JAYTEKZ - Fuxking Numb

JAYTEKZ - Fuxking Numb
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Official "Fuxking Numb" Lyrics:
I just wanna' drink and get fucked up
I just feel so lonely inside my heart
I just wish that I could feel some love
Feel like I been stabbed with a million shards
I can't stand myself when I'm sober
Intoxicate myself so I feel alive
I just want this all to be over
I can't help that I feel so dead inside
I don't wanna' feel this fucking pain no more
I'm so tired of feeling empty deep inside my soul
Being alive just doesn't feel the same no more
Maybe it's just time to clock out and let go
I promise you I'm tryna' be the best I can
The more I try to love myself the more I hate who I've become
I honestly have no clue who the fuck I am
I wanna' drink the pain away till' I get drunk
I wanna' get fucked up and drift away
And when the sun comes up I won't awake
Let the alcohol run through my veins
I know this is my fault I'm so ashamed
I don't wanna' be here anymore
I don't know what I have been looking for
I know that I'm damaged internally
I can no longer manage this misery
Close my eyes
Don't wanna' wake up
Hope is dying
And I'm afraid of
Being alive
Don't wanna stay here
Just wanna' lay here
I know my grave's near
Emptiness
Is all that I feel
Ever since
I failed to heal
My remnants
Will remain
I can't explain
This awful pain
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I just feel so lonely inside my heart
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Feel like I been stabbed with a million shards
Yo I swear to God I'll never feel again
Praying to God to help me heal within
If I died right before I wake would you take my soul if it's filled with sins
Fill my cup up to the brim
Getting fucked up to feel again
Getting drugged up to heal within cause my faith in God has been getting slim
All this pressure has been getting to me
All these heartbreaks have been too many
If I died now would you forget me
Would you regret the fact that you let me
I been crying for so fucking long
Crying for help in every fucking song
It's more than music these are my alarms
Don't act surprised I warned you all along
How much longer will I stay on earth
How much harder do I have to search
How much stronger just to bear the hurt
What if death is what I deserve
I'm out of breath running from this curse
I'm out of breath running from this curse
There's nothing left I have zero worth
Let me rest in peace deep below the dirt, fuck
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I just feel so lonely inside my heart
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Feel like I been stabbed with a million shards
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Intoxicate myself so I feel alive
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I can't help that I feel so dead inside
#JayteKz #FuxkingNumb #OfficialFuxkingNumbLyrics

[@iamjaytekz]

I love you all so much!!! I hope you enjoyed the music video and just know that whatever you are going through, you WILL get through it!!! I purposely chose to drop this song right at the end of the year because this is a part of my life I want to leave behind. I’m going into 2020 with a new energy, new belief system and new mindset. 2020 will be a new chapter in my life, and it will also be a new chapter in every single one of yours. This music video will always be here, forever; so whenever you guys need comfort and you need to be reminded of someone who went through this phase and eventually got through it, you can jump back to this and reinvigorate your spirits. I love you all so much and thank you for everything. Directly below I will drop the link to this song on Spotify!!! (It is also available on ALL streaming platforms, not only Spotify!!!) open.spotify.com/track/5DVH1qfuv3XC8vXOYhQ9gO?si=AFVIa4PlT9SrGbklp5mAvg

[@elijahrojas3592]

Damn bro I love ur music it has helped me alot through the years and keep up the good work dont stop u gonna change the world one day and dont let no one stop u from being u

[@franciscagriego4997]

Love it, your music touches me and so many others...I work with children who have been through some crazy shit, as well as the youth who believe there is no end to their trauma. I also have the pleasure to see youth succeed and choose to control their own life and destiny. Keep your head up, it’s easy for people to say this but if you are not living we dont know. You have a big voice to those who feel like giving up. Love you and thrive for a better you.

[@heatheradams9423]

Love the new song I so fill this way

[@evanajoaquin6416]

Let's all go into 2020 a better us!!! Love you Jaytekz!!💙🖤💙🖤 This song is truth let it keep playing.

