I Was Raped When I Was 14 Years Old

[@KendallRae]

GOD YOU ARE PERFECT!!!... Sorry I had to get that out of the way, you are just stunning girl! Thank you for opening up about this. I'm sure it was painful to talk about on camera. You did a really good job with this video. I think it will help a lot of people.

[@abbien768]

Kendall 😊💕

[@iamamsx]

OMG I love you

[@horsecrazed01]

You watch Julie too!! 😍

[@JulesPorta]

tauras88d 🖕

[@Niamh-i6m]

Ello! Ima fan! ✨

[@weirdgirl94]

This is an example of freezing. Not really knowing what to do, and it just happens. This needs to be talked about more. Because it's way more common than people think. Because the logical thing is to "Fight, scream, kick." But sometimes it doesn't happen like that. And it's okay. I'm glad you could come forward and talk about it! You're a really good person for people to look up to, you're awesome Jules.

[@davidferrer678]

yup exactly so many people believe that if you are getting raped or sexually assaulted you have to fight back scream etc etc but in reality that isn't always the case some times people freeze up you can't comprehend the situation and some believe some people want to think that if you didn't fight back or make it stop that you deserve it and its a sad reality that people want to believe that

[@TheArtofThings]

+Melissa Hale Happened to me and its one of th worst feelings in the world like its your fault. Wish people talked more about it.

[@dasweird216]

It's such a strange feeling :(

[@nadiad3963]

+Melissa Hale Yes, thank you!! MOST victims freeze when they are attacked. It's a natural biological response. We need to educate the public on this, because they are woefully unaware.

[@nadiad3963]

+Melissa Hale Have you read this? www.washingtonpost.com/news/grade-point/wp/2015/06/23/why-many-rape-victims-dont-fight-or-yell/

[@TheMathDieu]

I was raped last December. I was studying late at night, it was like 1 am. I heard my cat screaming and crying, and last time he got attacked we had to take him to the vet, so I went down to shoo the other cat, but my cat went just across the street and was hiding under a car. So I went to get him. I was wearing my pyjamas (shorts and basically a tshirt), and after I got my cat I see three men, who've been staying at a hotel near my house, out of nowhere, walking in the middle of the street. I panicked a little and I don't know why I didn't just pass just next to them to go home, I was scared I guess, so I kept moving forward (the opposite way of my house) hoping that I would eventually lose them or something. However, I noticed that they were following me. Maybe they thought that I was leading them? That I was interested? idk. At one point I decided to just go back home. One of them just grabbed me in the arm and just said like "where are you going? are you lost? what's your name?" something of that sort. (I was 16, I'm 17 now). I'm a trans girl, who at that time looked like a feminine boy. Maybe it was because it was dark, but they thought I was a cis girl. Anyway, I wanted them to just fuck off, so I thought that if they knew that I'm a "boy", with a penis, they'd just leave me alone. So I told him, literally, to fuck off, I'm a boy. They had that look on their face like they were kind of mad? But then one of the guys just had a really horrible smirk on his face. I told them that I want to go home, he replied saying things that I don't really remember, but I know were probably disgusting. At that point I ran away the opposite direction, but then I feel something choking me really bad, like all my body pulled back. He strangled me with his belt, then pushed me away behind a wall in a construction site. He hit my head a few times on the wall, then undressed me and yeah. It happened. The other two raped me too. I don't really remember what I saw, or what they were doing, but I clearly, more than anything else, remember the pain. I don't know if it lasted 10 minutes or 1 hour. They left me just like that, dirty and bloody. After idk how long, I got up, wore my shorts, and walked slowly home. I wanted to hang myself, but I didn't. The next day I went to school, my whole body full of scars and my head with a big red mark, and my neck with red marks as well. I got into trouble because they assumed I had attempted suicide. I didn't tell my parents until a few days later, but they told me to keep quiet and that they'll help me with whatever I need. I was diagnosed shortly after with clinical depression, anxiety, and up to one month after the event, I constantly, almost every day, had panic attacks and anxiety attacks, and fainted at least a few times a week. I absolutely couldn't sleep without waking up crying and screaming because of bad dreams. Added onto the fact that my life was already shitty enough. But after a while things got better. Not too much, but definitely better. I think that's mostly due to my friends and boyfriend. I have a boyfriend who's really supportive and who, as cheesy as it sounds, saved me. He makes me extremely happy, and slowly, of course it won't happen that easily, he's helping me get over it. I guess what you can take of this comment is that no matter what happened to you, you will always, always find something that will eventually help you. Let it be yourself or others. Otherwise, idk why but I just felt like sharing this. I mean, it's not like anyone knows who I am so fuck it.

[@ashleylopez1419]

oh my goodness...i feel so bad for you thank god you have a person you love to keep you positive and happy. you are such a strong person.

[@TheMathDieu]

+ashley lopez Thank you so much. I'm getting better really, it's taking some time but I'm getting better

[@amanigraham8085]

TheMathDieu omg I am so sorry.

[@mhenganicete1940]

TheMathDieu i feel so sorry for you, I'm trans too.

[@Mia-qi3wd]

TheMathDieu omg I'm am so so so sorry that happened to u and nobody deserves that and thank u for sharing your story

[@esile567]

Dear rape victims: It was not your fault. It NEVER is. Thank you for sharing your story, I hope it will encourage other victims to come forward and talk about their experience. Sharing helps create more openess, and lessens the shame and tabu around it.

[@shrutishinde5012]

+Cravingskies1 shut your fucking mouth

[@esile567]

+Cravingskies1I dont get offended by you. Try dealing with your life instead of being mean on youtube, I think you are smart enough to know its not very constructive. Wish you the best, take care.

[@wonkabo]

+Elise Hanssen I don't even know what to do with people like that...

