I TRANSITIONED... NOW WHAT?? - coming to terms with life as a trans person

[@KrazeeKrab]

Bro, you are really wise and know yourself so well! And at only 19! It took me a lot longer to get to the points you‘re at already

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@KrazeeKrab Thank you! Totally fine if you don't have everything figured out at my age, I guess people are getting the access to the terminology from an earlier age, so they are able to put their experience into words much earlier!

[@KrazeeKrab]

@@TheQueerVikingBro oh thank you! I wasn’t even talking about gender though, I just meant your general understanding of yourself and how accepting you are of who you are (: I‘m not trans but I could still relate to taking forever to understand & accept what and who you’re like (I am also neurodivergent though 😬). However, reading your comment again, maybe you‘re not exclusively talking about gender either hahaha. Anyway, keep going and good luck on your journey (:

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@KrazeeKrab yes, my comment could absolutely be applied to different things as well, including neurodivergency! So many people share their experiences online which both makes it more easily accessible and makes it more reassuring for (young) people that they are not alone in their struggles! (I do also come from a highly educated household so I guess I have always been expected to be intelligent and mature 😅)

[@juanitopantuflapantufla2605]

hihi, trans girl here I normally don't comment but this is a nice video and wow, there's so much hate in the comments (probs best to block and ignore them) I really liked this video, not usually my style of video, but it's nice hearing other's people's perspectives loved the vibes of the video, definitely made me think about a few things different and like others commented, your hair looks GREAT boss : D

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

I'm so glad you enjoyed it! Yeah, unfortunately hate comments are a given if you decide to be open about being trans online, honestly this video is not even doing that bad in that regard 😭

[@_sshh_]

Your the first and probably only person ive seeen who suits a mullet lol looks good

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Lmaoo thanks, what an honour 😅

[@_sshh_]

Haha your welcome it looks great 🤗

[@chespinmcgreen3682]

I totally get that being unable to move forward or do anything in life because you feel too uncomfortable, I have that issue at 24 but things are coming along slowly but surely. I'm at that point now where people in public are super confused about what exactly I am and it's kind of amusing, but also a hopeful sign that progress is finally being made.

[@fake_sk8r200]

love your hair so much dude, im working on growing mine out as a transman aswell

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@fake_sk8r200 ahh thank you! Remember to stick to your goal, because I know how tempting it is to cut it all off sometimes hahah

[@fake_sk8r200]

@@TheQueerVikingBro i'm very dedicated lmao!

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

That's awesome! Keep going my man!

[@vahlhallan]

I hope you can find your happiness and figure out who you are now. Your Style is already so cool and i bet it will only get better ! Honstly you are one of the few people where a mullet looks really fitting. Stay strong and dont let anyone get you down.

[@AshtonBreadserk]

Bro you look majestic

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Omg thank you ❤️

[@MM-km1vl]

Oh damn Dawid! I loooove the new haircut! You look so goodd!! ❤😮

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Thank you so much! I really like it too ❤️

[@mariagloria5775]

You look fantastic with a mullet mate!!

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Thank you! I'm glad you like it!

[@inlovewithcentipedes]

dawid! życzę dużo szczęścia! pierwszy raz ciebie oglądam, gdy usłyszałem twe imię to odrazu się zacząłem zastanawiać, czy może jesteś z polski. szczerze mówiąc, jestem w szoku! dość mało mamy tutaj poganinów.. też jestem trans chłopem ale mam dopiero 15 lat i no cóż.......... X_X mądrze gadasz, fajnie się ogląda, leci sub

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Dzięki! Oczywiście że jestem z Polski :) Niestety mam wrażenie że pogaństwo to nadal wielkie tabu, i ludzie w ogóle nie chcą o tym mówić ani słyszeć. A szkoda, bo bardzo ciekawa jest nasza przedchrześcijańska historia... Jak masz 15 lat to jeszcze całe życie przed tobą. Mam nadzieję że upłynie ci jak najlepiej. Nie mieszkam w Polsce więc nie jestem zupełnie na bieżąco jeśli chodzi o możliwości dla osób trans, ale podejrzewam że teraz zacznie być trochę lepiej z nowym mniej prawicowym rządem 😅 trzymaj się zdrowo! Dzięki za suba :)

[@obi666]

so this is how people who hate on me look like

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@obi666 I don’t know you, why would I hate you?

[@obi666]

@TheQueerVikingBro not directly you, but ppl like you

[@connor5669]

I'm at a point in my transition where I've embraced my butchness (as a trans woman). And it really helped me integrate my boy/tomboy childhood. Made me realize I've been pretty much on the money

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Oh that's amazing! And if anyone asks you why you present butch you can say that you've already been that way since childhood 😅 But in all seriousness, I'm happy for you that you've been able to accept your present and with that also made sense of your past. Sounds great!

