I Don't Know

June 4, 2022

[@athiefinthenight6894]

Wow she was blown away by 60 people watching her, I can't imagine how she feels now that thousands of people have heard her.

[@dk237]

It’s almost at half a MILLION now! I’m sure she is mind blown. 🥹

[@corinneskitchen]

@@dk237 I don't know if she has logged in though. Has she replied to anyone?

[@ThatGuy-eu2vt]

@@corinneskitchen bruh, the cheer panic when that happens. xd

[@sigrdrifa0]

not good for her at all, its the exact opposite of what she needed.. last thing she needed was online clout, venting online, then tell the story online... like her fantazy talking to her imaginary friends which she kinda did rehersal to in the last vid... she should have gone away with the strengt, not the clout, now she is eternally gassed up and will forever chase views like a heroin addict. insted of what she wanted... irl friends... delete this stuff and do what you wanted originlly. you dont need any more gassing up. get out there and make friends, you got the views, the attention, get the hell away from the computer, as you said its all you do and now you are chasing the dragon. dont to anything "with it", the net is not healthy for you obviously

[@Persephales]

Dude i was thinking the same thing 😬i was like she was uncomfortable with 60 views, how she goona feel at over half a million views 😱 I hope she’s doing better. Let’s all cross our fingers

[@thedeanrb3769]

Don't stop talking to us! We love you and you are so intelligent and charming and off the cuff.

[@kaltuma310]

I miss her 😢😢

[@Rory.34]

@@kaltuma310me too😢

[@Jesi-g]

Girl you got 1.4 million people interested in what's going and find you relatable! Hope you do an update and are doing well!

[@daniatee]

A WHOLE CITY IF YOU THINK

[@ashleymorgan2181]

We watch your videos because we feel how you feel and we relate a lot. No matter what age you are, you can feel like this and there is no problem with it (just putting that out-there). I have felt/feel exactly how you do and i understand 100%. Keep making videos like these, your sharing your story for others to hear and its helping others feel like their not alone:)

[@zeekmiller8190]

Facts!

[@paulwaltersheherfeministvl521]

I am thinking about dropping out of school to focus on my career as a star on KZbin. I already make a lot of money on KZbin. School bores me so much. I need more opinions and since I don't have any friends, I gotta ask you, qsh

[@frost.0707]

The I have no friends popped up on my Recommended lol.

[@jimmorrison3190]

I noticed a lot of you mentalcel Stacy types comment this on her vids, I wonder how this sub5 loner girl feels about that. Lol

[@tydwill2009]

I must say i watch because. I am infatuated with her. She’s absolutely irresistible to me☺️

[@liquidhype3025]

Adorable how she is like "omg 60 people watched my video" and now a quater of a million people have watched it and showed their support and experiences.

[@SignalFlowers]

Uploading that video was the best thing she did to know that she's not alone. She's brave to do that. No therapy, no counselors can make you feel better than meeting so many people like yourself can.

[@Virsputin]

@@SignalFlowers unless you're terminally online, no, its not. Gonna be very disappointed when in a few weeks 95% of the ppl saying "OMG I relate! Youre not alone!" forget they even commented that. What you're describing is validation. Anyone would love to hear that they're right, but not everyone wants to hear the therapist say that they're wrong. She has already listed most of her problems. She recognizes the issues and has chosen not to fix them. The video's conception was not necessary to solve her problems. YT sucks.

[@kindnessandgracestaysmilin5990]

Way more than that now

[@bababoeythehorsemen8462]

@@SignalFlowers nah you still need go to therapy and counselors

[@paulec2634]

Some peoples' maths on this thread is shocking. She's got 78,000 views so far, which is nothing near a quarter of a million (250,000). You're not alone - another person above said she had 'almost half a million views'. That would be 500,000, and 78,000 is nowhere near that, as it's not even 100k. :)

[@Gibsonsg527]

People crave human connections and what you presented was very authentic and honest. So many people are going through something similar to your struggle, and I could really relate to "wanting my space and alone time" and then feeling guilty/upset that you didn't follow through with hanging out with someone. Keep your head up high and keep trying. I'm glad you got that space to vent, and it can be pretty therapeutic to let it out sometimes. You are definitely worthy of love and friendship.

[@IamINERT]

I guess I like watching people in a similar situation with me. It feels like I’m not alone anymore

[@AmandaB.6529]

Exactly 👏 💯 fact xx

[@dr.scorpiopus8064]

I enjoy listening to others who are alone.. maybe i can understand myself better by listening to them.

[@ahambrahmasmi108]

2 million people relate to you. I am a 48 year old man and I relate to you, the divorce of your parents and all. Love yourself, find peace within and all other things WILL fall into place. Peace to you my friend)❤

[@carriebohl7491]

I came home from work crying because I feel so alone and my coworkers exclude me from their “cool” club. I immediately searched KZbin for “I have no one” and I found YOU! You expressed nearly the exact emotional distress I’ve been feeling for years. As you keep posting… it’s like we’re all here in the same spot online listening to you express what we also feel. It’s actually made me feel better. Kinda want to hang out with you, sounds like we have a lot in common lol.

