I'm taking a break

[@amandarachlee]

i'll be back soon. love you guys

[@hi-lp2tu]

AmandaRachLee we love u too ❤️

[@lara-sophie8383]

Love youuu

[@Jane-dd2zu]

AmandaRachLee take a good break :) we'll be here when you come back🥺💞

[@tsukishimakeisglasses4334]

❤️

[@miahocevar5973]

I love you i will always support you and you deserve a break

[@chasbe__8709]

When Amanda said: “When you are alone with your thoughts it is a very very dangerous thing.” I felt that

[@OhNyappyDays]

Right here in the club of "I talk so ugly to myself sometimes"

[@nuchzara97]

Agree

[@kittyakumu]

Yup

[@reese3221]

It's tru

[@nessaaileen1422]

It's true and can be quite scary.

[@pompompomeranian3]

The people who disliked just had too many tears in their eyes to see the buttons clearly.

[@dafinahf9676]

Pompom Pomeranian i never thought the number of unlike in KZbin is so important untill i watch this video and see your comment....

[@honotolu]

yes

[@avalynthura8573]

Yaaaaas girl

[@astrida111]

No LMAO I wasn't crying I just disliked it

[@danielamatabuenaberciano8678]

@@astrida111 That is because you do not have enough neurons to appreciate the work and dedication that @AmandaRachLee puts in his videos that is called being ignorant

[@biaruppini9091]

You said "I should try harder to..." so many times... girl, if there's one thing you DON'T need to do id to work harder... rest, Amanda, we will be here, waiting for you. You are an amazing artist and a hard worker. I admire you.

[@amandarachlee]

thank you ❤️

[@brittanyalattabi7062]

The only thing Amanda needs to try harder to do is take care of herself ❤️❤️ we are here for you Amanda!

[@agapeglenda]

👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

[@terrihouser4267]

❤️🌹

[@kaidiariess]

Guys who wants to join in our group about amanda👍

[@JayPalfrey]

girl creativity is like the seasons, cant be expected to bloom all year - need to rest and let the creativity flow again 💓💓💓💓

[@margaretd4115]

That's a beautiful way to put it Jay

[@amandarachlee]

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@roefane2258]

This comment is the best comment

[@lynnly2406]

Jay Palfrey you’re right

[@madyngo1137]

Jay Palfrey love that

[@LauraBakerPhD]

As a mental health professional, I applaud your courage in speaking out about mental health issues, and sharing your personal story. This helps reduce the stigma surrounding depression and anxiety and will surely help empower others to take action for their own well-being. Enjoy your well-deserved sabbatical, and let the light come in and show you the way to the next leg of your journey. Thank you for all the fun and inspiring videos-you helped me to shape my own Bullet Journaling and creativity in the last few years. I look forward to hearing about your growth and change, should you decide to share it!

[@kadieb1020]

Amen

[@ItalianHomeChef]

Exactly! The mom in me just wanted to scream hearing her story...she started crying...I started crying. Anxiety, depression, the perfection bug is real.

[@karriegress5969]

Same here OurLittleAcre...in fact I ranted, but then deleted it. But very well put Laura, my daughter had some things happen to her when she was younger (just turned 20). She started seeing a psychologist. After that some more things happened and she ...well, I can't say hit rock bottom...but she was lower than she had ever been. I tear up typing this because I so easily could have been one of those mothers of a child of suicide. One day she walked down a trail that lead to the river wanting to end it all, but thinking of her counseling, left, went to the hospital and told someone she wanted to kill herself. Through that experience she allowed me to be more a part of counseling, of which a contract was made with the Dr, her and I. She will express herself more about her feelings. Her moods are set through 1-10 and all I have to say is 'what is your number right now' and she will tell me, whether a good day or a bad day. I can't stress enough to you Amanda or anyone here, if you feel like something is going on and you're having trouble. Go to a counselor. If money is a problem, some insurances pay 100%. My daughter was home from college and I was sitting in a chair and she came over, sat on my lap to show me something on her phone. My son come home after being at a funeral with his girlfriend who's classmate had committed suicide. He was talking about how upset his girlfriend was and how he couldn't hardly hear the pastor speak over the sobbing of the mother of this child. I hugged my baby in my lap a little harder and, of course, sobbing told her how much I love her and how happy I was that she was so brave to seek help when she did. Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. Amanda you may not have gotten to this point, but you take care of you. And don't plan a month, take more if you have to, getting healthy doesn't usually go by a schedule. You are a great talent and seem to be such a great lady the way you hold yourself and speak. I actually write down your ideas so when I start a new month and need an idea i can just look on my list and go...hmmm...Amanda has 'this' on June 20something...haha. See you when you feel good...have a wonderful little KZbin vacation!

[@Cookie_Comment]

@@karriegress5969 😢

[@Solina587]

Damn, why was 2019 so hard on so many people. It feels like we all struggled a lot

[@labz285]

Solina587 oh yes for me it was the worst year of my life since I lost someone I loved on the last day of December

[@earthygurl88]

truth. 2019 was a struggle for real.

[@SumGurlie]

True for everyone :( But thank god i helped myself :/

[@justami481]

Yeah.. It was a really though and sad year.. It almost feels like 2019 was.. Full of sadness and drama and just negativity :( I aswell struggled a lot in 2019 ...but hey guys :D we are all a big community so let's support each other aswell as we support Amanda :3 we are all amazing human beings so wish you all a positive and happy 2020❤️

[@larafaith84]

2019 was definitely a struggle. I noticed that too for many people.

