I'm Experiencing Schizophrenia Cognitive Struggles

[@JIMKATSANIDIS]

Cognitive symptoms refer to how well your brain learns, stores, and uses information, and this can be affected by Schizophrenia. These cognitive symptoms of Schizophrenia like slow thinking, difficulty concentrating, understanding, memorising and expressing thoughts can be very frustrating. Exercises, a healthy diet, adequate sleep and mental activities can improve overall cognitive health.Thank you so much for educating others as well as sharing your experiences Stephen!🙂🌷

[@barneyronnie]

Ah, you're from the UK.😊

[@JIMKATSANIDIS]

@@barneyronnie, I'm from Melbourne of Australia. Have a great day!👋

[@ovhome6841]

@jimkatsanidis You seem very informed. Do you have any coping techniques you would recommend to those who have slight paranoia like stephen mentioned where he thought random people were talking about him. Maybe a link to some or a book u recommend or a youtube channel?

[@JIMKATSANIDIS]

@@ovhome6841 The book Overcoming Paranoid and Suspicious Thoughts (2nd ed, 2016) by the longtime paranoia researchers Daniel Freeman and Philippa Garety, the website Paranoid Thoughts from the psychiatry department at the University of Oxford and In the US, the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) offers free support groups for ‘any adult who has experienced symptoms of a mental health condition’. Have a lovely day!🌷

[@SchizophreniaSurvivor]

@@JIMKATSANIDIS Stephen and I saw your original comment above, but I had just seen this one a few minutes ago. Your reference is an excellent resource, which I'm linking here: www.paranoidthoughts.com/. Thank you for your significant comments and support on Stephen's channel!

[@rosepainting1]

You have changed so much for the better since I’ve been watching your videos. I’m a 45/y nurse, currently I’m working on an inpatient psychiatric hospital. I’ve always struggled to understand schizophrenia Your sharing the journey you’ve been on has helped me so much. Thank you. Mental illness touches us all, everyday You are brave and strong! Keep doing what you are doing, I’m applauding you!

[@martinbrousseau2560]

Founding father of trauma science Dr.Frank Ochberg talks about the importance of the shift to calling it an injury as most mental health issues are often caused by one or more traumatic injuries.

[@johnv1176]

Hi Stephan. Just wanna say you have a winning formula at the start of each video. "Welcome to surviving schizophrenia" etc. It reminds me of the Daily Dose of Internet intro and is a great way to start you videos and has a sense of continuity. I see a psychologist for talk therapy, they have a table with fidget spinners and the like. When I play with them whilst talking my words come out more smoothly. I think I'm going to carry a bouncy ball in my bag when I go out to reduce my nervous energy. The Greeks have these things called "worry beads" which are for similar purposes. A few more life tips I've learnt: when passing people on the street: physically wave with your hand whilst saying hi. You're more likely to get a hi or wave back. Also, there is this exercise equipment called a "walking pad", especially for days that are colder outside. Its lighter and cheaper than a treadmill. Keep going Stephen, you're doing great 😊 👍

[@barneyronnie]

Your real time narrative proved to be a real 'eye opener. ' This took tremendous courage on your part, but provided interesting insights into your struggles. Have you ever addressed your inability to focus on one thing with your clinician? The fact that you are mindful of your need for distraction is an indication how far you have progressed. Please be patient with yourself and don't be overly critical of your methods ( multitasking) for reducing your anxiety. You continue to be an inspiration to those who are struggling.😊

[@avrilf4252]

You're a very strong young man sharing yourself like this. I cant imagine how many people this is helping. Helping them feel less alone, really putting yourself out there. WEll done mate on getting this video done today. Much respect from Sydney Australia

[@galeoshea2961]

This is the most realistic insight into schizaphrenia in real time on utube. You're doing an amazing job Stephen thanks to you we feel less alone.

[@victory2777]

You are doing very well! Good job!

[@Kevtalkseverything]

Brain frog is no joke and it is very difficult to get through its a wave then it goes away and hits suddenly with no warning but keep your head up and remember it will come and go buts definitely not easy!

[@elizabethwutzke9040]

Thank you much for sharing your thoughts with us. You are about the same age as my grandson and I enjoy very much listening to you and getting to know you.

[@DeeLite220]

This is so informative for me. Thanks for sharing Stephen.

[@nathanmcgowan659]

Hi, Stephen. I just wanted to tell you that the progress you have made over the past year is truly remarkable. You are facing this head on and really digging deep to gain a comprehensive understanding of your illness and applying this understanding and adapting. Truly inspiring. Keep up the good work you are doing for yourself and for all of us out here who are also a little unwell :) Thank you!!

