I was a Hikikomori for about 10 years

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I was a "HIKIKOMORI"(Social withdrawal) for About 10 years. and I have the autism spectrum disorder. but I will never give up! Hiroshi Yamazoe
Hello. I'm a Japanese born in 1984.
In the past, I had been a "HIKIKOMORI"(Social withdrawal) for the About 10 years, but now I have recovered a little.
I love traveling abroad. The traveling abroad has changed my "HIKIKOMORI" life. I have visited Western Europe, Asian countries and Russia. I will continue to travel abroad in the my future.
and I'm currently studying English. I struggle with it, but I can understand a little English.
I'm seeking friends from all over the world.Thanks!
Hiroshi Yamazoe
Website: hiroshiyamazoe...
Twitter: / hiroshiyamazoe
Facebook: / hiroshi.yamazoe.509
Instagram: / yama00ci
#Hikikomori #autism #ASD

[@StrengthArena]

Stay strong and fit bro lift some iron!

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Thanks! Yes. I like to work out.

[@marlanarsi2590]

Brave to travel solo:)

[@theecosmetaverse]

Im a 33 year old female. Even going out of my room feels like Im going to have a heart attack. I feel you. I am also autistic and I suffer from dissociative identity disorder. Love from my room in Spain. You are very brave.

[@yaee123]

❤️❤️ keep at it, you’ll be the change you want to see. I used to have major panic attacks driving a car…and I took baby steps at a time…driving for a minute than pulling over to do breathing exercises, praying, etc. It took almost 3 years but now I’m driving on highways/freeways with no anxiety! You have the power within you! Trust yourself but also treat yourself with the best care and affection. You deserve the WORLD!!

[@misbpdclddugjy9041]

Sister, I m stil in same room like u...I know English, French....cn v chat?

[@SAJANOVA]

@@misbpdclddugjy9041 me too, wanna chat?

[@sarahlongstaff5101]

Me encantaría tener a una amiga autista hispanohablante! Soy madre de 2 hijos (18 y 20), todos autistas. Soy americana, vivo en Florida.

[@sumanpatel967]

Bless you all guys.😊😊😊

[@colinsmith5879]

I am an autistic man from USA, born in 1990. I am learning other languages like you, and I know how hard it is. I want you to know that your English is very good! You are doing very well with our language, I can understand everything you say with no trouble, even without looking at the subtitles :) Like you, I also struggled with terrible depression in the past. Now, my life still has challenges but I consider myself happy and content. Best wishes from the USA, brother 🖖

[@anujgaike9088]

Bla

[@sumanpatel967]

Great man 👏👏👏👏👏👍👍😊 good job

[@kravmag13]

Hi Hiroshi, I'm a child psychiatrist from the Netherlands. I am shocked that you have been treated by other people in your childhood in a such cruel way and that no one helped you. It's amazing that you managed to rescue yourself and survive this. You are very mentally strong and intelligent. And you give hope to others who struggle. I am proud of you.

[@hyacinth7803]

Hello, I need some help for 16-year old hihikomori in german. I cannot find any professional weil the boy refuse contact.

[@kravmag13]

@@hyacinth7803 If you can't get help in Germany you can ask your insurance company if they will cover the treatment in the Netherlands. And then write to for example Accare of Karakter if they can help you. They have very good psychiatric help for children but it's expensive without insurance and there is also a waiting time of about 9 months now. And online treatment is not so effective then personal contact. They have also small place for children and parents, where they can stay during treatment. But if he refuses help maybe a better option is to try to put him in a child psychiatric hospital in Germany against his will. Try to get advice from a lawyer on what kind of regulations are in Germany regarding this procedure. Another option is to seek a psychotherapeut/psycholog/ child psychiatrist that will come to your house to speak to him.

[@redbull__7]

Nooit gehoord van een kinder psychiater.

[@kravmag13]

@@redbull__7 google wat het is

[@caillou6297]

İm hikikmori in turkey and im 18 years old.I only play video games and watching anime’s.I haven’t any friends in here i feel society is trying consume me YOU ARE NOT ALONE MY BROTHER

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Thanks for watching! Yes. I know. There are many Hikikomori in all of the world. I truly understood that after I started this channel. Because, many Hikikomori from around the world contacted me.🙂

[@myyou7335]

18 year old Turkish hikikomori writing in good English sentences versus my 25 year old employed English student. If you have English bro you can start by working in written material maybe or if you're not apalled by social interaction, work in tourism.

[@caillou6297]

@@myyou7335 thank you for praising me even my family didn't do that my english isnt good as i want i can write and understand but can't speak If I have a chance to go to England or united states then I can improve

[@myyou7335]

@@caillou6297 hey👋, the games you play can also have discord servers right? So maybe you can talk with other players all around the world .

