I'M BACK! Life update

[@julessofunny]

Dear nisha, for someone like you to talk about this out loud, to accept, to get help...that, my dear require strength yg bkn sedikit. You are extraordinary. I tumpang bangga that you berjaya gone thru all that. Tahniah on ur wedding & enjoy your life with your loved ones ❤❤❤

[@kewciuk123]

Yesss yesss yesss….tak kesah u nk upload 2 tahun sekali pun..i tetap support u…

[@MeerNash]

Nisha, I was a fan of yours and I wanna tell you that I AM still a fan up till this date. You've no idea how quickly I clicked on this video, we all missed you. One more thing, you used to be my "sunshine" youtuber yang selalu buat I gelak and made my days better bila I went thru darker days dulu, despite of carrying so much weight on urself masa dulu, you masih berjaya to make me laugh, you are POWERFUL and you are worth it Nisha, sincerely dari one of ur subscriber

[@sayaaisya]

same here! we love u nisha we always be there for u. wish to meet you oneday if not here maybe in Jannah

[@nurshazwanie8476]

We're in the same situation. Been feeling useless , alone since high school. Perasaan yang tak boleh diluahkan dekat sesiapa sebab rasa diri ni kerdil. Rasa berdebar bila bercakap dengan orang rupanya itu anxiety. Sekarang baru faham sebab dulu takde exposure tentang semua ni. Sekarang umur 29 baru rasa tenang, baru dapat rasa hidup yang sebenarnya. Harap sesiapa yg berada di fasa ni, carilah bantuan, minta tolong sesiapa yang terdekat atau pergi psychiatrist di hospital.

[@horitokki]

As someone who experienced the diagnosed and dark journey, i would never ever want anyone else go thru this. “thankyou for not giving up on me” cs we know how hard it is to comfort and makes someone who own this illness, believe that they still have their worth to live. Nisha, I’m glad that you’re survived, me too. Allah has more beautiful plan for us Insya Allah. I love you, *send hugs*

[@farrahiwaninaazman7094]

because of you, i bercakap in the ward and started to talk with everyone. it means a lot to me. i will always be there for you. love you nisha

[@dainaramdan7802]

As someone who was diagnosed with BPD last year, betul lah apa nisha cakap when all this time youve been depressed and everything had finally make sense. Its like you finally found the missing piece of a puzzle. Tapi I had stop taking medication cause of the side effects, but alhamdulillah I think my mental state is getting better (i hope so). I honestly cried after watching this video 😢💔 Welcome back Nisha, we are so proud of you for being this strong. Couldnt imagine how much you’ve been thru. Sending lots of hugs and muahs 🫶🏻🫂

[@aidasofia4683]

Nisha! been a fan of you since 2016 ❤ and tbh, you and my friend gerakkan hati i untuk get professional help. A friend of mine recently went to see a psychiatrist and got diagnosed for depression, and when the Dr explained symptoms of BPD, she immediately thought of me. I've greatly suffered depression for years, and things also got worse since 2021 for me. Biggest barrier as to why I tak jumpa lagi help is bcs my family is deeply against it. Now I tgh process nak dapatkan referral letter to set an appointment dkt hosp. I nak jumpa pun bcs I want to fix my relationship with people and myself. Thank you for sharing your updates, I've thoroughly missed you and am so proud and happy that you're in a better position now ❤

[@senawski]

Glad you’re back queen! You’re so brave for speaking up. Proud of you 💓

[@rabsterzz]

it doesn’t matter that you’re not like you’re ‘old you’ at all! sebab I rasa I pun dah grow up and matured a bit, and seeing your progress and change feels like we’re growing together ❤❤❤

[@fashaazira5608]

Nisha, I have watched your video since my high school years. I tak sangka we go to the same psychiatry hospital at HUKM. I was diagnosed with CPTSD + BPD. I felt so alone in my journey too. Literally lost my job and a lot of people turns their back on me because they lack of mental health education. Thank you so much for sharing your story and making me feel less alone. Sending love and hugs ❤

[@mimisyaihidah486]

Im glad you are here! Thank you so much for coming back for us. We'll always support you!