[@NickKnight-nj1is]

hey stephen, i have schizoaffective disorder, and man, cognitive issues is my main problem. i struggle doing daily tasks, including conversing ith people without getting tounge tide, let alone know what to even say when talking. im happy you made this video, it makes me feel less alone. glad to see you dude, great video!

[@monapotter908]

Thank you for sharing . It helps us all understand the struggles.

[@drucillacollins9431]

I admire you doing these videos. I have a family history of Schizophrenia. My grandmother was schizophrenic as were a few of her sisters. I am so elated to see that they are doing better with treatments. It was horrible when they would give them thorazine or haldol. It made it easier for the people in the facility to manage them, but then they would send the patients home, they would just stop taking their meds, because of the horrible side effects. It is amazing to see how well spoken and expressive that you are. I am sure getting to this point was not easy. So far, none of my generation have developed schizophrenia. Thank you for your channel..even in my 50's it still looms over my head and it is a relief seeing that should I develop schizophrenia that there are better treatments. Thank You!

[@crosseyedone7960]

Thanks Stephen for your video's, thoughts and sharing information. Blessing to you and your family from Tasmania.

[@margit6521]

Thank you, Stephen. This was really educatitive. Keep up the good work.

[@elizabethshannon24]

Thank you for doing this video Stephen. My son is going through a similar scenario and when you explain how you feel I then can be a better parent because I can understand what he is going through. Being aware of his difficulties makes me more patient and less judgemental. Please keep going, it is all good - and, well done!

[@SurvivingSchizophrenia]

Thank you so much for your support and for sharing! Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!

[@pauldemic2747]

Great video,Stephen. You actually did a terrific job communicating your cognitive experience. You speak so honestly and naturally. And intelligently! You’re a teacher and an observer. Love your videos. Looking forward to the next one.

[@ChaiLatte13]

I don't have schizophrenia and I can relate a lot to what you are saying with brain fog. I do not enjoy mindfulness either. Thinking too much and ruminating is stressful. I'm better with distraction too!

[@eveningprimrose3088]

Same here, I relate to just about everything he said.

[@gigahorse1475]

@@eveningprimrose3088Cognitive symptoms also appear in a wide range of mental illnesses and developmental disorders. It’s not just a schizophrenia problem, although it tends to be worse in schizophrenia. That’s why if you look at the DSM, there’s nothing on cognitive symptoms (it’s not diagnostic or a useful differentiation tool).

[@CulturalArtNews]

Thanks for posting! Love these “what I’m experiencing right now “ type of videos.

[@Tolya1979]

When you are in your 20s and have Schizophrenia, like I have been, your adrenals, or more precisely, your adrenal hypothalamic pituitary axis, is on extreme overdrive, always keeping you alert and quickly reacting and always thinking. As you get older, like me, hormones slow down, especially affecting your AHP axis, and you can start to become more clear-headed. Just keep on coping day-to-day, hour-to-hour, minute-to-minute, and things can get a lot better as you get older. Best of luck to you, Stephen. You are a great guy!

[@lestereo]

You are an inspiration, Stephen. Keep up the great work.

[@rpink8531]

Very real video- authenticity is your winning streak & it helps me understand and be compassionate to friends living with this illness. So thank YOU for your courage to share with us🙏🌟

[@jesuspp5157]

A lot of people have the same trouble, God Bless you, keep on working on it

[@catherinemccarty2307]

Thank you for making this video. I realized that I (personally) have some of these issues but for some reason I thought those issues were mine alone. Its good to hear your issues are similar to mine. I am working with a psychologist now and we often discuss brain fog and what to do about it. Generally I isolate and prefer my own space and thoughts. For a really long time I thought that my inside voice was just my conscience telling my what is right. Turns out its my inside voice and not everybody has that voice. Therapy is the best thing that I have done for myself. Prayers and gentle hugs!

[@PoeLemic]

Yes, sadly, I don't have any inside voice. My wife has an inner dialogue. I have nothing inside. When I sit down and pause, I hear nothing and have no helpful guides inside.

[@gordonbenoit9789]

Thanks!

[@SurvivingSchizophrenia]

Thank you Gordon! I really appreciate your support! Have a happy and healthy rest of your day! Hope you have a wonderful holiday season!