[@peachcakesanimations]

I remember Michelle Phan took a break for alike reasons and now that’s she’s back, she’s better than ever. Amanda take as much time that you need!

[@gautamimadhok5089]

Peach Cakes 🧁 I agree

[@SeaLemonDIY]

Breaks are so healthy and good for everyone, you deserve this! When you come back, don’t sweat the comments. The negative ones are coming from someone in their own negative headspace and taking it out on you (unfortunately), it’s more about them than you, and like you said, you can’t please everyone-and that’s ok! Your first planner is amazing by the way, we can tell you put a lot of love into it and I personally love to see when KZbinrs put effort into products when it is so easy to just go low quality. But you did right by your lil doodles. Now go enjoy your break!

[@bubblegumsticker3438]

Sea Lemon 💖💖

[@rowandirar1735]

Tysm! I also love your channel!

[@shankarigameti6363]

@@bubblegumsticker3438 दो

[@madyngo1137]

Sea Lemon love your channel!!

[@ashna2221]

When her voice started cracking i was about to drop everything, fly to Canada and give her a big hug🥺

[@TheHonest50s]

Me tooooo 😔😭😭😭😭😭

[@tbueno22]

Same here.

[@marisolllagas5841]

Hey Lil doodles! How about creating our own February theme dedicated to Amanda? Let's show support and love to this beautiful artist ♡

[@heyitssara3785]

Marisol Paws Aw I would have but I already started mine :(

[@kaylikorner]

Love this idea!

[@deni1819]

You should post it on social media with a hashtag like #WeLoveAmanda or something like that 🥺💖🤗

[@annsofie1616]

This is such a lovely idea!!! Let’s do this 💜💜💜

[@kaidiariess]

Love this idea💕 Next Vlog: February Bullet Journal inspired by AmandaRachLee💕

[@marie-christineloyer9450]

I always feel almost sad when KZbinrs have to ''explain'' that they are taking a break - Like obviously it is great that they take the time to tell their viewers that they will not upoload for a while, but they do not ''owe'' us anything. Ugh - Gosh did I make this negative? Mental health is so important and you absolutely deserve a break

[@ItalianHomeChef]

I feel the same way. I follow several people and sometimes they just disappear. Being told a vacation is coming is "nice" but not (shouldn't be) an obligation. Yes, this may be an income avenue, but employees and entrepreneurs can have vacations. I think a beautiful doodle on her account saying "Taking an over due vacation to recharge. Videos on hold." That's it. Don't need to go through the stress of even reliving all this hatefulness she's dealt with. I wanted to just bring her home, and hide her from the world.

[@monicaokami]

I think you nailed it with this comment. Its always nice to see subscribers that dont act entitled to the content just because they "support a KZbinr" and guilt trip them by saying they're ungrateful. Making videos as great as hers is hard work and she deserves a healthy, balanced work/home life.

[@chloeyan2800]

I totally agree. Besides what you've mentioned, making this kind of video has no difference than going through the harms again since they are describing it in detail.

[@inayakhan612]

Amanda: I'm taking a break... Me: •́ ‿ ,•̀ But don't worry! We KNOW you aren't a robot - you have emotions, you feel tired and it's not our place to make you work for our entertainment... ♥️

[@funkymom2011]

I came across your channel about 2 to 3 months ago, and have really enjoyed watching all your videos. You have obviously been working really hard, and should not feel guilty about needing to take some much needed time out to look after yourself. I look forward to you coming back reinvigorated and ready to tackle life full on again. And, please ignore the haters...usually people with nothing better to do than to try be controversial - small minds with small thoughts. There is a difference between constructive criticism and just plain being nasty. Because seriously, if someone doesn’t like your channel, then they don’t have to watch it....so to then make pointless derogatory remarks - well that is just unnecessary meanness. Anyway didn’t mean to get caught up in a tirade against trolls. Just wanted to thank you for your candor and let you know that there are people out here wishing you well.

[@ashleychynel1786]

It just breaks my heart that people would say those awful things about your art. I LOVE your themes and setups, my bujo is literally just recreations of your themes. GIRL YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!

[@riddhijain3554]

Ashley Chynel I agree with you 😀😃😄😁😍🥰😘💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

[@lizdustan7717]

My counsellor reminds me of the three B's when I'm struggling (which is often) Balance Boundaries and Bitching to someone when you need to. Take care, you deserve a break. We love you

[@hartleymiller4546]

"As an artist it is my worst fear already for my work to not improve" - I felt that hard. Lots of love while you rest up

[@ThatWouldBeCareless]

The first time I went to my doctor to talk about my mental health, I did so much of what you just did in this video. Justifying and 'I know it must sound like...' and etc. And my doctor was like, "Let me tell you something I noticed while you were talking. With every word that comes out of your mouth you're worrying about what I'm thinking of you or whether I'm taking you seriously. That's a sign for me that we need to take this seriously." So that's what I'm gonna tell you now. Every impulse to justify yourself or imagine how we must be seeing you is just another thing your brain is doing because it's not well right now. You're important all on your own, and you deserve to take time and take a break and get whatever help you need. Don't rush. Another lesson from my doctor: "If you're still panicking about when you should go back to work, it's too soon to go back to work." Obviously we're all here because we love your videos, but if you decide never to come back to this, that's fine too. You're a whole ass human and you deserve love and respect.

