Instagram Controls What I Eat (while I TRAVEL)

[@BecJane]

Hey everyone! Thank you for watching the video. I'm wondering if you have any ideas what I should do while I'm away? Thank you xx

[@katefairliemusic]

Do a food challenge set by a restaurant. Like how many hotdogs can you eat in an hour. or the biggest steak. would be inspiring :’)

[@emily-xt4wt]

you should try any foods that you've always wanted to try but have been too afraid to. what better place to try new things than one of the most popular 'foodie' locations?

[@heathermarie4439]

Do you work out at all

[@kellyjoneson5702]

Something like you did in a Barcelona, show us you having the best time living life and eating well! Have fun 😊❤️

[@kayarts3665]

1) Go to dō! It’s a cookie dough shop similar to an icecream parlor!! 2) Get a 1$ New York pizza - it’s only polite ;) 3) Go to the “bite” lip lab (because food doesn’t rule our lives). You get to make your own color of lipstick and choose a scent/flavor

[@crohsapien]

People in the plane must've been like, "Why does that girl keep going to the bathroom...with snacks and a camera?!" bahaha :D

[@Themakeupchair15]

i was thinking that to but i think that was her seat i think that was one of those first class pods

[@melaniequai1504]

98765 right like I get anxiety telling the flight attendant what I want to drink lmao

[@maripaz951]

yaaaayyy !!! got so happy when i saw the notification in my phone!!! thank you for posting

[@BecJane]

Aww thank you for putting me on your notifications :D

[@maripaz951]

+Rebecca Leung i did!!! thank you for replying 😀

[@aguerra4019]

omg ur just amazing, i struggle everyday with my calorie counting habits and see how u act in that situation its just so inspirational, ur sooo strong

[@veronicabianchi1390]

have fun in New York!!! Have a great week with your friend. Loved the video AS ALWAYS, so happy you decided to keep the part where you eat your crisps instead of letting you ED win.

[@Madeline-nt8gm]

Omg I’m going to New York next weekendddd! I’m probably not gonna see you tho, but it would be cool to see someone who is recovering as well😂❤️

[@jennastone9222]

You are truly inspiring!

[@tinaandersen3270]

Thumbs up for a job well done.

[@tmsts002]

Broke my heart to see you struggle over the crisps 💔 I felt that on another level. Just showed us how truly strong you are though. You're showing the world that recovery isn't black and white. Everyday presents a new challenge

[@famkekwant5575]

She just told one big struggle and explained it so well.. I'm happy you understand!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@jessicarose5177]

*angrily crunches chips and convinces self that we're okay*

[@HannahMonster100]

I don’t have an eating disorder, but for some reason I stumbled across your channel, and seeing your methods for recovery spurred me to challenge my depression and anxiety and fight for recovery from my mental illnesses. I’m doing better than I ever have before!

[@katiealexandra6347]

thats amazing love

[@bellv4163]

Because of you I went into recovery. Never thought I could do it. I always thought that I was stuck in that awful lifesytle, but something in you moved something inside of me and told me that I WILL be okay.

[@BecJane]

Thank you writing to me and letting me know. I am so happy to ready this and so proud! We are in this together and you deserve more than anything to be free from that awful lifestyle. Again, I'm so happy ;')

[@AngelicasRecovery]

I felt terrible for eating my lunch so I decided to come watch your videos because you always make me feel better.. I’m proud of you for noticing that your sandwich wasn’t big enough so you got the chips... and even though it was hard for you, you still did it!!!!

[@nabeehakhan660]

The look on your face while eating that bag of chips was sadly way too familiar to me, but the fact that you finished them AND didn't punish yourself for it is amazing. To be honest, my brain would have stopped me at maybe half the panini, and I really hope I can get to a point where I can finish a whole sandwich and chips and just enjoy it. I'm not quite sure if I have an eating disorder, but I definitely have a rocky relationship with food, and I've been trying to get better. Calorie counting and the fear of fattening up can be really strong sometimes but with your videos I'm learning that a burger or a piece of cake one day will NOT make me undesirable nor does it define me. Thanks you so much for sharing your journey with people like me who are also struggling!

