I don't deserve this.

Inspired from video : Genetic Grief (Used as tracing)
video link : • Genetic grief
The year is about to end
I’ve dissociated and separated myself from my feelings because they are too overwhelming.It feels like there is nothing to live for ... even if you have family, work, hobbies, etcetera.I need to feel loved.

[@rensadu8200]

The line "I cost you money again" hits really hard

[@minhhoangvo4759]

Im surprised, dumbfounded, breathless, stupefied, nonplussed, amazed, startled, dazed, benumbed, confounded, confused, taken aback, shooken, moved, mind blown, agape, flummoxed and strikedabsolutely disgusted, flabbergasted, perplexed, astonished, shocked, surprised, dumbfounded, breathless, stupefied, nonplussed, amazed, startled, dazed, benumbed, confounded, confused, taken aback, shooken, moved, mind blown, agape, flummoxed and strikedabsolutely disgusted, flabbergasted, perplexed, astonished, shocked, surprised, dumbfounded, breathless, stupefied, nonplussed, amazed, startled, dazed, benumbed, confounded, confused, taken aback, shooken, moved, mind blown, agape, flummoxed and strikedabsolutely disgusted, flabbergasted, perplexed, astonished, shocked, surprised, dumbfounded, breathless, stupefied, nonplussed, amazed, startled, dazed, benumbed, confounded, confused, taken aback, shooken, moved, mind blown, agape, flummoxed and strikedabsolutely disgusted, flabbergasted, perplexed, astonished, shocked, surprised, dumbfounded, breathless, stupefied, nonplussed, amazed, startled, dazed, benumbed, confounded, confused, taken aback, shooken, moved, mind blown, agape, flummoxed and strikedabsolutely disgusted, flabbergasted, perplexed, astonished, shocked, surprised, dumbfounded, breathless, stupefied, nonplussed, amazed, startled, dazed, benumbed, confounded, confused, taken aback, shooken, moved, mind blown, agape, flummoxed and strikedabsolutely disgusted, flabbergasted, perplexed, astonished, shocked, surprised, dumbfounded, breathless, stupefied, nonplussed, amazed, startled, dazed, benumbed, confounded, confused, taken aback, shooken, moved, mind blown, agape, flummoxed and strikedabsolutely disgusted, flabbergasted, perplexed, astonished, shocked, surprised, dumbfounded, breathless, stupefied, nonplussed, amazed, startled, dazed, benumbed, confounded, confused, taken aback, shooken, moved, mind blown, agape, flummoxed and strikedb

[@pretzelthemenace]

“I won’t able to” aswell

[@Paperzel]

FR

[@mistthermite7791]

that does seem to be a recurring theme in my life

[@silentbanana209]

Huh

[@legacycode]

when you're alone and the only thing that seems to look at your pain is KZbin:

[@monochromedvisions]

@@legacycode hehe it's true

[@meme_basement]

Hey, at least someone does!

[@Gosh-darn]

My love from New Hampshire. The Lord is with you. ❤

[@espeon030]

Yeah, KZbin and my squshmallows :)

[@Rachel-l1y]

My love is from NC, the lord loves you! ❤

[@rainboroad]

no truer has the statement of “art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable” been than with this piece of art, even the smallest act to make someone’s day a bit better can go a long way, let’s always do it whenever we can, forever

[@yoro.jojjowi]

and in this vid i feel comforted :)

[@ahumanbeing4591]

Well and trully disturbed over here

[@Appl3-izcoolz]

I’m comfortable and this video seems to be more of an awareness video than a comfort video

[@Randomthailanderwhoplayhsr]

Dude just came out of nowhere and then dropped some of the best representation of suicidal thoughts and suicide awareness video that i've ever seen

[@monochromedvisions]

@@Randomthailanderwhoplayhsr thanks bruh 🫂

[@Ihexir]

@Randomthailanderwhoplayhsr by the way in case you didn’t see, the original video that this video traces and was inspired by is linked in the description (not hate towards this creator) Represents it very well! This video does change a few aspects ofc

[@TheUltimateNix]

I wouldn't say best, nor would I say best for pretty much any other suicide representations. I'd say my suicidal experiences are quite a bit different to this and it would also differ with others as well. Still good though.

[@catimations3090]

Fr this is such a good video

[@gugg2216]

This video found me in time.

[@HandsomeYoungSir]

I hope you’re ok, may god lighten your path.

