I completely fell apart... | NF - "How Could You Leave Us" | REACTION

[@AileenSenpai]

I have some resources in the description if you or someone you love needs some help and support ❤ You are not alone, and my heart goes out to anyone who can resonate with this video. Love you all so much. This NF journey has been an emotional ride so far, but meeting you all and healing through Nate's music was something that has changed me for the better and I'm forever grateful ❤

[@Nueral]

Thank you 🙏 ❤️

[@Luke_wait_for_it_marengo]

I recommend the song 'Nate' for your next reaction. My warning extends to that video/song as well.

[@lrod4545]

I have watched this video several times, and I always forget the end of the video where you can hear him crying. That gets me every time. I applaud you for going through that one. That was the first video I was introduced to Nate. I was a total mess after it.

[@kmpears]

Thank you for this! When you watch mama it will feel so healing to your soul.

[@tonysavena8956]

Nate booted everyone out of the studio for that last verse

[@Blyzzard26]

This one cuts deep for everyone. Especially since he sent everyone out of the studio for the part where he cried. Those were his real and raw emotions. I lost my mom to cancer but I still sit and wonder how she could leave us. :(. In all honesty, I think Hope needs to top the charts and it very much sounds like it will soon!

[@AileenSenpai]

I'm so very sorry for your loss..my heart goes out to you ♥

[@HPTFan]

It reached number 2 in Billboard 200. Our man, Nate, is here to stay. Bless him. 🙏🏾

[@riccardobada3191]

I still have my mom and every time I hear this song I cry because I don't know what I'd do if something like that happened...

[@JonhnTrue]

Blyzzard, my mother also died, our parents have such a path from cancer, no matter how painful it sounds, hang on bro, I'm with you, your mom is there and she sees everything, and be proud of you, be strong!❤️

[@Blyzzard26]

@@JonhnTrue I truly appreciate that bro. It's wild how one person can help unify us all over the world. Well two if we count this lovely reactor that I am so very happy to watch take this journey.

[@joshuawiedenbeck6944]

For the final "verse," where he is crying, he asked everyone to leave the studio and just sat there with the mic and said whatever came to mind.

[@Nellbae]

I had no idea. That's amazing to know! Thank you for sharing!!

[@krystofkotasek7110]

thank you for that information, i look at this track differently

[@Jamieaaronball03]

That’s actually incredibly moving to do, you don’t know where it’ll go but ends up like this, even if you were perfectly happy before.

[@henriklindberg1646]

Brave of him to leave himself that open

[@doomzx8284]

Yeah he told everyone else to leave and just talked to his mom alone in the studio crying...

[@Paul_ValiantPatriot]

This is definitely the deepest song that NF has ever written and you can hear his emotion in his voice

[@Nolegchair]

I partially agree, but there are some other really deep songs, like therapy session.

[@davetheblade]

My best friend took his own life years ago, and every time I hear this song I think about him. Doesn't help that his name was Nate.

[@brandonb9615]

I don’t usually comment on anything, but I just want to say I’ve been watching your reactions lately and you are one the most genuine, honest, and comforting people I have seen on here. I appreciate you. ❤

[@AileenSenpai]

much love to you ❤

[@RichWillBike]

The first time I heard this song was 6 months after rehab . In my addiction I almost lost my wife and daughter and my wife was pregnant with our second child. The opportunity to go to rehab came out of nowhere "we can take you in next week on Wednesday, if you don't take this spot it could be another 8 months " my addiction was telling me don't go, be there for the birth of your child , but I knew i had to go, or I wouldn't have a family . So I told them ide be there .......my son was born on the Monday 2 days befor I entered rehab . I've been clean for 6 years , 7 years on June 8th ,God willing. When I heard this song , I could only see it through my children's eyes . That's when I knew there was no chance of ever letting my life slide back into the disrepair it once was , thank you nf , you helped save my life .

[@brushfirebcrazy5870]

Wow, I’ll be the first to say on here that I’m so very proud of you. Way to step up for yourself and your family! I’m so sorry it came to the point of rehab and you came so close to losing everything, but I couldn’t be happier that you’ve found sustained change! I pray continued healing and blessing for you!

[@candipauline]

Congratulations on your recovery. I'm happy that you could turn it around and be there for your family. Thats great!

[@GoFromZeroTo1]

Proud of you. I’ve cried 15x here today watching these reactions, and reading the comments. This one feels good to read. Thank you for sharing. I really think it’s gonna reach someone who NEEDS to hear it.

