I thought this was going to be hard... | Vlog #74

[@CatFromFL]

Its been almost 50 years ago but I remember exactly the same feelings I experienced carrying my rainbow baby Megan and because we didn’t know gender (back then noone did)until birth. All of my “stuff” was his. Weirdly once out shopping , I bumped into my husbands aunt who mistakened her for a boy. Mind you she had an eyelet ruffled bonnet and a pink frilly dress….too funny! It never gave me a grief attack it was so funny. Maybe you should have a shelf for Kaia’s corner . If you put it in Bub’s new room-remember to put it up high- away from him and cats. I think it would be great to see them all the time. Treasures should not be tucked away, but rather enjoyed as pleasant memories. Also since you want more kids remember in the future Kaia might have sisters to share with too.

[@Melissa_in_CT]

@@michellefish9235 What do you mean by your comment? My first instinct is that it is not very kind, but since I do not know you, I would be interested in hearing your thoughts before I make a false assumption. Thanks.✌🏼

[@Miapetdragon69]

You grieve the way you want to grieve, the hell with everyone else!

[@gerryryan1372]

When I think about my baby son Aaron. I can smell him. I still talk to him and its over 30 years now xx. Sending big love and hugs xx

[@stephanieann1213]

That’s beautiful to think of Gerry. I’m sure the thought of his scent brings you such comfort. I’m sorry for your loss and hoping that you are well. I can’t imagine your pain, but I am sure it’s very hard no matter how much time has passed. Sending you lots of hugs😇💙 Rest in Heaven sweet baby Aaron👼

[@margotrobinson943]

It warms my heart to hear your beautiful boy is still with you ♥️

[@gerryryan1372]

@@stephanieann1213 thank you so much xx

[@gerryryan1372]

@@margotrobinson943 he will always be with me in my heart ❤️

[@corinesievert7032]

I just wanted to take a second to tell you how much I appreciate you sharing your raw and real emotions. I know it must be difficult to allow others to see such a personal process… you are so incredibly brave for doing so. You are doing something so amazing for so many people that you may never know… just knowing that I am not alone and that I am not the only one who thinks, and feels, and fixates on certain things that nobody else could understand unless they had gone through it as well. Grieving is something that society doesn’t necessarily want to see and when you are going through it, it is so isolating…but you are changing that and I could never find the words to express my gratitude and admiration for you and what you are doing. You are touching people’s hearts and making a difference in what may be the darkest moments of their lives. Thank you for having the courage to make a difference…

[@StefanieandKameron]

Thank you for saying that. Everything you said is exactly why I do this. ❤️ Nobody should feel isolated while going through one of the hardest things anyone will ever do. ❤️

[@kimkelly9046]

@@StefanieandKameron Amen to that!!

[@lynnelittlejohn7922]

Fingers crossed for the move. So proud of you today sorting baby clothes out, it really can't be easy. But remember nothing is right or wrong Stephanie, we do things as we can cope with in the situation we find ourselves in. Take care lovely lady ❤

[@genevievealmaguer9283]

So sweet!!!

[@leighannaray7400]

I totally understand wanting to keep some of Kaia’s things separated! I think it’s a really healthy decision and the idea of Kaia’s corner where things can be visible is absolutely beautiful!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@carolynlulinski8593]

Stefanie, I completely understand your feelings. We lost our 1st & only child. Your daughter is going along with you. She will now live in the heart of her brother.She is going to always be your 1st child & your sons big sister. When we adopted our daughter I felt like I didn’t want to replace my 1st child in any way. So I understand this. I will always have a Huge hole in my soul for my lost child. The love for my daughter is beautiful and complete it doesn’t take away anything from my first child.Know that healing is an on going life long day by day thing. You will have good & bad days. Having your son will be life changing in a very wonderful way. 👍🏻🥰❤️

[@cjpanneck]

[@yolandabeekmans5468]

Don't ever, ever feel guilty about your grief let it out whenever and however it helps you and your beautiful baby ❤️ 💕 daughter is looking down and protecting you and Kameron and bubba, she is your guardian angel

[@judylake8464]

You could have your husband send the Doppler to your sister-in-law to sell for you, and remove it from your house without having to see or touch it again. I think that it's a beautiful way to memorialize Kaia with the memory box and the little corner of your house. Kaia existed and deserves to be honored and remembered. As far as people referring to your son as a girl, that still might happen even if he's dressed in boy's clothing. Someone once said that my daughter was "such a cute little boy" while she was in a dress, white shoes with flowers on them, ruffled white socks and a bow in her hair, just because the dress was blue. And my son was referred to as a girl while he was dressed in yellow. I pray that doesn't happen for you. You are doing a beautiful service to others just by sharing your experience. May God continue to watch over your baby boy and you and your husband.

