Gooodbye Patrick.

[@StephenScaccia]

I played tennis with him in high school. Such a great, funny guy. I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

[@aerdna98bis]

I have never been this sorry for the loss of someone who I didn't know personally. I am sure I am just one of thousands who feel the same.

[@geekingoutneil]

so much love for you Jesse. we're all here for you.

[@yousayso]

Sometimes the best of us are gone in an instant and the rest of us are left to wonder "why?" When i was 19 my boyfriend left for a weekend trip and took his life by jumping off a 90 foot cliff with no warning. I was never able to share that with anyone. Even his family didn't acknowledge me at the funeral and didn't invite me to the burial. I was only a kid at the time and I never thought i would recover. It been more than 20 years now and I still miss him like as much as ever. If theres anything we can do you honor them its to show them in the glowing and positive light they deserve. I just found your channel and wanted to say "thank you" for sharing- it means a lot to me. It takes a lot of courage to let us all in on the hard stuff in life. Thanks for keeping KZbin real Jesse, Your newest fan, Vermonster

[@TheMonasteroTwins]

Omg Jesse we are so sorry for your loss, hope you stay strong! hang in there

[@CarlosGSanchez0]

This hit me in the face so bad, I don't really know what to say. I know how it feel lose someone you love and that feel when you think "no,they are inmortals, they can't die" and one day they aren't here anymore. It feels impossible to believe it and accept it but you can't do anything, just think and think. I know is none of my business but you look very pale not because of your natural skin color but there's not the "spark", please, take care of yourself, Patrick loved you and he wanted you happy not matter what. Do it for him and yourself and never forget him, as much as I know he teach you some stuff but I can't say it, maybe I'm wrong but whatever. Be strong Jesse, don't let this to take you very down and don't hide your feelings, is good to cry that can health your soul. I watched this video 5 hours ago and I can't stop thinking how unfair life is, I'm not in the best situation but... well, Jesse once more, take care of yourself, you're a very handsome guy, a very nice person, you are the one for everybody, take your time with yourself. I never say this to anyone in youtube but I love you and I wish the best, I don't want to see you down. I want to hug you.

[@okimlistening2u]

Carlos Gonzalez Very nice comment, Carlos. I'm sure it means a lot to Jesse. Thank you for being so considerate.

[@CarlosGSanchez0]

okimlistening2u Thanks for saying it.

[@goddesstammymitchell3997]

Such a very beautiful comment hun... And I really needed to also hear this, u see I just lost my Memaw on Dec 29th of last year... I miss her so very much and I'm crying as I type this... I feel like a piece of my heart is gone... I know that she and now Patrick are in heaven awaiting us someday.... And Jesse just know that if u need someone to talk to or cry with then I'm here for u huni 24/7... Anytime u or anyone else needs anything at all okay... Sorry for the rambling here lol but I'm very tired and haven't been sleeping so good....

[@CarlosGSanchez0]

Tammy Mitchell Same here, I lost my mom when I was 16 (now I'm 23) and I still can't get over it, I know I need help and my family isn't helping too much but this year I'm gonna move to another city. It's hard to get over it because she did a lot of stuff here with her sons and parents, she was an amazing woman and a great mother, people will try to tell you that is time to move on but is your heart, don't forget someone great but don't let it to take you down, I'm trying and I will make it so you are. I'm sorry for your lose. Life is really unfair, we can't give them love anymore but outside a lot of people needs it, we could use some for them.

[@lakv126]

Thank you for sharing this. My heart goes out to you and Patrick's family.

[@arthurthau8455]

Wow! Really intense. In tears. So many great times. Lost my partner recently. Thanks.

[@shep689]

i love you so much.

[@jamesradley225]

So sorry for your loss, the picture of him sleeping was just perfect. Love from England x x

[@afr43210]

Crying my eyes out. I'm so sorry for your loss. Wishing you and Patrick's family & friends strength, healing & peace.

[@TheOnlyJay_S]

I hope you're doing okay, Jesse. This shocked me out of nowhere. Patrick looked so healthy.

