I hope I find you again | Silent Hill Inspired Ambience

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@KostyaAsAve 7 ай бұрын

I was lying on my bed, listening this masterpiece and passed out in 5 minutes. After 8 hours, after my dad bumped into some kind of interference, I woke up playlist stopped right at the end. As a person with insomnia, I can recommend this ambient music. This morning I am a bit more happy and calm. Clicked to watch something about "Silent hill". Found a treasure, boys!

@nightshade36340 6 ай бұрын

Lol same, but the difference is I was having a attack cause of my OCD (it just went terrible, I wasn't able to handle it this time.) I did lay down with crying and passed out like in 5 mins like you. Really I slept with peace. All of the burden I have been carrying on my chest was like gone when im sleeping. I felt like I can live the life, everything can be alright, you know. I have no clue why im telling you. I suffer from imsomnia like you and youre right, thats perfect to sleep with that ambience. I wish you a perfect life, have a nice day. And i wish that you get rid of the imsomnia some day, take care.

@KostyaAsAve 6 ай бұрын

@@nightshade36340 Thank you, bro. I hope you alright. I love when find positive people in life, especially on KZbin. I wish you to find liberty and peace. 🫶🏻

@nightshade36340 6 ай бұрын

@@KostyaAsAve Thank you for your wishes, same for you too!

@DerHexensohn69 6 ай бұрын

❤

@jorgensentylor16 5 ай бұрын

How wholesome. ❤

@Heart-shapedBox 7 ай бұрын

in my restless dreams, i see that town

@Baron_Ungern_K 4 ай бұрын

ты в яйцах еще сидел..

@Tom.A. 4 ай бұрын

Silent Hill

@Baron_Ungern_K 4 ай бұрын

@@Tom.A. нет

@jaydenwraith 5 ай бұрын

hey guys whoevers reading at any time this could be tomorrow next year 2036 whatever. i just came here to let you know that you matter to somebody out there. you might not know them yet and you may never know. because thats just how the world works. but i love everyone reading this and i hope that you have the most blessed meaningful happy life. amen

@nothingpersonal3300 4 ай бұрын

Thank you, brother. I'm reading this at 2am. It's been a tough week, couldn't even sleep. But you made me cry tears of happiness and relief. Your comment made me rest for a bit. Knowing that someone out there loves you is the best part of it. God bless you.

@Brad02526 3 ай бұрын

You may not see this, I don’t think many will. I suffer from Ulcerative Colitis, I can’t sleep because of it and my sleep schedule has been often ruined by it. It causes many problems other than for me to have no sleep. The calm music you post helps a lot, thank you so much and God bless you.

@GNOTEE 3 ай бұрын

That’s tough man, sorry to hear it. Grateful to help in any small way I can though ❤️

@mijofeo 4 ай бұрын

Of course, it was good! That morning was a river. A calm but cold river. The sun came at the perfect time...

@pdnb4458 7 ай бұрын

Spare a thought for the people who did not survive as the years went by. We take each others company for granted, and dont appreciate the value of happy memories until even those, seem to fade

@jeff7389 7 ай бұрын

Listening to this while playing Silent Hill is painfully nostalgic. Those days were the greatest.

@jumana_elmabry 7 ай бұрын

😓

@hollyuses 5 ай бұрын

One day I hope to play it ❤

@shubhamnaik2335 6 күн бұрын

Play this music at evening at alone when you have just come to home helped someone special person ❤ feeling your work has done

@walterwhite458 5 ай бұрын

I remember bawling my eyes out to this on Christmas Eve lol.

@xen3588 7 ай бұрын

you understand the assignment ur vids are peak silent hill dreamcore.

@RonHutchCraft2 7 ай бұрын

Silent Hill Is Always Perfect..!! never goes out of style.

@antrezroberts8250 6 ай бұрын

Every time I close my eyes I can see her face. Memories of her slowly drift in like clouds swimming across the night sky. It’s the same dream every night. A dream I allow myself to be carried away by. I don’t want to this dream to end but time waits for no one and neither does love.

@StarBoss-1992 5 ай бұрын

feels like slowly falling down a abyss, very slowly like sinking to the bottom of the ocean if there were a tune to represent that.

@TheHEINKELwolfe 7 ай бұрын

This brings tears to my eyes

@DeepseaOddities 7 ай бұрын

I really like this, nice work!

