I'm afraid of my own body.

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[@kaseyrayton]

My youngest sister is 14 and thinking back on my own high school experience and my other sisters experiences, I do not go a day without worrying about her, how she sees herself and how her peers possibly treat her without my knowledge. I honestly just want to protect her and keep her safe from the world, she's the sweetest kid and humanity is horrible particularly during adolescence. I remember being around 12 holding onto the pole of the clothes line while walking around in circles looking at my little belly thinking "I never thought I'd be fat." Like, how can a 12 year old think something like that? So proud of you for making this video Steph, such an important issue to discuss especially for all the young girls watching us. You're going to have the time of your life and I hope you can truly push your insecurities aside long enough for you to truly embrace the limitless possibilities thrown your way while on your trip. So so much love for you girl!

[@stephanielange]

You've got all our support! You're going to be amazing! xx

[@KarissaPukas]

You GO Steph!! I'm so proud of you for making this video. Totally made me cry lol. You will have an absolute blast on your trip 😊💗☀️ I know the feeling of feeling too aware of your body. I was terrible at dancing as a kid, so I grew up avoiding it and feeling so awkward and insecure if I had to. I even left my prom early lol. 🙈 I only started doing it without abandon at a festival two years ago 👯👌🏼 it's all in our heads, I believe in you!!! 💗💗💗 it gets easier✨

[@arls1253]

I had noticed that you never post full body images. It happens to me too, but because of the opposite: too thin. I have always been happy with my body but, you know, some people like to bring down a certain body type to "embrace" another. So I really appreciate that your speech was "neutral" and that you didn't "attack" slim body types like some people do.

[@Michellecrossan]

I love you and I'm so proud of you xx

[@malusutti88]

brazil loves u michelle!

[@georgia6352]

I'm so proud of you, this is so inspirational, i know people can say "You don't need to worry" but you seriously don't. You're beautiful in your own way. Stay true to yourself ♡ ily

[@leireeiximeno7511]

I'm so saddened by your words... I've been having the same kind of feeling for the last 5 years. I grew up avoiding everything that involved showing my body and my insecurity grew insanely day after day, so I kinda felt evey word you said. Now I'm trying to have a positive/brave mind, as you do! Thank you so much for this wonderful video, you're truly beautiful inside and out ❤️ I hope you have an amazing trip Steph! x

[@lorenmaree]

YES! THANKYOU FOR THIS! The same thing happened to me in year 6! A girl noticed and made it obvious to everyone. You've got this girl, you really only live once. GO GET IT !!!!!! XX

[@karimamckimmie]

Bravo Steph ❤️ I love you not because you are beautiful (you are) but because you are so kind and genuine and bubbly. It is truly a pleasure to be in your company xx

[@Sophie-oi6xu]

You are a flipping beautiful person inside and out

[@heartland654]

This was hands down my favourite video from you. You are so incredibly inspiring Steph and I'm so glad that you posted this 😘💕

[@AlexP-sn9ns]

I relate to this video so much. Thank you for having the courage to post this! I love you & you're not alone.

[@alysedusseault924]

Amazing video Steph! this video made me realize that almost all girls go through this at some point in their lives, I know I did from age 10 and on, and even now at 25. We all have insecurities we cannot let hold us back from having fun and enjoying life! This video was so well said. You are beautiful inside and out, cant wait to see photos having the time of your life on this trip! xoxo

[@claudyusron]

We are here for you steph! Youre amazing inside n out and you go girl! Youve encouraged yourself... Youve beaten your fears! You go girl xxx

[@georgiaa3806]

You're amazing Steph! I'm so proud of you for sharing something so personal with us! I hope you have an incredible trip and achieve all of your goals!! I know you can do it!!! XX

[@ArnaAlayneMorton]

You're so brave! What you said really resonates with me. Thank you so much for sharing - you're a beautiful soul x

[@ErinScottBeauty]

You are incredible. So many girls can relate, including me. You should be so proud of this video, and proud of yourself. You're going to have an amazing time xx

[@AnastasiaR]

Wow, this is so helpful and amazing!!! I can relate to this so much. It's funny how logic (like knowing no one cares about certain details) doesn't help us cope with these fears. I am so tired of being held back by fears. It's made worse by knowing that it's the fears and insecurities that make us less fun or likeable, not any physical flaws. Good luck on your trip! I know that you are so ready to face this.