[@twistyagar2784]

I love you jayteks and i hope any struggles that you are going threw turns out for the better🙏 i love you❤

[@nahdiacarroll4708]

It hurts being numb and sober 🖤

[@bradleybialecki94]

Nahdia Carroll in fact it does

[@petergriffen5736]

You aren't alone

[@tuffNOTbluff]

If you listen he doesn't rap about being sober weirdo

[@juniorsantiago8269]

True. I'm always sober, so... I feel like this 24/7. Having a disability not allowing me to drink, take any drugs, I have nothing but sleeping all day. All I do. All I can do.

[@jsquadgang6296]

Yes, it does.

[@Curaleafs]

“I can’t stand myself when I’m sober, intoxicate myself so I feel alive.”

[@angels320xo]

Fr... those are some deep lyrics with a real AF message. I'm sure almost everyone can relate to at some point in their lives. 💜✨

[@lonniefinn2572]

I feel like death is near but ur lyrics they help I'm in a dark place in my life this very moment and I heard this it helps truly I think u wish we could chat maybe

[@jaydawg9724]

I felt that shit for real😔

[@JoseGarcia-qv8qh]

I feel the same

[@jamaal18kool]

Me too

[@SikWorldMusic]

To think... without me you wouldn’t exist ... it’s an honor 🥺

[@carasnluv]

Lmao

[@Opinionatedcancer]

JayteKz 😂😂❤️❤️

[@ashleykatz2136]

@@iamjaytekz yout great

[@ashleykatz2136]

@@iamjaytekz going thru rejection sucks

[@Hablinsky]

Sik World I was listening to him before whatever you did. I don’t even know who you are lmao

[@sarahbrannan4512]

💔😢 alot of us feel this way 🙏 you are not alone

[@somedude1590]

wait till you get old .

[@thegamingchefgil7111]

facts

[@EtwonYoung]

22 and life destroyed. I already know.

[@jerryadkins9087]

I feel this way every day I keep moving for the love of my kids this song is me 💯

[@sarahbrannan4512]

@@jerryadkins9087 thats all we can do 😔😉💪🙏

[@ellissparkes1707]

Prayers to all those going through a hard time, its gonna be okay ♥️

[@Vibratorypie150]

😥😞

[@ashleykatz2136]

Friendzoned me when I did eberuong

[@heidiguzman1096]

I hope so. Been praying since day 1 and it’s just getting worse

[@xavierkennedy7858]

i need it to get better i am dealing with really bad depression

[@lip_neron27]

No it don’t

[@kaylynnholiday3814]

Depression is no joke 😔

[@emilymartinez2568]

This is my favorite song because every word is exactly how I feel.

[@Matus87]

Dont give up hope

[@nickherrera8072]

Stay up shawty

[@Babygirl-bc6qu]

same here girl

[@adancastro6093]

Same it fkn sucks ....😔

[@goosey7892]

I've been goin through deep depression for well over half my life n it only gets worse when addin the liquor to it.. You might think when you start drinkin that its workin n cuz u got a smile n you laughin n talkin but it's just a mask to hide the pain!! Same goes with the drugs.. I got my medical marijuana card down here in Fla. n I started smokin every type of flower under the sun till I found one that really made me feel better with out bein stoned (PCK is the name) now I actually am gettin better without fuckin my insides up with all the nasty prescribed antidepressants!!!! You might be in that tunnel right now but there really is light at the end of it even if it looks so far away fight through it!! "2Pac- Keep your head up n your mind strong everyday is a struggle but you gotta hold on be strong"

[@ricardoduecewilliams608]

Proud brother u came long way 2019 be ready 2020 peoples CHAMP is coming

[@amandarodriguez2837]

Facts 👏🏽👏🏽

[@ishmaelmurray6895]

I'm from 2020 universe

[@ricardoduecewilliams608]

My bad brother I was message jaytekz

[@jjx5270]

Bout two weeks ago this song hit hard in the feels... 😪💔 But, ever since I kept seeking god and going to church, now I’m here like. 😐 It gets better trust me 💗

[@HustlersParadise308]

Why hasn't anyone signed him and made him blow up yet I remember listening to him a while back when his video blew up of him singing on Facebook in a car backseat is it because he doesn't wear designer clothes or doesn't have colorful hair the music industry sleeps on real talent and pushes out the BS artists.

