I want to live.

Hi guys this is a longer video that goes over some thoughts I've been meaning to elucidate for a while. I'm not sure if this topic is relatable for most, but I just wanted to be completely honest and share my thoughts and experience on this subject of not-really-feeling-like-you're-living, and how that feeling has disappeared for the most part in my life now. This video is just meant to give hope to those who are struggling with the same thing!
Timestamps:
0:00 Intro
1:20 childhood simplicity
2:08 my story
3:58 tunnel analogy
6:15 being meta about living
7:10 attachment to a “dream life”
7:38 finding “sense” in things
12:42 lessons from my gap year
14:25 what changed this year
15:21 closing statements

[@fuwix]

I’m kinda lost rn, becouse in one hand, I’m young, and still have time, but in the other, I have nothing to do, no friends to hang around with, life out of control. Your videos are amazing, love to see genuine talk like this.

[@to_ur_heart]

Yes! I also feel like I don’t have the place, time and space to do all of it. I’ve been depressed for such a long time, I honestly can’t feel anything anymore.

[@fuwix]

@@to_ur_heart I think it heavily depends, cuz I’m only 14 rn and it’s prob just a phase, right?

[@agussswagstar]

​@@fuwix bro i'm 19 and everything without money after 18 (even if rn you are poor too) people treats you like shit... imagine if right now people seem to hate you for no reason well... shit gets more real after 18 i'm going to kill myself i can't get a job and i haven't ate nothing in 4 days

[@beatrizzneves]

Hi, reading your coment i just had an urge to reply to you, because i reminisced with you. When i was your age I was in the same situation I did not have friends and I worried a lot about my life, what grades I had to had to achieve my major goals which was at the time entering my dream university. And I can say to you is gonna pass, it is a phase and you will see that all the worrying wasnt all that worth, because the truth is everything is unpredictable and I know that is scary thought but you need to come with terms with that. Speaking from experience I worried a lot that nobody liked me and through the years I have got to know so many people who I thaught were my friends and weren't and I still am to this day. it is not something that is build in days, it is a long process that is difficult and you will come to the realisation that only few people wish you the best, because majority of them wants to see you do good, but not better than them. Not only that I feel like we do sometimes worry a lot about school, I am a victim to this and was until my last year of high school, and sometimes it is better to wait and see and accept the final result. In my case I sacrifice a lot of my youth to enter university with a good grade ( I do not know how the American system works, assuming that you are American sorry if it is not the case) and at the end everything that I planned fell, literally you could say that I had terribly bad luck, but it was not the case because I achieve what I wanted but not the way I imagined it would be and i am really grateful for that because it thaught me so much. To sum it up, becuase i feel that this is so long, you are fourteen, you are so young enjoy life even with friends, try to accept having your alone time and really enjoy it, when you focus in healing yourself everything will come to you naturally. So rest assured that it is just a face and it does get better, and I am a prove of it. Please do not give up, and I hope it helped . Be happy!

[@to_ur_heart]

@@fuwix I don’t know. I really hope it’s just a phase.

[@vblake530530]

You want to live. That’s a good start. A word of advice. Work to LIVE, young Miss. Never live to Work.

[@drankFoD]

Good start lmao. 😂

[@wolfgar45]

We do live to work. What is rest without work you know what I mean?

[@agussswagstar]

​@@wolfgar45 being hungry

[@unnerving1081]

i think its all about priorities. Working to live, work smarter not harder. You should only live to work if the work you do is benefitting you, giving you joy/purpose. Then it turns into working to live.

[@Shivertruco]

That’s actually my life motto: I work just to live but i don’t live just to work.

[@breme818]

yeah life just feels so much better with social interaction and connecting with friends

[@sasaha8389]

but only if both are totally on the same level. trust me loads of people are so much up their own butts, bullies and no respect towards others. aslong as they get social gain from every social interaction with putting atleast somebody else down then you dont really want to be around these people.

[@flawed1]

That was very insightful. There is no way life is supposed to be. There is no way you’re supposed to be. There is only what is happening now, in this very moment. Everything else is in your head. The point of living is simply to be alive. We label some emotions as bad and others is good. We try to push away the bad and get more of the good, and we lose track of how we’re actually feeling. We forget what an amazing thing it is to be on a floating rock in the middle of a space feeling anything at all.

