796]

I'm still going through a loss of a friend from yrs back. We never had a disagreement nor any harsh words. I'm a 60+ yr old married female. We lost a very dear male friend, who was like a brother to my husband & me. He was so comfortable with us that he would fall asleep (take a nap), sometimes when he was hanging out at our apartment. This was yrs ago my husband & I were dating during that time. Our friend's roommate had been out-of-town over the weekend. When his roommate returned home, he found our friend dead. We had just moved to a different city, here in Texas. My husband got a job transfer. I think about our friend very often. My love for him is for always & so are all of the memories of the time spent together with the group of friends we all shared. Definitely give yourself all the time that you need to grieve & take care of yourself. I'll be Praying for you✝️🙏🏼

[@shirleysaunders628]

No matter how well you think you know somebody, when you have those kind of thoughts you don't tell anybody. People who have mental illness are very good at hiding their true feelings if need be. On the outside they look happy for everybody sake but on the inside is a different story. So do not feel bad that you had not reconnected with her. Cherish your memories you have.

[@SuzieQ-lw2kp]

I'm so sorry for your pain and loss of your friend I'm sending you peace and understanding of all this . I know it's hard for me to let things go without knowing everything I can find out about the situation. I don't know if you would want to or not but are they someone you could reach out to to maybe find out more about everything? I also know if you wanted to look into it for yourself you could get the public records about it . I'm not saying to do that or if you would even want to do it but that's a way to be able to read it for yourself. I'm sorry for your pain and the way you found out and I understand how you feel the way you do but please try not to feel guilty sometimes people just grow apart it's sad it happens a lot people get busy with their jobs, family, daily life and after so much time passes sometimes people don't know how to start up a conversation or even just a note to say hi I hope you had a good Sunday God bless you 🙏🏻🕊️

[@rubybrowning5111]

Wow, how shocking. You will probably really kmow what happened. Don't feel guilty...drinking can destroy relationships. People can do crazy things., you're grieving. You're right the older we get the more we soften❤

[@anoodono1841]

Interesting - we feel more vunerable.

[@cindikeefer1947]

You are in my prayers, and you arent alone❤I think about the same things you do, all the time.

[@donnawhitehair2842]

Bless your heart. If we live long enough, we will go through this stuff. It took me a few years to come to terms with being "old", although I don't feel old most days but I do look it and I'm ok with that now. lol Anyway I will think about you and ask God to bless you.

[@romeysiamese6662]

She may be in a better place. This world is too rough for gentle souls.

[@sheilacarter7875]

Just found you as l was scrolling.and subscribed. That is so sad about your friend, the only thing l would say is none of us truly know another person no matter how close you are.We think we do but it's not always the case.People l totally trusted let me down including family.Will you reach out to her family now you know? I can see how sad you are sending love from Wales UK.

[@ForeverChanged7]

😢 Just soooo upsetting. The utter shock you feel at learning this.One never knows the twists and turns of life. Sorted circumstances for sure. Soo sorry for your loss. Take it easy on yourself.❤😢

[@SSr1030]

God bless you and god bless and god bless your friend I’m so sorry for you😢 🙏🏻

[@valerief1231]