[@WolfODonnelfan]

The only problem I have within the trans community are the people that wants others to transition against their own choice. My own aunt tried to manipulate both myself and my family that I wanted to transition from a boy to a girl when I was younger because I had lots of very feminine traits. Hell, I still have a bunch of feminine traits and most of my friends are in fact women, but I just understood at an early age that there is a difference between wanting to transition and being femme/butch. There is nothing wrong with being a guy and being feminine or being a girl and being masculine, and if someone tries to manipulate anyone to transition simply because they have either of these traits - then they are viewed worse than Hitler/Judas/Stalin/Quisling in my book.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@WolfODonnelfan yeah manipulating people into making choices they do not want to make is just bad in general. Unfortunately some people are like that...

[@jan_Masewin]

@@WolfODonnelfan I'm really sorry to hear :/ it can be so confusing finding out about yourself even without other people making it much harder

[@kimsherlock8969]

Age will give you perspective Growing old isn't easygoing transition 😕 from young to old age is transition to your new body and face . A face you may not know as you. Goodluck as this is the most difficult process of life . Moving towards the winds of time and death

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

For sure, but I'm not scared of changing, of aging. I already look much older than I used to, because I am older. It's a natural part of life, and I will not try to deny or stop it when the time comes :)

[@HLBear]

I've not met anyone who ended their transition the same way they imagined. Priorities and expectations change along with their physical presentation. It is such a powerful process, and I honor their choices. I honor yours. 😊

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Of course. Because people also just grow up and mature. If they set themselves specific goals time and time again, of course they will end up somewhere else than they originally anticipated. But if instead they are already open to changes in their goals, needs, expectations and environment, I think that could make it less hard to acknowledge if, for example, you made a decision that you perhaps regret now. Does that make sense? Like it's less disappointing to reach a specific goal if you can acknowledge that that is not your goal anymore!

[@kimsherlock8969]

One day you wil, be an old fart and no one will recognise you as vibrant and alive because Everyone ages into their trud character Hahaha Hahaha 😆

[@fulicious2991]

Damn! You're 19? I do envy you as a 21 year old who found out I was trans only recently and am quite scared of regretting a transition due to all the fear mongering, but I do appreciate these sorts of videos by fellow queers that give me strength to be myself ❤ (PS. Fellow pagan? 👀)

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

You know, you can never win with the fearmongering. When you know you're trans at a young age, it's "you're too young to make such decisions", but when you realize it later, it's "well why didn't you come out earlier?". Remember everyone's journey is different, and 21 is still pretty young, you still have your whole life to figure stuff out ❤️ And always nice to see fellow pagans!!

[@NameGoesHere988]

I would recommend going to get professional help that can diagnose you with things like gender dysphoria.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@NameGoesHere988 unfortunately not everyone can access that type of care, and it's getting more and more difficult as countries are turning transphobic while waiting lists are getting longer... but I agree, it is definitely helpful to talk to a professional about your feelings and have someone reassure you that those feelings are valid and prepare you for a potential medical transition :)

[@NameGoesHere988]

@@TheQueerVikingBro Yeah, access to it is a problem.

[@AmericanAmy]

Your person is your soul.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

That is definitely a good way to put it. Although not everyone believes in the concept of a soul, something along those lines definitely makes a lot of sense when trying to look for continuity throughout your entire existence :)

[@anoNEMOs]

What! You pass really well. I've watched some of your videos and it didn't even occur to me that you could be trans. (I thought you're just a gay or bi cis guy, because of the name of the channel)

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Ahh, thank you! I guess it's because I started hormones pretty early and never really had any extremely feminine features 😅 but what you're saying is exactly the reason why my channel is named "queerpagan" and not "transpagan" or something, I want to cater to a wider queer audience and my existence is more than just being trans :)

[@inlovewithcentipedes]

lmao same

[@fairy12324]

Great mimdset wish you all the sucess on your channel and personal life ❤🎉​@@TheQueerVikingBro

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@fairy12324 thanks 🖤

[@nugget6635]

We are always changing. We are never the same person. But we are what I call "Continued Existence" so there is something people are born with that I called "Original Configuration" the original config of a human has nothing to do with gender because it comes to life before the person even learns about gender from society, BEFORE an identity is properly developed. People are born with this OG Config. It took me YEARS to go back to it. Now that I recovered my original configuration I realised that it is Anger. I was born to be an angry person ever since the beginning. It's in my soul sort of speaking... Anger is at the very core of my being, it is therefore my OG Config and an essence that surpasses even my own gender.