[@esile567]

+wonkabo Trolls go away if you love them or ignore them ;)

[@goatmsc3023]

+Elise Hanssen "Try dealing with your life"? Really? Try dealing with the fucking consequences of your own actions instead of all this "never my fault" bullshit. Everyone, I mean EVERYONE has been manipulated sometime in their life. Whether it be an abusive relationship, an abusive workplace, or something as severe as sexual abuse, we've all been through it. NO, that doesn't make us fucking "victims". If it's not our fault, and we're not responsible for OUR OWN outcome, then I guess we're all powerless beings under the control of anyone who pleases to make us their fucking puppet. Nah, that's bullshit, instead of playing the victim, learn from your mistakes, no matter the misfortune and hardship, and never make the same mistake again.

[@princessjoules]

I just wanted to say, thank you so much for the overwhelming love and support. I thought I would get more negative feedback and I was contemplating if I should delete this video or not. But it seems like a lot of people resonate with this video so therefore I will leave it up. I am doing fine, just staying positive and moving forward with my life. Again, thank you so so so much for all of your support from the bottom of my heart. Much love, Julie.

[@lizethsaldana8379]

💗💗💗

[@InorganicVegan]

For all victims. Go to the police, not cousins!

[@FluffyCarpenterBee]

+Perlitahabanera geneticists have been able to isolate a gene that may be responsible for trans people. Someone can't be made trans it's a biologically thing just like anything else with sex and gender but believing people can become trans or gay,for that matter is an honest mistake and if these things come with rape and abuse it can stand to reason, rape and abuse can actually suppress trans and gay feelings as well as bring them out but the would have been there regardless.

[@mizocosmic]

Thats so sad.Hope you doing okay now man 😢

[@baubrey5737]

+Diana, the Inorganic Vegan yeah, quite agree...

[@skullgirrl757]

Even if you were young and naive and the situation wasn't what you expected it be, the victim is never to blame. I was sexually assualted at 9 and raped by a close friend at 15 because I went there expecting to be safe. But you know what that wasn't my fault and this isn't yours and even if you "I was young, naive and dumb" that doesn't change the fact that some took advantage of you and hurt you

[@michelleamytempletonnsstep8814]

Skull Girrl LOL!

[@ilovegoose726]

michelle amy templetonn's stepdad why is that funny?

[@kitteekittee4010]

Godbless you im so sorry

[@namjoonsleftdimple9634]

Skull Girrl I'm relly sorry for you i hope you're fine now. I love you

[@JJ-yu6og]

Sexual assault and rape are synonymous. Why are you talking as if they are 2 different things?

[@AlexandrasGirlyTalk]

You are so strong.

[@MrSam0119]

I know right ?! Love you Alexandra

[@alexandraaliferis5403]

Omg I love your videos👼

[@lalapinkgreen]

+AlexandrasGirlyTalk love you babe

[@monicmonic3381]

+AlexandrasGirlyTalk i love you gurl!!!..

[@imyz8132]

Knew u were a guy alexansras

[@gunnarolla]

Very brave of you to share this

[@phaedraceleste5582]

How tf is anyone evil enough to put someone in so much pain. I’m so sorry, you’re so strong

[@j.elliott8432]

placing blame on yourself is harmful. you did not ask for that to happen to you. You made a poor choice but that does not make you a bad person.

[@smol.cinnbonmaya3078]

Nice last name there

[@omaryisnice3685]

+Maya Elliott tehe my last names Elliott too.

[@goatmsc3023]

+Jennifer Elliott NO, playing the victim is harmful. It's so incredibly sad to see your leftist females thinking placing blame on yourself is harmful. If you make a FORESEEABLE, IGNORANT, and POOR choice, that is YOUR fault. YOUR choices and actions are YOUR responsibility. Rather than putting the blame everywhere else, just accept it if you've made a fucking mistake, no matter the misfortune, learn from it, and know that only YOU have to power to control your life.

[@j.elliott8432]

Yes she was raped. of course it was a mistake but I was pointing out that she is leaning more on blaming herself which can be damaging.

[@goatmsc3023]

+Raquel Paris I never said the psychopath who committed the crime is free from blame. You just pulled that out of your ass. What I implied was that a "victim", or those who see themselves as a potential victim, should accept the fact that these mentally ill weirdos will not simply cease to exist overnight or even in their lifetime (if at all). Rather than putting all their mental energy on the fact that rapists who prey on young girls/boys and women do exist, they should instead focus on things that actually PREVENT the fucking problem. Such things include: good judgment (avoid relationships with mentally unstable partners, being drunk with strangers, avoiding trashy areas), carrying a weapon in areas where sexual assault poses a risk (even if its just a stungun/taser), etc. It's so incredibly fucking sad to see young women who are so concerned with such issues putting all their focus and mental energy on what they CAN'T prevent, yet they don't even own a fucking stun gun you could buy for $30 that will have a would-be rapist shaking on the ground pissing himself.

[@ImGirlYouDontKnow]

You are so strong and brave. I am so sorry this happened. I hate that we have such evil in this world who would rape anyone. So scary. To me people who rape/molest/kidnap deserve the worst punishment.

[@angellenoir37]

Yes

[@End-Me-Plz]

Screw the death penalty, they should be put through torture

[@rainbowsam2335]

+Rhino ya they should

[@katnipeverdeen4641]

Trust me everyone will get what they deserve whether in this life or next it will happen don't worry about them honestly

[@sempervirensssp]

as a victim myself, my heart goes out to you. no one should ever have to experience this. you're a role model to me, stay strong, jules!

[@mawithaxdd]

Reading all these comments are breaking my heart. The fact that so many people and youths have had similar experiences or have been sexually assaulted is heart-wrenching. I wish I could hug each and every one of you.

