I've Been Hiding So Much.

[@isobelfisher9732]

I love you, I hope you know, we’re all here for you, stay strong honey 💕

[@susannah.mp3]

I agree! Sending love!

[@sophiahannebery7774]

I agree jessie is amazing

[@bbykaelyn]

Yassss girl we all love u!!!

[@MagnoliaPantherWoman]

Living in the moment, one day at a time, to cope, yep that's me for the last year. 🌈🌸🌼🌻

[@pinkgiraffe378]

I agree sending so much love! 💖

[@lavenderdemons]

Today I am one year clean from self harm (:

[@divine6867]

i’m proud of you

[@franf.5872]

CielPhantomhiveReacts that’s amazing! so proud of you❤️

[@lanithomas8347]

That’s incredible! Love you all and can’t wait to see what great things we all do together in 2020 Remember you are all loved and that you have a community surrounding you with warmth and support whenever you need it ❤️

[@molotovmafia2406]

Yay!

[@kye7372]

Good job! I’m really proud of you!

[@PeachMilk-k2x]

I sorry Jessie. Never ever feel like you can’t trust us with something.

[@jessiepaege]

that means so so much

[@pompompurin2006]

jessiepaege we care about you so much please don’t forget that!

[@kjjane5830]

jessiepaege we love you Jessie. You are such an inspirational dad

[@Ali-ch4px]

@@jessiepaege hey bro Your like one of those people who help us LGBTQ people feel better and lighten up when the world is sh*t

[@dontworryaboutnol]

thefluffybunbun _ well we mean it. so much. honestly.

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

this is how many people are proud of you: 👇 (plus so many more).

[@ariri7751]

Let me just- *all of us, all of us are proud of our dad

[@Hell0kitty]

That number x itself then x itself

[@oliviakreulen8895]

Yeppers we are so proud of you

[@thesnakeclan5727]

*im the 666 like :>*

[@saff1257]

in anorexia recovery, there’s a thing called “extreme hunger”. it’s so scary but it’s COMPLETELY normal. i know it’s hard to, but you should let yourself eat and satisfy this extreme hunger, because you will naturally overcome it. extreme hunger is normal after starving yourself for so long, and if you just let yourself eat what you want, you’ll naturally get less hungry.

[@auroradaniel1004]

I wouldn't be able to stop eating for like 6 months! Extreme hunger was a life saver for me

[@deadnightcore3540]

Whenever I eat I devour food like a starving animal. It’s dangerous because I feel like my stomachs gonna burst but I’m so used to starving that I can’t help it.

[@Pippi4TeaInTrees]

I went from anorexia to an over eating diisorder. That doesn’t always work. It’s good she’s seeing the therapist to help her. People don’t realize how easy it is to switch. Now I’m healthier.

[@jennj2049]

When I went through extreme hunger I didn't realize what it was and I was so scared. Just hope she gets better 💕

[@monieveable]

Oh that’s what I’m going through rn I think!!!

[@mintchirp4947]

Who tf disliked? Send me your location *i just wanna talk*

[@sourpatchboy4340]

Me too *takes out weapons*

[@thatonekid6137]

I'm coming with you

[@thesharkjaw3135]

*takes out knife*

[@brujitalindita8515]

I'll be the backup! *takes out snipe*

[@damienexe8462]

We all just wanna...talk.. *puts away knife slowly*

[@georgiesmith89]

To Jessie and anyone: please remember that talking to someone is so important. Even just talking to yourself, an animal or a plant about something outloud can be amazingly helpful. Please know that what you're going through is very tough but so worth it to work on in small step even

[@caprisungz]

You know when Jessie swears and doesn’t apologize she’s being honest. Thanks for this video dad! 💖👏💖

[@julia-md9bh]

"Your brain will try to make you miserable" I really feel that edit: wowow I've never gotten over 100 likes before, I hope you guys are all doing okay :(

[@Flow_Like_Water_5]

Me too

[@TheVoiceinTheDarkness]

same sadly

[@zeroeels8591]

because that is what the brain is programmed to do, it’s made to survive not to be happy.

