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Created by: ofir sasson, 2010
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My name's Ofir Sasson, I was diagnosed with BPD, yet i don't give that much of a regard these days. the struggle is what it is, be it with a definition or not. this short was made back in 2010, at a time i felt understood by the definition, bordered, and at home with it. i do believe the symptoms shown by Bill are universal to any human, but their aggressiveness and weight on functionality can make a very significant difference between common human traits and a serious disorder. i find great compfort and pride reading those of you who found comfort in this, and i thank each of you.
regarding the text, i have not fixed this blaring issue of the text passing by way too quickly, since it's an old short with life of its own by now. i am thinking though of maybe adding a new upload of the short with a solution to the titles issue.

[@doe3587]

My favorite way of looking at BPD is very simple. It originates because you were born a highly sensitive individual. This is a GOOD trait. As a child, you experienced something traumatic (sometimes longterm trauma, abuse or neglect, often from a parent) and this affected you deeply, more so than the average due to your innate sensitivity. This is obviously terrible. As a result of this combination, your nature (GOOD) and trauma (BAD), you now have a problem regulating emotions. Instead of working at a 3-5 emotional level (relatively steady), you bounce from 1-7 all the time (in a 1-10 scale). Your highs are HIGHER than the average, your lows are LOWER than the average, but you are still experience emotions that all people experience. The unfortunate part is that you feel intensity about things (good or bad) that don't merit the intesnsity, and often wear yourself out. You grow up feeling confused, peopel may think you're difficult or hostile or moody. You don't understand what is wrong with you and often have other issues such as depression, anxiety, sometimes autism. By the time you find out, you feel pretty confused, and it's normal. But the good thing about BPD is that it's treatable through DBT. People usually can manage completely with it within 1-3 years. And the skills needed aren't hard or complicated. They're skills that really everyone could benefit from, but BPDers really need. So don't be in that space of hating yourself for having BPD and dont be in that space of being afraid because others try to demonize the condition. Please accept that you can't control others and BPD is under researched and many people have misconceptions about it. You need to focus on YOU. Get better. Adopt coping skills. Change. SOmeone said "you can never be cured, only improve." Look, take it. Take improvement, and betterment. Don't get stuck in the detail of seeking a perfect solution and the creation of a perfect life. It doesn't exist. Take treatment.

[@ofirzsasson]

Well put

[@Yurimartins97]

Thank you so much for this coment.

[@ofirzsasson]

I Read it again, Still very well put

[@richardperry5273]

Thanks, Im just so petrified of what could happen again. I pushed everyone away again and I'm in a really scary dark place.

[@memoowo]

I feel understood

[@Eni_Las]

My husband who had BPD committed suicide last year. I still miss him a lot. He was the kindest person I knew.

[@lighningmcqueen3814]

I am so sorry for your loss, I send you all of my best wishes.

[@TheBusinessRam]

I’m sorry for you loss as well, I bet he was an amazing person. Best wishes to you and your family

[@FoxGameCZ]

I am sorry for your loss

[@somepunkinthecomments471]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you are doing well. That's not an easy thing to go through.

[@pixelzebra8440]

Sorry for your loss. I’m sure they were a great person. I know I’m just some random person on the internet, but take care.

[@lofkii]

crazy how something about a mental illness and was made at least 12 years ago isn't calling people with BPD "insane" every two seconds

[@chrissoto4878]

Definitely a trend I've noticed. It seems like much of the resources regarding BPD are written by or tailored moreso to; people who've experienced BPD/narcissistic abuse in some form... And probably because most psychologists see the victims more likely to benefit from the information and actually change; so they don't tailor it to them at all. However, fundamentally speaking everything I've learned about BPD were in those other teachings as well (abandonment issues, black and white thinking/splitting, etc); but there's a big difference in how the content is worded. It was never intended to be 'kind' to people with BPD as focusing on being 'nice' over correct can sometimes take away the seriousness of how to interpret the actions of people with BPD... Which describing as 'chaotic' and almost always a negative to attach to is fair considering the overwhelming amount of negative, inconsistent behavior they exhibit. It's nice to have a kind, medical explanation of BPD so they themselves can understand their illness; however how their illness affects other people can be perceived how it is and does not need such filter. No group is shielded from criticism; but I do agree people with BPD get it laid on a bit thick all things considered. After dating an ex who had it; I have nothing but sympathy for both sides of the relationship and feel moreso pitty for these people who cannot emotionally regulate well into adulthood. My ex was a beautiful person when her illness wasn't convincing her to ruin all her relationships preemptively and push people out of her life... But I'd be a liar if I denied the reality that there was no viability in that relationship and she was a questionable person to keep in my life. All the advice I got to leave her was so the correct route whether it was flavored with hate or not. I tried everything and it only made her feel like I was engulfing her more. My point with that last thing I said; 'kinder advice' is what kept me in that deadend relationship. 'Just see it out' 'Don't abandon her, she needs you' 'It's not her fault she can't regulate herself' are EXACTLY the things that made me stay with someone who humiliated me via sleeping around with my social circle (accusing one of rape who even she later admitted didn't rape her), who proceeded to blackmail me to stay after multiple attempts at rekindling on my part. That person certainly is acting like a 'demon/parasite' or at least someone who's out to ruin your life; so I can't fault the teachers brave enough to call it how they see it. All I can say for people with BPD is don't watch those people's videos; they were not meant for you and help the people you hurt get over you 🤷‍♂️

[@cheyannegiles9772]

@@chrissoto4878 bpd an narcissistic abuse aren't fucking real. are we saying bipolor abuse is a real thing now? Autistic abuse? someone mental illness has nothing to do with them being abusive. And there are Non-ableist words for it! Psychological abuse, mental abuse, something not ableist. People with personality disorder aren't more abusive than normal people The people "brave enough to call it as they see it", a good 90% of those people have never met a person with a personality disorder, they just armchair diagnosed people that hurt them with a mental illness they think is the same as being abusive. You can't support people with pds and think that it's justified to act like they are somehow a different type of abuser than a normal abuser. all abusers are the same mental illness has nothing to do with it.

[@_girl_bear_]

Right? When I went to college and the professor just said people with BPD are "crazy" and that's the best way he could describe it. Then a girl behind me raised her hand and said she was diagnosed with BPD and is she crazy? The professor was so uncomfortable and honestly good on her for calling him out on his shit. Edit: This was a psychology 102 course, mind you.

[@soupy55]

​@@_girl_bear_jesus. What a horrible human being. Good on that girl for calling him out.

[@koboldcatgirl]

Yeah, the schizophrenia joke feels wonky, but it's otherwise really empathetic and good.

[@marley4021]

As someone with diagnosed BPD, we’re always labeled as being evil. You look up BPD and the first things you see are articles, “How to Survive BPD Abuse.” You see and hear this enough that you start to wonder, am I that awful? Is that how I am? So, the ending where it said nice things made me, a grown adult, tear up a bit. Thank you.

[@turpasauna]

Yes. We are seen as monsters, almost capable to "infect" others. While the modern narrative usually graces every group suffering from something ("it's more of a personality trait than an actual disease" etc.), it almost always makes an exception with us. 😔

[@postal3412]

My girlfriend has BPD, and she's one of the most wonderful people I've had the pleasure of meeting. You're a hell of a lot more than your disorder, keep your head up and remember to keep track of the good things you do and the good qualities you have! You got this

[@dexterbunny5424]

Not all people with BPD are bad people and can be very nice. Unfortunately there is a percentage people with BPD who are very much indeed abusive and don't care that they are in which probably caused the stigma around BPD. Similar situation with people who have Bipolar disorder or PTSD.

[@liferadous]

@@dexterbunny5424 ​ And a similar situation with people who truly qualify for no diagnosis at all. Some percentage of them are abusive to only their closest loved ones, participate in genocide and war crimes en masse, are functional and normative within the rules of their society, and they don't give a fuck either. It's almost as if, regardless of what DSM designations we do or don't qualify for, we as human beings are all capable of great love and great harm, and responsible for our own actions and how they affect others-- whether the others affected are loved ones you allow your emotional turmoil to hurt or people with a specific diagnosis you justify the stigma for.

[@rennie5693]

my ex had BPD and that relationship literally gave me PTSD (diagnosed). but even i can comprehend that you aren’t monsters. i’m sure me understanding what it was would’ve helped at the time, but now i know for the future. i’m sorry that people suck, and im sorry that your brain likes to make you think annoying and sometimes terrible things. it be like that. you are just as deserving as love as everyone else is 👍 you are more than the thing you were classified as, you are more than the disorder you got diagnosed with.

[@tokaku]

I remember watching this years ago and wondering if I had BPD because I sure acted that way, but I was young and it's normal to be irrational and high on hormones because you're experiencing intense emotions for the first time. And then I found out I had autism.

