i finally left my toxic household and moved out.

i finally left my toxic household and moved out.
sorry for being inactive for so long. i needed to figure things out in my life. a lot has changed and im back, happier than ever! looking forward to share my healing journey with you guys xxx
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[@nyki]

hello im back. in this video i explain a little while i was gone. hope you like it. thanks for watching xxx🤍

[@danny0053]

Hi, love your story and appreciate your time to explain how this huge step looks like.. wish you the best and know that JesusChrist loves you, and wants to have the best ever relationship with you.

[@jazzymarie0424]

Right now I’m currently going through this I lost my job at Walgreens my parents messed with my relationship they take my financials

[@krazymunky88]

“makes me feel like im living and not just existing” thank you for this

[@elizabeth5755]

i'm currently going through similar circumstances and i feel so bad for my mom but i just can't do it anymore. thanks for this video and welcome back love! 💜

[@nyki]

I totally understand you cus SAME 😭 but you just have to push through and think about yourself! Your your biggest priority 🤍

[@Teeteebearx]

This video makes feel a little better about making my decision. I told my mom and grandma cause she live with us too.. that I’m changing into this new version of myself but no one helping evolve like teaching me how to drive, letting me work, how to deal with finances, how to file taxes and etc. I can’t stand it here. I also told my mom about me feeling like I wanna get away but I can tell it went over head. Everyone in this household is just settling and into tired of settling. No one has the mindset I have in this household. And I understand when you said “you can finally live instead of existing..” That hit hard lol!

[@nyki]

Yes totally understand you! I can say I’ve been feeling great and I’ve grown so much since moving out 🙈🫶🏻 hopefully you can too🤍 wishing you the best

[@Teeteebearx]

@@nyki thank you !🥺

[@mid_0]

Seeing other people share their story, I wanted to share my story too. For as long as I have been on this earth, I have been physically, mentally, verbally, emotionally, and spiritually. I've been living under my parents house for my own life. I cry almost everyday for multiple reasons. I will taking the steps next year to move out next year and i will be proud of it. I care for my parents i really do, but i can't continuously be controlled and not be able to make my own decisions. But yea i will be leaving next year but i do applaud you for taking the steps to move out

[@nyki]

Thank you for sharing and I wish you the best 🥹🥹

[@brebre2559]

I completely feel the same way . But sadly I live on a island . I want to move to another country to be away from them.

[@mid_0]

@@brebre2559 I hope you are able to move away from your parents and I'm so sorry for what you are going through

[@brebre2559]

@@mid_0 thank you , I hope everything goes well for you

[@stickystar101]

I relate to this parent thing sooooooo much! I need to save money and get out.

[@kissareshamwala1012]

Same

[@johnslife4993]

It's 2023 right now and I am going through the same problem. In 2018 my mom started an argument with me in the car while she was on the way to take me to theatre camp she then pulled the car over and put it in park, grabbed un umbrella from the back seat and then she opened my door and hit me with it and bruised my arm. I was crying and when I got to camp an adult noticed the bruise. (Instead of me telling the truth I lied and said that I fell over a rock because I was afraid my mom was going to hurt me more) So then my mom has been more toxic for the past 4 years. She has been manipulative, telling lies, running her mouth about me, bothering me, and she has been disturbing peace by yelling and screaming just to get attention. Also, she has been bullying me to entertain her friends and my other family members. I'm basically going to be moving out of her house at 16 and moving in with my dad. I'm sick and tired of her. She's not going to keep picking on me.

[@PraveenSrJ01]

Sounds eerily similar to my 62 year old mom

[@minhyuksssmile]

I am sorry this happened I have a family and neighbors who disrespect me for no reason 😢😓

[@Harijukuxbri]

Wow we have the same story.. I just moved out because it was a toxic environment.

[@noziphotshabalala5018]

I’m using this as inspiration that things get better because right now? I feel so hopeless and frustrated, I feel stuck. And the fact that there’s nothing I can do to change my situation in the short term is so disheartening, but I’m trying. I’m trying to take it day by day, trying to remind myself that I’ll get to leave home eventually.