[@silviareyes5267]

Thank you much Stephen, you did a great job explaining Cognitive issues in Schizophrenia. Your clear examples help me understand my son’s illness. 🙏🏼

[@buzznguy]

I’m not sure where I heard this but I’ve heard it’s 20% what happens and then 80% is your attitude with that said maybe by being aware of that you are in control of your attitude can lessened the negative thoughts because you can replace them with whatever kind of thought you want. Remember that. No matter what happens someone gets hurt or someone gets sick or someone tells you something bad you pick the attitude that you want to have practice then I hope you get this.

[@mariamaboumia9284]

It also affects executing orders.remembering tasks even brushing teeth That s why I think you should have a list in your room and you tick what you be done or an agenda for everyday.that s what a psychiatric advises Parents should daily remind you about things you should ve done or not It s not rude beeing distracted darling. It s a brain issue❤ Beside this it s ok to stop the video have a break or make another one Don t stress yourself by overtaking contents If it s hard or long go for shorts ones We love you and support you

[@jeanmariejellybean9654]

Stephen thank you so much for doing these videos. You are so open and explain your issues and experiences in such a thoughtful manner even with the added struggle of cognitive difficulties. I can really relate to your cognitive issues, trying to exercise through exhaustion, and smiling and saying hello to people in the neighborhood. I deal with brain fog and extreme exhaustion because I have chronic pain from a number of physical conditions. I'm naturally shy but it was an epiphany moment for me when I talked with very out-going friends who confided they too suffer from shyness and thinking people might be talking about them. They told me that they get over it by being the first to say hello and talk. So I guess if you can take glean anything from my long comment is really you are among friends in that so many can relate to your issues with or without schizophrenia because everyone has many similar difficulties. Keep up the good work on your videos!

[@tb6341]

I'm a dad of 2 and I am navigating around generalized anxiety disorder, very strong adhd, severely poor short term and working memory, brain fog, something i call "stuckness" (it seems like a vague term but it's really accurate description), depression (improved a lot via introspection), and recently diminished cognitive performance. Nothing like schizophrenia yet I'm learning a lot from you in a short time. Thank you immensely. Thank you for being yourself. You're helping countless people in a very real way. much gratitude. 🙏

[@blackdogracing]

I can sympathize with the short term memory problem. As you get older short term memory seems to be only seconds long, so I compensate by writing (paper or computer) a few key words down as a memory jog if I lose the thought or need to come back to it later. Introverts far from being tuned out are actually overly tuned in and suffer mental exhaustion from high continuous levels of sensory input, thus a quiet night at home is much preferred. I think an overlooked source of brain fog might be boredom. When my brain picks up on a new/interesting thought and runs with it the fog/boredom disappears. All these are related to sensory input, too much, too little, or incorrect processing. I had episodes of Synesthesia when I was very young, very disconcerting when you touch and object and taste and hear its’ color, or smell sounds. When I told my parents about it the look on their face was like ‘ah yea ok, and the cow jumped over the moon’ why don’t you go outside and play.

[@PoeLemic]

Do you still have Synesthesia or did it go away as you got older? I thought that synesthesia would be a brain processing difference that would stay with the person life-long.

[@blackdogracing]

@@PoeLemic I don't remember having in episodes of synesthesia after about age 10, that is a sense that I was stuck in a state for a few minutes when my sensory inputs seemed to be crossed wired in my brain. However, for as long as I can remember, when I visualize in my minds eye numbers and letters they have colors, vary in size and are usually in snake like chain. The alphabet looks like a roller coaster for me. Never caused me any problems as I didn't tell anyone A is red and B is tan. As an adult I have experienced infrequently something called 'peak experience'. Typically I was totally alone and away from any signs of humanity, and sudden overwhelming sense of being connected with world over powers me. A very powerful sense of being connected as one with everything around me and that time has momentarily stopped between two seconds. I don't think it lasts more than a few seconds but is emotionally very pleasant and the recollection of it lasts for a long time.

[@stevendaniel8126]

You're a terrific young man.... Keep up your strength and courage!!