[@maplechei]

OMGG HI TOKAKU

[@VoteLNLSN]

WHAT AGE DID YOU FIND THIS OUT BECAUSE IM GOING THROUGH ITTTTT RN BUT IM ALSO AUTISTIC THIS GETS MORE CONFUSING EVRRY DAY

[@NickielStufff]

Bro i might also have autism- shit-

[@lesaubergines]

@@VoteLNLSN I have a theory personally that confusing social cues as an autistic causes some BPD symptoms as one gets older

[@VoteLNLSN]

@@lesaubergines That does make sense Ima have to watch out for that 🙏🏾

[@pringlebingle]

I didn’t expect the “they can be very kind people” to make me as emotional as it did

[@bbyknives5566]

It actually made me feel worse hahah we have three good traits next to 9 terrible ones HAHHAHA I wish sum 1 loved me for me tehsjaksnjdkdbs

[@joannabortner555]

Word lol

[@LAWYMACASSI]

same

[@Amused_Comfort_Inc]

When he kicked mr.nice from being angry at everything else 😂😭

[@Queer_Nerd_For_Human_Justice]

@@bbyknives5566 Try to remember, there's a big difference between "What I Have To Deal With Mentally" and "Who And What I Am As A Person". Having emotional instability is a trouble, a challenge, it's is not a personal trait! Being kind, is.

[@cjsmith8319]

I’m a male with BPD. I’m married to my beautiful wife and thriving in my career. Did not think I would make it this far. I still fight the battle of “angels” and “demons” everyday. My wife is very social. She has a personal friend group and a professional friend group. They are always coming around my house and it makes me territorial and angry. Y’all know what I mean. But I look at her and something stops me from having an episode. I don’t know what it is, but I’m in control. I don’t think I’ll ever really love people outside my very small circle. But the little stability I have is a victory I suppose. EDIT: I want everyone to understand that my wife is ALWAYS welcome to have people at OUR house. The struggle is entirely on me and how I manage my emotional regulation, which comes with knowledge and practice. I still remain a very private person with a select group of people I keep close. My wife and I are happily married and she is my best friend in the whole world.

[@pixelzebra8440]

Having someone that makes you happy just by looking at them and let’s you be calm is not something everyone has, and is one of the most underrated treasures

[@pando0884]

​@@pixelzebra8440I don't think underrated is the right word. Unrecognised treasure for sure, but there are many things people don't recognise until it's too late

[@Amburrgur]

Why is this one of the sweetest things I have ever heard- I’m happy for you that you found that person :)

[@deez7295]

As I see this video and read this I seem to really relate to this and lately my anger especially has been very bad (keep in mind I am a teenager) but I would like to know how I can figure out a diagnosis to know for sure?

[@amper-sand]

You give me hope for the future

[@Jay-uo5of]

Whenever my BPD is spiraling, and my thoughts get really dark.. I come back and watch this. I plan to get a little red ball tattooed somewhere when I can as a gentle reminder it’ll be okay. I used to work in childcare, I love to make art, and I’d like to hope I too can be kind at least.

[@yanitzar5227]

omg, that tattoo idea is just heart warming

[@_VC._]

@@yanitzar5227 Yes, my first thought, too. 🔴

[@juvidotti7144]

🎈

[@myshachan]

I do the same thing too Currently going through a really bad splitting episode and I had to pull this up as a reminder that I'm not a monster

[@minecraftoverlord4212]

Its the rapid flashes of anger that irritate me the most. I know they're irrational, and I have exelent control over them, but they're always there, simmering in the back of my mind.

[@user-mk9lw5ky3p]

I have that. I think it's neurological, I have strongly imprinted grudges and whatever frustrations I experience tap into that unresolved anger.

[@rey-sz7nd]

Literally cus every little inconvenience sets something off inside of me

[@KingTez1995]

ALWAYS I wish they would stop but they won’t

[@-homechord-2908]

This pisses me off so much (ironically lmao - the primary emotion is anger and the secondary emotion is anger ahaha). I get completely out of proportion anger surges at my mum, and it can make me really shitty. It's one of the main things I try to work on in therapy, cuz it's a behaviour in myself that is really out of line with what I value.

[@ilianam453]

Oh that vicious cycle of discarding someone when they hurt you so deep... Then when they're gone immediately idealizing them again and creating every excuse in your head to win them back. Even if they hurt you, its not worse than the abandonment or loneliness.

[@kassandramarie3789]

This hits way too close to home 😭

[@rhyasella]

I can relate to this so well...

[@RainRemnant]

With that I hate that we're smart enough to realize that and see it all happening and actually hurt ourselves more but there are these feelings much stronger and voices much louder than that. It's exhausting

[@autumnishere420]

hit the nail right on the head

[@littlemoth4956]

That's the cycle of a victim of abuse. Not BPD.

[@joqueen2371]

That was the saddest video I have ever seen in my life. Spent his entire life fearing the ball... when at the end of the day it's all he wanted.

[@imsadyoyoyo2463]

Jordan Grant but he loved the ball yet he fared it then kicked it away by accident

[@LadyWinter13]

It wasn't by accident, it was actually by impulse, one of the main symptoms of BPD.

[@boomperson818]

Oh god

[@caitparker1603]

Yes,exactly but the ball is exactly how people with BPD see people

[@GravityBouncer]

LadyWinter13 It’s not exactly about impulse, it’s about how people with BPD (like myself) have an extremely complicated emotional roller coaster especially with interpersonal relationships. One minute he loves the ball, but something happens, maybe nothing, and he becomes scared of being hurt again, and in turn makes him act out of fear and anger to separate himself from the ball. Although it COULD be an impulse, my experiences with stuff like this feel more like a switch, like your feelings towards people and things changes drastically. Maybe even some traits you used to have become the opposite of what they were or just disappear completely. His explosion was, ironically, to protect himself from being by abandonment. In the end, he was abandoned because of what he had done.

[@phabiansoto613]

The end with the ball and then thinking and accepting that the ball will be happier with someone else is something I go through alot

[@themidnightcleric]

Yeah. And you can't even be mad, because when you really love the other person you can't hate seeing them happy. But it doesn't stop it hurting or leaving you with that jaded feeling. At least that's my experience. I've gone through some rapid cycles of attachment/discard this last year, maybe 5, in romance, friendship, housing and the jadedness is so deep. But I think feeling it, and really looking at what happened, with a therapist, instead of continuing on this way, is a big part of recovering.

[@pip4773]

The ‘nice’ changing to ‘slut’ after she waved omfg 😭

[@edwardzhou8590]

it’s uncanny how accurate this is…

[@marce420.7]

i actually do this i feel like a fucking button someone culd flip me and i would loose my kind, another flip im exhausted or back to normal, anything, literally anything. just one wrong look or gesture i take negatively and I'm like okay whatever bitch i won't associate with you, yet nobody around me ever sees anything that im seeing and they all just tell me im misinterpreting it. i just woke up and i feel really weird like im going to snap like a twig, i felt SO good yesterday i cleaned giggled all day and my speech was really slurred i was talking to fast, i don't trust any of them either, now i feel a mixture between sadness and blind rage i can only describe as deep specifically, red and blue for the sadness, im gonna like go tell somebody in real life about this now, My family thinks I have Bipolar 1 disorder undiagnosed and i think so to..

[@TamagotchiSuper]

It’s a pity that OP felt the need to include misogyny. Feels really alienating as a woman with BPD.

[@RoundhouseKick27]

@@TamagotchiSuperas a guy that’s pretty accurate lol it’s like that

[@kathp.2809]

​@@TamagotchiSuperOh for f*cking christ, are you serious? It's just joking with the extremely toxic this disorder can be. Don't be that dense.

[@bungo6000]

"They cry a lot" Whole comment section filled with people crying from this video (me included)

[@antekaniol9406]

I actually laughed cause it was so relatable

[@Zyn_Shi]

Jakub Poliński I laughed and _then_ started crying

[@notourz]

And sometimes fail to cry at appropriate times!!!! Felt that especially! Someone I love and care for is hurting immensely??? Sit there in blank empty emotion ITS whaT I Do

[@conimiau]

hahaha you have no idea lol

[@Fontenelle2307]

Crying while watching the entire video? Hi, that's me!

[@SirMorganD]

I saw this video years ago. And I still feel like im about to cry with the last sentences. "They can be good to babys Or good artists They are very kind people" Sometimes I remeber those words, in the middle of the street. And feel a little bit better. Thank you.

[@Amused_Comfort_Inc]

Sometimes my kids are the only things that bring me pure joy, and when it said that I felt that one tear start rolling hahaha ❣ Then when he kicked Mr. Nice 😭😭

[@jessecah.211]

Yesss it made me emotional seeing that. I’ve worked with babies and young kids before and I loved it so much. And I love art. I feel like I destroy everything so it feels good to hear that I can be good at certain things

[@sophiesleeps12]

I don't even think I have bpd but I still teared up a lil bit :'D

[@odessawales]

We are good artists. :-)

[@Justbecause568]

Me too

[@Lazlo111]

I think the worst part is nobody being understanding and the absolute intense feeling of abandonment

[@DraconicCatgirl]

We can’t run from ourselves, but other people can. It isn’t fair. Can others think about us, for once?

[@xaviermillan574]

The can be very kind part got me. I am always worried about how terrible and horrible I know I can be.