[@HudsonDoesYoutube]

Thank goodness, I’m so glad we didn’t lose another person

[@Gosh-darn]

Don't give up and don't let depression win. If it wants you to die, it should start shutting down your organs like a real disease instead of lazily trying to get you to do its work. God chose you specifically from the millions He could have made. He loves you.

[@JitenruETC]

all hopes go to you❤

[@bloo6131]

glad you’re here

[@Myth_Caly]

The fact that this video was quite well made but lack attention and audience is surprising

[@snickerdoodle3]

I know relative to other videos it isn't a lot. But to the creator, 282 people saw and resonated with this video. Imagine that many people standing in a room. That's a sizeable amount, really. I want you to know that description hit me hard, and the video feels like it came from my own mind. And a lot of other people feel the same way. You aren't alone in this and you created something that beautifully illustrated what hundred of people are struggling with

[@monochromedvisions]

@@Myth_Caly @snikerdoodle3 It's alot for me ❤️ Thank you 🌹

[@nitemy9579]

Many things that are very well done by people do not get the attention they deserve. :(

[@gangbeastschampion6904]

Thats because it's basically stolen from the video "genetic grief" on here 😭 I could be wrong but it's the same video with slight adjustments made

[@monochromedvisions]

@@gangbeastschampion6904 bro I already mentioned it in description , also said it's retraced , plz don't say I stole this , I m inspired from that video so I retraced , made some changes add some dialogues, change the context is it considered as stolen ?

[@AdityaKumar-tq4kv]

"I dont live for the purpose of others wanting me. I live for myself." A great answer for no one want you.

[@monochromedvisions]

@@AdityaKumar-tq4kv🫂

[@Kiri_Ren]

"I can earn money for you, but you can’t control my heart anymore." I just can’t bear the expectations from my wife and family, but I still love myself.

[@random-lankan]

"No one wants you." "I want me."

[@Gamier417]

I knew a dude who was like this once. Once, when he was having a bad day, a girl said “Is everything okay? Do you need a hug?” and before he answered, she hugged him, and he had the biggest smile on his face I had ever seen. That’s what this animation reminded me of. Amazing job

[@BruhDOTcam]

Sounds somewhat perfect. Too perfect to happen in real life, in fact.

[@CarrotMuncher]

@@BruhDOTcamIt’s not as common as it should be but it does happen

[@CarrotMuncher]

It’s true right? Genuinely asking, I want to believe it, it would help me and probably the other guy who commented

[@Gamier417]

@@CarrotMuncher yes, it is actually true. The girl is genuinely really nice and the two of them have become really good friends

[@Revlis264]

This video... For whatever reason, youtube has begun recommending me videos about being hopeless, and I'm glad that it has. I was never one to have major depressive disorder, I've only had persistent depressive disorder. But, 2024 was by far the worst year of my life, and has left not only a sour taste in my mouth, but also has made me give up hope of 2025 being any better. I lived in constant physical pain throughout all of 2024 and now I have a pretty dangerous spine surgery at 19 years old that'll be happening in a couple days as a last-ditch effort to fix the problem. And to be honest, I really don't know what I'll do if it doesn't fix things. I've thought about giving up more times in the last week than I have in the duration of my life. All that being said, it's nice to know I'm not the only person thats struggling with these thoughts. I have a long journey to recovery ahead of me, if I even make it that far. Wish me luck on January 14th. Oh, and also, thank you for making this video. It made a bleak situation feel just a smidge brighter.

[@monochromedvisions]

Hope you will do fine 🙏 ahead

[@jorgekarlson7667]

you better report back after the surgery

[@assassincodm8450]

Wish you all the best for the surgery. Leave a comment here after it takes place, letting us know how it was. You got this!

[@ScaryOwl-qq5ev]

WISH YOU THE BEST BROTHER

[@yoro.jojjowi]

dang, 2024 was THE worst year i will ever have too

[@imshy2113]

i won't offer empty words of encouragement because i'm in the same situation as you - but then again - i'm in the same situation as you. You captured a common human feeling here, i think. At least i'm not alone, you're not either, even though it definitely feels like it.

[@bestboisoupsoup]

Solidarity only helps to a certain point. I'm just so done with society when this starts being considered "a common human feeling". "Its all in your head" until it becomes a problem to someone else. Nobody deserves this.

[@SingleIsFreedom..ilyLuka]

“I cost you money again.” Hit hard. I’m cost8ng my mom’s health and financial work hours because she has to take hours off to drive me to group therapy three times a week and after ten weeks are up means she has to start paying out of pocket now while she’s struggling enough to provide for three including taking care of me and my brother.