[@kinzhe83]

Hey Stephen, nice to watch you again :) I was away for a while, I went to the Croatian sea with my parents and aunt and I've been 99% without digital media and to be honest it was a really good experience for me. Swimming in the sea, not a lot of people, since the season hasn't started yet, watching my father fish with just bare hands and fishing line and pieces of bread (we had his fish for lunch every day except one), having an interesting conversations with my aunt, it was all a very useful experience for me, as opposed to just sitting at home, playing video games and listening to KZbin for most of the time. Now on to the topic, I too had huge cognitive problems when I was off Zyprexa, but after I was hospitalized 15 years ago, slowly but surely my cognitive skills improved and I'm glad to say can focus now better than ever before, and I can sustain attention very easily whereas before it was very difficult. My working memory is not that great but it's not a big problem. I'm really glad your cognitive skills are improving over time, and I think they will only get better. After all, I was 24 when I was hospitalized and now I'm 40, and I feel "smarter" now then when I was 24, if that makes sense. Well that's my thoughts on this video, thanks so much for making them and I wish all of us here the very best in our fight against hardships of mental illness :)

[@dramatriangle]

Wow that sounds like a great vacation! Thanks for sharing your experiences too. Every bit of communication helps, as clear as we can make it.

[@kinzhe83]

@@dramatriangle Thanks for saying that :) I hope Stephen and people here pardon my English, it's not my native tongue, but I'm trying my best :)

[@PoeLemic]

@@kinzhe83 Yeah, I wish that I could go where you went and have time away from things. That's why I loved the Covid period, because I remembered who I was. I think that society has gotten too complicated. It'd be nice if nuclear bomb knocked us back to Stone Age, where we'd have time for compassion, learning, and having simple lives.

[@kinzhe83]

@@PoeLemic I really hope you get to rest and have time away from things too, my recommendation is Croatian coast, people are chilled and relaxed and you can even fish if you want to (that's the primary reason my father goes to sea, I don't think he'd go if he couldn't fish). Wish you as little stress as possible sir, take care.

[@janerainsford8996]

I’m so glad you made this video! Brain fog is one of my big problems. I have a nasty case of life long lupus. The symptoms you described are exactly like my mental issues. I take strong immunosuppressive drugs and I have been on them for 40 years. You are not alone. I love hearing what you have to say. You make it easier for me to get thru the day.

[@SurvivingSchizophrenia]

Thank you for sharing and have a happy and healthy rest of your day!

[@buzznguy]

I totally understand what you’re saying the only way I am able to keep focus is by doing only one thing at a time I was just telling my friend earlier I can only do one thing at a time I can’t work and then go have fun I have to just do work right now in my life it’s crazy but you’re not so different I’m not schizophrenic but I know I understand exactly what you’re talking about so maybe don’t be so hard on yourself and maybe try not to blame everything on your schizophrenic I don’t know if that makes any sense. Just my opinion I’m not a doctor.

[@writersblockmemoirs]

Stephen, hi from Ireland. This work you are doing with your channel is reaching people all over the world. Personally, I think showing us your insights and incredibly, having the courage to do it while you are experiencing a bad moment, shows us how to behave around friends with similar struggles. You are able to pick-up the treads of your conversation with such ease. You don't panic and you clearly have faith in your brain to exit the fog. This is a very important message. 👏 Just wonder whether autism ever came up in the conversations with your therapists?

[@anasaenz5702]

I really enjoy your videos and insight , number 1 take away , " it does not stop me from living my life" I feel alot of us have different challenges but it should not and will not stop us from living our life, makes plenty of sense !

[@eb1266]

Thank you for being so brave... Making these videos and sharing with us. I have two sons they have special needs. Listening to your videos is helping me to understand schizophrenia. My children have Autism one of my. Them is a you tuber too. 😊 He works so hard making his videos. praying for you...💕🙏💕

[@marknonnenmacher1918]

Hi Stephan, I think you are doing great! You are very articulate! I have severe refractive Depression and I Can relate to so much of what you are describing. Thank you for making these videos.

[@SurvivingSchizophrenia]

Thank you very much for watching and sharing!

[@smallisbeautiful2808]

Whenever I have those issues, I just write it off as ADHD... I used to think I only had the hyperactivity part of it without the attention deficit side, but lately I've become very aware that - at least under certain circumstances - I most definitely have attention deficit disorder as well.

[@abdirizaksaid7957]

I have schizophrenia and I have positive, negative and congntive symptoms, thanks for creating this content.

[@susanne4028]

Thank you for another interesting video Stephen.