[@richie-3485]

as someone with Borderline Personality Disorder, i've never seen informational material with such a kind and sympathetic tone. most resources talking about it see us as demons or leeches or unstable freaks, impossible to get along with or care for without being run ragged and sucked dry. this is so important, thank you. bless. 😭 💞

[@OneDirection2V]

its romanticizing a personality trait. I dont quite like it

[@richie-3485]

@@OneDirection2V what are you talking about?

[@Jazzleeeeeez]

@@OneDirection2V Lol what

[@nicklopez8004]

Well it could be because most with BPD end up being negative it seems, this one girl i know has it and has stalked me, plays the victim while playing the mastermind, tries to break people up in relationships, tries to do whatever she can to separate people in relationships, if toxic things are said about her she creates a lie about that person and that rallies people on her side, i am afraid of her cause she is really unstable

[@richie-3485]

@@nicklopez8004 but the thing is that for her to be that bad, it means the disorder really has a hold on her. and i promise you she's suffering a LOT. i'm NOT saying that she should have all accountability for her actions waived away because of her BPD, but i am saying that she's still a person, just one suffering with a horrible, destructive disorder. she needs help.

[@joanacroft67]

It’s funny how I always thought these traits were just signs of immaturity and lack of emotion control. So I forced myself real hard to not cry or feel anxious around other people and avoid saying my thoughts out loud. To repress the feelings of abandonment to the point of feeling nothing at all. And then praised myself for growing so much emotionally when in reality, I’m just stuck with a disorder I didn’t even thought I may have.

[@riannadarlingg2569]

literally going through that now with slip ups and ur comment just made me realize i need more help than i thought

[@vvvvvvvv8552]

same. i've repressed my feelings so much that it's hard for me to tell how i really feel.

[@CATDHD]

I felt that, man. Im sorry. I also have bpd. Constant emptiness, during a day all sorts of mood from anger and hatred to happiness, then depressive, then irritated, then anxiety and fear. Diferent opinions about my job throughout the day, too. But these days it is a bit lighter version of all those. Thankfully, there are people who are helping me - A psycotherapist (Russian) Strletskaya (Стрелецкая). Maybe with subs, she can also improve your life

[@CATDHD]

@ well, sir, it is something between being hopeless, suicidal, but not wanna die - you wanna feel positive feelings but cant because you have no will at the moment. Then, it passes, and you are very happy and dont remember anything

@@CATDHD thank you

[@Bitzy]

I have been diagnosed with BPD and this video made me cry. When he kicked away the ball I lost it.

[@alonsofonseca-px9ob]

what did that represent? i have some ideas but i’m not sure

[@ao1ao2ao3]

​@@alonsofonseca-px9obpushing away others due to stress and regret from doing so

[@jojyy4]

​@@alonsofonseca-px9ob Pushing away someone/something that you love and then feeling miserable

[@kirbypoto7451]

​@@alonsofonseca-px9ob también puede ser alejarse de uno mismo, siendo hiriente y arrepientendose de eso o ciertos errores , sentirte solo y miserable x los impulsos o falsas creencias

[@addimess6297]

When I was first diagnosed with BPD my mother was scared to death by it, she had a full mental breakdown about how I would wind up dead in a horrific way because that’s how the TV reporters described BPD: just a bunch of unstable people that will end their lives at any moment. My mother doesn’t speak English but she loves cartoons so when I found Borderline Bill I showed it to her. I translated everything but whenever the red ball showed up I knew her mind was somewhere else because this old woman would only say “mhm” and not even look at me. By the end she cried and comforted me, saying everything will be alright and she was glad to have a visual representation of my illness. It eased her mind a lot, knowing BPD people aren’t “lost”, we are people still, we weep for our fallen heroes but a good majority of us preservere, specially if we have the support of our loved ones. It’s been years and my mom still begs me to make subtitles to this video in our language and honestly if I had help I would. Mental illness is still a taboo yet the rest of the world sees us as a dream country. We have 0 support for mental illness unless you’re willing to pay, possibly be in debt or even worse, get into one of our hospitals where you’ll leave more traumatized than before. Mental illness isn’t a joke, stop treating it like it is. Spread awareness like this video and you’ll be helping loads of people

[@Loulo96]

Then end where it said “they can be kind” etc made me so emotional bc I feel like I always have to prove I’m a good person and constantly fight with myself to not have bpd bc of the stigma that comes with the disorder

[@lycheemyusic]

Me too

[@Nobody-Nowhere]

can be very kind, for a very short time. as when they are kind, it means they are already idealizing you.. meaning you are already split and will end up on the other side of the split in no time. no to mention, that they need to constantly devalue you once they have idealized you to control the powerful idealized object they have created in their minds. so even being idealized will not get you anything nice.

[@Nobody-Nowhere]

"Omnipotence and devaluation form a pair of defenses related to splitting. In a sense, they lie behind primitive idealization, the feeling of omnipotence becoming accessible to the patient through the link with the powerful, idealized object. Because he feels omnipotent, the patient feels invulnerable and safe from the malevolent objects around him and can omnipotently control those bad objects. The desire to control is turned back on the idealized object, for example, the therapist, through attempts to manipulate and exploit him and, thus, to possess him as though he were a mere extension of the patient himself. The devaluation, aside from being an explicit put-down, is also implicit in this manipulative, controlling action. Devaluation represents a form of control that is an attempt to defuse the malevolent power of the dangerous object. "

[@Nobody-Nowhere]

@@butterflymb93 Intuitive how? They end up in horrible relationships as they idealize people and cant see who they really are. They can be in relationships with bottom of the scum murderers and think they are just super duper awesome people. No to mention all the projection, denial and transferences they do mixing up their internal & external worlds. I would not call that being intuitive. There is nothing good in having borderline, its horrible disabiliating personality disorder that ruins lives.

[@Evievaluv]

nobody nowhere if you don’t have BPD, DONT speak for us. Thank you

[@user-es5vx1ri8q]

I was diagnosed with BPD at 17 after 9 months of observing my symptoms. It was the earliest she'd ever given someone the diagnosis. Catching my behavior early has helped, but one thing this video didnt mention is the possible heightened sense of empathy that comes with the disorder. It has shaped my entire life. I empathize with every living being on this Earth and I find that to be a gift. I think how much borderlines can love, is beautiful. The disorder is a byproduct of dysfunction or trauma, sometimes learned behaviors but that doesn't mean it is unable to give you something of value in return.

[@dimwitted-fool]

It’s all love brother ❤

[@joshy2joshy]

I understand your point about feeling "empathy", but I suggest you look into projective identification. If you can see yourself in someone else, you will empathise with them on the basis that you are unconsciously projecting your own pain onto them. Can you empathise with someone who has an issue that you don't understand or feel familiar with? That's empathy

[@towhee3400]

I kicked the ball back in 2020 and I'm still frequently grieving the loss, even if the person wasn't the healthiest for me to be around. Them thinking about the "ball" being picked up by another person really hit home; there's always someone better, more stable, more fun, more whatever. Why should i bother trying to stay in this person's life if they have so many better options? Ugh i dont even have a diagnosis, tho I've wondered. A lot of this hit home

[@miaflores7269]

The ending made me cry…. I’ve recently “kicked the ball”, the ball being a dear childhood friend of mine (or was) who has stuck around no matter what, been there for me, done so many wonderful things and yet……. 💔 I hurt her badly due to perceived abandonment and now she will never, ever, come back (I can never take back the things I’ve said to her and I regret it everyday.)

[@cdogthehedgehog6923]

Kicking the ball is honestly the absolute worst part of this disorder.

[@Outsider1095]

Im with you. I started crying at 2:15 and wouldn’t stop. My body knew it was coming as soon as they mention “unstable relationships”- the worst part of BPD is pushing people away….

[@oogalook]

Dang, Mia. 😢 Hang in there. You might consider just sending a note explaining your condition, how much you regret your action, and that you forgive whatever they did, so your friend has the facts and can be at peace. Then they can make their decision as to whether to respond. If not, that's your conscience clean at least. That disorder sounds like such a burden. Praying for ya.

[@finchcarvingadiamond]

Oh this is weird. I had to leave my best friend who had bpd 2 years ago. I have ptsd and my absent mom had bpd so me and my best friend with bpd had a lot of traumabonded familiar ground. After 6 years, they unfortunately had begun to perceive me as rejecting them and they did something way too close to my traumatic abuse. I stood my ground for the first time, told her I loved her, contacted her parents to check on her after our conflict but I left so I wouldn’t get hurt again. I got in my car and I am scared to go back and I hate myself for it. I know she is sorry. I wish I could tell her how sorry I am for having to leave like that. I wish I could be the one to help her but I can't. I get flashbacks and panic attacks when triggered and I can't function. I still don't know what to do. I have tried to study the illness and bought multiple workbooks just to be a good friend. I know how painful that must've been. But I'm not healthy enough myself to be what she needs. And she did mess up. I guess what I'm saying is that this situation isn't easy and trust that there are still people who want to understand the painful and chaotic stuff those with Bpd experience. I will keep working on how to address these things.

