I Have a Confession... Trucking is DESTROYING ME

[@RoadHammer1972]

I’m always afraid to talk about this stuff because of the toxic super truckers who will destroy your sense of self and make you feel like you’re not really a truck driver if you don’t want to be married to the truck

[@DrivenTrucking]

I understand completely. The toxicity of KZbin was difficult for me to adjust to but it doesn’t bother me anymore. I just say my peace lol

[@sharoncross5993]

@@DrivenTrucking Thanks for your truth I'm a new driver from Baltimore you speak nothing but facts may God bless over you and your family stay strong for your kids they need you and that's what keep me going only thing is I don't have a support system but I'm going keep pushing

[@Nemesis19852]

Screw them man there the biggest Clowns

[@zekemarshall5964]

@@DrivenTrucking your peace is absolutely correct! I always enjoy your videos.

[@python2228]

I call them CB rambos ill key up at the truck stop with my maul dropper and bust their meter and they shut up lol

[@krisbryant7100]

Always appreciate your transparency. There is a lot of sacrifice in trucking that I think doesn't get talked about enough. Stay safe!!!

[@Wiseman478]

I'm a local truck driver and working 14-16 hours a day is extremely stressful. The money is good but not able to have a life is extremely difficult to maintain. Money is not becoming important to me now. But because of my financial responsibility I have to keep doing this. Until I'm ahead.

[@krisbryant7100]

@@jamesdelap4085 it has nothing to do with the virus. It's about being a truck driver. So you totally don't understand.

[@danielmwesigwa9652]

I am a rookie here and I was really into a bad depression with constant suicidal thoughts 💭every day , and one day I went to a bridge to jump off because at that time life had no meaning, and I didn’t have much to leave for, My family was all back in Uganda, my wife was bipolar and we kept fighting everyday so the American dream instead became a curse for me. I couldn’t jump off the bridge for some reason and I remember going inside the house and praying to God, I testify to you all that Jesus healed me from that depression and he gave me new purpose in life that keeps me going everyday. I promise he can do the same for you. “PRAYER WORKS “ JESUS IS REAL and he is willing to help whoever reaches out. Love you all God bless you Truckers

[@williamrunyan8431]

I’m 44 years old and I’m gonna be getting my cdl. I appreciate all of your advice and I’ve been struggling with depression. I spent 10 years in the navy (special operations) and when I got out I worked in a coal mine for 11 years 12 hrs a day. I’ve always wanted my cdl because there are always jobs in the trucking industry. I have a 3 year old boy that I love very much and I don’t wanna be away from my family for long periods of time but I want them to have a decent life. My plan is to hit the road for a year and get my experience and then get a local job. I just hope I’m making the right decision based on me having depression. Oh and I’ll be going through SWIFTS academy lol. Hope that’s a good choice. Thanks for being real brother.

[@Michael-kn5ls]

How did your plans go William?

[@robertallred2368]

Some people are depressed because of a chemical reaction in their brain, but sometimes it is caused by being treated poorly or just a life that sucks.

[@NavyLady82]

Amen.

[@SteveTpenn]

There is a difference. One is a mental health disorder. It's an imbalance of chemicals in the brain. That's true depression. You could be having the best day of your life and all of a sudden you're sad as hell and want to crawl into a hole in the wall. The other is being bummed out about certain shitty circumstances in ones life. Everyone goes through that at times. Just going into more of what you said.

[@bonedust68]

@@SteveTpenn life in Its all spiritual wonder, in reality we are just ghosts in a machine..

[@truemenimprovedaily]

Or all three at once

[@timothykeith1367]

Poor diet, poor sleep, lack or exercise, wear on the body like arthritis, lack of close friends - all of these things can cause depression, but its rather common regardless of the career choice.

[@TheRustyCracker]

I’ve been trying to tell my viewers that trucking is not a good idea for a lifestyle.... it seems fun the first couple months.... then it sinks in.....

[@cryptoanalysts5793]

Rusty ....where are you man 👨 You don’t vlog anymore

[@mr.butterworth]

I feel you must always be moving forward and towards a goal. Otherwise you stagnate, and any job would sink in negatively if you find yourself just grinding only for a paycheck. There has to be more to it than that to derive real satisfaction with the work.

[@garyr7027]

That would depend on what kind of lifestyle they want. Trucking is in fact a lifestyle just as much it is a job, in some cases even more so if you're all time OTR.