[@lisaatkinsonu7u868]

The part where you say that you have feelings about buying things because you didn't have a live birth previously I know exactly where your coming from when my daughter Olivia was stillborn in 2008 we had our rainbow baby boy in 2014 and that's when it seemed real to me when I heard him cry that was the best sound and that's what you will feel your emotions will be all over during your pregnancy and its all normal, it's nice to see you going through clothes that you use for you little boy because yes its passed on from his sister, positive thoughts xx

[@StefanieandKameron]

I can't wait to hear that sound 😭❤️❤️

[@stephanieann1213]

I feel so awful when you question yourself or explain your grief. Don’t let any negative people even enter your space. Block the jerks. You are an amazing woman, and even though I am old enough to be your Mama I look up to you so much. You are an inspiration to Many, and this sweet little boy is so lucky to have you as his Mommy💙

[@jclay5567]

You’re right only a mummy who’s lost a little one would understand every single word and thought about the next baby, I love the way you say you are “sharing” Kaia’s things with her baby brother, I love that and also that some of Kaia’s things are just for her. Xx

[@kimk4536]

Several times you ask if something makes sense…..Sweetie, I assure you, you make PERFECT sense! Your feelings are yours… no one should judge you. I so admire your strength and your “Mommy heart”. Bless you all. 🤗💙💕🙏🥰

[@acelynnalpers5333]

My son was stillborn, he passed away 2 days before his due date in January of this year. We went home on his due date, the hardest thing that will ever happen to me. I want more children I just know I’m going to be a nervous wreck. We have a huge cluster full of his things and we haven’t been able to open it just yet, but if we do have another son I’m sure we’ll use a lot of his brothers things also. They will always be known, his siblings will know about him. I hope you and your family the best with your precious rainbow baby. ♥️

[@belindawalter8515]

First off I want to say I admire your strength. Kaia will always be your daughter .

[@georgiamoore8231]

I think you are one of the bravest and beautiful ladies I've ever had the privilege of knowing. I hope and pray you kids get your house and the coming years are filled with blessings and happiness. I feel like your daughter would want the same.

[@zoebowler5664]

I totally understand how you feel, my baby girl didn’t make it to full term so to most people she wasn’t and still isn’t “acknowledged” but the time she was alive with me is so important. That was the time we had together. It was a time that was always will be the two of us our months together. So I understand how you feel about moving on from the space you live in. Sending you so much love ❤️

[@jillharmacinski9174]

I have to say that I love your glasses. They are so cute on you. Also that had to be so difficult going through Kaia's things. Proud of you and how you are dealing with it. Love how awesome you are with your cats. It takes a good caring person to foster animals.

Hey! Thank you for sharing. Just a friendly warning: I have an 11mo boy and he is blond with pretty blue eyes and even though I do not dress him in pink, he often gets mistaken for a girl. I'va had several people tell me he was to pretty to be a boy - whatever that means. I do hope it won't be too triggering for you should this happen. Obviously, it would happen much more if you dressed him in pink, but just be prepare for it to happen anyway... Just wanted to let you know so you don't get blindsided!

[@ngs5554]

I remember when my oldest was a baby we went to a store and the cashier told me that my baby girl was adorable. The only issue was that my baby was and is a he, and was dressed in blue, very boyish clothes. I told the cashier, “he’s a boy, can’t you tell?”, and her response was “well you never know nowadays”

@@ngs5554 she could just have said that your baby was adorable, without adding gender to it! My mom told me that she once had my sister dressed in a pink dress and somebody still asked her if it was a boy... and that was like over 25 years ago

[@angelalovell-koehler1219]

I lost my Angel at 8 weeks- nothing like losing a full-term, but loss, nonetheless. One thing I can say, is that grief and loss are very personal, and there is no right or wrong way to cope. You do what feels right for you. What I love about your channel is that you face each day, each challenge, and each new adventure gently and honestly, and fearlessly. Prayers to you and your family 💘

[@beckysullivan9508]