@DionisisLib 5 ай бұрын

Miss you my boy 8.8.24 🕊️

@blazedrunals 6 ай бұрын

this is how it feels to wait alone

@marialee9021 2 ай бұрын

Silent. hill 1 is the most perfect place I've never been

@jimmylim5015 5 ай бұрын

Despite the successes we've had in life, we eventually find a way to darkness and isolation...

@charlieq2012 2 ай бұрын

I bought special earbuds that are for sleeping...I've had GREAT dreams with this video. I can't thank you enough.

@TheRealSolardisaster 7 ай бұрын

you're an entire marvel, mystery and all. Gnot ths is amazing. When I was 17 I went from of a dark period in my life only to construct a much darker, empty place. Silent Hill is inarguably, second to none. I don't think anyone would agree with me that in Akira Yamaoka were the blueprints for dark/sad/gloom/slowcore. Music for the angst of the esoteric emo-kid i suppose. But, when we grew up, those who did, all those emotions we carried helped us to rebrand who we were, by recapitulating those with a better articulation in our music - so we could move forward without abandoning the subsistence of what shapes us still today without ignoring the key points that, like our past, will be looked upon as we arrive at our respective futures. As it turns out -- this here, your work is the only bespoke and right guide as we all navigate these more tantamount challenges we'll all come across. this feels like a roadmap, to all the things we hoped to become against all odds.

@GNOTEE 7 ай бұрын

Thank you, I really appreciate this ❤️

@Bennymarks4th 5 ай бұрын

I love it its soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo So calm

@Skywardeyeprophet 5 ай бұрын

I can't help but imagine the Floatstinger boss is just chilling and vibing in the background

@apoletestry3766 6 ай бұрын

This is such an incredible find! It popped up in my recommendation.

@ninasmeadow 3 ай бұрын

i love those type of videos bc somehow it makes me connect to a deeper part of my self

@lxs3rr 7 ай бұрын

i've never played silent hill, but i have always loved the vibe of the game and watching others play it. i love these playlists as well because it brings me back to

@JHS270694 4 күн бұрын

Makes me nostalgic af man :(

@scottimo3671 7 ай бұрын

Beautiful

@ikty2581 6 ай бұрын

ty for making this masterpiece

@chvIry 7 ай бұрын

this is it chief this is it.

@GNOTEE 7 ай бұрын

Thank you bro ❤️

@StonedNoob 7 ай бұрын

I never played silent hill and I wish I did to feel what you all are feeling 😭

@b.o.3815 6 ай бұрын

it’s never too late

@delphine6016 6 ай бұрын

What they said, never too late!! I grew up playing these games, they hold a special place in my heart. The best thing I recommend is for you to buy a ps2!!

@KgYoc-un4go 6 ай бұрын

It’s definitely a good game by ratings but you don’t need to play it. Just read the story or watch play throughs. Either or the music itself is within that liminal space. I remember sitting at a plaza feeling stressed, paranoid and frustrated. I was looking up relaxing music and ended on a silent hill playlist. The whole time I didn’t knew I was also sitting in ‘lake view’ plaza next to the hotel. (Same name as the place in silent hill where James was at)

@elenatruj 3 ай бұрын

It's not just nostalgia. Try it. Try to get passed the visuals. The story is so so good. Especially Silent Hill 2.

@StonedNoob 3 ай бұрын

@@elenatruj I surely will. Do you recommend playing the remastered games or the OG ones?

@frostqueenmag91 7 ай бұрын

Thank You💜🙏

@starc0w 6 ай бұрын

Fantastic!

@kingfred3755 7 ай бұрын

This is really, really good

@musicestratega4582 4 ай бұрын

Este deberían de remasterizarlo es precioso❤ te traslada a un mundo frío y muy solitario una maravilla que no las hay con una música consoladora tranquilizante que dice muchas cosas acerca de la ausencia es bello todo a diferencia de lo que algunos puedan pensar tiene una magia encantadora te obliga a reencontrarte otro espectacular es el la rubia estás allí en medio de la incertidumbre es increíble en silent hill al parecer hace mucho frío le da un toque de nostalgia estás obras están bien planteadas con seriedad mola estar allí me gusta siento una gran paz y cierta agonía en armonía energetica.🧸 Estás allí absorto es inquietante donde han ido todos tratas de encontrar un alma que te dé explicaciones coherentes sobre este absurdo

@Charlie-oy8dk 7 ай бұрын

added to playlist :p

@Andyroo-1993 2 ай бұрын

This week alone; shower breaks, huge bill right before Christmas, my group of friends that I've known all my life have split up, a relationship ended and now I've just seen my neighbour dead with bottles of bleach around him and his head in a bucket... thank you life... you truly know how to make me feel like I am only alive to be shat on

@careyewart4413 2 ай бұрын

Sorry to hear of your struggles , will pray for you now 🙏 God bless you ❤

@RepriseYT 2 ай бұрын

This is at the bridge that Harry has to cross. Kind of a point of no return in his story. Fitting.

