I completely fell apart... | NF - "How Could You Leave Us" | REACTION

[@AileenSenpai]

I have some resources in the description if you or someone you love needs some help and support ❤ You are not alone, and my heart goes out to anyone who can resonate with this video. Love you all so much. This NF journey has been an emotional ride so far, but meeting you all and healing through Nate's music was something that has changed me for the better and I'm forever grateful ❤

[@Nueral]

Thank you 🙏 ❤️

[@Luke_wait_for_it_marengo]

I recommend the song 'Nate' for your next reaction. My warning extends to that video/song as well.

[@lrod4545]

I have watched this video several times, and I always forget the end of the video where you can hear him crying. That gets me every time. I applaud you for going through that one. That was the first video I was introduced to Nate. I was a total mess after it.

[@kmpears]

Thank you for this! When you watch mama it will feel so healing to your soul.

[@tonysavena8956]

Nate booted everyone out of the studio for that last verse

[@Blyzzard26]

This one cuts deep for everyone. Especially since he sent everyone out of the studio for the part where he cried. Those were his real and raw emotions. I lost my mom to cancer but I still sit and wonder how she could leave us. :(. In all honesty, I think Hope needs to top the charts and it very much sounds like it will soon!

[@AileenSenpai]

I'm so very sorry for your loss..my heart goes out to you ♥

[@HPTFan]

It reached number 2 in Billboard 200. Our man, Nate, is here to stay. Bless him. 🙏🏾

[@riccardobada3191]

I still have my mom and every time I hear this song I cry because I don't know what I'd do if something like that happened...

[@JonhnTrue]

Blyzzard, my mother also died, our parents have such a path from cancer, no matter how painful it sounds, hang on bro, I'm with you, your mom is there and she sees everything, and be proud of you, be strong!❤️

[@Blyzzard26]

@@JonhnTrue I truly appreciate that bro. It's wild how one person can help unify us all over the world. Well two if we count this lovely reactor that I am so very happy to watch take this journey.

[@Paul_TheOutcast]

This is definitely the deepest song that NF has ever written and you can hear his emotion in his voice

[@snickerslotionflavor9961]

I partially agree, but there are some other really deep songs, like therapy session.

[@brandonb9615]

I don’t usually comment on anything, but I just want to say I’ve been watching your reactions lately and you are one the most genuine, honest, and comforting people I have seen on here. I appreciate you. ❤

[@AileenSenpai]

much love to you ❤

[@RichWillBike]

The first time I heard this song was 6 months after rehab . In my addiction I almost lost my wife and daughter and my wife was pregnant with our second child. The opportunity to go to rehab came out of nowhere "we can take you in next week on Wednesday, if you don't take this spot it could be another 8 months " my addiction was telling me don't go, be there for the birth of your child , but I knew i had to go, or I wouldn't have a family . So I told them ide be there .......my son was born on the Monday 2 days befor I entered rehab . I've been clean for 6 years , 7 years on June 8th ,God willing. When I heard this song , I could only see it through my children's eyes . That's when I knew there was no chance of ever letting my life slide back into the disrepair it once was , thank you nf , you helped save my life .

[@brushfirebcrazy5870]

Wow, I’ll be the first to say on here that I’m so very proud of you. Way to step up for yourself and your family! I’m so sorry it came to the point of rehab and you came so close to losing everything, but I couldn’t be happier that you’ve found sustained change! I pray continued healing and blessing for you!

[@candipauline]

Congratulations on your recovery. I'm happy that you could turn it around and be there for your family. Thats great!

[@MyEnergyInMotion]

Proud of you. I’ve cried 15x here today watching these reactions, and reading the comments. This one feels good to read. Thank you for sharing. I really think it’s gonna reach someone who NEEDS to hear it.

[@death_0_048]

Don’t know if your remember me, I was the one that let you know to react to how could you leave us before mama on twitch stream. I’m very happy you followed through and apologize that I didn’t give you a better heads up on the level of heart break this one brought but you’ll see it will be worth it for when you react to “mama” I have become a very fast fan due to your incredible and vulnerable reaction not just to nf but all artists, hope this didn’t break your heart beyond repair, as this album by NF is a map on how to overcome many things and you’ll learn them as you listen, can’t wait for the reaction!!

