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Is House Arrest What's Keeping Me Off of Drugs?

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Smiles for Miles

Smiles for Miles

Күн бұрын

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@Phishyification
@Phishyification 2 ай бұрын
Please keep uploading, Brian. You are one of my go-to resources for how to stay correct! You should be proud of this channel, and as a former meth and xanax fiend you give me hope. PS: I pray your hearing goes well, I am sure your POs know you want your life to get better!
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
I can’t tell you how honored I am that you find some value in this content. Thank you so much for taking the time to leave this comment. You inspire me 🥰🥰 I’m sure that whatever happened at the hearing everything will still be fine 🙂
@kathykear3025
@kathykear3025 Ай бұрын
This channel reminds me of the best 12 step meetings. I have been in honest, relatable, accountability
@Ken-er9cq
@Ken-er9cq 2 ай бұрын
A lot of people unfortunately return to drug use. I think a lot of people consider that they can be an occasional user, like they will just do some because it is a weekend. It doesn’t work.
@xMrPaintxx
@xMrPaintxx 2 ай бұрын
Once an individual has reached a level of true addiction with any substance then using said substance in the future can never be recreational again. I've tried every way I could think of in an attempt to occasionally use my substance of choice... Never works, ever.
@benshotyou
@benshotyou 2 ай бұрын
i'm a year and 3 months now sober, from a shit almost 14 year habit of H/fent, so i'm invested bro!
@Penquin12344
@Penquin12344 2 ай бұрын
I'm 1 year 5 months. My drug was crack
@ChronicGamer420
@ChronicGamer420 2 ай бұрын
Love you bro. So excited for you to get the bracelet off.
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
Much love to you as well. I hope they take it off, but if they don’t, it’s all good 🤘
@ChronicGamer420
@ChronicGamer420 2 ай бұрын
@@SmilesforMiles2024 one step at a time, one day at a time and then itll be off befor you know it
@angelasimila
@angelasimila 27 күн бұрын
Instead of “ex wife” you can call her your “first wife”. Even if your not remarried she’s always going to be your first wife 💕. Btw you’re doing a great job. Thank you for being so honest with your past. It’s been very helpful.
@kimberlym8526
@kimberlym8526 2 ай бұрын
Thank you for being so open and real about your experiences. You seem to be self- aware and have a sense of humor despite what you're going through. Thanks for sharing!
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for that. I really appreciate you watching and commenting
@kathryndrew5618
@kathryndrew5618 8 күн бұрын
Man, this video is so inspiring. You know, what I was feeling surging in me during the last third of the video as I listened to you? - Love. Meaning, what you are sharing is a form of love, what I am feeling towards you is love, and what you are offering to and committing yourself is love. Ah, maybe that's the wrong word because it has a lot of meanings. Maybe I mean Respect. But anyway, THANK YOU. I really appreciate your honesty, your insight, the gift of your sharing, and the inspiration for care and compassion towards oneself.
@benburns5995
@benburns5995 2 ай бұрын
Hi Brian, it was great to see this new video for the week. I follow a Health Care Physician and also a Natural Health Doctor by the name of Dr. Livingood. He mentioned he was so frustrated with the Medical field in that they want to address a patients symptoms with Medicine but not drill down deep enough to find the cause of why they are suffering from it in the first place. I think this is so true in your journey of drug addiction as well. It is great that you have found the true cause of why drugs were appealing to you and addressed that to heal, instead of just healing it temporally with a bandaid and relapsing in the future. Best wishes to you over the next 3 months and beyond.
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
Thank you so much Ben. I will have to check out Dr. Livingood. If you have any particular videos to recommend send them my way 🙂
@JIMKATSANIDIS
@JIMKATSANIDIS 2 ай бұрын
Awesome video, Brian! In my opinion, house arrest doesn't necessarily keep someone off drugs. While house arrest may limit an offender's ability to obtain and use illegal drugs, it doesn't automatically prevent drug use. While it definitely is way more comfortable than jail, It's ironic that you have to pay to be on house arrest. Blessings to you on your recovery! You bring hope to so many. Looking forward to watching more of your videos!👋❤
@MichaelaAbbott-v3x
@MichaelaAbbott-v3x Ай бұрын
Thank you Brian, I am really quite poorly at the moment, so I have been laying in bed listening to your videos. Your positivity and energy really shine through. I really look forward to listening to many more in the future. I rarely subscribe to any channels, however yours just feels so different to so many others - thank you.