[@kelly_mj]

I never openly talk about my eating disorder. I never believed in recovering, i felt that i would always be mentally ill even if i was ever “physically” recovered. I accepted that there is no cure and that this is what my life will forever be before i die from it. I think its remarkable, fascinating and so so courageous beyond words that you are doing this. It makes me think that i am mentally stronger and more capable than i think. Although it may take forever if i ever do get to the point you are, thank you for leading me to believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

[@20Unbelievable06]

I'm so proud of you for fighting Ed/ED even though he/it was screaming at you

[@federicalunerti9286]

In Italia we actually say PANINO so it is more like: I am gonna eat a PANINO. Panini is multiple: 1 panino, 2 panini, 3 panini etc. LOTS OF LOVE!

[@Tinyleslie]

Lol I learned Italian and the first thing they told me was that panini was plural and I always tell people that panini is multiple

[@federicalunerti9286]

Good job we have to tell the world @@Tinyleslie

[@ameliapearson48]

I love that you include your internal dialogue and conflict with your eating disordered mindset in your videos because it’s so real and raw and makes me feel less alone. Love you lots !!💓

[@federicadegiovanni9460]

Just started watching & I feel weird saying it but I love the way you eat! It’s just really mindful and it shows how much you’re tasting the food! I don’t wanna sound like a weirdo or say anything bad, it’s something I noticed & love 🙈😂 keep being inspiring!

[@kirstiejoe5506]

And BTW, I know EXACTLY how you feel, that little voice in your head counting the calories and mapping out in your brain how much you can / cant eat for the rest of the day. It's exhausting. even though i've "recovered", I will never be able to eat food, and think about food in a normal way ever again. I've accepted it. I try everyday. This is why i love your channel. Helps us know we're all in this together and our thoughts are not irrational. xxx

[@aleksandra9534]

7:58 Who else posed for the picture ? :D

[@janasafwat7104]

Me 😂 thought i was the only one lol

[@SitaLi]

I don't think people know how serious eating disorders are, and the fact that you make videos, you are so so brave! Especially for people who are still recovering from an ED (me) this is so inspiring. THANK YOU xx

[@karimerosas8390]

I have to admit, since I started watching your videos I've been challenging myself and I feel so good about it. Sometimes the anxiety hits me and I feel depressed thinking that I'm doing wrong, that I should control everything again. I'm thankful for your videos, even when I feel bad there have been more successful times than failures. Alsooo I tried a milkshake for the first time in a long time and it was amazing!! I'm sorry for my grammar, English is not my first language ☺️

[@madeleineharrower6698]

Hi Rebecca. I just want to say just how beautiful you are. Form your gorgeous frame to your (again) gorgeous personality you are truly beautiful. As well we as this I just want to say thank you. Thank you for your sadness and tears. Thank you for you kindness and courage. Thank you for powering through when people couldn’t. Thank you beautiful ❤️

[@laurenmarsberg590]

i love this video so much! so inspirational to see you facing your fears! hope you have an incredible day! xxx

[@BeeBeeMacGee]

I like it so much better when you voice your struggles dealing with recovery, and the ED ‘yelling at you’. Many people struggle with recovery, even after years, and when you first started KZbin, your journey seemed very simple with food challenges that I began to rethink if I was even well into recovery. But I still remember your freak out about the tomato soup your boyfriend chose, and it was the first time you really allowed us to see what we’re all constantly experiencing. The ugly parts of your journey are the most important parts for us, and causes you to be an inspiration.

[@eosmakinami9649]

Cool you thing you're in NYC, have loads of fun! I really can relate to the crisps-part - i am afraid of them still :( so well done!

[@MegaSnellle]

Why are you eating in the bathroom of the plane 🙈🙈 isnt that discusting. Idk but i couldnt do it ♥️♥️♥️

[@ellietenenbaum3486]

I was just thinking that! Yuccckkkk

[@juliazdrodo]

maybe she was anxious and scared of eating in fromt of peole

[@EspadaShi]

I had crazy literal BINGE this weekend for 2 days. Been so harsh on myself. This somehow makes me so much... more ok.

