I'm not doing well...

[@deborahg4599]

Amanda, I am 64 and I have struggled with depression since I was 13. This does not surprise me especially after your grandfather passed away. I’m on one medication for depression because after my parents died young, and 16 months apart, I hit a wall and needed some help. I have additionally noticed as we age stress is very difficult to handle. If I was there right now I would give you a big hug. Don’t you ever give up. You are mightily loved. I know in my heart what you are going through. You are super brave and strong to speak of what’s going on with you. I Admire the crap out of you! Be well. Be strong. I love you and so do many others! ❤

[@Mooniicky]

I wish we all had enough money to do what we want. Most of us want so little really. Mind you here in the UK, on this island, space, let alone land, is not as easy to come by. Take care ❤

[@deborahg4599]

@@Mooniicky ❤️

[@teresap.5991]

Totally agree 💯❤

[@deborahg4599]

@@teresap.5991 ❤️

[@kookietherapy9398]

Lots of Green Vegetables are the Cure for Depression. Psychotropics are Dangerous, will alter your personality, and do nothing for friendships.

[@suewalsh4836]

Don’t underestimate yourself. You put out a lot of quality content on your channel. Your Patreon posts are amazing. Hanging out just chilling with you is all good too.

[@fionameredith8787]

Thanks for your authenticity, vulnerability and for bringing nature and awe into our lives Amanda. Holding you gently in our hearts 🌿🤍

[@Chiamex]

Beautiful northern lights and the Big Dipper!! You just finished a huge, huge trek to the Artic, my dear. It depleted you. Follow your own good advice and take life one moment at a time. Go find your home. You deserve it.

[@nancycoole5217]

The Aurora was nature & your grandfather's gift to you! Sending Love and Light to you & Mr.Frank ❤🐕♀️🦋

[@mattkrea]

Seeing destruction caused by others in our public lands is definitely deeply hurtful. I have happily started communicating with rangers in the US national forests because I now have zero tolerance for people abusing what few rules we all agree to follow when utilizing public land.

[@deborahcavenaugh8478]

Dear friend. I hope you read this. I started having migraines in childhood and had them continuously into my 40s. I'm not a chiropractor at a birthday party who said I can care of that for you. He told me that migraines are a problem with the sixth vertebrae. I went to see him the next week, and he gave me an adjustment. he checked me every week for about a month or so and then every two weeks and then once a month and then I was done. I am now 71 years old and I have never ever had another migraine. I strongly suggest you look into this. It will change your life. I'm sorry to hear you're going through a rough time. Sadly, it is only life going on, but it's no fun. Sending you love and prayers. Deborah, from the coast of North Carolina.

[@tamalamaland]

Completely get what you're saying, and can relate in many ways. Thank you for being so open and real about your experience. Your channel is a rare gem and I'm grateful to have found it. May you find the path to your sanctuary very soon.

[@tidelinetoalpine]

Thank you Tammy, wishing you a beautiful day.

[@tamalamaland]

@@tidelinetoalpine ❤☀

[@rimonagale1625]

This was a powerful video. Thank you for sharing your reality. Enjoyed your campfire building show & tell. Nice aurora borealis capture on video. And of course wonderful views of Frank, berrypicking, lakes & mountains.

[@lorraineowen7978]

Sending a gentle hug for you and Frank 🤗🤗😊

[@wildzenventures]

I appreciate that you’re able to share the hard times as well as the good 🥰 go easy on yourself during hard times.

[@tidelinetoalpine]

Thank you 🙏🏼 I have been doing just that and am starting to get my feet under me again.

[@douglashoward5738]

The aurora is simply beautiful ! The views want what’s best for you and Frank. Stay strong! Amanda you are a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing the hard times as well as the good ones. ❤

[@mixrmandd]

I'm watching this video in the cab of my truck at 1:30 in the morning Arizona time.... I have 30 minutes to go until I clock in..... Probably going to be 13 hours before I'm done today..... Why is it so easy to wind up working 60 Plus hours a week.... Absolutely no time for myself..... Been this way for years.....I need to figure a way out of this lifestyle that's killing me.....I'm 47 been blowing and going since I was 18......keep working on you girl maybe someday I'll get to where you are....in the meantime keep up the wonderful videos they provide me with a quiet solace now and then 😊

[@TexCynRVLife]

You, Foresty & Slim Potatohead are 3 of my favorite Canadian channels. Why? Because ya'll keep it real from the heart. No drama, nothing fake. Don't be so hard on yourself. Breathe. All is good. I get that solitude thing. I'm kind of stuck with life issues right now, but I know my future is there, waiting for bigger, better food for the soul. Hang in there. Thanks for being you ❤🤗 Hugs to Frank! 🐾💕🐾

[@Mooniicky]

Just picked up Slim Potato head. Thank you.