[@ProPandaPlays]

[@billytoja]

dont worry honey!! if they are cool people they will let everyone to them.. dont worry, you wil have another coworkers worth to hang out with..

[@jonmacdonald2193]

what bad behaviors do you do that makes it so you have no friends? YOu cant externalize this and blame it on someone else

[@1Jasmin]

​@@jonmacdonald2193Well thankfully I have no problem with having friends, but it is not that unusual that very shy or extremely shy people have problems of finding friends. They are seen as too silent or boring and not entertaining enough by some people I guess and don't get a chance.

[@FarrakhanWolcott]

I'm sorry. I was invited to a walking book club by a coworker and found out 3 other coworkers are in it too. After 3 months one of them told me they didn't want me to come to it. The other two wanted to know why I stopped going. So I told them and now all 3 of them are mad at me and refuse to talk to me at work. But F them .

[@ashleyjp0117]

Don't private them, you're helping so many people 💜

[@Koi_light]

Agreed I felt like her! I’m so glad someone talked up!

[@donteo508]

Honestly, found your video through a random suggestion from youtube to me. I'm glad that it happened! It's nice to see someone who's confident in sharing their struggles with people.

[@TAYL1111]

amen 🙏

[@nadjadoes]

I am a 22-year-old female, and these lessons have helped me to make friends easily: 1. Change your environment (maybe you're surrounded by the wrong people) 2. Distance yourself from those who make you feel unhappy or uncomfortable. If you get lower self-esteem because of certain people, you should let them go or try to avoid them. 3. Take action; if you see someone you think you can hit it off with, talk to them and ask if you can hang out or have their contacts. (Loneliness is an option) 4. Love yourself first and appreciate spending time alone 5. Always be yourself. The right people are the ones who like you when you're yourself 6. Go on trips/ find new hobbies and meet new people once in a while 7. Have patience 8. Don't be a show-off 9. Don't seek to have a big group of friends. Sometimes the smaller the circle, the greater the happiness. Know the difference between a friend and an acquaintance. 10. Don't force anything - You can't be friends with everyone and that is completely okay (know your self-worth) 11. Give people attention and respond as fast as you can. Otherwise, you'll give them the impression that you don't care. Also, make plans together or send them messages when something makes you think about them, for example. 12. Share your stories and feelings, don't wait for them to ask. (Be vulnerable, it makes you more relatable and likeable) 13. Try having chats regularly to maintain your bond and strengthen it. 14. Try to really (genuinely) get to know people 15. Small gestures matter a lot to people 16. Deep down, everyone wants to be loved and recognized (just like you), so give people love, and if they like you, too, you'll be loved back 17. Try to be social once in a while - The least you can do is talk back when someone talks to you. 18. Find people with similar interests 19. Develop your social skills 20. PUT IN THE EFFORT 21. Shut your brain off when you overthink and enjoy the moment

[@SyntheticSensations-mf8di]

Ty❤

[@dedahed-qm2rm]

This is an excellent list. I spent a long time feeling lonely and in the past few years managed to turn things around (even if just a little bit) by doing a lot of these!

[@EMPANAO321]

Imagine doing all that and not getting results, that's me, don't feel bad if stuff doesn't work, it's great advice but sometimes u just have terrible luck lol

[@EMPANAO321]

@@herafischl Yea u right, that wasn't my point tho, sometimes u can have social skills and all that crap but that doesn't mean anything if you are surrounded by complete morons or just people that are not compatible with you, yea I can change my surroundings but I have a life and stuff to do, I'd rather focus on singing, lifting and my responsabilities

[@killerqueen6733]

loneliness is not an option 💀

[@unicornroxy]

I feel like I could listen to you for hours, 15 minutes is not too long!!!

[@userk7dy]

ikr

[@soweto4231]

He voice is really southing - it gets better when you play lofi beats in the background - it's perfect! Weird I agree but it's so gooooood. Here's the one I was playing => kzbin.info/www/bejne/qIbbqn53lJKaqMk

[@RoXxYLOVEP.L.U.R.]

Royally agree with you 🤗😀

[@gasplyroots]

Bless the algorhythm, I don't feel so bad anymore knowing that there's more people that feel the same way about life. makes me feel less alone

[@Mamaonamisson]

Have you ever thought of being a writer? You have a good way with words!

[@tafarihypolite1461]

Word up ✅

[@desiree7633]

That's what I was thinking!

[@Mamaonamisson]

@@desiree7633 🙂

[@frost.0707]

Journalist?

[@Mamaonamisson]

@@frost.0707 I could see that. Or like articles in a magazine. Or if she was to write a fiction book i think the characters would have depth and be well thought out!!

[@k.e.f.1397]

“And why did you watch it” made me smile. You’re intelligent, beautiful, genuine and sweet. You have a lot to offer people on this world, friends will come. It’s been a year since you posted your video so I truly hope you are doing well - whether the time for a friend group has come or not. ❤

[@pondurosa3792]

You have a very quirky and adorable personality .. plus you're relatable. I think if you lean into that, you'd be surprised as to the many people you'd attract into your life that actually resonate with you.