[@Celenababy3]

I love this and I love the message behind it! You've inspired me to do things I wouldn't normally. I love ya Steph 💕💕

[@JocelynwardleBlogspot1]

I can relate to this a lot, I think we've had some similar issues. You've honestly inspired me to say yes more to things and stop letting insecurities getting in the way. I'm really excited for you and this trip! Can't wait to follow the journey and watch your soul flourish :) xx

[@graceford9968]

Thank you so much for this video!! I really needed this right now, you are an inspiration and I love you! ❤️💕

[@victoriaunderwood8687]

so much admiration for you putting yourself out there and facing your fears! I can definitely relate to this but in a different way.. hope you had an amazing time on trip last summer! xxx

[@AJClementinexo]

This is beautiful, you are beautiful! I'm glad you spoke up about this, can relate. Much love to you always lovely 💜 xo

[@clairehornsby]

I love this so much! Your amazing and I am proud that you shared this story! Xx

[@nakisah.williams]

You go girl. I feel you with this one and Im really proud & amazed that you had the courage to make this video xx

[@MariaMartinsson]

Aww I want to hug you!! ♥ Thank you so much for sharing! I can only imagine it took a lot of courage (and many butterflies!) to talk about this and I think many will appreciate it. To me of course it is absolutely puzzling that someone so beautiful and who seem so warm-hearted can have these thoughts. But you never know what the next person thinks or feels. Everyone is a different human, yet we are all so close ♥ I am excited for you about your Euro trip! It will be great and you are so wise when you speak, I know you will do the best of it :) Now I'm all the way up in Estonia, otherwise I would love to come and say hi! Oh and I need to say I disagree on one thing, I truly believe that you can change every belief that you ever have had. You just find new thoughts that you practice, little by little - like pouring new sand into a glass, the old sand will eventually be replaced by new sand :) Hugs from a swede living in Estonia :)

[@michalzb02]

omg you make me cryyy!! I love you so much and sooo proud of you

[@sonjaLOVE94]

Thank you for this video! I love you so much and this video helped me so much this is what i need right now ❤️

[@Elemiriel]

You proved with this video that your soul is truly the most beautiful part of you. And that is saying a lot because you are absolutely gorgeous. Thank you so much for sharing so openly. I understand how hard that was

[@valeriewoodman8119]

i love you! and thank you for the video... it helps to see other people feels the same as you do :) waiting for the video about your disorder! i think it will help a lot

[@deolindacunha168]

One of your best videos! Love you! And have fun 😊❤️

[@megantomlinson9770]

You are so brave for sharing this! Proud of you for aiming to overcome this. Very inspirational xx

[@alejandramachado1161]

This video made me teary eyed.. I totally get where you're coming from. I have stopped myself as well from fully living life and fully loving myself because of my perception of how I look.. It's crazy cause I'm on the other side of the spectrum with having a small breast size and I also got snarky comments about it 😩 people are so quick to talk about YOUR OWN body! You are so brave for sharing and strong! You can do this ✨

[@laurenbaker3310]

This made me feel so much better! I'm a size 8 and have never been any bigger but because I'm so afraid of my body, like you I do not swim and haven't worn bathers since I was 18 (I'm 25) and get anxiety when put out of my comfort zone. I could never do a trip like you but I am proud of you and think you are a great role model! And I aspire to be like you and go to the beach this summer and be confident!! You go gurl! Xx

[@plannersparkle8352]

I love this theme. Because I know how you feel! It's really hard to accept the body of yourself and I can relate this, as for me my height and weight. Thank you so much for this wonderful video! I'm your fan ! Xx

[@dyna1991]

You're so brave to share! I'm so proud of you! x

[@maggierowan6756]

Thank you for sharing this! You are amazing and you can totally do it! And it's never silly to be afraid of something - that is how you fear. It takes great courage to face that fear head on. Go girl!

[@isabellelulu5053]

I adore this, this helped me. Thank you so much x

[@AmeliaRosina]

Wow! I can relate to this so very much, I have major issues with how i view my own body! Your so brave for uploading this, very inspiring. You can do this, we can all do this! You got this babe, your trip will be amazing :) xxx

[@AlanTsibulya]

honest. genuine. beautiful. love you steph

[@irismaass]

Thank you so much for making this video. I am exactly in the same position like you and I am very grateful that you speak about it. I know how hard this topic is and how you struggle. I wish you all the best and a lot of energy. You are such an amazing woman. I am with you.