[@TerryX2Explore]

I agree! We follow channels that are just plain real too! No big productions. We try to keep our channel real as well! We all need to just chill and put ourselves first sometimes! Take care! 💙Terry and Terri

[@river8760]

Watch Steve Wallis too, he’s totally genuine and such a sweetheart.

[@stormdavies250]

I’m a grandparent and great grandparent. I keep thinking of the time you spent with your grandpa working on your van. Grandparents get so much joy from spending this kind of time with their grandchildren. He probably cherished that time with you. Grandparents love their grandchildren deeply. (Please forgive me if I’m presumptuous). I’m so sorry for your loss. Maybe you could drive around and just look at properties that you think you’d like to own. I’d start by just looking for awhile and see how you feel about it. Maybe don’t feel guilty for having some lazy days. Those kinds of migrants are debilitating. Some rest might help. I love your beautiful videos and want you to feel better in every way.

[@janicetorrey8132]

You get lonely, then hominids show up and remind you of why you’ve chosen to live alone LOL! I hear you, girl. We’re a lot alike. I’d love to be able to find people like you & Flossy to hang with. Hang in there and if you ever decide to visit Maine, let me know!

[@SoloHiker1]

ALOHA. Great video, Mahalo for sharing. Just gonna throw this out there. I live in Hawaii, on Oahu. We own our house. But I long to be in my rv. Bowling property is not always a relaxing experience. Today I leave to go get in my r v for a month. In all I think about is that it is not long enough. There's no advice I can give you that would help you. Just live your best life for today.

[@mythicalnomadadventure969]

Thanks for the calming views you share. It means something. Like that fish that appeared in your hand..., Your dreams will too. You just need quiet patience, you're doing fine 👍

[@tianikane3312]

Amanda, when I go on an extended trip or extended through hike, there is a depression that follows the completion of it. It is well known amongst the hiker community and for some there is great difficulty in getting back to the swing of the 'normal' world, dealing with others etc. When we are on hikes etc. our minds are locked into our surroundings, and we thrive on the newness of everything. Coming back we are returned to the normal everyday problem solving and social crap that we have to deal with. It will pass, I'm sure. I actually start feeling unsettled on the last two or three days of a walk or trip, knowing I have to get back to the normal grind. Please give yourself time and a break. Love your channel, but please take the time you need. I like hanging out with you....

[@moochops2]

The footage of the aurora borealis with your music is just so magical. You sound like you know yourself pretty well and are obviously fatigued after the whole arctic/dempster adventure. It’s been a mammoth project to pull off on your own and you should be so proud of what you have shared with us. I for one feel very privileged to been taken along on the journey with you and Frank. I have seen so much beauty in those big skies and vast wilderness. Take some time to be excellent to yourself for a bit to nourish and replenish your energy. Wishing you well from Scotland ❤🐶🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

[@taracat7141]

Yes definitely 🧡🙏🧡

[@MsSoozy]

Totally understand your feelings on people. The destructive behaviour is horrible. The more I see, I really honestly can’t tolerate people, like minded people of course are welcome but all others can just simply go away. Fires, especially these days, humans have caused so many from doing exactly what that pos did, with no regard for what may happen. Just keep on doing what makes you feel comfortable and brings you comfort in some way. Be safe Amanda and Frank. ❤😊

[@jessicat6271]

Completely relate to the need to be in human & human-noise free areas, the difficulty of having a place that is like that and the heartbreak surrounding all the destruction to nature. Often feels like there’s no place for animals and people to go to live peacefully in harmony. Sharing this with others helps us know there are others out there with the same views and hope for future. But ya, it wears on the soul.

[@helenbonanno4804]

Your video physically and mentally relaxes me. Your choice of "home" for the week is impecable, in fact, I would never want to leave. Thank you !!!! And.......I needed a dose of Frank.

[@tanyajohnston8262]

I had a sad day today also. Our cat family member was found dead today. She was a stray that someone probably dropped off so it took time since she was fearful but she became such a loving, cuddly cat that even came for walks with us on her own accord. Loved her so much. Been a difficult day for sure. She is now buried in our pet cemetery on our property.

[@eileen.333]

💜💜💜💜

[@happydays59]

💕🐈💕

[@tidelinetoalpine]

I’m sorry to hear about your loss 💜 sending love from me and Frank.

