I Hate Having to Make this Video

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Prayers Needed...Breaking Down the Worst Day of My Life: • Prayers Needed- Breaki...
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Hi I'm Brian with Next Level Homestead. If this is your first time here... welcome! I'm glad you're here! If you're a longtime friend, welcome back!!
For most of my life I was a city boy, gardening in the suburbs. I was the first generation in my family to not grow up on a farm and somehow it was still there inside me. So now my wife Emilie, son Noah and I have moved to a small farm (at least it will be) and we're documenting our journey on this channel. Building gardens and chicken coops, buying a dairy cow and who knows what else lies in store. But we can't wait to take you with us!
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[@kathleenpalmer845]

All we viewers are wrapping our arms around you in a very BIG HUG. I know well the dread of gripping anxiety …. Surround yourself with your family, fur babies and friends. Being outside has always helped me and especially keeping busy as you are. It WILL get better. 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@marygrott8095]

Absolutely!!! I so wish I could have reached through the screen and hugged him!!

[@adairsulhoff5405]

I have said this before, but my mom had a dissecting aneurysm and survived. She is a gardener, and I believe that had something to do with it. All we can do is embrace those we love, embody our beliefs, and share things we are passionate about and find joy in. Which you do and share with us all. More people are lifting you up than you know.❤

[@leonalarson1598]

You're not alone

[@debrapomeroy7235]

You got this! You have done everything right. So please be kind to yourself n relax. Trust God, your docs , and a good supportive spouse. Sending love n hugs.

[@myrnaedmisten599]

Thanks for sharing, Brian. My husband has medical anxiety so this message is for dear Emily. I’m 84, Emily. Blessings on you and Brian. My advice, keep your sense of humor Girl! It is a gift to both of you. Laughter with compassion is great medicine! ❤❤

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 🩷

[@garydunn4325]

My best friend's husband has a aneurysm, about 15 years ago.... he's almost 80 now and doing great ...he did have surgery! Praying everything goes well 😊

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@youngestkid2674]

Maybe you guys could start some new family traditions at this time to replace the trauma. 💗💗

[@Jesus.Freak.N.Ketovore]

Brian, I personally have not had to deal with an aneurysm. However, I have known several who have. One of whom is my brother in love, Bill. He did have to have a procedure to repair them and is doing fine. Just like you, Bill has to have an MRI and wait for the results. Yes, waiting IS the most difficult part. You have done a great thing here by sharing your story and the battle you have with anxiety. It's the first step! Praise God! My wife Barbara and I will be praying for you and your family. Asking Him to give you peace beyond our understanding! Also praying for a good report from your doctor! Good to hear you are keeping yourself busy! I'm looking forward to seeing the results! Love your content! Be thankful, be safe, and God bless!

[@juliepizzolato1911]

Suffering with anxiety is a burden that keeps on giving...I empathize 1000%...We love you and your priceless wife and loving son...And all you do and share with us is deeply meaningful. ❤️ 💚🌿

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@theresaparodi6027]

Emily is so funny - “this is Brian on drugs”. She’s hilarious! Thanks for sharing. Talking about our most person experiences is very courageous and as you know, helps with healing. I, in the past, have used yoga to get through tough, dark times. There were lots of men participating and even my husband wanted to go. Wishing you and your family health and happiness ❤

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@robertjohnson4995]

Brian, I am not a doctor but I worked in several very prestigious hospitals (Including Vanderbilt) in Nashville, Houston, Atlanta, Charleston, Washington D.C., etc. in information technology for many years working alongside of all kinds of doctors, nurses, specialists, etc.. While I am retired now, I can tell you that when tests like yours are done, you can be sure that if you had something show up really bad, they would immediately roll you to the E.R. and assign you to a bed - you would definitely not be sent home so soon. So, what I have learned is the longer you wait on a result, the less likely it is to be urgent. I know this sounds counter intuitive and it drives you batty, but that is my experience dealing with the medical establishment. No doctor worth his/her salt is going to risk their carreer on delaying test results that may be fatal. I hope this helps, stay busy and keep postive. Our prayers are with you.

[@juneramirez8580]

I truly believe in WHAT YOU ARE saying about tests. I had to keep telling myself the same thing waiting for the results of my PET scan recently to tell me if my throat cancer was gone. No signs of cancer at this time.