[@AileenSenpai]

thank you for letting me know on Twitch! I actually made a note on my computer as soon as you told me and was so grateful for your advice!

[@aurora_1x]

It's one of the saddest songs I've ever heard. It still breaks my heart. I'm so proud of him for forgiving his mother on the song "MAMA". He is probably going to suffer from this for the rest of his life but he is healing now and that is so powerful

[@davetheblade]

My best friend took his own life years ago, and every time I hear this song I think about him. Doesn't help that his name was Nate.

[@justAman548]

I hope I can speak for everyone when I say, you don’t have to apologize for crying on/off screen. Or even apologizing for ‘ranting’ or ‘talking too much’. I think that’s why most of us watch these. To see people’s reaction to the messages in his songs and their view/opinion on the song. Long story short, just keep being you! You are doing great!

[@robertolanzone]

Agreed 💯

[@3dChris]

Well said. And that goes for everyone. Allow yourselves to feel, to react. Boldly be a human being and explore your own reactions and responses. Reach out to each other for support. Rant if you need to. Listen if you can’t find the words. We are one family under the stars. Much love you anyone reading this. Big hug to those feeling pain, loss and/or alone.

[@justAman548]

@@3dChris I just get a little upset when I see (mainly) content creators apologizing for taking time for them selves or showing emotion. It’s like, you are human, so be human! In the words of the great Jon Stewart, “I’m not your monkey”.

[@3dChris]

@@justAman548 Damn bro, I already thought you were cool for encouraging her to feel welcome and comfortable with her own human reactions, but then you had to go and quote the goat. Keep fighting the good fight my brother. Jon Stewart for President!

[@StMichael7]

@@3dChriswho’s John Stewart? I hope your not talking about the comedian Lol

[@joshuawiedenbeck6944]

For the final "verse," where he is crying, he asked everyone to leave the studio and just sat there with the mic and said whatever came to mind.

[@Nellbae]

I had no idea. That's amazing to know! Thank you for sharing!!

[@krystofkotasek7110]

thank you for that information, i look at this track differently

[@Jamieaaronball03]

That’s actually incredibly moving to do, you don’t know where it’ll go but ends up like this, even if you were perfectly happy before.

[@henriklindberg1646]

Brave of him to leave himself that open

[@doomzx8284]

Yeah he told everyone else to leave and just talked to his mom alone in the studio crying...

[@jwolfe8195]

I love the growth he's shown from "I'm not gonna say that I forgive you because it hasn't happened!" To "Momma I forgive you." In Hope. It makes the journey so much more worth it when you get to the new album.

[@krw73]

Not only is this a wonderful tribute to those of us who have lost our mothers but it also serves as a reminder to pick up the phone and call the ones that are still alive before it's too late

[@marionetaklemcba]

Understanding very few words/phrases (my English is very basic) I was still moved to see your gestures and the power of despair, frustration, pain and impotence mixed with anger from the singer, I immediately looked for the song subtitled in my language and the amount was even greater of tears, thank you for them and it is very sad to think that many people have to go through this in their childhood. Hugs from Rio Tercero Córdoba Argentina.

[@subj3kt172]

I almost did this to my son years ago, albeit for different reasons, and it's something I'll never forgive myself for. He saved my life and I'll spend the rest of it trying to be the best father I can.

[@dennisr.4918DennyDesigns]

You can tell Nate had nice memories of his Mom when she was there. It shows how much fun they had when they were together in this video along with the pain of her addiction.

[@xepixz994]

This is one of NFs songs that hit me the hardest, having lost my dad to suicide, i can relate badly to the parts saying how he wishes he had just called her and such. It's incredible how relateable he can make these songs be.

[@garybeers8363]

So glad you’re getting more and more into NF. The dude is something special. His music is special.

[@joshs9157]

Thanks for your reaction. NF just hits you in the heartstrings. Even if you have not experienced this, he still finds a way to make you feel his pain. Then you appreciate his transparency and are just grateful you found his mysic. REAL MUSIC from a real person.