[@elbenjita10000]

A mom would do anything for their child, if she has to rip off a kidney and sell it to pay for your therapy sessions, she would gladly do it.

[@guidaqui10anos65]

Same situation bro, I'm draining my mother's health and it hurts me a lot

[@Unamedblue3]

Brothers in arms we are then ay boys?

[@jeuzalaan5173]

We’ll figure it out

[@JacobMartin-f9g]

Your mother does this because she loves you. Don’t ever forget that. If parents truly loved their children. They will go all the way to give them a happier life than they did. Should you become a parent one day. You will know that love she gave to you, cause you’ll give that love to your children. And you definitely wouldn’t ever want your children would think that they cost you money.

[@YaBoyConsky]

I can relate to this a lot. As someone who has dealt with suicidal thoughts before, I’m glad every moment I have never acted upon them. As much as I tell myself I want death, really I’m terrified of it, because I don’t want to lose the things that matter to me. If anyone sees this comment, know that no matter how much you tell yourself you aren’t worthy of friends or you feel like you aren’t good enough, you are good enough, you are loved. Don’t let the bullshit of the stupid voices in your head tell you who you are.

[@thirteenly13y]

I relate to your experience so much. Thank you, please stay safe

[@QuelithRequiem]

literally i couldnt stop my tears reading your comment ...omg tysm...i promise i will be stronger than those negative thoughts and conquer them

[@meowzerboi]

❤

[@I-choose-violence225]

Thanks, I needed this. There have only been a few people and things holding me back in the past.

[@Entropy67]

I've found that its not voices in your head, its the parts of yourself you avoid or chose to not acknowledge. They come back as whispers. It's not like the desire to end it all is illogical, rather it is hyper rational. Don't disregard your rational self, simply accept it along with its shortcomings as a part of yourself. At the end of this video, he was comforted by himself. In the end the only person that can be your best friend, is you. You must befriend yourself first if you wish to escape the world that suffocates you.

[@monochromedvisions]

All of you , your comments really means alot to me , Thanku so much to everyone who watched this video, I can't promise anything to all of u but I really love you all

[@siegwardofcatarina100]

Keep at it dude, it may be some of the hardest times you've faced right now, but it does get better as long as you're breathing, there's always a chance for a better future. Keep at it, you're strong as it is for getting this far.

[@creativeshark573]

this project is beautiful dude keep up the great work❤❤ :]

[@SyoDraws]

And thank you for making this video. It was cathartic and I'm glad you did

[@moonlight28015]

keep goin bro

[@LateLater1]

thank you

[@faby8204]

From this video I got myself a new analogy. Another way to express how I'm doing. "I've been drowning for so long that I learnt how to breath underwater, though the lack of air won't kill me, other dangers in the sea eventually will".

[@UnidentifiedFlyingSquirrel]

Well then, before that you should work on learning how to swim, it cant hurt ya to at least try, and if that doesn’t work, there’s always another way to get around these dangers, ya just gotta find your way

[@faby8204]

@UnidentifiedFlyingSquirrel I always find a way, however I'm not where I want to and can't leave anymore. The sea is no place to stay in, you might find stuff you didn't want to, and can't really die by own hand anymore

[@kruiser7936]

hiii faby8204 whats wrong? why are you feeling this???

[@faby8204]

@@kruiser7936 do I have to vent?

[@kruiser7936]

@ sure

[@sagehelms]

I'm extremely offended that this doesn't have more views. Keep going you're strong! We're here for you

[@cheryl.t2419]

most of it is traced and copied ig

[@ArtieIsAlone]

The day I found this video was the same day my mom found an old self harm scar I had scratched back open and called me a psychopath. I feel like it’s a sign to keep going, even though I feel next to nothing a lot of the time. Thank you.

[@monochromedvisions]

@@ArtieIsAlone don't harm yourself yo , keep goin stay hard ❤️

[@ArtieIsAlone]

@ thanks, man, I’ve been feeling like relapsing a lot lately, even though I quit when I was a kid. It’s nice to know the world still has kind people in it in even if it’s hard to live in.

[@TobyJWalter]

I recognised this from genetic grief instantly, I like how it adds a nice twist to the original by changing the art style and cutscenes up. Keep up the amazing work!!