[@Garnet365]

You are so brave in sharing your struggles... I hope your trip is wonderful and better than you ever hoped it could be! You are a beautiful soul.

[@aislingpassmore2602]

You're amazing Steph ❤️

[@savannahm9410]

Thank you for this video I relate so much I feel like I'm not scared of "typical" things anymore like heights or death because I'm so preoccupied with being terrified of other people looking at me and being in situations where people might judge the way I look and it's just comforting knowing I'm not alone so thank you for this ❤️

[@brookeherft1275]

You're so brave, and you're so beautiful, internally and externally Steph 💜👼🏼

[@melissataylor2950]

So flipping proud of you Steph! (Don't worry I say flipping too) I can tell this wasn't an easy one to film, and yet you conquered it and took it by the reigns with both hands. I can relate on so many levels with you - I honestly feel like another version of you? I feel the same about my body. I'm not fat? But I don't feel comfortable in my own skin either, and I should. I haven't worn a swimsuit once in ten years. NOT ONCE. I'm scared of water, scared of insects, scared of the Unknown, and death, and just all these sort of (what seem like) ridiculous things. The only thing I can add to that is my own breasts, I'm so self conscious of mine, because they're small, well, I THINK they're small. But who cares, who notices! It holds me back, gives me massive anxiety, and prevents me from experiencing the whole point of life - new experiences. Watching this, I'm crying. I want to give you the BIGGEST hug. I've been watching you for ages, haven't met you, yet feel like I know you, and I absolutely treasure, appreciate, and respect everything you do, and everything about you. Keep smiling, and I hope you have a fantastic day ❤️

[@indigointuition5]

i've literally had the exact same thoughts and feelings (especially the beach thing). thank you for sharing your heart xx

[@hcwz9859]

I've had body image issues in primary it was to an extreme and I soon got over it. But lately I've had major insecurities about my body, my face, chest size etc since being exposed to a lot of the KZbin beauty community that focuses on outer appearance. This was such a helpful video thank you for sharing

[@victoriamenezes6764]

I feel exactly like that, no one should feel that way, everything is going to be alright, don't be so hard on yourself, you're not just your exterior, don't let this fears stop you from doing what you like or enjoy! Good luck on your trip, I hope you have an amazing time doing all those things that scare you now, I hope someday you will be able to look at all this and think: "thank god it was just a fase". 😘

[@louisejennifer5099]

Well done babe for talking about this❤️ I know just how you feel X

[@ecpjll]

Thank you for this video. It felt therapeutic for me too. Everything you said sounded like you were talking about me. right down to the scared of everything bit. This video made me cry.

[@pheaches1200]

Omg I love you! Your soul,aura and your heart are so beautiful and omg you are so lovelyl and amazing I can't get it... It gets easier by time and I in believe you !!!!! Big hugs and much love

[@TeganLouise]

Ever since I hit puberty I have been insecure with my body, I have been surrounded by people smaller than me my whole life.. I have multiple panic attacks when I swim, when I wear certain clothes. I just think about how people look at me and they think of me because of what I look like. I hope that one day I won't feel this way, but I can't help the way I feel. I am so glad that you are taking this leap and doing everything that you love but you are also terrified of! Nothing you have said is stupid but I know exactly the way you feel.

[@nikkiajoy]

You are beautiful darling. I'm proud of you for facing your fears. This will be a journey you will never regret xx

[@ashleighsorensen7248]

Thank you so much for this video. I'm going to Thailand with my boyfriend in three months, and I'm feeling exactly the same. It's almost as if you've taken words out of my mouth! I'm so scared to face similar situations also, but your encouragement has made such a difference. Thank you so much ❤️

[@MsSouldriver]

i understand 100000% -- no one has ever told me that i am fat or unattractive, and i do not have any kind of eating disorder or weird eating habits, but i hate to change in front of my girl friends, i hate getting undressed in front of boys, i hate going to the beach for the same reason as you. thanks a lot for making this video! i wouldn't have expected this from a girl like you

[@littlebitofeverything2404]

Go girl. I have been diagnosed with ED, along with depression for years. I feel exactly the same way about my body and being scared to do something for silly reasons. I'm on my recovery journey and I'm so proud of you going on this trip, have the most amazing time and I cannot wait to see beautiful pictures of a beautiful girl. xox

[@ohgeeia]

