i'm done with video games

[@nakikuroko9972]

wow, i found your channel quite recently and then it just dies... I understand were you're coming from though, i've actually felt something similar about youtube, books, manga, visual novels, games, etc. Always feeling like i was stuck in a weird cycle, read the new book, watch the new anime, watch the new video, buy a new game (put it in the backlog) and that it was all meaningless, that completely sucked the joy out of those things and i ended up disconnecting a bit from all of them. I started to look for new things that had "meaning", but long story short, i realized that there is no such a thing as "meaning" or "meaningless" these are just attributes that we give to things as a way to justify them in our lives, the only thing that has an inherent meaning is our survival, everything else should be considered "meaningless", thus it really doesn't matter if it's a vicious cycle of consumption, at the end of the day i liked immersing myself in these other worlds, making theories about were they might go next, understanding these characters and even seeing a bit of myself in some of them... All of this to say that, i hope whatever you find now makes you happy, and even if it doesn't, experiencing it might give you enough perspective to go back to those things you liked before and appreciate them even more. I usually don't really comment in videos, but this one kind of struck a chord with me, if you post anything else i'll be here since i think your videos are quite comfy to watch, if you never post anything else, then i hope you have a great life.

[@cutespooky]

What you have found in those cycles is important. There is a reason what I say resonates with a part of you. I know that doesn't make much sense now, but you are on the right track with reflecting on that kind of thing. I'm really thinking about making a new channel to try to share my own journey to finding the answer to help others who feel something is also wrong. If I do, I will post an update to this channel. Wishing you peace ❤

[@orangejuche]

Well, the time was short, but I found several new experiences through you that I would have never picked up without coming across your channel, so thank you for that. If you ever do choose to upload anything outside of this somewhere on youtube or whatever, hopefully I can run across you there again and enjoy that too. Good luck with your new chapter in life, Pook ♥

[@cutespooky]

Glad you found something there. If I do decide to make another channel or something, though it would be entirely different in nature, I'll post an update here in some form.

[@silvermasked0]

As someone who has been loving your channel from the beginning, I just want to encourage you to find your own personal happiness. Whatever form that may take. You matter. We have been blessed with what you gave us. I wish you a fairy tale ending with the option of a sequel. Please take precious care of yourself, we will think of you fondly. 🖤

[@cutespooky]

This is so sweet, thank you so much ❤

[@LoupStephens]

o7 really enjoyed your videos. wishing you the best.

[@cutespooky]

Thanks for watching ❤You as well.

[@kevincoughlin3455]

Do something you love! I've enjoyed your insight into games, in particular your video on games that healed you. Good luck!

[@truegamer_007]

I don't know if this is the same experience that you're going through, but I've found my experience with gaming as a hobby to have highs and lows. At the lowest I had stopped playing any games except one that I occasionally played. Then in 2020 during the you-know-what, I rediscovered my love of gaming again. And I discovered the joys of replaying old games. I used to replay a lot of my favourite games as a kid and I stopped doing that as I got older and it was easy to buy newer games. I found that there was so much joy in replaying games and finding new things you missed in them. I also realised I had been focusing too much on the breadth of experiences I could get in the media I enjoy, and not just gaming. So I decided to switch up how I did things, and I rewatched old shows, replayed old games, and really enjoyed it. I try to stick to that even today. I don't know if this helps you but sometimes when one door closes, another opens, maybe the decline of your love for gaming can make space for something new. And maybe it's just temporary and you'll one day come back to gaming with the same joy you had before. I hope you're well and take care. Best of luck for whatever pursuits you take on in the future!

[@cutespooky]

I know it may be hard to understand, because while I have gone through that kind of thing you are talking about, this is completely different. This was more like a stomping out of that desire to play them in the first place, and I feel totally at peace. You are absolutely right that is making space for something new ❤

[@makikuma91]

Whatever you plan in the future, I wish you good luck. I found your Opinions on Games always quite refreshing. Do what makes you happy, because you shouldn't do what makes you regret, too. Thank you for your Videos. And btw...videogames definitly deserve critisism. And you did a good job at that. You weren't being destructive or mean, just Analytical and Informative. I stay here in case you post other things, even if it's not gaming.

[@cutespooky]

I always strove to be fair, but truthful ahah. I may make a new channel and link to that at some point. Haven't decided yet, but thanks for alway showing up ❤

[@professorgucho2629]

RIP It was fun while it lasted! Good luck with what you do next and praise Ditto!!!

[@Stryker_Rain]

I only found you recently and have been enjoying your videos a bunch, Im sad that the channel is ending but completely understandable if that is what you need to do. I wish you the best for the future and look forward to whatever comes next. Good luck!