[@jooheony5311]

Wow i am speechless (in a positive way!). That was probably the best yt comeback ever. That editing, the audio message and the story where you have been. Moving out is sure a big challange and also facing your fears but you did it and you got this! I don't know you personally but i really do love your videos and have to say, how proud i am of you. So many great changes and opportunities you faced like a strong and independent person!

[@nyki]

Thank you I felt very fulfilled to express my emotions through the editing ✨ thank you so much for this kind message and for being so supportive. Wishing you all the blessings in the world 🤍

[@PraveenSrJ01]

I’m 39 going on 40 years old and my parents home 🏡 is definitely a very toxic environment. I won’t get into any details here but I really need to move out and find my own place.

[@minahngil174]

I'm 22 and planning to move out this year only because I can't take anymore of my mother's toxicity. I can't continue living like a broken adult hurting others too because of the hurt I got from my mom. More power to you brother!

[@DesTiny-yg3nj]

Same here and my younger brother as well. I’m right with you.

[@PraveenSrJ01]

@@DesTiny-yg3nj thanks for sharing

[@DesTiny-yg3nj]

How is it going for you as of today?

[@PraveenSrJ01]

@@DesTiny-yg3nj much better although far from perfect but counting my blessings

[@CORPSE77]

I actually just want to send you lots of hugs 🥺😘😩 it sucks having to mature early and be independent and away from the core support of family, but if that is what it takes to gain your freedom back, then so be it. It sucks to leave your only fam to find your comfort, but then you had no choice. It's not a crime to be free and to find yourself. I want to congratulate you for collecting your pieces, and for collecting your courage, and for taking a stand. It's very hard, and I can't even imagine what I would do if I were in your position. I feel like this problem of families trying to force their own "traditions" and "cultures" onto their "1st generation" kids is really underrated, and no one speaks about the traumas they hiddenly cause. Urgh, I kinda relate to this so badly too urghhhhhhhh... cheer up sisssss! lovessss and huggsss

[@nyki]

Thank you 🥹🫶🏻 wishing u the best 🫶🏻🫶🏻🥺🥺🥺

[@Kaiix-ro5ky]

This motivated me and inspired soooooooo much! Thank you!❤❤❤ Im currently finding a job so I can move away from my toxic family I need to save up move out. Im also going trough studying while so and one day soon ill move out of this situation. Been worrying too much and living like this and now I realised that it's time for a change.

[@nyki]

Yess you got this 🫶🏻

[@sophiae3018]

this was such a lovely video i teared up a little bit because i can see a bit of my struggles in here. im always just happy to see that youre doing well (but ofc its ok to have bad days and not do well) i love your new hair color and congrats on getting an apartment!!! lots of love

[@nyki]

Happy and sorry that you can relate 😥 thank you so much, wishing you all the best in your life 🤍

[@leticiacarreiro]

Girl, you're AMAZING! So happy to see you back, but even better to see you happy, taking care of your mental health and growing in life, you're amazing and deserve all the best!

[@nyki]

Girl thank you for staying here 🤍🤍

[@edensunsunsusnusn]

You just inspired me right now. You're so brave to finally face your emotions!

[@nyki]

Thank you 🥹♥️

[@marta_____]

Hi Niky, I'm glad that you are back. I don't know you in person, but I can tell you for sure that once you understand the origin of your problems it is way easier to deal with them. I see that you took your time to think about you and your struggles and that now you have cleared your mind. I just wish you to find happiness in this world and to remember that you are not alone 💗

[@nyki]

Aww thank you so much 😭

[@andrafarhan9458]

Hi. Thank you so much for making this video. I just left my abusive family today, i decided to distancing myself from all of them. For the past 6 years, after my dad passed away, is the hardest time for me. My mom abuse me physically and mentally, and take all of my work money. My brother keep blaming me for what happen to my family now. My family keep calling me crybaby for crying about it, told me to suck it up. Because of that, i selfharm for a long time, today they found out, and they did not care. And at that point i just cannot take it anymore. I just on my way to find a new place for myself. I hope i made a right decision

