I REALLY NEEDED THIS... | Ren - "Hi Ren" REACTION

INTRO SONG:
"Wendigo" (Instrumental Version):
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Chapters
0:00 - Introduction
1:02 - Reaction
10:15 - Final Thoughts/Review
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I highly suggest you listen to the original song without my commentary:
Ren - "Hi Ren"
• Ren - Hi Ren (Official...
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[@orbislame]

“Some people know me as the voice that they hear when they loosen the noose on the rope.” One of the best lines I’ve ever heard in song.

[@stepattinson]

Gets me every time

[@dalethompson2961]

❤

[@dalethompson2961]

i totally agree. it stopped me in my tracks the first time i hear it, and still does every time. a very powerful lyric/poetry

[@TheViralInfekT]

Having heard that voice myself already it is the one line that kicks me hard. So brilliant.

[@staceysmith4868]

Totally agree!

[@JohnGatesIII]

The reason this connects SO deeply to most humans is because we ALL have this battle within us......"You're not smart enough, you're not attractive enough, you're not talented enough, you're not strong enough, etc.". Only the very few humans ever have the "Light" side win every time. What's even more astonishing about this video is that it's entirely LIVE.....no pre-recorded music and lip-syncing here.

[@mariamanasewitsch2977]

One thought comforts me: Things could ALWAYS be WORSE!!!

[@gamex9649]

I dont so not everyone so u lying

[@unscnordlicht3279]

​@gamex9649 "most humans" he did not say everyone so you're wrong. Please read better

[@kalebrownie7735]

Man. I can't stop watching reactions to this song. Such a genius, and his lyrics hit so hard. Masterful

[@strange4you]

GENIUS hahahahahahahahaha........ He can not play and not sing?????

[@kalebrownie7735]

@@strange4you I'm confused at your question? Yes..... he can sing.....and play....haha

[@elektrovert]

I'm thinking of starting a ten step program on how to stop watching "Hi Ren" reaction videos, it's becoming a real problem for me!!! 😁😁😁

[@corygarden]

ha!!! i hear ya mate..me too :) @@elektrovert

[@icr3atori726]

Same I’m on like five or ten of reactions to this

[@coreyms]

Really appreciate your reaction here. The song’s extremely vulnerable but so was your own story towards the end. Like you said, “Sometimes existing can be exhausting”… But it is good to hear the validation that we all have similar struggles. Thanks for that. Always easier to get through things together.

[@AileenSenpai]

Appreciate your comment :) I feel like empathy and vulnerability are so important and you seem like you carry those traits as well. I hope you are well and appreciate your compassion ♥️

[@reactivereplays5666]

@@AileenSenpai I haven't made it to the part where you tell your story. I paused at 7:36 to think and come down and read and maybe comment. I was 1000% in agreement with Corey with your vulnerability BEFORE I hear your story. I am a man and not scared to cry at beautiful things or things that make me sad. That being said I also know that once 2 or 3 tears fall you can EASILY force many more. I am like a human lie detector and obviously not perfect or always right but I felt NONE of that from you. As a content creator I know MANY things must go through your head about ways to get more views and a million things I can't perceive because I'm not in that profession. You are also so beautiful. I say all that to say, To be so beautiful (only skin deep), a content creator/reactor, and someone trying to grow. It would be easy to be fake for 10 extra seconds of tears for the suckers.... I'm so glad you stayed true. I instantly turn these channels (man or women). You could have easily shed a few extra for show. Instead you were fixated and enthralled with a genius writer and instrument player. I brought the skin deep beauty part up because its true in all cases and I love the horns and black on you but it is clear to me that you should be in white with a different symbol up top. Stay true & BE YOU

[@blisscuyler335]

Corey I absolutely love your compassion comment . Your very brilliant and amazing take care 🤩

[@blisscuyler335]

@@AileenSenpai I agree existing is exhausting but we all have to try to survive I try, amazingly you try very well I am so glad you do, trying is all we can do your brilliant very well said. Even though you, others feel emotionally mentally alone psychically were not alone so many like billions of people deal with mental illnesses and stress it is normal and tragic but true and take care 🤩😘 I love being candid I deal with intense social anxiety depression I am trying my best I love helping others so gradually we all get through it hopefully I am proud I deal with what I have. When possible we should not let our struggles define us yet instead empower us and others. I love empathy great trait that all people are born with it just trauma,pain transitions some to apathetic tragic yet true or they just deal with a mental illness. I really appreciate your eternal life journey and your empowering story. thank you. Those with mental illnesses and struggles are very strong even if they don't believe it themselves. Spreading love and kindness is what can save us all. Ren is so brilliant,empowering,emotive, inspirational, radiantly talented. Ren speaks to all our souls mine too.I am open minded but others can't always understand what anyone goes through when hidden,we all go through shit rather or not if it is hidden. It is inevitable but support is amazing. I loved it. Your so genuinely pretty. I absolutely love music it is very emotive and soulful I love all sorts of genres of rock and metal so soulful original I love other genres too appreciate it, once again Ren is amazing. Take Care 💜💜🥰 Take Care

[@skibum415]

​@@AileenSenpai A song that I related to, and still do frequently, is "I Am a Rock" by Simon and Garfunkel ( kzbin.info/www/bejne/raWZXmWVgtecjqM ). While it too is outside of your typical hard rock comfort zone I have yet to hear of a person who doesn't walk away appreciating something from the song. Thanks for being vulnerable. Best.

[@mikeymike1383]

This is a lyrical masterpiece. You listen to it and say "wow".

[@Tijuanabill]

Musically too. The tempo and major/minor changes, depending on who is speaking is genius too, made more so by it's simplicity, not less.

[@moo3992]

No i don't.

[@Len_M.]

More like you listen and just tear up and remain speechless.