[@michelewhite1956]

Excellent, well stated post!

[@TheRuthyToothy]

Yes! All of this is what I was coming here to say! If you feel like coming back would be tough, and you'd need to really psych yourself up to do it, then it's not yet time. When you're overflowing with ideas to show us, and can't wait to share your rediscovered enthusiasm for journalling etc... THAT's the time to come back. And all that second guessing people, worrying what they might be thinking... So very familiar to me! Somewhere on my Pinterest, amongst all your doodles and spreads, I also have some MH pins that you might find useful, so I'll pop back in a sec with a couple of links. The thing is, you don't need other people's permission for this stuff - if you need a break, then you take a break. If you want to change your schedule, then you change it. Those of us who appreciate and value your work will go with the flow. And the haters? Well, they will find an excuse to complain no matter what you do, so unfortunately any time or energy you give to trying to please them or get them on board is wasted. Instead, spend that time and energy on building yourself up 💜

[@jenniferleusink]

"You can't make everybody happy, you're not pizza"

[@KisDraga]

I was just about to post the same quote! A drove past a sign that always puts up funny wisdom. lol

[@barbaracano7908]

I hate pizza...

[@srfinancialservice4460]

Uni'sSmallBuilds Oof

[@mercime12]

I saw that quote at a pizza place

[@peetasburntbread7919]

Barbara Cano wow.

[@mfr4357]

PLEASE, AMANDA, TAKE AS LONG AS YOU NEEEEEED. I know with a "planning" mind, you put a deadline of a month, but if you need a month, 6 months, a year to heal and live your life just as Amanda, JUST DO IT and DON'T feel guilty about it. You have given so much to the bullet journal community... so the least you can do is to take a rest and a GOOD rest. Don't feel pressure, don't feel guilty. For real. "we" will be fine. Don't worry for us~ I hope this break will be amazing, that you can discovered yourself and enjoy yourself and see the blessings of being you.

[@nataliesoutlet]

Proud of you!🙏🏽💕 I took a one month break and I’m refreshed and feeling so much better mentally✨

[@rahafjaradat2305]

Hi natalie i love you can you do more school hacks pleaaaassseee luv ya byeee

[@lilianajacqueline5219]

Love u Natalie! 💗

[@umachantal]

Natalies Outlet I can understand you all and I’m 9 years old and I have 1 or 2 or even 3 dance classes every day and I love that you can see the stop mark in your self 🥰🥰😇

[@meredithwoody2013]

Hi Natalie! It's so cool to see your favorite KZbinrs comment on your other favorite KZbinrs videos! 😁

[@lizzyb1431]

Haters: *Attacks Amanda* Me: ╰(‵□′)╯ *am ready to throw hands*

[@wM.4594]

you didn’t have to explain yourself, just saying you would be going on a hiatus would have been enough, but thank you for always being personal and trusting us

[@PlantBasedBride]

You deserve the chance to rest and recharge, Amanda ❤️ I’m so glad you’re taking this time for yourself!

[@AJFluff]

Being a KZbinr is just like any other job: sometimes you need to take some sick days...and sometimes you need to take some mental health days. If you need a break, TAKE A BREAK! At the end of the day, just take care of you.

[@kks.korner]

Amanda: *starts tearing up* 😢 Me: on the edge of tearing up also (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) Plz rest well ur amazing we love u so much when u come back work smarter not harder plz u mean a lot to us we love u 💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@carolinasanchez-ignacio5902]

It’s very sad that unfortunately people on the internet can be that cruel :( it’s not nice, so well done for putting yourself on the internet and being raw about it. If people don’t have anything nice to say they shouldn’t say it. Your bullet journal videos have helped me with my bullet journal and helped me when I have had mental health slips. Your allowed to have a break, a holiday and recharge your batteries. Sending love and happiness ❤️❤️

[@aestheticparadise5864]

Carolina Sanchez - Ignacio I agree with everything you just said 1000%! I also plan to start bullet journaling in the future..... I just need a journal first..... for now... I'm typing down my issues.... like today I didn't go to school because I wasn't feeling good😭 and for some reason I feel kinda bad and somewhat guilty😑😢😢

[@carolinasanchez-ignacio5902]

Kpop and Kawaii bless you hun. If you are not well you are not well you should not feel guilty about it. Most important is that you feel better, everything else can wait. As for the bullet journal, I started mine on my computer and it was very good until I had the courage to get one. Always thought you had to make it fancy and stuff, I just needed it to be practical for me and what I needed it. So take you time :) I am sending all my love and support to you, I hope you are well soon ❤️❤️❤️

[@aestheticparadise5864]

Insta child Thank you.....we appreciate you too😘😗😘

[@aestheticparadise5864]

Carolina Sanchez - Ignacio Thank you~😘 and thanks for the bullet journal tips!❤️❤️ and sending my love to you

[@aestheticparadise5864]

Insta child It does.... But I'm glad she said something instead of keeping it to herself..... especially if she lives alone and being in a dark place......