[@zainarya8334]

When you had that moment getting in your head about the crisps, i started getting emotional because i could relate to the struggle SO MUCH and im so inspired by your determination and strength to fight ❤️💪🏼

[@Natterr]

I really, really appreciate how transparent and honest you are. I feel like a lot of the faces in the recovery community online express themselves on polar opposite sides of the spectrum: full relapse or puppy-dogs-and-roses, absolutely fearless positivity. You're so strong in your recovery, which makes it all the more inspirational to see that you still have moments of difficultly despite how far you've come. I've been spending months trying to want to WANT to bounce back after a relapse, and it wasn't until I found your channel that I noticed a sense of motivation that I haven't felt since long before I fell into this habit of restriction. Thank you for being real, and thank you for being excellent.

[@cookiemonsterxox]

I don’t have an ED, but I still love your videos! I think you’re doing great in your recovery! I just wanted to say, as a flight attendant, please, for the love of god, never eat in the lavs. They are horrendously dirty.... hahahaha Anyways, keep on keepin on girl!

[@MilaBkbz]

for the breakfast what you ate is called a “pain au chocolat” chocolate croissant would be a croissant filled with chocolate (sorry I’m french and I was disturbed lmao) (I love your video)

[@everybodydotheflop4342]

Pareil mdr on a des problèmes

[@snoopyoopy]

i look at the calorie labels all the time still too! calories still freak me out and i'll still choose a treat with the least amount of calories possible. i relate to the whole calorie anxiety too hard ;;;;; im really proud of you for finishing the chips !!! you really give me so much courage to kick my ana in the ass :')))))) love you!!

[@mashedpotato4223]

One of my biggest motivations is seeing you in recovery, I love you so much 💕 thank you for being a truly beautiful person inside and out. I’ve been watching your channel since 5k and have previously commented, but I just wanted to say thank you? I’ll if that makes sense 😊 Btw, I love the food challenges you give us sometimes, it pushes me out of my comfort zone and makes me stand up to my ed :)

[@Erin-sd4rn]

i love it when you share your more vulnerable and real moments in your videos as well! it really helps me and i'm sure it helps many others as well. thank you 💓

[@sydneyalexis4549]

Everyone is being so sweet in the comments and talking about how inspiring Rebecca is and she is very very inspiring and so sweet!!! But is no one else gonna talk about the pic on the refrigerator... I'm dying😂😂😂😂

[@gosiagosia8009]

Thanks to You today I’ve done the biggest challenge since I’m in my recovery. I had two of a huge fear foods that I was actually craving deeply inside. I thought I was too scared to get those but I finally did. So yay for my today’s McDonalds chickenburger and french fries and a piece of chocolate cake. Its all because of You, Rebecca. Thank You, just thanks a million❤️ *by the way sorry for my English haha, Im from Poland*

[@Dani-ell]

How do you eat in the airplane restroom?!?! After seeing this I feel like this needs to be a challenge to myself... food perfection rules coming out!

[@sophieschremmer6954]

Love your videos and i can totally understand your thought and why you accidently (or not i dont know) took a look at the calories on the bag of crisps and your thoughts after that. happens to me all the time. But glad that you managed to eat the crisps! You can be very proud of yourself! keep doing. xoxo

[@heathermarie4439]

Love your videos so much. Your helping me in my recovery so much

[@user-qc5pt1we7u]

Thank you for being real and sharing the full journey of recovery including the lows with us

[@kimlau3929]

OMG I'm from NYC! There's so much good food and fun here! Go on a foodie tour and definitely fill up on NY style pizza, bagels, donuts, and brunches! :) It's really cold here, so hope you brought enough clothes. :)

[@greanbeenn]

youve helped me recover and your happiness and strength is so contagious, now recovering for a month!