[@eyerisyj]

Hey!! I’m also a 19 year old contemplating abt life. I found ur channel when I was wandering around youtube, and your thoughts align with mine so much. It’s such a reassurance to know that I’m not the only one thinking like you. Thank you so much for making these videos.

[@LewisLeePhotography]

I bumped into your channel through YT's rec... which is odd since I'm an old ass Millennial. But I wanted to say that it's really REALLY nice seeing the perspective of a Gen Z going through LIFE. Not life according to social media, but actual life. I know you don't have everything figured out but with your mentality, awareness and openness, I think you're on the right track to honestly living your best and most fulfilling life. I'm happy that you're sharing the wealth of experience and knowledge that you've accumulated as I'm sure a ton of people (not only Gen Zs) can relate to you. Cheering for you to find your peace and balance. :)

[@tgrey_shift..mp334]

As a person who feel so similar, I want to part something to you in return for your wisdom. I right now in the middle of a big choice, my art, or a potential career. I am going to choose my art over college. Why? It’s because I personally realized, no matter what goal I had in my past, it never came true. When you get so tunneled on what you think is true, you latch onto something hypothetical to the point of dogma. And it’s ok to have hopes and dreams. But what I learned is evidence is what makes any delusion a dream. With my past goals, had no evidence, no certainty, they were pure delusion. And if every delusion results in the same conclusion, of dreams being unfulfilled, then the best course of action is to bet on what I know now. And what I know for certain is I love my passion for art. I don’t know if this will help you, but you certainly helped me when I needed it most. Thank you.

[@denontown]

i’m only 17 but it really does feel like this, i feel so guilty for how i feel because of how “unreasonable” or “overreactive” i was, i’m supposed to feel this or that way. your views really helped me, i’m lucky to have two online friends whom mean the world to me, and we try to remind each other everyday to live in the present and what’s going on now, instead of worrying so much about the future. i’ve got my final highschool exam next week and i still genuinely don’t feel confident about it, but anything can happen in life right? i just have to do my best, if i fail then it’s okay; if i don’t then that’d be great, but i can’t spend all my remaining time worrying that i’ll fail, burning myself away studying even when i’m exhausted….. just, remembering that i shoud rest too. failing it isnt the end, like you said, life isnt just one light at the end of the tunnel so thank you very much for the video really…

[@stilliiiiiii]

This was really interesting. At 14 I moved from the house I grew up in to a new house even tho it was my city only, I lost my neighbourhood friends, and this colony I lived in didn't feel like I belonged here. I got depressed I became irritated and isolated myself from everyone and got stuck into this self loathing phase, even tho I had siblings (I'm a middle child too) they were just in different phases of their lives too. But as now I look back i can totally say that the ur take about the tunnel theory is so true and makes sense. I held myself back from meeting people and i was the one who did not try to build connection and I tried to just become an "idgaf" person because I thought by doing that i would care less and prolly feel less bad. Hyper Focused on becoming someone I clearly was not. Now I'm not as "miserable" in the sense I have a slightly better perspective on life. I relate to you on many points it's nice to know your pov of life as it helps me look at the world from a different lens than my own. Thank You! (Also sorry about my English I'm not very good at it heh-)

[@espe3593]

i literally just discovered your channel like half an hour ago and everything you go over is so relatable! and based on a lot of the comments ive read, it looks like a lot of other people do too. im only fifteen right now and i definitely experience those fears and worries; these videos feel so real and honestly give me a little hope for the future i don't currently see -- thanks for that!

[@notsojoey20]

As someone whos 20 I remember being depressed and suicidal when I was 15 bc the girl I thought I loved cheated on me and it took me a year to recover, I'm getting by now all these self improvements and a friend has really helped my life but when I watch ur vids mann I really get where u come from most of the times. Im like you with the 19 and never dated before and that's true bc although I've dated like maybe once it was online but since then I've been on my own living life yk

[@notsojoey20]

Damn I really said a lot lmao

[@Fer-yc3wb]

brooo we have the same age and same life apparently, it's a little funny to see so much similarity with a stranger

[@notsojoey20]

Yeah that's crazyy, tbh at the age 10 I expected my life to be WAY more interesting and saw my self in a completely different place by 20

[@iitsjado]

Very well spoken! I found myself relating a lot - currently struggling a lot finding a full time job and have been studying and stressing for months now. It really took a tank on my mindset and made me think about how my life is not going to be able to progress and I might not make it. But after watching this, I'm realizing that I'm the one who's thinking about my life like this. I'm going to do a lot of reflection on how I want to live life currently while working towards my goals. This video helped me realize a lot of things, thanks.