[@Jane-West]

​@@juneramirez8580❤❤❤

[@sandrabrown6860]

This @robertjohnson. Sure told you the TRUTH. I just had this experience. Long story short....I was sick a month ago and ambulance took me to Hospital and told that I had to have surgery, immediately, that same day... WHAT 😮 and now I am all better 😊😍

[@karenroot450]

@@juneramirez8580I am happy you were clear of the throat cancer. That is a terrible cancer. Bless you!

[@fraserkdm]

I know how you feel Brian I also have a brain aneurism and I have to go for my scan on the 16th. I have had it now for 3 years. I also suffer with anxiety and ptsd. It’s hard to explain to other people what you’re going through but you made me feel better with your explanation. It’s nice to know I’m not alone with this issue.

[@stephaniebalducci6248]

❤

[@debbieflores7256]

I just posted my aneurysm story here. I hope you can find some hope through my sharing.

[@reginacalla]

Hang in there. This is totally understandable! Hugs! I had a year in which I got divorced, laid off, a mentor died, and had to move to a different State (with 2 young kids). I had to move LITERALLY the day of my mentor's funeral. It was spring and for years I had physical manifestations of anxiety every spring. It's been almost 9 years now. It's gotten better (thank you therapy)! It's not all gone but it'll get better! In fact GARDENING, a SPRING activity, has really helped with the healing! Praying for peace for you.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@djeoutdoors]

I remember when you shared this news with us and how I went into prayer mode right away. You have done amazingly and God is continuing to bless you every day. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Stay positive & believe in yourself, you got this 👍

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you so much!

[@johnc6228]

Brian, You are doing awesome! Your positive attitude and smile make so many people happy. Your healthy lifestyle of physical activity, fresh food, animal vibes therapy and all while surrounded by your loving family is a big help. Thank you for all you do.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@kimvanrheenen7301]

I can relate to your fears. I have had 4 strokes and lived in a Nursing Home for several years while I was in my 50s. I live with those fears every day that It will happen again. I am happy to say that I have bought a house and a car and am living independently, something that I never thought I would do again. My point is, fears can be tackled and dealt with. I do what I enjoy, gardening and painting and I have good friends that I can turn to. God bless you and happy gardening.

[@rickl9253]

Sending prayers while you wait, Brian. I've been going through a similar experience because of prostate cancer. I have had more scans, scopes and biopsies in the last two years than I've had in my entire life before the diagnosis. My providers have a web site where they post results usually within the same day of the test. Only drawback was I had to find out I had cancer all on my own, by reading a radiologist's report. You know that you have a HUGE community of followers who are concerned about you.

[@carolpursley2901]

My best friend was diagnosis with 2 aneurysms when she had a concussion and they found them. That was 20 years ago She has had one completely resolve and no changes in the second one. Hang in there.Sending prayers for good results.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@Tracysop1]

I understand your thoughts and anxiety completely. I had cancer in 2011/2012. (I’m completely cancer free now.) The first few years after recovery I would have a PTSD reaction as my mammogram would approach. I even changed facilities for my mammos, because it brought back so many bad memories to sit in that waiting room. I can tell you that it got better each year, and now I feel only the slightest twinge of nerves on the day of the exam. Each year of good reports adds up to the positive evidence your brain needs to feel safe again. You will get there. I’m already praying for you and for a speedy and good report.

[@luzamart2]

Being honest about anxiety is always hard. Thinking about procedures that are diagnostic is hard. Having a loving and caring partner is super important. Kudos to you and Emilee for that. Sending prayers for positive outcomes.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@user-wh1tk1eh8p]

I haven't seen the video yet, but I hope you're health is okay. So I'm finally at the point of the video where you've spoken about your health, and now you're talking about your land and your fabulous work. And I can't think about anything but your health. I also have ADHD, and had cancer a few years ago and am still testing annually to make sure it's not back. And for days I stress. And STRESS!!! Emily is a God send. And you live life the way it was meant to be lived. Fully. With love and kindness. And you share that love with all of us. And we love you back. All the best. And prayers as well. And I'll wait on the edge of my seat for the video that says you'll be working on the Japanese garden soon. Woohoo! Spring is coming!