[@theyeliijelly]

Amanda, I’m not a very active follower of yours but I watched this entire video and I can honestly say I am so proud of you. It’s important to put yourself first and that’s exactly what you’re doing. I truly believe this break will be one of the best times for you. I wish you the best this world has to offer. Much love and peace. 💖

[@Likenoize]

Hey Amanda, I really want you to know that you've inspired me to start my own bullet journal at the beginning of last year when I found your channel. Your videos mean a lot to me and have gotten me through some really rough patches in my life last year so thank you! You were also the one who introduced me to the world of bullet journalling and I can't be more grateful to you for that! I think it takes both courage and strength to recognise that you need a break and taking a short hiatus to heal. Again, thank you for making this video to explain things to us when you didn't have to. I hope things get better for you soon and know that we'll always be here to welcome you back with open arms and plenty of positivity! ✨💕

[@ErinLastNameRedacted]

I feel like this kind of burnout is happening with a lot of KZbinrs recently. So many of us have mental health issues, and we have jobs that give us weekends, vacation time, sick days, etc. We have jobs that don’t involve people constantly sending us hateful comments. So for the people who have KZbin channels, who work on this stuff 24/7, and then have to deal with all of the criticism and negativity... it’s got to be so much more difficult. You (and all of the KZbinrs going through this stuff) need to realize that you need time off like the rest of us. Also, remember that internet bullies have nothing better to do than to hide behind a keyboard and pretend that they are important. And stop putting so much pressure on yourself! I know all of this is easier said than done (I often give advice that I don’t even take myself), but maybe your time off will help. Enjoy your well-deserved break!

[@nameissturdy1390]

OLTLYRFan I noticed the same thing among people who have KZbin as a career. Especially those that have been doing it for awhile. Good point also about the constant/frequent criticism vs most other jobs. They should have a a support system in place for content creators. If they don’t already.

[@sml5386]

Not only KZbin :'( I feel young people in general...

[@demi3115]

No, KZbinrs have a big audience and they talk about so it seems it happens more to them. However, it happens to a lot of students / 20-35 year olds these days, but don't have the audience or feel like they can't talk about it..

[@1NOTTOOOLD]

“So many of us have mental health issues“ Speak for yourself

[@crusader2603]

@@1NOTTOOOLD haha IKR!

[@functionallycool]

There is nothing wrong with taking a "sabbatical". you've done this for 7 years without a day off. So do you girl. we love your content.

[@seultears9724]

Me: starts my first BuJo Amanda: takes break We understand everything, take your time💞 ♥U

[@luvcenzo2499]

Анна Емшанова literally me🤡🤡🤡

[@ellorabraun8075]

Same but she deserves it (prob feel the same as you)

[@kiran7264]

Me tooo. My 1st bujo 2020

[@LuvieIrene]

Анна Емшанова my*

[@seultears9724]

@@LuvieIrene thanks💞

[@CarrieBeyer]

I always have to remind myself of something my dad always says, “I can’t tell you how to succeed but I can tell you how to fail-try to please everyone.” I’m so sorry about all the negativity and I thought your planner was beautiful. Take all the time you need. Blessings on you!

[@annabellegao]

Love you ❤️ you deserve to enjoy your twenties and find who you are outside of this. Since we started the same time I feel you so hard, it’s been A THIRD OF OUR LIFE. rest well Amanda 🌿

[@HermioneChantal]

If BTS taught us anything in 2019, its that it's important to take a break 💜you deserve it!

[@Leedlleelee]

Hermione Chantal yassssss👏👏👏👏👏

[@WordsByTheGigahertz]

Favs supporting favs ♥️

[@stephdelbro]

THIS!!!

[@mothsarecool432]

I dont comment on your channel much but truly, you’re such a beautiful, kind, bright artist with so much skill. I’m a burnt out college student but I put on your videos while I study and you give me a lot of motivation- so thank you! I understand how negative comments can affect you because things ive experienced in the past still affect my mental health to this day but you dont have to please or justify yourself to *anyone*. This is your channel and you’re trying your absolute best (which sooo many people are grateful for). Please know that the many fans who truly love you want you to feel fulfilled and happy with your own work. Enjoy your break 💖💛💙 Go forward doing things for you!

[@teohyc]

You don’t have to care about others who don’t care about you. A person making a negative comment will forget about it seconds after hitting the Send button. But you who reads the comment will remember it for days. So is it worth it to think too much into the negative comment? I don’t even have a single second to read negative unconstructive criticism. A lot of pressure is perceived pressure. When you make art, some people will like it, some people don’t. But who cares? The person who made the nasty comment surely does not.

[@aborg9306]

Miss ma’am you can take all the time you need we love tou

[@sumama15]

It’s okay Amanda, We will support you no matter what and we will still love you. ❤️❤️❤️ It’s important to break sometimes and we understand, please do what’s best for you!!

[@myfortressofbooks]

I never comment because commenting makes me anxious but I hope you’re doing well - you deserve to relax with how hard you’ve been working all these years! 💕

[@monicaokami]

Welcome to the comment section 🍪

[@zoem7170]

2019 was a trying year for sure. I feel what you're going through. I went through a very difficult time towards the end of 2019 as well where I had friends (or so I thought were friends) turn their back on me and say not so nice things about me behind my back. Also, had a career change as well. Just know that 2020 will be an amazing year - a year of self discovery, of hope, of growth. This break is well deserved, as you have given us your all for so many years. You are an amazing person!

[@teainmysugar]

2019 was so rough. I ended up going to seek help from a professional. Working on your personal mental health is so incredibly important. Take care of yourself!!

