I'm Deeply Embarrassed and Regret This

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[@TommyCheese-cd2fd]

So your not worried about China & Russia Winning the war ?

[@HonkHonkler]

Nice thumbnail lol. Not all clowns are clowns, like me lol.

[@aSpork]

you were an upstanding chinese shill then western propaganda got to you. LOOK AT YOU NOW 😁

[@tarstarkusz]

Can you guys make a video explaining the difference between the Yuan and RMBI? I read that one is a currency and one is a unit of account. But this really isn't clearing it up for me.

[@seancai1049]

Now you're a White Monkey Shill for the US government, what you're doesn't really changed, all that is changed is your employer.

[@Guildofarcanelore]

We all make mistakes. It takes more nerve to admit you were wrong. It’s pretty cringe, but it makes you look stronger now.

[@georgemartin1436]

That's right. JFK's had a huge approval rating right after he publicly took full responsibility for the Bay of Pigs fiasco, though it was planned two years before he took office.

[@andrewyuyoungearn2799]

TRUE

[@Americansikkunt]

What he’s been promoted to CCP secret agent? This “reveal” would be a great cover to say, “See?! I’m not a CCP agent! I used to be a white monkey shill, but that’s it!”

[@Rekhan4242]

Yeah, learning from it is the important part!

[@jojack1234567890]

I quit a good job once and later on asked for it back. I honestly thought the owner would tell me to kick rocks and go away. He told me "it takes a lot to come back here hat in hand and ask for the job back" I did get the job back later on but I gained so much respect for that man to not use that chance to tell me to F off. I worked my ass off or that man after that to show my gratitude for how I was treated. Even after he sold the business he took care of me for a bit until I found a new job.

[@dick7305]

It shouldn’t be a surprise. Every college student in the country thinks exactly like you did. Welcome to reality, we are happy to have you.

[@saiberunato]

People when they're very young like late teens and 20's tend to be more idealistic and naive. I think it's a stage people go through as part of the life experience process.

[@HouseOfAlastrian]

Everyone is cringe in their late teens and early 20s. I mean for fuck sake, Gen Z's latest Tik Tok trend is the concept of 'Silent Walking'... which is just going for a walk without listening to music or podcasts on your phone... and they are treating it like they just invented it and that it is the most groundbreaking discovery in the field of health.

[@danielschannel701]

真了！Reality check!

[@unconventionalideas5683]

Thought. Many no longer think that way.

[@chrystalblue7170]

I never did. But I always knew communism and socialism were bad and had no delusions of any commie government being good for anything. People have been shocking me for my whole life with their delusions.

[@chrisbanion]

It's stuff like this that makes me so glad there wasn't an internet when I was 20.

[@KitsunekoOwO]

Cringing at your past just means you grew as a person 😄 it's admirable that you are able to talk about your past openly and admit fault. Not a lot of people are like that.

[@GLOBALWATCHMENNEWS]

You grew in your knowledge since your first video and changed your mindset. That’s a good thing! You experienced first hand the atrocities of the CCP and now are a voice for those suppressed. Thank you for your content.

[@nwerd7584]

its analogous to present times, because young adults and children have more say than they should yet they don't know 1/4 of what they think they do. And even worse is people listening and willing to enact the ideas, many of which have been debunked for decades. But that doesn't deter the narrative and activism that actually gets bills passed it seems.

[@nwerd7584]

@@Sonny_McMacsson That's just narcissism bruh. And to a certain degree they are correct. But that level of entitlement doesnt come naturally, And I highly suspect it comes from this victim, do gooder narrative that helps nothing. If people constantly blow smoke up your ass you're liable to believe it eventually. Thats the biggest problem with all this woke ideology.. that's its very basis.

[@3xceIIent]

@@nwerd7584 There is certainly an ignorance of youth that makes young people think they know it all, but I can't say I see the same problem you do. In fact in the USA it seems we have the exact opposite problem to me. We are governed by very old people who hold onto power for great lengths of time and don't understand the problems of the modern times. They take forever to craft the laws we need and even when they catch up and try to address a problem they don't understand it enough for it to be effective. I can certainly get behind the idea that popular youth on social media have too much influence in the minds of other people, but they don't create the actual policies and laws that govern our country. Funnily enough after trending older and older every year (with the oldest congress members ever in this congress) we have also just elected some of the youngest congress members in history. Maybe it's starting to change. I think it would also be a mistake to think that young people don't have good ideas. I think some of the best ideas come from young people. Of course they sometimes don't have all the knowledge accumulated yet on how best to enact their ideas or what pitfalls and problems to avoid. So I think we need a much better balance of old and young governing the USA. Of course the problem is they have to actually work together to solve the problems not against each other.