@NurseJanice
@NurseJanice 2 ай бұрын
Spot on with everything you say!
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
Thanks Janice ❤️ you’re awesome.
@AubsAndreya
@AubsAndreya 2 ай бұрын
This level of self reflection is impressive
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
Wow. Thank you. That is such a nice thing to read ❤️
@pozipoz
@pozipoz 2 ай бұрын
I came across your channel by accident, ive watched some of your videos, i think they way you articulate and express what happened during detox, is very informative, my younger brother, was addicted to heroin, for over 20yrs, he robbed all of us, we paid for him to go private to detox, he came out and went straight back, he was in and out of prison for year's, he would look so well when he came home, after a week, the sign's were back, he decided himself to detox, he was prescribed, methadone, he smoked a little devil's lettuce and did it, boy was it hard just watching him go through it, nevermind, what he was feeling, eventually he got clean, stopped the methadone, stopped the devil's lettuce, it was joyous, to get my little brother back, unfortunately, he died 2 and a half years later in his sleep, totally devastated all the family, the coroner said his liver was so fatty that he wouldn't have lived much longer, plus it would have been a very painful death, he had a seizure in his sleep and just never woke up, that was 12 years ago, we miss him everyday, we got the brother we loved back, but only for a short time, good luck with your recovery, all the best from the UK.
@CMoore8539
@CMoore8539 2 ай бұрын
That’s Awesome that you’re going to stop all vices. I think that’s something that we all need to do.❤
@Anthonys_S
@Anthonys_S Ай бұрын
Just keep doing what’s got you to this stage my friend, don’t let the hope and then lack of hope make you or break you , like you said and I agree 100 percent with is just keep living your life the way you want in a good way and then there decision to remove the anklet will simply be a bonus not your all or nothing . It’s a cliche but you know as well as anyone it’s a day at a time
@dobygillis3105
@dobygillis3105 2 ай бұрын
Wow you have a gift. You will help many people your easy to understand. You should go talk at high schools. There's a wise old man in you. God is great!
@sharonscott1776
@sharonscott1776 2 ай бұрын
Can you please share a photo of what u looked like in active addiction? U look healthy now.
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
I haven’t thought of doing that before. But, yes, I definitely will in an upcoming video. Thanks for the idea ❤️🙂
@sharonscott1776
@sharonscott1776 2 ай бұрын
@@SmilesforMiles2024 I just know how different my ex looked on drugs to when he was clean. Only if your comfortable doing that x
@melodymacken9788
@melodymacken9788 2 ай бұрын
​@@SmilesforMiles2024 Don't do it. If you want a healthy sobriety, putting up such pictures serves no positive outcome. I'm a recovering alcoholic, and I'm telling you, the past is the past... leave it there.
@konkeydonged
@konkeydonged 2 ай бұрын
@@melodymacken9788 I get where you're coming from, but I disagree. As long as he is comfortable doing so, the benefits of that sharing that outweigh negatives. Vulnerability is tremendously powerful. If it helps inspire others to get clean, that itself is a positive outcome, and we all know that helping others get sober is an integral part of sobriety. Seeing clear evidence of where someone was at their lowest versus where they are now - that transformation - is enormously inspirational. A before and after photo can literally be the difference between sobriety and hopelessness for someone who doesn't believe they can bounce back from their lowest lows. Hearing someone say "I lost 250lbs" doesn't necessarily have the same impact on a listener as seeing what they looked like before and after. If he can go from THAT to THIS, well, I have no excuse and can do the same...
@kaitlin627
@kaitlin627 2 ай бұрын
Your awesome, glad I found you! ❤
@tamsinronan7679
@tamsinronan7679 2 ай бұрын
Yes, the house arrest and girlfriend have been huge deterrents, but you have done the work. I believe you will make it, to live your best life! You have become strong, through pain and forced lonliness, bad food. You are really an inspiration, many struggle. It is good to see you and even though there are still always haters, I know you are strong enough!
@Luke22022
@Luke22022 2 ай бұрын
Thank you for addressing the question Brian. It is wonderful that you are in such a good place now that you don't have the desire. I am pleased to hear that you have a friendship with your former wife. You have mentioned your travels together, there are some strong bonds. I have wanted to comment also on your new home. You have created a beautiful space for yourself judging from the glimpse we've seen in your video. It seems to reflect your current calm and order. Congratulations.
