I feel like I have made up all of my problems!

[@gracetrapani1143]

i love when she says, “Okay?” So comforting wow

[@jehoia87]

I see this comment from different people on every video. I'm sure she's conscious of when she says it now

[@nanditadesscan2987]

I agree lol It's really soothing.

[@lemonarizonatea]

A psychologist once told me, "You can't force yourself into having a mental illness." I was referred to this psychologist by former therapist to confirm a possible diagnosis. I told the psychiatrist what I was experiencing and answered their questions. They (more or less) flat-out told me that I was making things up and that my struggles were invalid. At the tender age of 16, with GAD, this destroyed me. I haven't seen a mental health professional since because of so many accumulated experiences of subtly being told that my thoughts and feelings as an individual were invalid and I couldn't be helped.

[@volteriaxx]

lifeoflove you not the only one, this happend to me, and it destroyed me too, but after 3 years of trying they finnaly got me serious. I still think i am lying but i kept trying and they understood kinda, so if you keep trying with different people one day help will come. btw *hugs*.

[@ratgirl45]

This is what I'm afraid of

[@lemonarizonatea]

+Emily Mayes Hey chica. It's a year after I posted that comment, and I am happy and blessed to say that after many years of struggling with dysthymia, I finally told my GP what was going on in my personal life; I wasn't getting out of bed, I didn't care about anything, occasional mood swings, etc. He's known me my whole life and knows my family has a hereditary disposition to mood disorders, so in that sense I got very lucky. Once I was honest with him about my struggle, he was very open and quick to help me find a solution through some medication (at least for now). I am doing much better now than I think I have since I was a teen; I'm almost 23 now. It IS very difficult to have a struggle that is invalidated for any reason, but I'm learning from experience that sometimes it takes a lot of work and simply finding the right person who will understand what you're saying and really listen to you. It can be a long and hard journey to find the right doctor, but it's worth it. :)

[@eboi4995]

I'm really anxious about trying to go to therapy because one of my close friends was given a multiple choice test for different mental illnesses and talked with the therapist. She was told she's fine because she's doing better at coping and doesn't need therapy.

[@euniceimmortalis3584]

princessbubblegum OMFG SAME THING HAPPENED ..to whom i was referred to..she was like "you maybe know it all but i studied got degree for this so i guess i know a bit better than you so if you wanna get treated.. do what I say ..you're not allowed to self-diagnose"

[@chloeappleby251]

The reason I first got help was because a teacher noticed that I had ED because she used to have one, and she came and spoke to me and made me get help. At first I was really angry with her but now I can't thank her enough, I'm so glad she stepped in.

[@deadbeatdad339]

Chloe Appleby erectile disfuntion?

[@Politegirl686]

@@deadbeatdad339 eating disorder..

[@7minutesago4yearsago29]

@@Politegirl686 xD

[@glendybeatriz714]

I was confused too!!! omg not funny but i laughed

[@SirenoftheVoid]

I was like that with my mom.She raised me alone.She never once meant to hurt me,but we had communication issues back in my teen years.i've held this against her for years but now she's fixing her past mistakes by helping me with my life.it's taken me some time and talk to process and understand this,accepting it.We communicate better now.I decided to just move on and accept what happened as simply a bad time for me. Great video again Kati!

[@SirenoftheVoid]

SirenoftheVoid also i've been stressing over my social abilities and yesterday,i had a discussion with uncle and mom about my problems.i've decided to accept i'm a loner but i might still wanna work on some things.accepting who i am and knowing what i need is tricky.what i once thought was depression might have just been me overthinking things and getting all anxious about it.

[@nikkifeltman8523]

I've found psychiatrists to be much more business-ish instead of willing to have an emotional understanding with someone. My psychiatrist also made me feel horrible about myself because I'm diagnosed with "extreme depression" and she told me that she wouldn't call it that. The first time she had ever talked to me. I hate how good I am at making it seem like I'm totally fine and it's just an adjustment disorder or like "oh just another depressed teenager". I much prefer my therapist. I even told him about how that made me feel after seeing a psychiatrist and he totally understood. I think therapists are more used to working with someone emotionally rather than looking at symptoms and what meds would work. Just my thoughts anyways.