[@johnconstable8512]

***** i agree. and it's sad he keep the cause of death a secrecy. maybe the disclosure could help many, many people in similar situations

[@michaelhansen2309]

He seemed so happy and full of life, I don't want to be insensitive but this really boggles the mind.

[@rollydoucet8909]

There's no mention of his passing, other than the date. It would appear, he took his own life. Very sad indeed.

[@JohnSmith-yf5bk]

Yeah it was suicide. He had a lot of issues with drugs. I’m an anonymous messenger who knew the family

[@sallenvan]

Animals and birds obviously adored your Patrick, which tells me he was a wonderfully kind and gentle soul. I never had the privilege of meeting either you or Patrick (your video was shared by a mutual friend), but this loving tribute is both heartbreaking and a beautiful testament to your love together. I'm very sorry for your loss, and I hope that Time will bring you peace and comfort.

[@Tim_Woods88]

I've said it before, but I'm extremely sorry for you loss! I can't even begin to imagine what you must be going through, but we're all here for you! That was a beautiful slideshow!

[@guilhermesantos5845]

I’m really sorry to hear that. I wish you the best. I can not imagine how hard it must be. My condolences

[@AlexRo2016]

I'm sorry for your loss. Patrick seems like a very nice person. I hope you will always cherish the happy memories you have with him.

[@robertrawley1115]

Jesse, you created an achingly beautiful tribute for Patrick's memorial. Our heartfelt and deepest sympathies be with you now and in the days to come.

[@farradwest3442]

I'm so sorry for your loss. That slideshow was just wow, he clearly lived one hell of a life. It's so sad to think that in these times of what appears to be sheer chaos, we lose a such well-versed human being. He looks to be one of those guys you get to know and say to yourself "He can do some pretty awesome s**t." :-) You should always count yourself as blessed for him having been apart of yours. Even it was cut short. I sincerely wish the best for you, his family and friends.

[@z2u]

There was something magical about your first video with Patrick out camping in beautiful BC. I never stopped thinking how happy I was that you found this guy. It was just last week that i found a old video from another channel you were on and were talking about all things you loved about Patrick. It was one of the most beautiful videos on KZbin.

[@agitated.tachyon]

Tonight I stumbled across your channel and I've been so overcome by your sincerity and candidness that I've been binge watching your videos all night. I wasn't looking at the titles, so this caught me off guard. Loss sucks man. It's funny how one of the most isolating experiences known to man is one shared by almost everyone on Earth. Hope you're doing better a few months down the track

[@jinwoosung7456]

I feel you... My deepest condolences. Take your time. I know how hard it can be to lose someone you love.

[@jmatt4life]

Having experienced my mother's passing several years ago, I can relate to your loss, that certain void which persists. I sincerely extend my heartfelt prayers and thoughts to you and the rest of the family. Losing and missing someone never is easy. With time the sorrow may not completely go away, but it does create a tolerable distance from where you better can appreciate the beauty and comfort of the memories they leave behind. This lasts us a lifetime! God Bless You! Much PEACE and Lots of LOVE!

[@jmatt4life]

jmatt4life And for anyone who may read the abovementioned post and has lost a loved one, it is for you as well! Pass it on!!! PEACE and LOVE!!!

[@dexterwatson7094]

Beautiful tribute to a beautiful man. My heart breaks for you and your loss.

[@AlbertMeza]

He was a cute kid and, a handsome, young man. I wish you had more time with him. I hope the time you had was good and, that the memories of him, will keep you warm when the World gets cold.

[@nikko__5850]

Be strong man! Live for him! Laugh and create great memories in memory of him...most of all? Love with absolute passion with no regrets.

[@Fishnetfreud]

I'm devasted. I am so, so, so, so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you, his family and friends are going through right now. Very beautiful video of a beautiful human being!

[@trisshandy]

Jesse - What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful man - and props on your enormous courage to make this video and expose your heartache to all of us. Please understand that you and Patrick gave each other great joy and love, and that lives on in you. The best way to honor Patrick now is to stay strong until you are ready to open your heart and share that love once again.