Maybe security cameras? But I agree, it’s very suspicious. However my dear friend and neighbors husband self deleted, he got upset, drove away, parked at his job, which was closed and used a fire arm to the side of his head. It’s unimaginable that he did this, they were so affectionate with each other and just gotten into a minor disagreement. Depression coupled with intrusive thoughts are very dangerous. It’s been 5 years since Christopher ended things. And every day his wife Tia posts about him being gone, how someone else did it because the entry point was behind his ear. It’s so impossible to believe someone we loved could do this, and wouldn’t come to US. But she threw away your friendship over decorating YOUR bathroom where at the end of the day she was a renter. She would never. Hangs the wall paper in a rental unit. So now this same person a few years later needs someone but believes she burned a bridge with you, or anyone else and can’t vent about things so it bottles up. Most of the time those of us that entertain the idea to eliminating one’s self, (happened to me last night) pops in our heads almost daily, and we either tune it out, or entertain the thought. I had to say to myself “how would my dogs handle? Who will go thru my personal things? What will they think of me? How will my handicapped husband move forward? Will he blame himself?” I am a cheerful person that always validates others. I don’t get that back very often by anyone other than my husband. Just take comfort in the fact she did this by her own hand and not someone else, this was on her own terms. She didn’t do it to hurt anyone, she didn’t even want to hurt herself, she just couldn’t coach herself past this. I pray she is at peace and that you can find comfort in the fact she was not UN-alived by any one. Think about her mind set over the past several years, she was definitely struggling mentally, and emotionally. The old her would have never walked away from such a valuable friendship, moving in with you was HER idea. The demons in her head must have been horrible to her. Now she is free from that torment. I wish I could write so much more, like when my husband found out his best friend and roommate had inappropriately touched his own children. These kids were like God children to my husband. He refused to believe it was true and even tried sitting down with the 13 year old daughter. WHAT? A 30 year old man thought he could talk to her about being SA’d by his dad??? So my husband refused to even entertain the idea. After we started dating it came up and I gave him the perspective of the 13 year old girl, let’s call her Amy. Why would Amy feel comfortable talking to a man she only saw every other weekend? Why would Amy open up to HIM? It was preposterous. So we laid out all the events that happened following the accusations, including the fact Pedro* left the U.S. and returned to his home country. If he wasn’t guilty, WHY didn’t he stay and fight this? It’s been 20 years now, Pedro has ever come back, and someone I know who has the ability verified he has 7 warrants for his arrest. He clearly admits it thru his actions. It’s never as complicated as mystery shows make it. Now that Amy is an adult and has a mountain of personality issues, like the ones popularized my the media and politics, he can see that she was traumatized. We have no idea what your beautiful friend was carrying with her. As an abused child most people that know me have no idea what I have been thru, and probably the reason I have to fight thoughts of self deletion all the time, almost daily. I did make a NON-NEGOTIABLE vow to myself that I would not do that, I would simply be transferring my pain to my adult children and my grand children. But it is a fight to remember in the midst of a terrible mental battle at times.

[@jilllisa5724]

Have you tried calling her kids?

[@sharondoan1447]

The pain your friend was suffering cannot be explained to anyone who has not experienced it. 53 years is a lot longer than some people have lived. Suicide is a phenomenon even psychologists don’t understand.

[@aileenpolicros3010]

Your channel just came up in my feed. I'm so so sorry for your loss you have my deepest sympathy. I lost touch with a friend and got in touch with her son and found out she had died a few years earlier. It feels just awful, I'm so sorry you're feeling the pain of loss also. Glad to meet you, sorry about the circumstances.❤

[@pamelot7040]

Sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to come to some peace. There isnt anything to feel guilty about. Im sure she would be the first to tell you that. ❤️

[@yvonnekirk3625]

I’m so sorry. Please don’t blame yourself whether she did it or not. God bless you💕💕

[@karenroy357]

There is no need to feel guilty. Your friend was wrong to redecorated your bathroom. It's hard to live with an extra person in your home and you were more than generous to her. Our lives change and we lose touch. It's hard to lose friends and family and getting older socks. I am an orphan at 72 so I understand your feelings. You have a great heart.❤

[@absolutelyangee8758]

I'm so sorry. I hate hearing this. My prayers go out too you. If she was a lively person then I'd have doubts too. God bless you.

[@noodlebugsrebornsmore2783]

Very sorry for you loss 😢

[@michellemccoy3726]

This is sad. I am so sorry about your friend.