[@erdniealinik]

Eren Dönmez Türkiye ilişki mevzusunda gereğinden fazla cıvık işli dışlı bir ülke kendini niye soyutladın ki

[@vangla1482]

Hey Hiroshi Yamazoe, I'm a 25 years old Vietnamese who had struggles with social anxiety and depression as a loner in the past. I am slowly getting much better. I'm quite good at English to the point that I thought I might be an American man in my past life. I'm currently learning more about other languages, particularly Japanese! I have to say, you speak English very well! Keep up the good work!

[@Harshalpat]

Good brother

[@kaistudiox]

tôi cũng là ng vn,chả biết ra đường vì lý do gì

[@journey5574]

It's been awhile since I seen this, I was 25, Now 27 turning 28. Back in College and turning a new leaf. Thank you Hiroshi Yamazoe, you inspired so many. Thank you.

[@jerrylum8760]

It was so inspirational that I almost cried. I am a 69 y.o. Retired guy in USA. I hope he finds endless happiness and friendship in his travels and on his channel. One day I hope to visit Japan too.

[@mobrazenyet4606]

Without academics background, in Japan one can still get a job that pays well to travel around the world. There's no way to be like that in my country 😓 I support you though. Cheers 😁

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Nowadays you can travel even if you have little money. For example, countries in Southeast Asia have very low prices! or you can travel in domestic country. and thanks for watching! stay healthy!

[@mobrazenyet4606]

I live in Southeast Asia, lol. But, yes, I have read a book about travelling without money. (It's Rich without Money by Tomi Astikainen.) And thanks for you, too :) Hopefully you'll keep up with contents that would motivate the hikikomoris out there. And I am struggling with English, too!

[@rinreborn7364]

mobra zenyet bruh, if you live in some big country like EU, even the worst job pays you well to travel the world

[@mobrazenyet4606]

@@rinreborn7364 well then you can't be a hikikomori in some developing, third world country 😅

[@hrcd21]

@@mobrazenyet4606 well, I live in SEA, but I'm a shut in. I'm working as remote programmer, so i don't need to go out to work. But you know, it's really depressing. I wish I can get rid of my hikikomori lifestyle and travel the world. But it seems really impossible due to the low pay rate in a 3rd world country. Even a few months full salary can't make you able to go to Europe or Japan.

[@fennecfox2]

I can really relate to this. Where I live, in Canada, this is becoming more common. In the big cities here, people work work work. Things are extremely expensive. A regular home can cost over a million dollars (80,700,841.90 Japanese Yen) where I live, or half a million if outside the city with a long commute to work. If someone suffers from depression here, we are usually just given pills and told to try harder and not be lazy, by friends and family. Bullying is really common here. I was bullied for being quiet in school, everyday and it made me start to get panic attacks in class and unbearable depression. For years. I felt it would never end. I dropped out of high school due to worsening of panic attacks. Nobody really talks about it here. Depression, sadness, suicidal thoughts, or hikikomori is considered a mental illness or something nobody has time to deal with, due to long work schedules. We are just given pills and told to try more. Which can be a breaking point for someone who already feels overwhelmed. Children here are usually involved in a ton of programs since they are born, so much so, they never get much rest. Parent shaming for not doing as many government approved programs as possible, is common. Bullying is extremely common at all schools, doesnt matter what age. Adults shame other adults, its not just in school. Making friends here is extremely difficult unless you knew them your whole life. Thank you for making this video. I was hikikomori for so many years I lost count. I feel like there is no place for me here, so I keep to myself. I cried a lot, because I felt so alone, and without confidence anymore. I had no more fight left in me, and just wanted to rest and could never understand why I was pressured so much all the time, if I couldnt even stop my panic attacks from happening. My mom left me and told me to just kill myself, and she hasnt been back since, and I am 34 now. That was 16 years ago. I forgive her, because I know she was as stressed out as I was, and could not understand what was wrong with me. I did not understand at the time either. I was a really happy child, always playing and laughing, but as a teen the pressure was too much. I was broken inside, that is all I knew. We do talk online sometimes now, so that is nice. I love her and miss her, because I know deep down she was also stressed because of the government program we are expected to follow flawlessly. It breaks families apart. Thank you again for this. It meant a lot to me.

[@bucketlisttv5318]

This video made me cried. For someone to be able to left the "Hikikomori State" and strive to travel around the globe. it is such a wonderful story. I am glad you chose to fight your Hikikomori thoughts and live the way you want.

[@strukitru]

I am a German, 21 years old, and only go outside for school purposes since like 16.

[@newtonmoon]

Could it be that you haven't found anyone you can connect to? It's difficult to make meaningful connections/friendships, most people seem superficial and not everyone has one's best interest at heart.