Hello- As a loss Momma myself and now the proud Momma of a 10 month old rainbow baby boy…I appreciate your story! Pregnancy after loss is so hard and you are amazing! :)

[@lynnesawri2805]

You are so right Stephanie a lot of people don’t understand why we keep certain things that were our child’s and to them I say “don’t judge or comment until you have been down this horrific journey.” Wether you lose a child while carry them or years later it’s the worst nightmare any momma goes through so let us keep whatever we need to keep our babies alive in our hearts and world. Kia will be smiling down each and every time her baby brother wears an outfit that she has shared. Hugs and love to you. ❤️

[@The_Original_LBSwanson]

I've got a kitty that's like thay, our vet called it Pandora syndrome, where when she gets stressed she gets really bad bladder infections. She gets special food and gets to sit on the table and counters because it makes her feel secure and she does great. Good job taking care of your furry family. It's nice to see you'll being able to share some of the baby things with your little man.

[@deborahanne2700]

Nesting memories of all the tiny things moving with the breeze on warm sunny days on the clothesline. Hanging sizes and colors and filling drawers. 💞❣️

[@shirlynssleeve4661]

My son ( 2 sisters) who was the last of my 3 who were 11mths apart wore a lot of pink at home but I didn’t take him out in public in it☺️ Babies have lots of accidents from both ends so you can’t have enough basics. In my town we have a room in the hospital called Jane’s Room. They do handprint moldings, recorded heartbeats set to music if there is one, Sleeping Angle funds for help with unexpected funeral costs and Cuddle Cots. Every hospital should have one! Take things slowly as you have time.

[@becxalxbm7055]

you are so strong please know grieving takes time it is so very personal to each and every one of us whos sadly had the loss of a child it took me so many years to eventually go thorough my late daughters clothes and gift them to a childrens charity as i knew she would have wanted me to do this....but in the first few years i simply could not look through her clothes as i could smell her on them and it seriously triggered me to go to a very dark place i daily struggled to stay away from...much love and kindest thoughts to you stefanie x

[@lisaendress724]

Of course its totally understandable to keep every single thing related to your baby girl that means the world to you!!! Why in the universe wouldn't you?! ❤

[@terriwhite3372]

Keep whatever gives you any sort of comfort. I can’t think anyone wouldn’t “get” that. Sending you many hugs!

[@traciaxtell4553]

You are doing great. Don't listen to people, keep whatever you want for just Kaia. Also this maybe something you would like to do. When someone buys you an outfit, write their name in it. That way when the little man or future kids wear it you can snap a picture and send it to the person. I did that because pregnancy brain is real and it helped a lot. Also I hung clothing up by sizes so I didn't miss an outfit because they out grew it. Thanks for sharing and my heart goes out to you everytime I know it's hard. Sending you a big hug.

[@marilynhodgkinson5299]

Hi Stephanie thank you so much for sharing your beautiful baby girl Kaia's baby clothes, they are so special keep them in a very special place. It is nice your little baby boy can share some of them. Your special needs cat is adorable , so lucky to have a guardian like you.😺❤

[@gabrielaavalostapia2599]

Hi Stef I think its because she was there with you all the time and she is happy to share with little man ☺️💙you are bringing him home we all wish that🙏and yes everything makes sense, send you a huge hug beautiful 😘🌹

[@bubblealien]

I think of you all often🤍 Im so excited to see your sweet son when the time comes! I love the sunset theme you have going for him, its beautiful 💕

[@DK-hc7yh]

HUGS!! You are in my heart and thoughts daily ❤❤

[@lindasartore3303]

Stefanie, you are doing so well here. Your insight and rationale for the various decisions you made during this video is admirable. Saving certain items for Kaia is a beautiful and respectful tribute that shows much she meant to you and the fact that she will always be honored & remembered in a very special way. On the lighter side, OMG all those clothes & accessories you found that can be used by your little man were adorable! And the Honest cat diapers …unbelievably awesome! I can’t wait for the day when we get to see you vacillating about the hardest decision you have to make that day…which cute outfit will I dress my son in today! Those times will be the best! Good luck on hearing about the home you put an application for. Much like sellers of home are experiencing today with offering more than the asking price to win the sale, have realtors ever said if offering to pay just a little bit more in rent might make the application jump to the top of the list? Just wondering if that is ever done….