[@death_0_048]

Don’t know if your remember me, I was the one that let you know to react to how could you leave us before mama on twitch stream. I’m very happy you followed through and apologize that I didn’t give you a better heads up on the level of heart break this one brought but you’ll see it will be worth it for when you react to “mama” I have become a very fast fan due to your incredible and vulnerable reaction not just to nf but all artists, hope this didn’t break your heart beyond repair, as this album by NF is a map on how to overcome many things and you’ll learn them as you listen, can’t wait for the reaction!!

[@AileenSenpai]

thank you for letting me know on Twitch! I actually made a note on my computer as soon as you told me and was so grateful for your advice!

[@aurora_1x]

It's one of the saddest songs I've ever heard. It still breaks my heart. I'm so proud of him for forgiving his mother on the song "MAMA". He is probably going to suffer from this for the rest of his life but he is healing now and that is so powerful

[@justAman548]

I hope I can speak for everyone when I say, you don’t have to apologize for crying on/off screen. Or even apologizing for ‘ranting’ or ‘talking too much’. I think that’s why most of us watch these. To see people’s reaction to the messages in his songs and their view/opinion on the song. Long story short, just keep being you! You are doing great!

[@robertolanzone]

Agreed 💯

[@3dChris]

Well said. And that goes for everyone. Allow yourselves to feel, to react. Boldly be a human being and explore your own reactions and responses. Reach out to each other for support. Rant if you need to. Listen if you can’t find the words. We are one family under the stars. Much love you anyone reading this. Big hug to those feeling pain, loss and/or alone.

[@justAman548]

@@3dChris I just get a little upset when I see (mainly) content creators apologizing for taking time for them selves or showing emotion. It’s like, you are human, so be human! In the words of the great Jon Stewart, “I’m not your monkey”.

[@3dChris]

@@justAman548 Damn bro, I already thought you were cool for encouraging her to feel welcome and comfortable with her own human reactions, but then you had to go and quote the goat. Keep fighting the good fight my brother. Jon Stewart for President!

[@StMichael7]

@@3dChriswho’s John Stewart? I hope your not talking about the comedian Lol

[@undead_spirit666]

My dad drank himself to death. Not the same situation but this song still speaks to me. Same emotions. If anyone ever sees this, and needs someone to talk to don’t hesitate. I’ll listen 🖤

[@pipercity]

@robertonescuprayers for you bro.Hope you can have that relationship you deserve with him!

[@dannydarko9679]

Definitely is the same situation.It’s addiction.Doesn’t matter if it’s heroin,booze or pills.I’m sorry for your loss.

[@nolantalbott8737]

My dad also drank himself to death he passed earlier this year. This song definitely brings up some tough emotions. It’s an extremely powerful song.

[@loganbrooks1591]

You are an amazing person, and I'm sorry about your dad.. We need more people who are willing to listen like you.

[@loganbrooks1591]

​@@nolantalbott8737I'm so sorry for your loss. You are not alone..

[@marionetaklemcba]

Understanding very few words/phrases (my English is very basic) I was still moved to see your gestures and the power of despair, frustration, pain and impotence mixed with anger from the singer, I immediately looked for the song subtitled in my language and the amount was even greater of tears, thank you for them and it is very sad to think that many people have to go through this in their childhood. Hugs from Rio Tercero Córdoba Argentina.

[@StevenScotland81-ur1et]

Watching your react, your face paints so many pictures that words could not do justice to. Take care Aileen, you are a treasure.

[@xepixz994]

This is one of NFs songs that hit me the hardest, having lost my dad to suicide, i can relate badly to the parts saying how he wishes he had just called her and such. It's incredible how relateable he can make these songs be.

[@jwolfe8195]

I love the growth he's shown from "I'm not gonna say that I forgive you because it hasn't happened!" To "Momma I forgive you." In Hope. It makes the journey so much more worth it when you get to the new album.

[@TheRussianFloofCat]

This is one of the rawest songs that I've heard in my life. It cuts deep whether you can relate personally or not. I cry or come close to it every time I hear it.

[@krw73]

Not only is this a wonderful tribute to those of us who have lost our mothers but it also serves as a reminder to pick up the phone and call the ones that are still alive before it's too late

[@subj3kt17]

I almost did this to my son years ago, albeit for different reasons, and it's something I'll never forgive myself for. He saved my life and I'll spend the rest of it trying to be the best father I can.