[@pigdestroyer1019]

I must not be in the right mind set cuz I do not hear that

[@dianeshelton9592]

@@pigdestroyer1019one date you might. It’s a song that sits with you. Something might bring you to it especially if your universal dark is being too loud.

[@JensRandolff]

Here is some additional information on Ren's story, in case you didn't already know. I gathered it from an old newspaper interview and Ren's livestreams and posts where he discussed his condition. Ren Eryn Gill is a British musician/independent artist; born in Wales in 1990 or ‘91 (depending on which source you cite), he grew up in Brighton. Ren pursued a career in music from an early age. In 2009, while studying music performance at Bath Spa University, he began to experience health issues and was struggling to attend his lectures. In 2010, he was signed by Sony Records and was working on an album when his health deteriorated to the point where he was unable to continue and subsequently dropped by Sony. Ren's illness often kept him in bed for up to 23 hours daily. Ren was initially misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and chronic fatigue syndrome, which lead him to experience psychosis. It would take seven years before a doctor in Belgium finally correctly diagnosed Ren with autoimmunity, Lyme disease, and resulting damage to the brain, organs, joints, and PTSD. Ren eventually underwent stem cell therapy in the United States, which improved his health, but it has not been a cure. Ren is currently in Canada for more treatments, including surgeries, and will have to be there for at least six months (Summer of 2023). Ren's Canadian doctor discovered that Ren also developed a condition called Mast Cell Activation Disorder, which has affected the myelin sheath in his brain, his thyroid, adrenals, as well as his bones/joints. Ren stated: "It's a lot to wrap my head around having to be away from friends, family, and a successful career, and almost feels like a total juxtaposition to the fact that my music is blowing up right now and spreading to all corners of the world, but that's life, we take the good with the bad." Let's keep supporting Ren and not pull a "Sony" on him as he undergoes his treatment. Check out and subscribe to his channel, listen to some of his earlier work, like and comment on his performances, and let's lift Ren's spirits. If you are a believer, pray for him. Ren is an artist with something to say to this generation, and his work is needed in these troubling times. Here is the link to Ren’s GoFundMe page to raise money for his current treatment. www.gofundme.com/f/ren-get-better-from-lyme-disease-and-autoimmunity

[@Bearlissimo]

Ren is currently in Canada having extensive treatment which is going well, he's recently come through surgery which is great.

[@jw1289]

Excellent synopsis. One of the best I’ve read so far.

[@supertuscans9512]

I think Ren is fantastic but ‘pull a Sony on him’ is just absurd. No record label is going to keep an artist signed who can’t perform consistently. It’s not Ren’ fault and it’s not Sony’s fault - it’s just life. To be fair Sony are in business and they need artists who can deliver, that is not unreasonable. A record contract is exactly that, a contract between two parties who both have to be capable of holding up their end of the deal.

[@jw1289]

@@supertuscans9512 True, but you just explained why Sony have no soul. And REN’s music would be stunted by writing pop tunes for the masses. I’m glad we get the raw unedited version.

[@supertuscans9512]

I think today it is possible with social media for artists to ‘make it’ without a record label but it’s typically slower. From the artists perspective it enables them to remain in control of their art. I still think your criticism of Sony is unreasonable. If they supported every artist who couldn’t consistently perform for a decade, they would be out of business. Ultimately to become the global superstar his talent warrants, Ren if he is capable, will be best served by doing a deal with a label, be it Sony or someone else. However the bigger presence he has, if and when that time ever comes, the better contract he’s going to be able to negotiate. To do that to its greatest extent it will probably be prudent for him to employ a good manager and lawyer who specialises in music industry artist contracts. It’s the way of the world.

[@Rottingboards]

I'm 56, a veteran and Ren made me cry. The demons are real and not real. Self doubt can swing from darkness and light.... Ren is a true artist.

[@jyesucevitz]

thank you for your service sir.

[@thomaswalter123]

legit

[@JohnRobinson-cp3cz]

Ren is the DEFINITION of an artist. He is wise far beyond his years.

[@patrickquinlan3056]

I'm 68 years old and I have listened to challenging music all my adult life and my teen years, yet nothing has penetrated my soul like this. I have wept and wept and wept after listening to Ren's songs and yet he brings such joy. I have been to some of the places Ren has struggled through and I have nothing but profound admiration for this talented and courageous young man. Bless his soul and may his body be healed.

[@mendoza7763]

Yeah, what is that with the crying?! I do the same, maybe because i have had basically his same experience with mental health and autoimmunity. He has at least 10 songs I can't make it through without tearing up, or just straight-up needing a tissue! Yet I feel like his music makes me happy at the same. I used to get this Hot & Sour soup from a Chinese place. It was soooooo spicy hot, that sweat immediately started pouring down my forehead. I would have to change my shirt after lol.But it was so delicious, I couldn't stop eating it and ordered it all the time lol Ren's music is that Hot & Sour soup 😁

[@stevenmeyer9674]

Such a beautiful comment...Thank you.

[@moseskelly19]

Yes sir 58 yo And feel exactly the same Peace

[@petebrown6356]

Nobody is doing what he is. I've never seen it done either.

[@Hobodeluxe960]

63 and same here. this young man is wise beyond his years. it reminds me of the old Cherokee tale of Two Wolves. And in one way it made me think of Satan, God and Us being a trinity with the same power. The dark will always be dark, the light will always be light and we are free will. We have to power to empower either of these others. We can't get rid of them but we can learn that we are not subject to them but they are subject to us instead.

[@petesmithson1906]

There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. You're a beautiful person and you truly bring joy to a large community of people.

