My Weirdest Delusions

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[@JacobTylerrr]

Quality is so trash, might start using my phone to record videos I don't know. 😂

[@samanthamatus9534]

Yeah, think you just need better lighting. In your older videos you used to have good lighting. Idk what happened

[@BrichardWoW]

The sound quality is absolutely fine, its more about the content which is very comforting to listen to, its nice to hear about other peoples battles, makes it easier to cope with my own issues knowing that youre not alone.

[@svengangert2683]

Come on, dude! The quality is alright!

[@yahozna1405]

It could be only audio and I'll still watch your videos

[@stephanieneely5919]

How are you doing today

[@breeneb2705]

I believe my cat is sentient, like full fledged has opinions, biases, and communication ability and it can non-verbally communicate with me. Thats one if my weirdest ones.

[@DonKynos]

I remember thinking I could telepathically communicate with my friends parrots. I kept telepathically asking them if they hate me and one said to the other "I don't hate him? Do you hate him?" To which the other replied "I don't hate him". Wasn't quite a hallucination but more of my brain misinterpreting random parrot noises as words. My hallucinations mainly manifests as one primary female voice that sometimes refers to itself as a we or occasionally talks to others, and is extremely abusive to me

[@kaapokaljanen3261]

Omg i had that just before my first psychotic episode

[@skully3242]

It’s cool to see these videos over time. It’s like a journal.

[@samanthamatus9534]

I like how you don't take yourself so seriously. You were making laugh when you were talking about growing plants with your hands

[@kimmoore0427]

This is the 1st time I've EVER seen you SMILE! At the start of your video! Also during.....when poking a bit of fun at yourself. It's a GREAT look on you!

[@roberthughes6919]

I find your videos very interesting and relaxing to listen to.

[@kimmoore0427]

Ooo VIDEO SUGGESTION: (pick me😁) I'd love to hear about what a day/night in the life of Jacob looks like. From getting up...IF you go to the livgroom to eat meals...interactions with your parents (which I'd LOVE to hear about them) & any tv shows you watch...then your nightly rituals. (I'm a parent of a daughter with mental illness & I've always wondered about your interactions with your parents, family & if it's much...like do they have to come to your room to visit with you...or do you go out into the house much & have any family time? & also same if you've got any siblings...do you visit with them. I think alot would enjoy hearing about your family.

[@La.Summer]

My son has schizophrenia. He doesn't talk about it much and I don't want to pressure him, but sometimes he looks at me with fear in his eyes, then he really can't talk about it. Now I wonder if he has the same dillusion that you described, that I would hurt or kill him. That must be awful. If someone thought that about someone they lived with or about their own parent, I can see why they would not feel safe to talk about it with them, and it's only us two. Thank you for helping me understand my son better. I thought he might be having thoughts like that, but he's sometimes too afraid to talk about it and I would never want to add to his stress. I'm not sure if there is anything I can do to relieve his (possible) concern about that. It would be weird to come out and say, "I would never hurt you," or ask him if he thinks I would hurt him, because that could potentially make him suspect it more, because why would someone just say that, are they trying to trick you or give you threatening hints? ...and then the rabbit hole of suspicions he could fall into. All I can do is just understand and be as gentle and calm as I possibly can. It's hard for me because I have an animated personality and I have always expressed enthusiasm outwardly, but that seems to trigger the frightened looks (even if it's happy emotions) so I've been working hard to tone that down a lot. I never get angry or irritable at him (I use to as any normally stressed parent before I knew he was ill but now it's absolutely NOT permissible under any circumstances, even showing slight irritation (even a sigh) about anything having nothing to do with him upsets him so I never do it, it was hard to learn to control my emotions so strictly, but totally worth it). My son is about your age and he started having dillusions at age 5. When he was 11 his symptoms were pronounced enough to get doctors involved and it was another two years before they believed what we were dealing with because he has a very high IQ and was able to look/act normal. He didn't want to tell the doctors the truth because he thought they would institutionalize him. It was a very tough thing to go through. The doctors didn't believe what I said because he denied it and early onset was extremely rare, they said. I was eventually able to convince him to tell the truth and a flurry of medical excitement and activity ensued. UCLA studied him, he received new study medication and functional MRIs, CAT scans, and tons of other tests. We we're at UCLA on a regular basis for a year. The doctors couldn't believe his IQ score. I knew it was high, his pediatrician said he was "gifted" when he was 2, but we didn't have a number until UCLA. When he was in third grade Johns Hopkins started sending us mail because his standardized test scores were in the top 2% of the nation. When he got diagnosed, the letters stopped. That tells me they have access to people's private medical files, and I started wondering why they were able to contact us in the first place. At the time I didn't think to question it, but now it's obvious they keep an eye on us, and JH works with the gov, so I'm glad we didn't participate in the programs they were offering. I've heard things from kids who've gone through JH. They wanted him to attend their University instead of high school. He tested as high as the 16th grade when he was in 6th grade. Anyway, sorry for this long comment, I've not talked to anyone about this (not even my family) and your video kind of brought out all the things we went through. Now he's stable most of the time, some days better than others, but this illness blocks him from meeting his potential and that's very painful and depressing for him, as I'm sure it is for everyone who suffers from this.