[@datonernegen]

This!

[@trach350]

Yeah, this! She said she made powerpoint presentations analisis of different women she found fascinating on wikipedia. She could use that hobby, there are job offerings for collecting data :)

[@pequeniobrucex8664]

It’s been 3 months since you uploaded this and the other one. Hope you’re doing great in everything! This world is sometimes small when things gets dark. . then it grows in wonder and beauty. You are strong and brave for even expressing how you feel. Keep it going! 💪

[@brycenjones7241]

Possibly she self deleted

[@anddudewaslike]

@@brycenjones7241 wtf is wrong with you

[@jman8136]

@@brycenjones7241 I'm not going to insult you or make any assumptions about you, but I genuinely want to know what you think replying to such a positive comment with that is going to do. I understand that it's purely speculative but what do you gain from doing that?

[@brycenjones7241]

@@jman8136 nothing at all, I was being honest and we should all be honest. It’s been 3 months. Did you listen to the video that I did? She ain’t link an ig in her bio or anything so ppl can check up on her. Now unless she met some ppl and she’s just living her life to the fullest but then I’d say she’d have posted a vid about that. So you take your pick, she self deleted, stopped doing KZbin, or just met some ppl. And be realistic not optimistic. I wasn’t being disrespectful. I just stated the truth 🤷🏿‍♂️

[@jman8136]

@@brycenjones7241 Fair I respect that.

[@ClaudiaPatriciaM]

I love, love, love the way you emotionally express yourself. Your feelings are so relatable. No editing, no special effects. Just a beautiful soul sharing her pure feelings with us.

[@LfunkeyA]

you're a natural born story-teller - everything you say is interesting and flows well. this is why your channel has gathered so many viewers. i don't know if you'll ever start or finish that book, but i'm sure it will be a fun read.

[@sean95]

There are people out here who care, despite not knowing you and others who are going through similar experiences as yourself and your story will help ease their minds in knowing that they're not alone. You're very intelligent, you are pretty, and you have a charismatic persona. You seem like a bright person who's been dimmed due to anxiety/depression and misplaced self perceived notions of inadequacy. If you could see yourself through our eyes you'd understand how wrong you are about yourself and realise how great you really are and how you shine. If I wasn't half way around the world in Australia I would be elated to call you a friend, make you happy, and put a genuine smile on your face. You are still young and there is still so much this life has to offer, please never think about cutting it short! Heaven can wait!

[@AJ-qq7cg]

Exactly she has an amazing personality and a great way with words if only she could see how great she is

[@mozeeyyy]

i feel the exact same way as her and about her! it really helped me so much right now watching these videos i feel like i have people who understand now

[@paige172]

i hope she reads that omg

[@Puzzoozoo]

If it helps you. "It’s never too late for a new beginning in your life." Joyce Meyer

[@schroederdavidrful]

I love that you were brave enough to do these. It would be a shame to make them private. You are not the only one who feels that way. From personal experience, I actually 40, and can relate to pretty much everything you said. I find ways to sabotage every relationship. I can't tell how many times I've told myself that I don't want to be alone, but as soon as I'm not alone, all I can think about is getting back home to be alone. Your courage and strength are inspiring!

[@djhexsober6686]

It's uplifting watching people transition into the greatness of the world.

[@stick-chan]

I must say, that everything you have talked about feels *extremely* relatable to me. How you’re “not trying hard enough” to make friends yet feel so incredibly sad and lonely and feel like you’re missing out because you don’t have people to do “friend activities” with, and how you don’t accept hangout invitations from people and reply to their messages a day later and put off doing things because you’re scared of them, scared of not performing well enough at tasks and scared that situations will be awkward. And now when you mention you picking on things and not really being able to stop once you’ve started, be it physically picking at yourself or ending up eating too much if you start with just one piece, it is just exactly like me, and it sounds like social anxiety, depression, and possibly autism, all of which I’m diagnosed with myself. It’s just incredible to me how someone can be so relatable, and I really can’t mean it more when I say that I *truly* want you to be happy with yourself and your life. I guess that is because I really can feel your struggles through the screen and know them all too well, but genuinely, I want you to find true happiness, and for that, I think you *do* need to try to make connections with people, even though it’s scary, even though it’s awkward, even though you don’t know what to say and you’re scared you might be inconveniencing them with your attempts at establishing a connection.. If you try it with multiple people and don’t let yourself be disheartened by any possible unsuccessfulness, there will eventually be someone you’ll click with. Maybe they’ve been lonely too and are desperate to find someone to have a deep and truly meaningful connection with, and maybe you will be everything they’ll need. I seriously just want to hug you through the screen. Everyone here knows to at least some degree how you feel, and we’re all rooting for you. Hearing someone putting our feelings into words inspires us to try as well. I truly wish you the best 🫂

[@Koi_light]

I feel the same way it made me a bit happier! Anyways a self vent- This evening I tried some now face wash ( iv never done it before, since my cheeks are really re and I’m really self conscious, but I think I’ll learn to love with it)

