Life has been hard

[@durandurantulsa]

I'm 51 and I still don't know what I'm doing. No one does. You're not alone.

[@cadavher]

Yep, I'm 32 and I take it one day at a time. One day I'll think there's no point but 5 days later I'll be dammed if I don't live till I'm 100 lol. I feel like as long as you're still here you're doing something right!

[@dustin4621]

You don’t look 51 :o

[@durandurantulsa]

@@dustin4621 awwww you're so sweet

[@Parselmouthkiss]

Im so happy I came across your comment .. Im turning 23 and still don’t know what to do with my life , feeling like Im wasting the years that everyone makes seem like are the most important it’s good to know it’s basically normal for many others .. (: also drop the skin routine please! Because you really do not look 51 at all

[@durandurantulsa]

@@Parselmouthkiss You're really sweet. My Best advice is to do whatever makes you happy. Make the most of the time with your friends. Live your life for you. Never take the little things for granted. Own your mistakes because we all make them but don't let them rule you. Learn to forgive yourself. And trust that life will always take you exactly where you're supposed to be.

[@Abigailbae]

“I’m trying so hard not to do anything” killed me inside I really hope Johnnie is doing better now

[@andelamedic2339]

i feel like we is so much happier and better now since he meet jake

[@Userhandleidk]

@@andelamedic2339are they dating?

[@Umidk.abr7]

@@Userhandleidkno

[@-..Raven..-]

@@Userhandleidkno they aren’t.. but many people ship them

[@mystique20109]

​@Userhandleidk no they are very close friends tho

[@katiewilliams1835]

This absolutely broke my heart seeing him like this 😭

[@mellvrgirl_]

I knoww😭, but at least he seems to be doing way better now

[@Johnnieissobabygirl]

I know but god has hopefully healed him ❤❤

[@RAVEN_RADIO]

real

[@Spaceyandloey]

Yes I am literally crying but it seems like he's doing better now that he has Jake ❤

[@meadowyeandle]

Me to bro and knowing how much jake truly helped him is just

[@zoeyconniff3954]

seeing someone that you look up to and is perfect in your eyes say they’re worthless absolutely breaks my heart.

[@Stars-mj4qz]

this is real I really feel just shit…he is really my inspiration and when he says this it breaks my heart.

[@subwayunderground6105]

Right?! I just discovered Jake and Johnnie and I’ve been binge watching their videos. Bless both of their hearts they are amazing and make me laugh and are both super gorgeous. Love them

[@Multiplehyperfixations]

I just watched this,it actually killed me,but at least Jake is there for him now..

[@michiko9075]

I hope he doesn't feel worthless anymore, he should know by now how much everyone adores him despite how he feels about himself personally

[@Sunsetfoxoffical]

Frr

[@MeltedCheezz]

Honestly i know this is old, but i feel like now since Jake has came into his life, hes been happier and feeling a lot more cheerful. edit: HOLY SHIT IM FAMOUS!!!

[@N47H4N_13]

Yes it definitely feels like he's getting better

[@lanadelreyvinylcore]

yes❤

[@Juliexcc]

Yeah they are really made for each other I feel Jake makes his so much happier and he makes him laugh..

[@jesstastickim3855]

Ya

[@_h1t0m1_.m3]

Yes Jake has definitely helped him throughout the time they have known eachother and that friendship should never end BC if it does they will both be so lost

[@idontlikethesoundofyourvoice]

Hearing his voice tremble as he tries to talk is so relatable and heartbreaking. I’m so sorry johnnie. We love you

[@Potterhead443]

Yeah it always breaks my heart seeing him like this 😢

[@snc.jnjzx0]

Ever sense Jake has came around u can tell how much happier johnnie is, and I’m so happy for Jake coming into his life.

[@RAVEN_RADIO]

yessss

[@savannahadkins9547]

Agreed.

[@Sturnandxplr23]

Real I love Johnnie and Jake so much

[@uglystupidloner]

Yesss ❤

[@Trippy000]

Hes also worked on himself allot,

[@terihunter98]

I'm a 67 year old who has tried to commit suicide 3 times. On the outside it looks like I live a charmed life but on the inside I'm a loser. You are not alone Johnny and you are loved by so many people you don't know. Take care young man.