[@sharonoldham4374]

Sorry for the loss of your cat. It's hard to lose a pet. 😢

[@stanbyme7874]

I think of the Aurora Borealis is a beautiful hug enveloping me from those who’ve departed. I bought a steel tongue drum after seeing yours. I’ve sat outside, watching the light show, drumming while sobbing. Your videos, your drone footage, recipes, your vulnerability & lessons learned (ok, FRANK!) have become very important to me. Take Care of Yourself. You are cared about by many, many strangers all around the World 💕

[@teslah2997]

I have been experiencing the same thing, Amanda. I am camping in Colorado. It is soooo much more crowded EVERYWHERE now, and I had people try to come and share my campsite uninvited. I, too, cannot afford rent, although, I don’t feel like trying to camp anymore. For me, it is so much harder because I can only live out of my Subaru and it is an incredible hassle and amount of work each time I move and set up in a new place. I also just got a puppy for companionship and that makes it even harder. I wish I could just afford to rent some place and hibernate. I, too, am very sensitive and am overwhelmed easily nowadays. Also, I find camping out all the time makes for a much smaller life in a certain sense. I love doing crafting, such as crocheting, sewing, etc., and I REALLY miss havjng a garden nd growing flowers and having bird feeders around property. It would be much easier if I had a van or even a small teardrop trailer. And I really appreciate your honesty and openness. I used to have a couple of acres in Montana and it was all I needed, and I loved it. I had animals, a hirse, cars, and dogs nd loved. My two cents to you, hope you don’t mind, would be to work towards buying a small piece of land to call your personal space. It is a wonderful feeling, and you can always travel in the van if you want to. I am 72 now, so too late for me

[@fionameredith8787]

May grace be with you Teslah, and may the universe find you a garden to tend (and to tend to you), soon 🌿

[@ang9968]

​@MeMe-sy4sb I had a guy on the train say he found a couple of apartments in denver for 600.00. So maybe you could find one too? Or even contact habitat for humanity. They might be able to get you a tiny house. Sell your crafts. Maybe you can make a little bit of pocket change. What are you planning on doing for winter?

[@Bugs11000]

I've been living in a van now for 4 years and a half. You're right. There is no place to call my own, too. I hope one day I will have enough money to buy some land. Maybe in Arizona. Land is cheap over there. I'd do like this fellow, I 'd have truckloads of wood chips being deposited on my land and wait 2 years. If you put 3 feet of wood chips after 2 years, you dig one foot, and you get dark, rich soil. This fellow that lives in Arizona has over 200 fruit trees on his land. 3/4 of an acre only. He could live off his land if he wanted to. He'd make enough money even selling half price his crop to his neighbors. You can buy cheap land but at places where the soil is of poor quality. That's why it's cheap. What's great is that you can create your own soil. The sponge of life. Not hard to create a living soil, you compost everything you can and make compost. Compost is an open buffet for bugs. These bugs eat your compost poop and pee, which in return becomes food for the plants. If you have a garden, you put compost in the garden so that it feeds these bugs, which in return feed your plants.

[@tidelinetoalpine]

I look forward to someday building soil and growing an abundance of food.

[@lorisnell4290]

Just save tiny bits of money for land! Youll get there! Temp jobs on farms like u did before or stay parked for longer periods. We love to see ur videos even if ur doing nothing that day! I love watching u and Frank. Just go with the flow youll find the way 😊

[@tidelinetoalpine]

I was going to do a couple weeks of picking for a farm up here but due to the heat the crop didn’t materialize 😔

[@honeyoconnor3743]

I’m glad you’re taking time to take care of yourself. Grieve the loss of your grandfather as he was an important part of your life. Grief is different with each relationship. I love you showing your real emotions and life. Love that Frank is doing so well. Peace to you both! ☮️

[@ramblynrocketeer]

_don’t be pushed by your problems. Be led by your dreams. - R.W. Emerson_ ✨💛✨

[@happydays59]

I wish I could help you in the way your videos help me. I love your calm, beautiful, enlightening and loving channel. Omg the northern lights show💚and starry skies✨speechless! It will grow, don't give up but don't stress yourself in the process. You possess excellent coping skills and seem to get over life's hurdles. You should really have the pain killer for migraines, don't suffer needlessly if you don't have to😢. We're always here to listen to you whenever you have the need to get it out. Love to you and Frank 💙💚💜🐕🌌🤟🏻

[@tidelinetoalpine]

Thank you, I am going to look into migraine specific medications now that’s it’s gotten so much worse and frequent that when it began less than two years ago.