[@trtlduv07]

As a sufferer of OCD I feel this SO MUCH. 😢

[@spaghettikitty69]

You can't escape from yourself, no matter how much you try...unless you die...It's the only way...this is what keeps me up at night, and what drives me to do unspeakable things...

[@infinity-skies1207]

A big thing in my recovery was learning how to neutrally view my body before i viewed it as beautiful. Idk how helpful that would be for you, but for every negative thought, you think a neutral thought instead. "My body gets me places" "My body keeps me alive" "My body lets me make videos" "My body has survived so much." "My body is strong". And then slowly filtering those into thinking positive thoughts helped me a lot, so it didnt feel like I was constantly lying to myself.

[@lironweirdo31]

psa: jessie is a queen and literally deserves the best in the world. periodT

[@lilyissofreakingcool]

*insert that one image of squidward* p e r i o d t

[@blitz6239]

Amen

[@kyocerii1924]

yea I love Jessie but literally anyone who says “periodT” automatically invalidates anything they say

[@joie3245]

I missed seeing her smile and hearing her laugh, and it breaks my heart to hear that she’s been going through such a hard time in her life right now,, god I wish I could be there for her in real life :( I’m so hopeful though that she’s gonna continue to get better the more she opens up 💞 keep fighting, you deserve the world 🥺

[@couldbetheo]

you're a million times better of a dad than my real dad :)

[@Whimsy_Vixen]

Relatable😅😞

[@RichardMartin189]

Same

[@edtheoneandonly9041]

Same tho.

[@kay-sp4gk]

Illiana Merrell so true

[@emilynoel8648]

jessie is my real dad...?

[@metroid_gauntlet]

as someone who also struggles with an eating disorder, you're incredibly strong and don't forget that! you can grow and you can live despite those thoughts. Stay strong girl 💖

[@svckerpvnch.]

You must also take your own advice into account ❤️❤️ you are also everything you said she is, friend. :)

[@metroid_gauntlet]

Chesca Hemwin 😭😭 aw you're so sweet! thank you friend, i needed that ❤️

[@svckerpvnch.]

Carly anytime honey :) we are here for you.

[@louison5801]

Did you talk to it to someone irl ? You deserve it, you deserve to get better and you will It's NOT fault but you can work on it 💖

[@brooket012]

The dislikes were sobbing so hard they couldn’t see and clicked the wrong button

[@lovey-doveygacha4437]

Yas

[@andrad2503]

Yesss

[@kmations4049]

Yeah because if they did it on purpose..... >:(

[@verytiredhelen8957]

The title is giving me anxiety so here we go I’m scared

[@verytiredhelen8957]

How her foundation look so good

[@verytiredhelen8957]

Jessie I’m sorry :( ED’s are so hard and I’m so proud of you for being clean for awhile 🥺🥰💜💛💙

[@ameliakreitz5369]

VeryTired Helen ya same

[@lenaboerboom5423]

m2.....

[@zoeysophia2638]

I’m crying sm rn honestly Jessie you are the bravest person and are so inspirational. Im so proud of you! You are helping so many people with these vids that you honestly shouldn’t even have to be making. Ilysm

[@leslieking9657]

Zoey Sophia damn! I can relate. While I was watching this video and commenting something I’ve Cried.

[@georgianeff5084]

Leslie King SAME

[@Deeskers]

I love this community. Most of us haven't even watched a minute of the video and you already see so many "we love you" comments to Jessie

[@jessiepaege]

:’) i love u all

[@Deeskers]

@@jessiepaege and we all love you too Jessie

[@tiffanyweaver7569]

@@jessiepaege we are all standing tall behind you whenever you need us. Just like we know ur standing tall behind us when we need u. Thank you for being you!

[@numberoneloser8930]

jessiepaege love you too *_stay strong_*

[@joanatorres9957]

@@jessiepaege we love you! I owe you so much... before I saw your videos I was always so scared of admitting that I was bisexual, afraid of everyone and everything... now I feel like my self... my true self, thanks you so much ❤

[@amym.1349]

"I hate making KZbin videos." "Behind the scenes... it has not been easy... but I'm doing it for you." If you genuinely want to prioritize your mental health, it really seems like you should consider taking a step back from KZbin.