[@tsekuistitches]

Same. I went to a psychiatrist awhile ago, it took nearly 3 months to wait for the appointment. Then when I got there, I poured my heart out, he repeated questions a lot, then by the end, he literally just made me fill out a 1 page depression questionnaire, diagnosed me with depression/anxiety and agoraphobia. and gave me antidepressants.. Im 99% sure I don't have agoraphobia. -_- Didn't even offer therapy referrals or anything. Just.. here ya go, here's some pills, bye. I fucking hate that shit so fucking much. I've been depressed since I was 15, I've gone to 3 different doctors and none of them were able to get me the help I need. Idk what im supposed to do, like send myself to a hospital or something. The health system in Canada, ESPECIALLY AMERICA, is completely fucked up.

[@nikkifeltman8523]

Odd Goddess It takes SO LONG to get in to the psychiatrist. It's ridiculous. Every time I try a new med it's always way past the time I was supposed to try something else before I even have the chance to tell them that it's not working.

[@mm.124]

I like to think they're uncomfortable about prescribing various drugs since many are really powerful. That being said, to a degree they are, but sometimes they side with the parent if you so choose to have a parent in the room with you. It's also a nice difference because I have a psychologist who is nice about my insecurities whereas I have a stricter, no nonsense Psychiatrist which could sometimes be frightening. I'm rather sad though since my psychiatrist is moving towards retirement.

[@sweetpjeb23]

I thought this too until I switched to my current hospital. Maybe it's because I see residents but the ones I've had are all extremely personable and help a lot. My current one is really good at asking the right kinds of questions.

[@xxxPaulineMvF]

I think you're a really good person Kati😚😚😚😚❤️

[@SamanthaDiane]

This video came at the perfect time. I've recently switched from an amazing therapist to a social worker and things aren't going so well. Yesterday I wrote out what needs to change and if they can't change that I need to see someone else. But today I was starting to tell myself that maybe I was wrong and I should keep it to myself. I'm really fricken scared to talk about it today, and I might not. But I'm going to try really hard to do it! :) Thanks Kati!

[@SamanthaDiane]

I did it! :D

[@kiddycato]

I just wanted to mention something about the third question: sometimes someone may appear to have an eating disorder by what they are eating, but they really just have emetophobia (fear of vomiting), and this fear keeps them from eating what is considered a healthy amount. I once had this to a severe level, and I had to struggle to eat half a cheese sandwich per meal times. I hated eating, and when I did eat, I stopped as soon as I could. Feeling full was my enemy because of the fear that it would come back up! (And thankfully, I no longer have this phobia.)

[@susej121416]

I think it is kind of the same with self-harm. I always just know when I see someone in public who self-harms,because the behave the same way I did when I self-harmed. And I always stare at other people's wrists..

[@breadlebees]

I can spot a self harmer pretty easily as well, but I don't bring it up because I know that if someone called me out on my self harm I would be embarrassed, so I let it go unless they say something to me about it, but that normally isn't the case.

[@MonsterAtedMyBrainz]

How would you be able to spot it? I'm really interested, because I feel like nobody would ever have been able to tell with me!

[@breadlebees]

For example, a girl in one of my classes last semester self harmed. I was the only one who knew, because I was the only one who saw the signs. Blatant red flags for anyone who self harms, like wearing long sleeves when it's 90 degrees outside, but until I actually saw her cuts I was only drawing off my intuition. One day she got brave and wore short sleeves and I saw them. It wasn't a big deal, but I was sad because I knew the pain she was feeling. But I never told her I knew. I never told anyone that. Believe me, I know what it is like to hide scars. But when you see someone else's it hurts even more because all you want to do is hug them and tell them everything will be okay and that if they ever need to talk you'll be there to listen, but none that matters if they don't want help, so I kept my mouth shut, until now.