[@JunkBondTrader]

@@nwerd7584 Not even about China. Most people in America don't even know 1/4 what they think they do about America. Supporting America is almost just as cringey today, considering they incite wars in other countries that ends up killing hundreds of thousands of innocent people, and fund Israel's genocide over Palestine. One might say, that's even cringier. It just feels so unnatural to think of US as the bad guys. But one could easily argue their the worst. In 15 years he will probably make another video about how cringey it is he thought so highly of America lol. ok obviously I'm using your comment to inject my own personal feelings into the convo, but at least I will admit it haha.

[@JunkBondTrader]

@@3xceIIent I agree in generael with your comment. Older generations are much moe problematic than the youth regarding the biggest problems facing America. In fact, I think America will be a much better place in 20 years not to be grim.... Taking forever to craft laws is one of the more minor problems with USA's aged government. They're also war mongers and fund Israel's genocide of Palestine.. But I'd also say that despite this, most Americans refuse to believe that's the case, even though hundreds of thousands of innocent people have died in the Middle East and Iraq over the last 20 years because of America's meddling. So I agree older generations in America have faults, but would also fault the general public, including young people, middle aged, everyone... for turning a blind eye to America's atrocities.

[@KookyKay82]

The part with Winston laughing in the background had me in stitches! You're living proof that we can change our minds about things, admit we were wrong and grow. People should take note that they can do the same.

[@josephberrie9550]

tell that to a woke lefty

[@Chad-Giga.]

Tell that to cancel culture

[@tannerhuxtable6118]

Most people can't do it. )-:

[@matthewmosier8439]

If you listen to what he was saying, then go browse around this app it's crazy how far those kind of ideas have been spread.. and most people don't even realize how far off the stuff that they've been taught, really is.

[@tarstarkusz]

For anyone moaning about human rights and the Olympics should probably google 1936 Olympic games.

[@AlbertaFreeThinker]

I was in Hong Kong the night that Beijing won the 2008 olympic bid... I remember there was hope in the air that it would lead to increased openness of China. Well this was in 2001 before 911 and many other things... We in the west have gone down in freedom since then more than I could imagine. Glad you are now standing for freedom.

[@RG-iw7py]

You've grown so much, in wisdom, experience, remined honest to what you believe in. You are not satisfied until you find the truth. I'm proud of you:)

[@MagiCave]

Wow I had no idea. But in a way it was that very passion that drove you to actually go to China, learn the language, see things for yourself, and even find love. So let the cringe subside, because you can feel proud of how much you grew as a person, many people don't get the chance to say, let alone show, as much. I'm glad you shared your story, and your experience with China and Chinese people, with us. Thank you Matthew.

[@Myt229]

All this time you never admitted this or talked about it until you were getting exposed smh 🤦🏽🥴

[@skuadak2]

Motherbrother has flew over Pacific and learned Chinese by mistake. Found a love of his life to save that trip and went back, James Bond style. my life suddenly seems tad more boring than even a while ago

[@mjouwbuis]

@@Myt229 which, unfortunately, is still better than 95% of the youtubers who just deny, ignore or double down.

[@freeagent.87]

​@Myt229 what do you mean? Him and serpentza have admitted to being this years ago

[@BrutalButtSlap]

He did talked about it, but direct the video sure he didn't with is fair, but is normal people just want to burrow and forget it, maybe isn't the high horse or the puritan good boy way but getting asked about it and adressing it is better them keep pretending it don't exist, also saying getting "exposed" is just dumb, it like "exposing" someone who reform itself because they ware the thing they dislike now, like "Hey you ware a criminal in the past you should shut up and be ashamed to speak agaisnt robbery you thief!" @@Myt229

[@rivercrow8988]

I really respect you admitting and owning up to mistakes. It's not easy, I know. I'm in my late 60s and I still can't deal with stupid crap I did in my 20s!

[@EstradaDuran-sg6co]

owning up? he was exposed

[@TURBOMIKEIFY]

Growth is such a beautiful thing.

[@TURBOMIKEIFY]

@@EstradaDuran-sg6coProof?