[@dorothywhisler8525]

Me too! Wishing you all the best

[@amy_lee]

hey amanda really enjoyed watching this, amazed by your vulnerability. i noticed a lot in the video whenever you were talking about your feelings or thoughts you would dismiss them as “stupid” or “sounds silly” but they are SO totally valid. absolutely nothing you said was stupid, and just like you said, it DOES feel so good to talk about them out loud. this is one of the very reasons therapy has made such a positive and transformative impact on my own life. maybe something to think about :) you are doing great, and so wise and mature to honor your mental and emotional health. you’ve created a great career on youtube, please remember to invest and take care of yourself. sending lots of love ♥️

[@whitehouston8237]

I am so sorry that you had to deal with all of this. I guess this was a really hard decision for you, but everyone needs a break sometimes and it is important to listen to your body. My year was definitely not the best either but your videos and the bullet journaling helped me to get through a really difficult time, so I just wanted to say thank you for that . It has been an amazing journey and I am excited to see where it's going next. I wish you all the best, take your time and do what you need. You are amazing and you don't have to prove it to anyone! Take the time you need and we will be here waiting for you💖

[@sofiavip7]

Just for you to know: I started Bullet Journalling because of you❤️ I’ll miss you so much but I promise I’ll be here waiting for you to come back🙏 Hope you put your life all together as soon as possible! Big kisses from 🇵🇹

[@MrRayzer]

Hi Amanda, just to say I started up my Minimalist Bullet Journaling Channel here and my whole entire bullet journal life started after seeing your channel and envying how perfect your setups always were. I've suffered from a minor form of autism and social anxiety from the get go, and that has hindered my life so much. Then when I slowly I pushed myself to create a bujo and all it's done has been positive things and organizing my life. Now my goal is to create the ultimate extreme Minimalist Bujo channel, and hopefully one day grow to become a much bigger channel so I can keep on sharing and giving everyone ideas. I always come back around to checkout your setups all the time! I wish you well, and get some good rest. You're amazing with all your creativity and we'll be here supporting you!

[@luhvly4695]

You can take any time you need, darling! Everyone needs a break every once in a While. I know how hard you work! So taking a break is crucial.

[@luhvly4695]

@Insta child ❤️❤️

[@joanjm3342]

It's not even surprising that I'm crying seeing her like this. We love her so much. We love you lady♥

[@chellyx3O]

Girl! You are the best! I did not realize you're so young and kicking butt! I'm 30 and struggling but, you have inspired me to pick up bullet journaling and remember how much I love to draw and doodle and just be creative. I love every single one of your videos and your artwork. You are so strong for posting this and I love you for it! You do you! Mental health is everything. I personally understand the feeling of being overwhelmed and taking on more that you realize you can chew. Take your time, take care, learn yourself and love yourself.

[@garrettspillane997]

Try to get out of your apartment too while you’re gone. It’s so important and it gives you perspective. Be social please and have a lot of fun!

[@Ballerina3542]

Garrett Spillane yes! As someone who’s struggled with depression, sometimes you don’t realize how bad you need to get off the internet, leave the house, and be around people until you actually do it!

[@caitlinmariedasilva]

So happy that you're taking some time for you, Amanda ♥️ Forever inspired by what you do, both as a viewer and creator, and am even more inspired to see you put yourself first so that you can continue doing amazing things.

[@SailorMoolong]

I love this!!! My favorite creators supporting each other!! Yesss we need more of this in 2020 🥰

[@mintyyling]

Queens supporting queens

[@leesalogic3]

You are an amazing person. You are talented. You are hard working. You are resilient. You are a good person. Your are our future. I'm watching this two months late because I'm very behind in my KZbin, so I know you are now back because my email alerts tell me so. :) I am 53 years old and I find your content refreshing, uplifting, and inspiring. I know the Doodles love you and I'm so happy you are such an inspiration to so many. Thank YOU for your contribution to making this world a better, happier, colorful, organized place.

[@zoedebruycker3475]

Honestly... I had been wondering when you were going to take a break. I've been noticing you need it. Take all the time you need! Selfcare is so important!

[@GPower542]

Heeyyyyy Omg I just saw the title 😭😭 If it is for mental health and just taking a internet detox and also we know you work extremely hard. ❤❤then thats totally ok. then pls pls dont worry abuot us. We will miss u but we will be lookung forward to seeing your beautiful face when you are thinking about returning ❤❤❤❤

[@MiraByler]

Sending you my love and support! 💕

[@lunaru_v]

2019 was a roller coaster for most people, and that includes me. Thoughts when alone kicked in so bad specially when you’re living in Japan.... Anywwy. My therapist introduced me to bullet journal as part of my healing while I was struggling with my mental health. I searched on it on YT and the very first video I watched was yours. You somehow saved me from my mental struggle becuase you inspire me to make my bullet journal colorful and remind myself that I’m okay to be myself on my journal. Taking a break is very essential. Doesnt have to be a month, it can be 2 months or a year. when u feel like going back we will welcome you with open arms.