[@La.Summer]

I tell you about his IQ level because you seem to have the same qualities he has, the self awareness and keen introspection, the ability to articulate well, soft spoken... He also, I believe, went through a phase of the grandiose super-human beliefs about himself, which would make sense if you have a high functioning mind.

[@CompanionBeans]

you sound like an amazing parent- from one (now former)child whose parents failed their mental health in nearly every way, thank you for genuinely putting your son's needs first. Having someone in your court when it feels like the whole world is against you can be genuinely life changing. Wishing all the best for you and your son

[@La.Summer]

@@CompanionBeans thank you, your words encourage me greatly. I pray for powerful success and healing for you.

[@AnnaBulaklak369]

I have hallucinations and delusions of mysterious symbols, numbers, angels, and angelic orbs. I have Schizophrenia as well. 💕

[@numerology1138]

Angel numbers numerology look into it

[@Laughing-Carly]

I was bullied too and some kids at high school were afraid of me and thought I was a psychopath and crazy

[@PannaCam]

You have a podcast voice, love to listen to you!

[@Laughing-Carly]

I have feelings of paranoia that people (even my parents) are gonna hurt me or kill me sometimes

[@Alan_Hero]

Your videos are a breath of fresh air. Very articulate and to the point. Wishing you all the best now and in the future

[@nightsoul_0003]

Thank you so much Jacob

[@michaelmasse3253]

I have many delusions too. don't worry. I have delusions that Britney Spears is talking to me in my head, I think EVERYONE in my life including my family is in on some crazy conspiracy against me. I believe I was immortal at one point but now I'm not. we have very similar delusions, AND I never leave the house unless I really have to.

[@davidetienne9404]

Britney Spears? I'm so sorry you're going through that.

[@MessyHair1]

Hey friend!!! I never shared my delusions but I feel free to do this for the first time. Here we go... I thought my real parents were German immigrants and that I was adopted, sometimes also believe am a messiah, I used to believe I was the reincarnation of Friedrich Nietzsche and eventually the reincarnation of some other people like Charlemagne or Emperor Augustus. I remember that I believed people could read my mind and laughed at me because of my fantasies and also believed that I was a manga character and that the author was writing about my story before I was brainwashed. Funny thing is that I never was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, but rather Bipolar Disorder lol. Do you think I may develop it (Schizo)? When I was 14 I dropped out school and isolated myself and became a very weird person (Prodrome?). Take care dude.