[@clareparnell1798]

Hey Stefanie, I know exactly how you feel about moving, when I lost my son I thought about moving but couldn’t bring myself to leave behind the memories of him behind in the house we live, small things like a mark on the wall he made or his bedroom. This I feel is a emotion you have when you lose a baby, child. Take care of you and sending you much love 💕💕 xxx

[@StefanieandKameron]

Exactly. ❤️ Laying in bed on my left side in that cramped bedroom... while she beat me up everynight at 9:30pm sharp. It'll be hard to leave. But, of course we will take her with us where ever we go.

[@clareparnell1798]

Yes she always will be no matter where you are or go she will always be in your thoughts and heart 💕💕💕xx always 💕

[@rae1957tn]

Sell it or give it away. Keep what makes you happy and that reminds you of her. As you said when you have a home make a place for her she will always be with you. You’re right only someone that’s lost a baby knows that you’re right to keep things to keep her close

[@kimdrury6184]

So happy you were able to go through the baby clothes and have them for baby boy....way to go!!! Can't wait tobsee him dressed in the cute clothes.

[@hildebt7988]

Hi, I certainly understand that you want to keep the items from your baby girl, I would,,, I am keeping an outfit for every year from my granddaughters life, she’ll be 11 this year, I just thought , she might like to look at them when she gets older, so you keep anything you feel like it,,,,,, I am sure, you will have a memory corner of her in your new place,,, Thinking of you a lot and loving your vlogs ,,,,

[@michellebridges2604]

I so understand! My son was older and I have all his clothes still. Going to make a quilt from them. Have a great weekend ❤️

[@Dollytimebabies]

Hi Stephanie I think it’s lovely you can use some of your daughters things for him it will be so special for you. Your mind must be in turmoil being kind of emotionally anchored to this home. Well done your so brave xxx

[@asterapothecaries610]

Thanks for sharing your daughter’s story. Prayers you get a new house soon!

[@Merbella]

Every word and feelings you expressed were totally normal. From another grieving Mom, sending you lots of love ❤️

[@DK-hc7yh]

I hope your weekend wasn't too warm and that this day finds you well and is filled with wonder and joy. ❤🕊

[@karenarmstrong7856]

Luna is beautiful. My Cilla is very similar, in that she likes her own space. Not only part of the family, but the boss in this house.

[@BrokenHeart-js9yb]

You are such a strong woman…I have so much respect towards you!!! Sending blessings your way🙏

[@AnneRas11]

❤️stefani every time I watch your videos I think how brave you both are to share this journey with so many. I can not wait to see you snuggling with your little man. Also I love when you show your cats.

[@cindymaun8952]

We don't get rid of kitties either! Our oldest is very close to her 21st birthday. Sadly, she's not doing well now. I've never been blessed with children but I understand and support that certain things are Kaia's and should always be her things. Bless you.

[@lexismom9341]

I totally understand and get everything you are saying and feeling. From sharing Kaia's things to getting rid of pets. Our pets are family, we don't get rid of them. Sending you lots of love always!

[@jacinda3358]

I appreciate you explaining that you want to make sure your son is not dressed in girls clothes because of it triggering your grief and not because of gender norms or anything. Thank you for sharing.

[@joclovelady]

As you're packing you could buy a chest and have Kaia's name & DOB on it to store the items that are most precious to you. My friend actually kept a journal and wrote letters to the baby they lost at birth. It was a very cathartic way to keep their first child to remain a part of your family as you move forward and your family grows.

[@angelabowman1614]

Blessings to you and your family. Such cute things that little man will have from his big sister Kaia..... your going to be ok, you and Kameron work through your emotions and keep those precious memories and in time the LORD will give you both peace and comfort. And Kaia's memories will bring a smile and she will forever be your little baby girl. Sending love and prayers for you and yours.....

[@mrs.g4997]

You are doing everything right because grief is incredibly personal. I'm revisiting my grief after 17 years in to losing my full term baby girl. The questions out weigh the answers. Your bravery is bold and beautiful. I contemplated keeping all of her items and we decided to donate everything to a orphanage. After our loss ( I was told not to) but I went on to have another daughter and a son. I am a complete stranger to you but I hope it is alright to follow your journey and pray for you. Hope is possible and remember to smile. P.S. our husbands have the same names...one more thing I am walking in the March of Dimes walk and their is an area where you can make a flower , with your permission my rainbow babies can make one for her.