[@kookietherapy9398]

@@tidelinetoalpine FYI - Don't poke the potato. They cook better w the moisture left in. Yes, you can still wrap in aluminium for the fire. When I have an oven, 375° for 1hr. I did it wrong for years. Now, I 💗 the way they turn out. Try Lavender tea for headaches. See if it works for you. Many natural cures you will find. Did you take the poison a while back ? 👀 🌸 HEALTHYSELF 🌸

[@d.rostas7242]

Big hugs Amanda, Yes listen to your body. Things are wacko everywhere now, your just sensitive to them from being away from it for such a while. Dont be hard on yourself, gratitude lists work well to turn thoughts around, if it gets really bad i have friends in Tahsis that will find you a spot 😊, your friend Majic bus dee

[@tidelinetoalpine]

Thanks Dee, I hope you’re doing well.

[@Shelty6]

Just keep a vision of what that piece of land sanctuary looks like in your mind like it has already happened and you will manifest your dream!

[@conchscooter]

I’m as spiritual as an empty coke bottle but this really works. Weirdest thing. Visualize it.

[@nancyconway]

Hang in there Amanda! I’m not on any Patreon, financially unable, but I still LOVE your you and your content as a creator! We will all support you in making your dreams a reality! Keep on being and doing you!❤

[@gypsywandering_]

Oh girl, I can relate on the deepest level. I was full time vanlifing for 4 years. Got attacked by a randy old man, getting bogged numerous times, etc etc and my van sucked up all my savings. Then after taking all my money for repairs, the engine died. Thankfully I had predicted this outcome and drove 4000ks back to my Mums house. A week later the van died. The anxiety, and overwhelm are things I'm very familiar with. I'm now saving for a new van, but I wonder how I'll cope when my Mum isn't around and I have no one to fall back on, or no place to go. The future scares me too 😬

[@LilyGazou]

A shared land parcel. A place to retreat to when needed.

[@FirstLast-ml7yf]

Indigenous Pro tip from a "settler"...comb with an oversize comb the berries into a bowl and run them down an inclined blanket to remove just the berries from the mix of berries and leaf chaff..further cleaned by floating them off...

[@LilyGazou]

Great tip. I’ve been struggling with elderberries.

[@containyourlife]

Hi Amanda, you are living the best life, many people dream of. Migraines are the worst, sorry for your struggle. What’s helped me in the past is CBD. It has a happy effect, and has really boosted my mood. I have to stay on it for it to work. Not sure if this is something that may help you, or if you are already taking it, but it was a huge game changer for me. Additionally I start my day with lemon, cayenne and turmeric tea. I have a torn ACL and I am completely pain free. I have been doing this since 2016. Has helped immensely with inflammation. I enjoy your videos because you teach me so much about nature and foraging. Take care of yourself and listen to your body. You are very intuitive!

[@sheilacaine]

So sorry you’re having a hard time. Hang in there. Loved the sky pictures and love that Frank. He’s so cute. ❤❤

[@GaiaCarney]

I’m praying you find your sanctuary ✨You make beautiful, soulful films and generously share them with us!

[@sharonclack5914]

God bless you Amanda, just take care of yourself, this will pass, you will be fine, sending you love and frank🐈♥️♥️♥️🌲

[@kstigerlily]

Your editing of your amazing shots to parallel your complex thoughts is superior in its effect. Keep taking steps toward your goal.

[@rachadventuresinliv]

Grief is one of the most complex emotions. I never thought life would be joyous again after I lost my grandfather. Everyone kept telling me it will get easier. From that day I knew people didn't get how we are all different. It is best to listen to ourselves and go on accordingly. Take the time we need, just beware of your mental health and if need to seek out support. I had to, blessed to have beautiful friends. Great tips on building your fire, even though I've been making fires for years I recently had an evening where my fire kept getting snuffed, I will give your technic a try ty. Your drumming is so beautiful and peaceful. Amanda I must thank you for giving me the joy of reading again. As I have read a could of the books you have read. I would love if you could make a list of your favourite reads over on Patreon. Take care Much love 💜🐾

[@carolstender588]

Your video and shots of the aurora are amazing Amanda. Thank you for sharing the beauty and your honest thoughts with us. Take the time you need to rest and heal, we will be here when you are feeling better and ready to create again.

[@stuartriley]

You are an amazing woman Amanda. I believe that you will find the strength to continue to work with some relaxation as a buffer for you to heal from your pain and stress. Your content for the channel is always excellent. You are a quality person who many trust, and we are with you on the path you choose. Be free and be safe.🎉

[@LowLightMike]

Thanks for this video, and for the part where you remind us that we all have permission to be easier on ourselves. I appreciate you and your work.

[@tidelinetoalpine]

Thanks Mike 🙏🏼 I hope you’re enjoying your first summer of retirement.

[@gerrylake]

The aurora shots were spellbinding. I just love everything about this channel; my favorite part of the day.