[@akkurzaw7898]

Nate bears his soul in his music and so many of his songs are topics that all of us have gone through in some way. I have a cousin that OD’d and left behind a small child and when I first heard this it gutted me. Picturing a child questioning why pills are more important to his mom than he was is beyond sadness. I’m a grown man and I swear every time I listen to this one I have to fight sobbing. It’s crazy. The journey through his catalog is very cathartic and I truly think is helping so many people. I wish more people would. Great reaction btw. You’re helping shine the light here as well!

[@ChimpoM15]

When I saw this was the next song for you, first thought was you're fucked. This song is so real and emotional and gut wrenching. I'll never forget the first time I heard this song. At the time I was working for a company where we did child services visits. I was the person in the corner taking notes. And I took a friends recommendation of NF to try new music on my drive home from a visit. This song came in. I bawled in the parking lot of my company. I wished every client we had could hear this song cuz it tore to the soul. Amazing song. And Mama. An amazing story.

[@evan6013]

My babies lost their mom almost 2 yrs ago to drugs and this song still gets me. Just knowing they can never see her again hurts.

[@StevenScotland81-ur1et]

Watching your react, your face paints so many pictures that words could not do justice to. Take care Aileen, you are a treasure.

[@TheRussianFloofCat]

This is one of the rawest songs that I've heard in my life. It cuts deep whether you can relate personally or not. I cry or come close to it every time I hear it.

[@markontiveros4431]

Literally hard not to listen without crying its such an amazing emotional song I love NF

[@Fullmoonhowl101]

Having gone through that, the fact he had the courage and confidence to step into the studio to record that is amazing. I dont think i could have done that

[@kingdomkid7820]

Hey, We all love you! Thank you for this reaction! Your strong and more than strong enough to get through whatever it is you are going through! We’re all here to help support your channel. Thank You!!🙏🙏🙏

[@dracodiablo99]

I've heard this song so many times, and it cuts me even more today now that I've actually gotten some help. This song reminds me of my time in the foster system, and how long it took me after I was adopted to even start to feel like I had a family again. I didn't trust that this was something I actually got to have, something that was given to me. I didn't trust that I would get to keep that, or that they wouldn't leave me behind. Six, almost seven years later, I still hear that voice in the back just telling me "Prepare yourself. One day, you'll be all alone again, and it'll be your fault again." I am the oldest of my siblings by a few years, and naturally, I was the last to be adopted. The thing about older children and teenagers in the foster system is that a lot of them have some form of mental illness, like PTSD, schizophrenia, DID, psychosis, RAD, you name it, at least 1000 of us have it, right? Not to say anything of younger ones; they have their own trauma. It just presents itself more obviously in older kids, and most families don't want to deal with the emotional baggage of trying to help this, maybe 16-year-old boy with his hypervigilant PTSD, who has attacked other students in school, or this 14-year-old girl who watches pornography as a way to cope with how she was sexually abused as a child. These are real examples of people I haven't met, but I know them, and a lot of people who listen to NF know them as well. Why? We are them. We are that child screaming into infinity, shattered, and wanting to be fixed. Potential parents don't want to deal with that, and so, that older child is overlooked for an "easier", younger child who won't cause as many problems. That's the issue though. Some of them aren't overlooked. Some parents do decide to give it a go, give that kid a chance, and they discover "Oh, shit. We weren't prepared for this at all. What did we get ourselves into? What the fuck is this?" And then comes the worst punishment for a crime that child never committed: They are placed back into the foster system. They have been betrayed again by people they loved and were finally beginning to accept as family. This adds on more trauma, and this spirals down to the worst possible outcome. I was lucky enough to be adopted into a family that was willing to put in the work and make sure I put in the work to heal, but no one should have to suffer that way. If anyone who made it this far knows anyone in the system, try to be a friend to them. Be there for them ad help them heal. It will take time, but it is so worth it to see that boy, that girl, whatever they identify as, grow and bloom into someone beautiful, in spite of what they have suffered. Be a friend and stay with them. Thank you.

