I've Spent My Entire Life Avoiding This!

[@Schneebs]

This feeling appeared when I was 5 or 6, an empty pit in my stomach. It gave me panic attacks and everyone was very concerned about the fact I could not describe why or really what the fear was about. My mom gave me tummy drops that were just sugar water I know now but it made me forget the feeling for a time.

[@danamarie7993]

The perception has shifted. There is a peaceful comfort that has always been here, but Dana got in the way of being able to notice this. Relaxed, peaceful, no worries, love. 💖

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Beautiful.

[@madalynmoth4263]

I’m very grateful, Angelo ❤️

[@DenaA-d5i]

Holy moly this is exactly where I’m at

[@Nothing_That_Is_Everything]

Really hit the mark here. Yes, the mind scares itself when trying to comprehend emptiness. It can't know anything about true nature. Mind weaves it’s empty dreams, but what I am is untouched.

[@billbadiha9836]

When you step into the void it becomes clear there was no void, there is just what is not created by thought so nothing changes only delusion falls away.

[@marianoelerosa4604]

Very helpful, you directed me to the knot of my identity. A not pleasent feeling, like a nausea, very familiar sensation.

[@ravenofthewild]

Absolutely been up against this disorientation and definitely experiencing the mind fighting letting go. Synchronicity ❤

[@jamwall1]

Every so often I'll feel something from the heart. It's really mysterious and something that the mind can only point to but never adequately describe because there is no language or mental way of understanding it.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

I feel you

[@DenaA-d5i]

I want this to go on and on, can’t hear enough about this❤

[@rbecerramiami]

That arrow found its mark here. Just whoa, dog. Thank you.

[@ptanji]

so glad this is recorded so I can stop and start the video throughout. helped me process what you are saying. Mind blown!

[@carriesewell3460]

This totally landed. You did a great job giving voice to that feeling/knowing I could never describe to my teachers in the past. I never felt fear, maybe more a curiosity about it. It doesn’t feel separate from anything and always there.

[@Schneebs]

I've spent my whole life avoiding the most despicable thing in creation, the onion 😅

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

😂

[@maryrosemitchell9986]

“When nothing is done nothing is left undone “ -The Dao

[@jimvega4749]

Great talk Angelo, it's synchronicity for me!

[@rationalmystic5]

Festival time(diwali) in mumbai is way different than Christmas in the west. The streets are filled with loud fireworks both small and big. Heavy smoke and lots of laughter(not all of it real). Small fights between youngsters as to who will burst which fireworks where. An overdrive of religiosity among the old with reading of mantras and manuscripts. Distribution of sweets galore. All diet plans are out of the window. Amid all the chaos and bustle of the city it is hard to be centred and calm. Hence this time I just went with the flow and felt all the different energies. Completely exhausted but finally calm and clear. I would say I have regressed in my spiritual journey but I know that that's just another interpretation. The it has been there all the time and steady dips into its waters have sustained me even when my speech was flustered and hands sweaty. Thank you angelo. Wish you well.🎉

[@MikeEby-eu1qf]

Top 3 fav videos you've done man. Like candy for my mind. :)

[@neighborhoodkids2000]

I just love you man, you're awesome, just thank ya!

[@OohsAndAhsBros]

This is such a direct pointer

[@pandabear4923]

avoid a void

[@thetemplelaboratory]

I'm there, neck deep. I'll have to rewatch this later after I've calmed down some more I dont think I caught that all.

[@iancurzon255]

perfect timing cheers Angelo ❤

[@nickyjenkins6712]

This is where I am at right now and ‘most’ of this landed (the part I’m not too busy trying to conceptualise 🤦‍♀️😅) Thank you 🙏

[@DenaA-d5i]

And also, the void found this body a few times, it was very disorienting

[@Omgodspeed]

holy crap. my life gave me the perfectly timed, moment to hear this video from you. i Hear what your angelo is saying! 😅 i get what you mean. your words make sense. i’m in awe i just want to write in the comments and share how grateful i am that you are SO articulate to convey whatever it is here you are ‘pointing’ to. (there are actually no words) i got it. i get you. -oh my god speed- your intention here landed. -it landed with this little fragment 🤯

[@peacelilly739]

Thank you.

[@marknathanson6532]

Every once in a while I'll be sitting, maybe meditating or dozing off and I will start to enter something and immediately react to avoid this thing/space. It's so automatic.I wonder what's there to avoid?