[@rfeyman3682]

Thank you for sharing this. I was kidnapped as a teen and I have never trusted anyone fully since this happened. Thankfully someone noticed something was off and called the police, so I wasn't held for very long. I do just want to say that therapy really helped me quite a lot. There is still a stigma against therapy in this country for some reason. I just tell people I am in therapy to deal with all the people who should be in therapy.

[@TeeryvelizCurbelo]

Would it be rude if I wanted to know your story? It seems very tragic but very interesting in some weird way. I'm glad you got rescued and you could be safe, I hope you can find peace, you are truly wonderful.

[@rfeyman3682]

+Teeryveliz Curbelo Well you did ask ;) I was riding my bicycle for exercise as much as it was good to get away from my narcissistic mother. Two guys in a van pulled up beside me and said, "Hey we want to talk to you." I was like, "Oh hell no!" and cut across someone's lawn to get to the highway. The two guys in the van drove quickly down the block and went the wrong way up the highway to catch up to me. Cars were swerving and screeching to a halt to avoid hitting us. I kind of froze and they put me and my bike in the van, then drove off. They put me in a room in the back of a restaurant one of the guys owned and called the police. Apparently, someone had damaged their property and they picked up the first person who sort of fit the description they were looking for. Long story short there was a ton of police cars and they arrested the two guys for reckless endangerment, false imprisonment, and kidnapping. Oh and the police were able to track down the actual culprit from the security camera footage. Just crazy that someone could justify this insanity in their own mind and it took me a while before I got back on my bike.

[@TeeryvelizCurbelo]

R Feyman Wow, your mom never went to pick you up ?

[@julial3758]

+R Feyman well at least it wasn't a tragic ending.. but that's weird it happened to you... and those idiots... seriously how could they think they can take this into their own hands. They should have just called the police instead

[@rfeyman3682]

+Teeryveliz Curbelo Narcissistic parents usually split children into two categories, black sheep and the golden child. I was the black sheep, so my mom assumed I was the one at fault.

[@slim.quaidy]

I was sexually assaulted by an older guy at my high school when I was 14 if I hadn't brought a friend with me who knows what he's done to me. I'm 21 now and still get flashbacks and nightmares. I went to a therapist for it when I started dissociating a lot and he advised me to write down everything I could remember from that night and then tear up and burn the pages and it helped a lot to just clear my mind of all the negativity and help the healing process. Thank you for Sharing your story im so sorry that happened to you. You are so beautiful and strong and you just helped a lot of people by coming out and saying what you said. Love you Jules

[@danceluvr30]

don't call him a gentleman

[@XxImuginxX]

i was 14 when it almost happened to me. luckily the guy stopped before it got too far and i ran away. You would think "oh you could just hit him and run away" but no you freeze and don't know what to do.

[@XxImuginxX]

+Naozumi it seriously was! i just remember i kept whispering and repeating "no no get off me". and he just stopped. after that i ran and cried all the way home. i just got really lucky.

[@skybear17]

+Miranda Yvette wow. Thank god you got away

[@RubyOpheliaQuinn]

It's not uncommon. You go into a state of shock and your brain just kind of shuts down. I'm glad that you managed to get away before he hurt you any more.

[@noelle7786]

I dreamt I was about to get raped and I was screaming for my mom for some reason. Then in my dream, I kicked him hard in the face as he tried to pick me up repeatedly (I don't know how I dreamt about this, but my drams usually come true... So I'm concerned..)

[@nyaweh8156]

+Andreas Peahc She said she was ALMOST raped, plus she said she kept repeating "no no get off me" It should take ONE "No"

[@gauthier1129]

Same thing happened to me when I was 14, I’m a guy, never our fault!

[@gauthier1129]

BorissRaco don’t be, like queen B says I’m a survivor

[@rinadebbarma7292]

Are u gay because of that

[@Mintyoreos]

Thank you so much for sharing this.

[@Niamh-i6m]

Ello! I love your videos! ✨💕💅

[@claudia-kw1kb]

JOULIE! I am in tears. I have been watching you for so long and oh my god ... this hurt me so bad. I feel your pain so much. There's so much pain there still underneath. I am so proud of you for releasing this video, I think it's really helped you in overcoming this event. You are so strong, beautiful.

[@kris_t]

Oh my gosh I didn't even realise she used to be a boy

[@robertallen485]

Kristy Morrow .....this is the first time I've seen her and I guessed it 5 seconds in. I'm not hating, but it's there

[@kris_t]

Robert Allen I though she was a model, most models have this look.

[@thewackerman2410]

ohhhh

[@fendiellis4192]

Kristy Morrow mean either

[@BrookelleBlasphemy]

Kristy Morrow she was never a boy

[@leannnnne2cool]

I guess everyone was young and naive, I've been in a very similar situation too..

[@mayday9676]

Yeah but after something like that you "grow" up and it changes you also. I hate that shit like this happens to people everyday and that person feels helpless and dirty like she was talking about. Even though it isn't the persons fault at all, they still feel like it is. Also in most cases like this, the person who did it never gets what they deserve!!! That is the saddest part I think 😢.

[@bellfarpraipuhgun7825]

Yes,I have faced that experience before.We can't change thing that happened in the past.TT

[@ккє-о6ц]

yes 😔

[@rockstar-kw3ip]

same here

[@wingicecream7125]

same

[@ioche_au]

I have a profound disdain for anyone who thinks they are entitled to another person's body. I'm so proud of you Julie. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@EricaAsjaee]

I got raped when I was 16, I remember that day like it was yesterday my classmate just so happened to find me running up the street crying . I calls my ex to come meet me he's always there for me . I was completely out of it for weeks, I went to school the next day & my teacher knew something was wrong with me because I was bubbly & always talking . 4 years later I still wake up at the same time every night . I saw the boys Facebook a few weeks ago & he was talking all this bible mess . I've been to therapy & on pills to control my ptsd but I still have a hard time dealing with it I cant wait to get closure & live normal

[@isis5888]

Jesus, Julie. You weren't stupid, you were a kid who expected an adult to treat them with respect. I'm so sorry that happened to you. It's not your fault.