[@verymadz]

I’m a bit older than you, but I feel this SO hard. Similar story from high school, and I feel like I was stuck in the tunnel phase for so long, even after I felt better about my life. It’s so hard to get out of your head and just live without thinking about what you’re working towards!!

[@IndAfgxx]

I always think it's important to have friends from all different ages. I do not have anyone as young as you so it was really refreshing hearing you talk about all these different things. Thank you!

[@sheedhasilv235]

i’m currently going through the post-grad crisis and i’m losing my mind about not having a next step / goal in life. That has been stressing me out to the point that i’ve simply given up on everything else because i have this feeling that nothing is important / fulfilling enough for me to persue. Don’t know if that makes any sense lol.

[@rsn7185]

I could listen to you talk all day, Im so glad to see someone has the same perspectives as mine!! Thank you!!

[@yamilettee]

Thank you for posting. keep it going because youve made so many people relate and feel better

[@gracious3149]

Wow your channel is so inspiring, I’m still adjusting into this “young adult” phase I feel like I’m keeping myself busy instead of sitting around and thinking about things that depress me. Thankfully I’m progressing into a different place in my life, not great nor bad, just different and I am trying not to be so hard on myself. At the end of the day WE as the new gen are doing the VERY BEST that we can with what we have and our own individual lives. Me personally I try to flow and not seek perfection since it is NEVER gonna be perfect in life. Thank you and keep spreading your messages. Peace&Love

[@techover472]

I swear this shit speaks straight to me it’s like my future self talking to me or somethin. I’m 17 and Ive been slaving over this music shit for years and I want to do it but it’s like nothing else can give me real happiness or some shit like these past years since I was like 14-15 I’ve made this dream so important to me that it’s become this huge part of my life that I work my ass off everyday and I don’t feel satisfied if I haven’t done enough or haven’t achieved enough in a time period I think is supposed to be and it’s so lonely sometimes idk I struggle with depression too and feelings are so random and the things you said are what I’m going through and thinking and you telling me to view it in different ways has kind of taken away some pressure. Idk this video opened my mind to things I didn’t see before and is gonna spark change so thank you.. for real

[@YourGoldJamx]

when i was in seventh grade i had pretty low self-esteem and i was always pushing myself. during that year i started getting bullied being told i wasnt enough so that only worsened myself so i studied harder so somehow i could prove myself that i wasnt worthless but those words didnt stop and the bullying didnt either so i studied for hours in the basement and i felt so numb that i started cutting so i’d feel something..later i was admitted to the hospital for SI and after i’d have panic attacks constantly in hallways since i was paranoid with GAD and social anxiety since that was my response. then after out-patient i ended up getting and ED as well since that was the only thing i had control over and i felt guilty with eating since it was like i was losing grip of life. listening to music that i loved from a band that constantly supported mental health with what they say and songs. and i really forgot how i used to see life how i was watching my life in spectator mode which is something i used to always tell my therapist..i just felt like it was only me :< thank you so much for this video! ❤ sorry i just dumped in one comment i never done this but, this really resonated with me!

[@a_springnovelist]

Relatable, as always! This year I am trying to shift myself to live outside of my head and anxious thoughts and instead, experience life in the present and accept it as it is. I stopped reading self-help last year replaced with therapy this year and I am also reading a multitude of genres, journaling, connecting irl, taking a break from social media.. It's really nice especially in this current spring season. I hope you feel better and I love your channel :)

[@_qw3rtyXxYz_]

I saw one of ur videos for the first time yesterday and really agreed with your thoughts. Now I've watched a few videos on your channel and I honestly admire the shit out of you, you are very intelligent and it's so refreshing to see a person who actually speaks from a place of extensive introspection instead of regurgitating ideas they heard from someone else. Thank you, it's literally an honor to watch your videos

[@Mlovee33]