[@joshs9157]

Thanks for your reaction. NF just hits you in the heartstrings. Even if you have not experienced this, he still finds a way to make you feel his pain. Then you appreciate his transparency and are just grateful you found his mysic. REAL MUSIC from a real person.

[@gbeers91]

So glad you’re getting more and more into NF. The dude is something special. His music is special.

[@Marvos071]

NF one of the realist artists out there! All of his songs will hit you right in the heart

[@dennisr.4918DennyDesigns]

You can tell Nate had nice memories of his Mom when she was there. It shows how much fun they had when they were together in this video along with the pain of her addiction.

[@evan6013]

My babies lost their mom almost 2 yrs ago to drugs and this song still gets me. Just knowing they can never see her again hurts.

[@Nueral]

I couldn’t imagine losing my mom to opioids 😢. If anyone going through this I am so sorry and I wish the pain to go away, just thinking about it hurts.

[@AileenSenpai]

My heart is so broken for him…

[@Nueral]

I can here the anguish in is voice, and I love how he conveys his feelings, it’s sad.

[@UndgnfiedWrshpr]

His new song Mama, is a response to this and shows NF has gone through some serious healing.

[@halfbaked74]

​@AileenSenpai listen to mama off his new album it will heal ur heart just a tad.

[@DyeScreaming]

Darkest Day. 😶

[@akkurzaw7898]

Nate bears his soul in his music and so many of his songs are topics that all of us have gone through in some way. I have a cousin that OD’d and left behind a small child and when I first heard this it gutted me. Picturing a child questioning why pills are more important to his mom than he was is beyond sadness. I’m a grown man and I swear every time I listen to this one I have to fight sobbing. It’s crazy. The journey through his catalog is very cathartic and I truly think is helping so many people. I wish more people would. Great reaction btw. You’re helping shine the light here as well!

[@shawnsford7071]

Wow. Im a metal head and never heard of NF or heard any of his songs. I only checked it out because you reviewed it. This is powerful stuff. Real life. Thank you as always for your real and heartfelt reactions to songs like this.

[@biopuppet2431]

I can not listen to this song without a tear forming in my eyes. It's just so raw an real music something the industry doesn't really do anymore. I'm just glad he is a artist that cares about his art

[@markontiveros4431]

Literally hard not to listen without crying its such an amazing emotional song I love NF

[@danehansen7670]

I'm a grown ass man.. I still cry every damn time I listen to this.. the pain is so real and you feel every bit of it

[@Godz_Hour]

This one is so deep.. and every time I hear it, it’s so difficult not to get emotional but it’s so raw emotions by NF ❤

[@lyricsparks891]

I can't wait for this reaction, Aileen. I love how you share how every reaction you do makes you feel. Everyone who has listened to NF knows that he pours his heart out into his music and it shows. I have this video set for a reminder to watch later

[@AileenSenpai]

♥️♥️♥️

[@lyricsparks891]

@@AileenSenpai Update: I watched your reaction and I got chills. I really enjoyed your reaction, once again!

[@charlottehottenroth]

This is one off the hardest songs I've listened to from his. It's so sad and raw, it makes me cry every time. I really hope your ok after hearing this one. As I know how deep this is ❤️❤️

[@brianspencer9184]

Thank you so much for your raw and real reactions. Mama is kind of like a part 2 to this 7 years later from Nate in a different place emotionally. You definitely need to do that one next.

[@shelicecrowley9782]

I’m so happy that he is finally able to forgive his mom and wish her a peaceful rest.

[@jerrycasner3296]

You’ve gotten through the hardest song in the journey. This is most definitely the deepest cutting one. So many more good songs to listen to, including some more upbeat ones! Just make sure you have your tissue box available just in case! 😅❤

[@ChimpoM15]

When I saw this was the next song for you, first thought was you're fucked. This song is so real and emotional and gut wrenching. I'll never forget the first time I heard this song. At the time I was working for a company where we did child services visits. I was the person in the corner taking notes. And I took a friends recommendation of NF to try new music on my drive home from a visit. This song came in. I bawled in the parking lot of my company. I wished every client we had could hear this song cuz it tore to the soul. Amazing song. And Mama. An amazing story.