[@fatimapacheco6949]

You are not a loser on the inside teri, you are a wise and kind man. You deserve to be happy and be kinder to yourself.

[@internetexplorer666]

Babe dont say that pls :'(

[@nes746]

Teri life is hard especially for people who are creative or intelligent. I know it's been a while since you made the comment, I wanted to say a caring and kind person like yourself is no loser.

[@Insert_Name-it4xj]

There's nothing wrong with your eyes. There's nothing wrong with your nose There's nothing wrong with your height There's nothing wrong with your skin There's nothing wrong with your mouth There's nothing wrong with your hair There's nothing wrong with your face There's nothing wrong with your body There's nothing wrong with your hands There's nothing wrong with your fingers There's nothing wrong with your teeth There's nothing wrong with YOU you are perfect. I am so proud of you:) You made it this far. You are amazing:) Don't give up. NEVER GIVE UP you're pretty You're precious Don't need to be insecure abt your face. You are so beautiful

[@kazuukazuu-rf1xc]

this is really sweet

[@nadya_fox]

this is awesome, put a smile on my face! 😍

[@tahlakennard9092]

This made my day a it put a smile on my face

[@jess9875]

I needed this

[@theartswithizzy7743]

Man this feels like green eggs and ham but so much better. I love it.

[@Xoxo.iris0]

Hearing his voice tremble hurts me. I know this is old but it makes me feel bad, the shakiness in his voice and when he had to take a break to breathe I relate to that.

[@GladiatorKitten]

If I could give one person in the whole world a hug- it would be this guy.

[@NoNo-xb7rk]

I agree.

[@RAVEN_RADIO]

literally. i feel so fucking bad for him it breaks my heart i wish we could jump through the screen and give him a hug

[@honeymay9002]

i agree .

[@heatherschlicker8223]

Me too, 100%

[@Johnnieissobabygirl]

@@RAVEN_RADIO❤

[@DICHOTOMY-1]

😭 he doesn’t deserve to feel that way. I wish I could hug him so badly like I’d cry with him

[@Savvy_2023]

I know this is old but I love johnnie. I hope he’s doing better now, I want everyone to know I’m here.

[@mazzdd999]

Johnnie is the same age as my daughter, she has also struggled from a young age with her mental health. I felt so sad to see how he was struggling back then but in recent videos he certainly looks happier we can only hope that over the last year things have got better. My daughter is doing better than she was, she now has 2 children (and I have 2 wonderful grandchildren) but she’ll always have difficulties as we discovered that she has female autism.

[@weird_art_kid]

Same. I really hope he feels better, i understand how exhausting life is

[@SxrxiZ]

Can you save me

[@SxrxiZ]

I know i should save myself.

[@user504-5]

@@SxrxiZare you good

[@Just.another.person.]

It’s been 2 years since this came out. I’m so proud of you Johnnie. I’m 14, and I’ve been suicidal, depressed, I don’t know, but im struggling, and seeing this video then seeing you now, im so proud and happy for you. It makes me wanna keep going. You’ve helped me more then I you could ever imagine. Your so loved by many people. It’s okay to struggle, your a strong person and you can do it, I believe in you. We all do. Keep being amazing man, love you dude🖤

[@lvssera]

Haha, real

[@adrianaperdieus1228]

im 15 and i tottally agree

[@laurenleslie3356]

im only 13 but feel the same i hopr your doing better x

[@xCatherineBxx]

@@laurenleslie3356me to always here x

[@carter_official_yt]

I hope your doing well and keep your head up and take good care of yourself ♡

[@Dottie_Sturniolo3]

I cried at this video so hard. Just to think about someone feeling like this just makes me feel so upset. I genuinely think that someone this amazing should not go through this. I felt so bad watching this. We all love you and think your awesome Johnnie.