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 🙂

[@mariadeleon7832]

Continue surrounding yourself with your loved ones and positive friends. Most of all, continue to pet and hug your beautiful fur babies, digging your hands in the dirt, hugging Emily and your son. Sending lots of light, and a big hug. Hang in there❤

[@agnieszkaszczepanska6071]

Brian, you have an army of people who are praying for you and rooting for everything to be just great! I know because here in Texas I can count at least 10 of my close friends who know about you through me, who follow your adventures and pray for you to relax and trust God! And this is just people I keep in touch daily. There is many more who come to my garden, my chicken people and it’s just little Belton Texas. We all love your ideas, their execution and look forward to every video! You are the talk of the town my friend 😄 Very thankful to have you and your beautiful family in my life!

[@ravensmoonlite]

I do know how you are feeling. I have terrible anxiety and I have been to therapy to try to NOT think ahead and think of only distastrous things. I am praying for you!! I know how you feel and empathize with you. Hang in there. God has a plan for your live and you have positively helped me so much. Because of your next level gardening show, I started a container garden this year and it helped me so much emotionally and the garden was a great success and looking forward to spring to start another one!! Thank you and hang in there!!!!

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you

[@julseabate4173]

BROTHER YOU GOT THIS! So many of us out here are pulling for you I hope you can feel it, at least a little...as for myself, you have helped me so much, my garden is my bliss and your gentle guidance is so much a part of it!

[@Tydyd1]

Sending positive energy your way, Brian & Emilie! You got this! As someone who has dealt with anxiety nearly all of my 50 years, I understand that that is often worse than whatever medical emergencies that come knocking on your door. Continue to be grateful that you're aware of the problem, and more importantly keeping up with the checkups - as scary as that is. For what it's worth, you've got so many people sending prayers up or positive energy or healing light your way, and although it can be strange to some, I believe those prayers and energy and healing light - even from people you may have never met - can be a wee bit of help, even if it is just to ease the anxiety for a few moments of your day. I hope you get your good news/results sooner rather than later! ...and if all else fails, hug a big fluffy pup (or a small not as fluffy pup! ;) ), or an adorable little Dexter cow, or a tree, and just let the energy of your little world bring you the happiness you all so deserve!

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@mariegerdeman1543]

Keeping you in my prayers for a positive outcome! 🙏🙏🙏

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@johnmccoy2721]

I have told you this in a comment about a year ago. I had a stroke in 2021.... Watching you Thrive after your Medical issues has given me so much inspiration. You help people even though you dont know it. You got this brother

[@lindafreeman1687]

Anxiety is very real and to the people who say "get over it or stop worrying about it"...well, they just don't understand and it's usually because they haven't had to go thru waiting for test results like this. You are a strong person and you've got this. I hope the waiting time for results is not too long. I wish doctors realized how hard this kind of waiting is on people. Staying busy does help. Sending prayers for you, Emily and Noah as you wait for the good news...that I feel certain you are going to get.

[@gardenfreshtotable]

I can relate having to deal with Prostate cancer diagnosis on March 18 of 2022 and cancer surgery, and having to deal with the issues from the surgery. Gardening has been my safe place to go to occupy my mind from the medical issue and helping others. All my positive thoughts are with you!! Cannot wait for your good news video and the new year ahead for all of us.

[@vivlawrence5989]

Hello Brian. You're a gem. You'll be just fine. You have a very supportive family. Praying for you. Yes staying busy helps a lot. Keep up the good work🙏🏽❤

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@Gigicares7]

My Mom and Step Dad both had Aneurysms that resolved on their own. Praying on your results. Daylight savings is fast approaching and can help shift head space too. I can relate to a lot of the things you mentioned in this vid. Blessings.

[@weilandaj]

Thank you so much for talking about your mental health issues. It’s something we neglect and pretend isn’t a problem in this country. As someone who lives with ADHD and anxiety I salute your ability to share it so publicly. I am sure you have reached more people than you know because we keep these things so private. If you have inspired one person to get help you have done more than most.

[@lyndelgado6138]

I don't know what I would do if I couldn't garden and watch KZbin channels like yours. They are a great distraction from driving myself crazy thinking of all the 'what ifs' ,or worse yet, the " if onlys. " Both scenarios can keep me up with anxiety all night. Thank goodness i can reread your companion planting book and take notes from your gardening tips. Stay active as much as you can as a distraction and maybe being happy seeibg all u accomplished will raise your endorphins. Wishing you abd your family only the best! Take care!