[@alexagaritaflores6315]

I agree

[@zoewarrener6442]

The best thing to do though, is to keep challenging yourself on things you hate to do. Trust me I know and the fact Jessie is doing that deserves praise. The help for mental health in my experience isn't ground breaking and the more time you have to yourself the more time you have to think and you become more isolated and then it's even worse to break the cycle. Some people have the struggle their whole life and no matter what they do it doesn't fully leave so anything you challenge yourself with in the worst times is an accomplishment. The fact that Jessie made the video even tho she didn't want to is great, as mental health can make even small tasks like having a shower too much.

[@blueberrys7165]

S a m e

[@simplygi]

this quote always helps me on hard days: "today is over, you won't have to go through this day ever again, you get to heal now" keep fighting love 💕

[@damienexe8462]

I feel bad having to see titles like I’m hiding so much because you shouldn’t have to hide things from us no matter what we will always support you! I’ve never had so many likes before but this is about Jessie and how great of a person see is not about my new top like ratio The whole reason for this comment is just to say for all your subscribers, children, your people, your viewers, just everyone is how much we stan and love you and that you shouldn’t have to go through this but we love you and don’t beat yourself up just love yourself for yourself its the personality and inside that matters just remember that

[@itsjustmel6942]

ens413 I just watched jeffree stars new vid so like in tears

[@laurenllama1546]

@@itsjustmel6942 same. it was heartbreaking💔💔💔

[@august9820]

IM CONFUSED I SHOULD PROBABLY WATCH THE VIDEO BUT IM SCARED

[@krystlelacey5542]

SAME

[@axel0tel857]

YUP SAME

[@fairlylocalnerd5055]

ME TOO BRO

[@memorableweston]

ME TO

[@patchytad]

ME TOO AHH

[@youraveragemusicperson2176]

Hey Jessie, I know that this stuff can be tough, I've had to deal with some of the same stuff that you are going through, but the thing is, you are so strong. And that might not sound like much coming from some random stranger on the internet, but you are. You never realize how strong you are until you've gotten through something like this. Just know that we support you, and you should never feel like you can't be honest with us. We all want to help you, and if some idiots want to say shit, then guess what? Screw them! They're not worth your time. We all want you to be well and healthy, so don't ever feel like you need to hide from us, okay? Just focus on helping yourself, it's completely okay if you're not posting as much or as usual as you used to. Don't put so much stress onto yourself for that. We'll still be here for you, no matter how long it takes.

[@bellita_blu]

This is amazing and very very true!!!🙃

[@panicatthemuser705]

This is the best comment!!❤️

[@sharkinawineglass]

It hursts when she said she wasn’t beautiful. She literally is the reason I question my sexuality, she’s so pretty :(

[@yaemikokoko]

I know right

[@theghostqueenn]

You honestly have one of the most beautiful "fan bases" that I have ever seen, everyone here loves you sooo much and you helped so many people with their own struggles, stay strong we are all here for you🖤🖤🖤

[@dontcare7087]

As someone who has an eating disorder it really hurts to see when others do cause I was always shamed for mine. You are so beautiful ❤️ I’m so glad you spoke out about this

[@teaginkaffenberger3000]

WHOEVER DISLIKED THIS 😤 N O YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED

[@rowan2086]

Have You Heard the news, That you're Dead! No ever had much nice to say, i think they never like you anyway

[@RichardMartin189]

@@rowan2086 ?

[@ElliotGien]

Gnitemos Ro theyre finishing the lyrics of op’s username

[@ElliotGien]

Luke Worral they’re finishing the lyrics

[@noneri]

Early Sunsets Over Monroeville late dawns and early sunsets-

[@moirabrandstetter2822]

Every time Jessie says “I love my people” I get so happy Idk why it just makes my day :) ❤️

[@jlskdgvnsdafks7161]

I love how jessie makes videos like she's talking to just you, and there is no one else! luv ya jessie and keep being the amazing and strong person u are!!!

