Intimacy & Internalized homophobia as a South Asian

[@lissettmartinez1476]

I am a mom of a lesbian daughter, and you always make me understand so many things. My background is catholic Hispanic, so is been very hard. Thank you 😘

[@kimeocookie]

Back when I was mentally trying to understand my sexuality I literally had the thought “well if I’m gay I’ll just have to be alone forever because it’ll be too hard for people to understand” and whenever I think about that mindset and how real it was to me I’m shocked I ever thought that way. Like what a disservice it would be to myself to let other people’s discomfort affect my happiness.

[@aarivya2851]

Well ...I think i'm in this phase now

[@crabzy814]

@@aarivya2851 i have been in it for 4 years now and even tried to go through therapy, but it didn't work, i have no idea what to do

[@-inactive-7000]

"I just didn't know how to be so comfortable with myself that I could be with somebody else. " This hit me really hard thank you for this nidhi💖

[@NidhiShukla]

❤️❤️

[@Mi-gs7xg]

hit me hard too

[@snehajhawar]

I pushed her away. Because of my internalized homophobia. I couldn't hold the thought that I would resent her if something were to happen to my father in the future for choosing us. Sabotaged my relationship with my love. Working on healing this part of me.

[@alexhaught1238]

you doing okay fren?

[@monikarawat5526]

This is soo true for most of the asian /indian people. Thanku for taking this topic hope to see more related videos✌

[@NidhiShukla]

Thank you! ❤️& I'm workin' on it :D

[@nightskystars0762]

This was so comforting to watch!! Sexuality related videos are always great to watch!!❤️❤️

[@NidhiShukla]

I'm glad ❤️I've been thinking of making it a more frequented topic!

[@mada7660]

I am so sorry that people have to go through this

[@karishini734]

I may not be Gay, but as someone who is from the South Asian community who is in an interracial/multi cultural relationship, a lot of the things you spoke about resonates with me although it may be a little different.. still things I experience in some ways

[@NidhiShukla]

I get that! I'm glad it resonated ❤️

[@lassam333]

So important that you talk about this topic to help others who feel stuck in exactly the same situation.

[@yuxilove4545]

Hi Nidhi. I'm also from India... I don't know I should say this or not, I find some of things relatable ... I never been in any relationship.... But inclination towards this community and getting another kind of happiness when any girl ask me out.. 😭😭😭am I really into girls??

[@Ravynblk08]

Very nice video, this is one subject that crosses all boundaries. I lived in a very rural part of the states and went through the internalized homophobia for almost most of my life. I feel it is a common struggle for the world.

[@avantika_2547]

I am waching this video for like the third time today, and at various points my heart was so happy and jumping with the things you mentioned here that i kept hitting the like botton everytime.. (i know its stupid🙈) ... Its so difficult put such feeling in words and hats off to you for doing it so adorably and naturally. ❤

[@NidhiShukla]

This is so sweet, thank you ❤️

[@tahmenaferdous5213]

Im so glad you figured out how to accept yourself and be happy with Jadz. Now u have this awesome channel and this amazing relationship and we get to be a part of ur journey

[@NidhiShukla]

Awww, thank you so much ❤️

[@maishaabby96]

Even as a straight female I struggle with intimacy at times just because it’s been such an unknown territory growing up

[@noamaanahmad1595]

Omg I just learnt there’s something called Internalised homophobia 😭

[@kavita0509]

Sweet video. It's like heart to heart conversation. ❤

[@sara_abdin]

You worded this so well. I totally get it nidhi

[@NidhiShukla]

Thank you, Sara!

[@maeheck]

Thank you so much for bringing up such an important topic.

[@avantika_2547]

Liked it just after 25 secs. Bcoz of the topic u picked. Thanks so much for talking about it. I love all videos and always keping smiling throughtout watching them.

[@NidhiShukla]

So nice of you! Thank you :)

[@divinelioness4931]

Thank you for talking about this.

[@ruvar7532]

Thank you for sharing your experience!!

[@jinderoo]

Love how honest & open this is. Also super relatable. 💕

[@siddharthjain3341]

Even tho I am straight, I can relate so much to some parts. Thank you. ♥

[@NidhiShukla]

That makes sense! Navigating dating in general in our culture can be hectic, so I'm not surprised that some of this resonated with you.

[@stuff1784]

Gosh, I’ve been through all of this!! I was shocked that I enjoyed getting attention from women but not men. I had a huge crisis over it.

[@Lostparaok]

#NotificationSquad 🙋🏻‍♀️

[@mangomango9682]

Thank you so much for talking abt this Nidhi! It's so important to have ppl share their experiences openly, also I love your shirt!💕

[@danielatumanidis4867]

My gf is India too

[@chemist_snehal]

I too felt as love is not for me since i'm looking it in wrong person

[@summersunshine1507]

Thank you for this 💕 i remember when I first learned of the lgbt+ community, the experience was similar to yours. A friend came out in middle school and I remember thinking "cool! I didn't know guys could like guys" 😂 young me didn't know I'd grow up to be ace/girl who likes girls

[@lifewithraghu1330]

Thank you for talking about something people like me relate too!!! ❤️

[@urviurviurviurvi]

thank you so much for making this video im stuck with a lot of internalised homophobia right now (i dont even know where from; i’m one of the least homophobic people i know but for some reason that isnt applying toward myself) and everything i found to try to deal with this was created by white people (esp white men). and i’m indian, and i’m not a man ! just by watching the first few minutes i really relate ! thank you

[@ThePriti1990]

Loved the video...❤

[@kimeocookie]

Also I love your shirt ???

[@tejaswini5185]

Thank you!❤️

[@stuff1784]

I have this issue 😭😭😭 as a person with Christian religious trauma

[@anshuchoudhary5081]

I can relate to this as I'm a South Asian Bisexual man. This started via watching porn since 6th grade, but I'm going to therapy for free by my job.

[@princyagarwal264]

Sweet cute video.. in love with you and everything you share and do in your channel...🥰😘

[@NidhiShukla]

Thank you 🤗❤️❤️

[@kurinchybhavan1767]

Hi friend, love you

[@NidhiShukla]

HI FRIEND ❤️ I love YOU.

[@babajijobless9591]

My father is not allowing me to date men from other religion so u can guess how hard is for people like me to tell our dad that " Hi Dad I m gay" And I m dam sure even after pride parade in INDIA , many parents will not support there gay child Honor killing is common thing here 🥺

[@nartanaiyer8653]

Hope things get better for you

[@babajijobless9591]

@Improviser Honor killing meaning is family murder own family person to protect family reputation in the society . . You are talking about same Sex marriage is difficult , I say oh please check in Indian opposite sex marriage is also difficult and same Sex marriage is next to impossible to many however few are opening up but many are quite doing arrange marriage with no interest .. This is true nothing information is out of box

[@subritikarmakar7897]

What state are you from? Because in my experience in my state it is easier to tell you are gay or bi is easier than to tell you are in love with someone from that one other religion. At least for most of the people it is .

[@-inactive-7000]

All thisss

[@TheHumbleHealer]

Look at this channel… it is… all gay. lol that was cute :,)