[@davs7554]

the way you articulate such relatable but complex thought processes is insane in a good way,, could listen to you for hours man, you're doing something real special here

[@AmandaB.6529]

WE hear you, WE get you, and WE love you!!!! 💖❤💖 xx

[@gil-evens]

Her : "I just woke up so I look like a complete mess" Also her : *looks like an angel*

[@iamkayla2261]

I have never connected so much with a person. I watched your previous video and I felt every single bit of it. I get very anxious around others but I’m always longing for so much more even though I get so many chances and feel like I blew it every time I get the chance. I’m currently a sophomore in high school but it’s not easy to see everyone with friends and feeling like you look pathetic. I thought I wasn’t normal or was missing something in me until you made that video. I’m hoping that in years time, I will get past these challenges because the truth really is nothing lasts forever. Not even friendships. We are all together in this. I’ve been working on my internal confidence and being in beautiful and peaceful environments change my environment. Everything will fall into place.

[@chrislander2629]

❤️

[@brendam455]

You remind me of my favorite actor "Joey king" I see so much of her in you ❤ ♥ 💖 I enjoy watching you

[@michaelshannon9169]

It makes sense. You are just so smart and talented, thats it lol. You literally have the manner, eloquence, depth and understanding of someone 20 yrs older than you. My advice to you regarding friends is to not obsess about the idea for now and run head straight into some creative pursuit. I know not having friends can take an emotional toll and almost weigh you down leaving you perhaps at the point where its like why bother, Im depressed etc, but please commit to some creative outlet that caters for being alone and amongst others. Trust me, some day you will look back at your situation, your videos and realise that your frustrations had good reason but your talents should never be sacrificial to things that seem out of your control. I have one good friend for the last 20 yrs and many others who were so-called friends. Looking back the so-called friends were of no value, a complete waste of time. The older you get the more you will love your own company, the nature of your own mind, the things you are interested in that the absence of friendship wont be so harsh. I guarantee that if you pursue your talents you will inevitably encounter ppl of your type. You are exceptional and with that can come exceptional issues that dont apply to typical ppl (they have typical problems). You owe it to yourself to really do something that you believe you could love, doesnt matter what it is, dream big. I dont say this to everyone because they dont demonstrate your intelligence. Please post again, you dont realise the impact you have for others in trenches like these. Thanks :-)

[@elizabethtan4221]

Just listening to you rambling about the things you do is just so interesting. I relate so much to how you feel.

[@Kelps_K]

Hello :) just came across your yt channel and have already watched two of your other videos. I just wanna say that 1. You talk the way good writers write, you have such a nick for verbalizing your thoughts in such a intriguing and interesting way. 2. You seem to be a person whose really worth getting to know :) it's been very comforting hearing you open up about your life and struggles in a way where I feel like I can relate to your experiences and connect to you. Also the way that you record your videos feels like being on a zoom call with a friend that you are just casually ventilating your thoughts to and hanging out with, which is very nice. I get that you maybe feel a bit scared or overwhelmed of coming back to your channel because you thought that no one or nobody would watch or be interested, but a lot of us are, and it would be fun to get to know and see you more :) hearing you talk about Alice in wonderland, wizard of Oz and Peter pan was also very interesting to listen to in your latest video. :)

[@Zeddex2965]

I love being creative like you. Creating fictional stories in my head, but I also like to listen to songs and create my own lyrics to them. I think you should create that novel. I'd love to read one of your stories.

[@Crzayyyy]

You look breathtaking in grey colour omgggg

[@bluefishx3299]

I am so amazed of your confidence to post your real self and just rant and I love it. It’s not only inspiring but I love hearing your perspective and experiences. Keep posting because your so true about everything 🫶🏻

[@ShellyBomb]

I think replying back to those who comment on your videos would really begin to connect you with other like-minded people; and, who knows some friendships might take root 😍

[@EricTitansSmith]

She has kind of talked about this in a different video, but her issue isn't just finding people. She isn't good at doing the work that builds a relationship (replying back, following through with plans, ect).

[@gilpetperdon9831]

Relationships with potential old man, Pass

[@student4373]

I'm listening to this while doing course work for university. I'm actually the same age as you, and like many other people here can relate to what you're saying. It's nice hearing you vocalize those thoughts and talking about what you enjoy doing. I actually went ahead and created a small website that documents anything interesting I find, similar to Wikipedia, and use it as a personal neatly organized random-knowledge repository. Keep doing what you want. If this is something you genuinely enjoy doing, why hide it from others? You're kind and are fun listening to. Anyone who values a genuine connection will like you with your personality and "quirks". Don't force it, but just make sure to stay at it when keeping in touch with people. Many people cherish genuine friendships, but doing so requires some effort from both sides. Other than that, I hope to hear from you again sometime soon. I'd love to listen to an update (it's been two years!! Don't leave us hanging :D). All the best to you.

[@kels6608]

Damn, it's crazy how much I can relate to pretty much everything you're saying here. I'm going through a lot right now too and and feel lost in life and am confused about a lot of things. How similarly we think, too. There are so many others who just don't know what to do in life. You seem like a smart and wonderful person with a lot of potential. Hopefully things work out for you.

