I’m not going to live in constant stress

[@lifetimeactor6789]

Hi Isabella. When I used to work I found it exhausting for the most part. Full time wore me out and having to sleep on a schedule was nearly impossible. The one job that I could work above 30 hours per week was doing airbrush displays at Tower Video/Records. I could come in when I wanted and leave when I wanted - as long as the work got done. I didn't have to socialize too much either which was good. Just my boss and people who'd come in the back on their breaks. Plus I could have music playing all day. If they just would have paid enough to live on it would have been nearly perfect. I never knew why I was so tired all the time back then. I used to feel guilty and inadequate because of that and because of my social anxiety. Now I finally know what it is and I can stop blaming myself. Thanks for your videos and I wish you all the best!

[@isabellammusic]

Thank you so much for sharing! It means so much to me. That sounds like a wonderful job.

[@BiddyBiddyBiddy]

Billionaires and millionaires cost a lot of money to fund, so there is no rest in the United States, only bills. And I heard your singing voice there for a second! Very very nice. Would love to hear more.

[@Catlily5]

Beautiful coffee cup set from Turkey! I collect coins. Some of them are special to me.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Isabella thanks for the kind shout out - It seems we have the same goals of life as it comes to being ASD women. I am really enjoying your new content. It seems like it is going great. So yeah I am constantly trying to figure out a way of life for myself that is less stressful but I can still keep fulfilled. I am still working on what that looks like. If you figure it out first, please tell me the secret!

[@isabellammusic]

Thank you so much for this! It’s exciting to be here! I learn so much from you.

[@Catlily5]

Yay, Claire!

[@siennaprice1351]

I do have a tendency to criticize myself, judge myself, limit and restrict myself, and expecting myself to be happy 24/7 with no struggles in life. I spoke with a musician that I truly admire. He makes a lot of meditation music. He told me that maybe struggling is part of the creation process. And if it was too easy, if there was no angst, then there would be no beauty. And that we need one to define the other. I need to be ok with showing emotions, and not always masking my CPTSD, my traits of my blindness and autism.

[@gothboschincarnate3931]

poor people have no choice but to live in constant stress. the rich and our politicians enjoy it.

[@isabellammusic]

Yeah it’s so disturbing.

[@gothboschincarnate3931]

sorry...i was replying to a different post...or so i thought. Nature is fast becoming my re-regulator. but it always was. Clair-empathy helps...but is not necessarily required. Enjoy your day.

[@gothboschincarnate3931]

aye....@@isabellammusic

[@gothboschincarnate3931]

I drink mugwort tea.