[@Kei-rt4ug]

他の人々の人生がどれほど荒々しく、厳しく私の心を開き、そのおかげで今の私があると言っても過言ではない。皆さんのお話や思いを聞かせていただき、本当にありがとうございました。日本の文化は、困難な時期を乗り越え、私を賢くしてくれました。日本語が下手でごめんなさい。 インドネシアからご挨拶申し上げます。 Greetings from Indonesia 🇮🇩Salam dari Indonesia

[@tiagomedeiros3705]

Hi Hiroshi, I'm a 37 years old Man from Brazil. I feel I'm turning info hikikomori after this pandemic caos. I started to work at home after Covid. I am divorcing and feeling depressed, but the depression was hitting me before the divorce. I feel I don't wanna leave my house anymore, I don't want to work outside my house anymore. I Hope I find a reason to go on Just like you did. Thanks for sharing your story.

[@danialtello91]

MUCH LOVE FOR YOU. MY HEART WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU EVEN IN AFTERLIFE. MUCH LOVE BUDDY. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.

[@thedailydrummer6825]

Bro your English is more than competent for daily conversations and with a little bit more practice you'll be good enough to speak fluently in a business environment. Stay strong and keep your health your number one priority.

[@jasonpolinga2294]

hi, im jason polinga, im 29 and from the philippines. i have lived as a hikikomori for 3 years. i had suicidal thoughts and attempts. society still scares me because of the amount of competition. im blessed to have found a partner who loves me for who i am, but compatibility is only a third of the challlenge. i must find a way to make money enough to support me, my partner, and our families. it is... scary. very. i still have suicidal thoughts but i get by. thank you for making this video... i feel a bit less lonely.

[@newtonmoon]

Society is society, it's just people. Don't let them define you, be your own self and find your purpose. People are not God. And always know help is available.

[@BalboaBaggins]

Watching this video actually made me cry. There's so many people on this planet that are living such lonely and hopeless lives, we all deserve so much better 😔 Thank you for sharing your story, you're a beautiful soul 💖

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Thank you for watching! I will continue to make various videos. I think there are lonely people all over the world. I want to make connections with those people. thanks!🙂

[@jaky411]

Thank you for sharing your story. I am a 31 year old woman here living in the united states and so far i don't know whether i could fit the description of being a hikikomori but ever since i became a teen to now, life has felt very depressing and pointless emotionally for me after realizing how reality truly is for us: go to school, get a job, start a family and wait for old age. i am a very creative/artistic person and always felt like i dont really belong and feel happy with how life is structured for most of us and felt like there's more to life. i am not completely withdrawn from people but i only keep a few very close friends around with me that i have known since high school/still keep close touch and hang out sometimes. my mom has recently passed away and live with my dad and younger sister. when i started college for the very first time, i felt very pressured by my family to study a difficult subject that i was not interested in as well as not prepared. so i did not finish that degree and currently i went back to college again with a different major that i am interested in and chose for myself. all of the family friends that i grew up with do not keep in contact with me or my family and i am not surprised by all of this because ever since i was a teen, never felt close connection with these people but felt forced to be around these folks because of my own parents desperate need to have friends.

[@Sam_A_Sam]

Thank you for sharing your story too, and as a 30 year old, a lot of what you said was very relatable, but at the same time, unique. I'm sorry for your loss. How's your degree going now?

[@Ramsaaaa]

I'm a bit younger than you, but I relate completely. Our lives have followed a similar path. Much love, I hope life improves for all of us. One day, one week, one month, one year at a time. We will make it through to a brighter future.

[@Isano_EN]

hey man also experienced being a hikikomori from Switzerland for 5 years from 15-20 years old slowly getting back in rehab I know it's hard and I wish you all the best god bless you!

[@Manifesting_Secret_Sketchbook]

Switzerland??????? People dream of going there

[@Isano_EN]

@@Manifesting_Secret_Sketchbook Well not everyone has the same circumstances and now I'm back integrated into society trust me no place is perfect only superficially it seems like that

[@wzlkk3ghlf091]

I'm in the same spot right now... How can you start getting rehab?

[@Isano_EN]

@@wzlkk3ghlf091 Honestly there are only 2 ways out of this. You either convince yourself to go to therapy which can be quite a long procedure or really take the red pill so to speak and take motivation and courage from controversial online personas. I've seen both methods work really but there isn't a shortcut out. 3rd way is obviously suicide but let's just not go there. I wish you the best really and I hope you can make it out if you need anything in order to do so please let me know.

[@CuarentaZ40]

As an American Asian.. I don’t know why hikikomori seems like it’s idolized lifestyle in Japan.. but I understand being depressed is real and sucks. I hope life is turning out fine for you.

[@OutlawMantis]

Hello. I really enjoyed this video. It's nice to see a video directly from a hikikomori's perspective instead of a documentary. Thanks for sharing your story. Your English is good. :) I am a hikikomori from England. I have been a hikikomori for about seven or eight years (I am 31 now) and live alone in my apartment. I have been able to live on welfare due to having a disability. Before I became a hikikomori I enjoyed travelling too. I haven't left Europe yet but I enjoyed exploring new places and it was my desire to travel the world before this started. I almost never leave my apartment. I think that after being a hikikomori for many years it's something you accept as a part of yourself. I rarely feel a need to change myself. I am losing track of time and most other people I knew earlier in life now have good jobs, got married or had children, and sometimes I surprise myself when I contemplate how much time has passed with every day being the same. I am happy for you, though. I'm glad you were able to find a way out of your hikikomori life and hope that you accomplish your goal of visiting more parts of the world.