[@hinarry]

Oh my!!!!!! I'm so happy that you're back! I missed you a lot! I'm also really happy that you took a time for yourself... And i'm also happy that you're feeling better right! Thanks for not giving up of us and for finding a way to get better and happy! Welcome back! I love you so much too! 🥰❤️💕

[@nyki]

“Heal yourself first in order to help others heal”. 🧘🏻‍♀️ you all fill my heart, I’d never give up on you guys 😥

[@DivinelyFeminine5]

This is the first video I watch from you and it was really inspiring. I've also been trying to move out of my parents' home and always felt like it would be scary, I'm glad to hear you describe it as being free. So thank you so much for sharing 💖

[@yourstrulyalyssa]

i found your channel not too long ago, but i absolutely love your content and the person that you are. i’m so glad that you were able to take the time you needed for yourself and what you know will benefit you the most. cant wait to see more videos! 🥰

[@nyki]

Aww thank you 😭

[@user-Anna0.0]

I have never forgotten you, I always missed you and I was waiting for you to post a new video. I love your positive and motivational videos. Please do not be absent like this again.💗💗

[@Reagan_LaRue]

So glad to have you back

[@nyki]

Sending love and positivity back 🤍

[@Itsmegannovelliofficial]

GIRL JUST BE YOU. I LOVE VIDEO IT HELP ME QUEEN

[@chasecrippen3570]

I just came across this video cause i’m moving out soon but even though we live on opposite sides of the world every word you said really resigned with me and makes me feel less alone with my feelings and more confident in my decision

[@cushingpushing]

Great to see you back on KZbin!

[@saramolero5070]

i just discovered your channel, i’m from spain and my boyfriend is german, we’re moving to berlin soon and i wanted to watch other people’s experience, your channel is a warm hug for me, thank you so much 🤎🪵🧸 new subscriber

[@nyki]

Ahh I’m so glad I could help you out! Wishing you the best with your love to Germany and thanks a lot for subscribing 🥹🤍

[@mariatheresa1995]

I feel the same hopefully I can leave too soon.

[@cecilefrederique]

Im so happy you’re back, I missed you! i’m so proud you took these steps and found a way to truly be you!

[@alexpeace4167]

Hi guys, I'm someone's mom that is leaving my home tomorrow morning at 6 am. I've been grieving since he told me. He's 25 and is Moving about 6 hours away, I always thought he'd stay close by me. He met someone, I like her. It was always me and my two kids against the wold. It's hard to realize that on this journey my son will take his turn faraway from me and his sister. I stayed single to give them more of me, I probably did too much cause he was too comfortable, you see I was emotionally neglected by my narcissistic mother. I left a toxic abusive environment at 16 and never looked back, I promised myself I would take care of my kids and would never be like her, my mental promise shaped my life because I did not have the mental coping mechanism, so letting go feels harder than most people feel. it feels surreal because I'm going to have to get used to not smelling, hearing, speaking and seeing my son. Being a boy I also felt safe. He knows his home is here but I know he needs to fly and experience life his way. As a mother I want to hug all of you and tell you how sorry I am that ur parents didn't know how to take care of you emetionaly. No one does, raising people is hard. Be strong, stick to the good energy, never stop learning and stay positive in your journey. Blessings.

