I lost all my confidence riding..

I lost all my confidence riding..
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My name is Esme and this is me so I guess my channel is 'This Esme'.I make videos about all things horsey such as Vlogs with the ponies, horse care videos and edits of me riding to help other equestrians learn more about these beautiful animals as you never stop learning with horses. :)
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Casper 15hh 2006 white grey Connemara
Mickey 13.1hh 1999 cream Standardbred
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Toby - Black donkey
(Sometimes our chickens are featured too)
I am very fortunate to have all these animals in my life.Thank you so much for supporting my channel it means so much to me. x

[@feichannel]

THANK YOU, Esme. An important message for all of us 💜

[@sarahpieren7403]

I agree

[@kellyharvey899]

Yes

[@sadafsohail6395]

8

[@4everequestrian205]

Yeahh❤

[@nimnum1265]

aren't y'all supposed to be removing abusive people from the arena's?

[@phoebegeorgina8254]

I think it's totally normal to go in and out confidence wise. For me I had a month break because of lack of motivation and no confidence. Thank you for touching this topic Esme 💙💕

[@Jade-nj8sd]

I agree there is nothing wrong with losing confidence😁💗🐴🐎

[@YourAveragePjoEditor]

Exactly i just started doing jumps and I’ve done it for a year now but it doesn’t matter if you have the lack of confidence it’s ok to feel lack of confidence! :D

[@MyPinksheep]

I once refused to go to a lesson because I lost my confidence

[@tomhumphreys3112]

@@MyPinksheep me too

[@doodiegreen2927]

same, but my horse guided me through the whole thing.

[@claire0927]

I quit riding because I lost all confidence. I looked back and thought, "there are so many people who want to ride and can't. Why am I going to quit something like that and that I have put so much work into? I didnt come the this far just to give up!' So I rejoined. Thank for reminding me that I am not the only one who goes the tough times in life. I love riding and the gentle Giants❤️💖

[@Pebbles-Plays-WHI]

Awwwww that's amazing, well done for getting back into riding!! it can be hard sometimes and we all have times when we want to quit, i personally have mad many times when i want to quit ❤ Never give up something you love

[@max-xj7gh]

I am a horse person so I go crazy on a horse and I almost guit cause I fell off but thank god I got back on cause horses are awesome ❤

[@RidingWithRhi]

I cannot tell you how much I appreciated hearing you speak about the way the equestrian world treats one another - truly, I needed this right now. I struggled with this myself lately - there was a moment where I thought about stopping my channel and I found myself thinking of you and thinking 'how does Esme cope with this?'. It is so nice to hear you speaking about this with your platform. Thank you Esme. You are inspiring and a credit to this community.

[@ThisEsMe]

push through it, aim high, the world would be a much worse place without Rhiannon on social media

[@lizbelli8287]

I can tell you Rhi that many people enjoy your down to earth, real life videos. Though I would totally understand if someone decided to stop creating youtube videos. Especially with the stressors of every day life and even more so with what you are going through with Woody. I will admit I check your channel often for any updates. Even just a grooming video would be fantastic. We love Woody! I hope he is doing well. Take care. Edit: you actually have a new update. Going to watch it now lol!

[@RidingWithRhi]

@@lizbelli8287 that's very kind of you and it really is lovely to hear. Thank you for supporting us 🥰

[@littlelovee3056]

Rhi we love love love your videos x

[@RidingWithRhi]

@@littlelovee3056 Wow - i did not expect these comments. Thank you - it's lovely to see a supportive space!

[@Graces_Art]

I’m 13 and I started riding lessons but after a few weeks while I still wasn’t very experienced it would be our first time cantering and my horse took off with me. I soon after got kicked out of lessons (it was a group lesson and the other girls were learning way faster than me, so the gal suggested me to another trainer who later ditched me). I just recently got on a horse for the first time in months. It felt great and I even cantered for the first time with no hassle. This video is great for me because I feel like no one ever talks about confidence and how scary it can be so thankyou.