[@AileenSenpai]

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@TrianglesAndCircles]

Agreed. For whatever reason, I feel released from my cage. Its a mental cage. I was actually hanging from a noose bleeding to death and being tortured and disfigured. I thought I would never be able to say that. It took 15 years to do it without a full blown panic attack. I t takes a lot of inner power to get beyond what people might think if they heard your story. The facts cannot change, only one's opinion of himself or herself can. My advice is to continue with the journey and when you find something interesting along the way, look into it and not just at it. There is so much meaning in all the little things in life. There is a road, no simple highway, between the dawn and the dark of night and if you go, no one may follow - that path is for your steps alone. - The Grateful Dead from "Ripple"

[@torbjrnlund903]

@@AileenSenpai - Stunningly beautiful 😍

[@mypetcrow9873]

Aileen, I don’t know if you can accept this but you are truly loved by your viewers. Please take care of yourself. You’re the only one of you we’ve got! ❤️

[@alexeilindes7507]

Are you certain?

[@ejflesher]

Watching reaction videos of Hi Ren has been group therapy for me. I can't get enough of them. No artist in my 49 years of listening to music and watching movies, films and TV shows comes close to emoting what so many of us feel. His performance as the two sides is powerful and engaging. The vocal changes and his ability to take on the personas so eloquently. The message and lyrics are genius. Who is the director? The lights, camera changes all pulling you into the dynamics of the performance perfectly. This 10 minute video changed my life. Thank you for your vulnerability because it lets the rest of us know we aren't alone in feeling the depth of emotion Ren expressed.

[@catsandcrafts171]

I think it's just Ren and his friend who does video. Pretty sure he doesn't have a director or others involved, apart from the tracks where he collabs with people. The guy who videos is a bloody good film-maker. I hope he gets success too.

[@GiantOnTheMic]

the very same for me. I couldn't agree with you more about this whole comment

[@necessaryevil3428]

Been nothing like this since Queen at LiveAid. Astonishingly brilliant

[@tinab2137]

Me too! I feel exactly the same.

[@kbegay27]

Same here, we can get through this together

[@briandeissinger3102]

I really hope Ren sees this. He has watched a bunch of reactions to this song and commented on the videos. I think he would love your authenticity and emotional response. Also when you said that "existing is sometimes exhausting" that hit so hard for me. Really summed up a lot of stuff people deal with in just a few words.

[@bighomiestevethemetalhead8131]

I've lived with an autoimmune illness called Systemic Scleroderma since I was 17yo, and I've struggled with depression and anxiety as well because of it and other life circumstances. That's why I connect with this song soo much, it's very relatable to just about everybody who has struggled in life. This isn't just a song, this song is one of the best pieces of art I've ever seen and it cuts right down to the soul!!

[@thatpandaz6094]

Why is it always at 17?!

[@troydruckenmiller1751]

My prayers are with you. Prayers for healing and for that you can use your story to help others like Ren is.

[@bighomiestevethemetalhead8131]

@@thatpandaz6094 I don't know, it does seem to be a repeating pattern. It took me 3 years to get a diagnosis because a lot of autoimmune illnesses have similarities, I was in middle school when I first started getting symptoms. I've been through hell, but I'm living proof that a person can survive anything life throws at them. Thank you for your response 🤝🤜🤛

[@bighomiestevethemetalhead8131]

@@troydruckenmiller1751 thank you for your kind words, I enjoy sharing my story because it's basically a tale of perseverance and resilience when facing adversity. I've had a very difficult life in my 31 years of living, much more than I've mentioned here, but I'm not going to be defeated! Thank you for your response! 🙏🤝🤜🤛

[@zed4225]

Stay strong, keep on keeping on. If you have people who care for you, its important to get through each day to the next. Never know what tomorrow will bring, gotta be in it to win it. I don't know your journey as I don;t have he same illness but I have the capacity to understand how this would feel for you, and for Ren. Heart goes out to you both. Sending massive virtual hugs and love.

[@joshuaanderson1197]

Ren x chinchilla - chalk outlines (LIVE) gets me every single time. You being on anti-depressants and such will identify with it much like I do. Love your reaction

[@lanmandragoran8337]

Agreed.

[@Tripps420]

This 100% I understand why people are suggesting the whole Jenny screech violet tale. I mean, it's a genius way of telling a story...but I think she would identify with this so much more. Us people that have been on anti-psychotics and/or antidepressants know this all too well.

[@joshuaanderson1197]

@@Tripps420 Exactly. That's what I was thinking.

[@Tripps420]

I think people don't actually listen to what others are saying. They just want to see people react to what they want, and not necessarily what people may need. Meh

[@2Minsky]

Be careful though I keep misinterpreting that song as I have heard it on one of the bad days I know it is not saying what my brain tells me it is saying

[@TangoDown357]

I'm not crying, you're crying! 🥺😢 I'm a grown ass man watching KZbin tearing up like a baby lol. Intense, raw, beautiful. Amazing track.

[@KevinSmith-up1qo]

This and James Blunt’s Monsters turn me - a grizzled 60 year old man - into a weeping mess

[@donaro]

​@@KevinSmith-up1qooh man, thank You for that song

[@loadedorygun]

This is REN’s gift to you. He knew that putting all his feelings out there would be therapeutic and fulfilling for him, and that it would be widely relatable. He wrote this for himself but he sings it for you. ❤️

[@streetninjas313]

I've watched many reactions to Hi Ren over the past couple months and have to say yours is the most beautiful and moving by far. I loved how you didn't pause and just experienced it in one go (as it should be) and then your reflection afterwards was very emotional and vulnerable and I want you to know how incredibly strong you are and how much all of us love and care about you. Now that you've started your Ren journey you MUST react to The Tales of Jenny and Screech & Violet's Tale (they're all in one video). It's the next of Ren's masterpieces. After that just explore his music, it's incredibly diverse and impressive!