[@irishrose7053]

I don't recommend the Doppler. I think it will create more anxiety honestly. Don't obsess if u choose to do it

[@JS-rn7km]

I love those kitten onesies and diapers and how you are able to remember and honor your daughter as you plan for the birth of your son. I hope the housing situation works out. Planning a move is so stressful and this market is CRAZINESS.

[@MichelleH_]

Thank you for sharing with us. You are helping more people than you know. Wishing you all lots of luck in the new home hunt 🤞 Kaia will always be wherever you are ♥️ but your feelings are completely valid and understood. Thank you again for being so open and honest! Sending lots of hugs and love to your beautiful family!

[@prettystitches1]

Hearing you speak about the doppler broke my heart. I am so so sorry you had to experience that day. That is just too awful to even imagine. :(

[@kathyferrara4444]

I love watching you heal. I am so happy for you. ❤️❤️❤️ I know it is incredibly hard for you. I appreciate you sharing your journey with me.

[@meridethbehrens150]

Don’t think you should give it another thought about keeping special things for only Kaia! While I’ve not lost a child, I lost my mom in December. My birthday was Wednesday and my daughter made me a clear block she made with resin with flowers in it that were in the floral arrangement from my moms funeral. While at the cemetery a while back, the ribbons with mother, grandmother, and great grandmother from the arrangement on her coffin were in the snow and took I the grandmother one and was so upset because I couldn’t find the Mother one. Turns out daughter had taken it and took I the gold Mother sticker and put it on the floral cube she made me. The grandmother sticker is on my yeti that I use every day. It’s probably weird to other people but for some reason I wanted them and don’t care what anyone thinks about it.

[@Stephinachan13]

I had my daughter in pink with a pink blanket (I don't like pink but I was gifted of lot of girly things) and I STILL had someone say "aww he's so cute". I just said thank you and kept walking - it wasn't worth correcting because let's be honest... they didn't really care they are a stranger whom we likely will never see again. I also had a friend with a boy in blue outfit with trucks (separate occasion) and someone asked "how old is she?... (He's 6 months old) Wow she looks big for her age" 😂 It literally does't matter, you could have a neon sign over the stroller with BABY GIRL/BOY, and someone will still get it wrong. I got a lot of neutral colours when I went shopping for things, and put bows in her hair to make it a bit more 'girly'. And when she got older around 1 year I would hold up options when we shopped. Like 1 pair of light pink sandals with darker pink trim and 1 pair of grey with green sharks, she picked the "boy" pair. I often let her pick out clothes, or when I shop alone I try to pick a variety. Though as an almost 3 year old she is definitely more of a girly girl- she loves bows and dress up, but she does still like dinosaurs, cars, tools, etc too.

[@frictionlessme]

Omg! I'm proud of you. Wow Lil girl that was huge going through her things!! But I'm so glad you considered using those things. That's a great idea. I love that kitty nap sack. Don't go near the doppler.

[@gingerl2995]

I dressed my son in all blue and blue everything… yet everywhere I went they thought he was a girl because he had such long eyelashes. People must’ve been color blind lol. Sending wishes that does not happen to you or you can find a creative way around it. Much love n hugs. Ps I lost a baby girl too truly relate … you’re helping many by sharing. Thank you!

[@michellerock3543]

I absolutely love your videos. Your beautiful precious daughter will never be forgotten. Thank you for sharing her with us. 💕

[@lindawalters4098]

Stefanie everything you say makes complete sense,I so understand what you mean about leaving the apartment,you will always carry your baby Kaia in your ❤️ I love the way your refer to your son as Kaia’s baby brother.🤞 about your potential new home

[@Livingthefreelife]

It makes total sense how you feel lovely ❤️ love all the things you have picked out for them to share 🥰 Fingers and toes crossed for your new house and move 🤞🏻🥰

[@ETylerJC]

Those are the cutest baby things I’ve ever seen! Fingers crossed for the new home!

[@Blndbmbshell]

im proud of you ♥ praying for you and the baby boy, cant wait to see him on here, the kitty is so adorable!

[@Midnight-rj4ed]

You have planned very well for liitle man. Yes, your daughter has personal items and a corner in your new place will look lovely. Most important, she is sharing her loving mom and dad. You two are great parents.