[@alaiagabriel4695]

Thanks for sharing your journey with us, Nisha! I’m happy to hear that you’re feeling healthier and happier now. I pray for your continuous happiness and success in your life. We love you Nisha! ❤

[@nuraisyahsofiahhassan450]

miss you so much but glad you took your time. you dont owe any explanation but thank you for sharing love

[@heygurl7965]

Salam Nisha, even though you feel youre not the same you, you still have the same quirky antics & is still real/genuine. Appreciate you sharing with us what you went through, it creates awareness about your condition & the alternative treatments. Welcome back, cant’t wait to watch your future vids & we’re always here for you! 😊❤

[@kikilala5942]

Saya akan selalu doakan yang terbaik untuk nisha dunia dan akhirat ❤

[@yeyewoo11]

Eversince I knew you from your old makeup videos, you're such an inspiration. Thank you for being you, you've gone through a lot. I hope you know that you have given so much joy to others and you sharing your experiences help give so many people the strength to also seek help. May Allah bless you always. Excited for your new chapter!

[@qtnhh]

nishaaaaa i miss the old hype nisha, saranghae 🫶🏻 i baca comment you dah kawin??! really?!! doa you makbul nak kawin after naelofa kawin, happy for you 🤲🏻🤍

[@angah54]

Nisha, you are fighter ❤Praying that you will be always surrounded with the most supporting people virtual hugs to all of you that has been struggle with mental health. we can do this, we are true fighter

[@nuruliqa]

Dear adik, since you lost parts of your memory, I would like to remind you about your previous self. You can forget other things but remember you were a joyous, beautiful and enthusiastic girl especially in make up and fashion. Take care ❤

[@pnpeguamkakratu8059]

Whateva i luv you following u since my young age. Now im 49 and i lurve your honesty and out spoken yg jujur

[@motley0304]

One thing at a time. Breathe, pause and relax. Be kinder to yourself. You matter!

[@sitihumaira4380]

Omg relatable, I feel you. I feel like no one wants me. Yes, abandoned, that’s the word. 😭

[@nurjahidah9306]

Thank you too sis nisha…semoga dipermudah segala urusan sis nisha

[@nemomanja8023]

Alhamdulillah. Be happy. Surrounding with positive people. You're a strong woman, Nisha Ezzati. I will pray for your happiness.. Ya.. Always.. InsyaAllah.. Love you, Girl ❤

[@MohaniNiza]

Sama lah kita. I masuk HUKM psychiatric ward banyak kali, including for trying to unalive myself. I am on meds now and I see a good therapist who teaches me to practice Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (BPD), so I am better now. I have schizoaffective disorder which is a combination of schizophrenia-like symptoms and bipolar symptoms. I also have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Thank you for being honest about your mental health struggles ❤

[@sharifahdyana]

I’m glad that you’re back nishaaaa, sumpah rindu gila you walaupun tak pernah jumpa. And i selalu tgk your updates on IG. Love you so much, and let’s get stronger together ❤️❤️

[@fiqsonmingi]

welcome back nisha!! I'm really happy to hear that you have recovered from your depression and dapat suami yang memahami, Alhamdulillah 🥺 you are such a strong woman sis, and may that fire in you continue to burn brightly

[@suadaelmi]

Thank u for cheering us with your videos back then eventho you’re struggling, we’re sorry we didn’t know that 😢❤ Sending you a big virtual hugs!

[@idir7981]

Thank you for sharing this so that can create awareness. I doakan semoga you will continue to recover and live your life happily with your loved ones

[@anisfarhana000]

Nisha :'c I'm glad and sooo happy that you're back! Alhamdulillah xx

[@aliamorningstar]

wei rindunya dulu x pnah miss tgk video, welkam back

[@maisurahahmad3097]

Mmg I rindu sgt dkt content KZbin u.Nisha thanks for sharing..we love you so much..❤❤TQ for come back stronger..very proud of you.❤️❤️

[@athrhazs]

I was talking about you exact last 2weeks. We miss you!!! ❤

[@aidaizzieyani8677]

i miss watching your makeup videos kak nisha! rindu your concon 😭 i will be here waiting for your videos soon ❤❤❤

[@natiyyamahmud4866]

Welcome back nisha! Dah lama ternanti2 video2 youtube u. Takpe. U will get back to being yourself slowly but surely! I doakan 🤲🏻🤲🏻

[@rabiatunadri5787]

My brother and my mother did ECT not long ago..theyre still struggling, ad ups and lows. But we are fine and sometimes not .