@jennifervazquez5865 5 ай бұрын

Its only been 2 weeks since we last saw each other The first week I felt fine like I could actually move on & not care abt him anymore Tomorrow marks 2 weeks since I last saw him & it’s starting to weigh on me & im scared I’m going to drop off the deep end or even worse go back to him I don’t want either & I feel the emotion creeping up in me the more time passes by It gets stronger & stronger how can I make it go away is the only way to get through it to feel it ? Feel his absence Feel how much I miss him feel someone that’s no longer there…. I feel like someone is grabbing my heart & squeezing it & the more time passes the tighter the squeeze gets & it’s already starting to hurt

@Deeguala 5 ай бұрын

Hey I’m going thru the same exact thing, only been 2 weeks since I last saw her & every day it just keeps getting worse & worse.

@jennifervazquez5865 5 ай бұрын

@@Deeguala it’s about to be 3 weeks & I just keep getting more & more thoughts abt him & I keep checking my phone in case maybe just maybe he’s reached out to me It’s comforting though to know I’m not going through it alone & that we can both eventually just move on & heal like so many ppl have before us it’s just a human thing going through this kind of pain it’s unavoidable but things will always get better with time even if it doesn’t seem like it Life goes on with or without them we just need to accept that a lot of ppl that we will meet in this life time will not continue walking with us through the path of our life ppl will come & go some will stay longer than others but no one is meant to be a forever Which I think it’s very nice to think abt being with someone forever but forever doesn’t exist I hope things get better for u as well as for me Stay strong

@Deeguala 5 ай бұрын

@@jennifervazquez5865 Yeah same 3 weeks since I’ve seen her. She doesn’t want anything to do with me, but asked me to go on one last trip together with her son. Half of me doesn’t wanna go, cause she’s been acting so different since we fell apart, but the other half wants to go. Stuck on it cause it’ll hurt me to see them one last time & never again. Hopefully things will get better for us soon.

@jennifervazquez5865 5 ай бұрын

@@Deegualaif it helps going won’t make it any better it’s like picking at a wound that’s trying to heal Love yourself & put yourself first when someone doesn’t want you in their life walk always no matter how much it hurts I hope whatever Choice you make all goes well

@xVøicELeSSx 7 ай бұрын

Cool thanks bro :P

@eyerza 7 ай бұрын

Who else thinks this is underrated?