[@sparkleflair]

Hugs and good thoughts coming your way. I HATE the waiting for results of tests! I don't know why the doctors couldn't just let you know, but schedule an appointment to actually go over the results in full.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@kathleenmcginley4827]

I know how it feels. I have had PTSD since childhood and as you said, it never goes away ( I'm 71). But therapy does give you a lot of different tools to get through episodes. My favorite is DISTRACT, DISTRACT, DISTRACT. Going at a hands on project that you know will clear your mind is the best medicine. At night, a good book or getting lost in KZbin works for me as well. You just do whatever it is to get through the 'wait for result' period and know that a lot of your subscribers are wishing the absolute best for you!

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@Angie-ci1lp]

PRAYER! Positive speaking into your world health. Having a conversation with our Father thanking him for where you are and ABLE TO DO.I have anxiety attacks too due to health issues of family members …I garden a lot,thrift shopping,rearranging my yard/garden. Try and make a vision board of things you wanna do. I’m sending PRAYERS of peace of mind. You’re not alone 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@juneramirez8580]

Prayer and positive thinking has gotten me through the horrors of dealing with throat cancer! My praying and that of everyone I knew had brought me through along with the positive thinking. I always make it a point to find something, anything, good in every bad situation. For me it works wonders. It took some time to learn but it was well worth it.

[@sandieweatherup]

You're doing all the right things, not overloading yourself/knowing limitations, talking about it and getting support. Every cancer survivor also knows the feelings you're expressing. It is real. Anniversary months are hard & we just do the best we can each day. 🤗 🕊

[@marygrott8095]

I have severe anxiety, so I understand it well! I just said a prayer that your doctor will give you great news. Will be looking forward to the update!!

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@juneramirez8580]

An up date we will all be looking for!!!

[@elizabethgreen5991]

Brian, you are an amazing person, and a real blessing! I continue to pray for you to have peace and quietness in your mind and heart. Praying for a good report from the doctor! 😊

[@yx6889]

Hang in there Brian, will keep you in my prayers.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@hoofarmorhoofcare]

I have an ascending aortic aneurysm and leaky heart valves, so i get how you feel! Positive energy to you!

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@kkeenan536]

Praying for continued good health, physically, mentally, emotionally . Thanks for the update 🌅

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@teresacisneros6757]

Hope everything turns out okay with the x-ray. Please always think positive and don't give any place to negativity. Thank you for sharing such a personal thing with us. We are here for you which we care and support you. Your You Tube family, Teresa

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@janesavage4733]

Don’t ever think you are whining because you need to vent your feelings and I’m sure all of your viewers are only too happy to listen. I’ve been through breast cancer and it’s alway good to let it all out when you can. Positive energy and thoughts coming your way from Sydney Australia 🇦🇺.

[@johnlibby7900]

Brian, 6 months ago I had cardiac surgery for an aortic aneurysm that had grown over the past three years. I had no symptoms. I had open heart surgery in August and I’m doing really good. I’ll say don’t worry, but I know you will. God bless.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you

[@juneramirez8580]

John. Sending prayers your way for much more healthy days ahead!!!

[@maryvanderwall4602]

You're doing great, Brian! I too have anxiety related to medical issues, mine and my husband's. You have Emily who is a great encourager, hard work to occupy your time, and the support and care of family, friends, and us, your online family. You are perfectly normal in your reactions. I am a retired RN and I have to tell you that most of the time, if the doctor doesn't call right away, things are good. Praying for you! Take care and sending love and hugs. -Mary

[@capeeddy]

You've got this, Brian. Thanks for sharing something so personal. ❤

[@kristinwest5378]

I love that you are "real" with us! I have PTSD and anxiety disorder so I get the anxiety part. It's hard to deal with. Thank you for sharing your journey! Only positive energy coming your way. I also gave you a shout out on my latest video-mountain harmony gardening 😊 you deserve all the ❤ you can get!

[@volmom2316]

That is a lot of weight on your shoulders each year. Prayers for good news quickly returned to you! I completely relate to the focus issue when “waiting for the shoe to drop”! Try to relax when you can and take good care of yourself! All the fencing ideas sound great! Hugs for both of you from TN. ❤

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thanks so much

[@etet4536]

Thinking of you, Brian! Keeping busy really does help no matter what we're anxious about!

