IVF diaries pt 15 | getting a really upsetting update (EMOTIONAL) & trying to find strength

[@TiffanieMichelle]

This is a very very real and raw moment and a true experience of this journey. I always try to share positivity on the internet and give you hope, but I think it’s important to share these moments too🤍

[@TiffanieMichelle]

thank you so much everyone for all of the support. I truly appreciate and love you all! ❤

[@B4577-x9d]

I pray for peace and comfort over you during this time. Watching your videos makes me all the more grateful for the miracle taking place in my own body. May God grant you the desires of your heart and may He get all the glory ❤ You are a strong woman

[@TiffanieMichelle]

Thank you so much ❤️

[@sarahwilson217]

Try to keep your head up. It’ll be okay. I know how discouraging it can be when things don’t go the way you planned or envisioned them. But maybe it’ll be a cute Valentine’s Day announcement or a lucky st Patrick’s day announcement🍀. You’ve already proven how strong you are. You’ve made it this far. Just keep having faith and try to distract yourself with the boys and the joys of the holidays right now. And hopefully time will fly by quickly.

[@sonahri4045]

I'm so sorry you did not get the news you wanted. Please find peace in knowing you are not alone in this journey. I am facing infertility due to low quality egg and low ovarian reserve, i am only 30yrs old. I have had 2 miscarriages this year. We are getting closer every cycle to IVF which may not even work because of egg quality and low follicle count. Keep your head up, staying positive throughout this journey and relying on support from your friends and family will help you through these tough times. Watching your videos gives me hope, and a sense of normality during this process. Praying for you ❤

[@JulieFurtado-q1y]

Praying for you. I understand the feelings of being let down and loosing hope. I have had three miscarriages in a row and the excitement of pregnancy is no longer there, it’s fear and worry of being let down. After the three miscarriages we decided to do IVF and I have now thrown out all timelines. I’ve brought onto myself so much anxiety and anger that things weren’t going my way and I honestly feel like now I’m just letting god decide what is next. None of these things are in our control and we can’t perseverate on things that we can’t control. I was supposed to have a baby during the holidays but that ended in a miscarriage unfortunately. Going through IVF I’ve learned so much about myself. I’m learning patients, letting go of control, I’ve turned to god more and I’ve learned to be more grateful for things I do have. While this experience is extremely taxing and slightly traumatic, there are so many positive things that I will carry with me. You’re almost there. Don’t give up hope. You’ve got this ❤We’ve got this!

[@mori.kurogawa7936]

Some people don't want fertility treatments during Xmas season bc they just want to let go and enjoy the time, come to rest and let the year end in peace. Also, if it goes wrong Xmas will be tainted with bad memories. I also have infertility due to endometriosis, before I got pregnant, I had countless examinations, surgery, egg freezing, med journeys, stress. I felt like you in the first section of the video. Good luck and pineapples in the new year 🍍🥚👶🏻

[@melissaflores4409]

Thanks for sharing this! I feel the same about getting No after No. It’s refreshing to see a more realistic experience behind this journey. Makes me feel like I’m not alone in this and that is okay to not feel positive all the time. ❤

[@tristi19]

The waiting sucks so bad in IVF. You feel like you have a date set for something and then that gets pulled. I cried so many times during my process. I already had 4 kids and I just wanted to be able to add one more to our family. It took us 2 years to bring home our IVF baby from the time of our consultation to her birth. It was the longest most rewarding 2 years of my life. One day you'll be holding your little miracle baby and it'll be worth it. Worth all the waiting, the shots the heartbreak. ❤

[@AussieTracy]

Do you want to share a piece? That nope was faster than the speed of light 😂 I'd eat cake before dinner too. I am sorry things are not going to plan on your IVF Journey but I see you next Christmas in front of your tree snuggled up with a new baby in your arms opening presents with your family. It's good to let your emotions show and lay a voice to them, somehow I always feel less alone if I have voiced my feelings even if just outloud to myself. 💕💕

[@angeleyez8866]

I'm praying for you! 🙏 I completely understand what you are going through. I just did my first IVF cycle in November and just recently found out I lost all of my embryos. I am heartbroken 💔 but trusting God and hoping that cycle 2 will have a more positive result. Hang in there and trust HIS timing.

[@Anah169.]

I am so sorry. I completely understand how you feel. It's like constantly fighting against time and against all the "no's". This journey is not for the weak. I had my first transfer a couple weeks ago and found out yesterday that it's a chemical (decreasing betas). My dream was to announce pregnancy on Christmas but sadly that dream is gone. I have to wait for beta to drop back to negative before ny next transfer, which I highly doubt will happen before Christmas. Its hard, so very hard, but we must remain strong in our faith. I guess this is a blessing in disguise. We can enjoy the holidays and get a break from this darn IVF provess because Lord knows its exhausting. I hope you feel at peace and i hope for the best for you!

