I Don’t Want To Be A Burden

[@helanalurie9962]

One day at a time. It will sort out itself. And be kind to yourself ❤❤❤

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

That is all I do and life can only get better. 🙏🩷🩷

[@trynsurviven2440]

I understand where you were coming from but at least you’re in a better place now. You have a better place and are in a better position to concentrate on putting yourself first. I can’t wait to see what you have done with the gardening.

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

I am in a better place now and gardening my days away you could say. I can’t wait to show you what l have done so far, it’s coming along nicely. Have soil and mulch being delivered today. It’s not the best day as it’s raining but l am not afraid to get out there and get wet 😊 🙏🩷🩷🩷

[@trynsurviven2440]

@@AVanADogAndMyself That sounds great and I’m looking forward to seeing your progress.

[@sonysgirl6301]

It is true, you don't know what people are going through. I little kindness goes a long way❤❤

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

It certainly does and it is a wonderful thing to be towards others as we know how important it is to us. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

[@esteeb42]

I totally understand how you feel. My son is actually staying with me right now which is helping me both financially and having someone to help with repairs around my house. My daughter lives with her husband in a really nice good-sized house they only have one child. I know my daughter would not mind me coming to stay there if I had to but, this also means giving up a degree of my privacy and I would feel like I was invading their privacy, because no matter how you look atit you... can't be as free about certain things as if you were in your own home. Also because of the person I am I would feel obligated to go above and beyond and at this stage in my life🤪😆 I know this video was made before you found your new place. I'm so happy for your new spot it looks so lovely💐

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

Estee, staying in your own home if you’re able to is the best option, actually I wish one could do this for their whole life. To be honest if the government were wise enough they would fund more elderly with support to do this, especially if one’s health is not an issue. It is wonderful your son is able to help you out at the moment. I get what you’re saying about privacy and especially feeling that we would be invading others space, it becomes a weight on our shoulders no matter how often we are told otherwise. We do have to change the whole way we live and we know that we would go above and beyond to help out as much as possible, it’s exhausting and l remember that being how l felt. Much love 💗🩷💗 Gaye

[@ykook7000]

Your van life is the perfect compromise You have your own accommodation & transport in one Which is perfect for staying or moving on when you are ready You can dictate your own plans and future Must be pretty good insulation in the van as it has turned really cold ❄️🥶 Stay warm

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

It is perfect and so far apart from it being chilly here l am enjoying my time and Tan who owns this place is a lovely person. I have a 12volt heated blanket thankfully that keeps me warm and comfortable at night. I do have insulation in the roof which does help but the floor feels like ice, wool socks and slippers are a must. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

[@ykook7000]

Might need to check out Bunnings or one of those stores for a non slip carpet runner or something narrow for warmth on the floor ​@@AVanADogAndMyself

[@storminight]

Honey, we all fall apart when we are able. It’s the strongest who stay focused when we have to and let it loose when we are able. We all need that time. I thought everything was turning around in a better place with a single mom, where you’d be appreciated!?

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

I did this video in my son’s yard, just prior to moving to where l am now. It was how l was feeling then but l love where l am now. As much as my son made me welcome, inside l felt like l was a burden and it was something I was struggling with. Why l found a place where I could be where l could find my own space and not be a bother or burden to anyone. After being independent since l was 18 years old it was hard, especially needing help from my children. I did feel that the past couple of years I had become a burden to them. 🙏🩷🩷

[@storminight]

@@AVanADogAndMyself ohhh good I was concerned you felt like you had to move from the new place! I hope it’s everything you expect! You deserve it!

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

@@storminight I’m loving it here, Tania has made me feel so welcome and apart of her family. We have our own separate space but we get together everyday and have a chat. Loving doing the garden which Tania is loving and l get to enjoy what l do at the end of the day. Thank you for your kindness and support 🙏🩷🩷🩷

[@storminight]

@@AVanADogAndMyself anytime! I’m here if you want to chat someday!

[@JessicaDengel]

Hello from the U.S. I enjoy watching your videos. Griffin is one adorable pup. Take care & be well :)

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

I’m so happy you enjoy my videos 🙏 Griffin is cheeky and keeps me smiling 😊 Hope your well much love 🩷🩷🩷

[@feliciagermain456]

Your such a wonderful soul

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

🙏🩷🩷 Felicia

[@Jane-lx1nr]

Seeing you here in comparison to where you sre now. Wow! I see you. I've felt that not belonging. Hurts doesn't it. I too, hermit snd enjoy this ssfe, cut off place. As we mull it over, grow, we lesrn the art of letting go as nothing is forever. Not codependent is a wonderful place to be and lots of people tolerate people, places and things i wouldn't, to avoid this hard path to contentment and peace. Ps. Could be worse you could have British weather and only see sunshine 3 days a year and they call it a mini heatwave!!

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

It is a horrible feeling, a weight on one’s shoulders but fear l didn’t know if l could find my way again. It does hurt and you’re right, nothing is forever. Letting go and just being able to feel some independence is a great feeling. I can be by myself or have company where l am and that’s important to me. I can be here and find peace and not worry about who l am affecting if l choose silence for a few days. True, it could be worse, cold but l put on layers and do as l want, or snuggle with my heated blanket, either way I can be warm. 3 days of sunshine ☀️ l certainly appreciate we have a bit more than that here at least. Stay warm Jane. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

[@joanponton3316]

Hi Gaye, It's great seeing you again and having you share your thoughts with everyone. It seems like yare making positive changes and that you're becoming emotionally stronger. Good for you! Keep up the awesome work! Sending hugs and love to you and Griffin.🩷🩷🩷

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

Thank you Joan, starting to feel much better about myself now and the garden is keeping me sane l think. Sending my hugs and love to you beautiful lady. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

[@sonyak9879]

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[@AVanADogAndMyself]

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[@SharonCecil-l6i]

I thought you were in your friend's yard where you would garden

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

Yes l am and it’s wonderful I did this video just prior to moving, to talk about how l was feeling and finding a place for myself. I never wanted to feel like a burden and I was feeling like one. I love my children and l know they love me but I needed to get back some independence for myself and l have found that here where l am now. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

[@KrissCapen]

Hugggs

[@AVanADogAndMyself]

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