I relate to ur videos so much it’s nice to know that someone feels the same way I feel😭 and ur really my comfort KZbinr. Pls don’t ever stop making content💕💯 and I feel the exact same way I just miss how my younger self was I wanna live like how my younger self lived. At that time I never thought abt what ppl were thinking of me. I swear It’s always on my mind times we’re rlly good in that period of my life. I’m 14 right now and I just feel like I’m wasting my teen years. I just don’t want to regret not living it to the fullest when I’m an adult

[@yhizz1809]

You reminded me of some thoughts I had a while ago when I was speaking on the topic of "purpose" and I came to a philosophy that our purpose is just to live life, be the best version of ourselves, and make great friends. Our purpose is not to become that doctor or astronaut because our motivation and goals always change so once you do have your dream job that is great but it is not the ending or your final purpose. I believe "purpose" isn't fixed on one motion or goal but instead our purpose is to live the best possible life that we want for ourselves.

[@ihearteli]

ur videos are so truthful and eye opening i feel soo inspired to start a channel like urs to discuss deep thoughts

[@needo1546]

For the first time while watching this type of video, i've felt so understood and related so much. I'm currently about to turn 21, i'm a highschool dropout with no family (toxic), barely any relationships and maybe one friend. I can count times i've felt happy on fingers of my hands. I feel like i got forced to abandon everything else and focus on one goal which is making money in order to not ... myself. I'm unable to enjoy things anymore, atleast for longer periods of time, all i think about is learning, improving and making more money. I've abandoned having fun (i didn't anyway), connecting with people, my health, and i just keep chasing my goals. I am not living. I've made a bet on my future being better. That is my only hope, and my biggest fear is still being unhappy in few years from now. Thank you for this video, it made me feel a little bit better.

[@tgrey_shift..mp334]

Honestly amazingly said. I am so thankful I discovered you and this video. Im def sharing to friends!

[@Fifamichael-tq3jk]

I really love ur channel because I can finally find someone that I can relate to!!!

[@ranjitdoley3721]

I know these feelings like we want to glow up and at the same time feels like so hard to even talk as an introvert, I barely go out with my friends and I don't know why at some part I want to enjoy with group parties and one side I didn't bother to be alone......I want now is to socialize with more people.... This what will make us better ❤

[@danikaa111]

oh god this video resonates with me soo deeply. i remember i started this goal seeking when i was 14 and it screw my life so bad. i didn't want to have friends, or boyfriend because one thing that kept me going was succes. and now im 20 basically regreting those poor decisions i made as a teenager, because it was great time to live your life, not to seek this succesfull succes at just 14.. so yeah, but its getting better when you realizing hiw important it is to just live rn at the moment

[@dreamingacacia]

Back then the reason I was depressed is I felt that my life only got push by others. Whether my family or teacher or even some random strangers. That's the total lost of control of my life. I tried to do my best "on the rail" and maybe become someone respectable. My life wasted for over 10 years after 3 years of total slack in high school and stressful life in middle school. I don't know why so many people depressed nowadays, but I doubt that people would want to experience stuffs that I'd been through. Right now just not being sick is such a blissful time for me. No longer care if I'm gonna be successful or not. I'm just content that I can work another day. That's right, I've been working my dream job for sometime now but don't ask much about monetary situation since it's kinda depressing. I also don't have any friend. I'm not the type that'd closing myself to something...or at least used to. I just hate the idea of plastic friends, so I retreated to myself and will live a selective life so I won't have any more regret.

[@nickycocaine]

I'm 26 about to enter graduate school and I think you nailed it with the whole "meta" concept. I am sorry to say but some of this lasts for a lot longer than we expect it to. It took me a long time to realize that life doesn't always need this deep explanation, but putting that into practice is that hard part!

[@bigturbooo]

Great video

[@er1ka709]

I love watching your videos because I relate to you so much, there is this on going period in my life that I would try living “all the way up there,” because I want to become a much much better person than what I actually am. But usually I just end up questioning my own abilities… I guess I’m still looking for a balance for my self improvements.

[@er1ka709]

Like right now I’m deciding to comment under every video I watch because I suck at critical thinking and I’m too addicted to KZbin

[@banana7400]

being intelligent is a blessing and a curse at the same time: balanced as all things are in the universe. Have days where youre productive like crazy and days where your lazy. both are productive even if it doesnt seem like it

[@eljuancho2]

We are here to procreate and live in a group we need social life to be happy.