[@hrcd21]

I know what you feel, it's really depressing. It's been 3 years for me and I feel like wasted those 3 years doing nothing. I hope I'm able to travel the world some day, but it seems impossible with my current income. I'm a programmer and working remotely. But you know, the salary of 3rd world country is only about 1/10 of 1st world country. Anyway, hope you're getting better.

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Thanks for the comments. And thanks for commenting on some of my other my videos too! (And sorry for my late reply.) I'm so glad you enjoyed my video. As I said in this video I had been Hikikomori for about 10 years from my teenage years until I was about 23. I understand the feeling that people who have been Hikikomori for a long time get used to about Hikikomori state. If a person is in Hikikomori state for a long period of time and no one, neither parents nor society, will help him/her, That situation will continue to go on. It's like falling into the Abyss that not being able to get out from it. It's very painful I know. But you are five years younger than me and I think you have great potential for the future. And by the way, you have an awesome KZbin channel with 3600 subscribers. It's So amazing. In this age, even if you are Hikikomori, you can use the internet and make money through a variety of means. And There are people in Japan who have achieved various successes even though they are Hikikomori. (Writers, artists, bloggers, programmers, novelists, etc.) So I am convinced that there is great potential for a Hikikomori lifestyle. Anyway, thanks for the comments! take care & stay healthy!

[@naman245]

It's the guy who uploaded NHK music

[@siddarthavadlakonda7483]

I am 20 years old From last 5 years. I am s started feeling Depressed ,anxiety And looked myselfe. I want to die

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Hello. Thanks for your comment. When I was a teenager and through my twenties, I was also suicidal. At that period, I wanted to die. But then an unpredictable change came into my life. I realized how vast the world is and how amazing the people are. It was such an unexpected change. Maybe when I was in despair, I could not think of anything else. But I think there has to be something worth living outside of that horizon somewhere always. I hope you find it. But I know I'm sure it won't be easy. But I hope you find it someday. And I think it's important to ask people for help when you're in trouble. Take Care & Stay Safe!

[@timur6532]

This is called transitional age. You are growing.... now all people in the world has anxiety... I also had depression and anxiety... but you have to figure out, how to relax yourself, how to defende yourself from bad thoughts....as suicidal dreams.... This is life.... no one said it will be easy... even believers get tested by God.....

[@maciejdev]

At first, many years ago, when I watched the first hikikomori documentary, I thought the hikikomori were prevalent in Japan, but as the years went on, I have realised that this is a worldwide phenomenon, not isolated only to Japan. I would know because I was like that too at one time, even still am in some parts, although not as much. Lack of money, job and resources forced me to go to the real world and interact with people, which made me develop some skills to cope with social situations: I worked in construction, then I did training in IT, worked in IT field for 4.5 years, made some savings and I am now living off of them while studing to become a front end engineer/web developer to be able to work from home. d I hope to travel to different countries one day, too.

[@xblindedbythelightx]

Hi! I am an English teacher in Tokyo, also studying Japanese. English is incredibly difficult for Japanese learners, and the more I try to study Japanese and the more I teach in Japan, I realize that your level of English, especially having studied by yourself is absolutely amazing. Im so happy that you have found this path for yourself. 頑張ってね！

[@jeretso]

Hello from America. I see people around me that still stay home all the time. The lockdowns were too long and people got used to deliveries and remote work. I have always been shy and preferred to stay home. Fortunately my office was open during the pandemic and thanks to my coworkers I was able to socialize. I just went on a vacation by myself recently and met many wonderful people. I am glad the world is now open. I think starting a KZbin channel helped me and now I have more motivation to travel. Best wishes to you and your channel.

[@getrekt9841]

7 years hikikomori now🎉

[@bert60hz]

Thank you for sharing your story, Hiroshi. I'm 21 years old and I feel like my life is the same everyday, I've been battling with depression and anxiety for the past few years, and I have had no motivation to be social or find new hobbies. After watching this video, it's making me want to save enough money to start traveling the world, to live life to the fullest. You are a very strong man, and I wish you the best from America!

[@R2ROrancid]

Stay strong bud, I'm 29 and I've been dealing with the same things + panic attacks, while living in an extremely complicated and stressful country. All I can say is that you can combine various things to make your life a little better. For me, therapy and accupunture has done the job so far, I've yet to try medication with psychiatrists.... maybe I will. I know that things will get better and I'll leave this country for the sake of my wellbeing. You can do it bro!

[@bert60hz]

@@R2ROrancid Thank you friend, I wish you all the best during these times

[@jennymisteqq5399]

Watch the Carpe Diem movie with Robin Williams. I forgot the name of it.