[@nolabratteig988]

Him and nf should start a record label called real music

[@AF3NI]

if you want them to be a Nicki Minaj their music wouldn't be as magic.. So just listen.. They make a lot of money its not about the money but the people they reach their true fans and its helping themselves.. They don't want to be mainstream you think they couldn't get a record deal like Nicki or I don't even know who is a hit these days lmfao.. Thats just underrated and they know it.. Excuse my English.. It's garbage.

[@ExploringWithJared]

I'm sure if they knew they could make millions off him they would sign him and I'm sure they have confronted him before so maybe he just doesn't want a deal..

[@frank5480]

it’s because all of his music is about the same shit

[@barryquinn8420]

@@frank5480 lol 😂😂

[@sinssee]

Brother this songs hits really deep ❤

[@blazenchronic4329]

Intoxicate my self so I feel alive

[@xavierchavez119]

Still here since 2015 still one of top 10 love it

[@ricardoduecewilliams608]

Since the beginning brother only a few of us here

[@bigoptichecz6106]

Ricardo DUECE Williams yup

[@ChapoGuzman896]

Sure you have 🤡

[@codyo.2019]

I feel the pain in this, shit hit me on a whole new level.

[@MrChico711]

This is exactly how I've felt the last 2 years, everything in me feels dead after all the love n trust that has been betrayed, but I still work hard as fuck hoping for a glimpse of light that one day my perseverance will finally pay off rather than get shitter! Thanks for this song, it's exactly what I needed after these lonely holidays!

[@quinurquhart2652]

No one asked

[@fledglingsole9315]

MrChico711 hopefully everything will be okay keep your head up

[@berthadeherrera5434]

😥😥😥😥😥😥😥🏅😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥☹💔💖💔💔💔💔❣elva

[@lavendergilly5843]

Same. It's lonely.

[@legenddie9298]

@@lavendergilly5843 me too

[@theundergrounder741]

“I don’t wanna feel this fucking pain no more” 😭😭that hurt me dawg

[@Dessy420]

I'm legit fuckin crying while sitting on the edge of a roof to a parking garage .when I get a chance to get away to be alone I tend to come to my spot .I cry here and listen to his music .

[@danbozi8957]

Hey hope you made it your amazing !!

[@Mrfoetwen]

@@danbozi8957hope you made it too bro 😢

[@edneqwafay770]

Jayteks is therapy ❤

[@babyzelda1621]

This song is my thoughts every day since my mom passed away with cancer but i dont pick up drugs or alcohol for her

[@dualeduale6643]

Bless your mind and strength may she rest in peace

[@cursedghost8630]

My mom passed away cause of cancer to

[@hmuluxury8933]

Can relate 💔😔 in a world of my own...🖤💭

[@ericavilla5294]

Felt this 😭🙏💯

[@Michael14761]

Hope to one day make it out of this abusive relationship your music has helped me through it thank u for ur music

[@nicolemarie9718]

I've been there love, I got out of a very toxic relationship a little over a year ago... leaving him was hard, because I thought I loved him.. you need to get out... quick.. without a second thought... nobody who truly LOVES YOU is ever going to hurt you... you know your worth... I understand you may be scared, trust me... I've been there... but babygirl, it's time to put YOU first.. you know you deserve better, you're more than that.. YOU CAN DO MORE THAN THIS!! It's up to you.... it's the strength you hold within yourself!!! Get out!!! Get out now...