[@santoy1000]

Agreed ..this girl seems so sweet and smart, i hope her therapist ensures that she realises this

[@brianbritton3693]

saved me posting all i wanted to say, cheers JD. subbed here hun thanks

[@streetninjas313]

@@santoy1000 Me too, she clearly has so much to give and the ability to move people with her authenticity.

[@simontemplar3359]

First off: you ARE good enough. You are NOT a joke. You ARE a special, wonderful, and kind person. Total strangers from the internet really do care! You're right- existing is exhausting, but it IS going to be all right. Sending positive thoughts and non-creepy virtual hugs! I found your reaction powerful beyond words. It seemed like you were just dialed in and engaged. It's hard not to be- he did that live. The thing I wanted to add along with your observations is that at the end of the song right before he puts the guitar down, he never resolves the chord progression. To properly resolve that chord progression, he should have played a D minor. But he doesn't. No chance that's an accident. It suggests to me that as long as we're alive, that battle between our angels and our demons rages. Great reaction. I hope you find peace and healing, and never doubt that you friggin rock, young Jedi! 👽👍🏼

[@AileenSenpai]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@sammyd8860]

Aileen, you are a beautiful person inside and out. Your reaction was so honest. One of the lines I noticed you react to was the one that gets me every time "Some people know me as Hope, some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope". That is so brutal but true. Every time one of us, or one of our loved ones, reaches that level of despair, we all now know that the noose can be loosened, that we can walk away from that act, and breathe again

[@mistercointreau5247]

Reactors nearly always tear up soon after Ren stands up for the song's finale. Powerful emotions being unleashed when hope overcomes despair.

[@slcncr]

I have watched *dozens* of reaction videos on Ren`s "Hi Ren" over the last weeks. And btw, i get goosebumps and tears every single time i hear this. What i loved especially about *your* reaction here: You didn´t say a word throughout his performance, you let your face and eyes do the talking. I felt it all with you Aileen. Never in my 55 years of existing ( i don´t call it "living" cause i suffer from decades filled with severe Depression and Loneliness) have i ever been moved so much and felt something so intense after listening to a piece of music or lyrics such as this piece of Art from Ren. This is not only a song, this is not only lyrics written by a fine and very talented wordsmith ( someone called his style "Bardcore" ), this is an experience i will never forget. Thank you Aileen for your beautiful and moving reaction.

[@davidjarvie9546]

Same here I'm hooked on watching the reacters move through the song

[@oldoaktrees]

You said it better then I ever I could. This song always makes me smile, laugh and cry. Amazing that Ren can affect me like that in under 10 minutes.

[@tswanstrom2000]

🤗

[@JensRandolff]

“Hi Ren" is the song that put Ren on everyone's radar since December; it went viral and has garnered more than 5 million views since its debut, but he has been creating great music for more than ten years. Ren’s music videos are generally recorded live, often in a single take, although not necessarily the first take, and from various camera angles. His release, "Sick Boi," is almost another chapter to "Hi Ren." Many of his songs resonate with people because he addresses struggles that many others face every day. Ren plays multiple instruments (acoustic, electric, and bass guitar, piano, drums), has impressive vocals, is an excellent storyteller, and is quite the philosopher and poet. He is considered by many a modern bard. His trilogy "The Tale of Jenny/Screech/Violet" is haunting and has an unforeseen conclusion. It needs to be watched in the order given, as this is the flow of the storyline. It is another example of Ren’s genius and a master’s class in storytelling. It has been likened to a Shakespearean tragedy. Ren’s collaborations with Chinchilla (“Chalk Outlines,” “How to Be Me”) are beautiful and showcase his singing voice while addressing mental health. His live music videos are especially impressive. Ren's personal reflections are threaded through many of his songs; "Insomnia," "Depression," “Diazepam," “Penitence,” “Dear God,” “Heretic,” “Dominos,” his "Freckled Angels" album, just to name a few, all deserve a listen. His song "Money Game" (Part I & II) is another recommendation, although it is less of a personal song than it is an indictment of greed and the resulting injustices in this world. Ren’s Hip Hop/Rap style songs are all worth checking out if you enjoy this genre; they are pretty amazing. Check out “The Hunger,” “Genesis,” “What You Want,” “Losing it (FISHER rap retake),” “Right here, right now (Fatboy Slim one shot retake),” "Life is Funny," “Love Music (Parts 1, 2, and 3),” “Crucify Your Culture,” “Power,” and his latest release, “Bittersweet symphony (The Verve retake).” As I recently discovered, Ren also recorded a cover of “Can't Help Falling In Love (Elvis Cover),” that is simply beautiful. Then there are his performances with Sam Tompkins (“Blind Eyed,” “Earned it /Mans World / Falling,” “Walking on the moon/No Diggity”), Eden Nash (“Humble,” “Ocean”), Bibi (“Crutch,” “Ahiahiaoha”), Molly McKinna (“Penitence”), his former bandmate, Romain Axisa (“French Song”), which are all great. Ren's performances as a member of the band "The Big Push" (which unfortunately broke up), their busking (street performances), concerts, and their live recordings, are awesome and well worth checking out. Ren's covers of "I Shot the Sheriff," "Wade in the Water," "An Englishman in New York," “War Pigs,” the songs "Oh My Woman," “Swan Song,” “Sweet Little Lady," "It's Alright," "Watch Out," “Dignity,” and so many others are equally impressive. Ren recently released his single, “Sick Boi.” In anticipation of his stay in Canada for more treatments, Ren prepared some music ahead of time to be released over the next six months that he expects to be gone. As mentioned above, his latest release, “Bittersweet Symphony (The Verve retake),” is another masterful work.

[@porthmeor1]

Not strictly true...Ren has been around a while now with a number of vids reaching over or around 10M views over the last 4 years or so....Hi Ren is just another masterpiece to add to his repertoire and build his public footprint and I'm sure there will be many more.