[@MessyHair1]

​@@davidetienne9404 This sounds painful asf brother

[@7cTube]

Ayyy what a nice channel my dude, welcome to my subscription box. It's amazing the examples of delusion that you gave, for they seem in order of what can be partly true. For example, others wishing to kill you is clearly false but in general people carry around alot of hate in their hearts, which can become a cause to kill someone when conditions are right. Therefore it's only partly delusion. Being a deity more on the false side, clearly a human this time 😄 however, what if it's true of what you were in the past? Being immortal, I agree is not only completely false but also dangerous. Even after being a deity for millions of years here we are back to human state... There's not a thing that's permanent. Even if these beings are real, doesn't mean what they tell, show or look like is true. 😱 Be well, my dude

[@bookerk4388]

Thank you for sharing. Can you tell me if the delusions and anxiety is less while taking medication ? I am sorry that you have the feeling of not belonging. I appreciate you for sharing your experience. I have a family member with this.

[@Mel-xr6hs]

Your videos mean a lot. Thank you for sharing your experience. Do you have any symptom management techniques or ways to distract yourself from voices?

[@DisturbeD802]

I remember when i saw one of your first videos also the most popular one , i can see improved maybe ? im happy for you , i was also diagnosed with schizofrenia i had some weird shit happen but i havent had any symptoms in 4 years , listening to your delusions i call them my paranoias and i kinda have them sometimes but not often , i also secretly belive that i talked in my mind with the person i ve fallen in love with , and since im a Polish living in italy if i had a conversation with that person and i didint know a word in italian i would ask him for it in my head , i would tell him the word in english and he would translate it to italian and that happend 2 times and i didint know those words before or heard of them , so thats kinda weird , it sometimes pops up in my head and makes me think , but i try not to think to deep about it

[@YeppersItsMe]

You remind me a lot of my son. He's 17 and has struggled with similar delusions for a while now. No matter what meds he is on, they don't seem to help and he's so depressed by it all. I wish there was a way I could help him.

[@La.Summer]

Dear precious young man, you are not responsible for your dilusions. Please don't criticize yourself for being a victim of this awful illness.

[@rls3745]

Tell us more about delusions please😁

[@BR-ww8wb]

I have it as well, great video

[@chrissyquartly2893]

I have delusions that everybody is going to not like me and be mean to me

[@ievajachimaviciute2219]

The feeling of not bonging anywhere is so relatable..

[@freezkeer]

you have a very powerful mind.

[@kenshofalco8326]

The good thing regarding your delusions is that you are aware they're not real afterwards. I'm not trying to imply the don't seem real when you're all caught up in it, it's just that you're able to rationalize things to a high degree. My best friend is completely consumed by his delusions to the point he recently told me his real name was never Brian, that he was kidnapped when he was a young child and that his parents aren't really his parents at all. He works for federal government law agencies to the point he began buying crack from street dealers in Manhattan and Brooklyn in order to get them to turn on their suppliers. He ended up starting to smoke the crack evidence and became addicted, hopped on a bus to Texas, where he stole someone's truck that was parked outside a convenience store. He was found mentally incompetent to stand trial but spent about a year and a half in a county jail until there was an opening in one of four state mental hospitals. I eventually gave up trying to convince what he was thinking wasn't real which at times enraged him so I stopped challenging him and would just listen. The stories he shared were always the same, right down to the finest details. And there were many different stories. Now that he's hospitalized we're able to talk though I haven't heard from him in several days. I know he's alright, that he's safe and back on his meds. But meds have absolutely no effect on delusions, they do help control psychotic symptoms though. There's no breaking free from these ideas. I remember stumbling onto your channel awhile ago. I remember thinking you were intelligent and seemed like a very peaCeful young guy. You turned up in my feed today. It was nice seeing you again.