[@MiRiyUMMy09]

I’ve been in a dark place lately and this song just hit me. I fucking love your music. It speaks to me. ❤

[@chadwickmckhean]

Gooqx kqe

[@coltonhetke6970]

“There’s nothing left, I have zero worth. Let me Rest In Peace deep below the the dirt.” Those lines hit hard

[@millieboyd82]

This song so relatable to me 💔🥀 I cry all the time listening to this 🤕

[@jazzmonhernandez8141]

1:56 "don't wanna wake up, and I'm afraid of, don't wanna stay here, just wanna lay here, ik my graves near"... explains how I feel everyday 😔

[@michelleshea4768]

I connect with your music so much.... It's helped me through some of the thoughest of times n thank you so much it truely has....

[@Majestic7387]

The verses in this song man! I relate to every single one! "The more I love myself, the more I hate who I become..

[@nathanbolig6242]

Keep your head up

[@ProblematicHipHop]

We really need to do a song together 🙏🙌

[@RealLyricalMusic]

U rlly should do a collab love ur music ❤❤

[@ProblematicHipHop]

@@RealLyricalMusic bless fam

[@merlmoultonjr5819]

ProblematicHipHop Bro fuck yes plz!!!

[@bryge153]

I definitely agree 110%...what else is there to need. If there's jaytekz and problematic on track together..

[@antoniobernardor4432]

OMG Please please please please please do so please. ..it'll be lit

[@johnferraris1920]

This is deep😢😭.. I feel the same way.

[@bbwm5058]

Hope whoever reads this you keep fighting the fight' don't give up!

[@krystalk6457]

This relates to my brother, who is fighting for his life currently. Breaks my heart

[@annpasco37]

I feel this song on a whole new level 💔😭

[@jerryortiz4984]

I just wanna thank you @jayteKz 3 years ago I was at my worst was wanting to end my own life feeling like I wasn’t worth it but ur music has saved me and made me fight now I live a happy life with my beautiful wife and beautiful baby boy and expecting another and I really love u for that😩❤️ listening to ur music till the day I die 💯🔥

[@redreacts2876]

Man this songs helps me get thru shit this whole songs explains my whole life

[@tracehodgman8053]

Bro I'm a alcoholic. I drink daily. I quite dope 4 months ago. Most of my homies are dead. I'm always depressed. Your shit helps me man. I don't even have a place to live , but this shit gets me through the day. Just know you touching people's lives out here 🤘🏼

[@bradduplantis5145]

👍

[@r-drenelson6276]

I know this year was painful 2020....lost alot of love's ones with this Covid-19 viruses.....

[@masterchief647]

Being sober for a year and a half and still feel lost. Still feel like there's something missing. Im searching till I find it. I put to much time in to give up now. This song explains a lot of how I want to be.

[@BraxtonDoyle]

you’re not alone man. 4 1/2 months clean for me. october 7th 2019 i overdosed, and i have a completely different view on life. depression ain’t a joke 💯 bless you homie

[@wocketinmypocket9510]

Man.. Jay, I’ve felt this pain you’re expressing for so long. I truly hope you can find peace within yourself to keep prospering in this music world.. I’ve been listening to every song/video since your first couple that went viral in the backseat of a car bro. Much love and happy New Years brotha, keep your head up and never give up

[@jadenmcelrath7458]

He always makes great music he never disappoints

[@lukehartley6246]

Being going through so shit lately this song is speaking to my soul 😢

[@oraliarosario3292]

💚💚 I Just Want This To Be Over!!

[@x.silencer.x8726]

been feeling this way since i was 7 now i'm 20 ..

[@BillieAnzevinobadazz]

I’ve been listening to this song nonstop for 2 days. I feel exactly like this.

[@januaryrebl8091]

Every word is so felt !!! If someone would just understand me !!! Like I know what I cause but its not intentionally done I'm sorry for me being me !