[@B_gL_ps5015]

I have been shut in since 2018 , I wish to disappear

[@bert60hz]

@@B_gL_ps5015 it gets better, friend. I have since brought myself out of that rut, if I am able to, you are too ❤

[@nishan_ghimire]

Hi Hiroshi, Your video was very beautiful. Very important message for everyone. I will be happy to meet you if you ever come to Canada. I live in Vancouver, BC. It will be an honor meeting you. Thank you so much once again.

[@mehakverma7043]

You are very strong for making this video and your english is amazing. You are only 36 so you have your whole life ahead of you. It must have been very hard to stop being a hikikomori especially after 10 years. I have great respect towards you. 頑張って !

[@victornunes7891]

I was a hikikomori and I managed to improve too. Success for you.

[@asprywrites]

Hey Hiroshi! Stay strong and keep getting better and better! There's nothing you cannot do. This is a beautiful life filled with tests. If we pass those tests, things get better and better! You're doing great! God bless you.

[@temjenwapang6243]

12 years running for me.

[@xavierlee2326]

Hello! I'm an American from just outside New York City, and I consider myself very lucky for having found this video. Your sentiments throughout this comment section are thoughtful, well-written, and brought a smile to my face. I hope you eventually visit North America and enjoy it. Perhaps you try meeting with fans sometime and perhaps make a few friends? Stay safe.

[@marialuhsj]

This video made me cry, you're so strong. I am a hikikomori for 5 years now with depression, suicide thoughts and severe anxiety. Also I am maladaptive daydreaming (it's a mental issue that cause me to not stopping daydreaming and living in a alternative world in my head) that make me being not productive in all these years, but now I'm learning new languages like japanese and spanish. I hope I can get any job soon and try to recover it. Before this I loved traveling, I traveled to some countries in Europe and USA. I didn't imagine that my future was to be like now, but I think I'm still young (25yrs) and I still have time to restart a better new life. I want to travel to Japan one day. Hi from Brazil!

[@AvArIeNmArKu4]

hello brother i'm Bulgarian i was Hikikomori from early 2009 to mid 2014 you are inspiring me to make a video about me also keep up the great work and keep on

[@Clank-rn1fk]

I've been a hikikomori since June 2013, almost 8 years. I am 24 years old now. I hope I can leave this situation once the pandemic goes away. :/ I am happy for you!

[@fauzianalwoga1002]

I lost my mom last year and now I really don't feel like doing anything else 😢. She was my best friend

[@mlg1337professional]

I have a canadian friend who lost his mom around 10 years ago, he doing good now and works in computer science or something like that, if he could do it then you can too. Be strong, be thinking, be aware. Seek for help and right knowledge.

[@mlg1337professional]

I am hikkikomori too but not because I want to be like that, it's just life circumstances. Thanks man, your common sense faith in wisdom and effort encouraged me and have freed me from toxic influence from other people, god bless you. I hope i'll find right help during my journey in this world.

[@newtonmoon]

I am sure you can, help is available. Well done freeing yourself from toxicity. Good people exist, finding them is challenging but not impossible. I heard being in one's purpose will attract the right crowd, still figuring it out myself.

[@musicfeedsyoursoul8070]

Your English is good! I’m so impressed you’re learning by yourself!

[@aingkieu403]

I'm amazed how you never gave up and managed to turn your life around. I respect that! I hope you keep on doing what you enjoy, traveling around the world 😊

[@jakeshefts]

Didnt even need the subtitles, your English is amazing

[@lynguini]

we don't have hikikomori here in the US but agoraphobia is a real illness that lots of people suffer from...what you accomplished is nothing short of amazing. keep it up :)

[@sagarjamatia565]

こんにちは Hiroshi Yamazoe , I'm from India ! I can understand your pain after listening to your story it's sad :( Right now I'm a Hikikomori aswell and it's very depressing , can't even have a peaceful night or happy morning , I'm struggling from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I have a dream to move Japan since my early teens and mid childhood but I'm not being able to go for it yet. It's nice you could overcome the Hikikomori sickness and life. You got to travel foreign countries from the world aswell :)

[@goldengilmaky6788]

Thank you for shedding light on this plight in our society. You are helping many people have hope in finding something better for themselves through small accumulated efforts.

[@charlesaustin566]

Your English is pretty good. I have made multiple attempts to learn Japanese but the grammar is very difficult. I'm glad you turned your life around. I was very withdrawn for many years and I still am somewhat today. Loneliness is painful and life is hard. Stay strong everyone.

[@twainjones]

Hiroshi look at all the positive comments you have, you have inspired people! Thank you for sharing ❤Good job and best of luck in the future. From a shut-in in Norway.

[@igloo2862]

Your English is more than good enough. I understand you completely

[@kurtv9375]

So freaking proud to see this and hear him say ( I WAS AN HIKIKOMORI ) So u can see his mindset has changed so damn happy to hear that! I feel you my brother 17 years i become someone i'm not! But 2023 is bright for us! Because there are people out there like us we can re-connect with! Never give up never stop believing in yourself! Your power are your limits! U have the power to reach the limits u create! :) Smile life is amazing!