[@No_one3653-o3x]

"twist to original"? Do you mean there is another video that is like this or is this just this one is a Lil diff cause the moment I saw this vid I was like I have seen this before like a year back but this is uploaded 4 weeks back so i was really confused and no it's definitely not a deja vu

[@imreallybusylol]

1:13 is so sad. the person knew what the boy did, smashing his head into the mirror, but the man looks like he couldnt careless, and he was actually angry

[@therealhalflaugh]

I lost my kid in a misscarrage and to this day i feel guilty not being responsible and the mother of it crippled under the guilt i tried to pretend its ok and it eventually made me feel sad i broke up with her on new years because shes been sleeping with another man for 4 months i thought i could handle it but i feel lost but not emotionless anymore idk what to do but seeing that ending with the child reminded me that life is precious even my own i really hope i get through this and recover from the pain but deep down...i miss my babies

[@monochromedvisions]

@therealhalflaugh I m sorry man , try to talk to her if it's not too late

[@124myth]

​​@@monochromedvisions talking to someone who we broke up with for cheating? I fear it will bring more harm than anything for now. They should try to focus of processing what just happened, seek help and grow out of it. Sometimes there is no going back, and it's not important. Moving out of it is. This is a suggestion, not an advice, nor an order.

[@War-And-Hope]

Christ can heal your pains and solve everything, if you just ask and believe. Have faith sister.

[@Piriguin_aweoneke]

This is too accurate like crazy accurate, but in the end it's true, we don't deserve this, I can tell that voice telling me I'm useless coming back, i know it's coming back, but i fought it off when i was 13, and it got better; so I'll just fight again. It gests better, i know it does, just don't give in, remember it's lying; you are loved

[@monochromedvisions]

@@Piriguin_aweoneke it's bad bruh

[@evaaaa-m1s]

this is just so well made and every part feels so thought out and full of emotion. it just feels so comforting but sad in a strange way.

[@voidresident_m4r127]

A few years ago, I wasn’t in a great place. The people I thought of as friends started to change for the worst, my friend wasn’t mentally well and I felt I couldn’t express how I felt (I was always told that she had it worse). As well, the friend group I was in hated me. I became quiet and I hated myself a lot. I’d often go to lunch clubs in school to just be alone, I don’t remember much from that time. Then one day, I made friends with a girl. She was and still is really kind to me and my headteacher recommended that I go to her friend group. I did and it was the best decision I had ever made. Now, I have a long-term boyfriend, good friends and overall everything feels good. Things will get better, it may take a while but it will.

[@hung2]

Thank you for sharing this. Hang on there 🫂

[@LielTheGuy]

I get everything here. I really do, i still experience all these things from time to time. But something really helped me not a while ago. I was lookig in the mirror, 12am. There was very important exam in 9 hours that i didnt study to once again despite saying i will to myself. Tired, dissapointed and depressed. My imaginative me was once again describing myself. Useless, pathetic, nobody, cant even take control of your own emotions. And then, i started crying. Such heavy tears... and, then i hugged myself. It came out of nowhere and it was such a relief. After that i was filled with positivity and it was much easier to do my tasks. Please dont scold yourself, do the exact opposite. Tell yourself the good in you, theres always is positive things about someone. And if you cant find on yourself, the very fact you want to change and be someone better is already a positive thing. Your film represented very well the emotions i felt. I was dworning in my own negativity...

[@Minhs_Cornground]

The line "you're bestfriends think you are weak" hits really hard because I can't differentiate between your and you're.

[@monochromedvisions]

@@Minhs_Cornground haha 😂 good one

[@SingleIsFreedom..ilyLuka]

i red the description and it feels so real. My mom doesn’t believe me when i say i think i might’ve dissociated at some point. But not feeling loved and emotionally detaching yourself is there too. I’ve onl6 seen one other person or article elaborate more into what dissociating feels like other than simply “disconnected from reality/emotions” and that’s it, and the person/singular article that described it fit me perfectly.

[@monochromedvisions]

@@SingleIsFreedom..ilyLuka bro is my description better than my video?

[@SingleIsFreedom..ilyLuka]

@@monochromedvisions nah i like em both. They’re both well described and made

[@huol_KellofWell]

The underwater crying part really hit close to home. Just a few days ago I had a breakdown in which I just couldn't stop crying, thinking the same thoughts over and over. I'm trying to see a therapist, but even that is hard (not just because what I've got going on, it's not that bad, but because the therapists are fully booked out).

[@monochromedvisions]

Ayo😂

[@Psirath]

I feel heard. Thank you for making this. This inexplicable sinking feeling is one that's haunted me for a while. Seeing this while I've had a "tough time" really helped. So again, thank you...