[@tidelinetoalpine]

Thank you ☺️

[@bonnienklyde918]

Great video! Your doing so much better than some because you do know the things you need to do to keep yourself going. Even though there are the times like youve just gone through, your strength really shines . Its really good to see you coming back and being positive. You are an inspiration to soo many of us. Always know that. There WILL be the day where you will have that piece of property to call your own. I dont see you with a sticks n bricks but a piece of land with something you build yourself on it. I believe that time will be sooner than you think. Keep believing and wanting that, and you will manifest exactly what you want. Push for this dream. Its all yours and we are all here to help this come true. Thank you Amanda you are an awesome woman

[@projectseventyone]

This is why other popular KZbin vanlife ppl have rented "workshops". It's a home base of sorts...

[@harmyjim2]

Was driving back to Nanaimo from Port Alberni, thinking about my youtube channels, and wondering about tidetoalpine. Got home, and there you are.

[@SpunkeyMonkeys]

You’re doing great. The aurora borealis is awesome. I want to witness it for myself one day. Don’t let one encounter spoil your mood. Perhaps leave while they’re near you, and then get back on the spot once they’re gone.

[@cotter9751]

That was amazing and, I think, brave. To show us your vulnerability and understand the depths of challenges in your chosen life. Even the sense of “the grass is greener” sometimes.

[@dynoreed7235]

Well said.

[@raveninavaniam9438]

Many hugs from Northern Wisconsin 🦋💕🌼🌲🌲🌲 You are understood 💯 % I'm 57 now. No family. Same worries and concerns regarding government- future - EXCEPT, I own 20 acres and wish to pull in more friends to share the land with....either Tiny Houses or small Hobbit Homes underground... respecting each others space, yet there when we need each other. Our own gardens and easier survival community in this extra crazy world right now. I LOVE your Hand Pan by the way ⭐️ .... I was just Meditating with my Singing Bowl..... Peace ✌ 💕🦋🌸🍀🌿🌲

[@vancelifereflexology]

This was a super video. It was beautiful and real. I hope you find your peace. I know what you mean when people turn up and invade your space. Happened to me tonight but they were respectful. Makes a difference. ❤

[@karenb1627]

Focusing on that light is a beautiful thing to hold onto until....I get the overwhlm. Go easy on yourself....Thanks for that tutorial, music, sharing your struggle....I'm sending you love. You're finding your way, and "you've got this.". ☮💜🐾

[@holisticgeek]

Always so great to feel your feelings. One thing that you ARE doing, is that you are a pioneer in the "parallell society" that we all need to create. Van Life is one avenue, and you have a treasure trove of experience to draw from. Even if you have a sticks and bricks home, life can get complex and you can feel alone, crowded, etc. You aren't alone in this!

[@sharonoldham4374]

Sticks and bricks is not always the answer. With the way the economy is, it is very difficult for people to cope with day-to-day.

[@danascott6517]

Amanda you are so wonderful. I love your content. I also suffered from migraines. After I left teaching I went on Otezla for psoriasis and psoriatic arthritis. I hadn’t wanted to be on a drug that lowers immune systems while working around other people. As a result of the lowered inflammation in my cells my migraines stopped. It’s been 2 years now. I know psoriasis is not your medical issue but I hope someday you’ll try medication for migraines. I totally respect if that’s just not the path you want to take. Just maybe someday you’ll feel differently and give it a try. I’d love to see you find relief. Chronic pain sucks!

[@marymactavish]

I wish there were just one cause for migraines so we could find a cure. For me, it was simple, though I figured it out accidentally. I just needed to stop taking birth control pills. And hello from inflammatory arthritis I'm over here with rheumatoid disease.

[@JC-zy4oz]

Just look at all the love here. ❤❤❤ big hugs, sweetie. Sending all the love Amanda. Grief is hard. Hang in there.

[@cyniful]

You brought tears to my eyes. You are beautiful and peaceful and an amazing soul!!! Thank for sharing your life and your thoughts and for bringing nature into our homes.

[@georgiacorey954]

I completely understand what you are saying. We all need to love & take care of ourselves & just do what we are able, which sometimes means only existing. I get it that society, government, people, noise, forces of nature & our health sometimes compound our mental process of learning how to live with loss. The thing is that it takes time to do that by going thru the motions of doing only the necessary, then little by little we again will become interested in doing more. Take all the time you need. Turn the key & move to a more quiet spot if it gets too loud. It's funny I recently been going thru some similar emotions & think it would be so much easier to just get in my van & turn the key. I believe that owning land is not always a sanctuary, or maybe the place I have is just too small, even though it's considered rural & not urban. Anyway ty for sharing the beautiful scenery & sky. I've never seen so many stars at one time & personally have never seen an arora borealis. Ty again for sharing, hugs Amanda.