[@TheCarpentersApprentice]

Thanks for sharing this. Makes me feel less like a jackal to know we’re all idiots in our 20’s. Lol

[@BubuH-cq6km]

What do you mean ❓ he never apologized for digging up human bones and flinging them across the sand and screaming at his now wife then girlfriend to shut her mouth she’s ruining his video or apologize for lying about how he really left China and what really happened just a CIA Tool

[@mikespike2099]

Your approach is actually a very very common first stage for those getting into China and Chinese culture … I was the same … you only see “outside the box” … then you get into China and the CCP … you understand the ugly truth! Thanks for what you do today 🙏🏻

[@nneeerrrd]

It takes enormous balls to own the mistake of this scale. Respect and best wishes to you from Ukraine🇺🇦

[@gloojaam6756]

There’s no C*ckrain m, son it will be Russia 🇷🇺 W Russia

[@nneeerrrd]

@@gloojaam6756 what аге ü, Ь!тсн?🇷🇺💩

[@anonymiss495]

​@@gloojaam6756😂💩

[@Cvjax]

​​@@gloojaam6756dude, how can Ukraine become a part of something, that doesn't actually exist?)

[@ameliam7898]

I was in China from ‘97-09 & marveled at both how underdeveloped they were & their progress. I feel so bad for the ppl there under that regime - even the ones that have no idea how oppressed they are…

[@nolongerblocked6210]

I think you pointed out something that's _very_ important, many of the rural Chinese citizens don't even realize they're being oppressed or how it's being done

[@Sonny_McMacsson]

@@nolongerblocked6210 In what sense don't they realize it, not aspiring to reach/not reaching the limits of their cages or when they have key problems they can't work out who's responsible?

[@fs5775]

of course they don't realize it. what they experience is "just life" to them....when westerners like us come in and ask questions like, "well, why can't you do this or that? hey it's not fair for you" like when they experience corruption with any kind of authority, the police etc and they can't do anything unless they are rich w/guangxi, it makes them think for a sec. But if they think too much, they recognize their own oppression they can't escape so it's easier to say "crazy dangerous foreigner trying to corrupt me against the great motherland rising, which they are jealous of"... makes them feel better @@Sonny_McMacsson

[@naturelover7979]

Nothing but a communist dictatorship and the people are treated like slaves.

[@Saber_Nico]

@@Sonny_McMacsson there's a reason why the ccp banned outside influencers such as social media websites

[@dragunilla]

Your crimes as a smol are already forgiven and forgotten - but the cringe will, of course, forever remain potent. It's still nothing compared to people *twice your age in those clips* saying the same things in 2023.

[@leonrblitz4351]

Indeed and now he helps us to understand the crap the ccp does. Well and we all have done thing in retrospect we find cringy 🙂

[@HouseOfAlastrian]

Everyone was cringe in their youth. And you're absolutely right... the worst cringe is from people who are middle-aged to elderly who say and do those same things. To give some examples kind of adjacent to China... have you seen the kinds of Westerners who shill for Russia? Of course Jackson Hinkle is some dumb kid... but then you hear some of the same talking points he has from middle-aged Scott Ritter, from politicians like Tulsi Gabbard and Marjorie Taylor Green, from Elon Musk and from senior citizens like Noam Chomsky, Cornell West and Seymour Hirsch. We can at least hold our heads high knowing we outgrew it when so many others did not. And I don't see Jackson Hinkle outgrowing it... that Russian 'girlfriend' of his is probably his FSB handler and should he ever have a 'coming to Jesus moment', we can easily expect him to fall out of a window or drink that special Kremlin blend of tea.

[@danielschannel701]

So many of ours now support Putin it's almost treason! @@HouseOfAlastrian

[@HimmelsDaemon]

A thought on that: it's reasonable for young and children to be trusting of people, but older individuals should have learned better, though learning or just bad experience. In relation with an identity logical fallacy where being something or having a quality imparts authority or esoteric knowledge that can't be known otherwise. And also thinking of that, there's an okay big list of fallices from a prof. of the English dept. of UTEP university. However, it tries heavily to politically compensate with it's examples to provide a "both sides" view which I think hurts the explanations and makes for poor titles/terms as-well, including accidental associations of other meanings/abuses -- likely in part from the sourcing. It also has the usual problems of poor explanations of why the fallacies qualify; ex. when every dichotomy is claimed to be a fallacy, when it's only a fallacy when it's not, but claimed to be rather then that there can't exist dichotomies ever -- context and scope matters. Along with that too, it also works and describes things more from types and tactics of manipulation and fraud/deceit rather then the faults in the logic or engaged in by oneself for intent of the former. For that, there'd be a few I'd disagree with, at least as written. It is a rather large and relevant list though. (It's titled "Logical Fallacies," but its more just the generic notion of fallacies as the description describes. And disclaims not having "academic rigor.")

[@marklittle8805]

Like the Barrett's...two bigger POS I haven't seen.