[@SeraphShane]

If I knew you I’d give you the biggest hug ever❤ you are so sweet and beautiful! Just keep going you will find your happiness

[@asiiphellogrey9203]

The most real and relatable person on the internet. 06:19 am South Africa. Sending hugs.

[@MauricioCastro1979]

The internet has all sorts of things 24/7… but do you know what it lacks big time? Genuine people… Real people talking off their chest… Legit feelings, good or bad… You are it! I hope one day you will come back here and check your updated numbers up… Many of us deeply relate with your questions, your feelings, your insecurities… We all appreciate how honest you seem to be. You are not alone. We are many, and you are “one of us”! Have a good life, Blue Dress Girl!

[@anitacathrine8942]

I am from Norway 😄 so your voice traveled a long way.😀 I hope you’re having a wonderful day🌸🌸🌸

[@Koi_light]

That vid inspired me I felt exactly like how you felt 😢 thanks!!!

[@jenjackmarcucci]

You don't need to change. You will find people who fit into your world. It may be a small group, 1 or 2, but when it's authentic, it is enough. Don't change.

[@okiagari]

People can very easily relate to one another, and there is always a group of individuals with similar aspects within their lives- it's really difficult to be an outlier, even if you try. That's kinda what happened here. You came out with something really personal, yet there are people out there able to almost directly sympathize with it- and it's even more refreshing because maybe some of them wanted to say or realize it but couldn't find the words or the way to do it, or otherwise felt it was unecessary. But you filled in that part for them, or that's what I'm guessing. Personally, I'm glad that you decided to post it. I've started to lose a grasp on myself as a person as I've become more physically, and internally isolated. Coming face to face with the cause has opened my eyes, in a way, so I can push myself forward rather than being stagnant. So yeah. Thanks for being vulnerable.

[@RegalianGaming]

This is single-handedly the most relatable channel on YT. Everything from the last video just resonated with me, and when you mentioned being a starter teacher, that blew my mind. I'm the same age and had to leave teaching behind. On top of everything you've mentioned (the anxiety, loneliness, etc.), teaching felt like the biggest mistake, at least so soon after college. It's a lonely job; all my coworkers were much older and unrelatable. Please, don't private these. I don't know you, and we're not friends, but knowing that there's someone going through the exact same thing helps the world feel a little less lonely in a way. And from the comments I know I'm not the only one who feels this way.

[@jhalakkhurma9423]

You mention Bastille and I just gasped! That alone should make us besties 😂 Thank you for sharing all of this, it means a lot to express yourself the way you do and I'm glad you do because I find myself thinking of the same things. I hope things slowly appear to be getting somewhere in the positive. So glad youtube recommended your videos! You got this

[@mirinana]

you are my spirit animal down to unsettling details. i could listen to you forever, i hope you're doing well.

[@uberofficial11]

I like listening her talking. Is like people without friends are highly consciously.

[@sasquatch5577]

You're someone your subscribers can relate to. It's been a while since you made a video, I hope things are going okay.

[@Charmspro]

The video of no friends is what brought me here, the raw emotions you're expressing I can relate to is the reason others atleast myself would rather hear you out rather than, the false reality of what comes across the feed. Keep being great!

[@manuelarce6961]

Greetings from Argentina, I love the way you express yourself and how you cover each topic. I would like to have friends like you to talk about these things that seem important to me even to talk about them once every 6 months maybe. The friends I have talk about things so trivial that they don't even interest me anymore, it's just going out on weekends and nobody ever talks about what they want in their lives or their feelings, maybe it's just me too, I don't know either

[@fairycranium]

I watched this because I felt lonely and searched it up and this video spoke to me so I watched it and I love your honesty

[@HeidiAmericanPatriot]

I really like your videos, you're completely authentic and have a very cool vibe. I have felt all of the same feelings, and have thought most of the same things. You are understood and heard. People relate to you. I love how you do your projects and how you think to cope. Life is a trip and can be so fricken frustrating and confusing. You're personality rocks-so chill, funny, smart. Thank you for your video 😁

[@danamillsap8902]

Reading everyone's comments warms my heart. Thank u everyone' for ur love and kind words to her. ...I'm 44 and never had kids cuz unable...but if I could, I'd want her or someone just like her for a daughter. She's precious and real. Thank yall

[@Ceciliaqq]

You have a lot of potential, I love listening to your videos while I draw. You are very relatable and true to yourself. The no editing makes it even better, you just ranting is extremely relaxing and interesting, I have no doubt that if you continue these videos you will become pretty famous Also, best of lucks to your writting projects!

[@biggamer7245]

If you uploaded videos like this often I would watch them, it’s nice to hear stuff that is relatable and you seem like a great person.

[@josnardstorm]

Please don’t private these. This is the most intimacy (not romantic or sexual. Just like…genuine opennesss) I’ve felt in like weeks. That’s why I’m watching. I also don’t have anyone else. It’s so nice to hear about what someone’s going through. Also I feel you about the therapist. In some sense I kind of like that I’m paying them to listen because then it removes the guilt of it being all about you. You’re paying for it to be all about you.