[@bobbilywobbily2810]

Man...that first verse hit sooooo hard!!! I have commented on a couple other of your videos today, but aside from being a disabled veteran (FFDP video), I'm also a single dad. My son has not even heard from his mother in about 12 years...that's been her choice. She's (as I am told by family members) living in a minivan selling and abusing drugs...I can really feel this man's pain, and it immediately draws out the emotions I try to hide...the pain I feel for my son having grown up without his mother. But, on a brighter note, he is the most amazing young man I have ever had the privilege of knowing. He's just turned 17 last month and he's the most kind and considerate teen I know. The second verse I tried to imagine this from my son's perspective and I am just destroyed...there aren't words to express the grief this makes me feel...and I pray that my son establishes contact with his mother of some sort before the lyrics of the third verse come true for him. That ending was so raw...I found a new artist to listen to today. Thank you, Aileen.

[@biopuppet2431]

I can not listen to this song without a tear forming in my eyes. It's just so raw an real music something the industry doesn't really do anymore. I'm just glad he is a artist that cares about his art

[@brianspencer9184]

Thank you so much for your raw and real reactions. Mama is kind of like a part 2 to this 7 years later from Nate in a different place emotionally. You definitely need to do that one next.

[@shelicecrowley9782]

I’m so happy that he is finally able to forgive his mom and wish her a peaceful rest.

[@srslyboomer]

NF's music stands on its own so I have nothing to add there. But Aileen, please don't apologize for...letting music hit you deep. A saying in our house is "we honor our tears" - they just mean you're letting yourself feel the Universe. Thanks for sharing with all of us Internet Randos out here.

[@haplogan]

This destroyed me too, I once came home to blood footprints all over the house, and when I called the police station they recognized my voice,,,,,my mom almost murdred my step dad , and he deserved it, that was my first suicide attempt that day. Thank you for being such a beautiful human.

[@charlottehottenroth]

This is one off the hardest songs I've listened to from his. It's so sad and raw, it makes me cry every time. I really hope your ok after hearing this one. As I know how deep this is ❤️❤️

[@dustinflaming2284]

Your reaction, I have to be honest, is probably the most honest reaction I've watched from you.

[@corysmith3908]

The tears always start for me when he talks about the person in the corner taking notes up to the end. There’s so many emotions being in that situation that I don’t wish anyone to understand. But I love this song because it forces me to acknowledge the things I went through in life that I’ve bottled up and threw away.

[@Loki_Loki01]

The Hope album is great on its own, but it hits that much deeper after experiencing the NF journey. Mama is a sad song too but in a happy way and its so great to see Nate starting to heal and get better. In a way too he is helping all us fans, that can relate to his music, heal with him on this journey. Im so thankful for NF and the music he makes. No other artist can express how i feel like NF can and im sure many fans feel the same way. Hopefully with all this sadness he's gone through in his life, he can at least make some good out of it in a way by helping to heal those who listen to his music

[@TheMorenoMusik]

Every time I hear this song, I start to cry a lot. This is the album I was introduced to by my friend after his mom passed from an overdose. I'm really sorry for others who deal with this issue

[@The_American_Rambler]

I appreciate how you connect with the messages of NF and that you recognize his journey as genuine and not for clicks and views. I’m certain one of your followers has provided you with a list of the Journey songs and videos, and I would recommend doing as many as you can from early albums in order to follow his process. Cheers!

[@shelicecrowley9782]

Great reaction. You seem just as beautiful inside as you are on the outside (and you are gorgeous) so never worry about the makeup, lol. Thank you for allowing us to feel this through you. I cry every time I hear this song! Can’t wait to you get to “Mama” things have turned around for him. He found forgiveness. I lost my mom 1.5 year ago to an unintentional overdose of pain killers. She was an addict when I was a teenager, before that left us with a man (stepdad) who raped and molested me when I was 9. All that said … she got clean, gave her life to Christ, went back to got a masters degree at 60, wrote and published a book and became the World’s Greatest Grandma. She left a legacy of love, kindness, generosity and excellence. NF’s song mama is exactly how I feel about my mom. It’s like he was reading my mind.