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you

[@bernadettecraftygal2090]

Sending you positive vibes.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@bernadettecraftygal2090]

@@littlehomesteadbigdreamsyou're very welcome

[@zaretnavarro]

Hugs and best wishes❤ you're so strong! We completely understand and it is more than ok for you to take time to take care of your anxiety. We are here to support you! You inspire all of us for doing everything you do even with all that anxiety. Very proud of all your work on both your properties, your previous and this one. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ this wasn't negative. It is part of you and we as your gardening friends understand and are with you.

[@sanalmeida7782]

Anxiety is very real and so hard to handle. Totally understandable. Sitting in the garden and breathing in the smells and sights is so good and you have a wonderful one to do that in. We are all supporting you! ❤❤

[@GoAgainstTheOdds]

Sending lots of prayers your way and lots of love to you and your family

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@Cypressgal-2023]

I understand completely what you are going through. Everything is going to be OK. Love your channels.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you so much!

[@Syl-Vee]

I know a lot of people will sympathize with the way you feel. I have suffered from anxiety for so long that it has affected my health. Prayers do make a difference and I've sent one up for you. I'm glad you got therapy and I know you are not one to waste your precious time worrying. Waiting is definitely the worst, I agree.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you

[@cyhomer]

I’m not a big ‘pray-er’, but I am sending positive vibes your way, Brian. All the best. You are an awesome human.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you so much

[@lindysmallwood2039]

My sister had a brain aneurysm. She is doing great. She lives with family members and is surrounded by grandchildren. That keeps her grounded. My sis works a lot for a grocery chain also. Keeps busy. She also had cancer after the brain aneurysm. She made it through surgery and doing well. Her faith is strong and is doing great. My sis is an amazing person. You are a kind and gentle soul and my prayers are with you an Emily. Blessings ❤️🌺

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@katieanderson7163]

You’ve got this brother!❤ Emily is a heaven sent blessing to you. Prayers are lifted for your well being, physically and emotionally. Hugs!

[@barbarahasenauer2630]

Watching you walk around your property in the beginning was eye opening. It was a view into all the beautiful beautiful work you've done since you moved... Take a deep breath, you'll get thru it, I'm sure you have a very good doctor.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you

[@guntaweiland3428]

There are no “off” buttons for anxiety. It’s “real” when it’s yours. Positive energy coming your way 🤗

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@krisyates6374]

Scanxiety is a real thing and no fun! Had kidney cancer found by accident, lost my right kidney and dealt with the scanxiety for 5 yrs and for some years after. 12 yrs later I am finally free of the anxiety. It does get better!! It's like a semi trunk ran you over and you lived, but you just don't believe it's really over....and doctors telling you you're fine just doesn't mean much to relieve that anxiety. I hope the scanxiety gets better for you soon!!!! ❤

[@carolynahaught7005]

Have you thought about putting a gate in the section of fence you take out for tractor work. That way you could get a riding lawnmower through. You may end up with more tractor work down the road then you will already have a gate for the tractor to go through.

[@medtronicmom]

My husband has an aortic aneurysm that we found during an ER visit. He sees a cardiologist every year for images to see if it has changed. We go together to the appoinents. It is hard not to worry, but it is what we have to do. I have anxiety and depression also along with my own medical problems. I can only say that gardening and hanging out with chickens helps me stay steady. So, I garden and hang out with chickens and share my fears and concerns with my husband. We have been married 38 years and are fortunate to have a relationship in which we share everything--each helping to carry the burdens of the other. The hardest losses shared have been the illness and passing of his parents and my father. Sometimes you think you can't do another hard thing. And then you do and you get through. Take care and know that your gardening and farming videos help your viewers have an outlet-- place to learn gardening things, but also a place to sit a bit and unwind. Thanks for doing that for me! ❤

[@lilal3753]

A lot of people who have ADD also have anxiety. The anxiety actually creates something for you to focus on which helps with the ADD. Your brain is trying to focus so it hyper focuses on the wrong things. If only we could control what we focus on. Hang in there. Everyone has something. Bella seemed very attentive to you. Kiss her!

[@simplyme_inTN]

As someone who has ADHD and anxiety I completely understand how the thoughts and worry just overwhelm you. I'll be praying for another good report. ❤ so many of us truly care about you & your family and appreciate you sharing your knowledge, life and "real ess" here. Please don't apologize for needing to share hard stuff or seek comfort in your time of need.