[@nikolanedeljkovic5916]

Idk if this is related but I feel like in the past I was attributing value on just being happy and now I am learning to embrace other emotions. I would ask myself why is being "happy" the only thing acceptable.

[@PrimeChosenOne]

You are still young and have plenty of time to figure out what you want to do. Don't beat yourself up let reality hit you tale your time you domt have to get everything in a rush but we all want to live but living comfortably. And at peace. Have fun enjoy your younger days because at the end you will need it. You'll suffer the pain but God will wash it away and break that chain. You can do almost anything !! YOU GOT THIS

[@okinasai5672]

I definitely relate to a lot of this video. It felt like I had a switch suddenly turned on after learning more about social anxiety; for me, analyzing to find the root cause of my anxiety just helped me accept myself more and improve my mindset/perspective.

[@jo-xy5rx]

Hi friend … I really feel you and i can relate to you. Thank you for sharing your story as I found it very helpful and I felt seen and heard and I’m not alone with this suffering. I lived my adolescence and planned my whole life only to one goal and the moment that I reached it I just couldn’t bear living anymore and felt there mist be a gole or something to hold on to and my life seems like I’m only chasing something and never happy by the end. Goles always meant that I’m human or someone or live without it i felt like an ugly being. My sorrows always come from the mening and I always end up with believing that there is no higher meaning it just life don’t over complicate it

[@banana7400]

its like youre looking out at your life, and it creates stress but you become so much more productive and get a sense f urgency to really live life and value your time more

[@elisabeth68967]

i feel like our stories are similar because i also developed an ed at the age of 13. After all, it was the only thing I could control in a life in which i believed I couldn't control anything. Through the ed i developed depression because i did not meet up with anyone because i was too scared to eat and through that, i developed anxiety. In the past year, i am trying to get better and i want to live my life and dont just exist, it is really difficult one thing I struggle with is thinking im nth without my mental health issues and I know its bullshit but in the past years these issues were the only things I thought about

[@WWS322]

The spotlight went out. It wasn't a light, it was an eye starring me down my whole life. I have beaten it because I outlived it.

[@whitefeathersarena]

You been though lot im proud of you

[@susanacristina7454]

11:50 this is true! Life is just a temporary time and we are here caring about dumb things.

[@jadwonder399]

Hey been meaning to comment this for a while now but . I discovered your channel couple of weeks ago , and just want to say it is so nice to see and hear someone with almost the exact same perspective as mine and few others ofc , and I also caught eye of your amazing artwork from previous vids! A true talent. Haha I am developing artist myself , had to show my respect :) and congrats on 10k!

[@ElPlan1414]

People think they will reach goals, made by society, and they will be happy. That's not true. Friendships, connections and passions make people happy.

[@nikriedel]

7:10 sums it up perfectly Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

[@BenSolo777]

Very insightful and intelligent. Good video, thanks.

[@sugarrusheclipse]

Hi!! I feel like reading ecclesiastes, not even from a religious view but from a general view would be very insightful. It has so much knowledge on the futility of things in this world.

[@htwoodz7350]

I like what you spoke on in this. Crucial points made 💯

[@EternalKorvo]

You’re a cool human being, thank you

[@ekuniverse1]

Very brave video, I thought about making content like this since last year but it's scary to expose yourself to the internet. Anyways I relate to it a lot and I'm still in that phase. Don't truly know what I want in life, what to do and to learn how to live and because of that life seems like it's going by too quickly.

[@rebornmmmmuch]

You have so much wisdom I would say!❤

[@zrina_01]

I feel every single word you're saying, I think its especially hard growing up in an ethnic household where you see everyone working so hard, almost killing themselves by working, and it silently pressures you to live the same way. Not only that, but society pushes the narrative that we have to be productivity machines to be deemed worthy. But its depleting out happiness and energy, until we just feel like a husk. Its almost seems like we lost the ability to be human by trying to be perfect, but we forgot that we will never be perfect.

[@ademain.]

Me too. I want to live too. All of these self-improvements guru of telling me what do I and how should I live my life in order to be happy is just limits me to what I am really enjoys. I'm really tired of it and It just fucks me up for the entire 1-2 years now, and looking for ways to get out of this shithole for good.