[@sophieandwilson7849]

I’m sorry this happened to you, it honestly broke my heart reading this. You need to look for different stables. Please go somewhere else where people are more understanding and nice towards all levels of riding. Try as many stables as you can. There will be one somewhere that you will feel like at home I promise ❤

[@Blueberry.the.cat765]

Such savage riding schools I have fallen of twice

[@Blueberry.the.cat765]

Both from a spook

[@GM-yb7hp]

You are so brave, you remember that about yourself. You got back up, you did not accept the crappy judgment of folk who have no business training if this is how they treated you, and, you said it out loud in a public forum. You go, little sister, you go !

[@diamondcrocs6795]

I fell off at a really big horse show and that made me lose a lot of my confidence and that video made me think a lot of equestrians lose there confidence so thank you so much esme your videos are always so happy, amazing and inspirational

[@Blue-cg9mu]

I recently had a bad fall, and a concussion and fractured arm later, I can't ride my horse for weeks, I'm nervous to get back on and scared that I'll lose my confidence yet again on her :( Knowing that so many other people, including you, lose your confidence sometimes, really encourages me to get back on with a bit more confidence than i thought I would, thank you Esme 💗

[@maizym7549]

In 2017 i fell off and broke my arm and lost all feeling in my hands due to nerve damage… i started again in 2019 and now i am back riding horses that test me in ways i wouldve never expected them to. That one knock of confidence is why i am the rider today. Keep going and dont give up!

[@DiiAM00NDx3]

Hey im feeling with you! My 5yo Sparky and me had a rough start as well. We bought him last October, when he was 4.5. In January, he started to not turn right when i wanted him to. Later on, he just started stopping , bucking at my leg aids and going backwards. Turns out I was giving him the wrong aids. We changed the barn and at the new one, one girl helped us. I started getting confidence again. Then, my trainer fell down from him, he screwed from a horse coming the opposite direction, jumped to the side, and she couldnt hold herself. Ironically, even after that incidence, my confidence grew, because afterwards I got on him and he was very brave and tame. But recently, our saddle hasnt been fitting too well.. The saddleman never had any time, and now, he seems to have a bit of a back pain. The day before yesterday, once I was in the saddle, he immediately started bucking, I wanted to dismount but tripped and fell on my lower back and hurt it badly. Then my mum lunged him a bit, and afterwards she and a girl at the barn held him when i got on him again and they walked a bit alonside us for the first round in walk. He was nice and didnt try anything, but we noticed that when we wanted to pull the girth a bit tighter, he pushed away his back. We all agreed he was in some pain. When we pulled it loose again, he was normal again. I also managed to trot a bit. I am so shocked cause despite a minor bucking in transition from trot to canter, he was never a bucking horse. Despite that one time I remember, when I forgot to fasten the girth, the saddle fell on his shoulder, causing him to buck a bit. So hes definitely sensitive on his shoulders regarding the saddle! And the problem with the saddle now is the exact same: Its way to tight in the shoulder area, he already has some hardened muscles... Now im feeling bad but also anxious: Were getting the saddle fixed, but the saddleman only has time to show up next Wednesday... But I dont want to ride him until then, cause im scared another saddle will scare him as well... and obviously I cant use the old saddle any longer in its current state... But Im afraid that he might become naughty if we cant ride until next Saturday... Im so scared actually, and im sad because we just started gaining confidence again!

[@kittycatdays8719]

Lisa & Carismo x3 have you tried maybe bareback on him with a pad? Strengthens your muscles well and maybe could give him a break from the saddle?

[@ankiariekert]

I cant understand how she is not crying when she says some of the stuff... I litterly cried 3 times. So proud of u Esme❤️

[@lilah_grace]

I needed this so much! I have been struggling getting my back after a fall and this video is so helpful! You are my roll-model! ♥️❤️💕

[@rockinrranch958]

Same

[@Piahollekim08]

Same

[@birogrenci5911]

Same, me too :( I fell off the horse hard and hurt my back. I haven't ridden a horse yet after I fell. Get well soon by the way

[@user-xe1mr4wb5k]

You havent even been able to watch the whole video yet n u already saying its helpful 💀

[@Lab_4_life]

@@user-xe1mr4wb5k your so rude! Quit dragging ppl down!