[@brianschneide0]

you and serpentza are a big reason why so many now pay attention to what goes on in china. thank you for becoming more aware yourself, and choosing to care about others.

[@35Colorado]

I was one of the people who argued with your views early on, though not the very start - you were already in China. I was concerned but glad you woke up and seen reality. Do not beat yourself up about the past, we ALL have done stupid things that make us cringe in embarrassment, that is part of the process of growing as a human. Takes a lot of courage to critique yourself so honestly.

[@CaptainSeamus]

Being able to grow and mature is a good thing... and being able to change instead of just digging in even though you know it's wrong is a real thing. This is the problem with many people.. they can't move past their mistakes, and instead double down. Good on you to admit it and move on.

[@stringlarson1247]

Props for owning up to past behaviors. It's something sorely lacking in much of society today.

[@jademoon7938]

You had to figure it out somehow… Everyone does dumb stuff, especially when we’re young, but when you figured it out, you changed your viewpoint. That’s growth. That’s a good thing. Owning up to mistakes and saying, “Hey I was naïve and young, I got a little info that made this stuff seem true but now I have a lot of info and I know it’s not” is a sign of a good strong character.

[@YoursUntruly]

Hey, brother. That took a TON of balls to do this video. I think your takeaway should be just how amazing your character developed throughout the years. We’re proud of ya. Love from 🇨🇦

[@gi7685]

Doesnt take balls if u HAVE to face the music after being exposed.. Its not like he can lie about it.. Him "admitting" just shows how easily people like you are manipulated thinking he is some sort of hero with big balls.. No.. he got exposed.. he had to face the music so what did he do? Make a joke about himself so people like you get sympathised with him..

[@Zundfolge]

You know who I don't trust? People that hide and run from their past. We all learn and grow. Good on you for just coming right out and showing it. It bolsters your credibility.

[@Serjo777]

"Hide and run" is precisely what he did before being exposed. Now he's obviously forced to admit it.

[@HomersIlliad]

​@@Serjo777By who?

[@lillexus5589]

​@@HomersIlliadby the concept of credibility, not being hypocritical. It matters to the people that it matters to, some only watch because ot fits their current narrative and wouldn't care a single big about the past.

[@vothbetilia4862]

Easier said than done, sometimes it's better to just run and forget.

[@jaelonwillis2336]

@@lillexus5589Honestly it makes me trust C-milk more, or atleast that hes making these arguments in good faith. Like you said a lot of people are only on his videos for the sake of furthering their own argument and adding lefitmacy to beliefs they already held. But the fact that he is someone who was 100% pro ccp before living in China himself, and still has a clear softspot and care for the people of China makes me believe that he is making these arguments out of love, care, and admiration for the country and people of China, rather than to further a political agenda. Even his wife is Chinese. I dont think that single fact immidiately absolves you of making arguments in bad faith, but it does make me believe in where hes coming from a little more nonetheless. I do think C-milk and Serpentza do tend to pander to anti-chinese propagandists sometimes and take things to far, but its easy to see how you can get momentarily caught up in that. I genuinely believe that those two care about China and the improvement of the lives of its citizens and treatment of other countries.

[@DavidMuresan1993]

Your kind heart and honest desire to spread the truth and awareness is obvious and we all appreciate the work you do informing us on the reality of China in an era where the media is about worthless! God bless you Matt! ❤

[@johnhoward5954]

The Chinese people have no freedom. They cannot protest nor can they criticize the CCP. Compare that to the US.

[@Addictedtocollecting01]

It's an awesome thing to admit it as regularly as you do.. That makes you more qualified than most to criticize the CCP the way that you do.. Thank you.

[@Grace.allovertheplace]

This is hilarious 😂 pure gold 🙏 thank you Mr Laowhy for sharing this and allow us to laugh together with you 👍 Respectfully, Grace 🩰

[@sampletextlensflare]

Winston cameo laughing in the background at 10:13 pretty much sums this up. LOL. Good on you for making such a video showcasing how you were back then compared to how you've grown now! We are all fallible by design and so it is refreshing and positive to see such a video posted. Cheers CMilk!

[@ChewedGumballs]

Everyone of us has had those cringe moments in the past. But you are the only one with the balls to not only confront it, but publish it on KZbin for all of us to cringe together with you.😅

[@HouseOfAlastrian]

It certainly is better to confront your own past than to run away from it.

[@BVonBuescher]

There are two signs of a true man: 1) What one does when no one is looking 2) Admitting when one is wrong

[@halo2d]

It’s always sad/funny to go back 15 years and look at the dumb stuff we did and said. What an amazing gift age and experience is. Self awareness is a super power.