[@Shatarii]

I still have all 6 of my childrens first outfits :) They are mostly all adults now :) But I also have my memory box with bits and pieces for my losses x I think we need to keep little things. xxx

[@cdesjardins1988]

You said most people won't get this...talking about the items for Kaia (I hope I spelt her name correctly) to keep and not really let anyone else wear them. I get it! I don't have any children but I still totally get it! I would do the same exact thing. And also I want to wish you all the luck of you guys being approved for this home! Hope you are doing well love! 🙏❤️

[@susan5301]

Your doing everything exactly right!

[@carolynlandrum668]

It does make sense. You are doing amazing!

[@mrscarter_1212]

The kitty baby items are so adorable 😭❤️

[@McCreaFamilyHomestead]

Can’t wait to find out his name so I can start embroidering things for him. When you move you should get curio cabinet to put all the special keepsakes

[@terryiontownseld6221]

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[@NZ73200]

U r doing amazing ur feelings r totally valid n u got every right to use what u want for baby boy but also u don’t have to use any of it. U n ur hubby do what is best for u two. Love from uk xxxx

[@AmyMiller-wl4dq]

You are so strong and amazing! I love and look forward to all your videos! Luna is just too much cuteness 😍😍😍!!!

[@itsonlyatail]

I really understand, just remember everyone greaves different and in their own way and in their own timeline! Screw everyone. And keep the kitty!

[@karaspencer2288]

Hey congrats on your baby on the way. I am so sorry for your pass loss. Stay strong your doing grate!

[@sandraserafini4351]

You are such a beautiful person with a beautiful heart . Thank you for sharing what must have been hard . Take care.

[@gigiowens7241]

Oh my, the kitty at the end is beautiful! 🐱 Where you said you didn't want your son mistaken for a girl for the way he was dressed had me a bit confused, then you explained. So I get it. When my first son little I had him dressed like a boy 100%, I had people say to me she is so cute. The reason wasn't how my sweetie was dressed. I'm sure no one even noticed what he had on it was simply his beautiful blue eyes, long curly eye lashes and his maybe a bit long curly hair. I didn't bother to say he's a boy. I politely replied with a thank you. I thought well it doesn't matter if the person knew his gender or not they thought my sweet baby was cute. Fingers crossed 🤞 on getting the house. I completely understand why you want to move. Sending ❤️ from north Ga. I should mention my oldest son is 36.

[@kimdrury6184]

Omg I was thinking of a Kaia's corner (Korner)...I have a curio cabinet for my keepsakes. That may be nice because you can display what you want of hers. ♡

[@maraemartinae5772]

What a big step. When pregnant with my rainbow baby, I felt paralyzed with fear and bought nothing. My family had a shower planned for after his birth. When I went into labor I had 2 Sesame Street receiving blankets. Nothing else. My sister gave them to me halfway through my pregnancy and insisted I had to have something.

[@valoriebleier4262]

I completely understand I've had several miscarriages in my lifetime kaya's things are special to you and your husband and nobody should make you think that you're doing wrong by not letting your son use them those were her things there's other things that they can share take care of God bless

[@cathycurtis1218]

Hi! I understand!! My rainbow baby is a girl and I also thought to share some of my son's things with her. I was also shockingly ok UNTIL I put the very first outfit of his on her! I broke down instantly when I had it on her. It was a bitter sweet cry that only someone in our shoes would understand. His theme was dinosaurs. I decided to only let her wear his clothes when staying home and to bed so I wouldn't get upset by someone thinking she was a boy by accident. 🌈 🦕

[@Nakiesrussphynxcattery]

I just love you. Your so Sweet and so Real. It's very refreshing. Thank you for always being honest and real. Thank you for sharing with all of us. Your an incredible woman mom and fur momma ❤️

[@suebelovich3451]

Just a little note if you want to keep the special keepsakes precious please wrap them in pink tissue paper so they won't get yellow over time

[@amys5087]

Cute stuff. I'm an old grandma and enjoyed seeing your items. 💜

[@SimplySiren13]

It's ok, my daughter would be wearing pink frilly clothes with bows in public when she was an infant and people would say "Oh is that a boy?!" So people assume things no matter what you dress them in! Also I have a feety pjs version of that yellow cloud one for my son! I was so obsessed with it that when he grew out of the 0-3 month one I was legitimately upset.. and ended up finding one in a bigger size randomly and bought it immediately 😂

[@melissaw1813]

I have keepsakes for each of my 4 kids that i don’t use between them. They are just theirs. I can only imagine that feeling would be even more heightened if i had a loss.