[@Yektpsigra]

Did the allied master computer type this

[@KawaiiKelly]

your fish earrings are super cool!! and i love your mullet :-) wish i could have one as awesome as yours

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@KawaiiKelly aa thank you!!! I really like my earrings and hair too! I am grateful to have a friend doing a hairdresser training :)

[@HauntedLectro]

I just wanted to let you know you look absolutely awesome man! Where did you get the earrings? :0

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Thank you! I'm guessing you mean my fishbone ones? I got them at a giftshop in Amsterdam (just the hangers, I attached them to tunnels I already had XD)

[@aotctd]

What is all this styled like how we grew up ?

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@aotctd what do you mean by "all this" and who is "we" ?

[@Q-Therapy]

Nice wallpaper. Skoll!

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Oh it's not a wallpaper, I painted that myself :) but thanks!!

[@shweefranglais7900]

Great advice.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@shweefranglais7900 I’m glad I could be of help :)

[@thebillroku]

poland mentioned!! świetnie wyglądasz gostek

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Dzięki!!!

[@SusanWillan]

Hi from Australia i was born male and found out i was Tran's at 58 i took HRT for 6 years but it caused big problems with my body and interacted with other medications I take so iv stopped my birth name is David

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

I can imagine transitioning at that age must be difficult. I'm sorry to hear that it didn't work out for you, but still kudos for discovering yourself at that age! I hope you can continue living your life at peace with your identity :)

[@maxjarvela4255]

The amount of transphobia in the comments is staggering, people need to grow up, educate themselves and mind their own business! I support you and feel for you, wish you the best

[@piercetheluca]

i really appreciate this video, coming across it and watching it was a blessing!

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@piercetheluca I’m so glad you liked it! Thank you 🙏

[@PodcastEgzystencjalny]

Po 5 sekundach wiedziałem że jesteś Polakiem

[@piercetheluca]

u look so good. i love ur style so much

[@awakened3651]

You are going to be a far different person at 30 than you were at 19 too. But it's already too late. Why do these adolescent videos always sound like you're trying to convince yourselves.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@awakened3651 You're just looking for signs that someone is convincing themselves. I am not convincing anyone of anything. You can take away from a video like this whatever you want, that doesn't make it true!

[@KandisXxx]

Maybe they just crave understanding like we all do?

[@dakota-sessions]

NO NO NO NO!!!!! (literally crying)

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@dakota-sessions maybe seek help if someone being happy makes you cry 😅

[@professionalboycottservice7872]

Why wear those weird ass earring where I can see through them?

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@professionalboycottservice7872 yeah that's kinda the whole point of them

[@professionalboycottservice7872]

@@TheQueerVikingBro African tribes popularize them. Not really white people thing.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Not really, they have been found in other cultures as well. If you look at depictions of Buddha you'll see that he is depicted with stretched earlobes. And, are you saying that because something is of African origin, that makes it bad? You know what that's called? Racism! Hope that helps :)

[@ByRandomChance]

Why are you such a bully? Not everyone is just like you. He likes his earrings, that’s why he has them.

[@derekandlisaarmstrong4194]

What defines you as a man that you felt limited to being the actual woman you are?

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

How do I even respond to such a stupid comment omg. Imagine being this delusional. I have never been a woman. A woman is an adult human female, which is something that I, both legally, physically and identity-wise am not. Hope that helps!

[@derekandlisaarmstrong4194]

How is this stupid when you are the one altering your body to fit an ideal you were not born into? What exactly is a female then?

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Isn't everyone? people are born naked, nearly hairless, wet, screaming babies. I'm sure we all grow out of that, right? We are not born into being "men" or "women". Our life trajectories are chosen for us by socially established norms which depend on our genitals. Don't you think that's a bit weird? I am not trying to fit into any ideal. That is quite literally what being queer means. While I acknowledge that socially established gender norms can be helpful for people who want to function in a heteronormative world (eg. be a man, marry a woman or vice versa). This does not apply to me and other trans/queer individuals. Why would I force myself to be something I'm not?