[@Syl-Vee]

Wow! Those aurora and hand pan moments...! I also loved your sweep around the glassy lake and the mountains -- to me it looked like a huge sound wave! I'm glad you are taking care of yourself. That way, you know as things change, they will change for the better. ...I also remember what it was like to be sick while living in my vehicle. Sending you positive energy and so grateful for your attitude and beautiful images from the real world.

[@marymactavish]

The reason I signed up for your patreon wasn't for pictures of Frank or exclusive content, it was because you're one of the few vanlifers I really learn a lot from, and not just what equipment to pack, but because you have a lot of very personal experience that I learn a lot from about *life*. I'm 60, disabled, and raising an autistic kid who doesn't like traveling, so I am going to put off my own vanlife experience until he's a grown-up. But just knowing that there are women on their own out there doing it, even with issues like chronic migraines or disabled dogs, who share so much wisdom and soul... anyway, I want to support your lifestyle and your creativity even if I can't go out there myself-yet.

[@GiMom19]

Amanda that landscape is EPIC 🩷 I think that’s my favorite so far. The Aurora, Stars, Mountains, water ….. 😊 I’m happy you spent sometime there. Be gentle on yourself. The Universe has a plan. Love & Gratitude will take you far 👍🏻 Sending blessings

[@elizabethbarberis9058]

Frank, sitting with his back to us as he intently examines you picking berries. Your gifting of your knowledge on how to build a hot fire. Your eloquence about your place upon your journey and how you are going to help yourself. The worry about the future. Being a Sensitive. Feeling adrift and without a home port. The loneliness of deep loss. You are 'taking your oars in' - as I would describe your action and reaction in my realty. To know when it is time to just take in the oars and let the river flow you onwards. We never know what is just around the next bend. Thank you for just being honestly you. It's enough. X

[@kristinylander6852]

Thank you so much for this video! It really spoke to me with things I'm going through right now. I loved what you said towards the end about giving ourselves permission to go easy on ourselves. Thank you again for being you! Ps. Frank being Frank definitely helps too❤️🐾

[@ChristianSchaffer]

Relate to this big time. Like you, after a certain point - I became ultra sensitive to crowds and loud noises and big cities and just the general chaos of gathered humans SO MUCH that I now go out of my way to avoid any semblance of it. Oftentimes, it’s possible to find the beautiful views + solitude - but it’s also not uncommon for a stranger to roll up invited, like you said. Not having a sanctuary, as you called it - is taking a toll on me as well. Anyway, just wanted you to know you’re not alone in feeling this way. It’s something I struggle with too, and renting an apartment doesn’t even feel like a viable option because it would require so much adjustment to noise, people, cities, neighbors, etc. It’s like, give me a large lot of land or give me a van. There is no middle ground 😂

[@tidelinetoalpine]

A laaaaaaarrrrge plot of plot of land 😆 I’m actually camped next to other people tonight so it’s not such a shock when I end up back in town in a couple days. It’s really is just SO MUCH especially after the peace of solitude in the wilderness. I hope your September is going well 💜

[@SpicyReplays]

keep smiling you bring us so much joy with your amazing videos. Sending good vibes.!!!!

[@OwenHurlburt]

I am a 67 year old woman who owns a small house in a medium size city. Last year the city doubled my taxes, my house insurance almost doubled as well. I live in Ma, and neighbors barely speak, or are outright rude. I live a quiet low income retired life with my two dogs. I don't feel home ownership is the answer either. You can be driven out by external factors. I love your channel, your beautiful energy, and Frank. Migranes often happen with seasonal change, and could be temporary. Keep that leg elevated when in camp. Take the time you need to heal. You are a lovely, brave, strong young woman. Life will look up.❤

[@LilyGazou]

Can you appeal the assessment? Can it be lowered if you are over 65?

[@DoctorHayduke]

I wrote you a bunch of comments yesterday, then deleted them after second guessing myself. Out of the blue, I thought of you again, so I came.back. I have a list of things to say: -Your hangpan playing is gorgeous. I love it. -I love your photography choices, whether drone, still or video. You have a great eye. -I suffer from mental illness, but I also benefit from it. Creativity, heightened wonder, deep emotional connections, etc. The lows are awful, but those highs! -Remember that your van is an asset. You are not trapped. It has value, and can be your new start, when you really want it. Just make sure to invest in maintenance. I've really grown fond of your channel. And lately it seems the outdoors has been overrun with Class A Jerk-Faces. I'm not sure when people lost respect and consideration for one another, but I'm losing patience!😂

[@msanabria8159]

My dear, as a psycholist bit most of all as a human being living in depression,I just say to u, spend this time doi g what your heart tells u to do. Cry, relax, watch the lake, enjoy the sunset, be mad, read a book....JUST DONT LET YOUR NEGATIVE EMOTIONS TAKE OVER. Look at them when they show up in Your mind, breath and let them go with a blessing. Will be including you in my meditation. BLESSINGS

[@joansidor3409]

WHAT???