[@nursyahirah9530]

love u always! i hope u know ppl love u and u are treasured by many

[@efnarfaizul8792]

baru haritu rasa macam "dulu 2017 selaluuuuu sangat tengok yt nisha, skrg dah takde :( AND NOW YES WELCOME BACK NISHA!!

[@amirahatikah5310]

alhamdulillah. not your fan tp bila tringat nk tgk yt u pastu cm xde update i doakn semoga u dlm keadaan baik masa tu. alhamdulillah. semoga lepas ni semua yg trbaik utk u k nisha ❤

[@Ayab91]

Nisha sebagai a fellow person with chronic depression, saya menangis gila bila tengok video ni. But I understand the feeling yang eh kita boleh rasa normal rupanya 🤣 take care sister

[@dnianizam]

im one of the student in hukm & i pernah tegur u there when u nak buat ect. u were so nice & friendly. i pray that youll be strong & happier. may Allah ease the journey for you nisha 🤍

[@nanaenairah]

Nisha!! I’m used to watched ur video back then. Really love you! How funny u’re and all abt u. Paling suka u bebel2 sambil make up. Welcome back and i’ll always support u. Pls be strong and keep moving. All the best and anggap la this is a new journey and new start for u. ❤️

[@wanroismazawaniwanismail6002]

Welcome back nisha! I miss you!

[@nurfaiqah7766]

Alhamdulillah. Dah follow nisha lama sbb suka tgk your happy go lucky character. Tahniah for your marriage and praying the best for you

[@ikhmalazzarin]

your videos always inspire me ! welcome back

[@norfahananordin4596]

We love you nisha💕

[@dianamahadir]

nishaaaa. i nampak video you keluar bila i bukak youtube, i terus bukak tauu nishaaa😭 missed you so much. dulu selalu tengok vlog you. welcome back, love!❤

[@farinaroslan3023]

Awww tak sabar nak tengok all your reviewssss

[@aunifarzana2192]

You're very strong woman nisha. Its not easy to be open up about this dark story you had, I bet it takes you a lot too to share this with us. Glad that you're recovering! Adding on with your loving & caring husband, keep your circle positive too! Happy for you that you made it this far. Welcome backk! ❤

[@amanihusna2847]

Miss you Nisha! Glad that you’re back now! xo

[@Nur-bw6bu]

Nisha i rindu vidoe you ! Youre still the same i suka sgt ❤ i hope you oky i sentiasa doakan you

[@yomiyominom]

Ur welcome,! Kami support sis. Buat apa anda suka! Mana tau buat video balik makes u happy and cherish your new chapter 🎉❤

[@fyzaafadz]

I miss you!!! Sending love and hug nisha sayang!! ❤❤❤❤

[@adlan_kacak]

You`re so brave to talk about it publicy even tough we all here just a random strangers to you, to be honest i`m scared to talk about it even to my therapist.

[@s.zulaikha8459]

Really missed your video! Tahniah sebab akak kuat! semoga terus kuat 🩷✨

[@missnurmedina]

lama tak buka youtube, buka - buka eh ada nisha! ❤❤❤❤❤

[@sitinabilah6842]

nisha, you're very strong person. need to see more videos from you ❤ active mcm dulu balik kt youtube.

[@hazrinahere9294]

Hi nisha, i love your video since forever, please keep on update ! love love !