[@NameGoesHere988]

@@TheQueerVikingBro I will say this; I personally believe you are female, you may look and live like a man but that doesn't make you one. However, because you transitioned and do look and live a male you will be percieved as one by society. That's my thoughts. Nothing wrong with it and nothing wrong with being trans if it is right for the person, everything is taken into consideration and they've been diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria. Good luck on your journey.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@NameGoesHere988 I am confused by your way of thinking... how can you both imply you accept trans people and the decision to medically transition, say I am perceived as a man in society, and yet on the other hand say you personally believe I'm female? That does not make any sense. You either respect a trans person's identity or you don't. I am not female, and your personal belief is honestly not really relevant in all this. My appearance and legal documents would say otherwise. Don't take this the wrong way, I do believe you're trying your best to understand, but you cannot respect trans individuals whilst simultaneously believing they are not the gender they say they are :)

[@professionalboycottservice7872]

I'd just like to know, you'll still need gynecologist because your internal parts are still female. Just like how transwomen are still male and will need prostate exam!

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@professionalboycottservice7872 ok, and? Is that somehow supposed to make me detransition or what? Actually, being on testosterone causes trans men to develop prostate tissue, meaning that even we should at some point get checked for that. Being trans is not an easy process, but that does not mean people should not be provided with the care that they need based on their bodyparts. A gynaecologist is not going to say "I can't help you because you're a man". A gynaecologist will provide service to anyone with the genitals that they have expertise on. I don't understand why you think that's some kind of "gotcha" moment.

[@professionalboycottservice7872]

@@TheQueerVikingBro What "gotcha" were you talking about? There is none. You were born female and your chromosomes are XXY, not XY. You still need gynecologist for female internal organs issues just like how a male with XY chromosomes need a prostate exam to screen cancer. Gynecologist for female parts, urologist for male parts. You just have cosmetic surgery and hormone therapy but your bone structure and pelvis size will always be female. Do not pervert science.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

XXY chromosomes would make someone intersex. When you try to be bigoted, at least be factually correct XD. Also, you realize that you can... remove... internal organs... right?

[@Yektpsigra]

I’m sure he knows lmao he seems perfectly capable 💀

[@ByRandomChance]

Why is it always about genitals with you cis people? That’s so creepy and invasive. Please open your mind and find something else to define yourself other than pleasure organs.

[@Danuxsy]

you destroyed your own body for a delusion bruh...

[@schleimhafer3990]

You are distracted with a meaningless culture war, you shouldn't look down on people, transpeople are more like you than those billionaires and politicians, who tell you it's a problem when people life live how they want to life.

[@awakened3651]

So, how about talking about your relationship with your parents and family from before the time you started making 'gender' demands through them being forced to stand back and watch as you made permanent cosmetic medical changes to your forever female body. The parents who knew their child had a developmental delay of autism yet could not protect that child from herself. This video that focuses solely on 'me me me' as so many others of the same age and sex do, completely ignores that they do not exist in a vacuum and that their choices and behaviors absolutely affect those who love them. They so often reject the love of families, absorbed in their own narcissistic delusions.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@awakened3651 Surprisingly, my parents and further family actually are not psychopats and accept their children for who they are!

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@awakened3651 And obviously this video focuses on me? It's my video, talking about my experience. That's kinda the point of a personal blog on social media. Talking about your own experience lets someone explain themselves the best they can, and can help others feel represented because they relate. Everyone's experience is different, why should I generalize?

[@awakened3651]

@@TheQueerVikingBro It's called radical acceptance on your parent's part. You admit in your earlier video 'pre-transition' that your parents were not 'supportive' when you 'came out' as a young teen with autism and a typically comorbid serious eating disorder. And even the 'clinic' you went to stalled by claiming they put you on the 'list'. Because autism is so demanding and hyper focused on special interests while also disconnected from the physical self, and the world now facilitates every 'trans' demand, parents have no choice but to stand back and watch their beloved child be facilitated in their self destruction. No, your parents are not psychopaths, they are devastated heroes who have chosen to extend their love and connection to their child, regardless of whatever external costume that child is hiding behind. Guaranteed having to stand back in silence and watch has taken years off their lives.

[@awakened3651]

@@TheQueerVikingBro Narcissism will do that. Make a new and separate video discussing your perspective of the impact your autism and choices have had on your family relationships throughout your life. Explain yourself in that context in a personal blog on social media. Be specific to yourself, don't generalize. You could even do a video with your parents discussing the impacts on your family including their perspective. No one is raised in a vacuum.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

You know what's narcissistic? Thinking you personally have some kind of authority on a stranger on the internet, and that your words would somehow impact their actions and their content. Get a better hobby.

[@awakened3651]

Watching these videos is the most effective form of birth control ever.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@awakened3651 good. Don't have children.

[@abraxas9879]

@@TheQueerVikingBro lmao

[@nimblefur1626]

help why are you so obsessed with a random trans person? get a life

[@Lindsay_Quo_Vadis]

@@nimblefur1626 It is a video on the Internet. This is called a "comments section." I might ask you in turn, "Why are you so obsessed with a random comment?" We're all getting closer to death while wasting our time looking at screens. In that the video's author, "awakened," you, and I are all the same - screwed by technological addiction.