[@maribellesu1798]

i literally get so excited everytime you post omg

[@margauxwilpon8128]

You are awesome

[@BecJane]

aww thank you so much x You are more awesome :D

[@AdamIsMyNameO]

Eating in the bathroom? Hope you washed your hands ;o)

[@hannahashley2882]

Wow I am so proud of you for not only acknowledging the disordered thought, but calling it out for what it was- disordered. It is way too easy for the ed to manipulate us into rationalizing the thoughts- such as when you said you could not finish the bag in order to avoid feeling anxious all day. However, ANY compromise with the ed- no matter how small- is a win for the ed. Continue to challenge yourself. You inspire me to push in my own recovery after giving in for so long x

[@sabrinamarie3974]

hey Rebecca! I’ve been subscribed for awhile and really found solace in your channel when I first found it as I was also recovering from my ED. I just want to tell you how wonderful you are and how impactful your channel is and has been in the past. Recently I’ve relapsed and after deluding myself for awhile I’ve finally realized I’ve really regressed and along with that has brought me extremely frequent panic attacks once again but watching your videos is currently helping me immensely in calming down and remembering that I can do better again. You are so positive and uplifting and yet so so REAL. i am so scared going through this again, especially after having convinced myself i “recovered” but you help me remember that I can do it and that there’s hope and that bumps in the road are normal and it doesn’t mean I can never get better. Sorry if this was super cheesy but I couldn’t just not say how much good you do for so many people. Much much love from Cali!!💕

[@maxhuntsman9211]

This video is so honest and inspiring, thank you so much for everything that you do ♥️♥️ Also! Tomorrow I think I will have avo toast for breakfast bc I always stick to oats and I feel like it's becoming 'safe'. Big toot

[@xXUnicornDinosawrxX]

PLEASE do a what you eat in New York video! There are so many awesome restaurants there! Love your videos, always inspiring and wonderful

[@SimplyEffie]

Genuinely, because of you I was inspired to go into recovery. I’m able to document my recovery as well, in a similar way that you do! You’ve inspired me so much and I’ve already accomplished a lot of what I wanted to! I know I have a long way to go but I wanted to say thank you for being a kind human being and motivating me! Not only have you helped me, but there’s a lot of my friends who feel a lot better about my lifestyle too. I know I’m going to be okay and those around me don’t have to worry as much anymore! I know I’m going to have setbacks but you’ve also helped me learn that it’s okay and it’s just apart of recovery. Thank you again for everything and have a safe trip! ☺️🌻 I look forward to your future videos! 🌿

[@caritohuerta3748]

I really wanted to hug you when you were struggling with the crisps

[@katharinaadewusi7709]

You're such a big inspiration for me💕 I'm also struggeling with an eating disorder and your videos help me so much to keep going on and fighting against it💞

[@issymather8116]

You are the reason that I really paid attention to how my habits were disordered and chose to make a change. All I can say is thank you, and an extra thank you for THIS video because I woke up this morning with bad body image and plans to restrict today due to eating "too much" last night (I probably ate a bit more than I intuitively needed too but I enjoyed it) thus feeling pretty bad food guilt. Seeing your face in my subscription box got me back on track and now I'm going to have a tasty slice of bacon quiche with my very milky, honey tea (just how I like it! but I used to be scared of the "unnecessary/extra" calories. RIDICULOUS, I KNOW!!)😊🤗

[@issymather8116]

I also just went to the pantry and saw a box of cookies (I LOVE COOKIES! btw) and checked the sugar and thought, "nope, I can't have one, its unnecessary, there is not enough nutrients in it, etc..." But then I realised that the reason I want allowing myself to have a cookie with my tea was because I was SCARED of a cookie. I put the box back, then picked it up again and ate a cookie - and it was pretty good. BECAUSE I AM NOT GOING TO LET A DAMN COOKIE HAVE THAT MUCH POWER OVER ME! IMMA EAT THAT COOKIE IF I WANT TO, JUST TO PROVE I CAN, AND MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE (and now every time I walk past the pantry I don't have to think "I wonder what those cookies taste like?")