[@Youtuber5775-]

I’m in the same situation as your friend who took her own life, and I struggle with deciding whether to live or die because we can’t afford to live on social security. 😢

[@vickiegonzalez7243]

I always say go with your gut feeling! Your 100% that life is to short to argue over silly things! You have my deepest condolences! The truth always comes out when least expect it!

[@user-pp3we2fp5f]

I lost my person of 30 years happened so fast and you are right love your family and friends ❤️

[@annettes965]

Years ago, 1980 to be exact...I had gotten married and had one of my best friends stand up for me, a couple years later she also was my daughter's God mother- she moved from NY to Florida and I like yourself always thought of her, there was no internet back in the day and our lives moved forward- her sister was in my class as she was a year older...there was a class post for my old school and this was maybe eight years ago and I figured out her sister's married name and right off I said OMG tell Dee to contact me, I received the same news as yourself and I could NOT believe it- her husband was abusive...leave ladies if this should happen to you, because nothing hurts more as to finding the answers to the loss of a best friend, even years later- God Bless you, they are...in a better place 🙏 thats the only way I can get through-

[@melodyaceves7705]

I am so sorry for your loss. I am sure it is an enormous shock. 💛

[@titalinda8515]

How terribly painful, I am so sorry!!! ❤❤❤🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@jeanettecobb]

I'm sorry you lost your friend. Please don't blame yourself just because you didn't want your bathroom redone. It was your house and she should have asked you first and did whatever you said. You were kind to her by letting her live in your home. People can change a lot in 2 years. Especially if they drink a lot.. You might be right in that she didn't do it.I know you are hurting that you didn't get to make amends I will try to remember your advice myself That was good advice for everyone .

[@notgrowingold]

Thank you. There are so many "what ifs" in hindsight.

[@janwarriner6554]

So very sorry for the loss of your friend and sad how you found out. I originally grew up in Virginia and have lived many places gathering new friends along the way too. I stay in touch with those special friends even now and I’m no sprung chicken. Sometimes I’m told one passed. It just breaks my heart even after so many years not physically seeing them. I call them “my other family”. About 2 years ago one of my best friends passed. He and I grew up together 65 years ago yet we stayed in touch. He had moved to SC with his career. I had retired in Florida. He was such a good man. I still miss our catching up. As for your friend. I think she knew the owner was not being honest with models that were hired and not paid. I fear he did the deadly deed to shut her up. We will never know but I believe that’s what happened. Btw I live in Palm Harbor not far from Tampa. Don’t feel guilty. Relieve yourself of that burden. We all make mistakes over little things. Please know she never forgot you either.

[@BluntMouthMomma]

I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@tr8cyg]

Beautiful story thanks for the reminder. Subscribed. I just lost my husband of 38 yrs September. Lost. I should reach out more. Thank you so much. 21:05

[@sandylees7049]

I'm so sorry about your friend. Talk to her tell her how you feel. That's what i do when i lose a loved one it does help

[@wynonawindsor793]

You were a careing friend.❤

[@sharonarrendale8418]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know that it isn’t easy. I didn’t know about my own brother for a while. It hurts so bad. Not easy to get over. I pray that God give you lots of hugs and peace.❤🙏🏼

[@Charko-yk9vp]

I'm so very sorry to hear this. I can see how hurt you are. It is so hard when someone you love passes, more so in a tragic way. My prayers are for you and your friend. May God comfort you and help you through this. Take care love.

[@jazzyflorida3757]

Sorry for your loss, suicide is horrible act, with no closure and so many unanswered questions. Hope you reach out to her three children since they were raised so close to you. 🙏🏼

[@rethamoore4282]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Death will come to us all and we are not to know our time only that it is numbered. I think that is so we will live to our best each day and love as much as we can. May God bless you dear sister. I'm 73 years old and yes I do think about my end on some days and just hope I've been a good person. That's all I can ask.🙏🙏🙏❤❤❤

[@hildahighlander2586]