[@cryptoanalysts5793]

@@garyr7027 for how long you been driving , 2 weeks !!!! Any experience driver know ...it’s not healthy job Fact ...setting in driver seat for 8 hours on the road will destroy your kidney .. Fact ... 75% of truck driver have troubles after 5 years in their sexual life , and their spurn get weak and weaker from driving even if you eat healthy Fact : lots of truck driver start having social communication issues with other and depression issue I don’t know 🤷‍♂️ you guys drive in school for couple days and then jump on you tube comments as if you guys been driving for 50 years and you are in 10/10 shape and living happy , but any experience driver know and know very well you been driving for couple day

[@cryptoanalysts5793]

Why !!!! All your viewers think driving a truck or own one will make them Rich :) Not gonna happened :)

[@UndergroundTr33House]

You’re definitely not alone man, 10-11 hours a day of nothing but a windshield and the same roads in front of you, you have a week’s worth of thoughts a day. And the podcasts, audiobooks, and music don’t fill all that time sometimes.

[@NavyLady82]

Sure doesn't. Sometimes the silence is better but if you have too much silence after a while it works against you.

[@AKAK-WiQ-EX-8-1-9-7]

Take vacation

[@percyastronautstatus.8780]

NO JOB CAN SOLVE THAT PROBLEM.....YOU ARE IN CHARGE OF YOUR OWN THOUGHTS. I NEVER GET BORED IN TRUCKING....KZbin is FULL of content ....YOUR JUST A BORING PERSON

[@lost4199]

Eh boy. I was just thinking about getting into trucking at 40. Sounds like I need to do more research.

[@stetsonmoore7862]

@@lost4199 you don’t have to do over the road to make a good living. Plenty of local jobs that get you home every night.

[@lungelinecowboy]

I personally deal with this as well and wanted to share some tips that have helped me along the way. This is still a daily battle with me and will most likely follow me for the rest of my life. 1)Something that has helped me is to learn to love yourself including those faults. Depression and anxiety is a negative but it is also the very thing that makes me a perfectionist, hard worker, and strive for success. 2)People tend to give a big sigh of relief when you talk to them "real". Trucking is full of people trying to be macho and better then other people. It's a breathe of fresh air when someone can talk about stuff like you did. I find the more real you are with others, the better circle of friends end up surrounding you. 3)If you are becoming a truck driver or thinking about taking a leap into being an owner operator. Understand that if you have depression/anxiety it is going to test you a lot. Rushing to get out of the door so you can make sure your on time for a delivery Monday morning after barely having time for your family. Truck breaking down in the middle of nowhere. Months where nothing is going right and everything you touch is costing you money with your truck. Problems at home but you can't be there to help. This is all stuff that will wreak havoc on you mentally and you've got to take time to nurture your mind. 4)I for one have times where my anxiety and depression get the best of me. I've had to learn to make big decisions slowly and make sure I'm thinking clearly. Realize these faults and how they affect your business. Then put yourself aside personally and think about how your mind is affecting the business.

[@jobinglobin]

Also make sure you get enough sleep, and discuss your depression with your doctor. Medication was huge for me, and yes, consistency in sleep, diet, and exercise is so important. Thank you for making this video!

[@bhow5319]

It's real my man depression is an uphill battle for me as well .not any less man for admitting. Thanks for giving us the real💪🏾💪🏾

[@bigbaby4584]

Good video my friend. That’s why I tell people get your finances straight so u can live. People have to learn how to simplify their lifestyle because if you don’t it will keep u a modern day slave to the trade The idea is that you do not want to fall in the trap of working just to make money. The more you earn the more crap you buy, a bigger house, a nicer car that is more than your yearly salary etc. And of that has to be maintained which takes more money and then you will want to upgrade which takes even more money. So u then reach a point where u need so much money to keep everything going and eventually you crack and it all falls apart. If we learn to live more simply with less stuff we would need far less money and could spend our lives in a vocation, of which we love doing, with far less stress. Depression comes from your surroundings and the people u be around and what u put in your mind like watching the Media, Negative and Dysfunctional ass people talking about their problems and who’s going to be the next President and your mind takes control of you then it takes control of your emotional behavior and then your mind starts to race and u go into a depression state. Think about it what ever junk that u put into your mind that’s what u will get. You are the one that controls your mind u are the one that puts one feet out and one feet in. The man in the mirror is a mans worst enemy. The only way to fight depression is live your life like u are going to die tomorrow because once u leave this world it’s no coming back ,it’s over.

[@JuanAmadorfamily1974]

You're spot on with goals, I used to teach it to high school kids...goals S.M.A.R.T. (Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic and Time Bound).