[@Captainperfection]

Having gone through that, the fact he had the courage and confidence to step into the studio to record that is amazing. I dont think i could have done that

[@kingdomkid7820]

Hey, We all love you! Thank you for this reaction! Your strong and more than strong enough to get through whatever it is you are going through! We’re all here to help support your channel. Thank You!!🙏🙏🙏

[@American_Rambler]

I appreciate how you connect with the messages of NF and that you recognize his journey as genuine and not for clicks and views. I’m certain one of your followers has provided you with a list of the Journey songs and videos, and I would recommend doing as many as you can from early albums in order to follow his process. Cheers!

[@TheMorenoMusik]

Every time I hear this song, I start to cry a lot. This is the album I was introduced to by my friend after his mom passed from an overdose. I'm really sorry for others who deal with this issue

[@dustinflaming2284]

Your reaction, I have to be honest, is probably the most honest reaction I've watched from you.

[@srslyboomer]

NF's music stands on its own so I have nothing to add there. But Aileen, please don't apologize for...letting music hit you deep. A saying in our house is "we honor our tears" - they just mean you're letting yourself feel the Universe. Thanks for sharing with all of us Internet Randos out here.

[@pt9373]

That's his hardest one to get through, so congratulations and based on 'Hope' so far, its time to be happy and listen to Nate heal finally! It's only up from here.

[@Loki_Loki01]

The Hope album is great on its own, but it hits that much deeper after experiencing the NF journey. Mama is a sad song too but in a happy way and its so great to see Nate starting to heal and get better. In a way too he is helping all us fans, that can relate to his music, heal with him on this journey. Im so thankful for NF and the music he makes. No other artist can express how i feel like NF can and im sure many fans feel the same way. Hopefully with all this sadness he's gone through in his life, he can at least make some good out of it in a way by helping to heal those who listen to his music

[@cosmos586]

You should not regret being sensitive, this song takes to the heart ❤❤❤... nice reaction❤❤❤ we are reborn from our pain

[@shelicecrowley9782]

Great reaction. You seem just as beautiful inside as you are on the outside (and you are gorgeous) so never worry about the makeup, lol. Thank you for allowing us to feel this through you. I cry every time I hear this song! Can’t wait to you get to “Mama” things have turned around for him. He found forgiveness. I lost my mom 1.5 year ago to an unintentional overdose of pain killers. She was an addict when I was a teenager, before that left us with a man (stepdad) who raped and molested me when I was 9. All that said … she got clean, gave her life to Christ, went back to got a masters degree at 60, wrote and published a book and became the World’s Greatest Grandma. She left a legacy of love, kindness, generosity and excellence. NF’s song mama is exactly how I feel about my mom. It’s like he was reading my mind.

[@mattmorganRnR]

You are spot on about him. I feel for the people out there as well who have lived through this. I’m so sorry and people care and you will get through this.

[@inspiredfunkmark]

First time I heard this, all.I could think was how brave it was to open this up to the world. Found healing for myself in this tune, and in many of the NF expressions. Your reaction was understandable, relatable and authentic. Thank you.

[@fadedsmoker4998]

Loved this reaction.. the final thoughts were great.. when your stuck in loneliness, your always in your head analyzing yourself because you dont understand why in your mind . thats where his self-awareness in his music comes from

[@StevesRealWorld]

Aileen we LOVE your NF videos/reactions ❤ - NF had everyone leave the studio while he record this emotional song.

[@aidanmaley8905]

I remember when I first heard the audio of this song I cried and that alone just goes to show you how emotional his rapping style is and that sets him apart from everybody. When I saw the video I was broken just like you were and still to this day it makes me cry when I watch it. Thank you for another amazing reaction Aileen and thank you for being so open and vulnerable with your videos as well. The makeup was a necessary sacrifice to get through this one for sure 😁

[@heiltecn9ne]

As an addict this song hits hard on both sides I understand he destruction of addiction but I also can see the pain it causes others, it’s a merciless beast.

[@skitzo1041]

i lost my mom at a young age to alcoholism and similar problems, these songs really put everything into words and i couldn't be more grateful for nf

[@1203Helder]

Wow NF this artist is able to bring out his emotions so I try to keep them well hidden in a well locked box deep in my broken heart... Then there is NF who sings and just with his lyrics he brings out all his emotions, and makes me cry but allows me to better refocus and reset my emotions. Thank you for allowing us to feel this ... Know that you help many people Your voice counts we all count Thank you for everything, Helder

[@joeking7707]

You can only understand this song if you have lived what he lived,what i lived.so many of us went through the care system so many of us were abused,so many of us live with the scars of living that life...its a shame that people cry over this song while the reality of it is played out daily...im not bitter,the world is.