[@GovilGirl]

​@@oogalookIf you are the one with BPD the proper apology is not, "I forgive you." It is, "I am sorry. I was wrong. I was wrong to break your boundaries and I regret it everyday. I wish I wasn't like this and I have been doing x, x, and x to improve. I regret losing our connection bc of how much you mean to me. (Self focused loss) I feel shame and guilt and contempt for myself for hurting you. (Empathy)

[@repaeu]

The end with the dog kicking the ball away and immediately being struck with loneliness and wanting the ball back, imagining some other person finding the ball. I teared up a bit. Only a BPD can understand that bit and oh God, so true, so real.

[@mathieupitre]

I teared up too on that scene... and on the rage scenes because that is what is hapenning in my brain too...

[@ulibarriL]

I became a ball of tears when I saw that. It is so true and also true that no one but a borderline understands this. We are just seen as crazy and too much to handle. Thus perpetuating our loneliness and feelings of emptiness :'(

[@roringaru]

+repaeu this scene made me cry too :( i feel like such a monster for having bpd and hurting people i care about without meaning to.

[@tordeohorselover1234]

+repaeu Same here :(

[@roxannasca9923]

+repaeu Wow I thought I was the only one who felt that way on that scene...

[@BrownGeorge-pw2xo]

I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with BPD. Spent my whole life fighting BPD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my son recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

[@DonnHowes]

YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@Wimruther-hk4zn]

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

[@LucasRobert-ns3nj]

Yes he's Dr.alishrooms.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.

[@ChristopherEric-fr8im]

From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later,

[@TomSanders-qv8bv]

I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.

[@2woundedcats]

My boyfriend who had BPD killed himself in September 2022. He showed me this animation in 2021 back when I was undiagnosed with BPD and I've genuienly cried everytime I've watch this

[@ofirzsasson]

I am so sorry

[@mandaxhope]

Took me years accept I had BPD. I didn’t want to be seen as someone who is too emotional and dramatic. I don’t why, but I was surprised when the psychiatrist told me I had this. Then I actually did my research on it and finally realized yes, I am just like that damn dog in the video. Despite this, I fell in love and married my husband and we have been together for 10 years. We have a 3 year old, named Evy and she is the sun in my solar system. I say all this, because I want to tell other bpd sufferers that you can have a long term relationship ( it just takes a little extra work from both partners) and you can live a relatively stable and good life. For me, it took about 14 years to grow as a person(along with psychiatric medication and seeing a therapist) I know you guys can do it too, don’t give up!🌟

[@irunaharu674]

Hi Your story really inspired me when I read it and I want to ask you if you could tell me a bit more about how you did it and how it finally worked out for you because I have a friend which has BPD and I wanna know how to approach her correctly without unconsciously triggering her I'd be really happy when you are interested in telling me a bit more about it 😋 I really appreciate it, ty

[@mandaxhope]

@@irunaharu674 I would say bring up the topic of therapy (counseling) and that even people who AREN’T mentally ill can greatly benefit from it. This kind of takes the stigma away from seeking a psychologist’s help. Everyone is different though. My parents noticed something was off when they started getting me professional help when I was 14, but it about 3 years to accept that I was mentally ill and become comfortable with getting counseling and taking psych meds. Sometimes you have to just plant the seed (idea in their head) and over time, with patience(most times) they will seek help.

[@SIRKISSHY]

thank you for the hope, kind stranger.

[@mandaxhope]

@@SIRKISSHY of course! Never stop putting in the work and effort to live a good life. Never give up hope. 💖

[@thewxtchsheart]

got me ugly sobbing at 7am... i, too, wish you all the best to you, to your child, to your husband and to all you care for thank you. i needed this

[@alessandraforman5887]

BPD is a real buzzkill. It will make you cling to one specific person then after a while you start hating them, you "kick" them away then realize how much you need them. Love/hate relationships

[@Lexi-hy4nr]

Alessandra Forman accurate.

[@AlwaysDreaming]

Alessandra Forman sadly yes. I've done this before 😞 trying hard to work on it and not have favorites

[@shanethepain13]

My girlfriend has BPD. We have been together I think around two years, that included months where she refused to even talk to me before eventually wanting to be together again. Its been incredibly difficult and emotionally draining to be with her, but it does get better and easier over time and i do think eventually it'll be okay and we'll both be happy for the majority of the time were together.

[@ivanbraginski2232]

I hate it. I know I love them but you start hating them uncontrollably. I stopped dating people I found I loved because of this fact. I don't want to ever hate them. It's hard when someone likes you a lot. You don't really have a good reason for telling them that you don't want to be with them, because it's not true. It is just something you can't do. I want to keep cheering those who I love on... It's so hard to live with any kind of personality disorder. Especially since those who don't have it can't understand. I have opened up for people to just tell me it shouldn't stop me from dating. But the thing is. It does, but I won't let it stop me from loving. So I'm always going to be there, just not as a significant other. Sacrifices are important for things important to you. Those who I love are important to me.

[@BigTroubleD]

Thanks for having patience. I have it and have been consciously trying to be better and think of my fiance and his perspective more before letting myself get out of control. I lived with a lot of guilt, and I am far from being rid of BDP, but I made it through severe depression I can overcome my BDP too

[@randomocity999]

This hurt to watch, as if I was staring through a mirror watching an animated version of myself preforming a play through this video. It was enlightening and made a lot of sense to me all the parallels and similarities almost to the exact point. A melancholic display of what my life is everyday.

[@comicsans3537]

And remember guys- over 95% of BPD sufferers recover within 15 years, the VAST MAJORITY within 1 year with proper therapy. The process of accepting that the ways you react to trauma are harmful is long and intense, but it is so rewarding and allows you to be someone who can love and be loved the way you long to be. Ive seen plenty of people who have been in full remission, and though the thought cycles remain, they can ride them out without much reaction and are much happier as a result. You got this ❤

[@OphiuchiChannel]

95%? really?

[@Unfortunatelyidiotic]

I don’t think I can survive that long tbh

[@Bunny11344]

Is there a difference between bpd and cptsd

[@DoeDeer1]

I successfully managed it until I got a serious abandonment trigger. I’m on the edge of a spiral again and isolating from everyone for their safety and to reduce my reactions, again. This sucks. I thought I really had it beat or at least under control.

[@b1n0rc0de]

You are a great person, thank you 🙏🏻 (already 6 years in!)

[@Cool4cake]

I have bpd, I completely lost it and started weeping when the words, “they are very kind people” came across the screen. I haven’t self affirmed my good traits in a very long time. I really needed to hear that. Thank you.

[@rodhasmana7306]

you are a good person!

[@danwoods3360]

the kinds of people I've met like this have been the sweetest. I'm sure you're an amazing person

[@rynfornow3411]

Vinyl Cat me too! I thought I was such a horrible and messed up person until one of my friends mentioned to me how nice I am with people. I was so shocked! My family had treated me as worse than scum, so hearing that really changed me.

[@BernardoPatino]

In the words of Kat Blaque: *"You are beautiful,* *and you are loved"*

[@mezlandia]

You're beautifully flawed, as we all are.

[@spicyoniondip2742]

I was diagnosed with BPD when I was entering adulthood, and my therapist was the one who showed me this video. The bit at the end is something that makes me smile whenever I think of it. Thank you for such an informative, and yet sympathetic video.

[@h3corptempbutevadinganass]

Agreed 😅

[@smoke_something]

I don't have BPD, but I've been the ball and the bit at the end makes me incredibly sad

[@tyler_da_wiz]

​@@smoke_somethingI was the ball in the situation with my ex. I love her to death, but I can't bring myself to call her. Not after what she said to me.

[@augustosochalm3761]

I am a male with BPD. Was diagnosed 4 months ago. Been on medication for a year and a half now. My life has gone from completely chaotic because of a breakup (btw my girlfriend at the time also had bpd) to a very chill and happy life with psychotherapy and medications. Treat yourselves guys!!

[@devinevin222]

Dude when he got so overwhelmed from every thing that he kicked the ball away :(

[@camilaburgos8383]

:(. It could perfectly be a metaphor of how stress can cause us to lose things that are valuable to us.

[@corvisangel3393]

that BPD feel when you cry at the end when he kicks the ball away

[@caitlin739]

I think that was the worst part. when it all got too much and he kicked the ball away.

[@NudgeRules]

I couldnt cry.

[@megan7905]

Nolta Aingell I couldn't cry but I was close too

[@hiimfrog7369]

it triggered me so much

[@silviadekok]

Nolta Aingell that exactly happened to me

[@sonomabeast]

My sister has bpd. To say its scary to watch is an understatement. Having to live with her undiagnosed was scarier.

[@user-zr9dc5fw9d]

Scarier to live with 👹😇😭😍

[@caesarsalad493]

I was diagnosed with BPD back in 2020. Recently a psychologist told me that I may have been misdiagnosed and just have CPTSD. I definitely don’t think I was misdiagnosed. Everything in this video, down to the very end (being good with babies wasn’t something I expected to be a trait but it’s very true in my case) explains exactly what I go through and have my whole life. Sometimes I feel just plain crazy. But I’m currently medicated which has helped drastically, even tho it’s definitely not a cure-all. Thank you for making this!

