Jesus found me in a dark place.

After her parents' divorce, Ruth questioned the faith they professed. She turned away from Christianity in her teens. Eventually she found herself in a dark place, thinking Jesus would never forgive her. Then she got desperate, and Jesus met her there. Now she says, "this is the happiest I've ever been."
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My name's Ruth. I've lived in Eugene for seven years. My parents took me to church quite often. My dad would teach us about, you know, who God was, but when we would go home, he would live a different lifestyle. And so I was really confused in who God was. And so that kind of made me doubt, like, is God real? I thought that people just did it as a routine. When I became a teenager, I wanted to explore kind of what, like, everyone else who wasn't a Christian was doing. So it was actually when I was 15, my parents got divorced and my dad left home. In high school, my mom used to work a lot because since my dad left, she had to take care of four kids.
And so she was at work a lot and my friends would just pick me up and we would go out to the country and smoke and drink. I was very young, which didn't help because it's like, I didn't have anyone to guide me to do the right things like my dad had left. So, you know, it was just like, there was no instruction at home and my mom worked all the time. And so I found myself doing things that didn't please God and just straying away from Him more than anything. I left God for about five years and just kind of did my own thing. And then all of a sudden, I just felt myself in a really dark place.
And during that dark place, I was just like, I don't see a way out. Like, there's no way that my life can go back to where it was. And I once felt the Holy Spirit. He was like, how is it that you've known God for 20 years and you still don't know who He is? And that hit really hard. I thought to myself, like, there's no way God can forgive me for everything that I've done.
And I remember in Luke 8, that woman who had the blood issue, she had faith and she said to herself, if I could just touch the rope of Jesus, like, I will be saved. And I took myself to that place. And I was just like, you know what?
I just want to touch His rope. That's all I want to do. And Jesus found me there. And it's been a year since I've actually gone back to living a Christlike life and the amount of blessings that have come into my life. And it's not even just the blessings. It's the relationship that I have now with God and the things that He's done in me. And my life and the character that He's put in me has just been amazing and worth it.
He surrounded myself with people who actually loved me. And He brought, like, my mom remarried. And she now has a husband who treats me like his daughter. And I have friends who also just give me love. And it's not a love that you can find anywhere. It's just so pure. I have discovered God to be. Someone who's merciful. Someone who's full of love, compassion, and kindness.
Now, after a year that I've completely given my life to Jesus, I have a great job. I have family who love and respect me. And things aren't perfect. But to be honest, this is the happiest I feel like that I've ever felt. And it's all glory to God. Yes.