[@DianeLee999]

So many pearls in this one, Esme! I’m in my 60’s now, and I can say that life is a cycle of ebb and flow, with no perfection in sight. I get better at appreciating both others’ achievements as well as my own with each passing year. No compliment you give is wasted, and you never know how much good it can do. Be generous with praise and kind with your words. There is my two cents! 💜

[@chillinwithdiesel]

ok this really hit deep- also my friend just graduated from having someone help her with riding and she’s finally doing it all by herself now so give her a 👏

[@dianaaleksandrova6144]

Everything takes time, especially gaining confidence back, you've got this Esme

[@shvannon8223]

Confidence is something I also struggle with, I’ve always needed reassurance and tbh riding horses and the injuries can be very traumatic and it’s difficult to push yourself to get back on. And once you do it’s great!

[@tanyareid9034]

Esme, as a mom of an 8-year old horse mad kid, this was such an important video for us to watch together. You said it all beautifully. Well done you.

[@kirstytswift]

i’m so late! i’ve had many confidence drops before. you fall off, and your confidence just falls out of you…but, i always stay strong and continue riding. you all always such an inspiring person to watch. you are literally the best youtuber ever ❤️❤️

[@ThisEsMe]

You got this!

[@elisehittinger5358]

That feeling of being alone with your fear was what held me back. My trainers didn't get it. I actually started a small support group for people that felt alone with their riding anxiety/fear. You are doing GREAT!

[@KatrinaB2906]

This was such a beautiful video Esme. As a mum of a 12 year old girl obsessed with your channel, you are an amazing person for her to watch and look up to. Thank you for being your true self. ❤️

[@music4you110]

To be honest, this is something a true equestrian would show. Some “equestrians” always show the good side, and never their downside. Esme is showing us that it’s okay to be scared, hurt, devastated, but to dust yourself off and get back up❤️‍🩹💕✨

[@roderickleblancthedoggydud8568]

So true

[@touchdownfilms]

I ride a hot horse who is very smart and knows how to get away with anything and everything...I've been riding for nearly 12 years now and I've lost my confidence too many times to count so this really helped me with my confidence and so many other people will agree so thank you Esme 💞💞

[@evieunthank4994]

We all need this have been riding for 10 years and I have never stopped but lost my confidence many times so this video is very needed thank you Esme

[@ThisEsMe]

thanks Evie

[@evieunthank4994]

@@ThisEsMe hi esme I’m watching this again as I have 10 horse and have just been chucked of my 17hand horse at cross country and I’m so scared to ride him again ❤❤❤

[@agnes6657]

i broke my leg riding last year and havent been on a horse since then, this video really made me think and i really want to ride again! thank you for this❤️

[@jandavison7288]

Good luck Agnes, hope it goes well 🏇🕊️

[@agnes6657]

@@jandavison7288 tysm, i’m actually riding today!

[@jandavison7288]

@@agnes6657 that is fantastic news, enjoy it , take it easy and breathe!🏇🏇🕊️🍀

[@jandavison7288]

How did you get on? 🏇

[@agnes6657]

@@jandavison7288 as normal actually! but i did not canter tho:/

[@sophiapp8282]

i broke my shoulder on my FIRST fall and i was extremely traumatized i was a horse freak! but my confidence just immediately died after i broke my shoulder but i honestly feel as though i will get back into riding because of my utter love for horses

[@Mossy_shark]

A had a really bad fall a few years ago and I made the mistake not getting back on and now 2 years later I am still gaining my confidence. Really appreciate you making this it really helped me ❤️

[@corinastevens]

Early, love you and your horses esme. Such a heartbreaking subject but know I’m here for you!! Your such an inspiration and an amazing person inside and out. Stay strong and keep your head held high. 😊💗

[@meiwt]

take as long as you need Esme, I completely understand that you fade out of riding.