[@fadedsmoker4998]

Loved this reaction.. the final thoughts were great.. when your stuck in loneliness, your always in your head analyzing yourself because you dont understand why in your mind . thats where his self-awareness in his music comes from

[@heiltecn9ne]

As an addict this song hits hard on both sides I understand he destruction of addiction but I also can see the pain it causes others, it’s a merciless beast.

[@vincentgarza73]

I feel like she is the only person I’ve seen who’s reaction really did this song justice

[@nixyami]

I relate to this video as a mom. Before I discovered my pregnancy I was an alcholic. So I fought my depression and addictions for my baby. He's 2yo now, healthy, he's my world. I still fighting depression and anxiety. His father this to get full custody. So I got a sleeping pills addicton. It crossed my mind so many times to "leave" for his own good. Thinking I'm a terrible mom and he doesn't need me. I feel so worthless. Then I saw the video and realized he does love too me so I can't give up. I recommed you to react songs from Citizen Soldier, especially "Limit". If you are struggling with mental health I hope you seek help and knows: you are loved, you're irreplaceable and you're not alone.

[@HilltopHavenOfficial]

I relate to this so much… My mom was an alcoholic and on the 14th of April, 2018 she passed in the hospital. She was never there for us but when I say it still hurts, it really does. I can’t listen to this song without balling. I miss her…

[@pt9373]

That's his hardest one to get through, so congratulations and based on 'Hope' so far, its time to be happy and listen to Nate heal finally! It's only up from here.

[@maynardzman5o35]

2 years ago I lost my younger sister to her drug addiction. The pain was exactly like this. Frustration, anger, resentment, sorrow, love, it was all there at once and cycling throughout me constantly. I then lost my two uncles months after, my close friend whom I had hired at my work took his own life last year and my father passed away few months ago. Sometimes I ask “how could you leave me” when I think about them but I just know I miss them all from the depths of my heart and soul. Grief is just too much sometimes

[@Thomas-he4wk]

I'm very glad I do not have a reaction channel. First time I ever heard this song, I broke badly. My 2 brothers and I lost our mom to drugs over 10 years ago. So this and the new song MAMA just killed me. Love the genuine reaction.

[@yeti8it396]

I'm 62 yrs old and this song spoke to me SO hard I blubbered like a 2 yr old. Reminded me of possibly my ONLY one true love of my life yet she was killed and taken from this earth. this brings me back to a time ...the ONLY time I truly felt happy in my life. after the shitty sibling abuse I remembered from child hood she seemed to understand why I am the me that I amm. My ONLY hope is that I will some day see her again either in this life of the next. 😔😪😪😔😥😢

[@melvado]

You introduced me to NF, and this journey is so intense.. His lyrics cut right through us all... 😭😭😭😭

[@jstack8955]

I've heard this song countless times and it still makes me cry. For sure "Mama" next.

[@Arcturus_Blx]

Aileen, this is definitely a tough one for sure. I hope you're ok during this reaction and really hope you don't relate to this and your Mom, or really both your parents are in good health, I'm here to watch this in 11 hours and cry with you ❤️🥺

[@AileenSenpai]

My parents are in good health, sadly my uncle has struggled with drug abuse for most his life so this was so hard to watch Nate get through..heart goes out to him and anyone who has gone/is going through the same thing ♥️

[@Arcturus_Blx]

@@AileenSenpai aww yes indeed, I'm so sorry to hear about your Uncle though, I can't say I know the feeling because I don't but I will say you definitely have me as support and I'm here for you. Also love your reaction videos, they are straight from the heart, keep up the great work. You're amazing

[@skitzo1041]

i lost my mom at a young age to alcoholism and similar problems, these songs really put everything into words and i couldn't be more grateful for nf

[@aidanmaley8905]

I remember when I first heard the audio of this song I cried and that alone just goes to show you how emotional his rapping style is and that sets him apart from everybody. When I saw the video I was broken just like you were and still to this day it makes me cry when I watch it. Thank you for another amazing reaction Aileen and thank you for being so open and vulnerable with your videos as well. The makeup was a necessary sacrifice to get through this one for sure 😁

[@MelissaVargas-o3v]

As a daughter of a dad who was addicted to liquor, who passed away recently, this one burns and the pain, sadness and anger are so real! I loved my father but I hated his addiction. It pushed me away from him and the regret of not calling or answering his calls kills me…. I miss him, I miss the man he was before the liquor.