[@oceanangel.360]

I started crying listening to this song instantly, everytime I listen. It really does hurt so much and almost every word makes me feel some typa way but I feel those word in my ♥&soul. Specially the lyric I know I am damaged internally. I know this it's my song, It's how I'm feeling, it will get better with time. love this song thank you! Much love 💗

[@LissMaee]

It's amazing to know someone out there can sing about things u been thru and are going thru and on top of it is going thru it themselves. It helps me alot. I love u jaytekz

[@andrewarevalo5066]

I listen to this song everytime i get emotional

[@theforsakenhorde]

This fucking hits the feels.....been trying for years....I still wake up....

[@kirkmillerBO84]

I feel the same right now no matter what good I do I don’t drink but recently it’s all I got to get me through

[@drey8341]

I just feel so lonely inside my heart❤

[@avinashthakur4230]

And that's what we call "Rythm And Poetry" ❤️

[@jessieashby1781]

This song hits home hard 💔🏡

[@leliarussell7930]

I feel like this everyday I just wish something would give and I could be happy again

[@Rosemary-ex4gw]

I found out abt jaytekz a few days ago and hes my idol I feel every word he says...I know what pain hes going thur...ayy jaytekz if you see this just know your not the only one going thur depression I'm also been going thru depression and I love you you have help me the past few days and thank you jaytekz😖❤

[@heatheradams9423]

I go through this feeling every day of my like I relate I love ur music keep it up. Ur not alone

[@Gioreyes07]

Very underrated artist!!!

[@angelicachavez6237]

No one should go through this... Or feel this type of pain.. 💔🥀

[@selenamendez5192]

Your lyrics are so relatable 💙💙💙

[@raestolkd8073]

I love this song so much, it’s had such an effect on me, I just heard it for the first time and I immediately put the video on loop, I love this so much, this song right here is why I love hip hop. The emotions the expression the lyrics the words the story it’s as if I can feel his pain in his words I can feel what he’s feeling and for the first time it isn’t just because I’m empathetic. I love this totally in my top three fav songs.

[@lilbigworldomaha8096]

I felt his lyrics with my emotions. I cried and cried for hours with this on repeat. This song and if I should have saved my life. Jaytex, if it wasn't for you I would be dead thank you.

[@leia_epiphora_triplee]

💜🫂 I feel this everyday. You are very talented! I am sorry that you have ever felt this way.

[@reginamarcum4727]

This is how I straight up feel. I'm sick of life n going through all this pain n heartache!!!! I'm so fucking depressed n don't know witch way to turn or go. And what hurts the most is my boyfriend right beside me who sees me going through this but doesn't take the time to comfort me n be there in ways he should be

[@fransiscogarcia6780]

I know how you feel I’m going through the same thang right now

[@silvernephthys8059]

Man your released this a few hours after i get rejected by my friend... The feels rn 💔

[@Pipripao]

SpiritualKittenz you’ll get through this 💯😪 Ik how it feels but trust me.. either they’re not the one for you.. or maybe rn isn’t the right time.. focus on you and try to be truly happy before attempting to give relationships another chance

[@latestgreatest526]

Don't worry that's your friends lost not your's

[@Vibratorypie150]

@@Pipripao feel you there man

[@3hunnafrmda0]

We all go through a hard time and it does get easier, but the key is 2 never give up and keep rising even if you fall down, we all are here for a reason we just have to figure out that reason. Much love 2 all💯💪🏽❤🙏🏽

[@michaelfrancis7882]

you were the main reason why i am still alive today. you helped me understand alot through all of your songs . much lobe brotha

[@nathanbolig6242]

Your not the only one I can relate to most of his songs. guess what he made it through I made it through and guess what you will make it through just keep fighting

[@michaelfrancis7882]

@@nathanbolig6242 very true brother . his music is what helped me get through all of this

[@donnamcwhite5536]

THIS! Some really powerful real raw feelings and words. 💯💯💯💯💔💔💔

[@nickolaskuehnle6931]

Shits deep, can relate so much, keep it up jay, we jus gotta keep pushing n stay praying, this shit goes hard tho

[@kelleygarcia5757]

THIS SONG IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH I NEVER WANTED TO FEEL ANY PAIN

[@driftking6414]

I can relate to this so hard right now I cry everytime I hear it its not going well right now for me