[@sharongilley8393]

Want to thank you ..I've lived with depression all my life ..I'm in my 70's now .Sometimes it gets pretty ruff . Love the way you explained how to deal with this.Ive learned to just live by myself I'm happier .Lot less work of emotions an loss of trust.

[@christinawilliams6078]

Don't think I would ever want to move from there it's beautiful, hope your feeling better in yourself soon, depression is a real hard thing to fight I've been in your situation for a few years now after losing my son at a early age of 28, love to you and Frank xx

[@charlottegunning1548]

Big,Ginormous Hugs for you n Frank. I hear you Amanda. I've been in a minivan w my adult son and my 100 lb Rottweiler/ Pit Bull for about 8yrs ( my son only the last 2 yrs) but our difference is we live off my SSI n there is a parking program for auto dwellers here in our city so we can park safely ( without the dreaded knock) in a church lot that has allowed us. We have no overnight camping other than that program so we are fortunate to be in it especially because we can't afford gas to travel very far plus I'd hate for my house to break down-- I have no savings to fix it with. I'd LOVE to be living like this and be able to travel the states.......I'm 67 yrs old it would be my bucket list of for sure! Anyway,the Beautiful places you stay at,the Auroras,Awesome video. Sweet Frank swimming Every chance he gets! Thank you both for sharing your life with us.

[@sarawarrener2193]

One of the many things I admire about you Amanda is your openness and willingness to share the good and the bad. Taking the time to rest, recharge and renew will help the healing process. The scenery in the video was stunning as were the shots of handsome boy Frank. You’ve got a whole community cheering you on and sending big hugs💜💚

[@jennifferhurlburt642]

The aurora borrelis is beautiful! Thank you for sharing.

[@leekorkmann3704]

Hey Amanda. Sorry to hear of your struggles. Sending hugs and thoughts to you in the hope you feel better. Thank you for sharing you and Franks life with us. We appreciate you and hope by joining your Patreon I can help in a small way. Take care and keep strong xxxxx

[@melodygoss9431]

Love you Amanda and Frank!❤ I totally understand where you are coming from. You being real and honest about what you are going through will help so many people. On a cherrier subject, I really enjoy your music. If you read this I'd love to hear the name of the instrument again.

[@janeenslider6466]

I kept looking for you since Sunday. Wasn’t worried, just missed you. Thank you for being so open with your feelings.

[@whereswendy8544]

As the song says, it's hard being and old soul living in the new world. Your channel is so authentic and loving. I hope you can get through the anxiety and find the peace and tranquility that so many of us crave. 💞

[@darwinrussell]

Perhaps a campsite purchase could be an in-between stage to property ownership? Sending you and Frank all my peaceful vibes.

[@Jamesgeeee]

Beautiful scenery. Wish I was there with you.

[@dynoreed7235]

I'm glad to see Sweet Frank doing well. That aurora was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your campfire. All the best to everyone.

[@BionicLesbian]

That's my new favourite video from you. That was so beautiful, thank you for sharing. ❤🤗

[@abeach5420]

@5:24 + .... ohhh my heart just exploded girl....eeee Frankee waiting on his healthy dose of antioxidants 😆😃 Amanda...please promise that one day you will print this image of u & our favvv ol boy. I have not seen an image like this caught before and i kinda (no i A LOT cried & laughed at same time). I am sooo hoping you find peace and calm. I am finding an endless amount of pple are very unwell and unsure these days on mother nature's planet. We all need to find our pple and give back the bad ones. Sending you best of wishes...you have just accomplished, yet AGAINNN, an outstanding huge adventure to AL. Hugz to you both and Flossy too when see them.

[@texasgoddess323]

Amanda, your grief, along with your chronic illness and anxiety, would put anyone down. I experience chronic illness, live alone, and am homebound most of the time. Sending comfort, love, and light!🌸🤍🌻

[@LilyGazou]

Your spirit ranges far 🌺

[@Chantal_4107]

I really felt you when you were talking about feeling stressed about the future. Because of an autoimmune disease and then being off on sick leave for six years, I've had a forced change of careers. And now that I'm over fifty, I'm really stressing about the future also. Anyway, I didn't say that to be negative, just wanted you to know that you are understood. Sending all my best wishes for the growth of your channel, you are an awesome creator and your videos bring me a lot of zen. Hugs to you and Frank! Edited to add, look into solar flares and migraines. When earth would be expecting the effects of a flare, I would always take preventative Advil to try and decrease the risk of migraines.