[@Helena-nd5nw]

I’ll miss you so much😭 I’m following you for over 4 years now and I know that you wouldn’t have done this, then it wasn’t really important. We are supporting you, no matter what you’re doing. Take care of your mental health ❤️

[@nathanielisavlogger5247]

Don't even worry about it.... You've given us so much great content. You even felt you needed to explain what was going on. That's commitment in itself. This doesn't make you uncommitted. It makes you more commited than just releasing on your normal schedule 😁 well done! 😝

[@redpinkandwhite102]

Amanda, I wanted to give you some advice as a person recovering from anxiety. On your break, go out and find your people. Find a community. A safe space where you can talk to people and normalize your feelings or empathize with others to help your own anxiety. Search your local stationary shops for events or pick up a new hobby and hang out with the people there. Or start with the friends you have and find a place where you can feel safe and okay to be all of you, anxious or not. Then, when you head back into your new reconstructed work schedule, you have at least one comfortable spot where work and the comments and the burnout cannot follow. And you can be at peace during those moments. I hope this helps. Get lots of good rest, make a self care spread, and take your time. We will all be waiting with love and compassion when you are ready to come back. :)

[@TheRuthyToothy]

I wholeheartedly second this suggestion. Building some time into my routine where I can just be myself with people who truly understand what it's like to struggle with their mental health has been absolutely essential for me. Here in the UK, we have a charity called Mind, and I've been a member of one of their support groups for 3 years now. There is something so powerful about opening up and sharing how you are feeling, and having that validated by others who have shared those feelings, thought patterns, etc.

[@cindycster1]

Thank you for being so vulnerable. Self-care and self-reflection are so important! You need to take care of yourself first and foremost before you can do anything for others. Love you and everything you have done. I fully support you, your decision and choice. 💗

[@ajhughes2858]

I don't bullet journal but I came across yours...so LOVE watching...you're such a creative and passionate artist. You need to take as much time as you need. Your mental health and wellness are important. Take care of yourself FIRST! Whenever you return, we'll be here.

[@reehakadeeja4105]

8:37 till 9:09 was really heart touching Literally broke my heart 💔💔 Those people who broke amanda’s heart will suffer one day when they will face such a situation Especially those negative comments during amanda’s first merchandise We all know that how happy and super excited amanda was during her planner launch And how could people just say like this Always we will be there for you amanda ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@barbaraskelton6367]

Praying for you, Amanda! I recently retired and am rediscovering who I am as my own person! Looking forward to seeing you return, and I will go back and watch your previous videos for more inspiration in the meantime!

[@creativereadersetc.4524]

Exactly what people should take the opportunity to do!

[@arielmontemayor870]

I just wanted to say that I bought your doodle planner for my mom because she wanted to try bullet journaling but didn’t have the time to set it up herself and I cannot even begin to tell you just how her face lit up when she got it. She loved every single month and kept showing it to me and everyone around us and even started coloring in the months while we were watching tv on New Year’s Eve. From the bottom of my heart (and I’m sure my mom’s as well), thank you so much for everything you do. Also, because of your videos I reconnected with a friend from elementary school and we were able to meet up after not seeing each other for almost 10 years!! The impact you have on people’s lives and your ability to bring people together is amazing! There will always be people who will never be pleased no matter what you do, but know that the people who love and support you far outnumber those who don’t. So take as much time as you need, take care of yourself, and I hope 2020 brings you only the best!

[@hanniefaerie2984]

You know what girl? Take all the time that you need, take a month off, or two, or a whole year, or however long you feel you need so that you can be happy. Take a vacation and do something relaxing, I wish you the best 😊

[@livericious]

amanda, you were the person i came across on youtube who made my start my first bullet journal. i have been bullet journaling for more than 3 years now, and you’re the person i always refer to first for ideas and inspiration, because what you do with your designs are always so unique and interesting 😍 so many others doing bullet journaling also say they take inspiration from you, which just shows how respected you are among the community! if anything, after i started following your work, i learnt from you that bullet journaling is not about fulfilling expectations, but about letting your creativity flow and creating something that is satisfying to yourself. and i cannot thank you enough for that 🙏🏼 everyone knows that as your area and scope of influence increases, the number of people who criticize your work also increases. haters have nothing better to do other than be jealous of your success and impose their own inflated expectations on you, when they themselves cannot even fulfill a thousandth of what you’re bringing to the table. we know how hard it must have been to decide to share your personal struggles on this with us, and we thank you for being honest and real, and also respect you for being so mature and strong 🙇🏻‍♀️ it’s just sad how toxic the internet can be to young, talented and genuine people like yourself..but we will support you all the way 💪🏼 please don’t feel sorry or bad for deciding to take a break. as much as we will miss you, self care and self love is pretty much the most important thing to keep your mind healthy, so take as much time off as you need. we’ll keep you in our prayers, and we love and cherish you very much. please take care ❤️

[@Ladybuguita]

As a Follower (a lil'doodle that doesn't know how to draw a straight line) I just want to say: LOVE YOU! Love all your work, your art. I always watch your videos thinking: "I would love to do a 10th of what she does - would be SOOOO Happy!" And I'm always waiting for the next video. But now I'm thinking: "Take your time, take all the time you need, and I will be here whenever (in a month or a year) you come back. And if you decide to post once a year I will be here to see it and like it. THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR LOVE AND YOUR ART - LOVE 💖💖💖

[@rihannaabaki7569]

after watching that i just wanted to reach though my screen to hug her...