@tamsinronan7679
@tamsinronan7679 2 ай бұрын
The house arrest and girlfriend have been huge deterrents, but you have been through so much. You have been through the pain in jail, the detox, the bad food. You have made yourself strong through forced lonliness..when you are so sociable. I believe you will not go back, because you have made yourself so strong, and I have faith this world will let you experience good things being your best self. There are always haters, but you are very strong. Thanks for all the support!
@1NJen
@1NJen 2 ай бұрын
I love your videos! I can relate to everything you are saying. When I was in my addiction.. you don’t think of those consequences.. Iost it all.. handsome fiancé.. beautiful apartment.. great job.. new car.. all I would think about is satisfying that craving.. and even when I did lose it all.. I kept going because something inside of me was broken.. it needed to be fixed.. I didn’t even have that a-ha moment until I had my stroke..fortunately I made it through and I am still here. Tomorrow isn’t promised.. I have to live my life without drugs.. sometimes it’s hard.. but ya know what.. we have this amazing 2nd chance… most addicts don’t even get that. Addiction should be treated..not punished. ❤
@joygrahamtravis1789
@joygrahamtravis1789 2 ай бұрын
🤗 More than awesome growth, insights so right on.
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
Thanks for watching ❤️ I appreciate you
@jesseCJjames
@jesseCJjames 2 ай бұрын
His videos and story reminds me male version of NURSE JACKIE series , not quite exactly but similar in a way! I am addicted to his channel , subscribed and notifications are on! ❤
@hwoods-kg1jf
@hwoods-kg1jf 2 ай бұрын
Nurse Jackie is an excellent show! I just added Showtime to my Paramount + and I'm currently watching Yellowjackets but Nurse Jackie is next on my list of shows to watch again! It's been many years since I've watched it! Edie Falco is an amazing actress!
@CMoore8539
@CMoore8539 2 ай бұрын
Thumbs Up 👍 and Shared Out.❤ Stay Strong! You got this!
@pharmdmlc
@pharmdmlc 2 ай бұрын
Thank you for this video and all the others you have posted. I can relate in so many ways and it gives me hope.
@cathycowell1759
@cathycowell1759 2 ай бұрын
Thankyou again Brian
@AntoinetteRN569
@AntoinetteRN569 2 ай бұрын
Your messages really are helping me Brian. Keep doing what you're doing. And OMG that song is mindblowing! I could listen to it for hours. Amazing talent.
@pdarby4417
@pdarby4417 2 ай бұрын
The best, most enlightened sharing! Thank you! All the best to you!
@cqbarnieify
@cqbarnieify 2 ай бұрын
Another great video. Thank you.
@bridgetleonard6702
@bridgetleonard6702 12 күн бұрын
You remind me of my brother if he had managed to get sober. He wanted to be a pharmacist but he died of a fentanyl over at the age of 23.
@adenbuford7396
@adenbuford7396 2 ай бұрын
Brian, you are inspiring. Your eloquent presentation has summed up the situation beautifully. Angels are humbly dutiful.
@hannahmitchell87
@hannahmitchell87 2 ай бұрын
"Wife at the time" instead of ex? ☺️
@rachelsebree8524
@rachelsebree8524 2 ай бұрын
Have you ever thought of being a addiction counselor smiles? I think you would be great..no prescribing just good Ole counselor...your doing it for me right now!
@br6480
@br6480 2 ай бұрын
I was thinking the same thing since he was a nurse, this could be a different way of helping people.
@Anthonys_S
@Anthonys_S Ай бұрын
3 to ten years wow , sentences in America are very big 😮
@sublimestyles
@sublimestyles 2 ай бұрын
Have you got into the fitness world? That changed things for me ❤
@rickyspeople
@rickyspeople 2 ай бұрын
Me too. Yoga changed my life and saved me from staring down the barrel of a life of opiate dependence
@deegulyassy153
@deegulyassy153 2 ай бұрын
Hi, always glad to see your videos!!
@lesliespierling8738
@lesliespierling8738 2 ай бұрын
Great introspection. I wonder if you were harmed early in life that created an opening to addiction for you?
@user-qh9st9xn9f
@user-qh9st9xn9f Ай бұрын
Good morning, I sure hope you are not so excited about drugs that it would be an irresistable temptation once you are off house arrest and mandatory drug testing.I presume they are or will do random tests when you are on Probabtion off house arrest. I think you will be able to stay off of drugs. You will not want anymore consequences in the future. Im so excited about you being able to get out and about. My aunt is a Heroin addict and is 65, she has overdosed a few times. I once gave her narcan when she was found lying on the floor pale and sweaty and guppy breathing. I sat with her and monitored her for that entire day once she regained life. That day she was all about going on suboxone and refilling her narcan which was then depleted. She said she would,and then she didn't want to because the doctor would know??? Then she got resentful toward me for reminding her and offering to help her.