[@nimblefur1626]

@@Lindsay_Quo_Vadis i am not obsessed. i am only pointing out the fact that this commenter clearly has an unhealthy level of interest, as they wrote so many comments here. also... awakened me? what...?

[@eagle5818]

Turn to Christ. This is not you.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@eagle5818 it is, in fact, me! I am afraid Jesus will not really help here, you can be trans and Christian, Jesus supposedly loves everyone.

[@eagle5818]

@ He loves everyone but he does not love the sin and when he comes back everyone will be judged for their sins. Being trans and Christian is serving 2 masters, repent and believe the gospels.

[@AmericanDaigo]

@@eagle5818I prayed to Jesus to transform me to female. And then my body is undergoing physical changes supernaturally without any medical assistance. Pelvic bones shifted, breasts growing, prostate no longer the same, skin softening, facial hair slowly decreasing, bladder changes, feminization of face, hourglass waist and hips etcetc. By the power of the Holy Spirit. My body is continuing to change and grow breasts, and I will get complete female reproductive system for God will finish the work He has began until the day of Christ or until I get called home. This started after I learned that the word of God never condemned LGBT in the original languages and cultural context. (English bibles need serious work on translation accuracy regarding this topic.) This explains why so many believers and entire churches and denominations are becoming accepting. And a lot of my dysphoria has been relieved and I’m being set free because Jesus is doing it, because Jesus loves to set people free. My relationship with the Lord and my witness to the world has been blessed and people been more open and listening to hearing about Messiah because I don’t include bigotry. You can debate and preach all you want, it will never undo the powerful physical changes I got by the Holy Spirit, I cannot deny it. God is okay with trans people, this miracle backs that up, and my confession that Jesus is the Son of God backs that up.

[@jeremywright9511]

@@eagle5818 Too bad it is a fairytale meant to soften the fear of our inevitable demise.

[@eagle5818]

@@jeremywright9511 God bless you.

[@professionalboycottservice7872]

Nobody chose to be autistic. Autistic people are born, not made. There was a comment here about "coming out as an autistic", which is stupid because autism is not something one can just come in and out of.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@professionalboycottservice7872 well, you can chose not to be open about being autistic and then decide to "come out", e.g tell other people. But it's definitely a different type of coming out!

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@professionalboycottservice7872 and you do not "choose" to be other things either, like being any part of the lgbtq community. Coming out as part of that can be a choice, but it gets taken away from people who get outed.

[@tekgid433]

God loves you! He will never stop!

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Uhh that's nice of him I guess 👍

[@cmin3783]

whenever ppl say that to lgbtq ppl unprompted it just feels like a backhanded way of calling them sinners

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@cmin3783 I know, it's a weird comment to make towards anyone tbh. But not every religious person has malicious intents, so I would like to give them the benefit of the doubt 😅😭

[@cmin3783]

@@TheQueerVikingBro yeah ofc a lot of them mean well, but even then it still feels like it comes from a place of hate a lot of the time

[@jan_Masewin]

@@TheQueerVikingBro lets hope so 🤷‍♀

[@brysoncherry9884]

Get a job narcissist

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

What 💀 I literally made this video to help others, how is that narcissistic 🤣

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

Also, I see you edited your comment. I have a job? I'm not sure how this is relevant to this video?

[@Shawnee_Rose]

​@queerpagan It is commonly those who are narcissists who go around calling people narcissists. I think you did a wonderful job just being you and expressing yourself and your lived experiences in ways that would make people (who actually have a functioning conscience and empathy) see you as the person you are instead of some boogeyman created out of theocratic authoritarianism and it's proponents' political agendas. It always amazes me that there are those who think accepting the very existence of LGBT people is an OPTION for them. The notion is absolutely absurd and radical as well as immoral even by Christian standards. You continue to be yourself unapologetically and seek happiness in any form that suits you and brings no harm to others.

[@TheQueerVikingBro]

@@Shawnee_Rose thank you for your positivity! "Functioning conscience and empathy" is likely what people who decide to comment things like this lack. They assume that being queer, because it is a question of "identity", e.g, personal, is inherently narcissistic. Which it obviously is not. As you said, perhaps Christians should finally start practicing what they preach and love their neighbor unconditionally.

[@NameGoesHere988]

Being trans and narcissism is different. If someone is actually trans and deals with Dysphoria and goes the route of gender transition to help eleviate it, it doesn't mean that they are a narcissist.