[@davidwm]

Oh Jesse, I'm so very sorry for your loss!! Always remember the good times, and the love in your heart that you shared! May Patrick rest in peace!

[@heckyeah]

Oh my gosh dude!!!! My heart is broken for you. I’m so sorry. Peace and love to you man. ❤️

[@alwaysuseless]

It's so hard to lose someone you love so much unexpectedly and so young. Our hearts go out to you, Jesse. Thank you for sharing this sad news with us and the beautiful tribute to Patrick in these slides. That's very generous of you. Though this loss will always be a source of sadness, all of us who have come to love, admire, and respect you through your videos, wish you all that you deserve, a long and happy life, that Patrick too would wish for you. Take care, dear Jesse. God speed.

[@uldeanse]

You can feel the pain in his voice 😭 I'm really sorry for your loss.

[@omaricoles574]

I am so sorry for your loss Jesse. I can't even imagine how losing someone that close to you feels. I was teary eyed through the whole video. Hugs. R.I.P Patrick you will be missed

[@Beyom514]

My heart goes out to you and Patrick's family! Take really good care of yourself!

[@firesong83]

I am truly sorry for your loss. My long-term partner passed away 4 years ago and I still have a lot of difficult days. Your tribute was beautiful.

[@TheThunderDragoon]

I love seeing him with all the animals. This was beautiful, Jesse.

[@amb817]

This is very saddening. My heart and thoughts go out to you and Patrick's family and friends. Jesse, this slideshow was beautiful and is a great tribute to Patrick

[@midnightvulture3378]

You're a brave one, man. Keep your head up. Sendin' love your way.

[@crazysomethingbeautiful6547]

I've only seen a few of your videos, some made me laugh and some made me cry like the one when you came out to your sister. You're such a wonderful person and so was he, I hope y'all are okay and I'm sorry about your loss

[@loneguy17]

So sad to hear about Patrick, hope his family and his friends are ok. So sorry for your loss Jesse

[@BruceCee]

My heart breaks for you! Sending you love, strength, and a hug!

[@jonaydlpc5133]

I'm sorry mate, if you ever need someone to talk to, you know we are here. Really big hug from half across the planet

[@Davidoutt]

I am so sorry for you and everyone this affected Jesse. There is so much support here just on KZbin that I can't even imagine the love you're receiving from all other aspects of your life. Your memories will never fade.

[@anayatjohal4081]

so sorry for your loss! Always here for you. Sending lots of love! RIP Patrick!

[@jennineamy]

Love you Jesse. Can't even begin to imagine what you're going through but I'm here for you

[@kaylabohall7818]

That was a great video that you will have for the rest of your life to look back on. A great tribute to Patrick! Very much love to you ❤️❤️

[@trevortrevortsr2]

Words are inadequate so sending our hugs from across the pond in UK xx

[@jgnmtz]

I'm so sorry for your loss. He seems very special. I wish you peace and love in the memories you share with him. May he be with you always

[@NSONE232]

I'm really sorry for your loss Jesse. I wish i knew more about Patrick, i'm sure he is a very lovely person and loves you very much with all his heart. Do take good care of yourself. Pour your heart out, grief, cry all you want, take your time to get through this and never forget all those moments you had with him. Take that and put those memories in your heart and hoped that he would be very happy that you would do that for him, for you to be happy

[@jason0starbuck]

Hey I'm so sorry you lost Patrick. I hope your doing okay sending love and healing from Texas.

[@raisinhead2]

Jesse, I'm so sorry about this. I remember watching your coming out to your sister video and then I enjoyed all the others. Life was going well for you guys. So sorry. Your slide show was a fitting tribute. Now we all know Patrick a little. Somehow that feels important.

[@robpelarde4734]

Jesse, I can relate, my lover and best friend took his life in 2019, I was and still devastated at the loss, brother it does get better promise, a friend and fan, Rob🙏

[@katleger8484]

OMG i am so sorry for your loss Jesse! Sending love and hugs to you!

[@marklanglois6098]

I'm sorry Patrick. I've been through the same once as well. Keep your chin up my friend.