[@Trendlespin]

Stephen I so appreciate your sharing what it is like to have an episode because I have often wondered. About mindfulness, at Quaker meeting the group gathers in a circle and sits in silence. Not to be alone with thoughts but to get quiet, on the outside and on the inside too. I learned that when thoughts keep popping up and they do, to imagine taking that thought and putting it up in a cloud above my head, knowing that I am not to think about that or anything right now. It is a time to shut down. Don't think any thoughts just put them aside. I find this difficult to do when at home alone as thoughts like, did I leave something on in the kitchen? or do I hear the toilet overrunning? thoughts like those will keep interrupting my shut down time. But with the group you are stuck sitting there waiting for the quiet so you at first feel very uncomfortable and are not sure you can make it through the whole 45 minutes just sitting there in silence. But I have come to so appreciate the silence. How much I have gained by learning how to still the current within! To me mindfulness isn't being alone with my thoughts, it is being without thoughts. And from that quiet place often comes inspired thoughts. This is when in silent Quaker meeting a friend will stand and give an inspired word, words that come from the silence. Then back into silence we go. I wish for you and I that we can grow and learn and be open to the fact that just because something doesn't work once for us doesn't mean it won't work in a different way sometime in the future. And that sometimes the things that we think are helping us are distractions that are keeping us from growing. Much love to you and yours on this often perplexing but also often beautiful earth journey.

[@barneyronnie]

Glad to encounter a fellow Quaker. I attend a meetinghouse in Pittsburgh!😊

[@Trendlespin]

@@barneyronnie ( : Greetings ( : I am not officially a Quaker but I am definitely a friend of The Friends. I was lead to and for many years attended the group near Athens by a dear lady, the late, great Helen Horn. Quakers are truly onto something with their listening. The way they listen to others and the inner voice is truly inspirational and ahead of the times. Blessings and may your day be full of Light ( :

[@DannyD-lr5yg]

Stephen, I completely understand what you mean about stewing on the thoughts being a downward spiral, while speaking in a video about the same things is cathartic! I think you suggested it’s because this format is “structured”? I TOTALLY get that!

[@cynthiahurlburt2819]

:( Great job in using your tools to relax. Informing your parents is thoughtful. You are a wise young gentleman. . Snack attacks 😋 food in an emergency kit in the car. The decision made to keep the holidays simple this year is making a big difference. Keep lifting you up in prayer. You are a caring young man! .

[@SurvivingSchizophrenia]

Thank you very much for your support! Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!

[@Sn0wShepherd]

::Gives you lots of hugs:: Brain Fog is so bad. I have 18/18 Fibromyalgia so if it doesn't hurt really bad and constantly, it's foggy in my head; so I can't think clearly very often. :D

[@frankjamesbonarrigo7162]

I understand having lots of things going on to clear your head.

[@victor9501]

I know what you mean about brain fog, I get that sometimes, and my brain generally works slower. Also, I can't remember things, like people's names, or the names of movies etc.. I find exercise really helps to get my brain working!

[@simonroper4713]

My neural flow is more like an ugly twisted up old tree in comparison to a brain scan that shows regular beautiful flow of a holistic brain working in concert. I use olanzapine which shuts down normal neural connection. I can still access those brain regions but it requires a different route being created which is difficult to do.

[@babyinvasion]

You are a beautiful person 💙 I'd love to have a friend like you

[@dramatriangle]

Thank you for this!!!

[@BergenholtzChannel]

Thank you so much for doing this video. You have helped me to understand my sons. ❤

[@jennifertiemann6403]

I think you're doing a great job explaining everything 😃

[@hectorsimanca9823]

Great video Stephen, very relatable. Greetings from Mexico.

[@georgeybushy]

Thanks Steven I got diagnosed a month ago and this video is super relatable. I agree with you focusing on one thing is difficult compared to multitasking. I agree with you 100%. I find I have a lot of these same issues. I’m curious how old are you?

[@svetlicam]

If i my suggest you the way to learn to calm your thoughts. If you like animals, you could get some big calm and stable bread of dog. You could also learn by helping it to grow up to be responsible to others in more calming way, and maybe connecting with some living being that not require from you complex thought processing all the time could theach you how to go along with certain stressful and sudden feelings. Also physical play with dog can help you to mitigate stressful cues from soroundings much more calmly. I suggest you this because i have such big dog and helps me sometimes to get rid of negative thoughts and emotions, because dogs are constantly paying attention to you and always vigilant to accept any kind of response from you, so that kind of energy makes you be much more present in the moment.

[@Lipolimtown]

Steven would you be able to describe some of the benefits of clozapine. Would you say it has something to do with reward processing/ reward valuation seeking even though it is sedating. I know you aren’t an addict and your schizophrenia was childhood onset but I think findings are starting to understand that for a lot of people schizophrenia can develop because of addictions/ trauma. Clozapine has something to do with connecting to M1 muscarinic receptors in the brain and these receptors are really starting to be studied in full for psychotic disorders and addiction. What would you say some of the psychological effects you noticed first from clozapine?

[@victor9501]

You're looking well!