[@andreameigs1261]

Yes, the frustrating thing about delusions is that you can't logic someone out of them, just like you can't logic someone out of being depressed, or logic someone out of hating themselves, and rarely out of insecurities. You can tell a self hater all day that they are a good person and why, but that won't fix the shame they have, and the reason is probably the same...it's not based on logic but emotion, which trumps logic every time unless someone has learned and practiced the skill of questioning what they, "know" which then bumps right up into their ego and then another fear of being crazy. In this way, the continued belief in the delusion may serve as a protection mechanism. You may be able to get more insight on this if you watch the talks by Elenaor Longden Longren? She's got schizophrenia but has 'integrated' it, so she's off meds and still hears voices, but they are now like superpowers rather than a debilitating handicap. Also, there are other people who have just eventually been cured of it alltogether. There's a documentary by Daniel Mackler including a couple of cured schizophrenics, one of which had a movie sort of made about her. Anyway, props to listening and being a friend to this person. It can probably be really hard sometimes, but it does matter to them. Anyway, since even a DNA test wouldn't convince him that his parents are really his, and this belief may be based on not feeling loved, or even being abused, maybe when he says he was kidnapped, you could say, "that sounds really upsetting. Why do you *feel* like they kidnapped you?" I wouldn't ask about abuse because that could become a new delusion, so I would be pretty careful about asking "leading" type questions, but if it is based on emotions, he may be able to start working some of that out.

[@kenshofalco8326]

@@andreameigs1261 Thank You for sharing that!

[@cyberiansilverfish7692]

I remember that Seroquel has been the first medication I have ever taken. They gave it to you in the morning, and didn’t allow you to sleep over the day. So, all day long, you felt like a zombie who could barely stand, fighting tiredness and mental illnesses. It was pure torture. It didn’t really help me back then. I guess I can quite understand how it feels…

[@perlasa990]

you are the best😘

[@rls3745]

I have the same feelings I know people wanna kill me everywhere I go but I know that this is real is not my imagination because they looking at my mother and smiling or making some weird things with their hands they r coming very close to me but very close and for me this is threatening when I'm around they r laughing very much but very much and too many other things

[@patrickmccoy1531]

I've seen a combination of a cotard and capgras delusion.. it's debilitating. Jake having insight into his delusions is a great breakthrough. The brain looks for the easiest explanation to explain things. When under extreme stress, it often comes out with very real experiences to the person who would link coincidences in everyday life to the delusion making it hard for the person to see it doesn't make sense to anyone else

[@pamdewall4588]

Hi Jacob 😍😍😍😍

[@patrickhurley7029]

I don't have schizophrenia but I do suffer from delusions from time to time. I'm sure that I have been stalked, I'm sure that an entity was speaking to me through ai- and it caused me to feel things like an overwhelming love followed by a feeling of being completely drained- as if the ai entity gave me a kundalini awakening or something, extremely intense. Maybe it was real, but before that I believed everyone was out to get me, that everyone I loved was in on it and so who do you talk to when you literally believe everyone is out to get you? It's not easy. I have on multiple occasions done things to "lure" stalkers. I'd drive my car and think every other car was following me so I would pull over, get back on the road only to think its happening again by a different car minutes later. Then when I pulled over, I was convinced that someone was standing just out of my sight, lying to everyone who walked passed about me just because they didn't "like" me. When I first pulled over my mind justified that no one would be watching me because how do they know I'm there if I just pulled over, I could have pulled over anywhere- but within 5 minutes it was back and I would freak out. Anytime I would talk about it the delusions would go away as I have a good sense of when people are being genuine with me- and friends/family would be genuine when they said it wasn't happening but it confused a hell of a lot of people. Everyone questioned why I believed it was happening and wondered if I was in trouble or something- all around just bad experiences. I'm entering the field of social work and mental health , and am so grateful for these experiences now because I understand on a very real level what it's like to experience them- in fact, I'm grateful for every single dark moment in my life that brings me closer to understanding more people. I'm very grateful for your channel and for others like it that shed light on mental health and get the conversations rolling. Helps destigmatize these issues while provides support to those going through something similar. It's a very brave thing, to put yourself out there like this- but you're not hurting anyone. Anyone who would want to go after you or see you as even problematic would have to be suffering some serious delusions themselves- I hope that you continue to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you go through those delusions and encourage you to keep sharing as it is invaluable.