[@sid1510]

I’ve only watched the first 30 seconds of the video so far.. but I totally respect your decision! KZbin can be stressful! 💖 ily

[@yogaavecmoi]

This is my first year bullet journaling, and you're the only bullet journal channel that has been my main source of information about this entire new life I'm going to embark on, I've literally watched over 40 videos back to back and I've felt that you have been so amazingly consistent - I've tried other channels and they don't work for me having grown up in China and being Canadian, you're like a little piece of home. Part of me wanting to get on the bullet journal wagon has been to get organized with my business, which I too have failed to separate between who am I? versus what is my business? Down to the point where, all I gravitate towards are clothes that reflect my brand colors - I mean I absolutely love my business and everything I chose along with it so how can I blame myself? Even the new bullet journal I got initially was the exact color of my brand, I literally had to return it, to get a new one, with a new color, one that fit both my personal and business desires because I had to work on carving out more space for myself. So what I give you as a very excited new subscriber, is my blessing and my FULL permission (absolutely not that you need it) to go take care of your mental health, your sweet tender emotions (which, I'm even open to helping you move through if you need, i'm an integrative yoga therapist). So my love, I look forward to you taking your own space, because a prerequisite of creativity is time and space, you know that of course from the Big Magic :) Sending you much love and tender cuddles!

[@rowenareyesmartisano2071]

*the saddest 30 minutes and 29 seconds of my 2020 year so far :

[@arelinorman6538]

2019 was tough on me too. The best thing I did was make a career change. Take as long as you need ❤️💜❤️💜❤️

[@CarlyneDTQTonPod]

Areli Norman Same here 👩🏽‍💻🌟

[@victoriachen7381]

Hi,Amanda.I to follow your videos about a few months ago,and it’s always been great when I was watching your videos . You have inspired me to do boju for 2020.And I really like you for the first time I saw you because I like drawing and all that crafty stuff myself and the first time I saw you I’m like o this youtuber is the best one I’ll ever meet .So if you need a break, just do it !I'm apparently sick right now and watching your videos,so please,if you’re not feeling well or your tired, just go take a break for one week , one month or even one year , as long as you need .I believe your doodles are always going to be here for you waiting for you to comeback

[@lainaward450]

I just recently started bullet journaling and watching you always inspires me. I love all of your content and even though I’ll miss it I want to see content you are proud ofッ I wish you the best of luck with “plain old” Amanda and I’m sending you so much love

[@lunalion8380]

Being a perfectionist is one of my character defects, and it is exhausting.....putting so much pressure on yourself, Setting high expectations, and unattainable goals leads to not being perfect. I relate and I understand how being a people pleaser, on top of being a perfectionist, will literally cause a mental, physical, and emotional breakdown. Either you listen to your gut or your body will be do it for you. You have the world at your heals and have accomplished so much in your short time you have been here on earth, Your amazing, go rest,sleep, eat, and party🥰🥰🥰✌🏼❤️🌱

[@balatayojade5137]

Your bullet/monthly bujo setup vids has been my inspiration to start my own bujo. Im so happy, inspired & amazed by your unique ideas. Im a new fan and just started to watch you last November. Its sad to hear and watch this but i know you deserve every good things in the world. Have a wonderful break. You deserve it love. Mwaaa ♡

[@jennsun1834]

pls have a hug. 2019 was rough for me too, still recovering. love ya!

[@mamina_]

*hugs*

[@asmaaastay6057]

I cried when you're tearing up😭 It's because I'm struggling too (mental health). To be honest, my anxiety got worst last year. That's why I always spend my time on internet (but worsen it). I just found this channel last year too. I started to like journaling and became your fan. And I feel better because of 'journaling world'. Cheer up Amanda! I'm waiting for you. Take a break and be healthy. Ily!

[@rj233713]

When there’s success especially HUGE success there’s always going to be haters. “They hate us cuz they ain’t us”

[@Lovelybby24]

3:13 the Jumanji drums start playing Me: ........ NO IT ISN’T A BREAK, SHE’S BEEN SUMMONED! Sorry 💕 love you girl, hope you rest on this break!

[@maggie-zl4ss]

stay strong amanda. your lil doodles will be here when you get back! take the time you need to heal & focus on you.

[@virginiavargas893]

Amanda, I was searching for talented artist (Pen pals) recently, and I found you. And I've watched all your most videos, and I must say for a young talent...YOU ARE AMAZING! Don't take the negative feedback and criticism to heart. Remember...this is your style, and your talent and this is what drew us to You. Life is too short...take that break to breathe, to relax and enjoy YOU... for a change. Love, Joy and Peace to you, Amanda!❤✉⚘🤗

[@tracimcmahon2288]

"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are." Take care of yourself. ❤

[@megslowvsyew]

Raise those vibes, girl! Go be happy and at peace. I’ll be here when you get back! You are my biggest bullet journal inspiration, and I’m so excited for you to love your best life!

[@emilyrg]

Literally only just discovered your channel and have watched 3 of your videos (this, the vertical filming setup, 1 mill + a little scroll ofc). Despite not being a KZbinr and having the exact same pressures you have, I just wanted to say that I relate to you SO much and think your videos (those I’ve seen + scroll) and what you do are so beautiful. I feel inspired by what you’re saying, love your aesthetic and really appreciate your work! ❤️❤️ Artists change and evolve with time and the net is such a minefield but I think what you do is so so courageous and inspiring, it’s something I aspire to, and I hope you’re continuing to focus on the amazing work and inspiration you create (and on Amanda) and not that shitty 1%! You exude drive and positivity and competence across the screen, thank you for adding beauty to my world and hope 1 year on your break was super helpful and you’re back to kicking goals and concentrating on what brings you the most joy and fulfilment. Sending you so much love from Italy!! ❤️❤️

[@lifeisforliving1399]

you have inspired me to start my own bullet journal this year and renewed my love of drawing and doodling. Get well soon, i also suffer from panic attacks so i can relate xx Greetings from Ireland x

[@amarisvazquezvargas9350]

WE ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOU! As your lil doodles, we'll be here when you get back

[@CamiVillalba]

"Amanda (you are not "plain")" Had to answer the comment because I thought the same while watching the video! KZbinr or not, she's not "plain" ^^ I'm glad you wrote it!

