I stopped searching for my purpose | cozy days before winter's here

[@hankalorinczova]

*Dear Vera.* I am very happy that you realized how great it is to start making longer KZbin videos again. Recently I started painting and drawing - both with acrylic colours and classical markers. I haven't been painting and drawing for 8 to 10 years, I would say. In painting I ,,specialize" in abstraction, geometry, perspective, slighly surrealism and of course the motives of the universe. The last but not least, I record myself on a 4K camera, the whole process, every second. In fact, it's a timelapse - 20 times sped up. It's amazing that we both started creating something in the relatively same time. Your videos are so beautiful, splendid, atmospheric, cinematic, fascinating. I have been highly disappointed with the magintude, level, scope, scale, intellect and vocabulary of my English. In fact, there is probably no language that I know and I am proud of it, (therefore I am not sure if in any of these languages I know at least 150 000 words, 150 thousands, it's not a typo) nor Slovak, nor Czech, nor English, nor Romanian - the first is my native language, the other ones are my most known languages from all six that I know. I just wanted to share it with you. But you are the opposite as me. Your English is magnificent and excellent, and so are your videos, or films. *Thank you so much for reading and also for existing!*

[@verapebbles]

Thank you for your kind words! Based on your comment I wouldn't have guessed that you're not satisfied with your knowledge of English, as it seems quite elaborate :) Wishing you all the best with your art!

[@hankalorinczova]

@verapebbles Thank you so much for your beautiful words! And also for your compliment to my English, I really appreciate it.

[@poetrybylorelei]

Randomly came across your video which I really resonate with (plus the filming is beautiful). I’ve also struggled so much with not knowing my purpose is and now I’m 32 and in my experience it does get easier when you let go of finding the “thing” that is your purpose and instead keep doing things that feel natural to you without having to label your purpose. I feel much more at peace when I’m in the present and I learn what my purpose is a bit more each day! I wish you all the best on your journey ❤

[@verapebbles]

Thank you so much for sharing! Wishing you all the best on yours as well, I'm so glad to hear letting go of the search for purpose brought you more peace ❤

[@MinooMasoumzadeh]

Dear Vera, I love your videos and I just found out you also have a page on KZbin! What I love about your videos is that you seem really honest and real in them! and so in case, while I was watching, it passed my mind that believe it or not, I think being able to be on your path, without sticking to a restricted purpose from a very young age, is a sign of advancement of the society and economic situation. Well, I wanted to tell you it is a privilege, as much as it may seem confusing, it is a great opportunity and please seek it and do not think you are wasting your time! I live in the middle east, here just to be financially independent takes a lot and does not let you live fully, let alone exploring so many fields, because of everything. Just wanna say staying financially fine and exploring different areas is a great opportunity! Nothing as much as searching nurtures an artist, although despite that, it does not look obvious from inside! And the fact that you are an authentic video creator is not an easy job! so the skills you already have do shine for us the audience! :) See them yourself too, and create us more videos! :) I sound like a grandma, but I am your age, just to give a picture! And wish me luck for my film program applications in the US! :)

[@verapebbles]

@@MinooMasoumzadeh thank you for your comment! 🤍 That’s a very good point you make, I’m very privileged to live in such a country and system where it is possible to pursue different paths. It’s easy to get caught up in the confusion it brings, but realizing that it’s a privilege in the first place is very important. I wish you all the luck for your application! :)

[@MinooMasoumzadeh]

@@verapebbles Thank you!😇💛

[@user-jo7xn5hf6b]

yayy happy to see you're back! :))

[@bee.lzebub]

i love this so much 😻 im going through similar times and this was the sign i needed, genuinely. beautifully shot video 🖤

[@verapebbles]

thank you so much! so glad to hear it meant something to you :)

[@makewithme9084]

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[@Monish_135]

good to see you back 😌 hope you are gonna upload more

[@verapebbles]

@@Monish_135 that’s the plan! thank you for sticking around :)

[@mmm-w5o3r]

Hi, I just came across this video in my feed and have been feeling pretty similar on my path at the moment, and I'm coming to accept the same realisation that if I stop searching and just put faith into the universe that I'm already on my path I can start living it, although I'm finding that very hard to actually do. So anyway, thanks for sharing your video. Ps I'm not sure if you've heard of Human Design before, but I found it interesting to learn about a system that shows you a way to make authentic decisions in life. Thought I'd just mention it incase you found it interesting. Thanks.

[@verapebbles]

I totally get you! I still catch myself falling into old beliefs and anxious feelings ("what am I doing with my life" kinda thoughts), but I guess that's also to be expected. Every time that happens I try to consciously change my thoughts. I will definitely check out Human Design by the way! I've heard of it, but don't know anything about it. Thanks for sharing!