[@jennaandparkerstaggs1113]

Totally get it Brian. If someone hasn’t experience the anxiety driven mental spiral, and the physical symptoms that come with it (for me, it felt like I was drowning), they can’t understand. What helped me best during my anxiety attacks was grounding myself in something that was concrete, safe, secure; focusing on breathing, focusing on something in my hands (usually my dogs!) and practicing some mental exercises to break the mental spiral. Also praying and giving my anxiety to Jesus. You’ve got this Brian. ❤

[@maryderleth7860]

The anxiety around this is absolutely understandable. I know while I was going through chemo and the following checks my dogs are a huge help with worry and anxiety. They just seem to know when we need them a little bit more. We are keeping you in our prayers.

[@DebzZi]

Hi Brian, I too have an aneurysm that is being monitored every year. My neurological surgeon is a highly respected expert in this field and a professor at one of the best universities on the African continent. He has told me exactly the same as your Dr has told you. Most people die with an aneurysm & not from it. As a former medical social worker who worked in a spinal & stroke rehab hospital, I wotnessed many a sad story from strokes, but rarely, from an aneurysm & especially not one that was being monitored regularly. I too have high anxiety (years of trauma work has left it's mark), so I hear you when you talk of your emotional state at this time of year. I experience similar every June. But I also know that I am in good hands and that it doesn't help me to ruminate about the what ifs! I try to keep busy, like you are trying atm, but also have found it has to be something I really enjoy doing & preferably physica..l. maybe a big garden project 😊 that tires you out and leaves little time for worrying about what has not happened. Your therapist has no doubt given you some coping techniques to utilise. I use the one where I only allow myself a set time (say 7pm to 8pm) to dwell on it, then I visualize putting it back in a box, closing the lid & not accessing it again until tomorrow. During the year, I am not allowing myself more than 5 minutes once or twice a week, preferably less, to even entertain it. Only in June do I let myself look at the 'problem ' more than this in terms of monitoring my anxiety. I hear you about the wait, I don't think Dr's realize the angst of the report back waiting period. All I can say is that we live in hope & choose positivity and therefore must believe we will die of old age. Hope you get your results quickly & that there's absolutely nothing to be concerned about. That's enough of an essay from me. Good luck, keep gardening ❤ Regards Debz

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you so much 😊

[@rksg2003]

Hey Brian we Love you, Emily and Family. Prayers are being sent for You! We are waiting for a good report!

[@larryc2483]

Dear dear friend the emotions are natural and it is hard to overlook, many of us have you covered in prayer. So, hang in there!!! I know what you are going thru, my wife had 4 heart attacks in March -April 2010 and has had 4 more since then with the latest being 12 /27/2022 at which time they started talking transplant. She got a pacemaker 01/25/23 but still in December 2023 they want a transplant and we go thru all of the emotions again and she now 52 way to young for all this ,and you are source of relief for me .I love watching you and the homestead grow. Stay positive and know that GOD is in control. By the way have you ever thought of simply moving the chain link fence and investing just your time. Most sincerely with LOVE my brother. All is well with YOU!!!!!

[@debbieduggan6796]

To my knowledge, I don't have an aneurysm, but I understand your anxiety. I 🙏 that your MRI this year shows no additional or worsening aneurysms. I also pray that God brings you comfort while you are waiting. We love you & your beautiful family, Brian. 💕 💕💕💕💕💕

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@connieeneix3891]

Big big hugs Brian. You’ll be just fine. Cuddle that big furry white pup to relieve anxiety. She’s a comfort animal. Every thing is going to be just fine. Look at all you’ve done on your place and nothing happened. You did a lot of physical work and you did it without even a scratch. Sending positive vibes your way. 😊

[@theresarounds6869]

I totally understand your anxiety as I have dealt with it my entire life, too. What I try to do to lessen my anxiety is to change my perspective on what is causing me to be anxious by making a celebration out of a difficult event. I create a special dinner with loved ones or treat myself to an adventure that isn't in my normal routine. That way, I have something to look forward to after or in concurrent with the anxious event. I like to think that it cancels out the anxiety. I wish you all the best 💜

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

That’s a good idea. Thank you 😊

[@ECole-le7we]