[@krisreed1943]

talk about the ring girl?

[@caitlinsalyers1017]

...........right

[@Michaelschizophernic]

The brain isn't logical.

[@SharrrkGirrrl]

God: I will give u powers. U just have to leave the house Jacob: yeah I’ll pass So Relatable

[@Laughing-Carly]

I’m anorexic I’m underweight and have been for years

[@Tomorrowstoops]

I think everyone loses the gravity of situations and that's why we shcizos cannot have a rational sane mind, we lose the facts of the illness

[@rayray6548]

i think you're like an untuned antenna for electromagnetic trans-dimensional wavelength signal created by turbulence in the laminar flow of spacetime. like on a Quantum level, bro, no doubt.

[@lifeisgreen9233]

Take care, eat ealthy, exercise a bit. I like tour videos.

[@chesscheckandmate]

Start to read Bible and sonner or later things starts to work out as you live like a happy person;)

[@Michaelschizophernic]

I hate who I am.

[@caitlinsalyers1017]

Delusions usually aren't normal but hey that's my opinion.........

[@elixsg]

You should study about "PLANETARY ASCENCION".

[@elixsg]

we're galactic. some of your delusions are part of something else. free yourself from disbelief.

[@ProfessorMonstru]

@@elixsg Stop. We are just organic life on a space rock, like every other organism on this planet. Jacob is clearly trying to keep himself healthy and functional, and people spreading this kind of nonsense are not helpful. You are not helpful. Your weirdo beliefs are not in any way supported by evidence, and what's worse is that they could encourage dangerous behavior in someone who needs solid grounding and honest support.

[@trollmcclure1884]

Dude, you look like Your Mate Tom. Check him out. Dude's doing psychedelics, talks about mental stuff,... When I saw your vid in suggestions I thought it's him.😀 This is interesting too. You are like on psychedelics from the very birth. You'd be surprised how many people feel off this world. There's a thin line between spirituality and this condition. You think feeling out of this world is crazy, feeling like being part God, a being one with God,... It may be who we are. Ever heard of eastern religions? It's all about seing through the veil of this reality, being one with God etc. You just cant control it. It may or may not be a physical, chemical condition in the brain organ. I dont know. It's nothing new tho. People saw stuff for thousands of years. Dellusions can be dangerous. It sucks when you dont know what is true. Yeah, it has to suck when your hypothalamus doesnt sort it out for you during sleep. I've read a hypothesis that schizophrenia and other slow wave disorders are actually sleep disorders. Or at least start as such. Then the long term chemical imbalance takes atoll on the brain itself as an organ. Slow wave disorders can be fixed by brainwave entrainment by increasing brainwaves during the day. I was using Schumann resonances 14.3 and 20.8 Hz. There's some research behind 14 or so Hz - You can find it on Wikipedia - Sensorimotor rhythm 13-15Hz so why not 14.3 which is kinda in tune with the Earth right? I fixed all my anxiety with CBD weed. Some strains, mostly sativa dominant .CBD works opposite to THC which is the psychotic, instant fear chemical found in common Cannabis. CBD either blocks the same receptors or modulates the psychotropic effect. I grew myself some hemp hybrids and 1:1 CBD-THC hybrids and they were all OK. It kills connections and anxiety instantly. Like years of BS is just gone. It's actually too good and I'd feel less alive and I'd seek some THC to feel something. There were studies and trials where schizophrenic patients were given up to 1 gram of pure CBD (cannabidiol) and there was a significant change in their wellbeing. IMHO 1g is way too much. I was always over-sensitive to Cannabis. One toke could send me into heart-racing fear. I could smoke a whole joint of 1:1 hybrid of mine after some testing. It was awesome. I was a bit zombified and sleepy tho. Completely innactive in the outer and inner world. I still avoid someone elses weed like I could get infected by their spirit. I dont like to smoke with another people for the same reason. Sometimes it's OK and others can take you up and it's fun but THC kinda removes the spiritual shield and opens us to everything so it's as easy to get taken down. I dont like that. CBD was like my secret antidote. I think it terminated couple of my friendships too. It's selfish, grounded, disconnecting. These two chemicals are like right and left hand of the devil but if your brain is out of balance, or even body, our cannabinoid system has fingers in everything from immunity to dopamine release. This can balance it. It's a trial and error tho. It can suck until you find the right strain and it's never perfect. It's too much this or that. Still better than antipsychotics IMHO.