[@chloeshares6048]

the line you said about "i'm coming to the realisation i don't like anything about my life, but nocessarily hate it" kind of hit hard for me, especially as a high school person. for the past few years i was trying "living" but i wasn't really actually living. like i got up, did school, etc but i didn't really feel any sort of excitement? and everyday just feels (or felt) monotonous

[@LionheartNh]

People like watching your channel cos you are every person and we can see ourselves in you. I hope you keep this channel going I think it could really take off.

[@superdupertrousers]

I'm glad you didn't "take it back". Your thought patterns and the way you see the world are things I relate to. plus, I love Wikipedia rabbit holes! Must be an introvert thing. I wouldn't have known any of this if you had taken it back. Reminds me of the ever-present quote in my life right now: "The world is run by those who show up." You showed up. And I'm grateful for that. I wish we knew each other in real life. from one loner to another. The irony of feeling alone is it's such a connective trait. Knowing other people feel the same isolation that I do makes me feel much less alone.

[@shmeleu]

У тебя талант излагать свои мысли, уже только это приятно послушать.

[@Hahauz]

Why did you write that comment in russian language?

[@shmeleu]

@@Hahauz Нет большой разницы переведет это KZbin или я сам другим переводчиком. Тогда зачем мне тратить на это своё время?

[@immaYoubing]

I enjoy watching this full. It's great seeing authenticity

[@ar8590]

Please do not private them. You’re super well spoken. And you broadcasting your thoughts has helped people I promise.

[@alishagrace]

Eventually someone finds that grain of sand. I found your video six months later. I hope you’re feeling a little better now that you were able to speak how you feel and see that a lot of people can relate. You are very brave for being real in your videos. You do have time to make those connections. When you work more on yourself and are happy with you, you will attract others who want to be around you. Be patient. For now, you have all of us on here. ❤

[@samsschool3639]

"Putting a grain of sand on a beach" made me instantly a fan of you

[@bladelazoe]

Big things have small beginnings :)

[@6mat]

I just want to say; thank you so much for these videos. I enjoy them so much. You made my night so much better. I hope all the best for you. I can relate so many things you talk about. Keep making videos!

[@stickii2131]

The bravery to tell all about your inner thoughts and pain is very relatable to an enormous amount of people in the world. The fact that you have half a million views on that video goes to show how many are actually in your mind space. There are many many people that are alone and actually depressed about it. I think for the people listening to this, its a great therapy session for them with the realization that they are not alone in this world. You havent made another video for a while so im hoping everything is ok with you and you have found happiness in your life.

[@hondafreedom9329]

Just came up and I watch a ton of news, so I have no idea! Your title made me watch. You can always "private" them; that is always optional. People care about others' pain and can relate, believe it or not. We all have felt this. You have a lot of emotional stuff on your plate; divorced/ing parents, loneliness, unsure about yourself and life. Maybe being around family will give you the support you need. Yeah, they say, wherever you go there you are; true. But, you will find yourself. At least you are realizing and acknowledging your habits and behaviors. You are very honest and someone will appreciate you. You sound creative. We ALL buy books we don't read - lol. You are filling emptiness; you are in a transition. I was a teacher for over 20+ decades! Therapy helped me! And, 100%, yup, part of it is having someone you pay to listen to you; part of it. Just tells you people watch because we all have the same effin' feelings.

[@MAxAMILLIoN757]

Here's my thoughts. This is for the girl in the video, and anyone else who resonates with her: There's no ultimatum that when you move, you HAVE to become this fantasy person or be a hag forever. It's not black and white, and this "fate deciding event" is something you made up. You've made this up as an attempt to accept who you are. You struggle to accept who you are because you don't meet your expectations for who you think you're "supposed" to be. And no, moving will not solve the problem- that's completely arbitrary and you know it. This is basically a form of procrastination or blaming your current unhappiness on your surroundings. You don't need to move to get into the right mindset. I'm speaking from experience. All these activities you fantasize about doing are a superficial manifestation of a person. You've got it backwards. Doing those things will not make you into the person you want to be. You adopt the right mindset, then those things will follow. You like the idea of having friends, exercising, starting those hobbies, and eating better, but you don't *actually* like those things. You *want* to like them. You've built this fantasy world and you want to be this fantasy person. And when you realize you're not that person, it hurts. 1. Accept who you are today, be comfortable with yourself, and learn to have fun on your own. > This is one in the same as being that fun guy/girl that everyone wants to be around. This is the "Chad" that everyone likes, the Chad who everyone thinks has tons of friends and lives a perfect fantasy life, but may actually be in the exact same situation as you- the difference being the MINDSET. This person is okay with having no friends, which is what gives them friends, ironically. See? If it seems self-fulfilling, that's because it is. ;) You have to take the leap. 2. Get out of your head- reset your perception of reality. Your perception of other people's perfect lives is not accurate. 3. Figure out what you want. What exactly do other people have that you want? Are you sure they have it? Find someone who you can look up to that you think has it figured out. Soak their mindset up like a sponge. Consider joining the military. Also, I think your idea of friends is whack. You will never "merge" with another human being, if that's what your idea of a best friend / significant other is. Everyone is on their own journey through life, you will meet people along the way, some stay longer than others. This is not to say you shouldn't try to connect with people, it's just to manage your expectations of what friends are. Value your connections when they happen but don't cling- let things ebb and flow.