[@-homechord-2908]

Honestly, sometimes bpd and cptsd act as such close cousins that the distinction becomes unuseful

[@FriendlyHomie]

My girlfriend has bpd and I think she's amazing, I'll never abandon her. She's an angel and she's so strong it's unreal!

[@true_lovers_knot]

are you two together?

[@TheSecretMailMan]

lol ur gonna get cheated

[@xxkerosensexx]

@@TheSecretMailMan what an ignorant thing to say

[@TheSecretMailMan]

@@xxkerosensexx unfortunately people who have bpd are so unstable that they are either going to break up because of their fear of rejection/abandonment or cheat to have a "plan B"

[@xxkerosensexx]

@@TheSecretMailMan I have bpd and I've never cheated on anyone but okay sis

[@UsurperKingZant]

This is the best mix of art and education I've seen in my life

[@groundpound1749]

I love your akane image. I relate.

[@pofficial3345]

This video is so special to me. Fortunatly, i don't have to live with bpd, but the way it's representated here is just so interesting and informative. The most of the video being a mix of comedy chaos and exagerations (in the positive way) of some symptoms, and the end. The end is just everything to me. The way the dog kicked the ball, the music, the symptoms now just being some words of posivity. I'm very thankful you made this, and on another note it's also impressive visually and musically, everything about this is just amazing !!!

[@ofirzsasson]

Thank you so much❤️

[@pofficial3345]

@@ofirzsasson np !!! This is a big inspiration for me, subscribed ^^ !

[@emochick99]

4:14 made me tear up a bit. feels stupid but it means a lot to hear nice things about us. this is really well done. thankyou

[@shazzac7573]

I hate the stigma around bpd - that people with bpd are horrible and angry beings. Yes, we lash out sometimes to those closest to us (my family for me) but we do try to be kind all the time because we know what it feels like to be hurt and alone. Also, everything negative going on in the world around us we are very aware of it and we are affected by it very severely; we're very articulate and always observe others and we notice even the smallest of changes in people.. It just sucks that we are misunderstood by most of society and classed as a bunch of psychopaths.

[@kikiswaik1253]

Shazza C couldn't agree more

[@lyvsix]

Shazza C bpd has made me an incredibly sympathetic person so now im an activist fr animal and human rights. It's easy to undetstand other people's pain when you hurt so much. This video portrays us as monsters and after treatmemt I'm nothing like that. There's help out there guys!

[@shazzac7573]

***** honestly same. I used to be a lot meaner when I was a child but when I reflect on the past I don't feel like the child I was has much connection to the person I am now, I guess the hurt is still there.. I also agree on the whole rights thing. I've been a vegetarian for over a year now and I even did a project on animal and human rights. I guess now that I know what pain feels like, I don't want anyone else to feel that way - especially the innocent.

[@shazzac7573]

***** thank you. That's very lovely

[@cheese8987]

Someone tried to tell me that I don't have BPD because i'm "worried that I do," which makes no sense.

[@credo4568]

As a guy with Borderline, its nice to see a male representation of my illness for once. A dog at that. It feels right

[@patrickhanson712]

Copy that man.

[@neztanizaki2346]

Same here

[@andrestoro2391]

Are you assuming that dog's gender?

[@neztanizaki2346]

@@andrestoro2391 nobody even said anything about the dogs gender lmao

[@Mundillou]

@@neztanizaki2346 yea they did the dude said male

[@lokismischief2512]

I have BPD, I'm a 35 year old male. I survived a lot of the worst of my illness and learned a plethora of lessons as a result of each one. My wife is the most patient, understanding and graceful person I've ever had the pleasure to know. She sees all of me, not just the emotional oscillations or random agitation. Shes patient with me but doesn't let my b.s slide. We communicate openly and boldly and I respect her for it. I used to think I was broken and unlovable, I used to believe I wasn't worth anyones time, not even my own. But a lot changed and she helped me through some of it. Still does and will, as I'll be dealing with this for the rest of my life.

[@shiiina4199]

my friend has bpd and I've been friends with her for five years even before it was diagnosed. the earlier years when it wasn't diagnosed were hard for both of us but since she's gotten diagnosed she's taken the time and effort to learn strategies that help manage her emotions. I'm so proud of her and how far she's come, I love her so much.

[@HeartLily]

I always get scared watching videos about BPD because so many paint us as similar to a sociopath and act like everyone in our lives are a victim but this made me feel better. Thank you.

[@Ibarrysax]

W io

[@FreeButtSex]

yeh, cause as soon you fucks start reading about bpd on the internet and self diagnosing yourselves with this shit, you start using it as an excuse to treat the people that love you as a piece of shit. you don't have an excuse

[@umhello9962]

Django Mandingo How do you know they are self diagnosing? They probably do have it. You don’t know if they don’t. Also, even if it is bad to lash out at those you love, it’s not like they can control their anger. The symptoms of Bpd include uncontrollable anger. People with Bpd *can* be genuinely nice people at times.

[@FreeButtSex]

@@umhello9962 Psychopaths can also be nice people at times. These people are no different, their primary function of existence is to bring harm to people. We do not tolerate psychopaths, why should we tolerate bpd and bipolar ppl? And for the self diagnosing part - if its some teenage e-girl saying she has it - its a fact she self diagnosed it online, shes just probably a shitty person to be a round with and wants to have a crutch so she can justify her shit behavior.

[@umhello9962]

Django Mandingo Why are you comparing psychopaths to people with Bpd? Bpd people don’t intend to bring harm to others, while psychopaths may have the intention to do so. Also, psychopaths are way worse than people with Bpd, so don’t compare them. And again, we *still* don’t know if they are just faking for attention just because they are a teenage girl. It’s better to not say anything at all. Just saying.

[@hem138]

They cry a lot. *Cries when it shows "they can be very kind" * It's been a rough night for me. I've been crying all night thinking about suicide and harming myself for certain reasons. I'll pull through. if you're reading this, please don't give up, keep fighting.

[@arielmoreno7774]

I'm so sorry :(

[@mimi4050]

Please don't hurt yourself!

[@aaaa-be5ck]

are you still there? youve got it! please don't do anything to yourself. it might be rough for now but keep fighting. everything will be alright. don't ever give up :)

[@hem138]

Holy shit!! I never knew this comment had so many likes! Thank you everyone for your kind words. I'm doing better than last year. Although sometimes it hits really hard. But I'm so glad I'm living and that I'm fighting. ❤️

[@hem138]

It's so weird to see this comment now cz I've been better this year and then yesterday suddenly the same situation happened as the comment states and i did hurt myself a bit. Hell of a coincidence finding this comment now. But I'm doing much much better right now. Thanks to anyone who cared. Take care of yourselves ❤️

[@dumbparrot1409]

My ex has BPD. She sabotaged our relationship often, and eventually went too far. I think she thinks I hate her for this, or that I don’t want to be around her anymore. She described me as her red ball. I have never met a more kind and intelligent person though. She’s an amazing artist too. You know, she does these wonderful drawings in the silly Animal Jam picture editor. I will always love her. Above all of the pain and hurt she put me through, I think of her fondly. Above all else, I am just sad that I’m not the one for her. I think I’m just her Mr. Nice. I’m not what she needs, and I’m learning to accept that for what it’s worth. If you read this Des, I still love you. I will always love you. I cannot wait to see what beautiful pieces you make on Animal Jam next.

[@amaz0nsmash]

I hate feeling like I'm outside of my body just screaming or sobbing and I literally can't muster the strength to feel any other way. It feels like a panic attack, all dizzy but more angry

[@martinspoonerkingjr.4432]

Never heard of the Disorder, and certainly don't have it. But to think that someone can have so many uncontrollable feelings that push them to go against all they want and make them push away any relationships. This made me cry, and I truly feel for all of you who have it.

[@emw5]

Martin Spooner King Jr. Thank you Sir. We don't want pity, just think differently than most

[@kit10]

Thank you! 😭😍

[@ChichiPee]

Martin Spooner King Jr. thankyou sir

[@MentyLovesKwon]

Martin Spooner King Jr. thank you

[@somehomestucktrash9400]

Martin Spooner King Jr. Aw thanks ;^;

[@Peachyroooo]

My best friend of 8 years has BPD and I love her so dearly. She is so kind, and so much more than her disorder. To those who have BPD, just know that there are people out there who are willing to understand you and love you for who you are, no matter what happens. If you haven't found them yet, don't lose hope. For us, I know God put us in each other's lives all those years ago and I'm so glad He did.

[@Myatheroses]

Ya everyone I ever loved and knew left me. I’m pretty screwed

[@nathanglencross2072]

My best friend had bpd. And she hurt me. A lot. And I couldn't be there for her because she really really fucked me up. And I really don't want to see her again. But I do believe what you say is true. Everyone needs someone, and I hope she can find someone like that.

[@cdogthehedgehog6923]

Yeah god isnt real and i dont have the luxury to play pretend with imaginary friends. So your imaginary platitudes are just that: big ol ball of nothing.