[@SheMeetsPaper]

As someone who has struggled with depression and burnout, my single piece of advice is to not put a deadline on your healing. Take as much time as you need. And stay completely away from it all while you are recovering. Log out of your account, your email, let everything be. I hope you can find a way back to yourself♥️

[@craftymeow4679]

Exactly this! I also had to take most of last year out (a break from work and to a degree life) to recover from burnout and anxiety.

[@2lpitzers]

I just found your channel tonight and went through your Bullet Journal Plan for March. I loved it! I have been trying to start a bullet journal for year’s, but I too live in my own head. You are a beautiful young woman who deserves to have a life outside of KZbin and negative comments. Take all the time you need to feel truly good about yourself. My one suggestion (from experience), is that you take some breaks daily and just go outside for a short walk so you can recharge your brain and get away from any negativity that you may see and feel. I’ve come to the realization that there are people in this world that are so unhappy with they’re lives, that they take it out on others. I commend you for doing this video and speaking from your heart. You have a new fan, and I will follow you when you come back your new self!

[@TheCoffeeMonsterzCo]

Love you so much

[@betulcimenay7408]

Use me as the *'I love Amanda and am happy that she's getting the rest she deserves'* button! I'm never the one to make these kinds of comments to fish for likes but i just want her to actually see how many of us are with her, thank you♡

[@TheSoulsomeLife]

I’m here after seeing your new video about your next break because I never watched this one. I’m glad you’re taking a break. I’ve felt this way before and I’m not even self-employed. I was in high school when I felt this way and it’s a scary place...The good thing is that you took a much-needed break however you could and because of that, you can now take preventative measures and give yourself the time you need before you get to that dark place again. Take all the time you need❤️

[@Safirezebabe]

You’re such a sweetheart, it’s upsetting to see you upset! Have a really healing break, we’ll be here when you feel like coming back. Look after yourself!

[@HulloAlice]

I love you so much Amanda! You always always have my support 💜 I'm proud of you for putting yourself first. Take care of yourself, rest, do what you need. You are such an amazing person and I know how hard and exhausting this can be. Sending you so much love 💕

[@apav5976]

SMILE it’s contagious. You are AWESOME and brave. Enjoy your time...be selfish..put YOU first... We will be here when you get back, no questions asked. Breathe life in. You’ve been an inspiration and helped me stay organized for YEARS... You made a difference for my day to day and it was YOU that made me fall in love with bullet/Journaling. THANK YOU! From A Woman who wears many hats like most...A Mom, a wife, a cook, a housekeeper, a referee, handyman, a tutor and a nurse along with regard to many other titles most importantly because of you I am organized in them all!

[@melissab9991]

Seeing you cry made me cry😭💔 I’ve been watching you for 4 years, so of course I support you! I hope you get all the rest and break you need, we’ll be here with lots of love when you come back❤️

[@PamReyno]

So sorry you've been feeling this way, but glad you shared how you are feeling. It's scary to be so open and honest about your feelings and struggles... But the more people speak out about their mental health and struggles the more it becomes mainstream and easier to talk about. I hope your break helps you destress and unwind. Know you are loved and your fans will be there when you're ready to return, if you decide to return. It's your life and you should do what you need to make you happy. You don't owe anyone anything. Remember that. You are enough just as you are. Much love. 😘

[@yuliperez5285]

you deserve a break for all of your hard work and so so much more :') then you for everything you do for us, the least we can do is support you

[@queencloak]

I just started bullet journalling last year. Though I don't always recreate your set up but they always inspire me and give me ideas on themes that fit my mood and taste. You are amazing and I hope I can say to not mind haters but it's not that easy. Take your time. Take a rest and everyone will wait for your return. Love you 😘

[@dbd4654]

Oh this is so sad because I really love you and your Videos and I feel addicted to your monthly setups but I (and I think every other real fan) want you to feel good and be happy so take your time Amanda❤ love u so much and see u when u feel ready to come back to YT❤

[@lena.x5707]

I was literally crying half way through this but I came down here to say that we will understand your well deserved break and now I’m seeing the amount of anxiety you must have gone through to make your amazing content really made me realise the amazing person sitting behind the camera and I am talking about Amanda! Ok I’m done ranting but I just wanted to say when you feel that it is the right time for you to come back we will be overjoyed!!!!

[@WendyVaz]

i am so so glad and proud of you for taking this step back, you needed it and you so deserve it. I've only started following you a few months back and have always been amazed by how consistent you are with your content - and they're so quality ones! I'm trying to grow my KZbin channel and I know how hard it is to be so consistent and have such quality content all the time. You've inspired me to start bullet journaling (my setup is pretty potato level compared to yours but oh well, it works for me so it's good!) So yea, have a GOOD GOOD break, can't wait to watch your next video (don't matter when, take longer than a month if you need!) about how the break has helped you. HAPPY RESTING!!!

[@glaireantonio4833]

Word of the day: wholesome Amanda, you're a wholesome person, who is undoubtedly passionate about your craft. Have a fun break, and I'm happy to see that you're allowing to give yourself the time to heal. We will miss you, but we know that your happiness comes first. Until then, stay safe and happy♡