[@sugarrusheclipse]

I feel like seeking purpose and hope within ourselves will always have us trapped in a certain loop of instability. Once we see purpose outside of ourselves, and cling onto something we know is true and good, then we will have a light that isn’t just at the end of the tunnel, but with us always. ”This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all.“ ‭‭1 John‬ ‭1‬:‭5‬ ‭NIV‬‬

[@dhayapooranee.s1401]

not that same but what you said i can relate, like...last year i socialised myself very much had many friends was happy...but after the thing i just distracted myself of not being stressful and depressed..then i realized....i just have to go with a flow of life and then figure it out...thank you to upload this video....like it is so good to be related like some others ....🥰

[@snakefoot5608]

I really relate to a lot of things in this video. I deal with and think about these kinds of things a lot. I have a lot of negative feelings come up throughout my every day, so I try to control my life by setting goals and telling myself: When I achieve these goals, these negative feelings will stop happening. However, perhaps my attempts are futile because those negative emotions come from various things in life that need to be worked on individually and specifically to where they are coming from. To conclude, I (and probably many others) struggle with truly understanding their emotions and where they come from, so we become detached from ourselves and pursue things that we think will fix our lives, but they probably won’t help us get what is truly most desirable in life.

[@shivanishamar]

i knew i wasnt wrong when i thought to myself theres no way someone else hasnt gone thru this too in the past few yrs… i felt u so hard abt the ED as a “sense of control” part!!! i didnt realize it at the time bc i was getting dopamine from losing weight whilst getting straight A’s in college. when i turned 18, man i cant tell u how i felt when i finally got my degree and saw what was around me

[@reijin999]

i just want friends. family would be cool too

[@azuma892]

How do people usually start relationships? I've never had any real friends since primary school. Honestly I have gotten quite used to it and enjoy the peace and quiet. Now that I'm in uni it does sometimes feel strange how everyone around me is with friends or dating.

[@FaysCupid]

I actually think being alone and just having your own opinions to yourself is great. But for making friends, start small talk. Like, go to someone you're interested in( it doesn't have to be a partner) and talk to them, start with favorite stuff(I think you should start studying this person until you're sure you can have a convo, unless you already know how to)

[@sugarrusheclipse]

Grow in courage and confidence to approach people. Finding people with common values and hobbies is important bc those similarities can rly be the fundamentals of ur friendship, so look for these people in places where u have something in common with them! Interest clubs, church, school etc. It wont happen unless you make a choice to. If rejection happens, atleast it helped you grow.

[@night_xylo]

I haven't known you long (just about a month) but you seemed to have grown very quickly within that month. A lost faster than me when I was in college a few years ago (maybe because I didn't take a gap year?) And I feel like I have a better perspective of myself and life after college...well...I'm still growing xd. I think it's easier to live as a child because our minds are naive and we aren't analyzing everything around us, because we don't have to. The older we get, the more we learn, the more we learn about all the BS in this world (either through personal experience or through others/online) and we ask more difficult questions. I know I do, especially coming from Christianity and the idea of "everything happens for a reason" But I've also learned that if something's outside of my control, I can't do anything about it so I just have to do what I can. Honestly, I don't know if I am "living" because that depression or negativity or whatever latches on occasionally and it's hard to fight back when I can agree about certain points that I make, despite caveats I can make against a negative argument with myself. I'm rambling...but maybe I'm jumping back and forth from the meta perspective and the "down to earth" perspective and so I'm...I guess just okay? Either way, again, appreciate your videos and I'm honestly happy that you're in a good spot, mentally. I look forward to the next one.

[@sakio8840]

i am 18 now , and i also had a tough time , anxiety and depression since i was 14 till maybe this year. glad that it’s temporary tho. i had friends back then, but now i don’t have any. which made me so much stronger and i don’t need company to feel happy, unless it’s my family. i took a gap year because everything was just weird , and i had trouble sleeping , sometimes i wouldn’t even sleep at all , i had panic attacks and stuff like that. i would recommend checking vitamin D because he was critically lacking.but i still had trouble sleeping and still had panic attacks , i was even questioning if life makes sense. like everything around me seemed having no sense. however that’s temporary but it takes time to heal. and i want to mention that having positive mindset means having negative thoughts but not letting them control you .

[@sakio8840]

the only thing that helped me was living in the present. also to believe in your dreams . sounds a bit childish but that make sense now. if you don’t believe in your ability to reach goals - you will not reach them .