[@kimmer6]

I'm 70. I worked in as an engineer in 17 countries right out of college and did many more things in life as compared to many classmates at our reunions. I had some special clearances and got to see things in my field of work that the average citizen will never see. I did some stupid things in my 20's, less stupid things in my 30's and really got my act together in my 40's with fewer idiotic mistakes. I discovered the learning curve of my own life. I am glad that you are aware of these things in your own life. I snicker at comments where the young and still stupid blame ''boomers'' for their own shortcomings and misunderstandings and sling the word around with toxic disdain. ...Cheers!

[@Axiomatic75]

We all were young and stupid at some point. Thanks for the video, I enjoyed having a good laugh about your younger self alongside you.

[@luismedina5792]

Indeed I no longer follow those commie channels and see throw the bs they keep repeating

[@nolongerblocked6210]

It takes a good man to admit his faults & an even better one to not only admit them, but to publicly point out your assumptions, lies, disinformation & laugh at yourself. Props to you 👏👏👏

[@EstradaDuran-sg6co]

he got exposed

[@daskalman]

I'll always cherish & respect one of humanity's most ancient and renowned culture and the People who created it... Which is why I despise the CCP.

[@governorkraken6546]

Huge respect! I think we'd all be embarrased hearing the views and opinions of our 20yr old self.

[@tamertawil4473]

you're quite courageous and have a good degree of humility for posting this, i'm sure it will help current shills see the error of their own ways. you have my respect for that

[@johnhoward5954]

Shills won't change. They are paid to praise the CCP.

[@justsandy4381]

We’ve all done things we were ashamed of when we were young , props for admitting it and showing your growth

[@trangnguyen-yx9px]

Hello from Vietnam, China’s neighbor. Wow, Spoke from the inside experienced. How could you know the PPC so well if you weren’t there and experienced those things yourself!

[@419chris419]

Huh?

[@starcloud4959]

PPC pay hem lot of money

[@EvenStevensss]

When I was younger I thought I was a DEMOCRAT because I didn't like red, and to spite my parents since they were Republicans!! Later only find out after having my daughter and opening my eyes to the world that I really see things as a Republican!!

[@luismedina5792]

I was just the same now I'm more humble with what I have

[@thomasnelson6161]

I love that there were zero excuses made for your past. Stay gold, milkboi.

[@canadianbakin1304]

if you cringe at some of the stuff your past self did it means you've grown as a person, thats a good thing we've all done cringeworthy things we wish we hadn't with hind sight

[@thomasduvauchelle8583]

You are loved and respected true truth speaker God's blessings to you ❤

[@BungieStudios]

Thank you for making this Laowhy86. I have a bad habit of beating myself up for every little mistake or cringe accident. But seeing how you handle it, laugh it off, and move past it encourages me. I make mistakes but I learn and become better than I was yesterday. You lead by example! Stay awesome! 💪

[@CLEABEL]

We are usually our own worst critic. Take it easier on yourself, none of us are anywhere near perfect.

[@13donstalos]

This dude just owns it like a real man. Can't tell him nothing. Legend.

[@Desert-edDave]

Some are easily impressed.

[@SeverusStudios1980]

Laoser is now backpedalling pretty hard. Him and Winston are extremely suspect. Winston gained the trust of a serial rapist. How did he do that? Megalomaniacs ALWAYS demand some kind of illegal act to prove loyalty, so what did Winston do huh? And LOASER gaining the trust of a Commie government, same deal. What did HE do? These two cretins really need investigation and prosecution for thier past sins. I bet they are many.

[@corneliusthecrowtamer1937]

Hello CCP 👋 @@Desert-edDave

[@AlexThyGreek]

​@@Desert-edDave50 cent army.

[@seriouscat2231]

@@AlexThyGreek, they never have a good argument. They just shame and belittle whatever they see in random ways. Easily recognizable.

[@user-db6ps1cf2g]

The Concrete Confessional blog guy, who graduated from an Ivy, wrote a hilarious piece called "I Was Simon Song" about his experience as an elite higher educational consultant for the children of China's rich and famous. He talks about the ominous political changes of the past few years, as well.

[@adullsam]

Maaaan, you're too hard on yourself. This is totally standard for 95% of us at that age, in one form or other. I'm 39 yo now, and I cringe when recalling some of my rebellions and naiveties from around 20 years ago (and a few years either side of that!), but well played on taking ownership of this. It's the best way to deal with it, given your current content and focus with serpentza. Love your stuff, both of you. keep up the good work, fighting the good fight!