[@Dottie_Sturniolo3]

I know this is my own comment and it doesn’t make sense to reply. But I literally can’t finish this without balling. I’m glad Jake came into your life

[@Rav3n06]

johnnies’s transparency with his audience has truly saved so many of us, makes us all feel less alone. i’m so glad he found jake

[@AvaLily-lo5qg]

Real

[@cyanide_lollipop3264]

Oh, sweetheart, this hurts so much to watch. You're so young and you have an entire lifetime ahead of you. I'm 49, and tbh I didn't get fully comfortable in life til I hit 40. I was a drug addict at your age, homeless by 30, a grandmother by 35... I promise you it gets better. I swear. Please hang in there and don't lose hope. Don't rob yourself of the best years of your life, which are still to come. 24 is a hard fucking age. ALL of the 20's are. But you'll get through them, like we all do. Go easier on yourself, sweetie. The world is a better place with you in it.

[@Brixx1122]

REAL!

[@leiadobbie2862]

Agreed 👍🏼💯

[@KayleeMariee]

I am only 18 years old i am excited to get in my 20's but im also not excited.

[@vortexofself]

I know this is a year old but thank you for this. I needed this. 26 and it’s still hard. Thank you so much.

[@margaretjohnston7320]

@@vortexofself I am turning 54 the end of this month and I found in my early 20's I had this passion to learn. But as you get older the one thing I can say is you find your true self as you hit 30's 40's. What would I tell my younger self? Do not care what others think. Believe in yourself. Learn by reading books. People change, so you will not keep the same friends, but you will cherish the ones you know are real. People want you to be down at their level. Live only for just today. Do what you fear. Walk through fear, the best feeling. I don't mean bungi jumping! I mean take a new class, start a job you never thought you would do ever, say hi, be kind, but Don't take shit ever from anyone including family! And never let anyone make you feel bad about yourself. Live for today not the past, you cannot change it, not the future, it has not happened. Just for today.

[@isabell8334]

johnnie i promise you’ll eventually get better, everyone’s been there ❤️

[@okamiartifex8813]

Not everyone

[@moonlightsparkles42]

Seeing you cry honestly breaks my heart. Depression is the worst. I love you so much Johnnie.

[@Bellahh-711]

FR I CRIED TOO😭😭😭😭

[@TheWeirdKid_Froggy]

This is very old but ever since Jake has came into Johnnies life he’s been much happier, more cheerful and bright.

[@NoNo-xb7rk]

What I’ve been thinking..

[@LyntzbartzkyPerez]

I hope so, but he has still said he’s had some depression and anxiety even with Jake ☹️ But i really do believe he’s doing better

[@iamjonah869]

it doesn't just go away bc of a person, but the person might give him a reason to stay @@LyntzbartzkyPerez

[@Illuminateyourfate]

Listen, or don’t. I’m only 14 (probably not supposed to say that online but I need to get the point across). You, you, you, you, YOU are not meaningless. In the span of today you have changed my life. I came across your channel today and even though your content is a little questionable for someone my age… (just a little questionable) you are already somebody that I look up to. Crazy right. You are relatable to a lot of people. I’m 14 and another person who commented on this video is 51. If you appeal to that whole range of ages, that means that these people, WE look up to you. I’m barely starting high school and I have no idea what I’m doing or what I’m found in the future. But really, tell me one person who actually does. Nobody really has any clue what there life will look like in days, months, or even years from now. What I’m saying is that you and your life are more meaningful than you think. Sounds cheesy but I know a lot of people would agree with me. You probably won’t see this, but if you ever do… just know that I think you are somebody who means a whole lot to a lot of people (including me).

[@DaviZelda]

Nice words, you may be young, but you're smart, congrats.

[@wastelanddragon86]

Wise

[@colinloh6427]

I'm 21 and my advice to you is take it easy. Don't overdo things you don't like and mostly do what you want. Thanks for the advice, kid.

[@joeyjordison.]

smart fr

[@Drippydave2000]

My advice to you [just turning 22 ] work hard and focus on school work. Try to get the best grades you can. Try and get a scholarship to a college (if you get good enough grades all four years) you could get a entire free trip to college. Don't worry about a bf/gf you're young you will have many relationships . And trust me college is where the real fun is at.