[@dindundanadventure5650]

You are a kind of superhero! You are the embodiment of my hopes in people! Thank you for making me regain some faith in people.

[@hatsunemikuwilson4787]

hello hiroshi i see myself as hikikomori i been like this 30 years i am now 51. it is hard living this way i know and i only go out to pay bills and buy food and i do not talk to anyone face to face unless i have to. i know hikikomori the term has not been around as long as i have had this but now i have a word for how i am. i do not have family that can give me emotional support now and i am old so i do not see how i can improve my situation, i am not asking for anything i was just telling you that i am glad you was able to move on with your life.

[@ChenAQlaboratory]

Hi Hiroshi Yamazoe , it’s good to watching your video, I’m planing to travel alone to the Europe and wanted to know the big world too. Wish us good luck.

[@makelovenotwar78653]

You are really inspiring for me. I'm also shut in most of the time and I barely have any social contact. I still would like to travel alone in the future.

[@Shaddonius]

Hello Hiroshi! I feel for you. Congratulations for your progress and being able to move forward! I completely shut down for years after my dear sister died and I withdrew from everything, being dead in all but physical body. I had nightmares that still haunt me to this day of our last conversation. Then 6 years later I started climbing back : I started working and completing my studies and now I have a job in the field. But it did not kill this feeling of 'living automatically' until this year when, somehow,this amazing woman confessed she had feelings for me and i also had them. Unfortunately, she ended up choosing someone else because I was weak, did not inspire confidence and deep inside I knew I was not worthy of love. So I'm trying to fix that. I started lifting weights and going swimming. I know she will never come back since she is now seeing someone else but I am grateful for the experience. I am trying to understand why do I not feel like I deserve love and, perhaps, building some strength, inside and outside, is the answer. I even made some casual swimming buddies and sometimes people congratulate me for my progress, which keeps me going! I will travel next month to a different city to a see a concert, which is something I've never done before! Maybe, some day, some other amazing woman will walk into my life. I am 33 and probably a loser by any outsider looking at me, but I am still trying my best to move forward.

[@iamjackspyramidshapedhelmet]

Your English is just fine, you’re doing great! This video is older so I’ll bet it’s flawless now ❤

[@amytakikawa]

Your English is so good, very smooth & easy to understand. I am a foreigner living in Japan, thus I think I understand how it was to become hikikomori or foreign to your own country. All my best wishes to you 😊

[@digitab4446]

Going out and travelling the world? Learning English? You're doing great man! I'm happy you got to travel so much! If you ever come to South Africa, know that we'd be happy to have you! (It can be dangerous here because of crime though, so stay safe!)

[@pookavi]

Thanks sou mch my dear friend. My son 19 yrs is in similar situations.

[@seekthuth2817]

As a straight male, this man is the cutest man I've ever seen. He deserves all the happiness.

[@FritoPapito]

Hey Hirosi, I just want to thank you for sharing this gem to us. It is very inspirational. I hope you continue to chase after your dreams. Your courage despite your negative circumstance in the past is something I deeply admire and wish to emulate. Thank you once again!

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Thank you for your nice comment. I'm still lacking in courage. I am not a so brave person. but your comments encouraged me. Thank you! and yes, I will never give up and make proceed always. good luck and stay healthy! and I hope your dreams come true.

[@mija5261]

Hats off to you 👏🏻 such an incredible human being 💛

[@mija5261]

if in perfect timing with a given opportunity, please be an instrument to help other "Hikikomoris" get of of their current situation as well. they deserve human touch, connection and love, all combined :) hugs 🙋🏻‍♀️

[@HirosiYamazoe]

@@mija5261 Thank you. I will continue to make videos as who was a long-turn Hikikomori. I hope it if helps to something for lonely people.😊 best!

[@Mushedpotatoes]

Your story is really inspirational, also your english is good and understandable, I was surprised how in Japan you can find work and get paid enough money so you can even travel and without an academic background, in my country even after studying for years at university people end up unemployed or working in jobs that can't allow them even to rent a house :(

[@mylittleunderground2420]

You are an inspiration and should be so proud of all you've achieved. Big hugs from Australia and I wish you all the very best!🥰

[@SamGoggins]

You're a great young man and you can be proud of yourself and what you have achieved. It was heartwarming to listen to your inspiring story. Thank you for sharing it with us. All the best

[@RyanUybengkee]

your english is one of the best i have heard so far. keep up the good work Hiroshi

[@sandyherho1997]

Hi Hirosi. Thank you very much for what you shared here. Your story gives me hope to cope with my situation. I am 27 yo from Indonesia, living with my parents for nearly 3 years since I got Bachelor's degree. I had difficulty to cope with university's life and spent 6 years to finish undergraduate degree, also dropped out two times from grad school due to financial situation and late diagnosis autism, since then I became a Hikokomori. I don't know how this bad habit and trauma can be ended, I even have a suicidal thought. But after watching your story I felt that I can become someone who can find meaningful life and deserve a normal life. If you don't mind I want to share my story with you and hopefully get a piece of advice. Thanks Hirosi for your motivation! (I apologize my English isn't that good enough, I am still working on it).