[@charleswomack2166]

As a recovering alcoholic/addict, I know how difficult it can be to admit to your own mistakes, to not just yourself another human being and the god of your understanding. I can only imagine how difficult it would be to admit your mistakes to the entire internet!

[@ronaldtaylor4530]

Luv u man....keep exposings the horrors of the CCP. All strength to the Chinese people.

[@vladpootin5973]

You have learned your lesson and you even have the stature to admit to it all. God Bless America!

[@seabiscuit6776]

The fact that you can laugh at yourself and leave the comments on is a testament to your character

[@W0TAN]

Good on you for owning up to this and having changed to a better person!

[@Average-Jyo]

Props to C-Milk takes a real man to admit past mistakes and set the records straight. The personal growth in the decade and a half really shows.

[@brettd3206]

Why did I just now find this? Hilarious!!! yet sad. Glad you smartened up. I knew a person who worked with a Chinese supplier and also had a friend who taught ESL in China. Neither are currently involved with China.

[@WomanNextDoor]

Was in Beijing in '92, even back then they were building for the Olympics.

[@woahhbro2906]

Hey, I used to be an open-borders libertarian - we've all had some cringe opinions when we were younger

[@fs5775]

hey man, we are all part of the same race, the "human" race, let 'em all in... 🤣🤣 jk

[@NothingXemnas]

Whatever you do or did, what matter is how you repent. Redemption takes a fuckton of energy and effort, and sometimes even professional help. What you have done since then far compensates your past. Maybe you didn't know better! Keep doing this great work, dude!

[@user-qd6cd1pw1h]

Autopsy is difficult to witness . Even more so to perform on your self. Cheers you survived ! I have been with you for awhile. Thanks for this ! It means something

[@tailsneon556]

Hindsight is always 20/20. There was a reason you changed your life entirely and moved there in the first place. Grass is greener sort of thing until the reality sets in. Took a while but it did happen. Glad you and Winston were able to make it out. They got you with the propaganda. They're kinda good at it. It's their thing over there.

[@boossersgarage3239]

LOL. that was embarrassing for sure. We all did things we wish we hadn't. Maturity takes time, years. Welcome to adulthood ...

[@leighz1962]

+1 to algorithm

[@joshflorence1998]

The real CCP-Milk... Finally unmasked...

[@leighz1962]

SSDD.. youth has its downsides and most of that is due to inexerperience.

[@Labyrinth6000]

Admitting to mistakes from an earlier age and being redempted for it

[@joshflorence1998]

@@Labyrinth6000 It's like an Anime, but in real life.

[@lebeinderbadewanne]

I think this is a great example of the Dunning Kruger effect. Props for showing us that.

[@ysub2435]

Thank god you've opened your eyes wide and see what you did was wrong. Never to late to correct your mistakes, now you are on the right path. You are already forgiven matt. We grew into our experiences and change, this is a good thing.

[@guybrushthreepwood2567]

Reflecting back on your younger self only shows integrity and authenticity. Being willing to learn and change your mind one way or another is the foundational thing for any human, yet so many of us are stuck in group-think. Great video. Congrats on your growth and self-reflection. Onward and upward!

[@MrJdsenior]

Well stated.

[@danner253]

You did better than most. Grow and learn. You're vital in spreading the truth.

[@noldoazul]

Great video, change your mind when you are understanding things is very normal, thanks for sharing.

[@evan6901]

Your journey is a very honest one brother, you used your brain and challenged your own beliefs based on what you saw. I wish more people were capable of doing the same.

[@Kretek]

Come on mate, it couldn't be so bad. Video started: 😮

[@claudiabaumann522]

😂😂😂

[@rjchavers9267]

I've left my bad takes on the Internet. Some are embarrassing but I can say when I'm wrong and I don't have the time or energy to try to curate myself online. Just remember that it's normal and healthy for us to be able to change our minds based on newly acquired information and experiences. I'm almost 50 and really feel bad for the younger generations with so much of their lives posted for the world to see in a very unforgiving world. 💔

[@k.1701]

I get you, been through the same transformation process. 15 years in China. Now finally out.

[@HarryTicke]

This is friggen amazeballs.... Present Matt deep-dive debating Past Matt, and using gained hindsight/wisdom to analyze in order to show the rest of us. Mad respect for this.

[@hollister2320]

My jaw is on the floor😂 this is why we love you man. It’s astonishing seeing how indoctrination starts

[@davidford3115]

Indoctrination and grooming have similar roots and goals.