[@sagelawrence7457]

its been 2 years... and no one will prolly read this but im proud of you. ive struggled with suicidal ideation since i was 6 or 7. i started cutting when i was 12. i stopped eating almost all together when i was 14. throughout my teenage years i was in and out of mental faculties. i had a miscarriage when i was 16. i was diagnosed with narcolepsy when i was 17, which you can have symptoms of schizophrenia, which i do, mostly just hallucinations tho. im now 20 and i still live to this day with all of that, but im better. im 6 months and 9 days clean from self harm. im engaged to an amazing man. i still struggle with suicidal ideation, but i can handle it now. i used to not believe the saying "itll get better" everytime i heard that i wanted to hurl, but eventually it does you just have to push through and keep doing the things you love. im proud of who you've become now. I also wanted to point out that youre not ugly at all, youre definitely one of my celebrity crushes. keep being you.

[@Abbey-b3r]

How you doing ❣️

[@pixeedustt.4097]

I am so so proud of you!

[@sagelawrence7457]

@@Abbey-b3r I am doing fantastic. My fiancée really took me out of my pit of darkness. Today is our 2 year anniversary and god damn I’m so glad I met him. Ofc you don’t have to fall in love to get out of that darkness but that’s what did it for me.

[@LifeWithBigJ]

are you ok now?? 6-7 is so young 😢

[@sagelawrence7457]

@@LifeWithBigJ oh yeah im great now. And 6 and 7 was young I agree. Had it that young because of my religion I grew up in. I was raised Mormon but I left it as soon as I turned 18. But they teach that children under the age of 8 go to heaven automatically. So I wanted to die before I turned 8 because I wanted to go to heaven. I remember bawling my eyes out on my 8th birthday.

[@kinleymccleskey]

I am crying knowing how many times we could have lost Jonnie I am glad we didn’t because Jonnie and jake have helped me so much in life I am grateful he is still here and got to finally be happy

[@acooper5941]

I've been having such a hard time lately; more so than ever; I understand. Take some time off, you deserve it and it's well earned. Also, never feel ashamed for living at home, sometimes, it's really hard to trust yourself on your own. That's why I still live at home too. 🖤 You got this. 🖤 Love you, Johnnie.

[@Xplr_UrFavEmo]

It’s brave of you to share thank you don’t let your crown fall

[@luarenGonzalez]

@@acooper5941 qqqw

[@ALetterP]

"living at home" is such a Western concept. IDK why society in general is so obsessed with that especially these last 5 years or so. Even more so dumb when you consider this is like the hardest time in history to actually own a home or have your own place. I really hate that society has painted this negatively and makes people feel horrible about something that is really no ones business. In many countries people never leave their family and it's considered completely normal.

[@gailflora1835]

So true. I lived at home til I got married at 30. I came and went as I pleased. Nothing wrong with that. Also, my ex made sure he told our son he is always welcome back.

[@midnightriot2454]

I'm 29, I still live with y Mum, she is chronically ill, so pretty much I'm never leaving home, and who cares?

[@imontosomething2609]

I mean sure shaming people for still living with their parents isn’t fair but some people just have personal reasons for moving out of their parents home….. But I get what you’re saying, it’s not seem as something normal.

[@gailflora1835]

@@imontosomething2609 I’m no expert so I don’t know how many leave or stay. Some can’t wait to leave for various reasons and others have reasons to stay. If you are staying, you should still be a real adult tho. Pay rent, work, help out. And of course, at some point I would imagine you’d buy a house, get married, etc.

[@KristinNirvana]

To be fair, a lot of us have been abused by our parents so it's more of a necessity to leave and is detrimental when you don't have the ability to do so. I wanted to leave by age 11 but wasn't able to until age 24 and almost died because of it.