This is extremely inspirational to me. Although I'm not the skinniest nor the fattest, I should accept my body and enjoy myself even if I don't feel comfortable in my own skin right now. I hope you have a great time! Ily and don't be afraid to face your fears boo 💕

[@mplampladoula]

you are sooo beautiful and you seem amazing person... love your self... it's the best you can do and everything it will disappear... think about it, we love our family, our friends with their disadvantages but we are judje our selves so strictly... we have to love and accept our selves and everything would be amazing... you would live the moment without worries... Be proud of you

[@annamcdonald7276]

It's really fantastic that you are using this platform to spread positivity, it's someone that not all youtubers do and I really respect those who use their channels for real life issues as well as beauty. And you are extremely stunning :)

[@GiuliSMakeup]

go girl!!! do as much as you can you will not regret! and I'm sure people will notice you for your kindness not for your body (btw I think your gorgeus!) our brains tricks us so badly sometimes, sadly I know it well... huge hugs xx

[@KindDT27]

hi stephanie! I'm from portugal and right now I'm in my bedroom crying myself out bc when I try to explain to my friends and boyfriend my insecurities and everything that I feel they just can't understand. a part of me knows that I should not let these feelings holding me back from doing things that I like but I just can't! I feel awful! this year I'm going to college and I just hope I can ignore more these feelings but idk.. I hope you can get better and feel better and confidence about yourself! You have a beautiful soul! Keep going giiiirl! xx(btw, sorry for my english)

[@xxbreee]

Yesssss!! Can totally relate 110%. In highschool I was also nick named "tits" because I had enormous boobs. My mum suffered from eating disorders when I was a child/teen.Seeing her in hospital almost dead...why? Because she thought she was fat and had to live up to the "skinny" expectation. It effected me so deeply. Everything you said at the end is so fucking true. We were given this life for a reason xx

[@paulasanahuja3003]

I can understand you because that happened to me the last year but now I'm proud of me and my body and I'm also very confident about myself and I can do what I want without thinking what the others are gonna think about me. Sorry if my english isn't perfect I'm from Spain. I love you Stephanie

[@Lotte-jk7yx]

you helped me so much! i am in croatia right now on a holiday and i always take my swimwear but i never wear them... i just put it on and went swimming... i was sooo increadibly anxcious but i did it... i love you you changed my life ♥

[@steviehasker4506]

Your so right it's all inside our own minds no matter what we weigh! I am the tiniest girl who hides her body because she thinks she's too skinny and wants curves. It's like no matter what we look like we always want to look like someone else. I admire your bravery xoxo

[@elliliastan2180]

Im always here for you! love you xx

[@emilyreynolds8610]

This lipstick looks amazing with your eye colour 😍😍

[@FannyGSX]

You are beautiful Stephanie ❤️

[@victoriagaard7979]

No words needed here! Nothing but love to you! 😘❤️❤️❤️

[@niki12g]

I watched the whole video and teared up, I can relate to a lot of your thoughts and emotions, so this video was very inspirational and powerful to me. You have fun in Europe! I'm leaving for Skyros (a Greek island - i'm Greek, I hope you come back one day so I can meet you) and feeling scared of wearing a swimsuit at the beach, but I'm gonna do it. Lots of love.

[@hevsharp4005]

This is so inspirational❤️

[@lucialucka6691]

Steph you are beautiful ♥ I proud of you ♡

[@CajsaThelander]

You are amazing! 💕

[@lettiesimonis]

If only you could see what other people see, you are a beautiful woman. Thank you for posting the video. It is inspirational to see and to also know there is someone else out there that I can relate to and to know I am not the only one feeling this way. It helps a lot. As someone who also developed very young I understand all the feelings you went through growing up. I'm 5'2" and wear a triple D bra. Though I am not fat, I wear a size 2, I always feel top heavy and fat. I completely understand where you are coming from. I have struggled with my own body image for years. Hang in there girl, it gets better!

[@debbiebaker4065]

I can 100% relate to your body image issues. You are so gorgeous but I completely understand your mind set. I dont own a bikini.... i workout all the time and I hate my body and avoid the beach pool etc just so not show my body. I'm facing your fears too with you girl... we can do it!!! x

[@jessicaterry6674]

I LOVE YOUR BEDDING! Where can I get it?? On a relevant note, This spoke to my heart! I know the courage it took to make this video, but I'm so thankful that you did. I think you said what so many people think/feel and aren't able/confident enough to say. You're beautiful, but you're even more beautiful and genuine on the inside.