Yes, I have had a very similar experience with my eyes (eye surgery) and other things in 2023. And, yes, I have had what is called White Coat Syndrome for a number of years - around 30 years in fact. Make no mistake, White Coat Syndrome is a real thing, and my son, who is a physician, says there are studies that show that it is. My blood pressure would be completely normal all the time, except when I would go into the doctor. And a few days before an appointment, it would start to climb and go up very high when I got to the doctor's office. Over the years, I started to generalize this anxiety to ALL doctors, even my dentist. And my teeth are perfectly fine. Add to that in 2023, we had a death in the family - our beloved Cairn Terrier who was with us for 17 years - that sent me into anxiety and depression for weeks at a time. All that said, the anniversary of her death was Jan. 3. And I am amazed at how I got through the day not in anxiety, but in calm and silent gratitude for having had Kupcake in our lives for so long. No tears, no panic attack. I have to say that prayer, Bible study, and a stronger bond with God has made a big difference for me - along with loving reassurances from my son. I am not pushing that on you or anyone else; but for me, it has made all the difference. I have a doctor's appointment for something totally different from the eyes issues on this coming Monday. I had to call the insurance company today to make sure the new doctor is in network, and I was on hold for a long time. In the past, even a simple thing like that would have sent me into a panic attack with overwhelming fear and dread. But not this time. I was calm and cool. I say all this to say that I am gradually crossing into a belief system that all is well with me physically, mentally, and emotionally; and, if not, it will be. I am understanding that belief has the power to overcome fear. Note, that I have to intentionally remind myself of this over and over. But it is worth it, because I believe that I am gradually being delivered from the kind of worry and dread you talked about. And I pray you will be delivered from it, too.

[@dreamweaver8913]

Prayers sent for healing and help with the anxiety. Like others have said, I understand how that anxiety is. I'm a believer in trying to keep my stress levels as low as I possibly can because it can be like a snowball effect. Have you been able to do any meditation? Relaxation when you can get it is important and helpful. Remember, you're not alone. Hugs

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you so much. Yes, I meditate 😊

[@MichaelJosephJr934]

Love the door. Are you getting a talking horse? 🙏🙏🙏 The power of prayer works!

[@krickette5569]

A teacher from my church, whose name was Rose, Knew something was up with me. And she was right, I was dealing Heavily with anxiety, and it was consuming me. She began slipping little notes into my Bible. Notes that said things like "Breathe Krickette, just breathe!" another said, "Ask God to give you your Joy back", and there were so many more. The most important one though, was a Bible verse that reads, " For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." That one saved my life, She saved my life. I still have those notes and though I do still deal with some anxiety and fear, it no longer consumes me. Maybe it's because I pray a Lot. Not get on your knees and fold your hand kind of prayers, but quick whispered prayers as I go through my day. These days one of my favorite Bible verses is Psalms 34:4, “I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears.” It describes my circumstances so perfectly. I wish everyone could have a Rose in their lives. She made the world Such a better place to live in. You are in my prayers.

[@stefmcclure9386]

Keeping you in my prayers Brian. I can understand you're anxiety, but know that God has this and will take good care of you. Keep yourself busy and I hope you don't have to wait long for results. 🙏

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@melodieashton5765]

Sending good wishes! You’ve got this!

[@cindyeasterling6917]

I know a 92 year old lady who has had an aneurysm on the brain for years and she's still going strong! I hope this is encouraging to you in some way. Hugs and prayers!

[@earthladyadventures5018]

Sending positive vibes and prayers 🙏❤

[@julie-annepineau4022]

Sending prayers for quick positive results!

[@mburke3804]

Sending prayers and positive thoughts ❤🙏🏻❤️

[@conniemcgehee2851]

blessing you with good results ❤️🙏🏻

[@brendajackson294]

As a retired MRI tech I want to thank you for not trashing the MRI machine experience. The angiography scans don't take as long because they are usually just a couple of sequences. I just got the news that I have the big "C". I have been having scans and doctors appointments for several months trying to figure out what treatments/surgery should be done. It is hair raising to say the least. I keep telling my husband "I don't want to be the patient". I have been doing hobbies to keep busy. Please keep us in the loop on how you are doing. . Your homestead looks so good, even in January. Prayers to you and your family.

[@lynnmoore7438]

Thanks for sharing. All will be fine.

[@christinem4655]

Praying for you Brian. You got this!