[@steveedwards9711]

I've never clicked a notification so fast. Omg

[@humboldtfrog]

Why do comments like these always get likes

[@effy5771]

+Kirsten Cordary theyre relatable

[@yoss1436]

Not the right video to comment this...

[@steveedwards9711]

+Yo Ss I love Julie as a person so when I see a video titled this my reaction was basically "OMG wtf"

[@sandraessman3205]

I am so sorry you had to go through that traumatic experience. No one should ever have to experience that! You are a survivor and and a true warrior. Your soul is mighty and you own it girl! Love and Light

[@camerababeludy]

The past is the past, your a queen and my inspiration to work harder to help people! Thank you mother jewels!!

[@SimbaTheGreat]

happened to me twice. the first time at a party and my "friends" cheered it on. the second time I was at whataburger and a strange man followed me into the restroom and...I'm not gonna share that part but I was EXTREMELY scared and cried.

[@pepega8286]

I'm sorry that happened to you. Just stay strong.

[@clarasmallman]

+Satsuma Chan lol no no zone. That's a wierd way to put it. Try private area next time.

[@luisparga7830]

Simba TheGreat

[@zummagonzalez5096]

Sad to hear that you went through this, I am very sympathetic to children who were victims of a pedophile and all victims rape. I know it is something that you will always carry because I know many females and a few males who were victims of pedophiles. My best friend was a victim at the age of 8 so I found out about pedophiles at a very tender age and because of this and because I was almost a victim at the age of 13 I am a very overprotective Mother. While often being raped is unavoidable I have a little advice to add: ●children should not befriend adults who they meet on the Internet or in the street ●children should not stop to give directions to an adult, an adult should ask another adult for assistance ●do not be enticed by a person who claims to be a photographer, promoter, etc... If this person is truthful they would have a business card and a place of employment and would ask you to make an appointment to see them and if you are a child would tell you that you have to bring an adult/parent with you ●never approach an adult in a vehicle asking you for anything ●If you're a child home alone (or with other children) never open the door to an adult, not even someone you know ●if a person offers you tickets for example to a concert & will give them to you if you go with them to pick them up, DON'T! If the person really had access to these tickets they could leave them for you at the ticket window. ●children should not meet up with people who they got acquainted with on the internet because that person may not be who you were expecting ●If on an interview the employer flirts with you and/or makes any sexual references or makes you feel uncomfortable get out of there! ● I know it's a difficult thing to do but if you are a victim of rape immediately go to the hospital so that they can gather evidence.

[@arlete9549]

Zumma Gonzalez I am so sorry for whatever you went through, and I am so glad to see how cautious and strong you are about this topic, I'm 13 and I take rape very seriously, I actually want to investigate cases like these and help people when I grow up, I've never been a victim or anything of the sort but I truly have a lot of respect to all the women and men that have had the courage to open up about the topic and I just want to say to keep doing what you are doing and have a nice day😊😊

[@zummagonzalez5096]

arlete perez I'm a very humble person but I have to admit that I pat myself on the back for keeping myself, my children, all my nieces & nephews safe by being vigilant and giving them the same advice that I put down in writing. Your career goals are honorable, best wishes for a successful career.

[@Souran123]

Zumma Gonzalez What happened when you were 13?

[@kristjanorn3342]

NO ONE FUCKING CARES GET A LIFE.

[@madisonhojnocki4340]

Sighvatur Karls you shut up no one Fing cares about you get a life at the dollar store. Oh wait your too poor never mind you'll just have to live with out it

[@Jasmin96961]

Same thing happened to me recently. I was so traumatized that I started to cry uncontrollably. My whole body was shaking and I wanted to die at that moment. I felt so cheap, so dirty and so unworthy of love. I didn't say this to anyone because I was embarrassed. I am embarrassed that everybody around me had loving and caring boyfriends, while I was raped by someone who called me his girlfriend. I am your age exactly, but I am still very naive and trusting. But you are right we live and learn. And I would advise people not to trust the appearance or nice words. As you said you don't know what motives and intentions they have. Thank you.

[@zoekorengold8486]

Hey, it's not your fault. We all could get hurt by someone we trust, you weren't in the wrong, the person who raped you is. I'm sorry this happened to you recently, you are strong and beautiful and nothing is wrong with you, you just had something terrible happen to you. I would suggest talking to someone close, but it's your choice when you're ready

[@SwagaKhalif]

try contacting authorities, I can't stand these sickos going scotch free for what they've done but I can understand that might not be the case for everyone though

[@golden24680]

+Jasmin96961 i'm proud of you for being here still. you did nothing wrong. no one ever asks for that. ever. their bad for violating your trust. their bad for hurting you. proud of you.

[@HelloHappyPlace]

Oh my goodness this had me in tears. You're so brave and strong! ❤

[@Lexightonportia]

This is terrible. You do not need any excuses. It's scary to say no when they have so much leverage over you. You don't want to make them angry because they can do something worse than rape. I'm so sorry.