[@PSOLDE]

That Was helpful, that video there

[@jdubluffy1959]

Recently I was meditating for an hour and about 20 minutes in I started to feel this exact sensation. I felt thrown straight into a loop, my mind felt unfocused, ungrounded. I wanted to leave immediately and it felt visceral and it was very confusing. But I kept trying to feel it over and over though it was quite tough. But yes my entire life is centered around not feeling this

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

🙏

[@henrike34]

I love you ❤

[@onimusha13]

It's an interesting synchronicity that for the past few days I've been in the contact with this intense emptiness and void, and that you're releasing a video about this only to have it in my recommendations. After sitting in it without compromises it's not so bad. I'm really glad for your channel. It's a rare gift to be so concise and clear in your message, while carrying the deepest truths - without the usual mumbo-jumbo about ascensions, crystals and all of the esoteric, quasi-spiritual stuff. Not that it's bad, but at least I feel that it's not going deep enough into the real thing. And that many times it serves as a cope out for the mind to live in some fantastical stories, rather than the simplicity of the now. But point on point, thank you.

[@HP-is-here]

Yes yes yes, I know exactly what you’re talking about. I’ve never heard anyone talk about it, or maybe didn’t understand. For me, it was broadly this sense of “being out of it” but that’s not quite right. It was a feeling that I associated with being sick or tired or having brain fog, but then there was always some sort of clarity that would like pop out of it (I realize this makes no sense). My point is, I 100% knew that I had been avoiding the sensation but at the time, it felt like it had NOTHING to do with awakening or spirituality. But then it was so obvious afterwards 🤣

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Very well said, I can relate. I love how everyone can say this a little differently due to their specific conditions, yet the insight is non-personal 😍🌱🍂

[@AtomkeySinclair]

The ineffable void = an eternally never-presented state of everlasting readiness. It feels like a subtly factor of conversation we overlook. As if you have said something, and someone else in the other room was listening, and now it is their turn to reply, and you are waiting. That feeling right then… The readiness to receive becomes simultaneously the sender, but in the subtle experience of both states of readiness; and you are ready about everything and nothing in the same moment. You are time. It is the sensation of knowing from the foundation. As time, you hold all of the ego’s experience at once. You gaze at the moment an action and emotion came together to form causality that contributed to a thread of experience in your soul. It became a record of what you previewed to be the past. In this new position you see everything component by component for what it is. All is equal, and instead you perceive the scale of alignment upon which everything resides. Up and down are elevation, left and right are direction, and so on… there is no bias for anything - be it emotion or action which create experience. There is the void. This is why there is a knowing there is no judgment after death of the body. We know, because we also see language for the component by component illusion that it is as well. For any attempt to use a tool of the matrix to destroy the matrix means the matrix would have to be very fragile, or not exist at all. We can all go home now. Non-duality is an illusion :)

[@youarewhatyourelookingfor4496]

Wha?

[@mariaschonfeld2709]

So helpful. ❤️

[@adamrosefire]

I gave up figuring out this feeling a while ago, yet it still clings and is very painful. Inquiry at this point would mostly be a defense against feeling. Just gotta live now, knowing that I have no control over the feeling, yet also knowing that it’s harmless.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

yes and it is possible to enter the feeling more fully... turns out to be kind of awesome

[@life13525]

as always ...great job in conveying edgy ideas

[@chinchilla_462]

🐸🍷

[@pkrey1]

Like trying to build the physical form of an Escher print. :)

[@EternalBeingOfficial]

I've faced this void/centerlesness, on THC. All of a sudden in the stream of experience the unreality of the psychological self became obvious. It was the most intense 'awe/oh my God/holy shit' feeling in my life. Also the integration of the experience was super confusing, all I could find online was Depersonalisation/Derealization disorder, until after about 3 years I stumbled upon Eckhart Tolle and consequently non-duality. Anyways, thank you :)

[@curb2ivanic414]

I have an interesting reaction (feeling?) to this. Part of me feels like I don’t understand it at all yet another part totally understands it. (Even writing this feels inaccurate as there don’t seem to be words to truly describe the sensation.)