[@eyonkim05]

am I the only one who posed at 7:57

[@tanieshamoore8568]

Thank you so much Rebecca, you are such an inspiration to me and so many others xx After watching this I helped myself to a slice of chocolate cake (so worth it! 😂) sending love 💕💕

[@Joci445]

I don't have an ED. but I have depression, for some reason your videos make me feel like I can recover. I haven't taken any steps yet lol, hopefully soon.

[@calirose2666]

Seeing you’re journey has showed me that when I thought I had “recovered” I was really just repressing my feelings and acting like I was okay, thank you for showing me there’s more to life to focus on other than food! And thank you for helping me to try harder in my recovery than I was before! Although I don’t like to talk openly about it with my family or friends as they believe I’m better now, do you have any tips to help me get over that milestone? xoxo

[@RakelsAlignedLife]

loved this video! looks like you enjoyed lots of yummy snacks and food! good on you for making sure you eat even though you were at the airport and on the plane, you are so so strong xx

[@soosoolar]

the fact that you called the pain au chocolat croissant-

[@nadineposch400]

Ugh I love how you are doing this ! Motivating myself.. because you have the same thoughts !

[@ami-fv2hl]

ate my breakfast to this video and was able to eat it without guilt

[@hippoey]

Thank you so much for including the scene about the crisps. It is such a true depiction.

[@markgajic9455]

BAGEL BREAKFAST PIZZA CHEESECAKE No but honestly, just enjoy the trip and don't let your ED ruin it for you ( I know you won't, you're amazing). You're such an inspiration

[@evaxo5083]

You are my hero!!! Because of you I’m in a recovery now! Thank you sooo much! Your videos are absolutely amazing! I love you so much!💓💜💞❤️💗

[@titatovenoor7415]

this video is awesome! im so proud of you for challenging those thoughts, i know how difficult it can be. thank you for inspiring me to keep fighting. apart from that, are you gonna film a video there? (NO I WONT SAY WHERE WATCH THE #@$@/ VIDEO)

[@BecJane]

hehe thank you so much

[@titatovenoor7415]

omg thank you so much for answering! cant wait to see the video. have so much fun there!!! seriously i hope you have the best time ever

[@marinemichel8744]

WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER! THANKS FOR SHOWING US THE PATH ♥️♥️♥️

[@katierosefun7722]

Aaaah, I’m so jealous you’re in New York!! That’s where I’m from, but I’m in college right now. I wish I could meet you, but sending love from MA instead!

[@tobentoyourloey5142]

Earliest ive ever been!! You are amazing 💗

[@BecJane]

Thank you for being so early

[@tobentoyourloey5142]

Hi!! You inspire me so much ++ I'm so proud of you

[@tobentoyourloey5142]

P.s. Can't believe you replied #fangirling

[@eneapoggetti5341]

Hi Rebecca, your videos are always nice. My ED panickes just looking at them. First of all I wouldn't be able to let others decide my meals and if I was I would intentionally pick two low-calorie options just to be 'safe' whichever one gets chosen. Second, my ED still has a hard time believing you can actually eat that food - a bag of crisps right after lunch! Chocolate peanuts after dinner! Oh my God!!! - without insta-ballooning into infinite obesity. I am now just thinking "she is only eating that much in front of camera, while in the rest of the time she restricts/exercises, or in the end she just has a different metabolism and her situation doesn't apply to me anyways because reasons." And while I rationally know it isn't true I can't help but making my mind go there. Also I am no longer massively underweight anymore, therefore I don't HAVE to gain weight in order to escape immediate life danger, so it's harder to feel allowed to eat when I don't have that powerful motivation anymore. I could just hover on this quasi-underweight limbo for the rest of my life without anyone else knowing or noticing. These videos are also useful to challenge this kind of thought patterns, so thank you again and enjoy your stay in NYC. :)

[@ariannac1865]

Thank you for your positivity. Tomorrow is the day I face one my biggest fear foods ever, this helps a bit ❤️

[@haleym9796]

Thank you so much, I don’t have an eating disorder, but I was developing disordered thoughts/habits so I finally told my mom and she is hiding the scales. I never thought I would fall prey to this and didn’t realize it until I started to watch your videos, I’m only 12 and I don’t want to go down this path, thank you so much! ❤️😭

[@elinkarlsson2515]

Do some of you guys don't cry in recovery? It feels like I'm faking my eating disorder just because I don't cry after a binge or like when having anxiety because of eating. I cry sometimes but not much at all. I mostly has this negative thoughts about myself...