[@dakota9479]

I pressed my headphones while watching this and “I kissed a girl” by Katy Perry started playing...

[@lore5751]

I love your profile pic it’s amazing

[@radioactivegacha24]

lmao- also your profile picture- Love it-

[@terminatord3537]

Omg yess I love ur pfp

[@susannah.mp3]

Fun

[@janabubbles8866]

C'mon you are just like us. Listening to gay music 24/7 ♡

[@愛しています-y2s]

I paused nirvana for this and I'm not even disappointed

[@hellothere139]

I paused Metallica for this

[@jas2950]

I paused Melanie Martinez

[@Nicole-pw9kw]

I paused Dead Kennedys

[@PanicBasedRiot]

I paused Supernatural for it cuz Jessie is worth it

[@private825]

Kitty Santer WHAT SONG

[@jonathankent4983]

No need to hide anything from us, your children love you,dad, remember that. One of the best things I ever did was sub to this channel, love you!

[@mer._.e6337]

Throughout the whole video all I could think of was how I wanted to give you a hug! You're such a wonderful person... I know the road isn't easy, but I'm so proud of you for everything you've done to work towards recovery 💓

[@izzycamoc1289]

18:38 that. that’s what’s like having depression and being anxious Someone finally put into word

[@JasminMiettunen]

Right? This is the first time I've heard someone else mention how weird it is having these two opposite problems! I told my doctor it's like being paralysed in bed but my heart is is pounding and my mind is spinning out of control.

[@-mars.]

This has been my issue, laying in bed all day and just stay there forever but my brain freaking out and screaming at me about everything I need to do and get done,and even just socialize with people...but just having no motivation to really live my life.

[@kyleefeist1324]

Yes

[@tai.karo.05]

Hate to ruin the mood but I got a KFC add. "DID SOMEONE SAY KFC?"

[@itsameprincesspeach]

Wait that isn't normal? I thought everybody felt like that

[@ellabella_sykes8310]

I can't look at myself and think positively about my appearance, my girlfriend and other friends always compliment me but I can't believe them, its nice to know someone else has felt the same in the past xx

[@actuallyasnail8342]

hope you get better soon , sending my love so you can recover ❤❤

[@kassidyschmitz3974]

Any issues are important everyone, just remember that

[@noahhaha5199]

I really do just love her more and more huh

[@taleahfanh]

So proud of my dad for being so open 🖤🥺🥺🥺🖤

[@hymntothenight]

from someone on the other side, believe me when i say it gets better. be honest with others and yourself, and most importantly take care of yourself. (and not that it matters how you look, but you are drop dead gorgeous)

[@violetjnes]

Thank you so much for this. I have an eating disorder and the way I stop being embarrassed about it is by telling myself that it's not my fault, i didnt choose this, just like i wouldn't choose any other mental illness

[@frankieremacle-grimm7116]

Ive been struggling with an ed for about 5 years, im watching this and youre taking the words right out of my head. Hearing this gives me so much for the future.

[@user-lb5lf3ix7v]

Stream phantom!!! DO IT FOR DANNY PHANTOM AND JESSIE

[@edtheoneandonly9041]

And Brendon Urie for some reason!!

[@user-lb5lf3ix7v]

Ed TheOneAndOnly yesss Brendon urie is proud of Jessie

[@valeriaoliva3965]

I love that you have the courage to be so open and honest in the internet you are such a role model ❤️❤️❤️

[@myhipsbleed4218]

im bandito tøp are lifesavers

[@vail6726]

Omg hi frens😂

[@myhipsbleed4218]

Paloma Valdez The clique can just appear anywhere.