[@planestrainsautomobiles3080]

I feel this to the core thats why I'm looking for different career options myself too much stress and isolation from friends/family not enough reward... stay strong man

[@NavyLady82]

Truth.

[@AlanAlan-pb9vl]

Some dont like change as they get comfortable in what and how thing are. But realize this change also spells ( opportunity) Learn whats happening and you decide. Be Captain of your own ship and your own biz. We do factoring and leases ( Cdn and US)of equip. Wife ( Philipino met on HK) does taxes and book keeping in Cdn. We do global online marketing p/t ( u can too ) travel Israel. Australia, NY ( 2 wks tour Build custom equip. Go forward. One step at a time. What have u done different today than yesterday to change tomorrow? How long can u " tread water"? Feel like y going down. There is hope for tomorrow. Walk on the water. The boat is sinking 1 403 830 4124

[@MsSAMMACK]

I wish more people would realize that career change is possible at any age. Being so miserable in your day to day activities and feeling trapped by bills only makes depression worse. It is better to down size and let go of reaching a salary goal than getting to the place where you feel the only escape is leaving this earth. Your family would rather have you and less money in most cases.

[@hurricaneog13]

I am glad that you made this video. I also struggle with depression. It's has been a factor on why I am not on the road right now. However I am fighting through it to obtain my goals. Our generation tends to make us feel worse about it, but I have learned over the years to tune the negative comments out. Keep doing what you are doing and you will come out on the other side of this happier and more successful.

[@michaelhenry462]

outstanding video, no matter if your a trucker or some other job we all hit those lows and just have to push through them,

[@christopherpeterson4224]

We are the most adaptive animal on earth! Remember that!!!! Lost 2 of my most loved over the last 2 yrs. And nothing has kicked my ass n gear more to take the plunge of change! Thank you for your honesty and content bro! You have been a big motivator for me for sure,because of your real-ness! Keep it up and find your peace in life ❤️

[@choicemas]

God got you! ALL THE TIME. Excellent video. Keep inspiring and encouraging. Above all things, put HIM first. All things are possible, Driven. Stay fresh brother 🙏

[@LegacyFarmandHomestead]

Thanks for keeping it real man.

[@jamieohara2307]

Brian, thank you so much. Your honesty is so much respected and appreciated. As you clearly talked about, depression is real. You are a wonderful human being for talking about something which impacts so many of us and unfortunately so many of us do not know how to address or handle this life issue. Again, Thank You! Merry Christmas Brian to you and your family! Stay safe!!

[@jerrinjose142]

I saw this video today, wow I started watching you as a trucker and then as the clip progressed I listened to you like watching to a motivational guru. Your words have power you know. I am a newbie trucker and already can relate to what you said about depression and will remember what you shared: stop negative thoughts, nutrition and exercise. Thank you.

[@rikwylde6074]

Hello from Scotland, thank you for this video, it was the perfect video for me to find at this time, I share your pain. Stay strong brother.

[@chriswillard]

You are the man. I have struggled with both depression and anxiety and still do. I am 49 years old and working towards becoming a new truck driver and your perspective about being a truck driver has helped me think about and process what lies ahead. I have subscribed because of your wisdom as a truck driver and your videos have made a difference in my life to know what's to come for my new venture in what you do for a career. I really do appreciate your visions and experiences of what's to come for me and my venture to become a truck driver. Just know this. Keep up the good work and all you do is helpful for those who watch. I can tell you are sincere in what you preach and all you want to do is help those who are about to embark in the trucking industry. Thank you for the time you have put in to help those and myself push forward to a career in the trucking industry. Peace out.

[@drelocs2878]

I can hear the sadness in the heavy breathing IYKY. Take time out for self care: mental health comes first. Speaking from one human to another. Love you brother. ✊🏽❤️

[@jopete681]

Seek the Lord and stay safe brother!!!

[@GreenHornTrucker]

I appreciate your honesty and being forth coming my man. Thats a large demon to fight. I know it first hand. The little voice can be an asshole. Keep fighting. I look at my depression as an opponent, as I am competitive. And I try to best it every day, don't always win. But I give it my all. Stay proud. Stay strong. Keep grinding.

[@timothyhayes2935]

30 years out there and i hear you loud and clear.I started to turn into a completely different person and it was not a good change.

[@truckerlittledebbie2603]

Good video! Depression is real and is no joke! Trucking can be very lonely! I love it but darn... it's good days and bad days! I keep looking up and God pulls me through!