[@jaynewarriner7214]

Hi, Amanda, grieving is a strange thing but it’s a necessary thing. It’s okay to take some alone time. Time heals the pain if loss but it never totally goes away. The love for your grandfather is now shown in missing him. I am praying for you that God will show you some sort of purpose and all that you’re going through. I appreciate that you share with us the ups and downs because it keeps you real.

[@scottmcfarland2149]

Love and light Amanda! Take care of yourself the best that you can. 🐾🙏🏻✌🏻

[@Michelle-nx8bg]

Amanda I have been watching your videos for about 3 years. I have never said anything because I watch it on my t.v and you can't comment from there. I just figured that out. But I just had to give you you some advice that I would give my own kids as I have kids that are your age. You are a beautiful young lady and frank is so handsome ❤ but sweetheart give yourself some grace your grandfather passing away 😢 you need time to heal. Everything else will fall into place. Your grandfather is in heaven looking down smiling watching over you and Frank. My youngest son is 32 he is suffering from cancer. I got depressed and still battle it everyday. But I pray do meditation this helps my soul. I am not saying it is for everyone. But if I can give you some motherly advice just have faith that everything is going to work out in your favor. You are a strong fierce woman. I have watched you do so many wonderful adventures. Meditate and pray 🙏 for the things you want for your life. You will see them come true❤

[@poges]

You'll find people everywhere. Because you've been alone so long in the quiet..., you aren't used to the noise and of course with migranes. You will adjust if you integrate again slowly. Sorry you are experiencing that. Remember why you are living the vanlife. ❤

[@ssmith2608]

I don't live in a van but I understand how you feel. I live in Scotland and when ever I can I try to escape to nature to recharge and find peace but its hard to find places where you can be alone without other people and even finding places that haven't been damaged by rubbish and bad toilet manner. That being said I want any more government imposing any more laws or restrictions because I know that impact on even more on things I can do, where and when I do them. Try to remember that the ppl that you see doing these things are truamatised and aren't self aware and aren't as lucky to have the access to nature that you have. I would love to buy a portion of woodland to escape to. Take care your honesty and wisdom is appreciated. Hopefully voicing these worries helps you continue on your journey through life 😊.

[@janetmcclellen733]

I have finally become comfortable being by myself because others think it's wrong it at this time right for me. But as I get older my body betrays me

[@Funguspug]

Thanks!

[@tidelinetoalpine]

Thank you Bekah, I hope you’re having a nice weekend.

[@christinamerritt9669]

I got my stickers and magnetic of Frank and Frank's paw print and the tide line mountain today. I LOVE THEM!!! FRANKS ADORABLE FACE IS ON MY REFRIGERATOR. LOVE IT

[@geogypsytraveler]

Even breathtaking home views won't always settle the soul.

[@goodandgreen]

Be excellent to yourself ❤❤❤❤love and light to you. solidarity with grief and disability.

[@donwyates]

Your pan around the lake, and the shots of Frank were just lovely. I'd love to be able to see the Aurora Borealis. You're in paradise - no time for migraines! 😆

[@SpknTC13]

OMG! Frank you're too cute! Amanda, I thought you were sipping coffee then realized it was Frank breathing LoL!! 🤣 I'm exactly the same with anxiety & being an introvert. Some people just don't understand I have no desire to go sit in a noisy restaurant for 2 hrs feeling stuck and required to have conversation. I've finally realized their feelings are not my problem. Just keep doing what you need to do to take care of yourself and Frank. Thanks for sharing! Cheers! ~M

[@MaribelGonzalezGarcia-jn7ct]

chin up Amanda!! You are an amazing human being and the world is a better place with you in it xxx Stay strong girl! You are such a source of inspiration for many of us!

[@tammycruz8189]

You caught some very beautiful colors Amanda. Thanks for sharing

[@wendy-louharding8370]

Love & Light I think you and Frank are wonderful and I send you Love-arms around you

[@deborahg4599]

I wish I could give you 1 million thumbs up! You absolutely deserve it!

[@TannyaDigedan-mb8ex]

You are such a wonderful soul. Sharing your adventures gives so much joy to others. I'm so sorry for the way you are feeling, I wish I could give you a hug. You are living the dream of many people. The negatives you gave shared will seem so much harder in the tough mental state you are in at the moment. Please take time for you and know you are loved by many xxx