[@MonsterAtedMyBrainz]

Yeah, I know just what you mean! I find it strange when I see other people's cuts. Because it's sort of surreal to see that other people are affected by self harm too, even though you KNOW it's not just you... And I completely agree with you, I never know quite what to do because I always want to help people and let them know I understand, but unfortunately that's not always appropriate and they might not want that. :(

[@breadlebees]

4 months self harm free and everyday I think about it one way or another. Only people who have been affected SH understand that feeling. It's neither a blessing nor a bad thing, but it is what it is and we have to our best not to do it when it feels like it's the only way out. That's what recovery is all about; finding other things to do, more healthier things to do instead of doing what our negative thoughts tell to do. XOX :D

[@MonsterAtedMyBrainz]

Oh wow, well done!! Good for you! I haven't self harmed in a good few months either, even though of course I've thought about it too. I know just what you mean, it never really stops going through your mind in some way. But hopefully we can both ignore those thoughts! ^.^ xoxoxo

[@PhillipRajcany]

These questions really were quite good. Thank you for sharing. Great content.

[@jillnewton9654]

I love it when people get to "not get it" when they hurt me. It happens too much. They get too just skirt responsibility for causing pain. It hurts.

[@alexashea4605]

I love that you take the time to pick out those complex, general questions that can apply to all ages and societies, all people. Thank you so much for making these videos, it’s given me the courage to educate myself about mental illnesses and fight for my mental health despite all the discouraging people and situations we encounter, because no one knows us better than ourselves, and that needs to be voiced before we can find the right kind of help from the right people. Thank you so much Kati!!

[@corackadile]

When you brought up noticing someone else's ED, I realized I do this with people who suffer from depression. As someone who has struggled a long time with it, I recognize a lot of the signs, even the not so obvious ones, but I don't say anything because it can be very uncomfortable for the other person. Especially if they are embarrassed or trying to hide it.

[@MCsOut2GetMe]

The good intent will never make it hurt less.

[@edgarpal799]

What do you think of LGBTQ Community and Mental Health? It seems like a lot of people don't talk much about it.

[@pandy024]

I know I'm 3 years late, but I think I'm non binary. I think this is one of the things that started me to cut since I'm in a reasonably stable household. My cutting isn't bad, I cut for like a month and then I was clean for 3-4 months, yesterday I cut once and today I cut 2 or 3 times. I've cut more in the last 2 days than I ever have. If she's done a video on this topic please tell me.

[@simreaper]

When my eating disorder was at its worst I was seeing a therapist who told me that I wanted to be sick and that I was making myself sick... I walked out crying and never went back.

[@serian24]

Kati, you are incredibly insightful and kind. Thank you so much for all your hard work :)

[@elishaajaee751]

I was able to relate to all 3 of these questions today, especially the last 2. Thank you for another awesome video, Kati! xxx

[@Lauracharland]

I had the same problem as the first question. I gave up my therapy. Blaming is useless. And if they make you feel bad about yourself, find a new therapist!

[@2thatonegirl16]

so, if someone came up to me and was like, "I think you might have some symptoms of an eating disorder" i'd probably get emotional or defensive right away. even if it was someone who cared about me or knew me well... well, maybe i'd laugh it off. i don't have the best eating habits, but it's because i'm busy or stressed or tired or *poor.* but i don't really have much in the way of body image issues. if someone called me out on it, i'd probably get really defensive and argue as a knee jerk reaction, because i've been defending my body size and eating habits for years. i hate the whole "you're so skinny, eat a sandwich" thing. like damn Martha, i would if i could afford lunch meat and spare the time to make it. on the other foot, if i noticed someone i cared about picking at a salad after not eating all day or pretending to eat, i'll call them out straight away. in a, wait did you eat today, what did you eat, do you feel okay? kind of thing. go into the whole starvation mode explanation and scare them into eating. people tend to get worried when i tell them their brain is functioning much slower and generally worse when they're not eating. i wouldn't say, "do you have an eating disorder?" i would say, "are you feeling alright? you need to eat!" in a... mom-ish fashion. may not be the best idea? i think i'd respond to this better, personally. everyone's different, of course.

[@Lisbett_Again]

Can you have disordered eating behavior but not have an eating disorder ?

[@allie54774]

Im seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist. The psychiatrist said i have generalised anxiety and depression but the psycholigist said ptsd and dissociative symptoms. She said its because usually psychiatrists are diagnosing what they can medicate you for but a therapist/psycholigist is thinking more from a whats happened in your life and how can we work through it perspective. So i dont know if its the same all the time but that helped me feel less confused ☺

[@allie54774]

Yeah i think so for sure.