[@Mijaycapri79]

Ive always suffered from being depressed too. Went OTR for 1 year because I felt like I couldn't make money for my family any other way. (I started driving at 22 and I have 3 kids) . I'm local now but wow the wave of emotions i dealt with. Wife left me in that amount of time. Came home to nothing. I'm local now and the toll it took on me in the amount of time really terrorized my mind. Couldn't imagine where I'd be now if I would have stayed out. Hats off to all you guys we all know the struggle, everyone can think we are paid tourists but its a lot more than that.

[@godspeedtransport5981]

Brian really appreciate this video. I know it can be very hard to open up for many reasons. You laid out a lot of good truths number one is that your never alone. Proverbs 18:24 John 15:13-15. Man be safe thank you for your time and videos and God bless..!!

[@jessegonzalez5267]

I’m with you on this brother, but we’ll get through this with God’s love and blessings. Merry Christmas and thanks again for everything you do to bless us all...❤️

[@DrivenTrucking]

Thank you and same to you

[@johnygsx-s7507]

Thanks for sharing Brain, mental health has been a struggle since i was a kid. And it still is, but my motorcycle and my daily walks keep me going. Those are the things that keep me from doing something stupid. And it's good to know that we are not alone. Even the little things can make a huge difference. Last i had a really hard day, and on my walk this elder man started to talk to me about how lonely he was because off covid. And this 10minute conversation we had made his day. And it made me feel good. All it was 10 minutes off my time, and i don't think that old man knows he made my day from really bad to pretty good. Still love watching the video's 👌 stay driven 👊

[@DrivenTrucking]

That’s awesome, thanks for sharing

[@christielawrence4640]

Well conveyed. Thank you. The Dark Place is difficult.

[@stoneyswolf]

I started driving when I was 27 and did it for 13 years and got burnt. Took 10 years off and I'm back at it again at 51. It's not the best lifestyle but my kids aren't little now so it's easier in a way. Working a normal job those 10 years just sucked. I had good jobs but they just get boring and I hate working with other people all day and the backstabbing gets old.

[@Jsteelies]

Lol yeah. I'm 23 but know all about the gossip and drama from working in the restaurant business. It always happens guaranteed

[@marynoelle47]

You are not alone. Love and light to you, buddy!

[@andrewfish6900]

Well said I really had bad depression in my late 20’s driving truck it was like a switch turned on and along with was panic attacks and anxiety hardest thing I have ever went through on the road.

[@willmann30]

I hope you pulled through and found a sense of relief and clarify.

[@aaronc.4468]

I get it, I had to step away from the industry once to take that mental break. It takes a lot to open up about this topic. Try to take it slowly and do your best you can! I hope you and your family have a great Christmas! Be safe driver!

[@DrivenTrucking]

Thank you! Same to you and yours.

[@AngelicStorm]

I don't even mind click bait when it's good...Happy your opening up❤, it takes courage 🙌🏾

[@shawnnorris3410]

That was Right on Thank you I Know this Was Two years ago But Man this is good Merry Christmas happy new year

[@adamcorbitt7195]

The fact that you have something new and looking forward too is a huge deal. Always moving forward brother

[@jaykoehn4106]

Yep same thing bro been driving for 4 years now and I just can’t take it anymore quitting next month selling my truck and going back to a day job and tbh I can’t wait cuz my depression has just gone thru the roof it’s time I do something before it’s too late

[@openroadamerica]

Great Video thanks for sharing! definitely believe exercise and diet will go a long way :) Squats, Jumping Jacks, Push-Ups, 30 Minute walks and a plant-based diet really helped me stay on top of things. Godspeed.

[@MrFriday83]

Not alone at all, thank you for talking about it. Personally I've found when I have something big to look forward to and it's a month or two away I fall into a huge depression where every mile turns into 100. they say the hardest part is to finish and sounds like you got something to look forward too thought I'd point it out. Winter is also a horrid time of year for me, the roads suck constant extra focus can't just sit and relax. And I'll add this people buy a jump rope, whip it out and get that heart moving a bit. Best of luck

[@PinayTruckerGIRLUSA]

Thanks for taking the time to share what's on your mind. I definitely agree with you. This is the main reason why I hop on and drive team with my husband. God Bless you all truckers, I understand this business is tough and I'm with you guys, it's sad sometimes. Happy New Year!!

[@shawnscott1254]

Losing Chris Cornell (and subsequently Chester) was a huge blow for me. Depression is real. Mental health and awareness is important, and only recently is becoming talked about mainstream (thank goodness!)!. You hit the nail on the head with a lot of points here. One of the reasons I follow you & a select few others is for the ‘real world’ perspective on trucking. You’re right, not all sunshine and rainbows, it’s a hard career, and from someone who also has young ones at home, being away from family is challenging. Thanks for putting it all out on the table Brian. Be safe, take care, and best to you & yours for the holidays. Looking forward to more content when you’re able. Cheers.