[@depressedspaghettinoodle2558]

It’s so hard to hear that people like me are embarrassed or ashamed of themselves because of the fact they can’t be happy. Having to hear people say that they heart themselves hurts me very deeply because I’ve been going through that and it’s so hard. I’m so sorry that you had to go through that form of self harm (which I’ve never gone through but I’ve heard stories and it sounds like torture) and I’m glad that you’ve gotten better with your mental and physical health. Stay strong I know you can

[@embeats5275]

I understand how you feel. I try to reach for help with my anorexia but barely anyone believes me. I’m really struggling and I have some empathy for you because I know what it feels like. Stay strong!

[@august9820]

OML JESSIE I LOVE YOU PLEASE STAY STRONG WE ALL LOVE YOU SO MUCH

[@PS-bn6st]

I started my recovery because of you 💜

[@gracie1746]

I love you so much Jessie! Stay strong baby! We are all so proud of you, also everyone who reads this comment stream Phantom for clear skin 💞

[@megandoherty2500]

Okay who on earth disliked this video. JESSIE IS A QUUUEEENN

[@Thekoalathatrawrs]

Exactly

[@ScarlettxXxRose06]

People who got triggered by the topic maybe? Idk..

[@sassanyberg9086]

And a father...

[@imatrain_9656]

It could also be a bot.

[@Urmomisdele]

it’d be annoying shits of people who think that she just wants attention

[@heyits_kay7940]

Today I told my boyfriend I was bulimic after 4 months of hiding it...he is the first person to know and is very supportive, loving, and helpful, as I also went from anorexia to bulimia.

[@megann-j5592]

18 seconds into the vid and can i just say i love your beanie

[@tessaln17]

I’m so proud of how far you’ve come you are strong even if you don’t realize it ❤️❤️

[@kaitlynneel4910]

Jessieeeeee! You've made my 2019, i swear. Thanks for trusting us and never feel like you can't tell us something! We love you!!!!!

[@justalittlevoice]

I do the same to cope with body dysmorphia. I'm so depressed and anxious I can't even go out. It's good to know on your healing/recovery journey. Sending you all the love ❤🌸

[@3llielou]

i’m currently trying to recover from binge eating disorder/bulimia. i understand a little what you’re going through and i wish you luck and a very happy healing year!!

[@iBe_Sarah]

I love your videos about eating disorders. I’m struggling in recovery, too. It’s been almost 3 years in recovery. Please keep updating and sharing your story. This year I’m also going to work on taking better care of myself and talking to people more about it and asking for help when I need it.

[@tabi9394]

just remember that we support you. just please make sure to always work towards feeling better. i don't know you but you do mean a lot to me also it's okay to not share everything online. don't apologise for keeping your life private, okay?

[@patchytad]

as long as you’re comfortable sharing i’m here for you 🥺❤️

[@seaslug3178]

I finally got the courage today to watch this, I remember a day before this was uploaded I tried to make my self sick, it’s honestly the worst thing to ever do to ur self, I hope any one suffering with an eating disorder finds away to get help, ur all so beautiful and I hope u all have an amazing day

[@kimmys.340]

Keep up the great work on your recovery. I've had various EDs for 25 years of my life. At 38 years old, I'm missing at least 10 teeth, and I have osteoporosis. You have a gorgeous smile. Use your smile as motivation to not act on ED thoughts. I never thought I would lose my teeth to this illness, and I did. In my early thirties, I was told I need dentures. I can't afford them so I just have gaps all over my mouth and it is shameful and embarrassing. I can't talk to anyone because I'm so ashamed of my teeth. When I talk to anyone, I always think, "their life is better than mine because they have a full smile." I've acted less on ED behaviors over the last three years. I'm at the highest weight I have ever been and it is very uncomfortable, but my mind is no longer consumed with ED thoughts. You deserve recovery. You are absolutely beautiful.

[@hay_madz07]

thank you so much for this jessie❤️your children are all here for you and we are so proud🙃👏🏼👌🏼my aunt had bulimia and is still trying to deal with it so this is truly inspiring.

[@simp3851]

I just want to quickly say, thank you Jessie. You have helped me come to terms with my sexuality, mental health, ect. I've been trying to work on my mental health and that meant not talking to some people but that's fine. Remember, You are a queen, a bicon, and beautiful 🏳️‍🌈🖤

[@mya2789]

i love you so much jessie💙💚

[@Caspersgrave]

I have felt the exact same way when i tried to recover, and its relieving to see someone with so many supporters to come out about it and say this. I really appreciate this video.