[@ngalacaroline8966]

Wow, I like this. Perception and mindset is my song

[@puppylove3781]

You lost me at "Join the military". Fighting to die for a paycheck? Lol, no thanks!

[@nate.infinity]

@@puppylove3781 so ignorant. Only 5% of the military is infantry most soldiers never see combat.

[@victorinprogress]

Paragraph 3 is facts. I’ve tried changing my environment and it never did anything

[@shuiwahlee5836]

You can't have fun on your own

[@idlebot]

Girl, the level of accountability you show completely sets you apart from most of your generation. You don’t take anything for granted. You value and are grateful for what you have. I hope you are in a better place now, a place that you learned that your superpower is your courage to show your vulnerable self. You are an amazing person! On a side note, I’m writing this as you’re talking about going to therapy, about paying someone to hear you. Well, I always wondered if my therapist thought I was boring. And one day I told her that. And she laughed, and said no, far from it, that she really enjoyed talking to me. Anyway, just a random thought. I hope you are doing well.

[@dedahed-qm2rm]

came across this channel, and noticed you havent posted in a year. I hope this means you've followed your own advice and started to turn things around. I relate to a lot of things you talk about and like everyone else commenting want you to know you're not alone in these feelings. I'm 31 going on 32 and feel like I'm only just now starting to figure things out. You seem like a kind, intelligent, and creative soul that deserves to be happy. Anyway, wherever you're at now in life, I hope you're doing better

[@TheCosmicTeapot]

You shouted into the void and the void said "I feel you, fam" and gave you a big warm hug. Don't over-think it. You keep wondering why that happened. Why you? What you should take away from this is that you're relateable and far from alone. They're not here because they think you're something else that you now have to live up to. They're here for you; just you, exactly the way you are. Raw and honest and genuine. No facade. No filter. It's so refreshing in this Instagram world.

[@khatokhato9350]

Since we can share our experiences and thoughts among each other we are helped already. We're not alone, God keeps us going.

[@pockysticks788]

Girl you better start making videos!!! We need people like you!! You are authentic and brave, majority of KZbinrs on here are cynical and fake. I want someone to relate to and you’re someone I actually can! Love and support ❤

[@IglooDweller]

I found your video because I was literally searching "i have no friends", lol. And, yeah, your video is just you talking to a webcam, but that made me think it was real and why I clicked on it. I think there are lots of us going through the same thing. "Hidden" members of society. Have you heard of "Hikikomori"? That's the Japanese name for people who become severe recluses. I know that's slightly different, though, because you still get out and about, but yeah. I'm fascinated by people who don't have friends and don't "do anything" because I don't either. I think you've taken a step above the rest of us by starting your channel, though, so that's good. :) And I don't think it's weird to want to see a therapist just to talk to someone. I've thought about getting massages just to feel human touch, but I'm too scared with covid.

[@maverickbc38]

So did you freak when you noticed 73k views? You know the best part of this video for me was? You actually smiled, that made my day and you should find a reason to smile more. I think more people understand then you can imagine because there are many of us just like you but what set's you apart from is that you are on here putting it out there and some of us can't do that so it's like you are saying our quite part out loud. So I wanna say thankyou for doing this, I wish you all the best in the world....

[@notes2thyself]

Your authenticity made me giggle at some points. Hope you keep posting, and don't be surprised if you blow up :)

[@veronicaushraf4207]

You are connecting with people all over the world. Hi there from Egypt Waiting for your next video and I miss you hope you are fine 🍂❤️

[@BlueJeansandJellyBeans]

Because humanity is hurting and feeling like you. Don't get weirded out. We can all relate to you that's why.❤ I had to chuckle when you said, "Not having friends is expensive."

[@kabodmekonnen2065]

🇪🇹🇪🇹Hope you're happy with your life now, hope you're in a better place. I just wanted to tell you that I'm grateful for your bravery I saw your video abt friends and that took balls, I know life gets hard sometimes but if you just push through those hard times I really think there's a bright side. I'm 17 so you might ask wtf do you know abt life? Not a lot but I do know some things. I absolutely adore you, ik its been a year now but I'd like to see an update your videos are relatable. Much love from Ethiopia 🇪🇹❤

[@jess_hinz]

the algorithm sent me to your channel and i'm so glad it did :) not only could i relate to a lot of what you were saying in that video, but your videos really send me back to the golden age of youtube, where it was just real people sat in their room with a webcam. i miss those days, before influencers and all that. god i'm making myself sound old, i'm only 22. but you just came on here being so authentic and vulnerable, in a good way, and it was super refreshing. i bet having more attention on videos that were essentially you calling out to the void not expecting a response, is really overwhelming, so sorry for potentially adding to that. truly hope you're doing well, internet stranger

[@EscapePlanSkateboarding]

Where u at? Give us an update please!