[@DemonicChef-zq8hh]

Y'all work together?!,😶bro you two are my top go tos everyday ,specifically this main song,and sick world I memorized your remix of nobody knows and 7yrs .I'm homeless no friends and I just recently was forced to move states because I was hated ,.I keep going because of the gifted musicians and artist like you two.keep making music please guys , not only are you expressin the things your going through but also the things those of us like myself gine through as well but was never able to open up ,I'm 22 and in a homeless shelter,a whole state from the place I fled. You guys helped me through it with the songs y'all pu out y'all should be gods . Thank you both for being everyone's light and motivation,

[@ozulvokistrof7525]

I'm happy this came out on my birthday

[@doyleboy8737]

Dam I can relate to this right now in life 😞

[@samantharose1585]

Wow this one hit me big time... thank you so much for this 💯 wow 😭😭💔

[@lukewaters9435]

Mad love with this song uce honestly needing someone to open up to 10 years clean of booze its screaming for me YOUR MUSIC IS HELPING SO MANY PEOPLE EVERYDAY TO OVERCOME THINGS MAYBE MULTIPLE THINGS jaytekz please don't stop doing your thing bruh

[@antoniobernardor4432]

This is the only guy who keeps it 100 with his fan and ain't fake like other rappers who rap things they ain't going through

[@delamariaromero7606]

I felt this deep in my heart jay we love you 🖤

[@ashtonmitch9969]

Glad someone has a heart cuz I know I sure don't anymore

[@kaprishazimmerman8888]

I'm 14 and I've been struggling with staying sober since I was 10 and this song discribs how i feel perfectly

[@jonupchurch5308]

This is my favorite song of his this is how I feel I have to take medicine for my problems I can’t tell anyone how glad I am to have @JayteKz in my life I have cuts all over my arms I have tried to kill myself on multiple occasions but sometimes his music helps but I can never get out of my head I am always trapped there I can hardly get out of bed most days so to everyone who reads this thank you I love you all

[@GrimEclipseGaming]

Bro I'm 15 and relate so much to his music

[@GrimEclipseGaming]

@@MelFaith420 yeah I wish I never said anything tbh.

[@MelFaith420]

xD well lovely I'll remove my older comment now

[@GrimEclipseGaming]

@@MelFaith420 its fine if you wanna post a comment do so 👍

[@evanstinson8771]

Sad thing is brotha you shouldnt im 25 and on the edge of life and you're ONLY 15. This isnt right anymore

[@Teetea2973]

Love ya son. Life is long with ups and downs, my life has was and is long and hard from start. Wish the new generation wasnt so lonely, too much snap chat an crap and never actually around actual people. Stay strong son. Your life will change just give it time x

[@Trapical_]

Finley my favorite song

[@teresagarza]

It's when you been so used of being fucked up when sober don't really know how to feel.

[@tiffanyzukow7733]

Man the lyrics are so powerful. I spent years feeling this way. I'm so grateful to have found recovery. Sometimes I still feel this way but those days are few and far between the longer I stay clean.

[@realjqa]

Here before it blows up 🤞🏽🥀

[@edclubberlang9393]

I just lost my best friend of 20 years to a lifetime 2 months tomorrow... This is how ive been feeling since then...

[@dabeast602]

Lost mine in 2011 were friends for 17yrs. Stay strong its hard

[@LUXXYLO]

You are absolutely amazing. You are my angel. You saved my life.

[@souldjaboy09]

Real passionate music. Music people can listen and relate to. 20yrs from now I can still go back and listen to this not like other BS music. Keep doing you Jaytekz we love you man.

[@jamespaton1526]

I'm lost in an abyss of darkness and despair and loneliness. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life, and I find myself laying awake wondering if a ray of light shined through that abyss, would I gravitate towards it or slip further away from the light? Some days I think I know the answer, but most days I'm just numb, moving through life feeling like a zombie, my life on autopilot.