[@Kolizyonn]

I used to feel the same way NF did when my mom passed, There was a stage in my grieving where I just didn't want to accept she was gone, I still don't despite me being the one who found her.. It hurts more and more each day that passes knowing she's gone forever and I'm never gonna be able to talk to her again, just to be able to get one more conversation with her is all I want, to tell her how everything's going and just tell her I miss her and I love her, but I know it probably will never happen.

[@snoopy2092]

Seeing her smile slowly disappear as she listened in the beginning, yeah it's one of those songs that hits you in the feels

[@renewilliams7600]

The first time I watched this, was my last. It was too painful and I cried my heart out. It brings back too many memories of my own. I know I would still react the same even if I did not have a personal connection of my own. I did not watch your reaction, I only listened. Baby steps. But I could still hear you sobbing in my head phones. I did much better then my first time I saw it. Thank you for another great reaction Aileen.

[@delindsay]

You are one of the best reactors on the Internet. Thank you for being here for us.

[@AileenSenpai]

♥️♥️♥️

[@inspiredfunkmark]

First time I heard this, all.I could think was how brave it was to open this up to the world. Found healing for myself in this tune, and in many of the NF expressions. Your reaction was understandable, relatable and authentic. Thank you.

[@kevancorkill2068]

Aileen said everything...she is very empathetic and extremely unique in her ability to disect the meaning of the message. Yes, this cathartic and Aileen is the perfect reactor for this. Nate's words are his own as he has decided to share his journey, regardless of success, through the valley of his experiences with a raw humanness that touches others right where they are. A life lived comes with all sorts of adventures, both victories and lost, and along the journey there are occasions to stop and share. Nate's poetry is indeed deep and raw. There are times where there are no answers to the questions on this side. In these times acceptance is the only remedy. For a person bent on destruction...prayer is the only solution for a miracle to happen...a supernatural intervention that the Lord can make happen up to the very end for His love is everlasting. And yet sadly the choice is destruction leaving shattered lives behind.

[@TylerBriscar]

This is the very first thing I heard of by NF and when I heard it I broke down. It reminds me of my childhood and my niece and nephews childhood so much it literally broke me hearing/seeing this. I instantly was a fan

[@davidhunter7928]

Only recently have I watched your channel. Nf brought me to you. Seeing your real reactions like it should be was beautiful. No need to worry about how it affects your video. So far you seem like the type to want to be accepted for who you are in all aspects. As you deserve. When I saw that this was the song you were going to hear. I knew you were going to be hit. Either going through something similar or even loss in general or even just the way he speaks with the visuals. This is meant to tear us down and feel what we normal suppress. I just wish I could turn my poetry into music because even with all my struggles growing up. What started me down the path of poetry was I wanted to touch hearts and souls. To make someone feel something deeply and to make them feel like they weren't alone. I've wanted that since I was in middle school. Since then he was the first to make me feel like how I wish I could portray myself.

[@Jenn-rv3qs]

There’s something so healing about your voice. Idk what it is, but listening to you makes me feel safe. 😩

[@Jeffwalker66]

As a survivor of overdose I can't imagine what my family would of went through had I not survived. I only got through as I threw up a lot of the tablets. I thank god every day for a second chance. I get up every day to greet the dawn and will never take for granted what I have. Life is so precious if you are needing help please reach out don't give up you really are not alone.

[@ErebosOnTwoWheels]

This song is what got me listening to rap. Gotta fight back tears every time I hear it, it just hits close to home and is relatable. I couldn't click this fast enough, been waiting for you to do this video and knew you'd do it justice.

[@wolverine4742]

NF has to be one of the very few artists I have heard cry and break-down on record. To pour their heart, soul and pain into that microphone. Yes, there will be some of us that can relate and resonate with that pain....but you get up. Everyday, you get up and see the day - that's fighting. Also, don't apologise for the tears and make-up.