[@whenifeeldown]

I’m almost 30 and I still live at home. Life isn’t a race. There’s no set time you need to meet certain life milestones. I’m still single, no kids, not in my dream job. I never understood society’s fixation on needing to do things by certain ages. There’s no point. Things happen when they happen. I have no clue what the future holds for me. I have nothing in my life figured out and that’s ok. Please be kind to yourself. This past year and a half has been so hard on everyone it’s ok to not be okay. Sending you all my love. ❤️❤️❤️

[@janeknevermind]

Im the same and I agree with you. F society's standards about what you have to do in different phases of your life.

[@colinloh6427]

I ain't care about society. I'm in my own lane and marching to the beat of my drum.

[@andreasanjines6708]

I don’t want to discredit Jake coming into Johnnie’s life but I think Johnnie is doing amazing on his own. His personality is shining through now that there is a bigger audience and people enjoy his persona and character. We all struggle I hope you feel 1000x better Johnnie 💕

[@marisafrankk]

Real, I don't like when everyone just says it's Jake who helped him which yes is true but give Johnnie credit too because he's doing amazing 😭🖤

[@johnniessvsp.]

its been 2 years since this came out, and im genuinely so proud of you johnnie. In recent videos you seem so happy and i know that theres still the fact you’re not okay deep down but you’re really strong. I’m 18, and i started watching you a few years back. Your content is such a safe space for me especially when i was young, specifically 13-16. i was in a really bad place and would hurt myself and i let people take advantage of me. your content has helped me so much with just being myself and youre so funny. there isnt one day where im not excited to get home from college and watch your content, there isnt one day where i dont spend atleast a minimum of 3 hours listening to your music. Before i found your content, i was struggling so bad with my self appearance and how to be okay with the way i am. i struggled with suicide, isolating myself, ghosting everyone, and even hurt the people around me because i was so afraid of just living and i thought everyone hated me. as soon as i found your content, i found myself. i became better and started socialising with people more. i love u sm and im so proud of u

[@DannikaBurley]

I hope you get better man❤️❤️

[@Gossipgrls]

This made me cry and I hope your doing better

[@realmentereal]

Im currently struggling a lot can anyone help

[@johnniessvsp.]

@@realmentereal hi man, there isnt much i can do through a screen but the best you can do is reach out for help 🩷 even if its friends, family, or a specialist maybe speaking to someone will help you feel even just a little better. i wish you the best and i hope everythinf gets better for you 💕💕

[@realmentereal]

@@johnniessvsp. thank you so much, you really bring me a sense of community and that im not alone, ill try to talk more to my sister and ask for her help🫂

[@Killswitch1411]

Twenties are hard years.. Its where you do the most thinking of worth and reflection when in reality you have yet to live life being that young.

[@alicebug715]

thank you! everyone else is telling me: "oh, enjoy your twenties! it's the best time of your life!" Fuck no! maybe for you it was, but not for everyone else. These phrases just push anxieties etc. because you think you HAVE to have a good time, and when this period of life is over it's just getting worse...i think in these times first priority is, to stay on track, strong and positive.

[@Killswitch1411]

@@alicebug715 yeah some people like to project their own lives onto others at how wonderful those years were.. clearly not everyone is going to feel the same or have the same experience.

[@april1860]

im turning 16 this month and im already having these thoughts. feeling like i wasted so much time being sad and sitting in my room. some say its a good thing im self aware so young but i don’t think so, i just want to be happy and carefree like every other teenager but im so stressed about the time.

[@BLAHBLAHBLABBRI]

Everyones watching this in 2024 i js want u to know ur not alone and ily:)

[@user-hp9gp6ct7q]

I personally value this painfully honest piece of truth much more than any youtuber portraying only the happy side of life or even faking happiness... Thank you for being authentic, Johnnie. Thank you for everything. You may feel the harsh comments more intensely than the positive ones, but you already know which of them are the greater in number and importance ❤️

[@sunlight8088]

Look he's amazing ok xxxxxxxxxxxxx

[@conniecataraestep3255]