[@ToothBooth]

Her: never seen this one before so if it’s anything like his other songs I know I’ll get destroyed.. NF fans: oh shit, she’s not ready… ❤️

[@24dking]

I've heard this song when it first came out. I haven't watched it once without crying. Even on reaction videos.

[@Mike_H76]

Seriously! This one is a kick in the balls and my mom is still here... for the moment. I don't trust anyone who isn't moved by this song!

[@perrdawg-py8my1cl7l]

I've heard this hundreds of times and it still destroys me

[@TylerBriscar]

This is the very first thing I heard of by NF and when I heard it I broke down. It reminds me of my childhood and my niece and nephews childhood so much it literally broke me hearing/seeing this. I instantly was a fan

[@georgehaapala4733]

AileenSenpai thank you for sharing your raw emotion watching this... I'm on this NF journey with you. Crazy thing is mine started at NF Hope concert in Salt Lake City this year... it's only been 2 months since his concert but now his music is my therapy. I've struggled with drug and alcohol addiction my entire life and mental health issues. I relate to his music so much and it's helping me address the core issues that I've stuffed deep inside.. I appreciate you reaction videos. Keep em coming.

[@mr.knight1123]

I’m here for the journey Just know you’re definitely not alone crying or in your feelings with these videos or songs so definitely don’t need to apologize for it.

[@lordsharederxs1093]

The way I’ve watched this hundreds of time and it can still make me so heartbroken. Even tho I haven’t gone through it myself.

[@gemini520]

Just a fact that I just ran into channel so randomly. I really love NF's work as the mental stability part of his music really hits home but this summer here I lost my mom at a very young age. Other different circumstances the outcome is still the same you lose that person that you love the most and then I hear no more I know exactly how that feels it's really just made me reminisce of everything I've been through at that young age....... 💯😥😪

[@ErebosOnTwoWheels]

This song is what got me listening to rap. Gotta fight back tears every time I hear it, it just hits close to home and is relatable. I couldn't click this fast enough, been waiting for you to do this video and knew you'd do it justice.

[@wobblinbob]

Man...that first verse hit sooooo hard!!! I have commented on a couple other of your videos today, but aside from being a disabled veteran (FFDP video), I'm also a single dad. My son has not even heard from his mother in about 12 years...that's been her choice. She's (as I am told by family members) living in a minivan selling and abusing drugs...I can really feel this man's pain, and it immediately draws out the emotions I try to hide...the pain I feel for my son having grown up without his mother. But, on a brighter note, he is the most amazing young man I have ever had the privilege of knowing. He's just turned 17 last month and he's the most kind and considerate teen I know. The second verse I tried to imagine this from my son's perspective and I am just destroyed...there aren't words to express the grief this makes me feel...and I pray that my son establishes contact with his mother of some sort before the lyrics of the third verse come true for him. That ending was so raw...I found a new artist to listen to today. Thank you, Aileen.

[@JordanRA]

This song made me cry like a baby when I first heard it and I still tear up when I hear it. Now after hearing his song 'Mama', I'm feeling so much better about the place Nate is in now. So much growth/healing since this album.

[@velados0025]

Ive seen so many different reacts to This Song and it still gets me in my heart. Everyone Crys and Tears up. Love the react

[@asherbaisden475]

Seeing him preform live, especially him performing Mama for the first time live and he broke down at the end, it was beautiful. He is slowly healing from his mom and I feel like all of us who are devoted fans to him and been on this journey with him, we are seeing him heal and grow and slowly find happiness and forgiveness for his mom and it’s beautiful. I highly suggest you go to one of his shows. His Hope tour is phenomenal! The light show, the way the lights go with the beats of his songs and synthesize in a way I’ve never seen before, the visuals in the background especially before “mama” comes on. Old home videos of him as a boy, of his mom. He just ties everything altogether in such a beautiful way! I highly recommend going to see him live sometime. It’s an amazing experience.

[@Nellbae]

"And collectively healing all of us in the process." 😢 Yes. This is literally the 2nd video of yours I've EVER watched and I'm alrdy absolutely loving your soul/vibe ..