[@Evelyn-111]

This truly showed my I'm not the only one that went through this and made me feel so supported and inspired. It even gave me confidence to continue my riding journey further. Love you Esme!!❤

[@mcknightagri7282]

When you were talking about when you lost your confidence and had no videos to help you I could totally relate.I’ve lost my confidence numerous times all because I got dragged by a pony a couple years ago.I was very young and wasn’t the brave type.I eventually got through it by riding every lesson and hoping for a better one.Some people just need to find a way to go by loosing confidence and getting it back.Thank you esme I will use this video to help and I’m sure others will.

[@sarahnicolson6641]

Thank you so much for this! After a nasty fall, I've been suffering real confidence issues, despite being riding for a long time (30+ years). It's great for all riders to know that this can happen...and for small reasons building up. I hope the equestrian community can become kinder, more tolerant and supportive. Thank you for bring a positive role model for young (and older!) riders ❤️🐴💕

[@Lilly-kt5ze]

I needed this! Tysm for sharing this with us as it’s something most equestrians have been through and it’s so good not to feel alone ☺️

[@islaarnold6208]

This has honestly helped so much to know that I'm not the only one going through confidence loss as not coming from a horsey family, it was really nice to relate to someone who felt out of place in pony club as I feel the same way!

[@tabithabowyer5487]

Esme, this couldn’t have come at a better time, I have been really struggling with my riding at the moment and honestly I don’t have any confidence but after watching this I genuinely feel I can face the challenges and overcome any barriers I face. Thank you so so much 💜💜

[@marvelmadn3ss654]

Love you and all your animals esme, I know alot of people will need to hear this and you've helped so many people! x you're such a role model.

[@_Emmamacgregor_]

This video is amazing esme! Showing others that everyone has a knock backs and it’s normal and even the best riders get nervous thank u for this video💕💜

[@graceconnolly5765]

I’m glad you talked about being scared of teaching Joey the wrong thing because I feel like that is very overlooked. I have been working with a green rescue and I had to un tech him everything he has learned and was always been self conscious about teaching him the wrong thing again. No one really understood why I was scared about that but I’m glad someone else shared this fear.

[@duckiezi8503]

This is exactly what I needed! My confidence was knocked recently and I almost quit riding, but thankfully I got it back! I had no idea what was going on, and it's really nice to know that I'm not the only one that has struggled with this! :)

[@smelly.gymsocks]

this actually is so sweet. When you talked about you getting the confidence back after the lessons i cried. It just feels real

[@Charli891]

Don’t worry Esme, Push through because you’ve come so far, and carry on the family riding. I lost my confidence while cantering because my lesson horse is quite silly while going into canter, she does a little buck and does a really speedy canter. I didn’t give up and now I’m confident and jumping. Lots of love Xx ❤️

[@kyrameyer7659]

Thank you so much for making this video! I really needed to hear all these things as someone who got bullied and confidence crash, please do more of these! We all love you Esme ❤️

[@AngelicaNightgrove]

This was the most inspiring story/video I’ve seen in SUCH A LONG TIME. I am a very self doubting person, and I have always thought that I wasn’t good enough. This was so inspiring and made me feel so much stronger and energized to at least try again. This message was so important for everyone and it really shows that everyone feels uninspired at some point but the most important thing to do is “get back on that horse” whether that’s figuratively or literally. Thank you for having the confidence to share your story with us and it’s amazing to see you overcoming your struggles. Proud of you Esme!

[@avap.09]

This video is truly inspiring to us all. It’s always hard to get back up once you fall but when you do, and you go over the jumps that you fell on last time, you feel amazing. Awesome video. Can’t wait for your next post!