[@breannahall7818]

Praying for you and your journey. 🫶🏾

[@Anah169.]

@breannahall7818 thank you so much 🤍

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@Anah169. I’m so sorry it ended in a chemical. I’ll be praying for your journey. And thank you for your encouragement to continue❤️

[@LifeWithRupy]

The waiting game in all of this is so hard. I’ve been waiting since December of last year when the IVF clinic reached out to me to get the ball rolling… and I’m hoping I can start stims next cycle and have a successful retrieval. We literally cannot plan anything which sucks… I hope by next Christmas I have my baby but I can’t even do a transfer probably until March or April due to my endo needing to be suppressed. I understand all the dreams… And the dreams being crushed. I’m really sorry. You’re not alone. I pray 2025 brings us happier moments ❤

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@LifeWithRupy I’m so sorry about all the pain and struggle you’ve been through. Praying for your journey, stay strong. And thank you so much for your encouragement ❤️❤️

[@rachelluvsu2950]

Tiffanie I am so sorry you are going through this. Seeing you cry out and breaking down and letting yourself go through these emotions and the next clip reassuring yourself was amazing. God bless you. I am so proud of you. Praying for you… praying for a 2025 baby for you 💕

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@rachelluvsu2950 thank you so much and thank you for your prayers❤️

[@donnarooney8833]

As hard as it is to not have your transfer when you've envisioned so much, I think for you it'll be better to have it in the new year. Then there's no pressure at christmas, if it didn't work it would be a lot harder not being able to announce it, I was in your situation before but when I did finally get to tell my family it was the perfect time. I think when you do announce it you'll be so happy with the timing ❤ it's so tough on you right now 😢 you'll definitely be able to announce it soon x

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@donnarooney8833 thank you❤️❤️ it’s extremely difficult but I am learning to let go and just give it God.

[@sandrahassan9865]

Awn so sorry!! I know the feeling of these setbacks that never seems to end 😢 I hope the SIS goes well and you get your start off 2025 strong and pregnant ❤🙏🏼

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@sandrahassan9865 thank you so much! ❤️❤️❤️

[@Mj-fm6kj]

Sofar i'm at 2 years , 2 retrievals 10 embryo used (miscarried them all - recurrent pregnancy loss patient here)... 5 embryos left on ice, 6 surgeries, several saline sonos and here we are with nothing to show for it. Over the years I've learned to adjust my expectations-- nothing in IVF is a guarantee and this process is SO SO SO hard. Nothing ever seems to happen when or how you think it will. It's normal to question or rethink if it's worth it but I'm sure someday it will all pay off! I restarted using a Reproductive Immunologist and we think we found the reason for my losses so here's trying to hope I have success next year. Or at least hopeful but sooo super guarded!

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@Mj-fm6kj oh my gosh! I am so sorry for all of your pain and loss. I’m so glad to hear that you are finally getting some potential answers. And you are 100% correct, I’ve had to drop my expectations and learn to accept things as they come. Praying for your journey! ❤️

[@breannahall7818]

I am actively in the in between in my IVF journey. Retrieval was early this month and we have embryos frozen. You are in your right to feel the way you feel 100% I see and I watch your videos. I see you are very faith driven and you know gods timing is the best timing it could just be so a superficial thing that you are having to give up control, but the whole entire process is letting go of your control. I was the same way I thought everything would happen by December decreeing that the lord would allow us to be able to tell family on Christmas that we’re pregnant after 10 years of infertility BUT it didn’t pan out that way for a reason . With your sis something may be found or it may not work (praying it does) but I may not. I had my sis fully thinking I was gonna be good but they found a polyp and they weren’t going to do a transfer until that was taken care of so now after retrieval we have our date and I am fully ready for this month of rest because I know when the time comes it’s going to be quick. Give yourself some grace . Definitely take the space to feel the way you feel this journey is hard but the worse is really over. I’ll be praying for you! 🫶🏾🤍

[@breannahall7818]

Amos 9:13-15 😊

[@MichelleSwaggerty]

I’m so sorry your going through this stay strong and know you will do a transfer at some point but I know right now it’s hard to come to terms with. I didn’t think I was going to transfer in December either because they said everything was booked but to my surprise they one opening available so I took it. So praying maybe something opens up and you can transfer. Good luck

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@MichelleSwaggerty this gives me hope. Thank you so much ❤️

[@christielyle21]

Pray, it's in his will, in his time, just trust God's plan, 🙏 sending prayer's till it's your time to transfer

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@christielyle21 thank you so much for your prayers! ❤️

[@JonettaHall]

Keep the faith God's got this don't worry enjoy your day

[@casey7924]

Praying for you, Tiffanie! I hope that 2025 laws and policies don’t impact IVF in your state (or any state) and you can transfer your embryos next year and in the future, should you choose to

[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@casey7924 thank you so much for your prayers❤️

[@paty2216]

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[@TiffanieMichelle]

@@paty2216 ❤️❤️