[@lucca.machado_]

i had a neurophysiological evaluation, the psychologist gave me an anxiety disorder diagnosis that is almost like bpd, I asked whats the difference between this and bpd and she said: “bpd likes to show out for attention and are suicidal, and youre not like that, youre too quiet” like wtf

[@liferadous]

"quiet" is literally a subtype of borderline, lol. i have/had bpd and it took me years and years to get the right diagnosis and treatment, because the professionals i was seeing expected a stereotype.

[@BLUE_FLUFF]

This is the explanation of BPD I was looking for. I don’t have it but for awhile I thought I did possibly and couldn’t find any good solid envisioning of all the symptoms and what they meant and how people with BPD feel. I now understand BPD much better than I used to. I didn’t understand how extreme black and white viewpoints were, how they couldn’t feel more than one extreme emotion at a time, and more. Thank you for this highly informative video. ❤

[@AdamUniversal]

Only people with bpd will understand how truly heartbreaking the final scene is

[@enricolarum]

AdamUniversal it’s true. I’ve bpd, I know very well this kind of feeling. It’s definitely not easy to be me, and now I understand why :(

[@AdamUniversal]

Laura I’m sure that if you scrape its viciousness away you’re a brilliant person beneath❤️

[@rafiki7136]

I'm crying so bad..

[@drakebell458]

It's 2pm I'm crying in bed.

[@ACKRYL]

I cry everytime I see it somehow

[@IamA352]

The ending broke my heart. I've done that so many times.

[@necavanessa2414]

Maria Eduarda Fajardo same 😞

[@phftheebonidiot637]

The white hot flash of rage followed by icy dread when you realize what youve done.

[@davidk429]

Maria Eduarda Fajardo , you are amazing! I hope you doing well.

[@cryptid6279]

that part where he kicked the ball away, his favorite person, made me feel so seen. i have bpd and i recently got cut off from my favorite person and even after realizing he was an awful person i still struggle with missing him. its hard but it gets better.

[@hiPPe_mAns]

PSA TO PEOPLE WHO GET ROMANTICALLY INVOLVED WITH SOMEONE WITH BPD: the fact that they have a mental disorder NEVER exuses abusive behavior. Obviously not saying that everyone with BPD is abusive, but it can happen and it is extremely important to be aware of it. My first serious relationship was with a girl who had BPD. And while her actions had a reason, the amount of pain and trauma she caused me will stick with me for the rest of my life. The constant pushing away and pulling back in has resulted in extreme trust issues. During her sudden rage outbursts I was beaten. Of course it isnt her fault that she has this disorder, and it isnt completely her fault that she acted that way, but she still did. She still made me feel asthough she only needed me when she wanted a therapist. And she still screamed in my face moments after holding me. And now almost 7 years later, I'm still dealing with the repercussions of that, and so is my partner. I just want people to remember that ABUSE IS ABUSE. No matter the reason or weather or not it's on purpose.

[@kazelalla7577]

I am so sorry for your experience and you are indeed right. No matter what the partner might have, you have to prioritize your mental health. I am a person with BPD, one of my main concern within my relationships is exactly the effecta I could have on my friends because of me pulling away. What you say is something I fear of causing. Baing with BPD Is not easy for us, I'm sure isn't easy for who's around us too.

[@thefisherking2268]

While you’re absolutely right and I know you have good intentions, I don’t think this is the right video to post this on. Us with BPD are already played to be the villain enough, and in a video that’s about confiding with and humanizing BPD, trying to break those stereotypes in the process, this comment just feels a bit…tone deaf, in the kindest way I can put the word. Again, don’t get me wrong, I fully agree with you, I just don’t think this is the place to put it.

[@flowerfloofs]

Why post this on an awareness video for people with the disorder? To make themselves feel better about the fucking disorder? People do not need warnings about people with bpd. They're as "dangerous" as the average person. Having bpd does not make you more likely to be an abuser. Fuck off.

[@madelinebitts2766]

@@thefisherking2268 They're made out to be a villain for a reason. Their symptoms are inherently abusive. If you don't have those symptoms, you don't have BPD, if you do have those symptoms, you are abusive.

[@MikuoIrl]

@@madelinebitts2766 You dont know how mental illness works clearly. You cant diagnose or undiagnose anyone screw off.

[@barbieoncoke]

It’s a blessing and a curse to be able to feel so much.

[@arcrimson9932]

if this video (minus the words) had zero context i wouldve thought it was an animation about a sexually frustrated dog.

[@antiprismatic]

AR Crimson oh fuck

[@Lena-cb6xg]

As someone with BPD, it is, honey, it is.

[@lycheemyusic]

@@Lena-cb6xg true lol

[@Trashpanda115]

I wasn’t expecting myself to find so many commonalities in this video that i could compare and relate to. This was so much more upbeat than I expected.

[@sepelchurparadise4785]

I find it incredibly, incredibly, difficult to find even a modicum of happiness in anything. I am 26 years old and for the last 20 years of my life i have been in a constant state of sadness. Medication has failed me at every corner. People are afraid of me because my anger. I rarely even leave my house for fear of being around others. I dont find joy in anything. Many days i will sit in a dark room for hours on end, sometimes up to an entire day, doing nothing because i barely find the strength to cook or clean or even bathe. My settling point is far below the bar and i consider complacency as my highest achievable mood point. I dont suffer from suicidal tendencies, nor do i want to die, but i for one understand how difficult these things can be. No matter what happens, don't give up. Keep fighting. You're worth it.

[@user-vi1rw2hr9s]

As someone with bpd, the end really hits hard.

[@brookiecatty5862]

Yeah my chest hurt and I started tearing up

[@CECItheMATOS]

Sameee 😭

[@AprilsPurpleSoul]

I'm crying at work... haha

[@crazyblondesquirrel2]

this is possibly the cutest video ever related to psychology. this will be useful

[@ricyans]

what coloradolove means is how Ofir Sassion makes this video cartoonish and interesting not the person having the BPD

[@PhyllisMasters]

I agree that this video is cute, but I also agree that living with this has been hell, especially on my family.

[@saraharizkan9321]

RicyanS I found you :v!

[@snowballs5314]

our generation is so fucked up in the head that they want to identify as strongly mentally disabled, because they could identify them selfs with a black dog or something in a 5min vid... how pathetic can this even get

[@SonOfJ]

I dont think snow balls is talking about whoever made this video. I think he means that a lot of people give themselves a label with borderline or asperger or whatever before they even know what it is (because a lot of people actually do this seeking for attention). the only one showing arrogance is you for assuming you know exactly what someone means and insulting that person for it.

[@Ahmed-bj6fm]

My girlfriend has bpd and I'm really trying to understand a bit of how it feels, I know it's a really difficult thing to go through and I really wish I could do anything to help her with what she's going through, I hope everybody who has bpd finds mind peace soon, thank you for the video it made me understand it more

[@jamiedauphney7553]

"Avoids any positive stimuli due to fears of abandonment or disappointment" OWWWWWWCHHHHHH

[@triggerhappy1035]

This interpretation made me cry. I felt as though there wasn't nearly as much negativity towards the disorder. I am still struggling with this disorder and it makes me feel better that this video approached the topic in a much more human manner. Just the very idea that this interpretation shows and understanding of my struggles. It made me cry. And at the ending, where it shows the good things about people like me... it made me happy to see that there is at least a little bit of compassion for this disorder. Most people just dismiss this disorder as psychopathic or overly dramatic or just plain crazy. This interpretation shows our struggles in a way that doesn't make us look entirely bad.

[@ingriddiazsandbu479]

[@TamaraTen]

when he yeeted himself out the window to avoid his date 😂 i felt that

[@Queer_Nerd_For_Human_Justice]

Right! When me and my wife were still dating, I think I broke up with her like 10 times. "Oh, a nice stable relationship with mutual care and affection? SOUNDS LIKE A TRAP"

[@tiramis0up]

same lmaoooo

[@shaniatwain5530]

@@tiramis0up Any advice for someone that lowkey loves a person with bpd and has for a year. but their indesisiveness is making it hard to stay cus I'm emotional, and idk wether they mean their feelings. It's so confusing because they dont want a relationship but they say they want to date me and another human cus they cant decide, and recently told me they've been benefits cus they haven't been in a relationship, which is true ig, but ouch my heartstrings have felt like I've been toyed, and even tho that human is toxic for them and they say I'm the only good person around them they'd still pick them not me. And now I'm scared if I leave them they'll get really sad or not care.

[@tiramis0up]

@@shaniatwain5530 oh honey a year? thats tough but i totally understand them when said they don't want a relationship but they wanna date you... for my own pov i really love it when someone is caring at me and giving me love and attention but as time goes by i grew this fear in me that maybe they don't really like me and i feel like i need to abandon them first before they abandon me or before they will grew tired of understanding my idencisiveness. But my ex made me understand that they will never leave me, that they will awalys be there to understand me, and that they will never hurt me. You both need to trust one another. Make them feel your loved and make them feel that you will always be there. Trust and communication is important. But dont forget to make room for yourself too. If ever you will leave I can say that they will get sad if you really made them feel your love. I really hope this helps and gives you an inside what on they feel.