[@wildzenventures]

Emily is lovely! Sending prayerss for good news 💕

[@storiesinstones]

Brian, this is total normal. Who wouldn’t be afraid considering the journey you have been on for several years. But waiting is awful!! Stay strong my friend and you have wonderful support from Emily💞

[@joycepaulsen4312]

Lots of love and prayers for you. I will be thinking and praying for great news and to come soon. Love you Brian and Emily

[@merryhaveman353]

Hope you get the results soon and can get past the worry.

[@hollynelson543]

We are sending up prayers❤

[@GrantStreetGarden]

My husband had open heart surgery for an aortic aneurysm and heart valve replacement over a decade ago (in February). That was very, very intense and he recovered completely. In September 2023 he had some physical signs that could indicate there was a problem again, anxiety came back for him. I remained calm to help ground him. He did all those tests MRI, the dye injection and several others. They couldn't find anything wrong, turns out it was a soft tissue situation even though the symptoms were alarming. I gave him many massages with essential oils and he did physical therapy to deal with the pain. I have the same role as Emilie for sure. He is much better now. Anxiety is certainly a big part and anything that can be done to lower it will help with healing (especially for PSTD) I like to do QiGong barefoot in the garden and he likes to go for walks. When I give him a foot rub with essential oils that is very good to ground him and relax the anxiety. Sending love to you both, thank you for sharing and best wishes for everything to turn out better than you expect. 💖

[@suemcculley7073]

Peace 🕊️ Brian sometimes it takes all our energy. The best to you 💞

[@gwendolynwebster7722]

Many hugs are sent from us, Brian and Emily and Noah! You all are in our hearts and always look so forward to your teachings and ideas in your videos.

[@pstogs516]

Hey Brian! I can have anxiety when I’m going through something out of my control- medical or otherwise- so I know how you feel. I also think I have ADD. My husband and my BFF keep me grounded. Emily is wonderful comforting you! Asking Jesus for a great report and continued healing. Rest in Him, May he fill you with His peace.

[@vickibarana7635]

I don't have any experience with that medical issue but I've had anxiety since I was 5 and I'm 55 now so it is always there. I'm glad you feel you can talk to us! Talking is so great - think you should find a therapist you can talk to every month - I'm working on that now too. Emily is truly wonderful but I think someone outside of your circle might be very helpful!! Xanax does that to me too! LOL. Totally get the posts on the chain link - OMG they are soooo hard to get out!!

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you!

[@jessedillin5724]

Brian I can relate with the Anxiety and ADHD. It becomes very hard to not fixate on that thing that is causing the anxiety. It can make your body bonkers. Hope all turns out well. Love your honesty and your content.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you

[@vivmontet3184]

Hugs & prayers your way & to Emilie ! I can relate with the anxiety!

[@90N1st]

Hello my brother, a year before you announced your aneurism my medical team found a problem in me. I had just moved to a new state, so it took some time to find new doctors and figure out what it was. But I have multiple aneurisms, behind my knees, in my carotid artery, and in my aorta. Unfortunately the one in my aorta is below my my heart, and so inoperable. Funny thing, I started watching your channel, and I decided to build a raised bed garden, I was 67 years old and I had had gardens off and on since 1974. I knew it would keep my mind off the medical issues. Well, now it is three years later. My aneurisms are not growing, but they did a carotid endarterectomy on my right side because it was over 50% clogged. The other locations have not changed, so they just keep watching. In the meantime they discovered I have prostate cancer *sigh*. So I am going through radiation therapy now. I guess what I am telling you is... Peace out my friend, it is the garden that gives me peace. I watch life begin, I protect it from the enemies (bugs and such). I revel in the sunlight, I rejoice when I succeed in a resolving an issue. I am not going to live forever, but I WILL LIVE while I am here, and it is the garden that lets me do that.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

That is a great approach. Thank you

[@tammywatts4798]

Prayers and good thoughts headed your way.

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you 😊

[@377caprice]

Thank you for sharing and being real! Praying for the best possible outcome! 🙏

[@littlehomesteadbigdreams]

Thank you

[@victoriaturnershoemaker3723]

Sending love and positive thoughts Thank you for trusting us with your vulnerability ❤

[@beth4463]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I also have anxiety (especially around health) and I know it's hard. I will pray for you while you wait to hear the results.