@alexiamuniz13
@alexiamuniz13 21 күн бұрын
Wow you look amazing for 37 I would’ve guessed like 28-30 max
@paigemason918
@paigemason918 2 ай бұрын
I have been using Kratom for years and helps with my depression and arthritis. Do you think this would be a way for my kid to get off drugs? I go off Kratom when I can't afford it which is often and I have about the same effects of not drinking coffee. But I understand lots of people get addicted to it and go through withdrawal.
2 ай бұрын
Try Reiki healing, I was injured in the Military lots of nerve pain and spine pain, one session took away 16 years of pain 90% cured one time, just have to be open to it.
@TheBookOfRoo
@TheBookOfRoo 2 ай бұрын
When your under house arrest what does that exactly mean? Are you allowed to go anywhere besides work? Or do you literally have to stay in your house?
@suv4life
@suv4life 2 ай бұрын
Hi Brian̈, my question is..... once all this is over. Do you think you're going buck wild? Traveling, moving, etc
@anastasiayurishcheva3692
@anastasiayurishcheva3692 21 күн бұрын
Ok if you get back with your wife, we need to pitch this to Netflix 😃
@CascadeDetergent
@CascadeDetergent 2 ай бұрын
You should seek a reinstatement of your RN from the board and practice in Addiction Medicine
@JohnJones-qj8dm
@JohnJones-qj8dm 2 ай бұрын
I'm in outpatient drug rehab. I had 2 months but I just relapsed last weekend. This shit is really hard
@kirstenglae
@kirstenglae 2 ай бұрын
I have a question, if you don’t mind. If everyone in your life had cut ties, friends, family, everyone. How would you deal with that sober? For me, the lack of love and understanding I received, just pushed me further and further down. I was blamed for it, even though my parents were verbally abusive and neglectful. It makes my chest hurt so much that I cannot bear it for another second at times. All I needed was love, and undivided support. I’m still struggling with the pain.
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
Hey Kirsten, This is a great question! I am so glad that you brought this up. I think I will do a video dedicated to your question this upcoming week ❤️❤️ For now, my short answer is… sometimes people won’t let go of the past, and that’s ok. That is their right. But you also have the right to forgive yourself and go out and find new people who can love you for who you are today. You deserve to surround yourself with people who aren’t hanging on to who you used to be, when you are not that person anymore, when you have done so much work to become the beautiful person you are today! You know what I mean? ❤️❤️❤️ thank you for the great video idea 😉
@kirstenglae
@kirstenglae 2 ай бұрын
@@SmilesforMiles2024 No, I’ve been messing up. I am a true empath, so the need to get rid of the pain has been winning. It’s this heaviness that I even take with me in my dreams. That feeling of betrayal by my sister (who used to be my best friend in the entire world), and so many others. I’ve never been in any legal trouble, so my situation is definitely a little bit different than yours.
@SmilesforMiles2024
@SmilesforMiles2024 2 ай бұрын
@@kirstenglae oh I think I understand what you are saying now. That is a tough one. I’m sorry you are dealing with all of that pain. If you want to give me more specifics or just chat about it email me: smilesformilescontact@gmail.com ❤️
@sherrijennings9309
@sherrijennings9309 2 ай бұрын
suggestion: you could give your ex-wife a pseudonym like say, Susan or Jane
@Ukrainianchick823
@Ukrainianchick823 2 ай бұрын
How old were you when you got clean?
@paigemason918
@paigemason918 2 ай бұрын
My son is struggling with drug addiction. Do you have any advice how a mom can help? I would do anything to help my kid. He is 22 and him and his girlfriend are living in there are in Portland. In September drugs are going back to illegal and I worry he will be in the system. He is so smart and wise it is such a waste of talent.
@lauratweddle6341
@lauratweddle6341 2 ай бұрын
Being in the system is better than the alternative. Consider Nar-anon for yourself.