[@janerainsford8996]

You have a great smile!

[@JeremiahPhillips-pp4fx]

Thanks for the video Ur someone I look up too if u have any advice on losing people because of schizophrenia and what u do to cope that would help a lot

[@susansparanormalpennsylvan81]

i have brain fog, because i have back pain and take gabapentin pills for the pain i get a little fuzzy a few hours later sometimes but not always, or if my back hurts really bad and i take alot of gabapentin on a very painful day, then the next morning i notice my brain is really foggy for the first couple hours i am awake. So you are not alone.

[@jackiecooley5937]

Thanks so much for the insight. Can you tell me what therapy helped the most with realizing, when out and about, people were not talking about and focusing on you.

[@SurvivingSchizophrenia]

For me it wasn’t therapy, it just took time. Thank you for asking. Have a happy and healthy rest of your day.

[@NoNina960]

Can you please provide arabic subtitles for your videos?❤ We really need these videos as very few pts discuss their true stories

[@dramatriangle]

Anyone who speaks both English and Arabic can submit subtitles through KZbin. Please look into it as I agree this is important. I have submitted subtitles to KZbin for other videos (yet I do not submit them in Arabic. I do not speak or write in Arabic.) You or one of your acquaintances may be able to help many people by providing subtitles or even dubbing to these videos!

[@jazztocountry1047]

Schizophrenia is really a syndrome rather than one disease. For example, there are 433 known(so far) alleles related to schizophrenia. I have one which causes a disorder where there is excess proline in the blood. I don't get schizophrenic symptoms. No symptoms is the most common state. Yet a close relative of mine has been diagnosed as schizophrenic. Out of all 433 allele pairs, I only have that one pair with two pathogenic variants. All the others have two standard variants. Now prolinemia can be caused by two different alleles. Both do the same thing, the non standard variants are less effective at creating an enzyme that breaks down proline. Proline is a proto amino acid that the body makes but is also taken in when eating most animal and some vegetable proteins. However, having a high lactic acidosis increases the effect of excess proline. And high lactic acidosis can be caused by lack of oxygen, too much exercise, problems with digestion, diabetes, and probably other things I have forgotten. Excessive proline in the blood is called prolinemia. So having that information has been very helpful to our family. It cost me $400 to get my genome and have it checked against 10,000 genetic disorders. But the regular reports are set for higher certainty and the risk report I ran didn't specify that the disorder was related to schizophrenia. I paid another $400 for better database access before I got the report and then found it by searching for the keyword. I think the most efficient method would have been to pay for the genome and then ask for the human genetic counselor which is $129. But I actually haven't tried it so can't guarantee it will work. It was worth it to me to find other genetic disorders which ran in the family. The company was sequencing.com Also, I'm not a geneticist. So my terminology might not be precise wrt alleles and variants. Also, you could also get schizophrenia by autoimmune activity. In that case you might or might not find the cause. Another reason to argue for calling schizophrenia a syndrome

[@Emily-wq2nx]

Hi Stephan. Your video was helpful and felt great to connect to. If it’s not too personal, I’m wondering, do you work? If so, what kind of job do you work? I am struggling with cognitive issues and staying employed.

[@HiberNAT]

This is like me without ADHD meds 😢 a hug 🫂 from the distance

[@eddie9164]

I find my thoughts wonder so much I forget what I am doing

[@mynorby206]

thanks for sharing

[@AleshJohn]

Your amazing❤

[@SurvivingSchizophrenia]

Thank you!

[@ronaldsmith531]

I now call it “A Senior Moment.”

[@avi7278]

Hi Stephan, have you considered learning to code. It's a great "strategy game", and can lead to a career where you can work from home. You should really consider it.

[@Cookson66]

Hi Stephen, I’ve watched a view of your videos now and I just wondered if you may also have ADHD in addition to your schizophrenia? I say this as a adhd person myself, of course I understand schizophrenia is so complex and hard to pinpoint exactly how this affects your focus but it’s stood out to me Just how many examples you give that are similar to what adhd sufferers experience.. lack of focus, attention deficit, wondering thoughts, intrusive thoughts, inability to switch off and mind always racing, feeling as if your mind is run by a motor , finding hard to not overly pay attention to small details ie people eating near you, I also get affected by that and I do not suffer with schizophrenia.. I do clearly see all of your symptoms of schizophrenia but I’m just wondering if you may also be experiencing adhd .. is this something professionals have explored and ruled out ? Adhd is very misunderstood, stereotypes are usually of people bouncing off walls with lots of energy but this is not the case, you can also have inattentive adhd which impairs cognitions of the mind, it’s a neurodivergence and our minds are just not like others .. we are very hyper vigilant, curious minds that often wonder when left under stimulated .. pls look into this further if it’s not something you’ve already done .. check out the ADDitude mag. Com website xx sending you lots of ❤.. I thoroughly enjoy your videos ☺️😍

[@OS-bs9ky]

2:50 - this is "thought withdrawal/thought blocking" phenomena . Schneider's first rank symptom of schizophrenia.