[@Iksvomid]

SHE LIVES!!!

[@Dark-le3bn]

Working towards goals keeps me happy, the only thing that makes me want to live If i am not studying and hitting the gym consistently, it eats me alive and i cant help but feel miserable that what am i doing with my life Also makes me less interesting in conversations, cus i am internally worrying and not having fun

[@RetroPlus]

That was a lot of realness in 16 minutes

[@konalalala7788]

I also moved between the US and China and sometimes life could be kind of hard for me because of moving around and not being able to find a community but I guess it doesn’t matter that much 😢

[@siemkamalfoy]

thank you.

[@probryan2123]

good advice!, but thats cause you beautiful too. You have a really good mindset and honesty about your experiences and your train of thought.

[@Butterfly-zo5zn]

This is exactly what I feel 🥹🪄💙🤍

[@Kane.JimLahey.]

Hell yeah homie you be alright, you gone be okay ye

[@robertsouth6971]

Society has become very caring. Young people hunger for control, so they see this caring that people show when they have problems as a path to control. Everything takes the path of least resistance. So they get problems. Not that caring is bad or problems aren't real. Nobody is in a position to say when it's real and when it's just something you can find a way to solve yourself, as you seem to be doing. I'm just saying you all should recognize the danger and think yourselves about whether it's real or just a way to get control by asking others to help when you could think it through yourself. Try like this young woman is doing and then ask for help with real problems you can't work through yourself. Think it through, then share. This is a good workout that will help you grow.

[@yieldsfalsehood8863]

these videos help a lot.

[@SuccessCoach-qp1fz]

As long as you know that services items and events and marketing is what makes money you can career switch anytime you want.

[@eustaquiozambrano2974]

Excelente spech girl. Have a good day. ❤

[@0xC2]

wow this could not have been recommended to me at a better time

[@shenshaw5345]

goated channel

[@FelixCousins]

Love ur vids!

[@Alexvinterbarn]

You need people! ❤

[@CrystalswEli21]

I hope you're doing OK!

[@sparksplug1061]

Is she already there? Maybe a few more steps and she'll reach that stage. Calling it now, it'll be a matter of time once she's enamored by the absurd. You're essentially explaining the core fundamentals of the absurd philosophy. I highly recommend looking it up. Albert Camus' works on it is very enlightening.

[@aadi_is_here]

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[@goldengamingmonster7401]

You mentioned that you just feel the way you do about things, because those things are a lot of the time random. Rather than that, I believe stoicism is important, where we separate ourselves from external factors because a lot of things aren't in our control. To understand that it is not what happened that matters, but only our reaction to it. In the process we can control our emotions (to a certain extent). It's difficult to do but we can still try.

[@goldengamingmonster7401]

Kind of what you said, but I just found the two ideas slightly contradictory

[@kangaklan6561]

Thank you

[@emekaokaforize2993]

For in much wisdom there is much sorrow; whoever increases knowledge increases grief. -Ecclesiastes 1:18 You are a very bright and intelligent woman and with that comes a lot of struggles in this life. Always try to find peace in the turmoil. And just know, your words have given me great insight into my own life. So I say thank you and God bless you abundantly. ❤

[@Ch3yylLife.Yeager]

Getting lost rn is getting to me But Believing Jesus and having a faith. I feel peaceful and comforted. :] JESUS LOVES YOU.

[@weedalicious]

i love ur channel

[@ghostmachine6285]

When the entire system is based on usery and greed there is no real time to live. This is by design.

[@yieldsfalsehood8863]

i think i've spent a fully two years in the meta "up there" position, letting it loop over itself too many times. its eating me from the inside.

[@liangrt]

very informative and inspiring, thank you.

[@longlivetalha]

❤️

[@ryzxl4409]

I can tell you where an IB student. Any advice for the final exams?

[@pioneer7855]

I agree with most of your points as a guy your age lmao, especially as an Indian-American with the obsession of having a perfect rom-com life, its slightly annoying and especially with over analysis of little things in my life since thats how education kinda conditions you

[@bdrokin]

😻

[@caleel1234]

Fire

[@davidraet]

from the wise words of Robin

[@user-nh1sb3wk3y]

you are so wonderful

[@himikotoga1966]

Bro thinks she’s Nico robin (one of the best one piece scenes)

[@kyro7e7w6]

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