[@natibrandt9343]

Brother.. I understand you.. cuz your broken like ME . You are not alone man.. sometime we get consumed in our abyss and fail to realize.. if we created this abyss of brokenness we live in.. then we can create a door to walk out too. Your not alone brother stay strong man cuz broken people like you and me can help alot of others who arent as strong.

[@idaliajimenez7792]

Exactly how 2019 was I didn’t know who I was

[@websterroberts590]

Bro your a worrier and I know how you feel and we have our good days bro just listen to struggles and the end of broken yo got this mannn and I got you for life you helped me threw everything and we are here to help you

[@itzshippo3930]

Such a good song keep it up jay ❤️👌🏻

[@christiancarter963]

my girlfriend broke up with me Monday because she still had feelings for her ex. it hurts. it hurts a lot. I miss her a lot. I just wish she would've told me 4 months ago. I really needed to hear this song because I got to remember everyone is going through something. we all are tired of heartbreaks and struggles and it scares us. it's like when you finally find what you been looking and praying for, you lose it all within seconds and it fuvking sucks....

[@juniorsantiago8269]

Yup. Me 24/7

[@jazjazz8445]

Facts I finally found the man of my dreams but now he's in jail and I'm gonna be raising this babygirl by myself for awhile so life gives u something then takes it away

[@juniorsantiago8269]

@@jazjazz8445 I know that's true. My last girlfriend was in 2010, broke up wit me 2011 thru a Facebook message saying "I need a break" the same day I was gonna propose to her. I had a feeling there was more to it. 2 days later, I saw pics and her Facebook full of her and some other guy. Turned out she was cheating on me the whole time we were together. I went to her Facebook later and the guy she with threatened to kill me if I went to her Facebook ever again (of course I responded with "your girl knows where I live, ask her, get your ass over here and let's see, b**ch!!!!! Not the point). She erased her Facebook then (I'm sure he made her), etc. And she was the only person I ever loved and even thought of proposing to. Sure... It was 9 years ago and people tell me to get over it, but those who do do not understand what I go thru/my pain. After... I never dated since. I just like to be alone in my room. When I'm forced to go out, I see people dancing, hugging and kissing. They don't know how it makes me feel. So... I'm alone in my room pretty much 24/7. Sometimes cry myself to sleep, etc. Many just don't understand. I have Bipolar Depression, but... My parents think it's fake, so I keep it all hidden. From them, doctors, etc. It's just my secret.

[@getherdone7223]

😭 felt this song as soon as it started

[@seleenwilliams5019]

Omg I love his voice , he can SING && rap

[@iiililliiillillii3306]

I'm drunk ASF and I just found this song LMAO

[@elijah1374]

Felt G

[@joshh4743]

Same

[@jaimebocanegra1819]

Sameee af I wish I could talk to u I can tell we feel the same pain deep down..... (Wanting to die but at the same time wanting to feel alive) 😞😞😞

[@christianrico5318]

Thank u again man ur amazing bro with a big heart even after all the bs.

[@ceciliamoreno3077]

Honestly Jaytekz, I Been Hearing You Since High School. You Have Helped Me So Many Times With My Down Falls. Few People Don’t Understand That Depression Is Real. People Say Get Over It, But It’s Not That Simple. Especially, When You Aren’t Surrounded With A Good Support System. Trying To Accept My Separation From My Marriage, Soon Divorce. It’s Been A 1 Year i Haven’t Moved On. He Has. It’s Hard To Accept That My Used Forever Isn’t There Anymore. But I Hope Someday I Found The Love That I Deserve And I Hope I Can Find Someone Who Will Cherish Everything That i Do. Because My Love Is Sinceré. But, Good Luck To Everyone. Don’t Give Up. Keep Pushing, I Know It’s Hard. But This Comments Will Let You Know That It’s Okay Not To Be Okay! Again Jaytekz Keep Making Music! Don’t Stop! You Have Came In A Long Way! ♥️

[@minecraftfever165]

Jaytekz whens ur next concert im going idc where it is in the usa