[@maryanamaryana2588]

Hi im frome syria and i whatch evry vedio im anorixc too 2017\2020 I wich you and i be come a frends Dont lafe at me I dont khow right english alot Love U girl

[@30stmmiss]

you're videos get better and better 😁❤️ and your channel is growing yaaay i love it

[@vladislavaivanova6744]

You have helped me in the process of trying to find myself so much and I love you so much ❤️❤️❤️

[@BabySitter026]

I was watching your video and got so inspired by you eating those chips that I decided to finally eat some as well. But as soon as I stood in front of them my thoughts went crazy and I just couldn't do it. But because my hunger got so big I couldn't stop thinking about food. I ended up eating 3 carrots instead....I'll try tomorrow again and hopefully I get over my fear and just eat those god damn chips!!!

[@annalepse4568]

Omg that is definitely not a chocolate croissant ! A chocolate croissant would be a croissant stuffed with chocolate, and that looks nothing like a croissant ! In french we call it a "pain au chocolat" which means "chocolate bread"

[@habibatamer8679]

I felt and related to this so much, overcoming fear foods and self-imposed food rules is such a difficult part of recovery. Stay strong

[@melaniequai1504]

Idk how tf u film in the airport cuz I get so much anxiety in the airport and always feel like I need to focus or somethings gonna happen.

[@jorezzaantonio5765]

You are so strong! Whenever I eat biscuits I tend to eat small amount of it then I'll eat it again tomorrow then after that day. I dont eat pasta and I stay away from carbs. But I feel like Im getting stronger by day minus the fact that I take laxatives and having anxieties because I cant exercise.

[@rosemarydear]

hey rebecca. i have a friend who is anorexic, how can i be helpful to her without pushing her to do something she’s not comfortable with?

[@ricebowl635]

I am struggling so much with my eating disorder. It has taken over my life. My mental health and physical health. it hurts so bad. I wish i could be as strong as you and not care about these things

[@daniellahijabi5719]

I'm not dealing with anorexia I deal with overeating and obesity now I'm on track as well I wish there wasnt such thing as eating disorders

[@TheMeowstachio]

Please please please do a meet-up!!

[@sexygorillaeagle]

I smiled when you took the picture as if I would really be in it 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@tmcc6847]

I don't have an eating disorder but when you finished that bag of chips I felt sooo proud

[@shu2558]

Unfortunately we are low on popcorn today

[@BecJane]

NOOOO! What is the back up?

[@shu2558]

Good old Halloween candy

[@ananotario3463]

NYC pizza challenge!

[@carolinemuller6774]

Honey glazed bbq pork buns at hk airport are the best thing

[@Themakeupchair15]

you should finish the chips on purpose cuz you dont want to cuz the cal count

[@holliemason9004]

pleaseeeee do a nyc vlog :) Have the best time with your best friend, you both must be elated to see each other xx

[@amymclellan583]

I only saw one voting option waaaah!! Enjoy your trip xx

[@marystephens1994]

You’re so strong and inspiring! Could you do a video on your thoughts on exercise in recovery?

[@meganmccoy761]

im soooooooo proud of you beautiful 💓

[@thewisewoman1048]

May I ask how you have the money to travel? What’s your job?

[@LenaChandika]

You are pretty without make up. You don't need it!!!😘

[@Lily-jm4wg]

I get the challenging yourself, but if you’re not hungry for it you don’t have to force yourself to eat something😬

[@BecJane]

Thank you for your concern! All of this food was absolutely adequate for me, I wasn't stuffing myself at all.

[@gorgenyiviktoria6280]

I have never met you but you still give me more strength than anybody else 💙