[@papacarl2002]

Thanks Jens, seriously appreciate the effort and dedication to sharing many various aspects of this incredibly talented artist. Doesn’t have to be perfect since it’s so very thoughtful and will help me and others who’ve just recently found Ren dive in to many other aspects. 🤘🏼🎧🤟🏼

[@jonasmandersson]

Is it your mission to copy and paste the same text on every reaction to Ren Gill?

[@JensRandolff]

@@jonasmandersson I did the research and share what I found with those who are interested. I had no complaints thus far. Just trying to promote Ren's art, as well as his fundraiser. There has been one person copying and pasting my comment verbatim and taking credit for it; more power to him. If you don't like what I post, don't read it. God bless.

[@JensRandolff]

@@porthmeor1 As I clearly stated in my post, "he has been creating great music for more than ten years." However, it wasn't until "Hi Ren" that his music went viral. over 5 million views in a month vs a couple of million views over several years for a few of his videos. Many of those views have only come due to "Hi Ren." Ren was highly underrated and underappreciated until a few months ago.

[@Minosen]

"I was made to be tested and twisted, I was made to be broken and beat".. that hits me so hard every time. That is how I feel about this thing called life. It's a constant struggle of being tested

[@ifelthope100]

What a gift Ren has! Sometimes you come across things that are just bad for your soul. It's pretty rare you find something that nourishes it. What an amazing experience Ren shares!

[@RonNL70]

Ren touched so many people with this masterpiece. Many relate to this, me incl... Much love to all who have to deal with their inner demons. YOU GOT THIS 💪💪💪

[@robertovasquez1538]

REN IS A TRAIN HITTING RIGHT ON YOUR FACE, GOING AS FAST AS HE CAN GOES. HE'S BRUTALLY HONEST, HE'S SINGULAR, HE'S A FRESH AIR.

[@user-ik7uw7gh7e]

Ren is so fucn healthy in our HEALING FOR YOUNG AND OLD. BELIEVE ME I'M 54 YEARS OLD AND HAVE BEEN A PART OF THE MUSIC INDUSTRY AND CAN'T DO THE THINGS I USE TO BE ABLE TO DO

[@donbeck5109]

I almost didn’t check this out, but seeing as Aileen is a metalhead, and I love her music choices, I gave this a listen. I’m glad I did. The struggle to stay on the straight path, all the while hearing that voice of doubt trying to pull you to the darkness. I deal with it daily, staying sober, losing my son, getting divorced. This really struck me on a very personal level.

[@bighomiestevethemetalhead8131]

I'm soo happy to see you finally check this masterpiece out!!! This song has really had an impact on me and it's amazing to see soo many people connecting with it. I really hope you do "Jenny/Screech/Violet's Tale", I heard that song for the first time 2 weeks ago and I was even more blown away. This kid is the most creative artist I've ever heard, he needs to be promoted EVERYWHERE!! 🤘🤘🤙🤙

[@philsilverthorn]

That was a beautiful reaction. Thank you. As someone who has battled depression for over 40 years I always felt defeated every time the depression kicked in strongly. I felt it WAS a battle I either had to win or lose. This piece of music, of art, hit me hard - a lightbulb moment. I know now that we win not by winning all our battles but in the strength we have to keep facing them. Thank you once more.

[@davidpetersonharvey]

Loved your honest reaction. I've been in that place twice in my life, with a literal gun to my head. I decided to stay and see how the story ended instead of closing the book early. I'm so glad I did. 34 years married now and we own our own recording studio and learning center where we teach music and art. Please don't ever close the book. You have a wonderful story waiting to be written.

[@rickgiles3633]

That evil side of ourselves is what drives us to carry on. The good side balances us. We can’t exist without both sides.

[@williamsummerson1204]

Really excited for the reaction Aileen. Ren is a genius and a masterclass in storytelling.

[@srroome]

if your audience don't like this, and the reaction you had, that so many of us also had, then, well, there are better audiences out there, beautiful, you melted like we all did. It was such a human shared experience knowing that we all felt like this.

[@robbyrsart6994]

who dont cry by this showing of soul and the trouble inside is not an musician. Every Human... here or everywhere... no mather Musician or not.... a Human. Thats the way to be and this is a trip To finde a way with yust one voice inside. love your Videos. greets from Munich Germany

[@kbar83]

Thank you for this reaction and for opening up and sharing with us. I'm a 41 year old man who just started therapy for ptsd and anxiety and it really helps when other people share their struggles.

[@richardhuff1256]

Chaulk outlines is another profound take on mental health. The tale of Jenny and Screech (full) is a masterpiece of Shakespearianesque poetry. There are many many songs in his catalog that are top top tier. Many emotional, some just fun. He is truly the most talented musical artist of our lifetimes.

[@philk9227]

What a beautiful and heartfelt reaction Aileen. Know that you are never alone, you ARE always good enough and you are a blessing to this crazy world of ours. I only discovered Ren about a month ago, but since then I have been ceaselessly diving down the amazing rabbit hole that is his music. He is a modern day bard, a storyteller with an uncanny ability to grab hold of our emotions and connect with us. His catalogue of music is wide and varied and you cannot go wrong with any of it

[@itspickleric138]

When you said "sometimes existing is exhausting" i felt that

[@MrOnegesius]

I really enjoyed the fact that you listened to the whole song before discussing it. This is what a reaction video should be like! Not having the reviewer dissect each line by line and thereby generally losing the plot entirely. I feel very much as you do about this song, it is intensely moving, even now after I have listened to it over and over.

[@MrSkullHead1250]

Absolutely agree, I can't stand pausing after every line. It just ruins the feeling, and pace of the song.

[@wynandmorgan9985]

This song makes one feel so many things you never even knew you've been feeling... Everytime, ( been many times now) it just makes me think what I'm actually feeling. It brings reality into focus...