@Oraya-12 6 ай бұрын

Thanks ❤

@XHUIZU 7 ай бұрын

hope i find you again.. as the darkness swallows me whole, entangeling it's tempting hands around my waist and arms. i fear the unknown will swallow me whole.. seeing salvation as no exit. i close my eyes to embrace it, as i fall further, and further down.. *sarah!.. come back dont leave me here..". a young frightened girl said, some how i recognized that voice. but i could not think of who it was from before the voice spoke again. *"don't go.. i don't want to die like that.. don't let this happen please." the little girl begged as tears swallowed her eyes and mouth. (it's me..) i opened my eyes and saw the young, innocent, and carefree me lie on the ground with her little plush toy she loved by her side, for some reason i had a lump that was in my throat. tears rushed down my face as i tried to swim back up to her.. "it's ok sweetheart.. im here..". i said wanting to let it all go. but i refused and swallowed the lump. as i swam, i felt something holding my leg more tightly, "let go!." i demanded "do you see it finally?". "do you how doing this to yourself will only let down everyone you loved..". the voice said as it spoke from the deep darkness down below. "i did it because everyone left me!". "YOU DID IT BECAUSE YOU PUSHED AWAY EVERYONE". the voice said again as it tugged my leg again. i tried to pull the mysterious liquid that wrapped my leg tight, but it would not budge. "sarah.. promise me you will never let yourself die.". younger me said again as she looked in the mirror with her plush by her side. i felt my heart race as it was trying to hold back everything i locked up tight behind a wall i made myself. tears swallowed my eyes as i begged to come back. trying to reach out but with no avail. "please let me go!.. i won't do this again.. please..". i begged.. but the voice remained silent. "please..". i cried. but with every please i said. each one became silent. "do you realise what you've done to yourself?. hiding behind each wound and scar to hope that it become okay?. do you know how much effort everyone tried to lift you back up?.. you just couldn't accept it.. always only thinking of yourself. wanting to die after your first love broke up.. wanting to die when everything got bad, wanting to leave because you just, could, not see yourself on the inside..". sarah looked up as she saw a hand trying to reach for her. "come on..". sarah instantly realized it was her mothers hand by the voice, her eyes widened as she bawled like a little child.. "mom.. im so so sorry.." sarah said with tears in her eyes. "do you want to come or not?". her mother asked again. sarah looked up and in a split second she saw darkness retreat from the depths and saw her mother and father on the side of her bed which was soaked in blood. "mom.. dad.. im so sorry for what i did..". she said as the nurses injected an iv into her vein. her mom and dad just hugged her as she cried an ocean.. the dark is never a safe place.. it relieves you but passes on to those you don't wish it to.. if you are in a troubling place, please seek out those you love even in the darkest times, they are you're only hero national suicide help line 988 988lifeline.org/

@indialogavel 4 ай бұрын

i just want my dog back

@JandersonMoraesFerreira 7 ай бұрын

amazing 🥲🥲🥲

@marcosmendonca7 3 ай бұрын

So cool

@weirdcosmonaut 3 ай бұрын

I have about 30 minutes before I turn 19 and i didn’t know what to spend my time on doing so clicked on this video and I’ll lay on my bed, stare into the void, and rethink my entire life.

@GNOTEE 3 ай бұрын

Happy birthday! We’re the same age for about a month :)

@weirdcosmonaut 3 ай бұрын

@@GNOTEE thank youu, and that’s lovely! happy early birthday:) love your music btw, your channel is my favourite.

@deadlegend3840 5 ай бұрын

I read my x’s text some nights to fall asleep and dream of still having the chance to fix my mistakes. maybe my dreams of us dieing old and a big family are in a different world. I can’t remember if it was a dream or if it actually happened. I hear her voice when I sleep. I can still feel her cold hands on my face.the feel her fragile body. Her sad beautiful eyes she was like a snowflake forever falling even if I caught her she’d eventually keep falling. never knew what love felt like until she left. the ache in my heart never seems to go away

@perfectakloey 3 ай бұрын

i hate love

@JLin_2099 16 күн бұрын

Bro, i feel literally the same. We both keep dreaming about perfect life, the ways we can fix our mistakes. In the end we both know which aswer they will give us, no matter how we try, but we still trying

@fives8 6 ай бұрын

perfect

@IdkwhyIexist772 4 ай бұрын

“I hope I find you again” is too relatable…

@ayeyochoc 6 ай бұрын

😢 I miss my brother, wherever you are, I'll find you in the afterlife 💔

@alanm6o9 7 ай бұрын

Love it

@TheEasterBasket0432 4 ай бұрын

Out of any ambient music channels I've watched this has been by far the best

@GNOTEE 4 ай бұрын

Thank you

@theoverlooktheatre8453 7 ай бұрын

Nailed it

@HeronKij 6 ай бұрын

I had a nightmare, the only that ever made me awake with a shout. A girl I knew in high-school who was a good friend of mine until a jealous lover purged her from my life was with me in a crowded area. I don't remember what happened but I ended up losing her for hours. Eventually there was commotion. Some panic. People started to rush, crushing each other to get to the exits. I never saw her emerge from the crowd. I hope I find her again... but the chances are so very slim.

@R3TR0--93 5 ай бұрын

the fuck ?

@gustavofontalba 4 ай бұрын

Keep it real homie you were in love with her

@garlic-u8p 5 ай бұрын

spotify please. i don't want to listen to any other music ever again

@GNOTEE 5 ай бұрын

Haha Its happening soon

@Kruttz1611 7 ай бұрын

This is gold

@AxeBodyDetailer 7 ай бұрын

Just let me sleep forever.

@DarkSide-Lord 5 ай бұрын

Tonight's the night...