[@bakashine1488]

@@tiramis0up I have bpd and I also have a boyfriend. You're right communication and trust is important. It's not easy because I always pushed him away at first and then I will cry when I feel like he will leave because he's tired. It's not easy at first, but now were working it out. It's hard for me to explain my feelings but when you said you love being loved but also scared that they're faking it so you have to detach yourself, I felt that.

[@rosamy2017]

This sounds like my mom. I was her ball and she kicked me away. After hearing the way she was talking about herself I realized she was suicidal. It took a long time but I got her back on meds and she’s back to “herself”. We still fight sometimes but she’s way better at seeing grey areas sometimes. She’s better at appreciating joy while also experiencing anxiety.

[@crying2emoji5]

Sometimes it is frustrating to feel this bad and to still have to be rational and responsible lol.

[@scottazoe]

I was recently diagnosed with BPD, and all the while I’ve been doing research, trying to understand myself and “ride the wave” of my episodes and condition… this whole animation just felt like a big hug of understanding. The end where “They cry a lot… are good with babies… are good artists… and very kind people.” I know a lot of people are talking about that part in the comments, so I just want to give my thanks for reminding us that we have good hearts, and can be good people. It means a lot to remind us we are humane.

[@ThisisnotElio]

Just about every article I've read about bpd paints us in a negative light. They tend to stress how difficult we can be, and praise anyone who's able to deal with us. It meant so much that this video ended with positive words. I believe it's the first time I've ever heard anything positive about borderlines. Thank you so much.

[@ecnalreleam]

I know. Right?! Like, they say that we're abusive and they warn people to not get into relationships with us. Like WTF?!

[@bengacris]

Well I don't know Lance, I manipulated and did some scummy ass things because of the BPD and all the insecurities. I try to stay away from relationships now, because I know that I'm trouble. Maybe after therapy and when I feel like the BPD is less intense will I try to get a good relationship again, one that I won't ruin (well, that "me")

[@ecnalreleam]

The thing is, we ALL do bad things. Even people without BPD screw up, manipulate people, and worse. So, just because we have something that causes us to screw up doesn't mean that people should run from us. We can fight it. Look at you! You're not going to pursue romance until you get it down to being less intense! I'm the same way! So, why should people run from us if we know we have a problem and are doing our best to get it under control? If anything, have a diagnosis gives us a sense of recognition and aim. We KNOW what is causing this stuff, so we know what to fight against. We know how to seek help for it.

[@minaturner6741]

+Molly Scully I've been feeling the same way. Although for me I have the need to be in a relationship otherwise I go into a low mood state. Since I began dating I've had roughly a week gap between a new relationship and the previous. I would break up with the person in every one because my feelings would just suddenly change for them and I wouldn't be interested anymore. A lot of the people I've been with had become very attached to me so when I've broken up with them for what seems like no reason they retaliate and become really low themselves. During relationships I'm coming to realize I'm not the best either. it's hard for me to notice it since I feel like I'm acting s certain way for a good reason but a lot of the time it's probably irrational. I've stopped myself from getting in relationships with good people because I know I'll damage them. Although it kills me whenever I meet up with a person I really like and share interests with and I know they like me back but I can't get with them because I know at one point I'm just going to randomly switch off from liking them and hurt them.

[@bengacris]

I feel exactly like that. Also I want to please, and I get so far in the "pleasing the person" that when I realise that this person is falling/liking me even if I don't share this feeling, I feel trapped because I can't say "Hey it's over now", I know it's what I need to do, but I fear their retaliation (justified) and so I let the relationship die and I become even more shitty so they stop liking me. So I give people a good time, and an awful time too.

[@akiramakara2062]

As someone with BDP, nothing in this video resonated as painfully hard as Bill shooting a random person for saying hi, and throwing himself out of a window. Those feel like my only two moods jfc

[@wasabee8228]

Hi, BPD’er from Belgium. After I got my diagnosis, I finally found that all the puzzle pieces fell into place. Why I act the way I do, why I think the way I think, etc.. Diagnosed couple of years ago, am now almost 29 yo. It does get better. Definitely with age, in my experience. With help of psycho therapy, psychiatrists, my doctor, medication and hard work of course. It can be depressing to some to have to go through all THAT, after experiencing different kinds of traumas. But it is worth learning you are not the bad guy, you can be loved and you can learn to love as well.. Also, no matter how cliché this is; everything will be all right eventually. Emotions come AND they go. Try to keep that in mind. Your rollercoaster of emotions doesn’t define you. Hope you all find/have loving and trustworthy people in your lives. ❤

[@SEVENSENT]

This video made me feel understood for the first time in my life. Thank you.

[@ofirzsasson]

thank you, simone

[@_nutsbutts_]

I have a friend who has BPD. She tried to kill herself 2 days ago. I don't know what to do and it's affecting my mental health too... Sometimes I want to say fuck it and leave her but how can I? אגב גם אני מישראל.

[@badkitty101]

Milky's im sorry about your friend. having a BPD friend is hard. i have BPD myself and i can offer you some advice if you would like it. but i hope your ok and feeling better mentally.

[@davalii5710]

Sime Same...

[@danaecharzaka5580]

Sime same here..

[@YehudiNimol]

Not gonna lie, that sounds miserable. I wish all BPDers a happy life

[@thebondofunity]

It can be for sure. Its fucked. But idk, at least I'm alive and have deep emotional thoughts.

[@doubledonkgaming1]

@@thebondofunitysame way i feel

[@imthebossmermaid3648]

@@thebondofunity Yeah, at least I am incredibly loving and caring towards other people!

[@AccomplishedBoot86]

We live. For most of us it’s miserable, but it’s easier when it’s all you’ve ever known.

[@krystinaraquel]

it is. but thank you.

[@lollybott1556]

Its the "cutest" thing I've ever seen (and it helps me understand and tolerate it) about my disorder.. it always comforts me.. thank you❤

[@peri5833]

Been watching this video for years whenever I have a breakdown and it's still one of the only things that helps. It's especially nice to see as a man with BPD. Thank you

[@ofirzsasson]

Thank you❤️stay strong

[@Charlie-uh3nd]

Whenever I feel alone and feel like I'm a bad person the quote "they can be kind people " brings me great comfort and encourages me to keep growing as a person

[@ParadoxGavel]

I have BPD, and this really made me cry. Thank you for showing the disorder in a more positive light than most people. Words can't express how much I love this video.

[@ofirzsasson]

thank you so much. stay strong and smile often

[@Anni3SeaAngel]

Mary McGinnis I have BPD too and ADD... I just learn that this year... I'm trying to accept it....

[@ParadoxGavel]

Ann!3 Yeah, I had a pretty hard time dealing with the news when I found out I had BPD. It gets better with time though, I promise. Good luck and best wishes!

[@Anni3SeaAngel]

Mary McGinnis Thank you! I'm waiting for psychiatric help... Just to be sure I have the good pills...

[@ParadoxGavel]

jack darrell Go fuck yourself.

[@czane1526]

I'm a man with BPD. Video definitely does a lot of things right I'd say. I do think that the best thing about BPD that was not mentioned is that it can be overcome, and is not going to be as life ruining as it can feel when you're a kid in your early adulthood just starting to really feel insane because of it. Solid video!

[@S0urLemonz]

As a person with BPD I love seeing things like this, I usually get told I’m a monster by people and since I have a partner I’ve accidentally yelled at them and insulted them sometimes when in an episode or just upset in general but I always make sure to tell them that I love them and they know what I’m going through.. I’m glad to know I’m not the monster that everyone sees I am..

[@sleepycrumb6100]

I like ryth to 👍

[@kuma-khameleon]

I have BPD and was called a monster all the time by my ex-partner. That kind of thing really hurts, and it validates the parts of your brain that hate yourself. I think we all deserve empathy and kindness when we're at our lowest places. It can be scary, but my psychiatrist said something that stood out to me: "Someone with BPD is not a monster, but it can feel like a monster is taking over when they get into those highly emotional states. Just because a monster takes over for a bit, and you haven't learned to control it, it doesn't make YOU the monster."

[@CloudHopper789]

Brooo this felt like bpd making fun of itself in a haphazard and emotional way, which is something we do a lot. This video has borderline energy ✨

[@maryummazhar9295]

It's so painful to see that so many people continue to call people like us monsters, when in reality I have never hated anyone except for myself. I feel embarrassed to even say that I have it because of intense self loathing. Suicide rates for BPD show how hard we struggle with ourselves. I wish there was more love and compassion for us, the same amount that sufferers of other illnesses get, because we don't choose what disorder we have. We are not monsters, we are people who suffer and yes there are people who have bpd traits that are shitty, but there are also people with other health issues that are shitty, but they don't get called monsters for their diagnoses. I hope more time and research goes into bpd because it's been lacking so far. I hope things get better. I hope you are all okay and know you are not alone.

[@theveganflower5135]

Maryum Mazhar bi polar with psychosis are called freaks and monsters so do schizophrenics. I do have bipolar and bpd (diagnosed) and can I say its shotty. But you're right we are not monsters or freaks

[@devilsadvocate5411]

Maryum Mazhar you both sound young. give it ten years and the sadness turns into anger and spite.