[@zachmaldonado9204]

First time I heard this song it it struck me so hard. I never heard NF before hearing this song and became an instant fan. I grew up a lot like him, my pops was in prison most of my life and my mom was a heroin addict. I was in and out of foster homes, I’m 32 now and still I find myself having almost ptsd flash backs of what my brothers and sisters and I went through. This song depicts it well.

[@Thomas-he4wk]

I'm very glad I do not have a reaction channel. First time I ever heard this song, I broke badly. My 2 brothers and I lost our mom to drugs over 10 years ago. So this and the new song MAMA just killed me. Love the genuine reaction.

[@silvia_king313]

ive herd this song quite i few times and its still just as sad as the frist time i herd it... R.I.P to NF's mom

[@jstack8955]

I've heard this song countless times and it still makes me cry. For sure "Mama" next.

[@marklingo]

NF meaning - Now Feeling - always get the feels form anything he puts out. specialty the deep sad stuff, goes right tot he soul.

[@Jenn-rv3qs]

There’s something so healing about your voice. Idk what it is, but listening to you makes me feel safe. 😩

[@vincentgarza73]

I feel like she is the only person I’ve seen who’s reaction really did this song justice

[@Darnan_B]

Watching you break down like i did all those years ago when i heard and first seen this clip made me cry a bit. Keep on the journey . You should do " i just wanna know " before you jump onto perception. Big love from Australia

[@delindsay]

You are one of the best reactors on the Internet. Thank you for being here for us.

[@AileenSenpai]

♥️♥️♥️

[@davidhunter7928]

Only recently have I watched your channel. Nf brought me to you. Seeing your real reactions like it should be was beautiful. No need to worry about how it affects your video. So far you seem like the type to want to be accepted for who you are in all aspects. As you deserve. When I saw that this was the song you were going to hear. I knew you were going to be hit. Either going through something similar or even loss in general or even just the way he speaks with the visuals. This is meant to tear us down and feel what we normal suppress. I just wish I could turn my poetry into music because even with all my struggles growing up. What started me down the path of poetry was I wanted to touch hearts and souls. To make someone feel something deeply and to make them feel like they weren't alone. I've wanted that since I was in middle school. Since then he was the first to make me feel like how I wish I could portray myself.

[@antecule6349]

This is new to me, I want to thank to Aileen for her bringing such a great fandome of Music-Fans and with you all I can discover new music. This song is very touchy.. I put myself in lots of perspectives and some days are not easy for me so I can only thank.for music and people that that make me.not to feel alone. Peace and love to You All

[@wolverine4742]

NF has to be one of the very few artists I have heard cry and break-down on record. To pour their heart, soul and pain into that microphone. Yes, there will be some of us that can relate and resonate with that pain....but you get up. Everyday, you get up and see the day - that's fighting. Also, don't apologise for the tears and make-up.

[@JDpewpew]

This has always been a very difficult listen. I remember driving home from work back in 2016 hearing this for the first time in the car, I had to pull over for a minute to recoup. First time I heard this was on Pandora as well, it only got harder going home and watching the video to it. It's an intense song that only gets harder each verse, until you finally break down when he stops rapping and just talks into the mic crying with his perspective on the future without his mom. I'm at a cross-roads of being happy I found this song and found NF, but also hearing this song brings me back to a sadder point of my life. It's nice that I feel like I've grown mature at the same rate as NF, we're all human.. but this song stays locked away on purpose because listening to it too much just brings a real sadness out..

[@Jeffwalker66]

As a survivor of overdose I can't imagine what my family would of went through had I not survived. I only got through as I threw up a lot of the tablets. I thank god every day for a second chance. I get up every day to greet the dawn and will never take for granted what I have. Life is so precious if you are needing help please reach out don't give up you really are not alone.

[@MrsJoJo7694]

This was such a genuine reaction. New subby.🖤 Thank you. NF changed my life…

[@corysmith3908]

The tears always start for me when he talks about the person in the corner taking notes up to the end. There’s so many emotions being in that situation that I don’t wish anyone to understand. But I love this song because it forces me to acknowledge the things I went through in life that I’ve bottled up and threw away.

[@JayKayOkie]

So happy you are going thru the journey. This one is the toughest of his to get thru, although HAPPY is almost harder for me. Had tears with MAMA as well, but it is different.