[@elisecode2212]

I saw a psychologist twice and she...seemed like she was trying for some kind of “gotcha”. I’d talk about how my mom treated me and how I found it really insulting and she (psych) asked whether I thought she (mom) was right, like, in her accusations. I’m like uhhh do YOU? Do you WANT me to? It was weird. Also I saw a psychiatrist and it seemed like he didn’t believe what I told him, like, I’ve been diagnosed with dysthymia by multiple professionals but he was...not one of them. Also, I asked for him to sign a form citing my major depressive episodes in hopes of getting my failures from that semester expunged, and he signed it but straight-up said to me “I’m going to make it sound worse than it was.” Boiii I was livid. Like, idk how else to prove how bad it really was. I told my most recent therapist about them and she agreed it was odd at best and if I ever felt uncomfortable with how she treated me, tell her. I had no cause to tell her any such thing. Of the four professionals I’ve ever been to, she’s the only one I’d consider seeing again.

[@eyaouerghi4641]

Actually this is one if the reasons i don’t wanna go to therapy .. it’s bc i am scared they’d say "there’s nothing wrong with you , you’re fine , just making it all up" bc i’d be embarrassed .. like my problems don’t matter and it’s not therapy-worthy , if u know what i mean.

[@DeborahAnnsuperversatile]

My 1st therapist said I am "normal," and now my second therapist has also said that my struggles are "normal." I kind of want diagnosed and medicine if needed. I downplay things also. I know they are too. It is so hard. I just want help. I have had so many struggles my whole entire life.

[@Aloszka7]

Love your videos, you've changed my life ❤️ thank you for everything

[@bellared9063]

I can spot people who are dealing with an ED, depression, self harm, or many other things. It's actually like I can feel their emotions sometimes. I usually try to be there when the person needs me and I will make sure they know I love them. I don't go up to them and say something unless they say something or something.

[@cookedapple]

Oh my goodness the last question made me laugh!!! "Normal Eaters" FASCINATE me - I notice so many disordered eating behaviours it's absolutely nuts!!! Yet they probably don't even give two hoots about what they eat! I have forgotten what it is like to eat normally :P When people used to come up to me...in a sense I wanted them to say something, I wanted help, but when they did it was almost like the ED took over and I got really defensive!

[@sendrakawa8749]

I have bipolar and because it is episodic in moments that I am stable I feel as if maybe I might be lying about the depression or the mania and that maybe I'm actually fine. Because at that time I feel so good that I feel very detached to my past experiences

[@beckykuchinski9114]

I find Counseling of no use. I start going, I have depression & anxiety on the weekends, then by the time my appointment rolls around I’m fine and I forgot what the issue really was. At that point I have nothing to talk about. And I have not found a counselor that can get it (whatever it is) out of me. Like I said in a previous comment, my new counselor (who I’ve seen once), wants to do trauma therapy (whatever that one is with the eyes) but quite honestly I don’t remember the initial trauma from when I was two…so what the heck good is that going to do. And if it digs up stuff that I really don’t wanna deal with… I don’t want that either

[@chastain2825]

Yes my therapist won’t acknowledge my depression because she said she doesn’t want to change my diagnosis. She diagnosed me with ptsd. But I feel at times I could benefit from anti depressants . I feel like she doesn’t see how hard it is . I feel hopeless and offer struggle with the normal daily activities and at times feel suicidal and she does not take me serious . I have to live me with . She doesn’t

[@benedikte6694]

I would give my world for you too be my therapist.. thankyou for making these videos.

[@illuu699]

I self diagnosed with PTSD and I’m scared to see a medical professional about it in case they tell me that I made it all up. I said to the doctor that I was open to seeing a therapist and I think I’m getting a referral and hopefully I don’t get completely devalued. I try not to tell many people because they might believe that I’m making all of this up but I don’t think I am because I have next to all symptoms. I don’t know how to feel. Thanks for reading if you do.

[@kb9tbq]

My spouse is a disordered eater, he just has one meal a day often. I am diabetic and a binge eater, so I eat multiple times through out the day. I try not to think about it, because I actually feel hungry more often though out the day.