[@aqilatulafifah3425]

Thank u for speaking this up. Thank u for represent us 🥹

[@frown_24]

Rindu nak tgk video nisha ❤

[@syuhadahasri6144]

Nisha.. thank youu

[@nursyuhadajalaludin3535]

Dear nisha…we are waiting for you so long…Alhamdullilah you come back…so happy…don’t worry we always support you…do more videos we miss a lots…❤️❤️❤️

[@mirahkhalid1106]

thankyou nisha for sharing. i also pernah masuk hospital sebab minum clorox. but now im more than happy with my kids & loving husband ❤

[@farahnajhah4398]

TERKEJUT NAMPAK NOTIFICATION NISHA UPLOAD!!!! OKAY JAP NAK TGOK, I COMMENT DULU BARU TGOK 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

[@5yearsago7]

Welcome back nisha... Rindu sgt vlog you. Keep fighting yaa 🤍

[@syadiahmarrini761]

I love you big time and nyindiri

[@aishahzainal7671]

Nisha ! I just clicked when i saw u ❤. We missing you and will always miss you. Sooo glad that you made it. Keep fighting. We always here. Still a fan until today and forever will be.

[@wendyjohanes631]

I masih subscribed to you Nisha. Keep the vides coming!!

[@liyanasadhri9353]

Welcome back!! Sending hugs to you ❤

[@rosnizarabdulrahim656]

Nisha, janganlah sedih. Be happy n positive k.. I dulu lagi follow u.. N masih follow u.. Insyaa Allaah tuhan akan sentiasa menolong kita semua. ❤❤❤

[@wannurathirah4413]

I JERIT MACAM ORANG KENA SAMPUK DALAM KEDAI MAKAN SEBAB POP UP NOTI U POST AAAAAAAA. Lev u so much 🤍🤍

[@khairunisaanisah1009]

really proud and grateful for you

[@zeeriously]

Thank you for sharing this with us Nisha. It must have taken so much strength and courage for you to record and upload this. Alhamdulillah you're so much better now. I pray that you will continue to find strength in Allah as well as your loved ones. Take care and looking forward to more content from you :) Love from Singapore

[@putriqistina3962]

MISS YOU NISHA 😭😭 youtube isn’t fun without you 😭😭 im crying cause you’re back 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@naaa_di]

i love you!1!!!11 rinduuuuu giler dengar you bebel

[@ezzaelyani4374]

Nishaaaa....i tunggu u punya video tapi tak muncul2....banyak yang u lalui nishaaa....alhamdulilah..well done...nishaaaa...apa pun jangan rasa alone..we love u so much

[@lindaarib845]

so sory what r u going through, i am psychiatic nurse n seeing people strugle with this illness. i understood all your simptom n situations, i handle that evryday with my pt. i pray insyaallah you will be ok. u have very supported husb n fmly. May Allah ease evrything for u 🙏🏻 dnt forget take ur daily medication love from psy nurse 🥰

[@shahadahshariff]

Love you Nisha! ❤

[@ashikinazmi4352]

I’ve been in that situation too. You’re such a strong woman, nisha. We miss you soo much! Alhamdulillah Allah sayangkan nisha. Take care! 🤍

[@diyanakamalazlan6035]

You've been great. Keep on going dear.

[@khairunisabadrulhizam5806]

I love you Nisha, stay strong dear, we love you, hugs❤️🥰

[@NadhiraAmanda]

i have been watching your videos since i was 12yo & now im 26. welcome back nisha! glad youre here

[@rabiatuladawiyah0008]

I xprnh tahu kewujudan channel ni, but i just reach ur video just two days ago and for Allah’s sake, I love ur video reaction ps to local products make up. Yeahhh im still study n to buy all those products is something i know i cant do tht so starting tht i watched all ur videos related to local products reviews so my short thoughts here is just be urself, loving urself, create ur own happiness n live to fullest n stop thinking the past. Allah has the best plan for u n he did cause i can see u re happy now Alhamdulillah, i wish all the best for ur future life, having children and insyAllah u n husben be together till Jannah Ameen Ya Rabb ❤ #spreadlovenothate

[@dhiyaduranisofianaziz1254]

Omgggg once i saw you video pop up kt my youtube i was soo happy sampai jeritt “ehhh nishaaaaaaa” … so happy for you that you’re back !!! So brave of you to seek help and even brave to talk about your journey with usss !!!! Semoga allah protects you always Nisha !!! You are my happy place when i was 22 . Now I’m 25 and you’re back and im soo happy for that tooo … ps// share with us your journey with your husband thoooo ❤❤❤❤

[@qistinaasri6408]

loveee sangat uuu take care!!!!