[@DrivenTrucking]

Thanks Shawn, same to you and yours

[@benjaminpulinaria3909]

Man you are totally right sometimes l feel the same lam a new driver only 2 year and the way l enjoy my life with my friend and family is changing little by little.

[@izzcarrasco]

Brother hang in there just keep in mind your sacrificing for a bit longer and you will be able to have a more of work life balance . Always remember is not always about the money but a well rounded life. Sometimes I imagine when your driving in some of these states take time for your self to do things that relax you just break the doldrums and constant repetition.stay strong be bless.

[@alexfleming6304]

Been there brother. I would drive 2 or 3 months at a time. Begin to become depressed feeling tied to the truck. Found myself developing bad habits. I became someone completely different. I didn't get into truck for trucking. Got in it for the love and once that left so did my discipline. I worked for a few bad companies in a row for about 2 yrs straight. Some family died while in this time, people I promised to come see. I snapped. I didn't care but basically I'm no longer able to do long distance or local because of the stress. Went home to totally reinvent myself without a truck. Trucking became the beautiful girl who seemed nice when you met her but once you started dating, she wanted everything plus your soul. I never attempted to have balance. Even when I should have stayed home, I never said no. Now I'm out of it done. The money isn't great where I'm at like trucking but I go home every night. My peace of mind is returning. I'm no longer trying to justify my mental scars with money. All the missed opportunity for love because I wanted to be out there. I feel you brother. I started a tee shirt company in the truck. Now I'm working to get it off the ground.

[@geraldsteam1056]

I respect your honesty with your emotions depression is something I deal with everyday

[@geek49203]

I got into this as a "retirement job" at age 60. It's a tough job. I'm routinely running out the 70 hour weekly clock, not to mention the various 11 and 14 hour clocks. Take home pay right now doesn't match the effort. Will it get better? I'm told it will. But yeah, it's a tough job.

[@harishankarvishnu2541]

Hay man good video and thanks for the life's advice really appreciate it sir...!🙂

[@kerristarr5498]

Thank you for talking about this, it's so important.

[@DonLockhart59]

Love your channel and salute to you Brother; stay strong for your family and Have a blessed holiday and New year.

[@dmaster225]

I low level depression but what helped me overcome boredom and burnout is having a goal and a solid plan to follow it up. If you're living paycheck to paycheck, any job will burn you out, it doesn't matter what it is. A good way to picture it is with Maslow's hierarchy of needs. If you're depressed and don't know why, unless it's a chemical imbalance obviously, you can compare that pyramid to yourself and you usually figure out what is causing it.

[@nunyabelsen7653]

I hear you, I suffer with depression as well. There are times I am happy and motivated. Then a month later I loose interest in what I was excited about then I get angry and unhappy. Then it passes then I am excited about what I am doing again. During that negativity it’s hard to stay positive. I hear you.

[@brianblack546]

Thanks Brian. I deal with depression as you do. The lack of a consistent schedule in OTR trucking has made it harder for me to deal with. I’m far more stressed at home than when I’m working. Before trucking, living a OCD life with a rigid schedule was pretty effective in managing depression. We are all a work in progress. Good luck.

[@SmittysSpareTimeProjects]

I've wanted to be an owner operator since I started trucking. Figured I'd get a feel for the industry then start to explore O/O options. But then I had a kid, then another. So I gave up the flatbed regional that I enjoyed but didn't pay well, picked up a regional car haul gig, soon to be transferring into a local car haul gig being home every night. Once the kids get bigger and older, I might end up going flatbed O/O.

[@bigbaltimore]

I used to struggle with depression and after three years of pursuing God I've been healed. I don't have any depressive bouts anymore. It started with reading the Bible three years ago. I did see therapist and used medicine for awhile but since then I stopped taking medications and haven't had any symptoms.

[@hidonvousspeak7178]

Facing life chalenge alone never has been easy for anyone and more for introverts who enjoys working alone, solitary people who likes thinking a lot , having sometime anxiety. Speaking less to our close, family, etc..., they know us like that... But We still need people often to be in touch with... Laugh , smile, spend a good time a supporting us in our life.

[@josehernandez-kp9rd]

I appreciate your honesty. I know what depression is. I went through it for 32 years. You tell me every up and down, every curve, chances I've been there. I am about to go on the road. Still looking for a good trucking company that has good reputation on trainers.