[@monochromedvisions]

Take care of yourself

[@Psirath]

@monochromedvisions Thank you. ^v^

[@mrpotato7714]

You're special, you've come this far just because of your strength, im proud of you

[@dergroherzog5422]

1:55 is so true. Knowing you want to die, knowing you want to end it, but also knowing you can not. Knowing you can´t do it, even though wanting it so desperatly to end it, and not be able to.

[@Lon_nn]

that’s how i feel, you described it so well while i couldn’t. woah.

[@cetathestupidshark]

just read the description... wow... currently as im typing this, i feel dissasociated, so im not able to feel like im being "called out" or whatever. but even in my numb moments, i can recognize that way of thinking, because i felt like that for a long time edit for clarity: like, disassociating, and wanting to be loved were things i immediately recognized. i hope you're doing alright

[@uh5494]

I enjoyed watching this, it expresses a lot. Thank you for making it.

[@yama_enmaten]

been there for years and i can kinda relate to it. i made it out and my oponion is that it doesn't actually get better, you just realize how there wasn't anything that bad actually. however, the mind can be our worse enemy...

[@Lejand_Music]

That's actually helpful to know, it's easy to sit there and wait for things to just get better over time but obviously it won't work like that all the time, and can definitely just make things much worse. Thanks for saying that.

[@lialye8847]

Guys please know that it gets better. I know that life may suck sometimes but it gets better. My life took years to get better and I hope yours doesn't take as long. Please take great care of yourself. You matter more than you realize

[@QuyenPham-is3ui]

Damn i love this so much 😭. I am having depression and every scene in the video hit me I am also about make like.. animation or illustration to showcase my depression and this inspire me a lot. Thanks so muchh

[@monochromedvisions]

@@QuyenPham-is3ui love u bruh ❤️

[@comrade_railgun]

The symbolism of his younger self's attempt to save his future was beautiful and all of the rest is also great. The animation is promising. Nice work🐰☝️

[@barstar3016]

I understand how life sucks it feels like it's just gonna keep getting worse no matter how many people say "It'll get better!" "These feelings will go away!" I understand how that can be tiring and that is not what people always need when they're sad all I want to tell you is that you can do it no matter what your going through you can do it you've made it so far and if nobody tells you this enough I believe in you and I hope you can find some peace for yourself. I believe in you :) (Hope this helps you or somebody seeing this comment)

[@Mr.HoodyGuy]

Man. I remember those thoughts. Last year, on the edge of that one act, i went to therapy. (To get diagnosed for my adhd, not because of the hidden larger problem) and somehow, thanks to my therapist, i caught interest in psychology. And as i learned and learned everything (my adhd helped alot as a hyperfixation here), i started to understand everything. Some people are horrible, some things are horrible, just TRY not to look at them. Fix the things you can fix, and be happy with the good things. When i think of my past self, i see my flaws that i stiched to perfection, and be happy with the fact that i bring good to others that i love. Thanks to this "simple" act, i have a boyfriend that also is a flawed man stitched together into perfection.

[@The_Wolf_of_Wall_Street]

In my late 20s right now, thinking of spending the rest of my life in the mountains of Norway completely isolated from the human civilization. I don't want this cruel world no more.

[@MyLittleLie1]

Hello! Im a french teenager and i can say im Stunned after i watched this video. I think its really important for people to be able to create things like this to express feelings. I hope you the best my guy and keep up!

[@thegamingboy_8]

Someone is there for you. If there are 7 billion people on this earth, one of them loves you. If there is only one person on earth, they love you. If no one loves you, you are the last man on earth. Keep going, I know you can ❤

[@Rosexx-x8n]

Almost ended it all last week, so I'm not really ready to give words of support, but I'll try anyway. Life is an unpredictable bloody mess. You never know what will happen next. But there's a possibility it'll all be okay. Death is emptiness. A permanent solution to temporary problems. Even if u think ur unworthy, u should be proud you're still alive. That's bloody amazing???? You've survived everything up to this point, even when u were completely alone! Idk if anyone will read this lol

[@mushroom_lady0712]

it's hard reaching out to people around you especially in times of needs but always remember that there's people who want to help you if you ever need to cream for help them yell don't whisper. its scary trying to tell people what you're thinking or going through but everyone goes through stuff like this ,hell i'm going though it right now but never forget that there are people who are there for you and sometimes people online care about you more than people you know and it's crazy but please don't give up.