[@gracehorses5125]

I recently fell off when the horse I was on spooked. And after that I got really nervous going around that part of the area and jumping high jumps aswell. So, this is exactly what I needed, thank you🐴❤

[@nothingbutcailee2287]

Thank you so much for making this, there has been times I've lost interest because of bad experiences during riding. This really helps to keep me going, you inspire me so much and thank you for sharing this with us esme💙

[@sophiemarschner1707]

This video is SO beautiful. I'm sitting here 15 minutes in and I'm sobbing. Thank you for sharing your journey, it's made me feel SO much less alone!

[@brigidnewton5939]

Thank you, Esme, this is an amazing video! Your honesty and maturity in producing it shines out. I started watching your channel because our daughter has a grey Connemara pony and originally it was your ' how I clean my pony' ones I watched. But I love that you talk about not having a flashy pony or being at the same level as your peers at Pony Club, as I saw how this impacted her as well. Everyone's equestrian journey IS individual and our horses and ponies bring their unique challenges and learning opportunities. Long may you continue to entertain, educate and encourage the viewers on your channel. 👍🏇🦄

[@bizzybeeequestrian]

Lately my confidence hasn’t been very good so hearing this definitely helps me realize it happens to everyone :) Thank you!

[@me1234i]

Thank you soo much for making this Esme! This video has helped me with so much, not only with my ridding confidence, but with confidence in general. I hope you and your equins are doing well 😊

[@cnkequestrian5789]

This is such a refreshing video! I also have a young horse, and we've definitely had our fair share of ups and downs, but it is so rewarding. So glad you're starting to feel more confident again!

[@gracedavis7735]

Keep on pushing through Esme! Your so amazing and have pushed me to work harder on my own riding! Your truly amazing and inspiring! Keep it up love you!!! 💗💗

[@ThisEsMe]

Thank you so much!!

[@oliviaboivin4506]

Last summer, I had a fall at a show that I ended up in the ER. My confidence was shattered and I would cry every time I saw a jump in a lesson. To get my confidence back, I had to restart everything with jumping. I am happy to say my confidence is back. I am now training my 5-year-old ottb chestnut mare! 😁 I am more confident than I ever was and love my horse so much!! Thank you for sharing your story Esme! I definitely would have loved to watch this last summer!! 😘

[@lilycatherinemacdonald4814]

This video was so needed and I'm glad you were the one to make it! Confidence can be so hard to maintain when riding and being in the equestrian community, Thank you so much ❤️

[@aliciacameron9276]

You are truly an inspiration! It is heartwarming to see the love and positivity you share with your horses and the world. Thank you for making this video and being real and human ❤️

[@corinastevens]

This is amazing. Such an inspirational video. I have no words. I can really take some advice from this in both riding and school. Thank you so much, this has given me more confidence!! xx

[@ThisEsMe]

thanks Corina!

[@ballerinagecko5333]

I love how people work hard on there videos and it’s amazing

[@addisong.9910]

Thank you for sharing this experience! I find sometimes people don’t think it’s normal to go through ups and downs even with the things you absolutely love and are totally dedicated too. This was very brave to share with everyone and just know that this too shall pass!❤️

[@Ingridlosneslokken]

You are the resource and role model young (and older) people need, Esme 💕 keep being you and spread love and kindness in this world we live in!

[@zoechr1stie]

I can’t wait to watch this!! Confidence is such a big topic and isn’t talked about enough. Thank you so much for this 🤍

[@ThisEsMe]

I'm so glad!

[@rchanl]

I have been through something like this too! I had a really bad fall off of a pony and I lost a ton of confidence. I found my heart horse now (Zack)🥰 and now I am all good! I really needed something like this to cheer me up. Thank you Esme.