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Hello Sandy Herho. thanks for the comment. and sorry for the late reply. I think your English is far better than me! I can understand everything what you said. I think everyone deserves to get a meaningful good life. And yes. of course. you too. I do not have so very good life. and I feel that I lack courage and various ability still. But, I think it is important to keep trying without giving up to get a good life. so I will never give up. and I try to get to a better life always. and Yes of course you can share my story. I hope you and I will have a better life in the future! Good luck!

[@jonirischx8925]

You are strong! Never give up! We believe in you!

[@bettytseutsiamis9124]

Hey Hiroshi, hello and big hug from Australia. I have been following stories about hikikomori for many months now. I have not met one but i know how they feel about withdrawing themselves from society. I feel like that sometimes too. It takes a lot for you to take the first step stepping out of the 4 walls, not to mention posting a video in foreign language telling your story. You did it!! I am very happy for you 😁. You have the courage to start from scratch and live your life better than a lot of us out here who has not been thru what you have. So, i just wanna say, good job stepping out and improving your life. I will be looking forward to watching your videos. Love from Australia ❤️❤️

[@PoyoUws]

Thank you for this wonderful video , you made my day a little bit better :)

[@9thecolor51]

The shame around "non-regular jobs" in East Asia is beyond ridiculous. Not only is working with your hands and machinery worthwhile, you can apparently make good money in Japan! You would never guess by how those workers are regarded. That explains why they often have nice cars here in Korea.

[@VS-ki1kb]

Great video. I was bullied during school and effected me for a long time. For the most time it has effected my life. Seeing your video has shown me that a positive attitude will get you places. Keep going!

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Thanks for watching! Yes. The influence of bullying does not disappear even after becoming an adult. But I think people can overcome that. Yes keep going. and Never Give Up!

[@icanary64]

I think your English is wonderful, keep on going. 😊

[@SarcasticSyringe]

Always remember that no matter what society does to you, you don’t have to let it change you. I’m glad you’ve gotten an interest in learning languages and your English is really good. I’m sorry you had to go through all of those things including suicidal thoughts. I suffered with suicidal thoughts and tendencies for about two years but now I’ve gotten out of it and mindset has completely changed thank god. Thank you for sharing your story with us that alone is the biggest step.

[@nilsix2371]

Dude your english is really good, nice video too, I'm definitively subscribing.

[@randallgoeswhere]

My man if you ask me you won life. You are a free man and are your own best friend. This is way better than being married and having a family young struggling to survive and being a slave. Most people you age would kill to be in your position. Im a single man also like this. This is the best life ever.

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Hello the_real_zabimaru! Thank you for your comment. I am living this kind of life now, but I don't know what will happen in the future. I will try my best to make my life even happier in the future. But anyway, I think there is no right answer to life. I think that having a family is also a wonderful thing, even though it may sometimes bring less freedom. 😊

[@JamesM-kc7tx]

God bless you. I have lots of love for you my friend, i wish nothing but the best for you 🪽❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@ticklemeelmo73]

That picture at 0:56 looks like Omihachiman. I lived in Omihachiman for a few months when I first arrived in Japan. I hope you are still doing well and continuing your English studies.

[@beliverfaith4766]

Very inspiring video. Very happy with all the things you had done. Love from Malaysia

[@nuchzara97]

You are so good. You overcome hikikomori and honestly really impress. The world is such a beautiful place and ton of good people. I hope you still travel a lot and make tons of friends around the world. Also do take care of yourself, not all people you meet are good. Your English from self study is honestly impressive. :) lots of support and energy to you.

[@kathrindoll6903]

Remember to just be yourself n let the world adjust to u, never seclude yourself, n remember U can have fun by yourself n if others want to join u even better.

[@stevendalipis1176]

Greetings from Australia… Congratulations on all your milestones… Teaching yourself another language is a challenge and yet u excel very well.. you should be proud of yourself….

[@nightmare-nightmarenightma1147]

This makes me so happy

[@HirosiYamazoe]

That's great! :D

[@keshanizm]

hats off to this gentleman. So inspiring! 💪💪💪

[@past543]

Nice profile pic 😁

[@Aspiring-Hobo]

Your English is pretty good. I guess I am hikikomori as well. I have PTSD, ADHD, avoidant personality disorder, and an anxiety disorder. I've never been able to work. I stay in my house all day except for two one hour walks I take. I don't live in a city, so I can go out and not be bothered by crowds too much. I have a couple friends, but that's enough for me. I don't really understand people and it's too much of a pain in the ass to do *any* socializing . I get where I am feeling down, but not too bad. I'm not happy, but not as miserable as I used to be. I'm 48

[@FeedMeJuice]

Your English is actually perfect. I wish I spoke the language I’m learning now as good as you’re speaking English.