[@simbarules777]

There are some complex aspects which one could take in account when lingering upon a path towards self realisation. The main issue is the fact that our mental programming here on earth comes along with a bunch of malware which is very hard to uninstall or discard from. Because of this our perception of what is unfolding in our live together with our personal bandwidth of reality, can be summed up as being extremely narrow. In order to facilitate a transition from the 3rd into the 5th dimension one might or most probably will end up inside a mental washing machine. To encounter moments of fear, joy, sadness, guilt, remorse, shame, unworthiness, conflicting thoughts, craziness and euphoria are just few of many emotions one might experience whilst undergoing this cycle inside the washing machine. The purpose of this cycle is to rewire one's brain, meaning to get the brain ready for what's about to unfold on a later stage. Another purpose is to try and dismantle the malware inside one's mindset, this is the tricky part because our ego doesn't like to be messed around with, therefore will put up a fight in order to protect it's power and control. Who is in charge of what is happening during this cycle inside the washing machine? You are doing this yourself, but not from withing your body vehicle, rather from beyond the illusion which you are trying to breach to set yourself free. To tap into other frequencies is key to get insights or even to experience a shift in consciousness. To experience an insight or shift in consciousness doesn't mean you are there yet, lol, These things occur when your brain and mind are engaging to the stimuli it receives when tapping into other frequencies. The more stimuli, the more your ego will freak out and become a nasty annoying presence to deal with, lol, ❤

[@tom_see]

Very helpful

[@PSOLDE]

Asking you Angelo, or if you've spoken about this with other people in similar prolonged awareness, do you still identify with 'Angelo' as well as "[name/label/etc. to describe that bigger larger thing]" or is that 'small self" gone yet you're aware there's once was that personality who believed itself separate?

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Questions of identity become exceedingly uninteresting 😂 So I don't want to invalidate your curiosity, rather I want to suggest directing it at your immediate experience rather than trying to have a conceptual framework for my experience :))

[@PSOLDE]

@@SimplyAlwaysAwake thanks :) I can get that. Other existence/perception seems hard to know when I'm still on 'this side'. I'll keep at it 🙏🏼

[@solid_snek]

To be frank, the more I ponder about this, the more I arrive at absolute nihilism. That, in itself, is of course just a thought, but where too go from there? Should there even be a where? It seems clear however, that the head meat hardware is woefully insufficient to even process such existential concepts.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

@@solid_snek this is one of the many reasons that pondering isn’t recommended in regards to realization.

[@solid_snek]

@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I really wish I could grasp that, but it seems I'm limited to thought as a medium. Like trying to explain the concept of colour, to a blind person.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

@ stop trying to explain it to yourself. I’m being serious. Those thoughts are just reflecting one another. There is no you in it. It’s a feeling being taken to be reality. Stop stirring the pot with thoughts and just rest as the space where thinking seeks to occur

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

@ it’s far closer than you realize

[@solid_snek]

​@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Maybe you are right, It is sort of relaxing to try and look at the present situation just as if I was an observer. Is it supposed to start feeling like something specific though?

[@chinchilla_462]

There is only one place for a leaf to land

[@daniilfeoktistov9492]

is what you refer to as “consciousness” separable from awareness?

[@yasminel-hakim4348]

reminds me of the untouchable point on zDogg’s chest or where it was.

[@jacquelinesavageau]

Can you make another video on this?❤

[@christysperling744]

Ah yes, the inherent ache of existence!

[@witchitachick]

So what should we be doing? Too much jargon what are you attempting to communicate? Unconditional energy. Not fear, moreover TERROR perhaps Mr. VOID

[@christianewoltersmd]

my mind thinks - he can still function somehow, so ....

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Spontaneous functioning of body-mind-universe...

[@LuvBritTV]

There's no loss or gain, there's just an experience... in my mind anyway. Thanks for the video, I see you have 5.2k views and only 356 likes... that says it all for those that could resonate I guess?

[@bryandraughn9830]

Why on earth is my mind completely dedicated to bulshiting me? Why doesn't it just work right? Seriously just curious.

[@dethtrain]

🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

[@DenaA-d5i]

Wait, hold up, what is actually directly occurring? In your opinion❤

[@DenaA-d5i]

I know that’s hard without the narration/narrator/narrative…I know it’s the mystery, but some feeling based words would be so satisfying

[@chinchilla_462]

Does that really matter? One of the beautiful aspects of realization to me is that it does not discriminate, anyone can go and look

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Opinion is too much distance. What is closer than your opinion or evaluation?

[@DenaA-d5i]

@ yes I think I’m looking for a description of Mu, which is like impossible. Must be me holding on

[@alessio7972]

Hey Angelo! Do you recommend reading your book or listening to it?

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

whichever your instinct says is more valuable. Some people seem to process more clearly through reading and some through listening. Could try both and see whether they hit in different ways.

[@alessio7972]

@ thanks!! 😊