[@lisabibby3222]

Honestly it takes a lot to open up about these things and I wish I had this video after the passed three years I’ve had with my mare. From the time she turned five I can’t tell you how much I cried and I felt hugely damaged confidence wise. I nearly gave up so many times! At the end of last year she had three months off. Best thing I ever did for that horse. Wasn’t clipped or trimmed up, never got worked just fed and massive amounts of turn out. She’s come out this year a new horse that’s for sure…. She’s eight this year and things are starting to click hopefully for us. I rode her for six weeks six days a week at the start of this year! Never felt so confident in my life and now I can’t wait to go jumping and try XC with her! Even went to the beach with her on my own (with my dad on the ground) honestly you’re amazing and you’re doing so so well with Joey! You should definitely give yourself credit and a pat on the back because youngsters are HARD man! Honestly love how honest you are! Can’t wait to see your journey continue❤️

[@Norristhehorse00]

Im really, truly thankful you made this video for us

[@ziazoo4350]

I lost my confidence once after falling of really badly while cantering at a show and i did get back on the horse but i was super scared to go faster than walk . Luckily My instructor noticed immediately that i was very tense and swopped me over onto a horse that i never had ridden before , he was a 15 hand cob mix called Clyde , since then the only horse i ever ride is Clyde and he is amazing,not the easiest pony to ride ,constantly refusing at jumps, bucking and rearing , but somehow he has brought my confidence sky high,I love cantering on hacks and around the schools small cross country course , and I owe it all to my amazing instructor and Clyde . I love the video, most people avoid talking about this and i really appreciate that you talked about it i love your videos and you've have inspired me to keep on riding even in difficult times💖💖💖🐎🐴🏇🏻💕.

[@bouncedrabbitgaming5776]

I love how you talk about your hard times with Casper, that’s how I feel about my current lease horse. They’re not bad, they just need to be shown that they can do it! And those horses are always the ones you end up loving the most! Also, love your channel ❤️

[@ThisEsMe]

So true!

[@eleni.a.2509]

Thank you for speaking about this! Keep pushing through with a positive mind. Only do things your ready for. Love you Esme! ❤

[@jacky6625]

i love how you show the downsides of riding and not just the good times. stay strong ♥️

[@Obv2Not3]

I know how it feels I,ve only just started sitting on my lone pony, and it's been 3 years since the pony I was riding spooked and through me into a huge rock. Sometimes you just need to spend time with them like groom them and wash them and work your way up to sitting on them.

[@andystpierre6086]

Im older than your target audience but I really appreciated this video. I broke my collar bone when I fell of my mare after a few months of having her and then broke my back because a cat sneak upon us and I was scared for at least 5 years after that 😅😅 I’m getting back into riding like I used too You’re a really good role model for younger equestrians and your videos are top notch quality 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼

[@ThisEsMe]

thanks Andy!

[@annie.showjumping]

You are such an inspiration! Thank you so much for filming editing and putting a lot of work into this video ❤️ I know myself and many other equestrians will get a lot of confidence just from watching this! Thank you 💕💕

[@ThisEsMe]

Thank you so much!!

[@mmchanel3046]

This video actually helped me a lot, because lately I've been loosing my confidence while horse riding and I was crying over night about how soon something that is one of the most important things too me will become my biggest fear. You're my inspiration and I just want to say thank you for that ❤

[@lauren_runs_barrels]

stay strong esme!! you’ve got this girl! you’re amazing!!

[@EDITZZZZZZZ.01]

Yeah she’s got it

[@irisatkinson]

Thank you so much for this video! I’m currently going through a confidence dip aswell and it is very hard sometimes to remain confident but it really helps to hear about how other people have struggled with and overcome confidence loss! So thank you so much this has reminded me to keep going and keep trying as it will work out in the end! Xx ❤️

[@equestrian_jett]

This is such a good message to people especially myself as I alwayssss compare myself to people at my pony club. And recently I haven’t felt like I’ve been getting anywhere and that I’m staying in the same spot. This really helped me realise it takes time and patience! Thank you esme :)

[@aljajerman8676]

i think we are all gonna go through this. thank you for poiting this out. stay safe, love you Esme♥

[@stephaniesercombe7045]

I broke my elbow last year because of riding - today i just did my first jump and i am still getting my confidence back - this video really helped thank you.