[@artimator4714]

This seriously needs more recognition. I dont even know how to describe this videos level of emotion and story. But i understand it, and it's weirdly comforting? Im bad at comforting, but what i can give out is that it doesn't seem like it now, but things will be better. Im sure people have heard that phrase too often, but its true. You do have a future, and for now you can atleast start to better yourself, not that any of this was your fault. Distance yourself from time-to-time, and please, talk to someone you trust. You can also look into finding distracting hobbies for yourself.

[@Realistic_hands123]

I really love how relatable this is. I once felt like this when i was taking a swim in the swimming, wondering if I should just drown myself.

[@WhendOfWoyo]

Beautiful video. Self-loathing is a lot more "metaphorically physical" than people would give it credit for. What I mean by that is, think of "metaphorically physical" as being a scale for emotions on "the tendency at which these emotions cause us to go beyond our nature as humans." I think a good example of this is when the embodiment of our protagonist's self-hatred slams them into the mirror. I interpret this as them forcing the protagonist to reflect, but instead only coming up with shards of how they want to see of themselves, all the while ignoring the whole picture, and even ignoring that there is more to themselves at all. In the end, however, they only hurt themselves and put pressure on those they find important to them. Not only with the artificial value of money, but even further than that. I can't help but feel, though, that they fail to see past that initial cost. If we expand on the thought of the mirror being a reflection of who they are, even if the mirror were to be repaired, they'll still only see a broken figure resembling themselves. I just hope they can realize that and maybe get a new mirror, or better still, an understanding of how they are perceived by the people close to them. It's a little hypocritical to logically know that they are a burden, but to not use that same logic to remember that their reflection is a backwards version of themselves, only with a little more knowledge of why they do the things they do. It's hypocritical because they ignore how the world sees them, which is arguably more "them" than the them that they see through their own eyes. In the following scene, I believe the protagonist is pushed down into the waters by the guilt of feeling that they've betrayed someone dear to them, in that by thinking these horrible things about themselves, they're accusing that someone of lying for not being there for them. The protagonist begins to weep. But the tears they shed bring back memories of their childhood. And when the embodiment of those memories hugs them, it symbolizes that at least they haven't become someone they themselves would ever hate for who they are. The protagonist then emerges from the acrid waters of despair and hopelessness onto the shore of a perspective they'd long forgotten. A new, or perhaps old, mirror.

[@WhendOfWoyo]

I know it's a long comment, but I have a lot to say for this video. I've felt similarly before, not exactly, but similar. I like to think I'm past those days now, so I thought I'd put my interpretation on the table. Maybe someone could get something out of it.

[@ricenoodles1]

1:28 I really like this part. It quite literally speaks to me. As someone who had been struggling with clinical depression for years, this part just stuck with me. Depression can feel like you’re drowning, and then the protagonist sees this “figure”. For me, that figure symbolizes the suicidal thoughts and feelings you get, and as you’re drowning in hopelessness, you see this “figure”. It seems like it’s your only way out, the only way to pull yourself back up from this misery. Don’t try suicide. You can still swim up from this ocean of despair, there is still an island somewhere. “Tears are prayers too. They travel to God when we can’t speak.” -Psalms 56: 8

[@War-And-Hope]

God can take it all away you just must believe

[@Pepcicoll]

Thanks man, you help us

[@monochromedvisions]

@@Pepcicoll did I?

[@keeny5541]

@@monochromedvisions yeah, you managed to express feelings and thoughts that are just barely possible to even express through words, you are amazing

[@HandlesIThoughtOfWereAllTaken]

I like the cute small guy made of tears in the end

[@JessyD]

Going through therapy and psychiatry while struggling to keep a job made the "I costed you money again" hit me in the face like a left hook.

[@FarhanAbbasi-gb8ik]

its so relatable that this is gon blow up in a few weeks(which is also kind of sad )

[@MinhCao-w8h]

An very well made KZbin video i hope you the best , thank you for making this

[@monochromedvisions]

Thank you too

[@yoro.jojjowi]

this is exactly what i feel like, even though i got family, a good hobby, good 2 friends, etc, its just the guy in my head telling me to use the bag and tries to convince me that those guys are lying and hes the only one honest, u have no idea how much that meant when u added a scene of a little guy hugging him, thx PS: I think I'm recovering, it's been 4 weeks without that thoughts, hope it goes away longer

[@Dr_Plague86]

I may be interpreting this wrong, but when the boy said "Im not able to", I teared up a bit. A few years back, I wanted to die. I was tired and didnt want anything to do with life, felt as though I wasn't worth it. I had a plan, but never acted upon it because I was scared. I was scared of how much it would hurt my family and friends. I couldn't bear to think of their faces. So, instead, I told someone and got therapy. I still have fleeting moments of wanting to die, but I always remember the people around me and that I am loved. Thank you for making this, it makes everything feel more real. Reminds me that I'm not alone. I hope you are doing well. Stay strong, you are loved :)

[@TheProAtPUBG]

I have grappled with myself, and continue to, over giving up for the past 6 years. I'm both proud and disappointed with how far I'm making it.