[@claudiajones356]

My brother trucker i agree with all points stay safe no matter what job you do , my old trainer quit and works for Fed ex makes pretty good!

[@JoseSilva-un2nm]

Yep i really feel you bro i have three kids that i hardly see 6, 4 and 2 year old. my first 2 years of o/o were very stressful and depressing i almost wanted to quit but i finally see light at the end of the tunnel i am really looking forward for 2021! Thanks for your great videos. Videos like yours is what keeps me going and i am really greatful for that! 🙏

[@gatheraround2620]

Whenever I want to make a change, I build it into my daily routine in a way that I have to do it. So, for instance, your point of the exercise, I was buying my groceries every fourth day during the covid lockdown here in Chile. That meant I was only getting about a half-hour walked every four days for exercise. It didn't take long to figure out that wasn't good enough. As soon as they lifted that, I started buying every second day. It's about a fifteen-minute walk to the supermarket. So...a half-hour roundtrip. Well, then I decided that wasn't good enough. So, I split my 2-day shopping in half. I get part of it one day, and the rest on the second day. Now I've built into my daily routine a half-hour walks every day at a minimum. I do that sort of thing with every change I want to make. Food for thought.

[@Smooth_Operator_83]

Great message I’ve served with a lot of brothers and sisters in the army that suffered from depression. On another note you are the standard when it comes to making KZbin videos as far as where I aspire to be and accomplish. No detail gets left unchecked love the way you use cooler phones for this videoTones not bones using talk to text always look forward to your videos

[@Antattack22]

I have dealt with depression bad out here on the road to where i nearly took my life in the oilfield just was alone no family would talk to me my friends either just felt alone and like i said almost took my life from it but had one person out of the blue call me and helped me from actually doing it i came to conclusion was just so burned out mentally not physically just mentally and also health related this industry will kill you if don’t watch yourself

[@Jsteelies]

That wasn't a coincidence someone called you. Glad you're doing better now man

[@prospect4954]

Most people sign up for the money but truthfully trucking can never get boring if your already someone that’s been committed to driving and love doing it most people do trucking because they don’t have other options.

[@CrazyCanuck91]

Dont be ashamed to speak up. Its a rough way of life for even the most optimistic, well off person. Your very strong for speaking up like this. Im glad you will be spending more time with your family . Take care brother

[@AlecDaStar]

I agree 100% I have had severe social anxiety and depression, not wanting to leave my house and couldn’t even talk to any without feeling nervous since I was 8, now 20, and just got on lexapro 5mg and it has changed me dramatically in only 4 days

[@TeddSpeck]

Lexapro is doing me a lot of good. Thanks for being open! ✌️❤️🙏

[@DrivenTrucking]

That’s great to hear! Stay strong!

[@TeddSpeck]

Thank you, man. I came to trucking after a successful 30-year desk career. Was lucky to work from home for 20 of those years. I did struggle with depression- therapy, Effexor, Paxil, then off the meds for about 6 years. Things changed a couple years ago and looked more bi-polar. Lexapro has been great. Meditation helps. Being positive about myself does help, eating right. Career things changed and I’m now scratching my OTR itch. I love it and eat right, cook in the truck. Exercise, not so much... it’s the next goal. My youngest is a college senior, I’m separated and friends with my wife. We’ll sell the house and divorce in a couple of years. I can stay OTR for months. And I’m comfortable with the pace and staying out. My girlfriend comes out on the road a lot. I’ve got wonderful support, thankfully. It’s a daily effort to keep the brain focused on the positive nonetheless. Be grateful to those around you and, importantly, yourself. Recognize how hard you work to do the best for those around you. You, me, many of us, strive to rise above the negative without and within. Thanks for this great video! ✌️❤️🙏

[@DrivenTrucking]

Thank you for sharing

[@akpanekpo6025]

I'm actually not in the trucking business at all, but I've learned a lot from this video. Thank you!

[@sweetkk101]

It takes courage to admit the struggles (depression) of what I call demons. Don't know you personally but trust you are not alone and I applaud you for putting your guard down to speak about something that isn't easy to deal with let alone talk about to others..... Stay strong, take each day one at a time, and just know that where you lack strength God is always there to give it....🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️ Love your videos!!!

[@blacklove79]

Thank you. I'll share this video with a close friend who is fighting depression.👍👍👍

[@raysegura6669]

I’m not even over the road anymore but I used to be. I come home every weekend and I still hate it, it’s hard to stay in shape out here it’s already hard enough at home, add sitting for 11 hours a day and stress eating and spending money on food because of it. It’s a really hard life, hard on the body no matter what and also hard on the mind.