[@Idontwantadamchannel]

I’d wish you luck, but you don’t need it. OP to the end.

[@AlisonJazzyCatto]

Aw I wish you the best, I completely understand that buying so many games isn't viable. Just think of this channel as a successful side quest, not a main quest you should be worried about. I hope *you* are living today in a way you won't regret. Farewell Pooks

[@cutespooky]

Ahah, that's a good way of putting it. This channel was vital in getting me to find what really mattered. Thanks for always watching ❤

[@human22265]

It is good that you found the answer to the questions of your existence. I can understand that it can be tiring reviewing games and always getting and playing a new game. I rarely buy video games. I don't think that there's anything wrong with a person buying and playing a video game one, after the other. To each their own. I can understand that you don't want to be a part of that cycle and promoting it. I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors. Perhaps post some of your litterature in a community post. Will you make a new channel? It's up to you what you do. I hope that you enjoy what you do, whatever it might be. What about playing one of those games from your burnt-out video? What about playing video games from time to time in private without making any content out of it? That way you won't be in that cycle you described. I'm just wondering. Or is your desire to play just totally gone? Even it it is just playing for your own enjoyment. What about beating your brother in a multiplayer game? xD I hope that you're living today in a way that you won't regret.

[@cutespooky]

The desire really isn't there for me at all. I am not judging others for wanting to play them. It just wouldn't be genuine for me to continue working with them. ❤ I may make a new channel, I haven't decided yet. If I do, I'll post about it, or make a vid update, or something.

[@RamblePak64]

Admittedly, it saddens me to hear this, but it is also very understandable. KZbin is a very difficult space to try and grow a channel, and video production can take an incredibly long time. There's a part of me that wants to wave their arms around and propose a less "nuke it all" strategy, as I myself have drastically, DRASTICALLY slowed the purchase of the hot new thing. I revel in replaying games, so I buy fewer new games and try to replay old and new games alike, or discover old games. But, I'm also not working to make my channel my job. Simultaneously, I don't know how it is with you, but video games are just a part of who I am on such a level I cannot imagine giving them up completely. At the same time, for the past few years I've been on a separate journey, because there is something more important to me than video games. Something a bit more controversial, potentially, given it revolves around faith, but as my life continues onward and I am met by challenges in real life, I feel more and more inclined to share that in my life, as it is more important to me than any thought on video games. So, while it is different than your chasing of a passion to write, I understand feeling like there's something more important to you that you'd rather follow through on. I was looking to see if you had updated your Twitter, and... I can't find it. Did you delete the account?

[@cutespooky]

Video games were a HUGE part of my identity and that was shed as I continued spiritual exploration. Doesn't mean I'll never play or talk about one again, but it's not going to be THE thing anymore. And it wasn't really writing itself that replaced that desire, but the continuation of that spiritual exploration. That has been coming out as a lot of writing lately, so I was debating writing a book or something. But, who says I can't do that here? Writing scripts is writing. So, I think I'm going to change this channel to talk about whatever the hell I want to talk about at the time. It seems like people really don't care what I yap about, they just like hearing me yap loll. I did get rid of social media during all of this ahah. But, I've decided I'll still be here, just do some rebranding I guess.

[@hemangchauhan2864]

_(I'm really really sorry if it's personal, and you don't need to answer this.)_ Could you tell bit more about "contemplating your existence"? I think it might be bit useful for me (I'm in that same mindset currently).

[@cutespooky]

It is not personal at all. It is something we all go through. I may make a new channel exploring this kind of thing. It'd be way too much to fit into a single comment. If I do, I'll link to it and maybe you'll find something there. For now, just know that you are on the right path continuing to explore that question, and know that you are not alone in this world ❤

[@hemangchauhan2864]

@@cutespooky thank you. You have an incredibly strong spirit.

[@stvnbo]

of course this would happen after i just finished watching all your videos lol. if you feel comfortable sharing id love to know why you're passion for gaming has suddenly died. if not, that's ok too. i wish you the best of luck on your future endeavors, whatever that might be :)

[@cutespooky]

I'm completely comfortable with it. I think it's important to share what I've found with others. I was thinking about a book, but I may also make another channel to explore my findings for all interested. I'll post an update here if I do.

[@DiegoHernandez-ts8by]

Wish you the best of luck

[@cutespooky]

Thank you, you as well.

[@DiegoHernandez-ts8by]

@cutespooky one of these days, I'll get through visions of mana and metaphor refantazio. I'll think of you when I play them. Thank you for covering them best wishes. Also you have a cute voice

[@cutespooky]

@@DiegoHernandez-ts8by 🤣thank you. I hope you enjoy your time with them!