[@paul-annwhyte9923]

Im so happy you're back and doing a lot better! I love that you are taking care of yourself, it inspires me to take better care of myself! This video made me sob honestly because it really made me think if I was doing the best that I could do for myself. I'm so proud of you and I'm glad to have you back! Thank you for being you

[@nyki]

Aww thank you 🤍 you’re doing the best you can don’t worry ! Everything is a slow process, the 3 months I took off I just summarized in a 10 min video so don’t compare yourself to that ☺️

[@lol-vk9vz]

I'm happy you were able to find yourself, don't let anyone bring you down

[@nyki]

Thank you love 🤍

[@yvonne3902]

I'm so glad you're back! 🥰

[@nyki]

I’m glad you stayed 🤍

[@SoniaC09]

I m so happy you re back!🥺💜 I hope you re feeling a lot better and I can t wait to see what you re up to next. Also, love your new hair and I like that you re expressing yourself a lot more. Take care and I love you so much!!!😋🌸💖

[@hannahharding5872]

so good to hear from you :))))) welcome back love!!!!!💓

[@ang5824]

I missed you so much! Glad you're back! I'm really happy for you.

[@ChaiTogether]

You go girl ❤❤❤❤❤ I am getting there 🎉

[@user-Anna0.0]

I am really happy to see you again. I wish you a happy life

[@avali3437]

I really loved this video!! Supporting you all the way 🤍🥰

[@rita_leal]

welcome back! we missed you xx 💕💕

[@jessicanavarrete3196]

I really wanna leave my household. My mother is becoming more and more violent to the point where I have to barricade my room. I need to move out

[@nyki]

You got this!!

[@user-Anna0.0]

your study content was very help me to be motivated to study thank you very much 💗💗

[@Allisonbabes]

This is what I'm currently going through, gives me hope.

[@canyoustayupallnightstudyt6535]

It'd be great if you upload more vlogs like normal days in your life. It inspires me study and get into a uni to get a job and to move out and stuff : ))

[@canyoustayupallnightstudyt6535]

I love this video. I love how colourful it is in every way. And I love your vibe. And your outfits too xD

[@tzitzigohin]

I have three years. I cant wait. She rewened my teenhood and happy life. all those years not happy

[@Vonnin133]

Im rooting for you🤞🤞 dont push yourself

[@nyki]

Thank you 🤍✨

[@canyoustayupallnightstudyt6535]

The editing is sooo good

[@sarahheartplushdoll]

I'm Tired With My Toxic Family Yell At Me When I Was 11 Years old When I Was 12-15-16 I'm Out With Toxic Family ❤

[@kayf9612]

Thank you for this 💕

[@lisam.7392]

GUORL, I didn't know you are in your early 20's. I thought you were in your early 30's. Living with toxic family or people in general really does affect you physically. It ages you.

[@JustIndesha]

I feel inspired by this. ❤

[@saraa3612]

I'm super happy to see you again

[@canyoustayupallnightstudyt6535]

I love everything about this video 😩

[@creativelifecapture7583]

Your amazing. I’m moving soon too! 💪🏼

[@Harijukuxbri]

This comment section is making me cry I moved out of my mom’s house recently to live with my dad and I felt regret because I thought I was making the wrong decision but I realized it was a toxic environment and I wanna be mentally happier I’m graduating next year so I wanna make this one year I stay here count.

[@nyki]

You’re so brave!! Wishing you the best 💖

[@barbiebarbie4252]

We missed youuuu💕😘

[@elinacooper9627]

If parents were going to treat their children like that why in the first place did they have kids. Just to fulfill your desire you had them and why say that "I wish I never had you...?" If you're not ready to be a proper parent then just don't have kids at all. I'm just waiting for my financial independentness once I achieve that I'm gonna leave... and never come back without any inevitable reason. It's my life I want my life to be the way I want it. Why do they have to control my life? They had their life to fulfill their wants and dreams if they couldn't do it then it's their problem not mine. And if I say this to their face then they say "I'm being disrespectful... and say you'll get to know when you're a parent", "excuse me when I'm no where like you in matters of behavior or attitudewise nor my life is like yours how can you predict what's my future be like. Listen carefully if I ever become a parent I would make sure they grow well with a proper childhood without trauma's as a kid... I would never let them have love deprivation... Or if I'm scared that I might unknowingly project you while parenting them I make sure I would never have kids my entire life... I don't want to ruin it's childhood and feel sorry for being born.... Again my life ain't gonna be like yours so better wait patiently to check what happens in the future.....