[@samaazeinelabedin5726]

I am so happy watching ur video and channels... it gives me hope and the meaning of not giving up on oneself ❤❤❤❤❤

[@BB-or8gi]

Your English is very strong! WE support you and wish you all the best!

[@chibaohuynh1966]

Thank you!! You are my hero of me now!!my English not good!!but I thank you thank you so much!!!

[@mannywilson6297]

You are an inspiration

[@kowloonbroadcast]

this is so cool, my man. travel is indeed a substantial eye opener. i also commend your brüt force approach to improving English - like, _“fuck it, i’ll just go YT head first”_ that’s some *balls* loool. but really, your English is already good enough to apply for some legitimate jobs that deal with some companies’ english speaking pool of clients. as long as you’re able to reliably convey whatever your main point might be, even if the grammar suffers a bit sometimes. i know this may sound somewhat absurd, but it’s true nonetheless from what i see throughout past ~12years of my employment history across several niches i happened to work in. in all, there’s only one thing i was able to pickup from your speech that might be helpful to point out, ‘cause it was misspelled more than once throughout the video. that is: avoid using _“more”_ with an adjective in its comparative form (that is the one that ends with _“-er”,_ e.g. _”better”_ ). think of them as the ones that include “more” within the structure of their 2nd form, specifically in that _”-er”_ ending, so adding another “more”, such as with “better”, results in a phrase that basically means “more more good”. “more” is ok to use in the context of comparatives only with adjectives of 3+ syllables, in which case these long-ass adjectives don’t have a specific comparative form, and require adding “more” to convey the same meaning (like in case with _“attractive” - “more attractive”_ will be used, etc). so basically, forget about the existence of the word “more” when using any adjective of 1-2 syllables - _better, higher, happier,_ etc. remember of its existence only while approaching the long-ass ones of 3+ syllables - _more beautiful, more reliable, more resilient, etc._ by any means, this spot is an extremely common, almost inevitable struggle for anyone learning the language as a foreign one at some point of their progress. good news is that statistically it’s just as easy to fix with a bit of additional attention devoted to this type of phrasings and patterns in your speech, largely to let your mind have some additional time to recognize them a mere second earlier than it usually happens. i’m not judging by any means - if anything, it’s literally the only thing that caught attention of my inner-grammar-nazi. so since it’s a relatively easy concept to explain, i’m just throwing in my couple of cents here just to maybe possibly help with your progress in this tiny way. so, anyway, that’s a hell of a good job you did with intentional rewiring of your brain. wish you all the possible luck on your journey.

[@julia393n]

You are a great role model for young people who face social rejection. You turned your life around, and became someone who has overcome all his challenges. You show young people there is a better way of life than being a "hikikomori" and give them hope. I am from Australia but I used to live in Saga, Kyushu. I understand how difficult it is to be in a foreign country and learn a new language. Please keep making more videos :)

[@winrelgalo2940]

I'm so sad when I hear your story. Don't give up. You're english grammar is much better than. I'm still learning english. I'm inspired by you.

[@thetudortimes]

I'm english and your english is very good. I didn't need to read the subtitles. Wishing you all happiness in your life.

[@HirosiYamazoe]

Thanks for the feedback! I am so glad people understand my English. 🙂

[@normanknutsen8253]

Thank you for sharing Sir.

[@quakerz1228]

Your English is very good. thank you for sharing your story Hiroshi. let's make friends all over the world.

[@user-uu5jf3jo3o]

I just subscribed. I think that hikikomoris = 👏🙏. Why? Because they point out a big problem: more money but less kindness, love and true values. They show how meaningless modern life is and say: go the other way, cause his way sucks! Thank you!

[@kdont35]

Thank you for sharing and being so open about your experience. I am 37 and in America and would consider myself a hermit. Lonely awkward and suicidal. I work from home since covid. Tried my own business but failed. I dream of travel too. I love to watch other countries and cultures on KZbin. You are inspiring that you travel alone. I can barely leave home bc it hurts to see people with friends and family and lovers. If I could learn to look past that maybe I could travel too. God bless you

[@newtonmoon]

You can, life is a journey with up and downs. Know help is available and you can change and improve.

[@FaceCreeper]

Like my situation now, I don't interact with outsiders, I stopped going to school, I just stay in my room, Because the outside world was so hard for me and I was humiliated everywhere, and in the end I ended up like this but I was happy

[@secretysecret1551]

Amazing story. I'm from Los Angeles USA, I've gone to Japan many times and everyone was so welcoming and amazing. In turn, I've made the promise to return the favor to my Japanese brothers. Should you ever make your way to this part of the world, Id be happy to give you a tour of the area.

[@crimsonghost4107]

私もじへいしょうです。日本語を勉強しています。I don't know how to express this in Japanese, but it makes me so happy to see you thriving.