[@deedlessdeity218]

Your first line explains your problem of comprehension: First you say "us", then "I". You infer from your personal angelic being to the group as a whole, and vice versa. I will call any individual that drives me deliberately to suicide and lies to others to tell them to beat me up a monster. Too many of BDP are monsters, no matter their little nice moments. I know more stories than mine. BDPs may have been victims at some point, but too many turn into monsters themselves, and eventually create new ones, or simply broken souls and even dead people. Do not think that all others are like you, function like you. That's a narcissistic idea. I know a few BPDs who got themselves under control, but it's a lot of effort, I'm grateful to know such exist. However, that does not absolve the majority of BDP-people. They're dangerous, and I do not think they are in control of their actions most of the time.

[@abigailjarvis2203]

Deedless Deity you're generalizing a lot and it sounds like you have bad experiences, but nurotypical people can be assholes too. None of my bullies had a diagnosis.

[@abigailjarvis2203]

Deedless Deity also, you're using the wrong acronym and it's painful to read. Educate yourself please

[@kingphallus]

I am not diagnosed, but have been trying to get assessed as every single time i see something about BPD it is uncomfortably familiar (Specifically the "internal" or "quiet" bpd type). Some of the visuals in this hit really, really hard and i teared up a little bit because they're really specific thoughts and feelings ive never been able to explain to anyone else. I became self aware of my unstable behaviour after my boyfriend suggested it after I had a huge breakdown and explained how i felt. It's all about having a heart so big and hurt. I love my boyfriend dearly and he is wonderful, but I'm terrified of there being some kind of plot twist where he actually hates me and wants to abandon me and I made the "wrong choice" opening up to him. We had a really messy beginning as I completely relied on my current feelings for how I viewed the relationship, which resulted in push-and-pull stuff (like breaking up after a week then being fwb then together again) I'm really not proud of. I really want to get assessed, especially as I believe it is partially hereditary from my mother's side of the family (or at least the generational trauma makes it so). I finally move out soon, so I'm hoping when I register with my new doctor I can finally get a proper assessment without having to be sneaky about it (mother isnt great)

[@not.spir0s]

whenever im feeling overwhelmed with my bpd i like to come back to this video and read the comments. it can ve very difficult to exist with this condition😊

[@Seven-vu3md]

I think everyone can agree that the red ball is his FP because even tho he adores the ball, he can't stand it's affection and pushes it away and when the ball really left in the end, he realized that he needed the ball more than he thought. This sums up my friendships perfectly, especially because I've lost a friend because of the whole pushing away thing even tho I crave for their affection, I still reject it when they wanna give it to me. And now? They don't give a fuck about me anymore and even tho I really hate them, it still rips me apart.

[@arwen6999]

I don't know how to explain it but this 5 minute video has made me feel more understood than I ever have before

[@50stressballs58]

My aunt had BPD. She was one of the most wonderful people I’ve ever known. “Good with babies” made me tear up. She lived with us for a few years when I was very young and watched me when my parents were at work. She was basically a third parent to me, for a little while. I have a very clear memory of doing arts and crafts with her once and I took this entire thing of glitter and poured it on my head-it went everwhere, LMAO. She spent an hour helping me wash it out, but I still found glitter in my hair for months afterwards. I was scared she’d be mad, but she wasn’t. She just laughed. She loved to laugh. She passed away in 2019. Cancer. She actually died on Halloween, lol. It felt very her, like she wanted to go out as dramatically as possible. Anyway, this made me think of her. It was very nice, so thank you. Rest in peace to my aunt Lindsey❤️ Pour one out for her if you’re partying this Halloween, she deserves to be remembered.

[@sybilmacaulay2881]

I was recently diagnosed with BPD and when it was described to me it really explained a lot of the struggles I had as a child connecting with others and whatnot. This video is an absolutely fantastic visual representation of what it feels like. Awesome video, thank you for making it.

[@camilagodinho6727]

Anyone else started off laughing and ended up crying?

[@mellow1821]

yesyes

[@justa_normalperson9412]

me

[@sav2823]

🖐️ me me me

[@Mythicalwaters]

YEP

[@WinQiu10]

Yeah... This shit is so relatable tho :')

[@pablosrz]

This always leaves me crying at the end. When he ends up alone just because of his condition, just like me, and millions of others.

[@Mehk]

He doesn't end up alone because of his condition. He ends up alone because of his horrible treatment of others. BPDs need to stop pretending they are victims, when the reality is that they are the abusers.

[@pablosrz]

Pick up a book. Your ignorance is showing and, your stigma towards the mentally ill is alarming. And yes, he ends up alone because of actions caused by his condition. Action he can't control because he hasn't received therapy yet. People leave because they don't care to stay with you while you try to improve yourself. Now, where did this sudden surge of hate come from? I posted this shit three years ago.

[@pablosrz]

chucky8787 My BPD is a product of abuse as well. Why did you comment in the first place? I saw your comment a few days ago, but ignored it because I wasn't sure what you meant. But now I'm understanding that you see me as some sort of selfish person. You want to talk about me using an ad hominem (btw, that's not an ad hominem), but you're using hasty generalizations to mark all people with BPD as bad. I'm high-functioning, I have a job, mind my own business, and take my medication. Now, can you tell me what the hell is your problem? Did I say people follow me around to comment? See? You're assuming things.

[@pablosrz]

And stigma is a result of ignorance. You're both ignorant. If you weren't ignorant, you'd know that there are various subtypes of borderlines as well as degrees of functioning. Sorry someone with BPD hurt you in your past, but we're not all the same. 🖕

[@pablosrz]

Yeah, I've had my struggles... I wrote this when I was 18, in the middle of a break up... BPD began to onset then. Tried suicide with Windex, didn't work. My boyfriend at the time wasn't very supportive when I was seeking therapy, and yeah I was a bit unstable. He dumped me. Tried suicide again, didn't work. Just been on medication since. I think it's a bit unfair to take that little part of my teenage years and assume it's going to be the rest of my life. I haven't even started my life yet. Leave me alone... or not. I don't care. You're just a guy on the Internet with an opinion, and none of this even matters because life is meaningless. I know I'm a good person. I donate, I help homeless people, I give blood, I love my customers at work and care for their needs, I love my dogs, my friends, my coworkers.

[@katjakoefoed9201]

I was diagnosed as having BPD thirty years ago, and have struggled with it for much longer. These little videos are amazing and help me to see that it's not just me.

[@4.1132]

Love this video. It is pretty accurate. Everyone experiences BPD differently, but to me it’s always felt like standing on a thin sheet of ice in the middle of a roiling ocean. Like you try desperately to not to fall off because you‘re scared you can’t get back on again, that the water will swallow you whole. Even when you find your balance, you’re scared the ice will crack or break under your feet until there is nothing left to hold onto. So sometimes you want to just jump into the water, be thrown around in the waves just to feel something, anything but that. It‘s a pretty fucked up place to be in, but I‘ll be damned if I drown. This disorder may be a part of me but it does not define what or who I am and I will fight it every fucking step of the way.

[@ace-of-space2004]

2.71828 1.41421 Hell yeah dude, its good that you understand that its just a part of you and accept it as such. Just make sure to get some help. As a person with a mental illness (not BPD but Generalized Anxiety) I know that its difficult to fight whatever troubles you may have alone. There may not be immediate results for whatever treatment plans you want to take, but for me talking to a counselor was a great start. Getting a lot of emotional baggage off your back is both refreshing and a good step forward. Nevertheless, in glad to hear that you have the will to fight it 😌

[@Nixie_536]

💜✨🙏

[@cumwater5479]

how did they do this. HOW did they make it so accurate i watched a fucking dog

[@ofirzsasson]

he's a wolf

[@cumwater5479]

thanks

[@nefelibata4190]

lols, gimme info

[@TaylorShantell]

Haile Alicante fellow ackoholic?

[@salshammas8856]

You must be pretty intuitive with your BPD

[@Aquarityy]

This is me to a T. I wasn't aware I had it until my ex mentioned it to me and the more I looked into it, the more I realised how perfectly it describes me. I'm not diagnosed but I'm more than positive that I have it because of the symptoms and descriptions of what it's like. Every video I've seen also describes me perfectly. My ex is still my best friend however and I see things in black and white & angles and demons all the time and I constantly have suicidal tendencies but despite all of that, he's always there for me and he's very understanding about my behavior. We both are helping each other grow and learn together and I'm very grateful to have someone like him with me

[@haydenf7904]

The part around 1:05 hit hard. The simple ecstasy you can feel for a short while that makes you feel like everything is good, life is good. Until one little thing, action, or thought, ruins it, and all of a sudden life sucks and you think how can the world be so cruel.

[@epichorselegs3048]

i- i haven’t cried this much in ages when the symptoms started crowding around him at the end and then he saw the ball being happy with someone else i lost it

[@Charlockle]

1- I have cried every time I've seen this. 2- I was diagnosed with bpd two months after first seeing this. 3- The animation is adorable. I love it.

[@lycheemyusic]

@Fares B that's the magic of bpd... sheesh