Being a good person is not what gets us into heaven through Jesus is what saves us and gives us an entrance into heaven. Not wanting to preach, but to tell you the truth, and the truth will set you free! No one comes to the Father, but through Jesus. The Bible says all of mankind has sinned and fallen short of the gloey of God. However, Jesus was sent by God to die on the cross to die in our place. He was perfect, but He who knew no sin, literally became sin, so that the punishment we deserved, was laid upon Jesus. He then died a horrible death on the cross, went into hell and defeated sin and deayh. He took away the sting of death, and rose again victoriously pn the third day. The Bible says Jesus endured the shame of the cross for the joy set before him. He saw you and I in that future plan. We just need to confess our sins, ask forgiveness, and ask Jesus to come into our heart❤ and life! When we do that and make Jesus the Lord of our life He gives us a new heart and a new life, and all the blessings of heaven are ours to enjoy. But, we can not earn heaven by being good enough. We will never be good enough. That's why God made a plan through Jesus. He loves us so much and wants us to be with Jesus forever in heaven. If you choose Jesus, you choose Life more abundantly, if we reject Jesus we automatically choose hell and eternal separation from Jesis for all eternity. But, we are the ones who make that choice of where we will spemd eternity. For me, the path ia clear...choose Jesus, and choose life!

[@user-pp3we2fp5f]

I am so sorry for your loss and I agree with you sounds very suspicious. Have you talked to her daughters maybe they have more details. Never be normal to have the hurt and pain and to cry.

[@carolwilliams8281]

My story is similar but with my sister. We never reconnected either, but she passed naturally at 73. My heart goes out to you with love & understanding.

[@notgrowingold]

Thank you. I have lost both sisters, one to years of drug abuse, she passed 2 yrs ago at 68, my baby sister was murdered right before she turned 59. Gets a Lil lonely the older I get. 😪 I am now the oldest one left on both sides of my family now.

[@lady_v_101]

It sounds like she was made a scapegoat for this "environment"... I'm so sorry for your loss, it must have been a shock to read these articles..

[@notgrowingold]

Thank you. Yes, that's exactly how I feel. Probably one of the biggest shocks in my life. I was trying to reach out to her to make ammends. Too much time had been lost over such a small issue.

[@pippadot679]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Real sad she didn't think about asking you before trying to redecorate. That's a sad thing to depart ways over. If you have this strong of a feeling chances are you are right. I know in my soul the same kind of thing happened to my mom. I know in my heart that the neighbor lady that had been really squatting there paying no rent or bills my mom was sick out of her mind by then. I'm saying this lady unalived my mom. Plus all the things that she'd planned and stolen that very day. Believe me I was on it and knew right away missing debit card, mail key, blank checks and so on. The lady even cleaned out my mom's checking account. Facts. I did tell my brothers and one is police. They took care of those things. But she didn't get questioned other than by my brothers no trouble at all. I know she did it.

[@notgrowingold]

I believe in intuition. I am so sorry to hear about your Mom. Lost my youngest sister 6years ago to just about the same thing as your Mom. I had just talked to my sister days before, and she was planning a trip to our home.

[@mirellawentz4688]

May your friend rip, such a tragic story and so sorry for your loss 🙏🏻❤️🌷So hard to find out this happened to her

[@cherylslife]

I can see you're❤ a wise woman!

[@ScrappinlizziArt]

New subscriber here. I was so touched by your story, We are almost neighbors, being I am in Spring Hill. Loss is something that just wrecks your soul. I lost my daughter who was 50 years old 7 months ago. She took her own life. I cant stop thinking of things I could have done differently and maybe the end of her story would not been so tragic. Yes you are right, Share your love with those you love every day or every chance you get. Healing hugs and blessings from me.

[@cynthiabiel7714]

I am sorry for your loss.