[@billiam2631]

I have so much to say !!! I literally just saw this guy today .. this song had my tears flowing .. hit me so hard and so close to home . I'm glad you watched it and I got to see it ❤❤😢😢❤❤ . Omg I cried the entire way through this reaction

[@marklingo]

NF meaning - Now Feeling - always get the feels form anything he puts out. specialty the deep sad stuff, goes right tot he soul.

[@datboitex87]

Haven't lost my mom but she did leave 3 of us kids to drugs and pills and this song hit so hard when I first heard it. When he was talking about her coming to pick them up and never showed and the graduation I went through the same thing. I can't make it through this song with out breaking down over 20 times heard. Iv even sent her this song, but yet she still does her own thing.Thanks for the reaction.

[@mattmorganRnR]

You are spot on about him. I feel for the people out there as well who have lived through this. I’m so sorry and people care and you will get through this.

[@maddieshirrel2533]

when i listen to this song, it reminded me of my mother when I was younger...... but now im 22 and my mom is still alive, and for the past 2 years she has been clean....

[@jayhop]

I hope this doesn't mean I'm a sociopath, but i love watching other hyperempathetic people break down in reactions (the same way I do when I listen for the first time). Adding intelligent discussion on top of feeling the music in her veins, she's easily one of my favorite KZbin reactors and one of the few live streams I'll struggle through trying to use Twitch to watch.

[@hunterwilliams8490]

I have yet to not cry to this song and it’s been probably 50-60 times. This is the deepest of cuts here, you’ll see a lot of battles with demons and sad subject matter with Nate, but this one was the toughest.

[@sarasweightlossjourney1432]

I lost my mother to pills in the song really affected me. Your reaction broke me and I've seen this so many times because as crazy as it sounds it's brought healing

[@asherbaisden475]

Seeing him preform live, especially him performing Mama for the first time live and he broke down at the end, it was beautiful. He is slowly healing from his mom and I feel like all of us who are devoted fans to him and been on this journey with him, we are seeing him heal and grow and slowly find happiness and forgiveness for his mom and it’s beautiful. I highly suggest you go to one of his shows. His Hope tour is phenomenal! The light show, the way the lights go with the beats of his songs and synthesize in a way I’ve never seen before, the visuals in the background especially before “mama” comes on. Old home videos of him as a boy, of his mom. He just ties everything altogether in such a beautiful way! I highly recommend going to see him live sometime. It’s an amazing experience.

[@JordanRA]

This song made me cry like a baby when I first heard it and I still tear up when I hear it. Now after hearing his song 'Mama', I'm feeling so much better about the place Nate is in now. So much growth/healing since this album.

[@Polyphemus89]

Lost too many people to this, some who had kids, some who were kids. Thanks for the honest reaction, judgment doesn’t help anyone.

[@antecule6349]

This is new to me, I want to thank to Aileen for her bringing such a great fandome of Music-Fans and with you all I can discover new music. This song is very touchy.. I put myself in lots of perspectives and some days are not easy for me so I can only thank.for music and people that that make me.not to feel alone. Peace and love to You All

[@chrislepsch2524]

We’re ready for this journey too. Looking forward to more NF from you. Thanks, you won’t regret it.

[@gemini520]

Just a fact that I just ran into channel so randomly. I really love NF's work as the mental stability part of his music really hits home but this summer here I lost my mom at a very young age. Other different circumstances the outcome is still the same you lose that person that you love the most and then I hear no more I know exactly how that feels it's really just made me reminisce of everything I've been through at that young age....... 💯😥😪

[@Nellbae]

"And collectively healing all of us in the process." 😢 Yes. This is literally the 2nd video of yours I've EVER watched and I'm alrdy absolutely loving your soul/vibe ..