First thing, you are GORGEOUS!!! There are SO many young ladies out there that would love to meet you and one day you will find the right one!!! Second, this is coming from someone that is 52 and has had anxiety and depression since I was 13. You are still a "baby" you have time to still figure things out! I was 28 before I finally found out what I wanted to do career wise and this is where I think you need to start thinking about.. YOU have too much time on your hands and that can lead into so much more anxiety and depression! Look into a schooling to get you into a career and in the mean time find a job you are interested in working for! I know singing is your life but sometimes you need to step out of your current situation to make things better for you! Staying at home is better than being out on your own right now struggling. It is just temporary so please take this time to make the most of it, dont let it get you down! You can still continue with singing, writing songs, You Tube etc...but please do something to get your mind occupied and out of your feelings so you can get better and move on with life instead of thinking about ending it! You have a lot too live for and a long life ahead of you to live! Make it better, you got this!!! We all care or we wouldnt be here for you!! I hope you think about or take this advice, trust me I have lived life with anxiety and depression but once I found my career, got out of the home and put myself into it so much of it left and it makes things so much easier! I am a medical specialist and helping others helped me! Again you got this, just know you can turn this around and make life the way you want it to be!! Much love and hugs,,,,Stay Awesome Johnnie!!

[@maritinalagaria2743]

This is really good advice ! 😊😊 straight from the heart

[@k.spooky6450]

This is awesome advice. ❤

[@conniecataraestep3255]

@@maritinalagaria2743 Thank you and trust me I have been there! Yes, it is straight from the heart, thank you so much!!! :)

[@conniecataraestep3255]

@Dark Dreamz Bless your heart!! Thank goodness you are no longer on that crap! Dr put me on those and some more and I felt worse after taking them!! Please take care!

[@conniecataraestep3255]

@@k.spooky6450 Thank you so much!! I hope he seen and at least thinks about it, I know it was what helped me! I really worry about this young man, I pray he feels better soon!

[@ginifer9015]

Sobbing rn I really hope he’s feeling better and not tryna hide it

[@Ciciz._toezz]

Ik this was a long time ago but we’re all here for u Johnnie. We love u man

[@keiradumais94]

Your music helps me so much when i'm in a dark place the lyrics are things i can relate to and it kinda feels like i'm not alone. you aren't alone and are loved even though it might not feel like it at the moment. it's a hard thing to trust and love yourself for who you are and your right it doesn't always get better but it does hurt less. Love you

[@Khloe_slay]

❤

[@Idkwhyruviewingmyacc]

i know this us super old,but i started crying the first minute and didnt stop until 20 minutes after this video. im proud that youve gotten through,jhonnie.

[@Idkwhyruviewingmyacc]

johnnie**

[@AvaLily-lo5qg]

Real

[@k.j.greenwood6473]

I'm 57 and in awe of your self-awareness and your ability to put your darkness, your self-loathing and depth of pain into words. I've never been able to do that. You're incredibly brave, you're good and you're loved. Don't ever doubt it.

[@Kiwi-mp6uf]

2 years later and he’s still here so that proves that he loves his fans ❤❤❤❤❤

[@Dianapotatoweb]

It's been 2 years, but this video brings me to the verge of tears from the pain in your voice. I feel like a lot of us can relate to you, and I'm glad you were strong enough to post this.

[@RAVEN_RADIO]

so real. like actually SO real

[@metalmassacre3144]

Johnnie, please, please, don't take your own life. As someone who's dealt with depression for years, and have been suicidal for most of those years, I can relate. You're beautiful, and I don't just mean physically. I've been a fan of yours for years and even through KZbin, we as fans can see your light shining through. You are such an inspiration for so many of us and we love you. Please stay strong, please. We don't want to lose you. You are so much more than the person you see in the mirror. Stay strong, please💗

[@scarletdriftwood]

when i look at you i dont see any imperfections, you are so beautiful johnnie and i know so so many other people agree with me. You are not meaningless, you have helped people through so much, everyday you impact people. i dont know what i would do if we lost you. we all love you so much, so much.

[@Brixx1122]

I am one of those people. Hes my idol..