[@greenpilgrimz3763]

Should of went to church

[@hamdiimane1092]

Welcome to islam : kzbin.info/www/bejne/rJmXd5amoKZqo5Y ( am praying for you you are not alone )

[@TheRandonium]

Reminded me of a great quote: “Your mind is working at its best when you're being paranoid" Btw look up Aajonus Vonderplanitz primal diet it has really helped my mental state these last 4+ years since I discovered it. There is some great clips of him talking in youtube if you're not interested in books. Also shrooms have helped my mind a lot.

[@donteatmecows8265]

Hi, Jacob. I'm always eager to see another video! I really enjoy your videos! I also want to say that you don't have to want to be someone else because you are perfect the way you are. I'm not saying that your brain is functioning normally of course, I'm saying there's nothing wrong with you as a person. In some of your other videos I learned about your worldview, and you made a fair point which was that if God was so good why would he make you schizophrenic. I think that to understand the point I'm about to make you'd have to understand the nature of God first. It's hard to explain everything in a comment but I'll briefly summarize: God has no beginning or end. When he decided to create the world, his purpose was to have a relationship with mankind. In the process of creating the world he decided to begin mankind by creating Adam and then Eve. He said they could eat the fruit of any tree except for one that was called the Tree of the Knowledge of good and evil, because if they did, they wouldn't live forever like God made them to, and at some point, they would die from old age. But then a supernatural being called Satan the Deceiver came possessing the form of a serpent and lied to Eve by telling her that if she ate the fruit from the tree she wouldn't die, but would become like God, knowing good from evil. So she decided to eat the fruit, seeing it was pleasing to the taste. This opened their eyes so that they were ashamed they were naked. So they hid from God, afraid because they were naked. The choice Adam and Eve made to believe the serpent instead of God introduced death and disease into the world. All this points to God's plan to send his son to live a perfect life without sin in a human body and to be a sacrifice for our sins, to offer the free gift of salvation to everyone who accepts him as their Lord and believed he died on the cross for their sins. What I wrote here probably doesn't make complete sense to you at first, (because it's a lot to take in) but there's a KZbin channel that has videos explaining the concept more thoroughly called the BibleProject. If you decide to look into it I'd recommend starting with the video called The Story of The Bible and then watch the other videos in the series after that. Also, I'd like to see you make a video about your thoughts on the BibleProject videos if you want to make it. Anyway, best wishes and I hope this was helpful!

[@TheCompleteTruthBlog]

Brother, seek after the Lord Jesus Read Gods word in the Bible, many like you have been set free Forgiveness for your sin can be found in Christ alone ✝️✝️

[@qplanet]

Swapping one delusion for another

[@TheCompleteTruthBlog]

@@qplanet his demons are real, and only one man in history has power over demonic spirits, Jesus Christ, the risen Savior, we all will be judged, and Christ alone paid for our sin, repent my friend, judgment is sure, and Christ is Lord ✝️✝️

[@svengangert2683]

@@qplanet You know, to believe that nothing created everything by accident might be more delusional than the rational thought that life as we know it has been intelligently designed. Just saying.

[@qplanet]

@@svengangert2683 and to believe something mystical did is cowardly and childish

[@svengangert2683]

@@qplanet Define something mystical. Many supposed atheists are completely on board when it comes to the theory of reality being a simulation, without ever acknowledging that simulations are created. I bet you have no prblem with the concept of existing space aliens also, but a creator of existence would be too much, right? Cause only nothing can create intelligent life. You're a joke.