[@davidwm]

Jesse, I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you are feeling. The video tribute is a work of love, and love never dies!

[@Mr77Malibu]

Jesse,my deepest condolences for you,Patrick's family and friends. Remember the wonderful times you shared together,no one can ever take them from you.

[@xaveozk]

I'm really sorry for your lost; keep yourself strong with his memories on your heart. Lots of love to you and his family and friends.

[@toobad8smine]

To lose someone so close to you is so hard. We love you.

[@suffl]

May he rest in peace. And may you be happy again some day. This was the second video of you that I watched, so I don't know you at all. But it made me cry very hard. I wish you all the best. Love from Germany!

[@stephendepaoli3813]

I just watched this video - ouch. I lost my best friend/boyfriend very quickly and painfully some years ago and I can understand what you are going through. It was unexpected and still hurts me to this day - it's something I will never forget. I made a pact with myself to live everyday for the two of us, to live the dreams we had and to move on in life so that there would still be something to celebrate. My grief continues to this day, but it's now become an endearing love that (a few tears here and there at times excepted) brings a smile to my face. In time, your memories of him will make you smile again - until then, count on those around you who love you for support knowing you aren't alone. I am truly sorry for your loss. xo

[@bonpain]

Thank you so much for sharing this, Jesse. It touched me and is an incredible tribute to Patrick's LIFE. Much love to you.

[@massagemanschannel4281]

Jesse, I don't have Instagram or Twitter, so I didn't hear about Patrick until a few moments ago. I know you don't know me, so maybe this won't mean very much to you, but I've been profoundly moved by the honesty of your videos here on KZbin, so much so that I've thought of you as a "friend" of sorts. I was so happy that you had found Patrick and that your life seemed to be moving in such a positive direction! PLEASE don't let this horrible event send you back down into the depressed state you were in before you "came out"! You know Patrick would not want that! Try to keep busy, perhaps making videos if you still enjoy that, and consider going to a counselor to talk about your grief. Above all, don't isolate and don't bottle-up your feelings, OK? I'm sending you a psychic BIG HUG filled with sympathy for your loss and admiration for the wonderful man you are! Sincerely, Dan from Boston

[@kinhear12]

Jesse I am so sorry for your loss, and I know you will always remember the good times you had with Patrick. We love you and your in our thoughts.

[@Boywithmeese]

Sorry for your loss. It probably sounds really redundant and strange coming from strangers, but I really hope you're well. Take care of yourself, and keep your chin up. RIP Patrick

[@migonbrah]

Heartbreaking news. I'm very sorry for your loss, Jesse. I've been through something similar recently and it is really hard to accept that this is part of life. All my support to you, man. Take care and stay strong. R.I.P. Patrick.

[@brunorochadacunha8755]

The's nothing we can say to take the pain away, but our thoughts are with you Jesse

[@williamtourot5601]

Just seeing this in Aug 2020, what a beautiful tribute to Patrick. Thank you for sharing your journey.

[@colbyryancribbs]

Firstly I would like to give my deepest condolences for your loss. As someone who in the past year and a half has lost two close friends in tragic unforeseen situations, I truly sympathize with your pain. They say time heals all wounds, maybe mine are just too fresh, or I'm not over it all just yet. But somehow at the end of the day having those I love and care for deeply taken from me has yet to hinder my ability to love those still here. Sure at first I was at a loss for emotion. I felt empty and lost. As if I would never smile again. Never laugh at another joke. Or even feel joy. As the pain of it all loosened its ugly grip on me, I found myself regaining the strength to carry on. Yet things were different, I felt closer to those who I'd taken for granted. In a profound way, I found love in my loss. This new love didn't stop the pain. It didn't even really subside it. It helped me cope and make it through the darkness that is death. Are things better now? I can't truly answer that. I'm not sure things will ever be "better". I feel that's part of what this experience teaches us. Death is one of the greatest teachers in the art of moving through things. Notice I didn't say on with things, but through them. To this day from time to time I find that grief has once again slipped its way back into my heart. It's as if the pain is as new as the moment it all began. This pain is a never ending roller coaster of emotions. A roller coaster I don't ever want to get off of. This pain reminds me that I love. I will never let go of the love I have for those I have lost. Just as you will never let go of the love you have for Patrick. He will forever hold a place dear to you. You're allowed to have that. To cherish every memory of him. Every moment you spent loving him. I do not offer this story to deter you from feeling these extreme emotions and going on with your life. I in fact encourage you to. It's the only way to make it. It may not be tomorrow or next month that you are ready to begin this journey. You'll know when you're ready. Until then don't lose sight of yourself and those still here. They still need you. You still need you. This may not have been part of the plan, but it is the only place you have to start from. I send nothing but love, hope, and the best of wishes for you on this road you now face.