[@monochromedvisions]

@@TheProAtPUBG proud of u bruh

[@ajsgodlike310]

Real

[@kruiser7936]

keep going bru

[@DiamondWorldYoutube]

As someone with diagnosed depression this hits way harder than it should.

[@SubhamRay-j6m]

Wow really wow!!! Its been 2 years sine i lost hope in myself...always thought im alone in this war...fighting everyday just to feel worthy yet still being the confused loser...but this man is a MASTERPIECE...THANK YOU! Once again i have some hope in myself...and you too...everyone who is watching this...trust me we will win this war and things will get better...❤

[@KayKunia]

Watching this video hit hard. Someone out there cares for you. You're needed and I understand what you're feeling and I relate to some of it. I'm going through a hard time right now dealing with the death of two family members, but I can assure you it gets better. You're special, and even though you might feel alone, you're never alone. We're here for you, so don't give up. Hoping the algorithm picks this up. Cheers.

[@Dakzhstory]

Glad that i found this video and it feels better to know that im not the only one struggling here always beena quite kid and im constantly bullied in school by students and if i complain i will be bullied by the teachers too because thay are curropt . But there is hope and it is you . People are my hope i have trust in people that everybody wont be like this i wont suffer all life because i have a world of 8 billion people Still sometimes i get broke and hopeless and it is depressing cannot do anything about it but i think i will have to tell this to someone i dont have anyone to tell that is why im typing this here😢

[@kruiser7936]

hi are you okay man? i hope you get the help you need!

[@watermylove4530]

Damn, KZbin caught onto my depression and is sending me anti death PSAs 😔 /j no but srsly this is so well made! It really captures everything so well. "I cost you money again" YES THIS IS ME

[@kruiser7936]

hi whats wrong? are you okay?

[@watermylove4530]

@kruiser7936 cw: death Well aside from causing someone to off themselves nothing! How about you?

[@kruiser7936]

@ how did you do that and who was that person

[@kruiser7936]

@ take care of your mental health mate good luck

[@Monster_Art]

This metaphor is exaclty what our emotions tell us when we are depressed

[@enbysandmusic217]

This is really good, it's difficult to make any friends when I have such severe social anxiety, not to mention i can't think of anything interesting to say at all. It's weird how people never think at all about the NPCs like me, i mean I'm just by myself all the time, I'm probably a background prop to everyone else. I just get so upset any time i see a friend group being happy and laughing, cuz at least they can act like normal fricking people, and I'll never have that. But yeah this video did make me realize that there are people dealing with the same kind of feelings of worthlessness so thx

[@monochromedvisions]

Yeah , we all are some how same but different at the same time

[@jasonoutcasted9058]

"I cost you money again"... i just wrecked my bike... this is one of the many phrases that messed with me for the last 4 months... ive lost so much from that wreck

[@_akaluca_]

i hope you can heal, bro. best wishes 🖤

[@ruuia]

this is one of the most accurate / relatable depictions of whatever mental illness i have that i've ever seen. thank you for making and sharing this.

[@JordanDominic-c1q]

Im actually crying rn the fact that this video is reccomended to me when i have a depresion about how my life is just a limbo i feel ike the only thing understand me is youtube,and i can relate to this video

[@nabbitgohome9672]

This was recommended to me after another video I watched and now this piece of good work is going into a playlist for myself and others to see every now and again.

[@lirvaen]

"I will never leave you alone" from someone who ends up leaving, sometimes not so long after saying these words, is probably one of the most painful memories one can have. I'm tired. I want to give up.

[@TheConnor6901]

Thank you for helping these people who'd view this video. 😊

[@L-ghtlessSky]

20 thousand people saw this. 20 thousand people needed this. Those 20 thousand people thank you.

[@Ammarsafwan7]

This is crazy good,incredibly underrated!!