[@pobbbzo]

I'm so sorry you had to go through this :( you are such an inspiration and we all love how open and honest you are, it's so brave that you can tell us this difficult story to help others ❤️

[@Cloudymama27]

It happened to me when I was 16. I fought but it still happened for 2 mins. I don't have an emotional connection to what happened but when I was about 18 or 19 some creepy guy approached me in Walmart and I froze like you did. Like I had the most miserable and scared look on my face yet I didn't leave that guy and no one helped me. He was asking me sexual stuff and while he didn't rape me but he chased me down in his car. I almost wrecked and I was so traumatized. I had a huge panic attack and I just don't trust anybody. Hate going out at night now. I just hate that stuff like this happens and I'm sorry it happened to you Julie. Thankfully we are strong and can continue to live through our lives and be happy.

[@anncoconutvietnam3714]

+PeachyPrim . I experienced the feeling of being approached fast and I froze , just like your walmart story. Bring pepper spay and don't go along at night, plus taking jui jit su helps me along now, it is building up my self-esteem, it is slow but progressing. Thanks for Peachy for sharing this feeling that I couldn't put it in words. Please know that I care and I am here.

[@Cloudymama27]

ANNCOCONUTVIETNAM I now have a mini tazer a pocket knife and pepper spray. I would love to try jui jitsu though. I can't always have someone with me when I go out at night. I'm still very paranoid but I meditate and have medication for my anxiety and depression. I'm sorry you went through something similar :/ and thank you. I care and I'm here for you and anyone else as well!

[@anncoconutvietnam3714]

+PeachyPrim thank you so much. have a blessed future.

[@Cloudymama27]

***** aww I'm glad :) thank you

[@Cloudymama27]

ANNCOCONUTVIETNAM you too 😊

[@kevinbowers7100]

Thank you for sharing your story Julie. As someone who experienced the same violence, inside of a school at the hands of a teacher, know that it was about them being sick, and not about you. I carry a lot of guilt and shame for what happened but we can't live this way.

[@DiaryofGabby]

I'm so proud of you. It takes so much courage to be truthful about a situation like this. I'm not pitying you, I'm so proud of the fact that you took the initiative to speak to all your supporters about this situation. You've clearly been through a lot, and things we don't know, but regardless, we all admire you for the things you've accomplished and the things you've helped us for. Always here for you. XO.

[@starlovegirl24]

Being a CSA survivor, admitting what happened to yourself and sharing it has helped me so much. therapy also does wonders, it really helps to cement the feeling of “its not my fault.” Being able to talk it out with a professional is a privilege I think anyone who can should take advantage of. Thank you for always being so open with us. you are honestly such a role model 💫💖✨

[@starlovegirl24]

+Cravingskies1 lmgtfy.com/?q=CSA+survivor

[@jerrypie]

+Cravingskies1 Csa is childhood sexual abuse

[@nunyabusiness164]

It took a lot of courage to share this. You have my complete support!! I wish you happiness & love your whole life.

[@tristanpaulik8419]

oh Joules I am so sorry, I really hope that this gives you some closure and you really are helping people, know that.

[@RachelTaylorVA]

You are such a strong, strong person. I really admire you, I'm sorry you had to go through that. You are amazing & beautiful. Keep being you:)

[@RachelTaylorVA]

+RachelTaylorVA Also, you kept saying "mistake". It isn't your fault. I know everyone says that- But is isn't your fault. It is never your fault.

[@fruity1975]

Prepare for a BIG vent I've never told anyone about this but I was molested a few years ago for many years, keep in mind that I'm 13 right now . . . the worst thing is that the person who molested me was my older brother . . . I still see him everyday and when I do, I get reminded of what happened which is EVERYDAY . . . he acts very cruel to me now though it's not sexual assault, he hits me to the point that I get marks on my face ( AKA Blood and bruises ) , I have severe PTSD and can barely rest of the thought that my brother would molest me again without me knowing.Please know that I am not joking or playing a prank and I am just venting as I never feel like I can do so but when no one knows me on KZbin, I can freely say what I would Like without feeling like my brother would find out about me telling others. what makes my situation EVEN worse is that one teacher knew about my situation and I always felt his gaze on me . . . It made me feel uncomfortable (

[@andreatummons4]

I wasn't raped, but 20 years ago I was molested at 7 years old by a family member and it definitely traumatized me. It also ruined me and my future (now) husband when it comes to intimacy. I'm super protective of my daughters and I don't trust very easily. The worst part about it is when the events took place, it was at my grand parents house and I was too young to comprehend exactly what happened to me. I knew I felt so ashamed of myself and I knew something was wrong when I was told to keep it a secret. I told my parents but nobody believed me. I couldn't explain it well and they shrugged the situation off. Years later, at about idk.. 12-13 years old, I had a memory trigger and I was able to remember more about what happened and then I told my parents again but this time with FACTS. I remembered a scar in an area that I should have never in a million years known about and that was what led my parents to believe and take action. :/ The story gets worse from here, but not just for me. Thanks for sharing. You're so brave and so loved.

[@27vampyr]

It's not too late to report to the cops if you remember the guy's name and what he looked like.

[@OddMike]

I was molested when I was 8 by my friend's father and I still deal with the guilt of not telling anyone. Even after 15 years I struggle to remind myself it wasn't my fault. And it wasn't your fault, Joules. We love you

[@rinadebbarma7292]

Are u gay

[@OddMike]

@@rinadebbarma7292 The fuck does that have to do with anything...?

[@obnoxiouslytrans]

@@OddMike Thank you for reminding us that it's not us who make the mistake.

[@theneonchimpchannel9095]

I normally "thumbs up" your videos, but I can't do that with this one because I don't want to feel like I'm approving of what happened. It is so horrible that something like that happened to you. I'm glad that you were able to survive that situation and become the strong, beautiful woman that you are now. You are very brave to share that story.