[@asip18]

Semoga dipermudahkan semuanya sistur! In shaa Allah 🫶🏽

[@nisa.asyila]

Been your subs since 2016.. love watching all your video.. so happy that youre finally comeback stronger and happier.. the moment i saw your noti.. terus klik and terus like.. even not knowing wht the content is.. goodluck Nisha ❤️❤️

[@kns8252]

Nisha!!! Welcome back. Girl, we miss you ❤

[@chickyjong]

I feel you 😞 😞 i pun depressed and resign from my work and its been a year now and i rasa sedih gila sebab i rasa macam i behind semua orang gitu 😢

[@_fiilmforhers]

Dont cry Nisha 😭 rasa nak nangis tgok Nisha almost cry :)) Nisha,I'm so happy for you

[@asmamahassan4290]

Nishaa, really miss you, insha'Allah Kami semua sentiasa doakan moga cepat sembuh ❤ semua yg berlaku pasti ada hikmah.

[@Gshjj-b8u]

Hi Nisha, I'm commenting from a burner account bc I don't want people to find me 😅. Anyway I've been a long time subscriber now (from another account) and actually about one to two months ago I randomly missed you and your videos so I cari but you tak de upload anything from the last one you had 2 years ago. And then now, tiba² you upload a new video. I rasa macam how did you know I was thinking about you? 😭💗 Thank you for sharing your story with us, Nisha. As someone who just got professional help with my mental health this year, I heavily relate with the things you said especially about the memory loss due to taking medications. I also thought I was going crazy bc at one point I literally forgot my own name and who I was. Like, I know I'm in my body but *who* am I? There have also been times where I see my face in the mirror but I don't know who I'm looking at bc I literally can't recognize myself. These things are really scary to go through and none of my friends can relate, so I'm really glad that you talked about it :) I haven't went through actual therapy yet bc my appointments take time to arrange, but I'm on medications now and I think there are pros as much as there are cons. But I'm glad I reached out for help than not at all, and I'm so happy for you too for doing well after getting help ❤️ Congratulations for making it through, and I know I'm just a stranger on the Internet but I genuinely feel so proud of you when I heard your story ❤️ Thank you for reading Nisha, and thank you for existing, you make me and a lot of people happy 🥹❤️ Much love to you

[@Usedtobeurgurl]

omg! i'm literally growing up watching your video since form 1... now i'm in uni alr

[@Archieqa]

Good to see you again, Nisha! ❤

[@sadxavery5975]

I love you nishaaa🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 i tungguuuu youuuuu lama dahhh finally this time comes true 🫶🏻 i hope youre doing well now❤

[@nursyafiqah1180]

Ninshaaaa.. i miss you a lott tauuu 😭 asyik tertunggu2 vid u ..

[@nas2817]

I'm so happy that you're doing better. Used to watch your videos and thought you're hilarious sbb cara you cakap tu. 😂 I understand in some ways how you feel about not thinking someone can love you after everything you're suffering through. But God is great and He always shows His love. Know that you've many who love you as you are. Thank you for your transparency and honesty. I know someone out there can relate and feel better knowing they're not alone. May you continue to be happy and strong Nishnish!

[@sumayyahkhadaied90]

Hey Nisha! remember you from college days.. My husband is also diagnose with bipolar and seeing him going thru it the years... sending you love n hugs.. Thanks for making this video.

[@nurulhafifah2841]

Stay strong , insha'Allah everything will be fine for you , sooner or later you will be happy

[@nursyazwina6590]

Nishaaaaaaaa! I miss you a lot!!!!!!!! I am so happy you are back. Dah lama tunggu. I nangis juga tapi i nangis dulu sebelum u cakap nak nangis pula 😢 Alhamdulillah you are getting better. I pray the best for you. Don’t worry if you still need a break. There are people here who is supportive your healing process. ❤❤❤❤