[@heedmydemands]

What? It's a symptom of schizophrenia? But I do that a lot...

[@matthewspielvogel4249]

Hello Stephen how are you good to see your improvement in your health .just wanted to tell you not to stress on your diagnosis and just don't worry about it .clozapien is similar to opioids so if you're thinking about slowing comeing off the drug just be mindful of the withdrawal I'm on 150mgs at the moment and slowly reducing so buddy just be mindful of that have fun and enjoy your day.

[@idathomsen9391]

I Wish i could give you a hug

[@katherinehsu6537]

My memory is different after psychosis. I can't retrace any memory just like you said, a second gone by then everything vanished. People in the normative usually can recall the thread of thoughts, even my elderly friends. So if they are familiar with me, I'll ask them the last thing I was talking😅 In the good days, I am able to carry some house chores. I act clumsy, carrying too many things (the memory loss issue) in those times.

[@abalaji6654]

Guys can you help me to find out ? Iam unable to make sense of the incoming information while thinking eg when i strat playing online game when i think my mind is black i have no thought and playing without thinking and another example is when read a context or paragraph my mind is unable understand the information in it and iam unable make connection to my existing thought , sometimes i feel while thinking that how should i think to understand anything

[@Newstatejournal1]

Hey Stephen, I wonder if medication causes brain fog? Also, have you ever had a brain scan to photograph and compare the ratio of grey matter to white matter you have?

[@FlyinDogRecords]

Since you are Catholic you may think of using beads that represent mantras. You could give each bead the meaning of a word that strings like a positive message that you can repeat. That way you can keep your mind occupied with positive thoughts whenever you need to. Instead of repeating a rosary prayer you could have different positive mantras. I dont know if it will help but you could ask your therapist to help you.

[@notbrent]

I know you said meditation doesn't work for you, but I work for an app that put a new twist on meditation where you're supposed to do it with your eyes open. We call it visual meditation. It's a similar concept to what you're doing when you're playing games or watching shows while doing important work. I'd love to give you a free access to the app to see if it helps you, but I don't see any way to contact you on your about page

[@barneyronnie]

What is the app called?

[@notbrent]

@@barneyronnie I'm not trying to self-promote. I was just trying to help Steven. If you search visual meditation, I'm sure you'll find it

[@dramatriangle]

Ok good to know! Is it Loona, Fluid, or Mesmerize? Those are the 3 that came up when I searched. I’ll try them.

[@notbrent]

@@dramatriangle Absolutely try them out. It can't hurt. I don't feel comfortable publicly saying which one I am associated with, but you did name it :)

[@44wpwojtek44]

I watched a video of a person with much worse schizophrenia who got rid of it by super healthy diet, exercises, and prolinged fasting like 3-5 days. It took him years though. Just saying.

[@barneyronnie]

It is irresponsible to recommend such a dangerous protocol that has no scientific basis. Those of us who suffer from schizophrenia are particularly vulnerable to such misinformation as a result of our delusions and cognitive deficits. Please be careful. Thank you.😊

[@44wpwojtek44]

Vox Sua non, this guy explains it all.

[@gigahorse1475]

I’m glad he’s doing well, but keep in mind schizophrenia can be an “on and off” illness. A healthy diet and exercise can’t hurt you, but don’t ever say someone cured their schizophrenia because unfortunately it’s not curable and more often than not it comes back worse than before. For example I was “cured” after praying. But I don’t go around telling people prayer will cure them. A few years later my symptoms came back again. Many people with schizophrenia I know will be horribly psychotic for years, and then be ok even without medicine for years or months. But it comes back. That’s why it’s important to stay on meds.

[@writersblockmemoirs]

Well ignore that video.

[@gigahorse1475]

@@writersblockmemoirsExactly. Anyone on KZbin can claim anything

[@Helena-to9my]

Do you find it easier to express yourselves in writing?

[@Arusa206]

hey will you keep on taking antipsychotics forever?

[@jessicarettally6534]

Hi Stephen!