[@LetsPaintTheRosesRed]

You are so strong. I'm so proud of you. Let the process of healing begin now. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, you have to do what's right for you. 💖 Love you Julie! xo

[@zQuestionsleep]

thank you so much for being brave enough to tell this story. it really does help other people who have been through similar things. also, this is not your fault. theres a difference between exposing yourself to risk and being responsible for the awful things other people do. hugs & love forever

[@minx.bloodbrink3316]

I was raped and raped again by my cousin and dad when I was 4 I remember it like it was yesterday

[@minx.bloodbrink3316]

Also princess I wish I could hug you

[@TrixieWDavis]

+Mrs.BloodBrink♡ im so sorry, thats terrible and at 4 years old. I'm terribly sorry

[@jillianm8958]

That's so horrible I'm so sorry that happened to you. It makes it even worse that it was your family and how young you were. Stay strong❤️

[@laineelizabetelapa4943]

+nikki xoxo can you stop, your comments are not funny

[@skybear17]

+nikki xoxo wtf? ur disgusting!

[@andreamora2522]

People on here are being very FUCKEN rude imagine if someone did that to your child you guys would be upset

[@kite160]

Andrea Mora hell no would fuck my own kid lol

[@GeaVox]

The healing starts when you are ready to embrace your child self, to protect him/her, to comfort him/her. Thank you for sharing this. You're awesome!

[@kfkfkfkfkfkfkfkffkfk]

i love how you keep it real

[@aubreyturner2638]

your teeth are goals. but i love you. thank you for being so brave and putting yourself out there. makes me feel like i'm not the only one in the world that has been sexually assaulted. sadly more then once. i love you kisses stay strong beautiful lady

[@faebledstories]

I was sexually assaulted last year at fourteen. The person is a year older than I and I've been admitted to two different behavioural health hospitals, one once and the other twice. The third time, the second time at the other place, I stayed for over twelve weeks. I still haven't gotten anything done about it because nobody at the school I go to will help me. It was "alleged" sexual assault. I had a really bad mental breakdown when I saw him at a dance and my principal blamed ME for it. I can't wait to go to a new school. I'm so so so SO sorry this happened to you, as it happened to my partner as well. I was lucky to not get raped. I'm sorry you and my partner went through that. You've been strong through everything and it is SO motivating! I don't see how you do it. You're so strong. Keep doing your thing because you're doing a damn good job!

[@NaomiClaireisHappy]

I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing your experience. I honestly don't know what this would be like to go through. You are so strong for coming out about this.

[@swaggboy142]

thats a horrible story im sorry that happened to you

[@MegaMusical10]

Thank you, so much for sharing! This is a planned "teachable moment" for me & my 10 yr old granddaughter, occurring right now. You have made my job so much easier, even though my heart aches for the trauma that you have suffered. If it's any comfort to you, know that so many other children are being saved from this horrific tragedy, because you cared enough to share. May God bless your life!

[@Mizzycupcakes]

it still blows my mind that victim blaming is so strong and prevelant in this day and age. being trans being male or female and your age and your trustworthiness shouldn't ever take away from the fact that you were hurt and taken advantage of and abused by another person. smh. idc who this person is have some compassion that a HUMAN BEING was RAPED. smh.

[@emilyj.4785]

wait you were a boy at that time right? ...um

[@princessjoules]

+Emily J. Yes, he was a gay male.

[@mizocosmic]

+Alyx Rose Mhhh I dont think so."Julie" or whatever he calls himself is a gay man.He got surged to look like a female but his dna and face screams I am a man lol 😂😂😂 .He is a sad surged man who rejected nature and God

[@sophosophie]

+Mischa Lauren wow, you're super arrogant. I'm guessing you're young? You know nothing darl, stop making a fool of yourself

[@marieapost22]

+Mischa Lauren you are so ignorant and hateful . Instead of spreading hate and vulgar comments , say something good and encouraging to a woman that went through a lot to become who she truly is after a lot of efforts ,or don't say anything at all . We have the right to be happy , since we don't endanger and jeopardize someone else's life . So does this beautiful woman Julie . xxx

[@lollytyler7882]

+Mischa Lauren Julie is a beautiful woman and she is defiantly a woman she's too pretty to be a man what r u talking about

[@gotTammi]

Thank you so much for posting this. It honestly helped me so much... I was in a similar situation, keeping quiet, no eye contact, and everything. I totally understand that you're over this but its OKAY to cry girl! Remembering memories of a time that someone exploited you and disrespected your natural right as a human being is completely normal to feel upset about. You were so brave in sharing this story and I'm sure this helped more people than you know. Much love and keep up your good work on youtube!

[@XxBumBumX3]

Wish I can give u a hug

[@adrenalynn22]

This made me so angry. I am so sorry to hear this happened to you and to any person. You are all supported and loved.

[@user-zi6kk4zn3s]

This was the first video of yours I ever watched (not today in the past around when you first uploaded it) and ever since than I've been hooked. You're an inspiration. You are sooo beautiful. Rape is never the victims fault.

[@kasey0100]

Hi Julie! I have been watching a good number of your videos and I would like to say that you are a very brave and courageous person. What you have done takes a lot of strength. I can't believe how open and honest you are. I am a regular guy and I really enjoy watching and listening to you. I plan on continuing to watch your videos and watch your progress in the future. One last thing. If I didn't know your history I would think you are a pretty girl with a good sense of humor and good character. So, despite what other people may say, I am sure the good comments definitely out weigh the bad. In my eyes you are not only a pretty face...you are truly a beautiful soul! Have a beautiful day and keep being the special person you are.

[@pyruvicac.id_]

Thank you for sharing this awful story with us. I also was raped at 14 and now 14 years later I still deal with it every day.

[@michelleamytempletonnsstep8814]

P Y R U V I C A C I D LMAO!!!!!

[@polyprinz]

He was NO gentleman. and for you my dear, I applaud you for talking about a very serious subject that many people don't like to talk about, victims are often made to feel ashamed of it, like it was their fault.