@dantefernandez534 7 ай бұрын

Muy buen video sos un capo maestro

@adrian.bordones 7 ай бұрын

Destrúyeme una vez más. Si ya estoy agonizando por tu ausencia, da igual que me termines de hacer ceniza con tu dañina forma de amar; porque aún sufro en tu ausencia. No habrá diferencia. Sufro desde que me alejé y si sufriré al acercarme de nuevo, lo haría, aunque no deba según mi orgullo y dignidad, según los que creen saber cómo me siento. Solo tú y yo, callados, sin que nadie lo sepa, para que me vuelvas a hacer sentir algo, ya no me importa si me haces llorar... Espera, me acostumbré al daño, a amar incondicionalmente, a dejarme pisar, porque fue el precio que pagué para que siguieras haciéndome sentir amado. Pues a diferencia de tí, no tenía más nada. O quizás sí, pero te quería a tí. Por qué esos otros siempre llegaban a escribirte un "Te extraño"? Tambien los dejaste como a mí? En las nubes y luego los soltaste? Por qué siento que no he caído aún, no siento mi referencia. Por qué no renuncias a querer olvidarme? No pienses en el daño que me hiciste. No importa ya. Ven aquí. Te necesito aquí. Porque estoy casi seguro que me gastaré toda mi vida agonizando por tu ausencia y no sintiéndome preparado para amar a otra persona. Porfavor, ven, regresa, te necesito, te quiero a tí. Porfavor ven, ya, ahora mismo. Justo cuando pienso que ya no voy a volver a llorar por tí, solo estuve acumulando el llanto por días. No te quiero sacar de mi mente, quizás todas mis heridas por tí no fueron suficientes para hacerme ver que ya no debo amarte, me dí razones, las anoté te lo juro, pero aquí sigo llorando por tí ðdð... Ya me estoy durmiendo. Configuré tus notificaciosð... Lo siento, ya se me cierran los ojos... Tus notificaciones son una vibración larga, y cada que me llegaba una, que no eras tú, que era lo más probableð... A veces me estoy durmiendo y ŕr😅😅ut>ikporfavor, ven otra vez a mis sueños, me estoy durmiendo, pero no me hagas daño ahí al menos, f88nñnþ porque la ultima vez ví lo que nunca quiero ver, pero tambien recreé tu rostro, slgo poco comúmnfj pero... Ya... ya iré a dormir. Porfavor. A la mínima señal, regresa, te abriré la purts... la puerta a mi corazón, donde te quise para siempre. Rn99mñ=#(#

@greyfox0986 5 ай бұрын

It has been soo so long since I have played this game. Like 2 decades! This place looks so familiar but i cant quite remember where this area of the game is. could you telll me for old times sake?

@GNOTEE 5 ай бұрын

After the floatstinger fight

@aquastunzenaite 7 ай бұрын

Totally impressed by this.

@Joey-t6b 6 ай бұрын

Something has to change.

@Johny40Se7en 3 ай бұрын

I hope so too. In real life, not just in my dreams...

@Mirokon 3 ай бұрын

Huh... It's raining again...

@Johny40Se7en 3 ай бұрын

@@Mirokon Nope.

@trueimageyt 7 ай бұрын

Makes me feel like I'm looking for someone...

@angelicreinforcement3373 7 ай бұрын

So does the name of the video........

@trueimageyt 7 ай бұрын

@@angelicreinforcement3373 trueee.....

@jayfrommeloworld1526 3 ай бұрын

Keyma I hope to find you again....even tho you're in arms reach... mentally and emotionally you might as well be in another country

@Милонго 6 ай бұрын

I haven't even had a smile left

@Sailboat784 3 ай бұрын

Please come back.

@authaire 7 ай бұрын

Yeah, this is in fact it chief.

@eggchin22x78 5 ай бұрын

I meditate to this

@midnightparanormalsociety8630 7 ай бұрын

Take me back to the night we met…

@nolyik 7 ай бұрын

Hi really love that type of song, but the ads on video, that your choice or that KZbin who put the ads for "copyright" ? I listen a lot of music and i just wanna know of that work 😭😭

@GNOTEE 7 ай бұрын

I’m not monetised I’m a small channel so that’s KZbin sorry, I know it sucks. It’s not copyrighted either, I make all the music myself :)

@juliangrames8242 7 ай бұрын

@@GNOTEE bro your music is dope, would you allow me to use it?