[@身赤-w3w]

Pammila Allen the way he eats is actually healthy research intermittent fasting

[@laneypokenerd2358]

Hey Kati. Do you think you could talk about Paranoia in a Monday Video please? People throw that word around and I feel like it needs clarification. Thanks.

[@laneypokenerd2358]

What kind of therapist did you see?

[@GaebryelQuintyne]

Awesome video as always, Kati =). I kinda want to ask you some questions but I think it would need like a book worth of context for you to understand (or anyone in your position for that matter)... Also, the question list will become a book in itself, heh. So I will refrain from it, for now =). But your videos are very helpful though =P.

[@dboyd6088]

Thanks for the helpful video. I love that quote. It's a quote from Maya Angelou.

[@jackromolor9634]

Client ,customer, or consumer? Yeah. Good customer right sometimes its a roller coaster it's a working progress I am fine that I am not normal it's okay to be not okay but your fine & okay practicing everyday, practice makes prefect seriously.

[@Jcruz4284]

#katiFAQ hello kati, thank you for all your videos, they have helped me slot. I needed to know if there are any way they we can prevent and/or cope with anxiety/panic attacks... specially for those days that is impossible to run out for some air. I am already desperate of them and want to gain control of them. Also, what can I do if I fear of everything that surround me. Specially being in a crowd that are authority figures present. I fear of judgement, criticism, being rejected, etc. I am tired of being afraid all the time.... hope you can help ;) thank you!

[@braindeadgoldfish]

OMG! This first question totally describes my former therapist. She was so insistent on blaming my father for basically all of my problems. I resisted her ideas for a couple months but then stopped trying to argue with her about it because I wasn't getting anywhere. I know that most of what she was saying wasn't true, but then I started blaming my father for everything because that's what she did. She was a really bad fit for me as a therapist and she really messed up my relationship with my father. Honestly I think she caused more problems than she solved.

[@身赤-w3w]

Jaden Lowe she was right tho you're just in denial

[@amandasalas3358]

Hey Kati, i love your videos. They help me out a lot. Thanks for being such a great person. I wanted to know if you had a video on attention problems, maybe ADHD? I've never been to a therapist/psychologist for a couple reasons but I feel I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for years as well as some sort of attention problem. Anytime I watch something or start to read or even when I listen to music, I tend to change it within 30 seconds to a minute in. When people talk to me, a lot of information goes right over my head and some people may think I'm slow. I just lose complete focus. My grades in school have always been horrible, I'm a D student!!! NOT because I'm dumb but because it seems like I just don't care after a while. I don't attend college because my mind feels so stressed out and with such bad focus, why should I bother? I tend to just skip right over learning something in depth because I'm so busy searching other things (and every time i start to read something i just searched, i search again and again and again for other things!)

[@lindab125]

Love this! :)

[@SirSoup44]

#katiefaq how do I tell someone about my self harm and eating disorder, especially my Mum. I have never told anyone before and I really want someone to know what I'm going through and know how I feel.

[@theRiver_joan]

GAME RECOGNIZE GAME also thank you so much for these videos. They have been helping me through so much lately.

[@LorettaAyers]

I wish I had you as my therapist. I don't have liable transportation to see my in take worker, who takes over as my therapist, but, she isn't really helping me & I see a shrink all the time. I go when I can. I have medical transportation but I share that with each doctor visit & each doctor I see & you get so many trips. That's why I don't have a therapist. I am my own therapist. Question: How do you, or I, get over troubled triggered past memories that haunts & pisses me off whenever it happens?

[@reynaldoreyes6477]

Well you're really listen to me

[@LYNDAREADMAN]

What can I expect after surviving a serious suicide attempt? I woke up very angry and then followed by several panic attacks. I spent a week in the hospital and I am home as lone now thinking of ways to die. I do not see a therapist till July 30 what is happening to me and what can I expect to happen in the weeks to come?