[@hannabeebe]

Wait she's transgender? (Not trying to be rude I just found out about this account and I'm curious)

[@Key-gx2px]

yes

[@genevievevan8588]

yes ntbr

[@hannabeebe]

*****

[@BlondIsGod]

Maggie Rhee she's a gorgeous mtf Girl

[@jasminjames8250]

So you grew up holding this to yourself? How?

[@kellynemecek5894]

It was okay that you kept quiet. Being frozen and silent is normal in that kind of situation. All those feelings you had were normal. You weren't disgusting, or dirty. You are incredibly strong. This is a good message to tell younger people not to meet up with people you don't know.

[@trisha60]

im so sorry! there are some awful people in the world!! x

[@xIrisMarie]

It's more common than we think. It's a sick sad world.

[@neemabendera9653]

I trust you girl 100%, a lot of people have been through the same issue. Thank you very much for speaking out and creating awareness, the world today needs people like you.

[@KikiContrerasNyu]

Do you think this had influenced your transition in some way? It's not the first time I hear stories from women who where assaulted or raped and then they decide to transition. Luxeria for example was stabbed on her private area and she has said a few times that event was a really key point to her transition. It's obviously not caused by it, but I think this produces such emotional stress it must affect a trans person a lot and make them question a lot of stuff about life and about their bodies. I'm really sorry this happened to you. There are many people in this world who are too empty inside. Stay safe honey.

[@anapagnoncelli4861]

I don't think so. There are lots of transgender that have never been raped. The same goes to gays and lesbians. Well that is what I think. Btw, I did not know that Luxeria was attacked. Which video does she says that?

[@KikiContrerasNyu]

Anite Celli oh no no, I didn't say it always happens. I was talking about the reaction when this happens to a trans person when they don't know yet they are trans. Luxeria talked about her attack on a video i thinks last year or the year before, I don't remember the title but she was attacked going back home by a drunk man. I will try to find it later.

[@KaylaSaysRawwr]

+Kiki Contreras i think it could be a strong motivation for trans ppl. to change more quickly. but i dont think (for majority of the time) it causes someone to be trans. most transgender ppl usually feel "different " very early on like 6 or 7

[@KikiContrerasNyu]

***** sorry, I think I expressed mysef wrong (I'm not a native speaker) and it sounded as I thought this provokes people to be trans. It doesn't, but it might be a huge motivation for someone that is aready trans

[@otter_cookies7590]

+Kiki Contreras I don't know about others, but I was molested when I was 11, and got gender dysphoria after doing psychedelic therapy (Ayahuasca) when I was 27, bubbling up repressed "feminine" parts of myself. Then, I realized that I may have been raped when I was a toddler (2-4?), but I'm still trying to recover and relive the experiences again.

[@rosebailey7671]

Wait so you are naturally a boy? Sorry I hvE just never seen one of your videos this is the first. But I'm just curious:)

[@hihi-re1ez]

+Benjamin Miles damn you're one angry person. she just asked if the girl was born as a boy.

[@rosebailey7671]

+Benjamin Miles I didn't understand dude sorry!! I'm only 12 and I haven't had that sex class in school yet!!! Plz just stop!! I didn't know and my intention wasn't hating!!!

[@hihi-re1ez]

***** lol you're a troll, aren't you? I've seen so many of your comments on this video, where you're either bringing her down or "defending" her. 'how can a girl be born a boy' lol, well, she was born in the body of a boy, except she has the mind of a girl.

[@ilg13143344]

+Maril Bailey you weren't. pay no attention to the angry kid. julie was born a male yes, but she has always felt like a woman and associated herself with being female. so she transitioned. he is right in a way that she was born female because just like sexuality you don't choose to be gay or heterosexual. In julie's case she was born in the wrong gender. i think this will help you understand more, xx!

[@olivialemaire2512]

***** Transgender people literally use terms like AMAB (Assigned Male At Birth), AFAB (Assigned Female At Birth), MtF (Male to Female), and FtM (Female to Male) to describe themselves all the time. If you're going to mock people you could at least make the effort to mock them on their actual opinions, beliefs, and any other things you find the need to be a complete jackass about.

[@lizabethfriesen6256]

Thank you for sharing this PincessJoules, I'm sorry you had this horrible experience! I'm also sorry for all the hateful comments in the thread! Not that you asked, but I would advise you to see a therapist, it will help to deal with the parts you haven't gotten to yet. The internal emotional turmoil that needs to be resolved. Be well sweetie, you are inspiring!

[@asmrlacedwithpearls4310]

I know at the time she was a boy and it's saddening that she had to endure such pain at that age but it should also be an awareness that not only woman and young girls tragically endure this but men and boys do as well, society fails to see that.

[@Tatyanatherealest]

bless your heart you are a beautiful soul

[@DREE3267]

Geez! I don't know what to say. You're very strong to share this. I couldn't help but cry hearing this. Karma has a way of evening things out. You're a stronger person for it and you're helping other people by letting them know they're not alone and that they are innocent and no one should ever have to go through trauma like this. You're a brave young woman Julie.

[@wickedleeloopy2115]

the title of this video is disturbing enough , let alone your story. 😀 glad to see your strong.

[@Habina555]

Just found your channel last night and didn't sleep until 2am watching your videos. Glad I've found it though. ^_^ You're a great inspiration not only for transgender women but for women in general. Your bravery and courage is just contagious. #Lovelots

[@Bambabambino]

Hi Julie, you are so brave for sharing your story. I really wish If you had ANY information about the man who raped you, please report it to the police. If he still out there, others are in danger and he needs to be in jail. Please help others by reporting him.