[@georginaallison9250]

Im rewatching some, some i havent scene, now i know you now, you are a great mum to Kaia, you will be again, so sorry ❤❤❤ xxx

[@smarttechaddict]

It makes perfect sense. I've never lost a child but I have moved to my mums after she passed. Clothing is a hard thing to let go. I've not managed to yet, I've a very full house still. I do have the soft toy my baby uncle had, that was his and never given to his baby sisters. It a treasured possession over 70 years later. Love and positive thoughts.

[@StefanieandKameron]

It's so true. My grandmother had left me her sweaters (she loved sweaters) and when she died... there was a battle over the estate and items within and someone in the family took all the clothes so I never got the sweaters. It still bothers me 21 years later! I do have some of her jewelry, which was also willed to me.... so at least I have that part of my grandma still ❤️

[@nataliemadrigal899]

I just love your kitties. Your baby Kia 👶 was very beautiful and I bet your son will look like his Dad. 👋

[@aliciak6753]

You are going to be such a great mom for your little man...easy on yourself please...

[@user-zq7gl9tx3y]

Keep that stuff for her ! You are not a hoarder ! I watched my sister lose a child & there is no wrong way to grieve ! Do what you need to .

[@usacrochetpodcastgloria6132]

Such a cute kitty. I hope y'all have a great day

[@wendyrumbel4354]

I’m really hoping you get the house for all that you’ve been through you deserve it and more, your life is going to be better than you know I’m so happy for you and Kamron Your in my prayers.

[@inesar1993]

If I may... I didn't lose a baby and I still can understand and feel your pain. Seriously, I hope you don't take offense on this, because I really do. Everytime you say you wanna keep her things, I feel you in a deep level. It happened to me with a lot of loses, but specially with my cat, who was and will ever be my furr baby, I know I can't personally feel your pain and me losing my cat is another story but I still grieve (and forever will) and I think it's okay to let me feel that kind of waves of grief. It took me SEVEN years to adopt a new kitty because I felt like I was replacing her with this new adoption. A lot of therapy since then, and specially the last one that I'm currently doing, helped me a lot. Then I realized, when I finally took this baby to my life, that she was irreplaceable, and showed me that my heart is able to grow to let more fur babies and people in without letting go the love I felt and I will always feel for those who I loved and loved me back and watch me over from another side. Love is an amazing amazing force. I don't know what it is to lose a child and I hope I never know that but I can feel your pain and also I can feel your love. And I'm sure Kaia do too And to regards to my story, for those haters who say "it's just a cat, just get another one" at the minute yours passes away, go f*** yourselves. You don't even know what love or pain is. I share this with you not because I wanna "minimize" your grieving, but also because you may understand better than other people because you clearly love cats and you're an amazing person and cat mom and super super brave. You survive everyday to this and you become stronger everyday and that makes you a better person everyday. Just know you are not alone here. Despite the hateful comments, despite people who clearly don't have a life or don't know how to use it, despite those comments who sadly sometimes get to you, you're not alone. And I'm not the only one, you have a lot of support here! We may ever not know personally what is like being through this and it would be offensive to pretend that we do, because mostly of us don't. But we share a lot of things, a lot of sad things and a lot of broken hearts that can support each other. Because being human alone is hard, being human and go through this is incredible brave. And to be like you, to not let people who like hate get to you and make you like them, and to express your grief healthy and speak out makes you unique. Makes you a truly human being with humanity in her veins. So thank you, Stefanie. And thanks to you too Kameron. And to your nine furr babies you're living with. They are so so cute! A lot of hugs and support and love from Uruguay.

[@O.Sea.D]

So exciting! Baby kairen 💙👑

[@crystalfreeze4858]

I love watching your videos and I can't wait to watch your belly grow and see little man for the first time. U guys are great and u are going to be great parents.

[@marienyberg4736]

Like your vlog so much! So sorry for your loss of your babygirl ❤ But so happy for you that a babyboy is on his way ❤❤❤ As far as I know and understand our souls decide if we want to come to the world or not. Lost a babytwin to my son early in pregnancy many years ago. I know now his or her soul did not want to come for earth adventure but my son said ok, I will come. To come to this world is not an easy task as we all know and some souls decide to leave early and some later. We need to trust God in heaven! He makes no mistakes even if it is sooooo painful for us living earthlife 😥❤😥. Have read that: not a leaf falls without Gods will ❤

[@misserrricka]

I hope you guys get the house!