[@user-rn3nr4ib2h]

I know this video is quite old, about 2 years now, but I want to say that as of right now you have 2.46 million people that care for you and cheer you on. Every single person that’s here is here for you. We believe in you, Johnnie. You’ve got this. ❤

[@ellaanneXD]

this was posted 2 years ago, i’m so proud of how far you’ve come since then johnnie. you’re one of my favorite creators, you’ve got this. ❤

[@totallyfine69]

im 15 and ive always felt alone in my struggles, but now i know im not alone and it makes me feel a bit better. you were brave for showing your most vulnerable self to the public, and i respect you so much.

[@SunnyProductions7]

We are not alone!

[@april1860]

im also 15 about to be 16 and it’s crazy how much i can relate to him

[@morgangermsheid868]

It takes so much guts to open up like that.. you're not alone, please don't give up, there are people who love you

[@Callie-m1e]

watching this 2 years later is so bittersweet, i hope and think that now Jake,Carrington,and Grace are in his life hes happier. ilysm Johnnie 🖤

[@adanvalentin06]

This is weird I was just having a breakdown to your music *We all love you and support you Johnnie, we're so grateful to have you here ;) you have been my role model ever since I found you on youtube, it breaks my soul to see you like this. I used to be bulimic because I hated myself, and mid-recovery I came back to it because I felt like I deserved the pain. I totally get that. But as my mom says, when the sky is at its darkest, it means the sun is about to come out. Don't give up Johnnie, we believe in you ♥️*

[@pinkienne]

johnnie i'm 14, i've looked up to you since i was like 9. please don't give up, i know it's hard. we all struggle, your like the big brother i've never had. i love you, and remember you can do this

[@adri-i9b]

Honestly Johnnie your the most beautiful person I have ever seen don't let your thoughts think your basically "ugly".

[@Ipostrandomtgings]

Always here for you Johnnie xxx

[@danayislame9484]

Johnnie, you are not a failure. You’ve made me happy with just your music and videos, you’ve helped me learn to deal with certain stuff. You’ve helped me learn a lot of things. I’ve looked up to you for ages, and you may look at that as a not so good thing, but in my eyes it is. I’ve been watching your videos for who knows how long and they have special place in my heart and so does your music. I’ve always liked you. Life may be hard for you right now, but I’ll hope and pray(I don’t pray very often) that it will get better. Your life will most definitely get better! And if it doesn’t, you always have us, your audience. This venting video is good to help you out and it helps with you reach out in your own way. So Johnnie, I believe in you and you and life will get 10 times no 100 times nicer. And if not, then look back at this and remember that we your viewers are here and love you! I know you just said that saying “life will get better” and stuff like that doesn’t help, but I’ll keep saying it even if it works or not. Life WILL get better and I know it will. You also may have changed a lot in good or bad ways, but I still see the Johnnie that I grew up with and that’s okay with me. It may not be okay with you, but for most of your viewers it is. So Johnnie Guilbert, I love you and not just me love you, we all do! I care for you and so do others. •Persevere, that’s the word I grew up with and now I say it to you. So please, persevere.. You got this Johnnie!

[@Longliv3cowgirls]

I’m 13 and I have been to a mental hospital 3 times over the years all for suicidal ideation/attempts and cutting. They put me on meds that made me a living zombie, there were so many different people and I was scared. I felt judged and like a freak. Your not alone. We love you for you. ❤❤❤. Watching this really did make me cry because I had a mental breakdown last night and it hit me like a ton of bricks seeing you hold back the tears, I’m so happy you have came so far.

[@aniyilator]

I'm really sorry to hear that you've gone through so much at your age. It's a constant battle but I hope you've been doing better lately 🖤

[@abby_chabre]

i am also 13 and struggling with self harm and suicide and i have benn in and out of mental hospitals since i was 6 i get how you are feeling you are not alone.