[@cozymozyy]

Such a beautiful video, love it!

[@roshandeepsingh488]

Here lightining fast just for you❤️but some people are here even more faster than light!! Loads of love from India!!

[@mcandncdahhlings]

Omg in going through the same thing right now. I’m so happy for you, happy you got out. I’m trying to do the same for myself and my two sons. Thanks for sharing.

[@melodylipford3142]

Ty needed this!

[@Therealquinn777]

I loved this video, This gave me hope

[@RIYA-lc3ff]

I wish to move out soon too

[@nyki]

You got this!! Wishing you the best

[@elisazouza]

im tryna find a way to move out of a toxic house but its so hard with no money :(

[@PraveenSrJ01]

I’m in debt 💸 and I definitely can’t afford to move out of my parents house 🏡

[@kashfihahannan1895]

You finally here.. I really miss you 😭

[@arcane1282]

[@constellationstrings]

Are you able to film an apartment tour? Also I would love to see your wardrobe! Love your style!

[@shannenluevelle7331]

You are so pretty 🥰🤩🎀

[@nyki]

Tyy🥹🥹

[@mireyaseuphoria]

I’ve been wanting to move out since middle school but I haven’t been able to be financially stable yet I’m also scared because I won’t be able to come back once I leave and I don’t know where to get help or start :/ I just turned 19

[@nyki]

You got this I believe in you!!🥹🫶🏻

[@Raniya_1]

How old were you when you moved out?

[@nyki]

21!☺️

[@blessedupshea5593]

Your not a failure that's right I'm happy for you that'sy prayer for a lot of people that God will help them to do the same I feel everything you say dealing with parents where as after you've been raised it's time to live man Jesus is a way maker I really pray alot of people in this situation that God will provide a way to get out of your parents household or any environment That's for bad for your well being

[@jammimakhan291]

Can u explain how u got ur own apartment x😊

[@nyki]

OHH I could make a whole video about that but I just applied to a lot of places until one accepted me

[@elisazouza]

can you make a video on how you moved out your toxic household? im struggling :((((

[@duangchitphanchamfar6893]

When will you move out and live by yourself

[@nyki]

I am now

[@mightyobserver12]

I am having bar reviews and they are not encouraging. I even get scolded when I get home. I dont have budget for a dorm

[@justhazylyx]

We love you dear♥️♥️

[@alicekigurumi6325]

Introverted lifestyle or not really? The same situation is very brave if affordable, anything possible.

[@Knubbers24_Ryan_Van_Riper]

✌️

[@divyapandey5417]

yrr just tell me how i can moveout fastly

[@mml3888]

It's horrible in south asia and ur a girl there's literally no where u can go to and if ur alone its very unsafe It sucks to be a woman in this region

[@canyoustayupallnightstudyt6535]

And you're very pretty (◍•ᴗ•◍)

[@meryamle6270]

Omg you ruined your hair 🙄😱

[@brownlatinaa46]

People who dont live with their parents are sooooo selfish, living with parents soo much benefit save money, your learn adjustment, compromise, having everything you want all the time leads to detriment remeember that

[@merakicedarwoods]

If it's toxic then they have every right to leave. I will not feel guilty once im outta this hellhole

[@brownlatinaa46]

so sad in this culture kids are obsessed with moving out, think about your mother id happily give away 90 percent of my freedom in order to take care of my mom and be with her, our generation needs to learn to be more adjusting and accepting

[@canyoustayupallnightstudyt6535]

You don't even know her personal life or the things she has been through. So it's better not to speak

[@aqadion]

exactly. you have no idea. people. have no idea what it means to have a toxic mother or family. that's why persons suffer even more!!! it's still a tabu.

[@jocelynhernandez8916]

Breaking generational curses that’s why you don’t know what circumstances someone may be in

[@tongbramkubersingh9033]

Thank you so freakin much,niky🤎