[@victory2777]

Autistic behavior is schizoid behavior. The world is full with schizoid people. Humanity is shifting. Schizophrenic and autistic people feel the energy around without feeling the need to put everything into words. Let's hope one day humanity will be telepathic.

[@lulazeta8965]

If you and your dad can make a video about FINANCIAL HARDSHIPS that families face when they are afflicted with ski The condition

[@NF-im1wq]

Don't give up on it talk therpy seems to be helping you right now

[@santaramartin]

You seem to be comfortable where you are and I don’t want to disturb that. However I would like to let you know that I can tell that you have had a traumatic event. What happened was that you witnessed people being tuned out of the vibration of love. This caused you to tune out. Family makes you feel safe because you know that they will always love you, but you can trust other people. We live on earth yes there are people who are tuned out of love. Let’s talk about your cognitive issues, any time you think fearful thoughts, you cut yourself off from your rational brain. So yes, you’re correct you shouldn’t dwell on past negative things that has happened to you. When you say you are depressed and stressed, you are saying that you are thinking fearful thoughts. I understand that that’s what this whole schizophrenia thing is about. However I would just like to inform you that we were never designed to think fearful thoughts. That is why they have diagnosed you with a mental disorder. I understand that you have witnessed other people being disconnected. I am talking about the traumatic event that you witnessed that inspired you to continuously disconnect from the self. I am glad you’re doing better in social interactions, I am glad that the thought, that people aren’t thinking of you has helped you. This is the power of thoughts. Only when you release the fearful thoughts, will you gain access to more thoughts that make you feel better. You don’t have to think positively, you just have to let go of the fearful thoughts, in order for your rational mind to be activated. You will be able to tell its working by the peace you feel. You were designed to feel this peace and it is your birth right. Im so proud of you for getting out and walking and talking to people. We all have the power to either be connected or disconnected within ourselves. Fear specifically disconnects us because we detach from the ability to think rationally. This is why you can’t think straight. You were never meant to think from your primitive brain and that’s what fear activates. So you will never get better unless you stop trying to process life through your primitive brain. I don’t know if you’re religious, but you know how Jesus said in the Bible God did not give us a spirit of fear? Well this is true because fear disconnects us from our rational brain to handle actual physical threats. This means you were only meant to use that function in the moment it’s needed, otherwise it’s completely useless. If not for physical threats the rational mind is much more capable of handling day to day things, for example going grocery shopping, going for a run or going to work. Because you think fearful thoughts so much , you are missing crucial information that only your rational mind can process. You are missing social cues and limiting or completely missing information that would give you peace. I’ve observed in my life that fearful thoughts are 100% unreliable. But the caveat is you have to stop thinking them, then you have to observe the environment and the words that people speak, in order to realize that the thoughts were absolute rubbish. We all have to be connected Steven. ❤

[@shadipahlavi]

My head is filled with unreality my sense of self is unreal a filter of unresolved issues attached 2 an idea of who i might be and this 4ever changing like my seat of self keeps getting replaced by a never ending of what or who ever stuff of this meaningless mental soup in my head i have torture flash backs i feel lost in my head - lost sense of self

[@revheimliliam1305]

Palos Verdes is a nice neighborhood, I know becaise my Mom is buried rhere, i really am worriwd about you being our here, everybody is doing rheir own rhing, you are lucky your parents have helped you out, i suggest when noises bother you just go for a walk, if squirrels when are given peanut they will come to you.

[@ruthfrye9181]

i understand what ur saying

[@vonjess9]

My son has it. I get it.

[@hobolove2468]

💕💕💕

[@barneyronnie]

Hey, Steve, are you doing okay? I thought that perhaps you are on vacation. Ron

[@psychoanalyticinterviews]

Can I interview you? I am an Educational Therapist from San Diego.

[@Thomas-cc9yv]

What helps?

[@thelilliad]

Seem quite normal to me, what makes you believe that "schizophrenia" even exists? Are you taking ability, or any drug closely related to that? Seems like you're having some of the (side)effects...

[@sonjavanheyningen5880]

Curious to understand: you say ‘talking therapy’ does not work for you, as it make you think more of/relive your past; and you choose not to think about it; however on your channel you talk all the time about your journey - saying this has been cathartic….🤔 how does talking here in your videos, differ for you from ‘talking therapy’?

[@chickenmonger123]

Well yeah. Your mental regulation is not functioning correctly. That is not only going to cause aberrant cognition, which makes it difficult to travel straight paths of thought. But also is bound to cause extra load on the system comparatively.