@onewhisper22005
@onewhisper22005 28 күн бұрын
I know I’m not who you asked, but figured I’d answer. I was an addict for years. My ex got me into it and I used with him for years before I finally got clean. My mom was amazing. When I first started using and my parents found out, they tried so hard to basically force me to get clean. They kept coming and finding me and begging me to go to rehab, which I would do. But then once I was out, I’d start using again. Because I didn’t go to rehab because I wanted to be clean. I went because they wanted me to. They finally stopped doing that and instead just supported me emotionally however they could. My mom was just there for me. She would never give me any money or anything. But if I ever needed food, she’d buy me food (not give me money for it), if I needed someone to talk to she’d always listen, etc. She supported me without enabling me. She never made me feel bad about things or pushed me. And when I was ready to get clean, she was there and supported me and encouraged me. So, all you can do as a mom is let your son know that you love him and will be there for him any way you can that doesn’t involve enabling him (giving him money, letting him live with you while using, borrowing your car, etc.). If he needs something like food, you can buy it for him but never give him money. If he does get arrested and tries calling for you to get him out, don’t bail him out (as hard as that may be). Just tell him you love him and if he wants to get help when he gets out you’ll be there for him but you won’t bail him out. He will most likely be mad, but bailing him out won’t help him. All you can do is let him know if/when he’s ready to get clean, you’ll be there and help him in any way you can. And don’t try to guilt him or make him feel bad about things when you talk to him or see him. He wont truly get sober until he’s ready. Now sure if any of that was helpful in any way. I hope so. Good luck to you and your son! ❤❤❤
@AndrejPodzimek
@AndrejPodzimek 2 ай бұрын
It has always been a mystery to me why some people take heroin *and* meth. Never tried either of those, so I have no clue how exactly that feels, but isn’t it the case that heroin is a “downer” and meth is a stimulant? Doesn’t one just ruin the experience / “high” from the other?
@meowntainlion
@meowntainlion 2 ай бұрын
People often take them to "balance" the other - like if you need to come down from meth, opiates can take the edge off...of course, they are lethal combos.
@robynschroedl1336
@robynschroedl1336 2 ай бұрын
Thanks for this video. I find it super enlightening. Your candidness of such a tough situation and subject matter makes it easier for people to listen and actually HEAR what you’re saying. I also had the same question that Luke had. But mostly I’m just so hopeful for you that you are successful in your journey to a healthy happy fulfilling life. I’m glad to hear that you are focusing on what you are missing out on rather than worrying about your next high. It’s a great message for others to hear and an easy way for them to comprehend. As a nurse who works with a population of high drug and addiction, this is a great way of me to frame the big picture. Thank you! ❤ included a link for a song 😊 kzbin.info/www/bejne/rXipaIOprLR4hLMsi=Wod3-EstkVFDKSx7
@pokenurse1
@pokenurse1 2 ай бұрын
Former IV addict and nurse here. Still a nurse. I think there are different levels of addiction but some don't agree. I never went to jail or got caught at all, thank God. I was always too scared to do many things for fear of losing my license. I stayed on Suboxone for 10 years due to being a wimp lol. That being said, I can see you have a very bad case. I fear you will pick up again as long as you romanticize doing the drugs. Once I no longer felt that way, I knew I was much better off. Also, what will you do for money moving forward? Things are expensive and I can't fathom getting out of nursing though many times I have wanted to. Thankfully I found an office position I can handle. If push comes to shove, I recommend long term opiate replacement. If you relapse, you could die fast with Fentanyl. Good luck and stay sober :edit. Kratom isn't that strong, I take it daily for pain. Never has it made me want to pick up again. You must have been using the extracts. I don't like those, they make me sick.
@smashingartful
@smashingartful 2 ай бұрын
This has to be a troll post, right?
@rebeccabamford5505
@rebeccabamford5505 2 ай бұрын
This post was not very positive or encouraging.
@rebeccabamford5505
@rebeccabamford5505 2 ай бұрын
@@smashingartful I agree
@chebrubin
@chebrubin 2 ай бұрын
Why? Not every addict has to destroy there occupation and relationships to get sober.
@pokenurse1
@pokenurse1 2 ай бұрын
@@rebeccabamford5505 it wasn't meant to be
@elisamariev
@elisamariev 2 ай бұрын
I know it’s legal, but I still can’t believe they don’t test for kratom!!!
@rickyspeople
@rickyspeople 2 ай бұрын
You talk about healing and living well but don’t mention how you do that specifically. What tools do you have to self-regulate, cultivate inner peace, find balance within the constant flux? Attention is another drug to be wary of, don’t let this platform become a pulpit
@user-kz5up1tg7s
@user-kz5up1tg7s Ай бұрын
Coping skills?
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