[@NikolausUndRupprecht]

Respect! It takes a strong character to go through such old stuff and admit mistakes. Most people are too weak to do this.

[@christopher5148]

Brilliant Episode mate and respect points to you, this took real guts.

[@Emancipatriot]

We need more people like you out here. It’s so refreshing to see someone challenging their own beliefs and realizing what they believe was wrong and growing from it. We need more of this and less of people grouping together on social media thriving off each others cognitive dissonance ensuring that they succumb to peer pressure not to think differently.

[@wcaddey]

Way to go, Matt! I was embarrassed watching this too. Wow, what time and experience have done for you. Keep up the good work!

[@Immortelle_G]

First time commenting. That took guts! Really admire your willingness to be uncomfortable and share this

[@KyDarknight]

Always fighting the good fight.❤❤❤Keep it up!

[@kaanapali]

This video is a lot more powerful than you think- one instance of “self criticism” that works!

[@FAN3LL1]

This was hilarious man lmao. I have been watching all of your stuff for like 6 years. It was hilarious and fun to see how you used to think before you moved to China. It was great to get an insight into the mindset of a person that moves to China to start a new life. Your whole story and current situation is a really amazing view into China. Thanks for doing all of this, you have taught me SO much, honestly.

[@rauldavila8632]

Don't sweat it. I'm sure most of us would be embarrassed if we could see or hear what we were 20 years ago. I certainly wouldn't want to see my younger version. We all get old and smart

[@hamobu]

Omg this is so enlightening. It really illustrates how you can be ignorant while thinking that you are informed.

[@xornand6833]

now I feel less bad about my pro china former self ,thank you !

[@Objectivityiskey]

Thank you for being honest. whenever I talk poop about the CCP I get the 50cent army after me. You are an inspiration!

[@TheShizzo]

This had to be so hard to do, I was cringing for you I can only imagine what you were feeling lol. This just goes to show how much someone can change over time, and that's a great thing. Shows growth and evolution.

[@MrJdsenior]

I was laughing my freaking butt off. Mostly because I have been there, like everyone else. His treatment of it was classy.

[@zombodyhelp6992]

This amount of self awareness and reflection is the "Gold Standard" of true growth. Massive respect. 💯

[@iaku2227]

❤ Love and good wishes to you from Bhutan 🇧🇹

[@SHGames97]

After this & your hip hop career. You are the MAN!

[@scalzo9872]

It’s rare for anyone to look at their past self without cringing 😬.

[@martyfenton6184]

I am SO thankful that we did not have such technology during my misspent youth. Mine remains undocumented and hopefully forgotten by most. You are completely forgiven. None of us should be held accountable for ignorance when we had not yet seen the real world. This shows true character.

[@gregmcqueen4540]

Your a lot better than who they have working for them right now

[@Jokke13th]

Good stuff as always! You have grown miles from since you made those videos. Everyone does mistakes, but not that many admit them and learn from them.

[@RASD87]

I saw an interesting video that talks about how researchers base their work on pre-conceived premises that are generally accepted but not proven. This is a good example of years and years of propaganda at work. I think everyone at one point or another has fallen for it and I hope everyone can find the truth. Nothing but respect Lao!

[@MrJdsenior]

NOT ME, BUDDY! (kidding)

[@KINDaf]

I'm hoping that this can also open our eyes as to the autocities our own country commits. Including turning a blind eye to this. This have Intel but are nut telling us civilians how bad it is by creating this mess at home. Just look at the tRump fiasco. That's all that's on the news besides Isreal and our government shut down. How can we be informed properly on China if we cannot even function here? Thanks CMilk

[@hitzoneproductions7858]

It's strange to me for someone to dislike their country and love a foreign country even before they've been there.

[@needhelpwaquaregiadrop562]

The most polite until you fall down in the middle of the road during rush hour

[@JonnyDWise]

This really shines a light on people like me and many others that approach world events from the perspective that the US government is fundamentally bad and that info from outside the US carries more weight than our own. We are all guilty of this

[@MrJdsenior]