[@mystuff1953]

❤ first of all I'm very sorry for your loss, she was on your mind because she is still with you and always will be. You are right when you say when you know, you know. I watched this and cried right along with you it's crazy how we all drift apart as we get older and yes recall should be a little kinder no matter what or how pissed off someone makes us. And yes we need to be kinder to ourselves too you take care of yourself and talk to her just as you always did I truly believe that they know and hear us, maybe I'm crazy but I dont think so❤

[@annaford9047]

I'm so sorry, I get where your head/heart is. I have lost more friends and family myself. Life has not turned out the way I thought it would. God bless you.

[@notgrowingold]

If I could write my story of life, it would be a much different experience for sure. It's opened my eyes and makes me Thankful for every moment.

[@cheryljunkin3531]

You just appeared on my feed. I’m happy to find you but wish it wasn’t about your friend. Life is crazy and tough and I’m so sorry it happened this way. Just subscribed.

[@elizabethquitanilla604]

So sorry for your loss 🙏🙏🙏

[@hildahighlander2586]

I too am so sorry for your loss. She was your best friend and you knew and understood each other so well. Im sure your gut instincts about your friend were probably correct and on the mark. Even as you were telling the story, I was thinking that it didn't add up. I can relate to your situation in several ways. I lost a beautiful, amazing friend who was a young wife, new mother, and a MD, and she was my close friend who had Lupus. I lost touch with her. I too scoured the obs and her name came uo. I was so deeply shocked, and found out she had passed nearly two years earlier. I too felt so sad and grief stricken that I hadn't been there when she passed, attended her funeral, or even sent a card to her family...at that point I didn't even know where to send a card. She too, was a very generous and loving person with a big heart. I miss her still to this day and I empathize with you and your feelings of grief and loss! I also had a close personal male friend who passed away after tragic and suspicious circumstances. When I found out, I visited him in the hospital where he was in a coma. Even his attending nurse told me the circumstances she had been told didn't make sense and asked if she could call me. She did call me, and she told me she immediately believed me & not the suspicious circumstances in which a short time later he passed away from. I tried calling the police, and several times involving them. There was alot of evidence that pointed to a possible m...unending of his life. The bottom line was the police had no interest in pursuing the case...zero. Even though I strongly believed there was sufficient evidence to open up an investigation and probably a dozen people backed me, I could not make it happen. I had to make peace with being there in the best ways I could be, and I hosted a memorial service in his honor, and several other things. I did the best I could do. It was a horrible shock to me because we had been close, but I did the best I could do under the circumstances. It took awhile, but I made my peace with his passing andyou will too. It's very hard though and my thoughts and prayers are with you!

[@BethCrafts]

God doesn’t want you to carry this burden. Sending much love.

[@freetob1]

Just found you and was captivated by you. A feeling of deep sorrow came over me just seeing your video from the beginning. You knew your friend and you know how she was, who she was. You would know if she would have been the type to unalive herself or if she even owned a gun. In any case, I am so sorry for your loss, a friend is family, especially a besty. I lost my best friend in 2016, she was only 49 and had a heart attack. I miss her everyday. She is free and no more suffering. I don't think she would want me to suffer here on earth. You seem to be a kind wonderful lady, I believe that your friend would want you to be happy. LIVE ON FOR YOUR FAMILY and even for your FRIEND. You will see her again someday. Sending prayers and love your way, friend. God Bless You!!!

[@dottiec7943]

Subscribed. .your in my neighborhood. I like the community. Show title! 🌺🌺💐💐. Sorry for the loss. My family is show biz. Politics everything. Lots of heartbreaking things.

[@ruthrose2555]

So very sorry for your loss. Don't feel any guilt for anything. Nobody would want someone to redo a room without approval. That's common sense, so don't entertain that idea at all. I also believe she deep down knew that. Take one day at a time and ask the Lord to give you peace. There will be ways in the future that you can connect with her grandkids or children with memories. Love can lead the way. Take care, my dear, and be there for your family and others God sends your way, or you find. God feels your pain and is there with you.