[@12mixes55]

im 16, and this feels like 2016 when people would just hit record and talk about things. subbed lol because i love hearing people's opinion

[@rockinchik06]

Girl, your "60 ppl" turned into 130,000 lol It's bc u are not alone. So many ppl feel like u. And I hope u keep making videos bc I bet you'll be able to make some good friends this way.

[@JeffreyPham79]

You don't know, just how many people can relate with everything you're saying.

[@thesmalldude]

My channel is 14 years old and a video that I made in 2008 randomly got like 20k views last year. I didn't understand why at all but i was my lowest point and decided to start making videos. Only recently, I started to understand why people like to watch and I'm so glad I persisted with it despite feeling so uncomfortable uploading videos. It's honestly changed my life and completely improved the way I see myself. I'd always wanted to connect with people using (weird) art and I was surprised how difficult it was to accept that people actually WOULD watch my videos. I related to you on so many levels in these videos, which is not something I usually experience online. Honestly, you were the realest person I've heard speak on KZbin. Hopefully you'll come back some day :)

[@v_salat]

nice videos btw, subbed to u even though i never watched an episode of family guy

[@thesmalldude]

@@v_salat hahaha thank you. i havent watched family guy in about 10 years so i dont think you're missing out on anything

[@gonk2222]

You making these videos have really benefited so many people. The simplicity and honesty really is comforting. Hope everything will get better. Thank you.

[@sea_hous]

I think if you research "Avoidant Personality Disorder" it would be really eye opening and helpful. Don't let psychiatry drug you over it, just find a good therapist to work on challenging this tendency. I hope this helps. : )

[@MrFriendly789]

We all watch your videos because we recognized worth of you and see you as special person. all you have to do is to see your inner beauty and understand that you are unique and special. you are on the right path and you do not have to change much. You should love yourself and be proud that you are so popular.

[@77vik]

Holy sh I just discovered your videos. Totally relatable but you stopped posting? 😑 I feel like this authenticity is what most people miss on KZbin?

[@lucynda3282]

this girl here is so much intresting ; she's awesome but she doesn't know that , girl you aree adorable and you deserve the best please value yourself

[@iangendron8058]

Accept yourself for who you are. Remain as calm as you can. Everything will fall into place in time.

[@jman8136]

I've never really liked this advice because sometimes accepting who you are is accepting that you're in a bad position and refusing to change. Compromising your morals, beliefs, or ideals for friends is never good, but not being retrospective is even worse. I think bettering yourself and finding an outlet that is constructive is a much better way to spend your time. If you were able to do anything creative efficiently then you will find other people who are just like you that are doing the same thing.

[@SozioTheRogue]

I now just want to know who this person is. You hooked me in deeper when you started mentioning how you would craft fantasy worlds and maps. The imaginary rockstar sounds awesome. Rockergirl or maybe Blue Rocker or Rocker Blue, idk. You remind me so much of myself, escaping into the depths of your own imagination to hide away or maybe just enhance the real you, becoming the version of you that you want to be and not the one you forced to be.

[@bruce5895]

Hello Girl in a Blue Dress, you are looking better today, hope you are feeling well, don't be nervous, just be yourself, that's why people watch you, there's definitely people that care about you and want to hear what you have to say. Read the comments to help you and have communication with these people and don't be afraid and take things at your own pace. Change does not just happen, you my dear have to make it happen. It seems like your trying to deal with your depression by eating your way out of it because it makes you feel good for the moment, but later your body pays the price, instead of over eating, try walking in your neighbourhood. Ask your questions and you will get answers.

[@FausseFugue]

Not sure if you're still reading the comments, but something that's helped me with the whole making friends and accepting myself thing is when I finally figured out that there wasn't anything written on my forehead. When I was younger, I felt like when I met new people, it was written in my face that I was one of the not so cool kids and that I was shy, so I didn't really make any effort to fit in, or even to talk to people outside of my small friends group, because I thought people would just find it weird that I was trying to fit in or to talk to them. The day I finally understood that people have no flipping clue who I was in the past, and I no idea of what's going on in my head, it made it a lot easier. Now I can just be myself without having to worry about what people think about me. I know they don't have preconceived notions of who I am, I'm just a blank slate to them, and if I'm friendly, they simply see me as friendly, and not as the strange kid I used to be or the insecure adult I now am on the inside. You talk about like, how can you change if you're still wearing the same clothes, but I feel like it's similar to my "words on my forehead" thing. To someone who doesn't know you, you seem like a pretty cool and friendly person, however you dress. People don't have access to your internal self, they don't have access to your past, you can be who you want to be.

[@HeavyMetalBallz]

I came across your “I have no friends” video thinking you were going to comedically rant about your friends but instead, I got a reality check since I just moved to a new city as an adult where I don’t know anybody except for my family.

[@lauraanderson4256]

You are so relatable and adorable... 60 people... thousands now... 💖💖💖