[@timothyzimmerman902]

I would like to ty for your candid talk of depression . I to suffer form depression . I had open up to people not to keep so much inside . I would have died if not for my wife and kids help . Again ty

[@travis3676]

4 years in I have/had a good family structure behind me that is key. Over the Xmas holidays drama was stirred up to divide us. I belive the money brought jealousy spitefullness and inspiration among us. But its got to the point where its brought hatred between us. I am moving forward 😌 but the one thing I valued more than the grind was my family a few found out about that created issues a cause and yanked It out from under me. Luckily this kind of thing makes me work harder hopefully everything wi ll repair itself. But to me good vibes and a family structure at home is key. Nutritions good advice to. Stay safe out there it gets better brother hard work always pays off in every way 💪 🙏.

[@runitupfast8680]

I have a very similar issue sometime it leaves me not even wanting to get out the bed. The best thing that works for me is just naming all the things I'm grateful for in my life even the smallest of things because as small as they may seem it's always people who really struggle to have things we may take for granted. God Bless.

[@keatonjohnson263]

I love this channel I miss his uploads I hope he’s ok

[@ssmith87]

Yeah I’ve dealt with depression since I was in my teen yrs and I’m 41 now. It was real intense in my 20’s and it sometimes lasted like everyday for months. For whatever reason in my 30’s it started getting slightly better, but it still comes and goes. I drove truck OTR for 4 yrs. I loved driving and I still kind of miss it. The problem for me was in my final year, every little thing just started bothering the hell out of me. The asshole drivers, the rush hr traffic and if it wasn’t rush hr traffic it was a damn construction zone or an accident scene. In the winter you have to monitor the damn weather and driving in shitty weather sucks. The DOT regulations especially the stupid HOS! The thing that finally led me to quitting was I started thinking of how many hrs a week you spend not driving and not getting paid, but are still on your 14 hr clock. For example drop & hook trailers, cleaning out trailers, having to try and fix something or call and wait for maintenance, sitting at a customer waiting to get loaded/unloaded and detention pay is a damn joke!. Some weeks are worse than others. I started keeping track of how many hrs I spend doing dumb shit and not getting paid for a couple of months. I finally had it and said, “why am I giving free time to this company while being extremely frustrated and irritable. I tried like hell to not have such a bad and pissy attitude about things I can’t control, which was like everything, so no matter how I tried looking at things differently and changing my attitude nothing had worked, so I said, “fuck it this isn’t healthy for me mentally anymore”. Truck driving is a dangerous job and you have a huge responsibility, the pay just wasn’t justified either.

[@ReclaimingBestMe]

This comment speaks life to me!!! Thank you a million!

[@gusfc1842]

Add least your strong enough to talk about it. I thought I was the only one with those issue's😮

[@coffee11970]

Thank you so very much. Your video has touched my heart. I also deal with depression. Your video has helped me so much. Much gratitude 🙏.

[@markfloden]

Take care guys.. be kind to yourselves and others..

[@TheBuddilla]

I was recently diagnosed with autism and adhd, being alone in the truck is my favorite thing, it's therapy for me. I rarely want to go home... Guess God built me for OTR. But I to have had bouts of homesickness and loneliness but that was when I needed to take care of stuff at home, once that was taken care of things got way better.

[@luchorebaza1568]

Thank you for sharing your feelings. About 7 years ago , when I started in this business, I felt like shit !! Even though I never drove for anyone other than myself , I’m an o/o 100% independent. Quickly , I found out a better way to disípate my depression. I pick the loads and places that I want to go . If I get the money that I want , I haul it , otherwise I stay home .to make my driving journey I bought me a guitar , harmonica , soccer ball , good books , I listened and watch educational videos and now I love this job . I run about 60. To 70,000 miles per year the most and I gross over 200,000 per year . I run reefer. I wish you the best and keep sharing with us .

[@dumbmecanic01]

Thanks for this one Brian. It hit the feels hard. In the past when I have driven I have always had issues with depression but I’m hoping this time since many of my health issues are taken care of I’ve lost the weight I have and eating so much better this time o can be a huge success not only for me but for my family.

[@christianzavala7946]

👍🏻 Bryan get your own authority and start pulling Amazon trailers depending where you live can be home 🏡 every day light loads doesn’t kill your truck and diesel 🤙🏻

[@MarcDupont]

Not alone my friend. Hang in there and look after yourself. No shame in this. I don't have single family member who hasn't dealt with this and I'm in it every day. Being honest about it will bring you allies from the oddest places.