[@oxin1099]

that's such a short time!

[@maizys1229]

This means a lot. My gelding is very spooky and he bolts across the arena a lot. It has really taken a toll on my confidence in riding and makes me feel really powerless. It helps so much just knowing I’m not alone in that feeling. Thank you Esme 🤍🤍🤍

[@ShauniceEggersglusz]

I really needed this as i lost it a few weeks ago and I've been terrified when jumping things that are 60cm and i usually jump 90cm It's been very hard to regain the strength to go over something and i didn't even fall my horse had just fell on the jump It's been very tough for me and i haven't told anyone I've just kept quite but I'm still terrified

[@kevadivaeventing4407]

Hearing something like this from you makes it feel so much better to know that it is normal and it does get better, so long i have been waiting but everything happens for a reason, thank you Esme 🐴💕

[@binnie2656]

Thank you so much for this Esme. I have came back not long ago just last year's winter to riding. Currently i haven't been able to ride as much due to exams and such. But this makes me really happy. Seeing as someone out there is talking about such things and letting people know that they're not alone. When i fell back then i lost all my confidence and couldn't manage to get back to it. My cousin started getting into horses and that made me want to do it again. And here i am finally pursuing my passion and doing what i always loved. You're such a lovely person Esme i wish the best for you. :]

[@kaitsmiddy5686]

This was a really nice video! I feel like this is the first time I've learned a bit about you and have been able to relate to you on a lot of levels - confidence issues, non-horsey parents, being bullied, and trying to stay positive through it all - it was encouraging! Looking forward to the next video! :)

[@jasmine-bk4xl]

i really needed this, ive lost my confidence so much i dread think about show jumping. its so nice to know other people go thru this

[@wh1t28]

This is an amazing video. Thank you for sharing your vulnerabilities, as it helps us as viewers loads to realize that you have problems just like us. I’ve been having issues with my confidence as I just got a new horse and this video helped me so much. Thank you for sharing this, Esme :)

[@Equine_girl-7]

Thank you for making this, I broke my foot riding and smashed into a fence and after that I was just petrified and after watching this I felt better and built up the confidence and now I can officially call myself a “show jumper”

[@lucyrose3220]

I’ve had a major confidence drop so thank you for making this video to make it feel like I’m not the only one who goes through it ❤️🐴

[@tildacharles1726]

Thank you so much esme for making this video, really. I’ve been struggling with comparing myself to others and their situations lately, for example I have a friend who started riding years after me as well as got a horse after me, but Is still improving 3x as fast. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that they have all the facilities they need, an arena, trainers and a older semi-schoolmaster, while I have a paddock and a young green horse. Sometimes I feel like I’m a horrible rider and I should be able to be doing all the things they’re doing... but I have to remind myself that they are a lot more fortunate than me, and that’s hard sometimes. It’s nice that you showed that you felt that way at some point with Casper because it helps people like me realise they’re not alone 💕

[@chivasmom2024]

Wonderful content for everyone! Thank you Esme for shining your bright inner light on the tough times, and how you overcame blows to your confidence. Horses can be great friends and actually teach one how to be confident, but occasionally they like to give ones confidence a little spicy test ;)

[@whoismadeline]

He has changed so much, if I didn’t know who he was I wouldn’t recognise him! This video helps me a lot as I get very nervous when jumping even the smallest fences as my first jump I fell off and some of my recent jumps i nearly fall off but one of them I did fall, I have ridden since and I was fine but I’m still nervous. I love that you are honest to us all and help us through our tough riding times. 🐴🐴🐴

[@miaequestrian8031]

Aw I hope you’re ok. This is so helpful as I lost my confidence recently! 🥰

[@That_Hunter_Jumper_Girl]

I love that you made this video. Im so glad that you are ok and that you got your confidence back! I lost my confidence last year and wanted to quit because of the people at my barn but I stuck with it and I am so glad! Thank you for this video!