[@VALE14321]

You are a beautiful person inside and out. I’m sorry this is what you’re going through but I’m glad you were able to tell someone and are now talking about it. That’s always a big step. Keep taking care, Jessie. You’ve got support and aren’t alone ❤️

[@anna1046]

i love you and I'm so insanely proud of how far you've come 💞💞

[@claranoggle]

I really needed to hear the part at the begining where you said that even though your problems are small in the world they are big in your life. ♥️♥️♥️

[@kennedyarmstrong1116]

Me: *looks at title* Also me: OH NO who hurt Jessie!? 🌈💕🌈

[@tappydoesstuff7294]

jessie did

[@rayphobiia]

i’m sending all my love and support, take as long as you need to start uploading until you’re completely happy with yourself again. just remember that we are all so *so* proud of you for opening up about this and trusting your people with of this. send anyone who gives you any trouble for your weight or mental health issues to us, because we’ll support you and defend you until the very end

[@issa4630]

oh jessie, i’m sorry you’ve had to go through this. i wish we could help ://. You’re extremely strong and brave for doing this video, i hope this situation gets better for u, you can do it Jessie. We believe in you. 🤍 Proud of you :)

[@hannahhooley6863]

I love you Jessie, you’re so strong! You can beat this! 🥰🥰

[@awful_lvrboy4765]

I love you jessie🖤🏳️‍🌈

[@cassidybeharry694]

Can we just talk about how glam with Jessie has had a major glow up. You look radiant and those eyebrows are on point.

[@DebiCakes95]

I wish I could give you the biggest hug. I did the same thing with my eating disorder. Once people started catching on to me restricting I got mad and would stuff my face in front of them and be like, “see I’m fine!” And then I would get rid of it later. It’s such a vicious cycle. I’m glad you got help for it

[@malenamochi3786]

Tw I had bulimia for almost a year and I totaly understand how you felt. Its almost like you panic so much after eating, that you cant control yourself and that is so scary. You cant think streight anymore, it drives you crazy and the fear of gaining weight takes over your entire life. I remember how awful and ashamed I felt after purging, but I did it again and again. Up to this day no one really knows that I suffered with this for so long, I believe that my mom suspected something, but I kept it all to myself. I`m happy that I overcame that alone and that I havent purged for 2 months, but if you`re going through the same, I recommend you to get help. It`s not a bad thing and you are not a burden for having problems. It will get better, although it takes time. Your happieness is what matters.

[@danielamartinez6323]

dad i love u

[@meganconte5658]

hey!! you are a gorgeous human inside and out!! we love you ❤️❤️

[@Godd___]

JESSIE YOURE BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE WHAT A TALENTED DAD💞

[@doubleboosters]

I'm recovered for almost 4 years now, I have bad days still. It's really hard and i feel you in that it's hard to feel beautiful sometimes! But it gets so much better. I'm rooting for you 💗

[@samanthajacobsen4668]

I'm so proud of you, Jessie. I've never suffered with bulimia, (though I'll admit I've considered it in the past), but you've helped me a lot. Sharing your story helps me feel a lot less alone about it. Recovery is hard, and people like you help make that process a little easier. 💜💛

[@PoptartMawnster]

Eating disorders thrive off secrecy and that always made me feel shittier and more shameful. Once I accepted help things got easier and I know you can get through this too. You're so amazing and inspiring and I'm so sorry for what you have gone through I feel like I can relate. Never give up! Btw I got your books and I'm loving them!