[@MrJason300]

My condolences to you and your families. I'm sure he was truly amazing ~

[@leedaniels617]

Wow man!. I'm very sorry to hear that.My condolences to you. Take care of yourself.

[@BrandonM94]

Wow. Just stunned still. I'm extremely sorry for you loss Jesse. I can't even begin to imagine what you've been through the past month or so. But I hope that things will look up from here. I'm sure Patrick would want you to be happy. Sending tons of love to you and his family. Stay strong xoxo

[@gabrielalvesdesouza]

I'm really sorry about your lost.. I can't even imagine how you're felling, really :'( I'm from Brazil and Patrick now is in peace, I'm so sorry again, and I just hope you be OK

[@lucasm4299]

Gabriel A.S Who cares that you're from Brazil. I wish him the best.

[@ianpardolim8966]

My deepest condolences. I can't even imagine how painful this loss is. My prayers are with you dude.

[@DieHumanless]

Genuinely affected by this video. It is a tragedy, you need time to grieve, but you will be able to think of him and smile remembering the time you had together. This is a reminder to cherish every day spent with those we love and care for. You'll never forget him, but as someone who has lost many people in my life, you have to eventually move forward to live again. Those who pass before us would not want us to live our lives wallowing in their memory, rather they would surely want us to smile in reverence of their memory. Lean on who you need to during your grief, but trust in my notation you must move forward with your life; your memories together ventures him onward through your future journies. I am truly sorry, Jesse.

[@paul28fo]

What a beautiful and spirited soul Patrick was. Beautiful on the inside and out. His love of animals and friends and family are very apparent. I can't imagine your pain but God bless you.

[@allyjay7395]

I just found your videos an hour ago, now I am crying my eyes out... Life is so unfair... RIP

[@rosannevanderkraan6279]

I'm sorry for your lost. He looks like he was one of those people that are rare in this world: kind, funny, honest and with a beautifull heart of gold with room for everyone he would meet. I'm so sorry for you! i'm laying right now at this moment in my bed with tears in my eyes. I will think and pray for you! earlier I saw your coming out video and of was touching. a few of my closest friends are guy and they are the most nicest, kindest and big hearted people I've ever met! thank you for your honesty and I have the feeling that God is saying to you at this very moment that He loves you and Patrick so much!

[@sheldon9684]

I watched this when this video was first uploaded and I was very upset. I was also heavily in the closet. I watched Jesse's coming out video and it helped me come out and live my life to the fullest. Never did it occur to me that these guys were Canadian or even hours from where I was living. The two guys in the middle at 8:21 I recognized from being on Grindr when I would travel to Vancouver. It's weird how I made that connection and it's really sad those two guys have been through a lot and are still looking for a relationship that Jesse once had.

[@rollydoucet8909]

This is April, 2020, and we're in lockdown mode due to the covid-19 virus. The bars and restaurants in our area (Ottawa) were closed by order the second week of March. I just got word that two weeks ago, a guy in our community ended his life. He was the last person you would ever think of doing that. His close friends are devastated, especially his bf. Times are tough, for sure, but waking up to news like that takes its toll.

[@hannibalincognito5820]

This is just such a beautiful tribute, it's clear your partner loved and was loved.

[@DerrickJohnson56]

I got emotional watching this but really loved how it ended up on a lighter note and keep your head up Jesse.