All govts do this, especially to justify wars, starting them through completely fabricated events, such as in the Gulf of Tonkin incident (that wasn't an incident, for the Vietnam war, later proven out by FIA obtained documents and recordings of Johnson, just a mistake by a radar operator, known at the time it was falsely used to incite support), or "Mushroom clouds" about 30,000 times by Bush II and company to justify entry into Iraq. The first time in, to liberate Kuwait was 100% righteous, and conducted honorably IMHO (quitting at the point Bush one had previously said he would, the Kuwaiti/Iraqi border), but number two was utter BS, using aluminum tubes that can be used for about a million other things than centrifuges as 'proof' of Iraqi nuclear research toward a nuclear weapon. The real point on disinformation or withholding of information, is when and how often. With govts like Russia and China the answer is all the time, and every other statement. With ours, much less often, but still, the old joke that goes "When is a politician lying? When his mouth is moving" is not totally devoid of fact. There are times when politicians and the military SHOULD lie, or keep unknown facts hidden, when ACTUAL national security is at stake, like the allies in WWII, with the enigma code breakage, or Churchill with the invention and installation of radar (that one was much harder, because cities were being bombed and he couldn't respond to the attacks without revealing his hand, without giving away the fact that if the Nazis invaded full force, which was a definite possibility at the time, the Brits would have early warning, to get planes in the air to respond, rather than bombed on the ground. Those are NOT the times I'm talking about. I'm talking about intentional self serving lies. And I'm not guilty of it. I don't assume either way until I've looked into it, though I usually give the US the benefit of the doubt, just by statistical probability based on past data before doing that. I wouldn't argue those points without some research, though. And there we enter into a whole new sticky wicket. With the mass media like the New York Times talking about Israel bombing that hospital (they 80% did not, in my estimation, so far) and showing a completely different, unrelated building missing its entire front half, where the ACTUAL pics of the hospital show it mostly intact, and a small crater in the parking lot, where the JADAMS Israel is using drop entire, or entire sections of buildings, and would have left a crater 25' wide and 20' deep. The crater shown in that parking lot is about three feet wide and one foot deep, exactly like the other craters from the missiles HAMAS is using. I say 80% because for me to be 100%, I would want to see identifiable debris left by the rocket, which is usually available, and curiously lacking in this case. They didn't bother, like the Russians, because if most people just hear something enough times, with NOTHING backing the statements, they accept them as fact. I think the NYT and other such media that knowing put BS like that out should be collectively responsible for the damage, or at the very least be required to provide a FRONT PAGE retraction, in that case pointing out that the picture was NOT that hospital, and showing the actual pictures, making a new assessment on the statement from those, which would have almost certainly been different. There is virtually no accountability, and obviously little integrity, so that is what we get. And apparently we are fine with being led around by the short and curlies, many of us.

[@nysq]

I’m from Denmark and my impression is that -like laowhy86 back then- a lot of Americans want to win and if it looks like America or its allies will lose they will cheer for the winner. That is why the American right cheer Putin and his war in Ukraine - because they don’t believe Ukraine will win. Even though morally his war has no excuse.

[@yeetthesecond8806]

@@nysq wouldn't you agree that far more people in the US cheer for Ukraine than don't though?

[@fu102]

@@nysq You are woefully misinformed

[@markpukey8]

That was thoroughly amusing. As you get older you realize that the problem with any kind of "death before dishonor" situation is that eventually all you have left are dishonored and dead people. We all screw up. We all believe things that don't stand up to scrutiny when we are young. The trick is to grow older and wiser... and admit that we were wrong before... and move on. So props to you Laowhy86, you're willing to admit your old mistakes.

[@suburbanbanshee]

The beauty of social media is that we post so much, we tend to forget a lot of our own hot takes. Occasionally I start to post something, and find out that I already posted the same opinion years ago... in almost the same words... and yet I don't remember it until I look at it. OTOH, the horror of social media is that those hot takes are still out there, waiting to remind us of our own cringiness of old. Arghhhh!

[@RikHep01]

young people make mistakes and learn from their life experiences. Cudos for your honesty

[@leighz1962]

To me honestly, we never grow up. 25 is brain development, but while it developes is mostly how we tend to stay. We just have more and better instruction books than our cavemen future or past selves.

[@RikHep01]

@@leighz1962 true we are always growing and evolving, some deny their mistakes of youth some develop into better versions of themselves. You my friend are a good example of that evolution

[@NeonTrapperKeeper]

It takes a big man to be able to make fun of yourself like that. You are awesome! Great video.

[@user-bf5ge8hz7f]

Ah, youth! When I was in about the 7th grade I was sure I was smarter than my teacher. Time and life teach us when we are willing to learn.

[@davidwittgruber7113]

It takes some big balls to rethink your past in puplic like this. Love it

[@killval849]

We respect you more for admitting to past mistakes man, everyone matures and learns as they grow, much more respect by just admitting and growing from it rather than trying to ignore it.

[@Myt229]

All this time you never admitted this or talked about it until you were getting exposed smh 🤦🏽🥴

[@fu102]

@@Myt229 stop replying the same garbage