[@nyeo22]

I've heard this song loads of times and still cry. If I'm out i have to skip this track otherwise I'll be crying my eyes out in the supermarket. Love your reactions ❤️

[@MrsJoJo7694]

This was such a genuine reaction. New subby.🖤 Thank you. NF changed my life…

[@codyholland8458]

God this song made me bawl my eyes out im recovering addict last year I lost my relationship of 9 years because of drugs an my own actions an decided to get clean I'm 10 months sober now but everyday feels like a losing battle you don't know how much you love someone till their gone 😢😢

[@twistedintellects5263]

I cant wait for you to experience what is the cinematic journey of Nf, he is the voice of all of us outkasts, there is a dofferent connection between him and his fans than any other artist ever, he is just one of us, and its nice to not feel alone thats why you will find that this community will always support anything NF forever, we are all understand that we are all humans, we are just a speck of dust that passes by in the universes time and it truly shows us whats really Important in life

[@LewMinatti]

Girl, appreciate this honest breakdown, lol. So many of us can relate.

[@timothy7190]

Wow. I'm new to the NF journey and it's a privilege to experience it with you Aileen. You are so genuinely smart and kind. A beautiful soul for sure. Thank you. 🙏

[@KidSlaughterHouse]

I remember blasting this song when my mom would OD on drugs man, shit was painful, this song is the reason I listen to him, I lost my dad to alcohol and drugs, and nearly lost my mom, she's been to jail multiple times for it, I ended up in foster care, song makes me think about it so much

[@erroristmusic]

Knew she was gonna crack up fast. She's such an emotional sweetheart. I've heard this song so many times, still i keep tearing up.

[@mr.knight1123]

I’m here for the journey Just know you’re definitely not alone crying or in your feelings with these videos or songs so definitely don’t need to apologize for it.

[@timdillander1909]

This song hits different for me. My parents didn’t pass. However, both of my parents abandoned my siblings and I after their divorce. We where raised by our grandparents.

[@geralddichiara1117]

Every time I cry to his music it feels like a hand on the back saying it's OK. I hope that man learns what it feels to finally have a full heart.

[@alfredofuentes9408]

You can literally feel this man’s pain through his songs.

[@saraphexe7682]

In my case its cancer, I felt like I could've done more to help my dad though it. Then I realized I had done enough to just be there for him, for me what NF went through and what I went through I blame myself and my dad, you know I wished he could've seen me graduate I wished He could've seen me grow up. looking back, I was in a whole different place seven years ago but Now I'm stronger than ever to just keep going on. this song is a great representation of what people go through weather its drug overdose or any type of illness, to go through that alone is unbearable and sad then to keep that trapped inside is hurtful to your mental state.

[@ronhendrickson4921]

I’ve been through a few things that I don’t want to mention her very very sad as an understatement but listen to this music and your reaction helps like you like to give other people. Hugs to make them feel better so here’s one for you and everybody. 💓

[@Captain_Kirk116]

MAMA is basically How Could You Leave Us part 2 but it is more hopeful, so I look forward to your reaction to that as well. Thank you for your authenticity in your reactions 🙏.

[@StanHowse]

I lost my mother in 2020 from drugs/stupid decisions/bad situations. I was so angry at her for 25yrs of my Life, just when I started to grow-up and realize that Every Human has their own personal struggles and some may find them harder to pull out of than others, so I was letting go of that Anger & Hate, if only to have ANY semblance of a relationship with my Mother. And then she died from it, without us getting to repair all that was broken. Including me. Now I sit here and wonder everyday how I'll be able to Live a normal Life, be a normal Person, while still being so broken and unable to repair anything because it's just me now.

[@nebody666]

This song always gets me balling..😭 Really appreciate your raw reaction! ❤ My story is VERY similar to Nate's...mom was taken (from my sisters and I) the year before my graduation from a double overdose of heroin and cocaine; rough upbringing - wondering if mom is going to come home after being gone for a couple days, to then wondering if she's going to show up on the holidays when we were in foster care..

[@lordsharederxs1093]

The way I’ve watched this hundreds of time and it can still make me so heartbroken. Even tho I haven’t gone through it myself.

[@c.rex573]

This came out in about year 7 of my mom's 10 year drug addiction. It hit so hard then and still does. I am so thankful that mom has been clean for almost 3 years now.