[@dollyruiz4172]

I cry every time I watch him played on other reaction channels and I'm right there with you sis. I needed to hear it as well. The more you watch and listen his genius becomes very clear. Not just how he strums but what chords he's playing. The placement of his earrings. The fact that this was done in one take. Im so grateful for hearing this song when I first did. He brought me out of a very dark place. I try to remember him in my prayers daily. He's the medicine, the hug, and the hand of God working through Ren when you need Him. Great reaction!!! Peace and love.

[@AileenSenpai]

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@hamishmclaren951]

Damn. Speechless. Dealing with bipolar anxiety PTSD ADHD and the death of my wife, now also a severe heart condition. So I don't know what the future holds. this is what I need right now. The world makes a little more sense today.Brilliant so thank you from new Zealand for being this masterpiece to my attention cheers hamish also I have no idea if this band has been recommended to you but while she sleeps - eye to eye full video not the edit is hands down the best music video about what it's like to live with mental illness with the message that you are not your mind

[@michaelresponsible6372]

I’ve watched so many reactions to this song, and this by far was the most touching, this song is amazing and so was your reaction

[@robertschwartz6912]

Just some back story on Ren if you haven't looked into him yet. He caught lime disease and they caught it to late. It caused him to have auto immunity brain damage and sent him into psychosis. The dude is struggling to this day with it.

[@JesseJames7-8-9]

Fellow metal head here 🤘But I found this man a lil bit ago and he reminded me that hip hop/rap/busker is badass! I’ve been down the rabbit hole ever since. Ren is a true treasure I’m so happy you found him and got the emotional out of it. We’ll make it through the bullshit. We’re all just human beings ❤️🤘❤️

[@vmo4136]

I deal with chronic pain and it makes everything in my life so much harder. Existing is exhausting, it's something I've been saying about my own life for years. Discovering Ren has been absolutely life changing for me, not only in the comfort of knowing I'm not alone in my struggle but also seeing how much beauty can come out of your struggles, how many lives you can touch, who you can inspire, if you just keep going and don't give up. This is the only artist I've ever found who pours out their heart and soul into every single song and all of it has resonated with me on such a deep and personal level, it feels like it's my soul he's poured into them and I honestly don't know how to feel about that. As far as suggestions go, Dominoes, How to be Me, Freckled Angel, Everybody drops, It's Alright, Heretic, Sick Boi, and Dear God are all songs that are so beautifully profound, they left me in tears.

[@JC-pq4ul]

Thank you for being so honest. Like you stated, "It's ok not to be ok." And we have all been there. You are beautiful. Your reaction was amazing and so many of us are dealing with similar emotions and feelings. Thank you so much for all you do!

[@thebulletproofpoet1744]

I'm diagnosed with schizophrenia and PTSD. This goes right to the core of me. I'm not just talking about the song, but your reaction. It's clear how the song affected you because you've been there, and that adds value to the song.

[@deborahlester4018]

❤️

[@jabbazabba23]

I’ve watched this more times than I can count now in the last few weeks. But have been struggling today with tons of self doubt and low confidence/unworthy feelings. Thanks for echoing your struggles. So important to not feel alone.

[@OJB42]

I've watched this song about 10 times in the last few days I still get more meaning out of it. It really is an amazingly authentic and meaningful piece of work.

[@ngtflyer]

This was very moving to watch. I have seen many reaction videos to this masterpiece, this one is among the best. It seemed to help you in a big way in dealing with your own inner demons. And I am so glad you acknowledged Ren's guitar playing. Masterful and definitely emotional. I hope Ren himself sees your reaction. The way it affected you I think was the intent. To let us all know everything will be okay. We are all human beings. Loved this video!

[@dropbarracuda]

**FINALLY** 😋Been asking in your streams for a month requesting this song (I'm sure you've heard from plenty others as well lol), and you're the last of the reactors I follow to react on this. I CAN'T WAIT. Your breakdowns are always so honest and heartfelt, thank you *SO MUCH* for taking time to do this. Much love, can't wait for it to drop!!💖

[@AileenSenpai]

Sorry about the wait!! Thank you for the request!! I hope you enjoy it ♥️

[@dropbarracuda]

@@AileenSenpai No cap, I watch your Tekkno Train reaction with your chat about once a week just because it puts me in such a good mood. Your reactions are always worth it... thanks again so much!!

[@deejayturtle]

No spoilers

[@paulrhodes8770]

Ive become a fan after this song ,his ole life is sad but unique, i love ❤️ ren x

[@MrBeefyweefs]

I've only just been found by, and begun exploring, this song by Ren in the last ≈2 hours... and it took my fifth watch/listen, and your video here, to finally help me break out in much-needed cathartic sobbing and tears. Just wanted to let you know, and also to unashamedly document this, for myself and others. Thank you, dog bless x

[@_BLSS_]

Yea... you did great. This is what a lot of us needed. Very brave of you to let the whole world know that , you too, are struggling. Truth is we all are...

[@mikeross1984]

Fantastic reaction! This song reminds me of a few things. Bones get stronger after breaking, the healing process improves them. It's the same with psychology. The small breaks, make us stronger. Much love.

[@AvaLynn808]

Aileen, you are so strong and gorgeous and an awesome human! It warms my heart to hear you are getting the support you need. For anyone who may read this: YOU are LOVED, YOU MATTER, and WE are HERE FOR YOU!

[@RFAudits]

I love that you gave the song room and didn't interrupt it. great ty

[@blackwolfactual1539]

The very moment he stands up, and in alignment with the lyrics, and knowing about his illness.... it all comes together and hits me everytime. Empowering!

[@stillninja2741]

Out of the hundreds of reactions I've seen of this song this was my favorite. I can't feel music like you can but I can feel people. This was the first reaction that got me to cry as well. Thank you!