[@KellieWallacebooks]

This video disgusted me. Not due to your story but the fact this man got away with your rape. Does rape have a statutory of limitations in Canada? I guess all evidence is gone but at least mention it To the cops. He may have attacked another child. I was almost raped about 7 years ago. Problem was I was so far from home and I had to get him to drive me home, it was awful but I didn't do anything about it. Not as serious as your experience but at least you have our support.

[@jack._.6535]

*Grabs pitchfork* Okay, where is he?

[@countesscalypso]

I love how you are straight forward. I won't get into my personal experiences are, but I amazed that you even had the restraint to call him "gentleman." But, I will say, get counseling, take care of yourself (it is self love, not selfish), and you are beautiful inside and out. And it is ok to cry. I cry daily, and I think it helps.

[@memetacticbkc354]

not trying to be rude , but does she have any kind of plastic surgery on her face? it just looks so perfect

[@viphurit]

yeah, she's trans.

[@memetacticbkc354]

OH? I didn't know that!

[@viphurit]

yeah lmao-

[@Maha-wm9tx]

+miku the banana kitty CHU no she didn't have facial surgery she only got boobs implants and sex reasignement surgery

[@memetacticbkc354]

Oh , ok well thanks i didn't know

[@mariyayatsyshyn7897]

You look so pretty!!! I thought you weren't even trans!!! (Sorry if that sounds offensive) STAY STRONG!!!!

[@marrionna044]

Mariya Yatsyshyn yeah she’s so beautiful I didn’t even notice

[@bcarreon5190]

hi princess joules i can relate with your experience its very frightening. i am a transgender myself and i was raped as well at a very young age not once but twice. like you i was naive and i thought it was only a play. I was raped at the age of 7 by a playmate who is about 14.some of my male playmates were casually molesting me by kissing me as in proper kissing. the last rape was when I was about 12 and it was someone related to our family. its very sad that it happened but like you i became stronger woman rather than sulking and feeling sorry for myself.

[@amyisweird_1805]

Omg her cheek bones are AMAZING she is so pretty tbh I would kill for her hair ❤️

[@malvavisco10]

She's talking about her traumatic experience and all you notice are her cheekbones and hair....how vapid

[@amyisweird_1805]

Malvavisco I thought I would try and lighten the mood a little and not focus on the bad look at the positive I know how she feels

[@malvavisco10]

Amy Trollton This is irrelevant deflecting.

[@amyisweird_1805]

Malvavisco pardon dude just lighten up stop being so triggered

[@malvavisco10]

Amy Trollton What about beautiful flower makes you think I'm a dude, you fucking moron?

[@samanthapattinson1718]

omg i am so sorry this happened to you :( u look like a really honest person and sharing this must be really difficult

[@samanthapattinson1718]

+Benjamin Miles i respect your opinion , but i disagree with you.

[@Wetfirdc]

+Benjamin Miles are u serious almost every comment ive seen ur under it go get a life lmaoo

[@david7402]

This was sad, and I feel so bad for you. It is scary to think people could hurt someone like you. Personly, my experience was very different. When I was young, the men I had sex with were very nice to me. I was very sexually active as a teen, but the men I had sex with treated me good. Of course, Julie is right about being careful, and I have heard of some terrible stuff happening. I just cannot believe how lucky of a kid I was, and I mean very lucky, so when I hear stories like this, I have to pause a thank my lucky stars. Truly, there are a lot of sick people out there.

[@City67Girl]

Thank you for sharing! I love the part where you stated you've become a strong woman. I'm working on becoming a woman too. Letting out my true inner self has been wonderful after hiding her for so long. I've become a woman by choice. She chose !!!

[@teganr641]

you don't "become" a woman. she was born a woman, and she just so happened to be born with genitalia that is more common in men. you may feel you are "becoming" something, but the majority of trans people feel like they just are and always were.

[@majesticq226]

+Tegan R women trapped in a man's body* I get what you mean

[@jaxsonezria]

*Everyone I know in the trans community has been sexual assaulted or raped. I've also experience this.*

[@kaylina9852]

These stories in the comments are leaving me shook. Such strong people. I will never complain about my abysmally boring life again.

[@excellentbloodman1147]

well that make sense now

[@tank465]

Fritzlo Philemon dear God no.... I think I see what u mean..

[@faye.932]

Fritzlo Philemon omg no

[@vanessaperez0]

Fritzlo Philemon hm ?

[@meganmckenna5365]

Wait she's transgender?! SHES PERFECT 💕😘😫😍❤️🔥💓💖🎀🙏

[@marrionna044]

ItzFrankie thooo yeah I didn’t even know until she said a little skinny boy

[@ayeshagyan3648]

Yea I've recently found her KZbin channel and she's one of the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. ❤ wish I looked half as good as her.

[@greenearthguardian741]

You made this video on your personal experience which is very humbling and heart touching. .coz ppl don't want to talk about it...but u did it and you sent a message to ppl who are naive , young n trusting to beware. You have a beautiful heart...u have just done social service to all those who viewed it. GOD BLESS YOU.

[@doleluv01]

*Bumps into KZbinr* Me: Sorry KZbinr: 0:00

[@jes9508]

Sick bastard.. so sorry this happened.

[@argutierrez97]

i got here because of kylie review over a lip gloss and tbh this video got me im a Christian but i wont judge you, im actually so happy to have seem this video. I literally believed to myself ihungered for attention or that i was a slut. right now i really cared for a guy and i messed up going somehwere i shouldnt have been. Idk all i can say is thank you this video i know it was really personal but tbh if you ever wonder why you posted this video... i really needed this and i have never been able to say no i freeze i dont react but this video was uplifting .ahahaha im literally crying but idc first comment on a video and once again thanks im almost 20 and till now i feel like someone understands. thanks again :D

[@sphinxfn2218]

Your telling me this girl is trans well if she is she's buituifull