[@SpookiDooki]

omg dude im soooo sorry to hear this! my heart goes out to you and everyone affectd by this tragedy! i wish nothing but peace and healing for you

[@JoshRimer]

Heartbreaking Jesse. I'm sorry I never got to meet him - seems like he was a great guy. Hope you can cherish the time you had together and get through this hard time alright.

[@lordlickorice]

He was absolutely beautiful. The photos say so much. It looks like he was surrounded by people who loved him. I'm sure many people are hurting over his passing. I hope all who knew him find peace soon.

[@donaldstorm4959]

Jesse thanks for sharing Patrick with us, that was very nice of you to do and we all love him too. thank you for letting us share a small snapshot of his life with you I know the man upstairs is with you, and so is Patrick.

[@dreamershavemorefun]

My condolences to you and to his family, keep ur head up, he's always watching over you Jesse

[@williamhwl]

I'm so sorry for your loss Jesse. Stay strong, we love you. Patrick was such a handsome and bright young man. He will forever be in our heart xoxo

[@mattlandgrave1573]

Hey Jessie, I️ just now learned about you through your coming out to your BFF video then clicked on this video right after, I️ am sorry to hear about this terrible tragedy you had to deal with two years ago, I️ can only imagine what you went through I’m sorry for your lose, he seemed like an amazing person loving and kind and a happy individual from your great video tribute to him. My heart goes out to you and his family.

[@ivenlee786]

Take care Allow yourself to mourn your own way. Allow others to do the same. It's hard. Loss is hard, remember the good. Talking helps. Even if it's just you. Yelling works too. Take care

[@mjlawlor40]

Oh gosh I'm so sorry for your loss. This is heart breaking to watch but a beautiful tribute to your soul mate. Hope time is a healer for you. 😢

[@TtotheB123]

So sorry for your loss Jesse. I've been there and know how hard it is. 5 years ago I lost my boyfriend suddenly. We had been together 4 1/2 years. Dealing with his loss has been the hardest thing I've ever done in my life but I knew he would want me to be strong so I did it for him. Remember his love for you and carry it with you always. I wish I could give you some advice to make it better but the only thing that helps is time. From your videos you seem like an amazing, strong man. Take care..

[@hamatosha]

Im really sorry for your loss, it is obvious from the pictures that he lived a full life, with friends and family that loved him, he was lucky to have you by his side, and you were lucky to have him. My heart is with you, I will keep you in my thoughts and send you love and positive energy... Hugs

[@chrisayala4862]

Stay strong man

[@brianfrable484]

I've only seen a few of your videos before this one and I felt good whenever I finished them. I'm only one voice in the wilderness we call the "web", but I wanted you to know how sorry I am. It is a true gift to find someone you love and since watching your incredible tribute to Patrick, I know you and many others have lost a beautiful person. God bless you and your families.

[@jeylful]

Hey mate, just stumbled upon this video. I hope you are doing well and that every day is better.

[@bbrosseau]

Wow, this is a real tear jerker. I am so sorry for your loss. Patrick seems as though he was as beautiful on the inside as he was on the outside and you two made a gorgeous couple, how heart breaking. :`(

[@piercethekollin9751]

R.I.P Patrick. And stay strong Jesse

[@TheNardoRetardo]

the best of prayers, wishes, and good vibes to you, man. You're a tough, brave guy. All of us are here for you.

[@Harvdawg1981]

i know this is a over a year late but i am sorry to hear this. I hope you are doing well

[@pump066]

That was very sad and unexpected news Jesse...thank you for telling us. Patrick's in a better place and with time even you will find life worth living. We all love and support you.

[@itsleandertv]

I am sorry for your loss :( Sending you all the strength in the world.

[@t97058]

We Love You Jesse! Keep Moving Forward. You have an amazing personality and things to offer people. Much Love Bro. NAMASTE

[@DutchRodent]

I have no words. I wish you all the best

[@philliprumans753]

I just happened to see this video as I was going through KZbin. I just have to say that this was so beautifully done. I'm sure you made the family so happy and I'm so sorry that this happened. Years later you can even touch a stranger's heart with the love that you put into this.