[@AileenSenpai]

♥️♥️♥️

[@deejayturtle]

Yes @AileenSenpai, we are all just fine. "Existence is exhausting." Wow, well said. Forgive me if that finds it's way into a future piece of writing. "Existence is exhausting." but never forget, every breath is a gift. Here's a line of mine you can steal. "In life, balance is strength." Enjoyed this reaction.

[@AileenSenpai]

Great quote! Appreciate you ❤️

[@timppavaan4398]

Aileen, thanks for being you. Not only the reactions but showing your true self. You are not just a face on the screen but the friendly and kind voice for many. You make the world better place for many of us that can forget the shitty world for a moment and just enjoy music with you. Once again thanks, you mean a lot! :)

[@ingrid_farrell]

Thank you for sharing a bit of your own story--it always means so much to know we're not alone, that we're all here and sometimes struggling to stay here. It's music like this that helps me to keep going and that imagery of the swinging pendulum was such a beautiful reminder that although it feels like a war inside, the answer is not to fight until we win, because the truth is that it's not a war we can win...the answer is to try to relax, be soft, and allow ourselves to gently dance between the dark and the light.

[@-RalphSpencer-]

Your heart monitor is magic. Really clever and it made a great pic with it under Ren with his gown on. I enjoyed your heart rate immensely. It hit 94 at the finale.

[@cozyslor]

I cry every time I listen to it. Every time. Not a bad cry. A good cry.

[@sleepwalker6825]

I have seen So many Reactions to Ren BUT by far and Away Yours is the Best .. Reason You let the song Flow Start to Finish then Reacted ... Not Start Stop Start Stop ... Thank You ... Well Done

[@MikeyPea72]

Thank you for the perfect summary of what Ren's art means to people all over the world. His art knows no boundaries and embraces us all. Yes, we are all human beings and we are never alone in times of suffering. Take care out there.

[@dirkdiggler0372]

Ren's Depression,insomnia,chalk out lines and how to be me are all excellent song! Having said that Ren never disappoints he's the poet of our times! Nice reaction BTW. He pulled me from a hole when I first heard this!!

[@bojnebojnebojne]

As someone who also have struggled with mental problems and suicide thoughts this hits really close to home. It's a genius artwork that perfectly depict the struggle people have inside. Never seen a genius like this tbh. Never let the voice win! You are a beautiful person!

[@stevensmeeth117]

You are beautiful when you get emotional, but you are beautiful anyway. Also you seem like you have a beautiful soul and a good person!!!! Much love from Australia.....

[@jeffmason4151]

This beautiful piece of art is helping so many people, including myself. I'm so happy that this masterpiece is getting people to reaching out. We should always remember that we are never alone in our daily struggles. Big love to all and thank you Ren ❤️

[@jodimayer225]

Beautiful reaction to beautiful art from a beautiful person. Tears in my eyes. Can't wait to see you do "Chalk Outlines". I think this one will speak to you too.

[@dominicfernandez2958]

Your reaction is as real as Ren. I am you, you are we and we are all together ♥️

[@music2seeconcertphotograph457]

Suffering myself from double depression, depersonalization, anxiety disorder and a chronical pain disorder (e.g. 20+ days with headaches / month) for decades by now I feel so connected to Ren and this masterful piece of art he created and gave us. I wish I could hear the hope side stronger or at all. But he gives hope to hear hope some day. All the best wishes for you!

[@michellemiles9966]

Thank you, Aileen, for being so vulnerable in this reaction. Truly there is more that connects us all than separates us and this song speaks to that. ❤✌

[@scifimonkey3]

Have become obsessed with listening to peoples reactions to this masterpiece of performance art for it goes way beyond music. It hit me like a train and I am so glad that it is getting shared so widely and getting a serious response from most of the people that listen. As Ren says in the song ‘ the people that hear it respect it ……….not half. This really ought to be on the Grammy list dont care if they have to create a whole new genre award to fit it in.

[@dezedaar8009]

This is the best reaction to this song i have seen, you're the first one that looks inside instead of what Ren is saying. Stay strong girl, you're on the right path! I've been dance a long time, and as long as we stay dancing we'll be okay..

[@RengarBalogh]

I feel you and so do a lot of beautiful people on this world and others. You are not alone and will never be. Thank you for sharing a peak of your own story after this masterpeace of Humanity. Greetings from Germany.

[@Immortal_Hatake]

Hey, Aileen I feel what you said at the end of the reaction. I think ren spoke to a lot of us with this video. I have been struggling the past week as well and this song actually really helped me. I’ve been struggling with self doubt as well. I know I’m just a random person through a screen but as you said it, it is ok to not be ok. You are not alone, you have earned a long time subscription from me mental health is no joke I feel everyone deserves happiness and help. ❤❤❤

[@chrisoralls3555]

You felt this song just like so many others have. It really hits hard when you take it all in. Ren is a lyrical and musical genius and amazing storyteller. Thank you for reacting to this song. ❤️

[@chrisoralls3555]

And just to add, No, you're not alone. We are not alone. And yes, WE will be okay.

[@grantstephens2555]

An absolute masterpiece. I will be listening to this for years to come.

[@mamagne800]

I just have discovered your channel and right away I subscribed. Your reaction was so genuine and since you are very pretty, sometimes we think that everything is alright and everything is probably fine but behind that beauty there are still struggles hidden that we don't see inside. Hope you are fine and keep doing what you are doing because you are very good at it ❤. Sorry if I did not make myself well understood , I'm French but I had to tell you. As for Ren, this kid is literally a genius. He has a way to make us, people that don't suffer from that sickness, understand what he went through and how much he suffered. But what we have to keep in mind is his message of hope and that we can achieve our dreams even with that mental sickness.

[@leejones1319]

Great reaction. Ren is a true bard, connecting with our souls and waking us up to our deep feelings. Take care, you are a beautiful soul.