[@TiffanyTLCx95]

Great video kati : )

[@discringydude7698]

WARNING: this is a rant so I highly advise to not read this. you have been warned I have recently been felling upset and I don't know... like weird? at night time. Im gonna try to get a better sleeping habit cause im always staying up late. Im not sure why im sharing my feelings online on a old video but... I just need to get it out but since im on my moms computer I don't want her to see a rant on word. so my dads a HUGE jerk sometimes (atchully more than sometimes) and yells and us and causes and even sometimes (well acthaly a lot) he just insults us like, and acts like he just said he likes ice cream. And THEN I tell him off he just dust what I said off and contenus to complain about US? I just cant belive him sometimes. Another problem I have is I want people to take me sireosly but since im just 10 I fell like I cant be upset cause im to young. Also, last night I went through a wave of emotins. My brother just fell asleep and right when he fell asleep I got SO parunoid. Then I got really straned. And THEN I got upset about nothing. I think I need to get my life together. Im to young to be this I don't know... upset. usally im care free and im the class clown but resntly ive been felling like a clown. I don't know why and in a way I fell like I just... shouldn't have these feelings and should just work through them. I hounestly hope no one comes across this. Im a bit... embrassed? I don't know. I don't really know my feelings. Im just confused and wish I was older so it woundt just be seen as me trying to be "cool" or "egey". Also (yes iknow, ive been putting down about my dad buuut) sometimes I achally get hurt from my dad. I don't know if I like my dad. Hes more like an sometimes cool but most of the time mean older brother, not my dad. I don't know. huh ive said I don't know a lot haven't I? its 1:00 am and im still awake. ive kinda gotten into this thing of AWAYS staying up really late. Also, any holiday, fun event, cool outing, ect usally my dads the one who will ruin iit or something like that. Also also, my mom has been thinking about divorcing my dad. On a note, I kinda want her to. I just get so angry at my dad, like I cant even. And to add on, before this whole "pandemic thing" at school I started going to my school canseler because I got in a fight with some girls during lunch and I got sent to the prichables. I told her about everthing and I was going to vist her weekly but then then this whole pandemic thing. I don't think ill post this but instead write it on a piece of paper. writeing this has help me calm down and its really nice to get this off my chhest. I know its not a thing so good to show a teacher but this is just a rant. I might add on to this but for now, itll just be this.

[@shelbygray3437]

I'm confused about myself as a person my therapist thinks it's depression but it's not really but what should I do exercise won't help me live life the way I should tho I need it I do it but I feel 100 percent lost

[@perfumaphilia3246]

I once had a therapist tell me that she didn't think I needed therapy. I'll never forget that line.

[@zain4019]

Perfumaphilia :( that’s awful.

[@anneloremos481]

Can you also talk to someone else then a therapist if you have struggles?

[@Lannaread225]

❤❤❤

[@LaurenMca]

is there any archive of journal topics?

[@Elliepixie12]

While doing bra fitting at work I've seen SH scars but don't say but I'm very very nice! I've also seen ED behaviours in my family but I've heard it can run in the family I think?

[@etinarcadiaego7424]

I like my new therapist enough, but I feel she has difficulty understanding where I am coming from. My current issues are sexual in nature and she is a sex therapist and its like she thinks my sexual inexperience is not a big deal, but it causes me a great deal of anxiety. I don't feel she takes it seriously enough. It is the root of my struggle to find a partner and my fear of intimacy. She minimizes my deep concern that I will never be able to please a partner and that is a huge part of a loving relationship for me. I just want to be the mate some wonderful woman deserves. I don't think that is so unreasonable and difficult to understand. I am giving her a break, however, as I have only had three sessions with her and we are still getting to know each other. I just hope things improve.

[@mariasosnowska1472]

My therapist said that i am ill because i wants to be sick that i am lazy great i feel better

[@JustCallMeKim84]

Kati why does other people's self harm make me feel really sick even though it is something I have gone through? Surely I should have sympathy for them but I just wish they would cover it up and hide it away. #KatiFaq

[@zain4019]

Kim Kitts EFT (tapping) could help release repressed emotions, and there are lots from such a consuming habit. Try searching up Brad Yates eft on KZbin and find a video that speaks to you. It helped me so much :)

[@TheSubpremeState]

Everything is made up..... perfection is here and now

[@abhijeetghoshal1110]

I think I'm going through something which has not being discovered yet. lol I know sounds like bullshit but I'm completely sane and in my senses, I know what's going on but still I have these strange things going on with me which I can't find on google or anywhere else and it's been 5 years now. I have been to a lot of doctors, got Brain scans which came out completely normal but idk what's going on.