[@royfredericks2231]

True words, I try to be home every other weekend to cope with the isolation. I do have an apartment that I pay for but it's an oasis in the desert when I'm not in a truck. Found out it's not all about the money because at the end of the day we will die leaving it behind. With that being said I try new hobbies, fishing, playing music, sewing, creating new channels on YT, Investing, going to the Gym, trying new recipes, play keyboard, reading. I did not mention anything about family or friends because it's very important to make sure I am standing first so as to support others. Be blessed and keep Trucking

[@ReclaimingBestMe]

Thanks for sharing!!!( another excellent video with content we can related to on a daily basis)

[@bugnut82]

Shoot, I am a corporate pilot and I am tired of my job too. I have my Class A test July 6TH. I have the opportunity to drive for a local tanker company, Mon-Fri. I know we all burn out at one point or another, but all I know is I have always loved trucks ever since a little kid. When I drive that trainer truck I absolutely love it. My wife has noticed that I have a genuine passion for trucking, she can't say the same thing for flying. In fact, I have a trip tomorrow and I am hating life right now, I would much rather drive. Well, soon enough I will be able to make my career change! And most people think I am crazy for giving up flying for trucking, but this is my life and I know what I want to do.

[@micangeles3752]

What's up my friend wanted the best videos you've ever done , Continue the good work of helping Drivers Without they do their job do their job within and also outwardly . It took a lot of curse to make this video God-bless you my friend be safe .

[@silvertrucker7942]

Great video!!!..... I came off long haul in July to run regional, best thing I could have done for myself. Stay safe brother!!

[@jimphelps100]

Your best video yet. 100% spot on to what trucking is all about.

[@carrotbailey]

IT TAKES A REAL MAN TO SHOW THIS SIDE OF YOURSELF. I ADMIRE YOU AND I LOVE YOU MY BROTHER. BE GOOD TO YOURSELF, YOU DESERVE IT

[@michaelboyle9512]

Brother, I don't talk to people about this. I'm now a flatbed driver with a mega-carrier as a new guy in the profession. It is tough man. I was in the army before this, and frequently did long business trips before, but something about this is tough. Combat arms military wasn't tough. This is mentally rough on a person. It's why I joke a lot. It's why I comment on all of your videos. Your 1 of few people who can relate to what is going on at this phase. I'm with ya. Also, you and Eric helped me into this career. I need you to help me along the way. It's going to be a lot of advice for a long time. You've got the door in the fog brother.

[@downtownsmokeout]

Been there. There now. Your content is very appreciated.

[@downtownsmokeout]

Truly appreciate the courage it took to make this. And the optimism. You've helped me an enormous amount in deciding whether to pursue a trucking career.

[@thisguytrucks3317]

You got this bud on to 2021

[@ahmedjamal3993]

Thanks sir, all what you have said is true for trucking Business. How ever , it is a manageable and controble. For example, 1. 30 min. Any kind of exercise I believe every truck driver can do but we don't instead we are busy our smart phones. 2. Look around better spend time when you are looking for contractors, dedicated routs, etc. There are nice paying ones out there don't jump the first one you found. Sometimes Brokers may tell you $2 per mile but after negotiation you may ended up $3.3 p/m 3. If you owner operator make sure to add your license with Hazmat endorsement. Personally, having it gave me a huge deal. I do dedicated rout 4.5 hours a trip 9 h ours round trip, home with kids everyday , and make similar or sometimes more if I go over the road and miss the family 2-3 weeks. 4. Nutrition is important less Donuts, sweets, less all sugary stuff, etc. To be healthy. Otherwise, the body will accumulate all these unhealthy food and it will hunt you back. 5. Drinking more water and less colored drinks such soda, juicy. Don't worry about that you may need frequently restroom if you drink more water. Who cares if you stop for restroom and lost in about 10min. or less. But, your health is long term. Some drivers losing 10 min is more important than drinking more water stopping for restroom. ( bad idea) list can go on and on but just take care yourself so you can support yourself , your family ,and community at large. 6. 7. 8.

[@RodeoJoe1981]

Praying for you brother thanks for sharing!

[@limplin7]

It is funny how you started feeling like that as soon as the prices of the loads went up.

[@greenbeld]

This is great. Can also be applied if your not a trucker.

[@diamondd83]

Thank you for your time and video, greatly appreciate it and very timely. Be safe, healthy and well 🙏🏾

[@pablosuarez4592]

I have 2 million miles plus out here brother and I concur. But take time for a vacation!!! Get on an airplane, and go to Punta Cana for a 3 day weekend at the very least. God Bless! Semper Fidelis!!!