[@ilfioredeldeserto-gk3mg]

you're one of my sources of happiness on the internet c:

[@Jade-bb7br]

We love you and I'm so glad you are talking about this,,, i love youuuuu

[@Kimmy-wh9kf]

I'm so proud of you🤧🤧🤧 Ive been clean from self harm for 4 month maybe? and I'm at my happiest now and I'm proud of myself actually! thank you for sharing ur story

[@abigailg7790]

We love you so much and support you. I relapsed recently and it was really really hard, but I've been getting through it. You'll get through this and so will I. Thank you for being so open and trusting with this. You'll never know just how much you've helped my recovery ♥️♥️♥️

[@MetallicAlmonds]

It's okay, I love you 💙 we all do

[@kylington1000]

Jessie, we’re all so incredibly proud of you for opening up about everything. 💕 Your story will inspire and save so many lives. ❤️

[@acecox3941]

Jessie talking about Phantom's comments: You guys were so nice and supportive Most of the comments: YoU tUrNeD mE gAy

[@TheFlamingWatermelon]

Me: never seen this girl in my life Her: I’ve been hiding so much Also Me: 😮 what have you been hiding from me?!!!

[@clairek1777]

omg Jessie.. you are so so strong ily so much. You don’t deserve to treat your body like that, you are so beautiful and I’m so glad you are better. Please treat yourself right, you are an angel and ily so so so much

[@emmaannice6605]

Stay strong Jessie!!!!!! We’re all here for you and you can talk to us about everything. STREAM PHANTOM FOR CLEAR SKIN AND GOOD GRADES!!!🖤🖤🖤 love ya girl!!!!

[@EG2330]

We will always love u! Keep going strong ♥️

[@emmabigbey7261]

It's ok, we're all here for you. Love you Jessie.🖤

[@vail6726]

can you save my cheese whiz I can’t save your cheese whiz but I can save your heavy dirty soul

[@emmabigbey7261]

@@vail6726 Thank you for your service

[@vail6726]

can you save my cheese whiz 🖤💖

[@LolliPops-]

Girl this is what so often happens to those of us with ED's. I went from Anorexia to Binge Eating Disorder almost straight away. Luckily, I didnt purge but the weight gain was so rapid and the bingeing also consumed my life. I sought inpatient treatment and am now in recovery but I feel that all ED's require a lifelong attitude towards recovery to stay safe. I admire those who are able to get better and stay better but for me, although I may be a healthy weight now, my brain will always think like somebody with an ED and I need to treat it like a lifelong recovery like AA/ NA etc.

[@maliaecho]

I love this video with all my heart, I've had an eating disorder for a while and have gone through the same things and I had to go into inpatient, but I can tell how far you've come. Even mentally and how you talk about the situation. Which is so powerful and amazing. How you talk about this is how a healthy great mindset would, and I love you so much, I hope you continue down the road of recovery! Ps, I'm so sorry if any of this was triggering, I really tried to avoid anything that would be

[@alexuwu6514]

I personally never had balemia (IDK if I spelled that right) But i have had anorexia to try to cope with my abusive mom and I never told anyone and it was one of the worst parts of my life Im so happy youre recovering and thinking about youre self and please know that you can stop youtube whenever you want if its for self care

[@janericcosme4899]

saggy I seriously don’t mean to be rude but to correct your mistake it’s Bulimia😅👌🏼

[@alexuwu6514]

@@janericcosme4899 No problem I new there was no way in hell I was spelling that right

[@yokocuddles4752]

*Lots* *Of* *Love* To you! I’ve only seen your music videos so far but I still hope that you get better soon, these types of disorders SUCK and it sucks to see someone go through that sort of pain! Continue to do good and be the best uwu you can be!

[@venusnehring4105]

we're here to support you jessie. we love you. :)))

[@Kuh_Ween]

The thing that stood out to me was that you said you were grateful to be here. That's been tough for me the past few years. I've been writing daily poems about why I'm thankful for today which has helped a lot. I've also used food as a means to harm myself in the past (which is something that I'm still working on), but it took me a long time to admit that it was a legitimate form of self-harm. The severity of it is often overlooked, so thank you for validating my experience, and the experiences of so many others.

[@lunarvityy]

jessie you do look a lot healthier. i started watching you january-february (2019) and in the past year or so you’ve improved. you’re beautiful no matter what tho. stay strong we’re here for u 🥺🖤