[@Sociofonia_Hemorrágica]

Wow... It was a nice surprise to find this video today... As I feel about to drown my self... Thank you and... Don't give up either

[@monochromedvisions]

@@Sociofonia_Hemorrágica stay hard

[@skybutno]

I don’t have suicidal thoughts, just a bit of anxiety, but this really says a lot for how simple it is

[@PONTEYAC]

I just used this for my latest music video, this video has so much meaning that i once used to relate to. Thank you so much for putting something out there so beautiful for people like me that have overcome this stage of their life 🙏🏽

[@alexicasuriaga9796]

The fact that it somehow hits close to home... Amazing. Thank you.

[@starrush1818]

Im praying for everyone here, you matter so much❤

[@aprettyfunnyperson4516]

Thank you

[@megalampada2372]

Even when the waves crash over you, it's not the end. Really well made video. It reminds me of a story in the Bible (located at the Gospel according to Matthew, chapter 14). It reminds me personally of how even in the darkest hour, there's still hope in Him. Even in doubt, His hand reaches for us. The story: “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down

[@Hyunjinniee.8]

To anyone who needs this, you are beautiful, you are kind, you are not alone, there’s still hope left. Don’t give up and there are many people rooting for you. FIGHTING! 💖🌸

[@danielmercaderalcayne7329]

Man, this is a true diamond This short story shows us all the issues within our society in terms of treating mental health problems Although there's many people who don't understand how this people think on suicide, this story explains it really well, and without using too many words For real, this is a really good video ❤

[@LEKA873]

Everything is fine. I got what i deserve

[@monochromedvisions]

@@LEKA873 bruh 🫂

[@OCIBj]

I understand the atmosphere and general themes of this but I really want point out how much this felt like an EXPERIENCE when watching; love the white noite followed by pure silence and the resolution being the calm crash of waves, the cuts felt significant and cinematic each time, this is great

[@MaxRabe-m3u]

Its a Masterpiece and says that what No one can say in words

[@AfreediZ]

It's an amazing representation of what actually depression looks like

[@Yoshi-u9g]

Thank you for spreading this awareness. This really made my day ❤

[@JapaneseOrBrokenKneess]

I can't relate to this but the fact that many people have it like this or worse is so sad to me. Much love to them to not give up in life and continue even after. Great awareness video

[@LeeChakos]

… thanks for making this… it’s very relatable. Never quit making animations. You are amazing at it! 😊🍀

[@sabinasinchuri8623]

“They don’t want you” “But I want me .” I would like this to be the response of the hurt because no one deserves this pain.

[@flyingproofficial]

The only reason I am still laive is just pure survival instinct, not fear of death, missing my family or pretty much anything, only survival instinct

[@Absurdi5t]

Ayy loved this black and white animation.. hope next year will also be good for you 😊 Btw what device did you use for tracing or drawing and editing ? Thanks and happy New year

[@monochromedvisions]

@@Absurdi5t I used my laptop and drawing tablet (xppen deco minin7) , I used Adobe animate (to animate this all) and premere pro for editing the final cut video

[@Absurdi5t]

@rahulratan800 ayy thanks mate

[@AnnaWenamegicinsama]

OMG,you did a real good job! You put a lot of emotions in a short video!! Very well!! Keep going❤ +1 follower

[@monochromedvisions]

@AnnaWenamegicinsama thanku

[@infamoussoapconsumer3870]

Don't know why this popped up but it feels so real The part where he started breaking down hit hard

[@lightwalker_0]

This made me tear up. It hit close to home, and the art was extremely expressive and hauntingly beautiful... I hope you're doing better, wherever you are...

[@cloko843]

I watched this with volume off and it felt even more realistic

[@SlurmBOT]

Hits hard. From experience this is exactly what it feels like and its tragic.

[@War-And-Hope]

Jesus is your salvation and he is the one who can release you from your pain’s addictions and depression, he’s waiting for you to come to him. I invite you into a relationship with Jesus Christ.

[@wybielovat4157]

this is such a work of art

[@nolongerhooman2341]

Thank you. I love you for making this.

[@itstimetobegin3775]

Thank you for sharing this. I found the video when im so bad. I hope you will get better ❤

[@lunardragon4059]

This is incredible.. incredibly accurate too 💗

[@WiSHiAGEN]

and for those of y'all who are in pain, please know that you are loved. you are important. you do matter. you make a difference, and the world is a better place with you IN IT.

[@Stormingstar_inc]

DAM THAT “i cast you money again” HIT HARDER THAN A CAR

[@Safron-x2v]

the scene where he goes underwater...that hit me. It's crazy how much I relate to this. Thank you so much for making this ❤❤