[@philosofize803]

@RenMakesMusic you have to watch this reaction my man. This is EXACTLY how all of us feel experiencing your beautiful art. Much love. And @AileenSenpai, your reaction was beautiful. You did such a wonder job really allowing yourself to fully feel this to help you heal on your own personal journey. You are amazing in your own right!

[@AileenSenpai]

I’d be honored if he saw this! He created such a beautiful song ♥️

[@AudioVile]

Wow. I have listened to this dozens of times. I know the song. I know how masterful it is. It has moved me like no other written, spoken, or sung words. Your reaction, the unspoken, raw reaction, was beautiful to watch. And then your spoken analysis and how you opened up... that was magical and beautiful. You really ARE fine. Even though you struggle.... you are fine. As Ren said, relax, soften, and the dance gets easier. Be well you wonderful person!!

[@adrianw7442]

Ren is an incredible artist. Can I also recommend the tale of screech and Jenny, screech's tale and violets tale in that order. His work is more performance art than just music I'd say

[@iancollins65]

This song hit so close to home for me. I have been battling my own demons of depression, anxiety, ADHD, bipolar, and who knows what else. Each day I wake up and can’t function without medication, yet the medication makes me feel bad too. There is no real fix other then to just go inside myself and try to climb out of the darkness. I am doing well, for the most part things are pretty under control. It’s just reminders like this that are needed to snap me into a mindset of trying to heal and grow. Also, my son was very pre-mature, and suffers from many conditions. More then a 6 year old should. He has a particular autoimmune disease that has no cure, and no real proven treatment, though they are making headway in that department. His esophagus is attacking itself, based on food allergies. Because of that condition, he has developed others, the biggest being a pediatric eating disorder that is pretty severe and takes constant work to help him overcome. Asking him to try a good he doesn’t know is like asking me to let a spider crawl all over me. I relate to Ren and his struggles because it’s never one thing that afflicts you. One thing leads to another and soon you just feel sick and like you can’t over come it. Thankfully we are dealing with our sons problems early on his life, and I hope that leads to better coping as he grows up. He’s a warrior though and I can see him doing big things because he has an unlimited mind full of big thoughts. He might be small and so skinny, but his mind is brilliant.

[@BeforeYouSell]

@iancollins65 I wish all the best for you and your son. No child should have to face those kinds of struggles - we all want our kids to be able to just be kids. Amazingly though (I’m sure you’ve seen this yourself) they have so much pure optimism and positivity that they’re often better equipped to fight the good fight than we are :) He’s lucky to have you in his corner. Just be sure to keep climbing and taking care of yourself too! I have times where i push down my own stuff to focus on my kids and I have to remind myself that they deserve the best version of me that I can muster. Sincerely hoping for good health and happiness for you and your family.

[@margaretc5679]

There was some so honest and beautiful about your reaction to this performance. Thank you for sharing. ❤️

[@ericfranklin6290]

The process of watching you react is itself therapeutic. You make being human look like the wonderful state of being that it is, whether it’s RATM or Ren you’re reacting to. Thank you for having such deep empathy and compassion for everyone and everything. It’s the most precious mindset we can adopt, methinks!

[@johnnyeproductions]

You really really need to watch the trilogy video of Ren - The Tale Of Jenny & Screech, and Violet's Tale. He is THEE most incredible story teller, musician, and the struggles he has gone through just to get here is incredible within itself. He had a deal with Sony records, and when he got sick they took it from him... I am almost glad they did in a way because we would more than likely not have heard this if he had stayed. I suffer from chronic illness as well, so his music resonates deeply within me. I am glad to hear you are getting the help you need. If you ever need someone to talk to, I mean for anything, any time, anywhere... please reach out! No one is ever alone. I still have those thoughts of just ending it all myself, I'm not sure what's kept me here and going now, but I am here! Glad you are too. Much love to you Aileen!!!

[@robertschwartz6912]

I literally found this after I watched you reaction nf hope this left me speechless

[@garynelson5918]

One of the best reactions on KZbin ! Goes well with one of the best performances on you tube ! 🥰

[@93kingu]

Thanks for the genuine reaction as per the usual!

[@steviec8729]

You can’t help but shed tears, when you actually listen to the lyrics of this masterpiece.. We have all been in a dark place at some time in our lives!,

[@MrIkilledmyspace]

A little late to the channel and the video but I just wanted to leave a little note. This was a beautifully touching reaction and "existing can be exhausting" is such a powerful phrase. I see your channel is doing well at 150k subs(one more today because I subbed instantly) but even this is just the beginning. I truly believe there will be so much more to come. Wishing you nothing but health, happiness, and success in your future. Much love from my family in Texas to yours! 🤘

[@AileenSenpai]

♥️♥️♥️

[@chetan3144]

Thank you for sharing your own pressures. Much love. I wish you the best. Amazingly real reaction.

[@nadinepretorius7136]

It's so validating to see someone else react the way i did whem I first heard this song i cried like a baby coz I battle with depression and anxiety and always like you said thought I was broken or crazy I've never song that moved me to tears the way this one did it hit on so many levels

[@mariehernandez648]

I cry every time I hear it recovering heroine user clean for 2 years now

[@frankleben5451]

You’re by far one of my favorite people to follow. Your honesty and openness is inspiring. Fantastic reaction to an amazing performance. There is no such thing as feeling too much, just don’t suffer alone. All my friends know my ears are always available and I’m sure you have that in your life too. Utilize it. I know I’d rather listen to my people than miss them because they’re gone. Great job!!!

[@paulmuwadeeb2161]

I've watched a lot of these Ren reactions because I love to see how people will react to something I reacted so profoundly to. Aileen nailed it for me. I could tell her reaction was honest and true, because I did the same things. We know. Thanks for this video, Aileen.