[@snoopy2092]

Seeing her smile slowly disappear as she listened in the beginning, yeah it's one of those songs that hits you in the feels

[@Polyphemus89]

Lost too many people to this, some who had kids, some who were kids. Thanks for the honest reaction, judgment doesn’t help anyone.

[@ninjunc]

The toughest song on the Journey to get through. Even though you haven't finished the trek, you are Outcast to us now. Thank you for your compassion and the virtual hug. It is always uplifting when caring people like you acknowledge the pain many of us have gone through. Know that we are sending those hugs right back, because we know you have your own pain. My biological mom is still alive, but she left me and my sister for addiction when we were young. This one cuts deep, but, oddly, it is cathartic every time I watch. Do your journey however you want. We're here for it.

[@datboitex87]

Haven't lost my mom but she did leave 3 of us kids to drugs and pills and this song hit so hard when I first heard it. When he was talking about her coming to pick them up and never showed and the graduation I went through the same thing. I can't make it through this song with out breaking down over 20 times heard. Iv even sent her this song, but yet she still does her own thing.Thanks for the reaction.

[@mahanmakoto8035]

You can't even imagine how happy I am that your going thorugh the NF journey It really changes you as a person as it did for me and so me others Great video as always

[@Kdghst]

Thank you for being the way you are. Not afraid of the raw feelings you show on your videos. Especially this one. This song is very hard to listen to for sure. Glad you reacted to this one.

[@billiam2631]

I have so much to say !!! I literally just saw this guy today .. this song had my tears flowing .. hit me so hard and so close to home . I'm glad you watched it and I got to see it ❤❤😢😢❤❤ . Omg I cried the entire way through this reaction

[@timothy7190]

Wow. I'm new to the NF journey and it's a privilege to experience it with you Aileen. You are so genuinely smart and kind. A beautiful soul for sure. Thank you. 🙏

[@jayalexander7357]

This one always rough to listen too.. Keep this ride going. NF is truly on another level. Dude puts his heart on soul in his music. Thats why hes literally my favorite artists. "Oh Lord" is of course a great one to listen too as well.

[@thereeder5rs]

You have the awesome opportunity to see a picture that’s 5+ yrs old and now you can listen to Mama and see the growth in his personal life!! The story of him recording this track is crazy. Someone will share it. Amazing!!

[@TheKeepermike]

Hey you wear your heart on your sleeve. I watch a lot of reactors but I have seen very few show the emotion and empathy that you do in each of your videos. I want to say that I appreciate what you do. My life the past few years has been rough and you make things seem not so bad with the care you show for your subscribers. 😊

[@bbelvito]

Lost my mom 4 years after she got sober. I completely lost it when i heard this after she died. Happy and Mama still make me cry. Everything Nate has said about what is he gonna do when he has kids and his song Bullet all resonate with me. I can not believe all the pain i still hold on to. Note: i got to stop listening to NF while i am at work. I start to look like someone put my puppy in the microwave.

[@HxghPxnda]

Its complicated but essentially i was adopted sometime shortly after birth. I still dont know why she truly left but i know drugs and alcohol played a part. "But why do i feel like i lost something i never had?" Id see her on supervised visits but i dont remember much before 12 years old cause thats when i found out i was adopted. This is the only song in the entire music world that i can relate to and get let my guard down for tears

[@HxghPxnda]

Dear biological mother, I've been in the process of forgiving you cause I understand now. I understand that life fuckin sucks and you can't get it together cause of the circumstances, sometimes. I do miss you and wanna see you but I can't stand looking at your face cause all I can see is the years of substance abuse. When I get out of this rock bottom, I will reach out to you. I'm sorry for avoiding you the past 2 decades of my life. I need to know/understand more about who I am and my blood family

[@MrZKR2391]

Seeing u connect and cry to this just got u a sub. So genuine!!!

[@AileenSenpai]

♥️♥️♥️

[@shizngigz4209]

This song really beyond helped me with the healing when my dad took his life, that ending always hit at home over anything... Seeing you this vulnerable, and feeling.... Ya you get what he's all about even if you don't yet 💚💯🥺🤗

[@jpayne316]

I found NF about 5 years ago and even though I still have more of a connection with his stuff when he felt he deserves to be in a bad place. I can't help but be proud of him for finally getting out of his own way and accept the happy moments when they come.

[@chrislepsch2524]

We’re ready for this journey too. Looking forward to more NF from you. Thanks, you won’t regret it.