[@hannahjacobs3416]

i totally understand, i have been overweight all my life and probably l am the heaviest i have ever been right now...and i did develop bad eating disorders through high school that took a while to break...i totally understand because all my life i was teased for being fat and excluded and still am in certain situation and as much as it hurt in the moment it certainly had a larger influence after the fact. I love you, i hope you have an amazing time, but i totally get you

[@zahrahaliyah]

You're amazing

[@amyb6120]

Thanks for sharing Steph.. I can relate (boob issues included) but we need to just live while we are still young and wrinkle free :) Croatia is amazing - I managed to work up the courage to swim one day on a boat trip to the islands off Dubrovnik. You will love it!!

[@roxannerowe3870]

People will remember you for the smile on your face, the kindness you exude and the memories you make. Hope you have an amazing trip :)

[@H48972]

thanks for uploading. this is great

[@rebecaloyola7514]

Thank you I can relate ❤️

[@lucyservo6574]

I wish I had the words to make this go away. But I don't. so I'll just say that I totally agree with you! It's so sad that so many girls around the world think their body is more important and 'attractive' than their heart/soul/brain. life is wayyyyy too short to let something as insignificant as your body (ie- the shell surrounding your true self) stop you from taking chances and having fun. Although I've never experienced anything as intense as you surrounding my body image, I still like to remind myself of what my body can DO, rather than what it looks like. I suggest reading some high school level biology 😂 and learning the awesome stuff your kidney/brain/liver can do!! best wishes in Europe steph, love from a fellow Australian xx

[@maceyjocleave]

I support you so much, you're a true role model for me at 15 xxx

[@smallcartonofmilk]

Thanks so much for talking about this! It's so helpful :) I also have panic attacks about wearing swimsuits at the beach haha. Hope you have an amazing time in Europe.

[@izzieautydawemusic]

You are incredible xx

[@briza2022]

It has happened to me too but I learned that when somebody says things that eventually affects one it is said that happens because 1) the one who provokes was hurt in the past, is trying to repeat the pattern, haven't learned to help yet. And 2) the one who is affected needs more assurance of it own person, self awareness. Personality and mentality are different. Repeating an idea over an over again by force it is a superficial awareness. One can change friendships, places, read, write, improve nutrition, etc. in other words do something about it. cheers

[@arielmarie8493]

You're not alone I to feel the same way... Epsecially dealing with my stomach and I can never wear a bikini I've always only wore a one piece

[@penapril5035]

Thank you 🌻

[@KellyTemoteo]

linda !! amo!!

[@deboralarson1128]

I feel just like you💖

[@Muzikkish]

i can really relate to this video! when i was about 10 or 11 i had huge breasts as well. and now almost 9-10 years later, i still have these body "issues". and whats worse is that my parents dont support me, they make me feel worse about my body and my breasts, and to be honest im not even that fat as i seem to be. its even worse when everyone says "you have such a beautiful face but an ugly body, such a shame". so thankyou for doing this video! i know it was very scary for you. and i hope you have a great time in europe! love you so much xxx

[@RachaelBrook]

YOU ARE PERFECT JUST THE WAY YOU ARE

[@Lilliac817]

I love you, your perfect the way you are 💕💕💕

[@KayleneRose]

💗💗💗

[@clarasalim4718]

I'm brazilian and I love you! You're a mermaid, you looks like a Disney princess... Don't be worry about it. It's too hard to express myself in my second language, and sorry for my English yet, but confort yourself. You're absolutely adorable.

[@georgiawilesmith2151]

i have lots of trouble with what i look like and my body too but I'm quite the opposite to your body i have no curves at all i have no boobs or butt...but i know i am very skinny but when i was a baby i was very sick and i have a very big scar right through my belly button which make me very self conscious and feel ugly so i can't show off my flat stomach. i can only wear a one piece swimsuit to the beach and i can't wear crop tops like all my other friends and i live in australia too and it does get hot here. i have also been to europe recently but i went when it was cold so i had jumpers and jeans on but trust me you won't even think about it at all your going to have an amazing time you are an inspiration! xoxo

[@KarinaGarcia-jj9lx]

You're amazing and soo beautiful ☺️

[@barbarachemi849]

In this period i' m afraid of my skin too😩😩 i know how you feel but I always think at that time i will have gone through