@GNOTEE 7 ай бұрын

@@juliangrames8242 thanks! yeah you can use it for whatever you wanna make. Just give credit in the description ❤️

@SaveDaDrama4YoMoma 7 ай бұрын

Can you do one using Enter The Matrix Levels? That would be dope too!!! 😅🎉😂❤

@GNOTEE 7 ай бұрын

Nice idea, loving the peep vibes too 🖤

@SaveDaDrama4YoMoma 7 ай бұрын

@@GNOTEE thank you 🙏🏻 that means a lot 🥲🫨😱💗🥰😝🫶🐣🥴😂🎃🍀👻☺️energy never dies 😈🌹

@Alison_Faith 6 ай бұрын

I really do

@maestro_nora 4 ай бұрын

goat

@AvengCalifornication 2 ай бұрын

I miss her

@am_iyoursun2775 2 ай бұрын

You promised you'd take me there again someday. But you never did. Well, I'm alone there now....

@StarBoss-1992 5 ай бұрын

Or maybe how smoke moves in the wind from the source.

@__MPires__ 3 ай бұрын

I say here want I can't say it to you. I miss you and I'm sorry and I love you. Like I always did, like I told you that I would never forget. I didn't. It gets harder. I love you.

@iamtondro3747 3 ай бұрын

Me at the gas station at 2 AM thinking about my late older sister

@TraderCabuloso 7 ай бұрын

There's a perfect balance between education and entertainment.

@RhizomeRoots 5 ай бұрын

At the time of texting, i'll be heading out tomorrow and looking at shrimp for a 3 gallon tank i had bought today. Not sure what kind or how many, we'll see.

@KINGxTWIXX 5 ай бұрын

maybe i was not meant to be found.

@Sectorcomedia 7 ай бұрын

Is 4 am and im still trying to forget bout all, but my mind is a prison without exit, overthinking and asking to God ¿What did i wrong to deserve all this pain and lost? But is okay i mean this pain is part of me and at least it does not go away like some people that i loved..

@Tlatoani30 3 ай бұрын

tienen que hacer un remake de este juego

@Dark.Alessa 7 ай бұрын

Dreaming 🥱 🖤 in silent 🔕 Hill 💘😪💤 🌑🌑🌑

@sajjadmirzaee5973 7 ай бұрын

I was dreaming Don't even think about it how dark and sadness is that place .I remember that every thing was lifeless no color no future no hope no happiness ,and I remembered that I couldn't even breath. Besides just thinking about that pyramid head is in that place and its real. How stressful is it ?

@Dark.Alessa 7 ай бұрын

@@sajjadmirzaee5973 there isn't any stress unless there's an enemy or monster nearby then they can attack with harmful radio and cellular signals coming out of their heads and such and they always attack your head area, making you shutter and have to move your head from side to side in order to fix it back before you go unconscious.

@Dark.Alessa 7 ай бұрын

@@sajjadmirzaee5973 pyramid head indeed is real they have protected me my whole life.

@sajjadmirzaee5973 7 ай бұрын

@@Dark.Alessa yeah im agree with you Nothing is as same as before I have to fix it

@gigantimax6081 4 ай бұрын

As long as you keep them in your thoughts they’ll come back home where they belong, right?

@h4p3r Ай бұрын

i so wanted this to be that simple...

@h4p3r Ай бұрын

i hope i find you again... yeah, we're still chatting, still keeping contact, but SHE is disappeared. today she is a calm, almost cold to me woman, pretending to be my gf. but almost month ago she was so loving, so caring, so... ardent, idk. past she is disappeared in darkness of my dreams, in darkness of my thoughts, and appeared like a tyrant, torturing my chest, torturing my mind, my thoughts and my soul. I just want her to come back. past her. loving her. but the scars on my hands returned, sleepless nights returned, corrupted mind returned. from now i have only two paths: into the grave, or into happy old age with past her. but path into happy old age is slowly overgrown with thorns, and path in the grave is quickly becoming wide, almost hypnotizing. i have no more strength to fight this, no word of overcoming this. i just wanna be loved... or be dead. my family abandoned me, i have no friends and i almost lost my gf. i tried to sh00t myself, but i couldn't do this. i am too weak to do this. i cant repair my life, and i cant end it. im a total failure. i hope i find you again, Alina. i hope you will return, my love. i hope you will return...