[@priscillaguzman7338]

Where would people send u questions for FAQ?

[@breadfan_85]

What if you can't find another therapist because of low income? I'm on Medicare and there's only one therapist in my city that they cover, which means she's always booked months in advance. It's nearly impossible to get on to see her and when I can, she doesn't say anything. She just expects me to do all the talking and I don't know what to say so the session is usually just the two of us sitting there mostly silent for 40 minutes.

[@havendidit]

I just left a therapist who I had a very similar experience with! I'm currently unemployed so hopefully getting a job will help me, but when I was younger I relied a lot on online therapy. Perhaps that's something you could try for now until you're able to afford seeing someone else in person?

[@samjones9127]

Interesting.

[@user-bf5vi6yg8n]

Game recognize game 💯 😃😃

[@kittydigins4943]

I really like your videos but the ads that play before the content is really triggering

[@身赤-w3w]

Nova Raiyn she can't choose her ads, they come up based on what your activity is on google

[@Fordazaria6]

#katifaq hi Kati i love all your videos they have really helped! i've started recovering from my ed (for the second time now) because when i am eating 'normally' get easily frustrated and my anxiety gets worse. I feel like this is why i couldn't recover before and its happening again. what should i do?

[@JonnesTT]

The feeling like making something up thing... I'm suspecting I might have DID and already working with a therapist but I feel like I should do more (specifically make a system map/make a real world list with names or epithets we like to be called/build on the inner world) but I fear that I might just be making this up and I'd make it harder for myself to get over it once I'm sure this was just my brain acting up. But tbh I feel like I'm also holding the other parts of myself back from building some kind of connections with the rest... And at the same time I notice that I've wanting to speak to her about the doubts but I'm never really me when I'm at therapy ._. Halp, is making this up something that actually happens? :/

[@havendidit]

eyyy I'm going through a similar thing too! Except in my case it's just OSDD type 1. I remember once the wonderful host of DissociaDID Nin said that even she regularly had doubts about whether she was making up her own illness - and she's been professionally diagnosed and has been running her DID education channel for ages. So it's not uncommon to have those kinds of doubts - even for DID youtubers and those who have been diagnosed with DID for a longer time. The Entropy System also has talked about how their host Wyn just didn't want to have DID and she kept trying to shove it away and tell herself she made it up. It unfortunately did some damage to relationships within the system, which have since been repaired. Another thing I've learnt while trying to learn about OSDD, is that while it's not possible to make up the symptoms (those who fake DID are always well aware that they don't have it) there are some symptoms in common between DID and a couple of other conditions. So even if it turns out you don't have DID, there's still something going on that you're right to be seeking therapy with (conditions with some similar presenting symptoms can include OSDD, CPTSD, OCD, PAD, BPD, Schizophrenia, a couple others I can't remember off the top of my head (though don't let that discount your experiences with DID. I have OCD but that doesn't invalidate my OSDD.)) My recommendation (as learnt from a variety of DID youtubers) is to just investigate a bit and learn about your symptoms while purposefully ignoring the labels. If you think you have alters, see if you can communicate with them or learn more about them. If you think you switch between alters, see if you can keep a log of who's out when. Collect as much information about what you're experiencing as you're realistically able at this time. Then you can bring what you've learnt to your therapist and say "This is what I've noticed in myself. Do you think this fits DID or might there be something else going on?" and then you can also bring up your anxiety about whether you're making it up or not. By that time, you'll know more about yourself and be more familiar with what's going on so you can make a better decision based on your knowledge. You can never know if you really have DID if you're avoiding it, and if you're truly open to learning about yourself then your system might even make it easier for you by opening up and showing themselves more (both things that happened to the Entropy system). Edit: Haha sorry for long spiel... just I related a lot to this cause I was in the same boat as you about half a year ago. I hope you can figure things out and everything goes well for you! :)

[@aaron-AJ92]

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[@therabbithat]

some therapists don't believe in disorders, know that going in and agree to disagree on it

[@kimlafleur1369]

are u in motel room?