[@eilidh8676]

thanks so much for covering this topic, everyone loses their confidence at some point! but sometimes you just need to get back in the saddle 🥰 ❤️

[@elenafrogwill8765]

Thank you, thank you, thank you so much for this video Esme! I recently got bucked off a horse that I started riding not long ago, and it was our first jumping lesson together. He was having fun, and started bucking after a fence and I flew down in the sand, and pulled a muscle in my thigh, and haven’t been able to ride for 3-4 weeks now. And now I’m really scared to jump him again, so all these experiences that you had, brought my confidence back quite a bit, so I really appreciate this!❤️

[@pixelatedpxny8060]

I've been riding for almost a year now and I've realized how many risks you take when you mount that horse. I am a super cautious person and I overthink everything I ever do. I really felt like, because of my confidence, I wouldn't be able to do the things that would get me to the next level. It's really amazing to hear that doubts and fears are genuinely apart of any sport that you love to do. Thank you for letting me know that I just need to believe and stop worrying about the future but just focus on the present 💜

[@deegorman4654]

Thank you so much Esme for posting this video I once lost my confidence riding but you helped me so much to gain back my confidence back I think that every equestrian should watch this video to remind them that they are not alone ...... again thank you Esme for posting this and enjoy your evening !!!

[@sandracapobianco1983]

I 100% understand losing confidence and dreading jumping. It's a terrible feeling and one that's hard to get over. Thank you for making this video and for putting it up, so many only post the perfect videos making it really hard for people who are having confidence blocks. This video helped me realize that we all go through ups and downs. Going back to basics was honestly the best thing I could have done with my horse, you don't realize it at the time, but it does help quite alot to get you going again as well as make the bond you have between you stronger. Thank you again for posting this, so many will benefit from watching, including myself😊

[@danwright7220]

I honestly didn't realize how much I needed to hear what you had to say in this video. I recently got back into the horse world after loosing my forever horse. I bought a yearling at an auction and I've been doubting myself every step. The moment you said 'Am I allowed to own a horse this young?' I felt that in my SOUL. Thank you for sharing your journey and reminding us that we're not alone in our struggles. Side note - after having a few sessions with a trainer, my baby boy and I are doing great. All I needed was someone to remind me that I know what I'm doing lol

[@umaatri-benjamin]

Thank you Esme for sharing your story. This certainly helped, as lately I've been scared to canter (really weird, Ik, usually I love cantering), and my confidence level has been low due to me tightening up when I ask to canter, and then my horse going zoomies. I also love how you always keep your horses - It's really good. That way the animals most likely have one good home forever, and it's a lot less stressful for them and more natural. Keep being you Esme.

[@itsjustautumn7413]

Tysm for talking about this, I can’t thank you enough for making this video. I really appreciate you making this video so ty❤️❤️❤️

[@bredoesports]

I’m slowly loosing confidence and watching you inspires me so much! I just felt like I wasn’t pretty enough, I wasn’t putting in my feet enough, my seat wasn’t good enough. Watching this video made me regain a little more of that confidence that I lost my last lesson Thank you for this topic

[@pepperoni_pip1498]

for the past few weeks i have not had a lot of time riding and my (new) trainer is not really helping me to where i want to go and this video has helped me pick up my phone and talk to my trainer - Thank you so much for the amazing - So much love Esme

[@liviatoews7951]

Thank you Esme! This video was such an inspiration for me and it was so good to hear that I’m not the only one who has lost confidence before.

[@oliviachernutan370]

Thank you for posting about confidence. Had a confidence knock today (not in riding, though related to my riding) and needed something like this

[@sammythesalmon69]

Thank you so so so much for making this video! I can't find a video so inspiring as this anywhere! I lost all my confidence after a bad fall. You might persuade me to start riding again!

[@jessicaflash1216]

This is such a useful and amazing video to make 😊 I never ever want you to quit riding because people like you makes the riding world stay a good place ❤️