[@V.R.CoryArt]

Brother that takes a lot of strength sharing things like this. At my age my father had a job and moved out and since I haven't I usually feel like a failure. A psychologist once told me "What is failure?" and I said that I had not been able to accomplish things and be independent and she said "That's because you have gone through things those other people who are accomplishing those things haven't, you're not a failure you're on a different path". You're a special person with a different life than anyone else, define what you want yourself to be. I have no idea if this is what you're going through, but as an artist myself I often feel terrible about aspects of myself because I am very much a perfectionist who wants the "perfect" version of myself, a work of flawless art if you will, the fantasy version where I imagine aspects of my appearance to be different, but then I have to look to reality to see that I can't change the fundamental ways some things about me look/are, and that I am the way I am and that's okay, I don't have to "be perfect" and frankly no one is "perfect" to themselves, and if they are they are a narcissist. You deserve just as much happiness and feeling of self accomplishment as anyone else does. And if they seem like "better" people to you, they may just be looking at you and thinking that they don't deserve love because they aren't "perfect" like you. Many of us are genuinely very hard on ourselves because we want to feel like we were what we each consider perfect, but as Dali said "Don't fear perfection, you'll never reach it". What's helped me in my darkest times was realizing I possessed too much potential in my art to let that be lost and never get to show it to the world, that simple thing got me motivated enough to carry on. Events in life and the realities of this world are all interpreted through the minds of individuals and that is where the realities exist, the only true version you that exists is your soul, not the version of you in anyone's mind, including your own low self esteemed mind. There is so much of you to explore and live that the voice in your head doesn't want you to be. We gaslight ourselves and tell ourselves we are unlovable, worthless, failures, etc. but as someone who has overcome a life time of external gaslighting and manipulation I realised after I came out of that, that I had been also doing that to myself all along. It is something that a person honestly believes is true because even though society tells us from a young age that it is wrong to be horrible to others, we never hear it is equally wrong to bully ourselves into suicidal thoughts. Love you man, hope you find what you need to move forward.

[@lovelypastelpuppy1640]

This comment deserves an award. 🏆

[@johnnieguilbsv]

Just a message to put out for ya Johnnie, you may not know me but this is just a message Life may be hard out there in the meanwhile and time, but we all have hard times, and it's part of life and we can't control it, But 3 Years later, I am still amazed from how far you've came. You've absolutely blown the internets mind, You cared less on what others thought of you're appearance, and you Ignored it and kept going. And then later on realizing the amount of people you've actually saved from doing horrible things, you make people laugh, happy and I'm just glad you're having a better time These past years, it's absolutely crazy, but Im proud and happy cause of it. Im a real person behind the screen, saying, you are doing an amazing Job, an amazing person and so much more. You do what you love, and ignore those who judge what you do, whatever makes you happy, keep doing it, you are loved Along with the hate with you being with Grace, ignore it. absolutely happy for you Not sure if you'll ever see this, but keep going man, You got this, believe in you man

[@Demi20139]

Your a good person and Johnnie is two

[@zero_islive_]

This video is really really heartbreaking…I legit started crying when he said he recorded himself sh to just feel something. I’m glad that he is completely transparent with his viewers…I love you Johnnie…take as much time as you need anytime. (I know this was a while ago) ❤

[@suzymentzos1]

There is nothing worse than this feeling. I’m over 50 and my daughter 26 (we have watched you for years) The world is a scary place more then ever. Our lives have been ripped apart in so many ways. You are so loved. Even when it’s harder to deal with we need to push through. I’m so sorry you are feeling so bad. Big hugs. Things are so difficult right now and you are not alone in how you feel. As a mamma I hope you hang in there. It’s such a hard time. 😢 Thank you for being honest and showing how tough it can be.

[@suzymentzos1]

So many people are moving home. My 57 yr old brother who has a career had to move home. Please know you are not alone. This pandemic is f

[@rickyrod4977]

It’s good to talk about it. This happens to everyone man. It doesn’t end, you grow stronger than fear.

[@4usprosperity]

Fffo uoy is the best place in this country to be a little bit ago and I hope that you are not a good person and you will be in a good mood and you 😊❤☺🙂😀

[@lillysmith424]

facts

[@thetinas_xplrfan]

when men cry, it hits different, then I start to cry..I love johnnie sm and I'm so gald uve made it through sm

[@StitchBlue14]

Love you Johnnie stay strong. You keep me from not giving up on myself. You’re one of the reasons I believe in myself more then I did before. I stayed strong you can too buddy. Thank you for being in my life. 🥺💙

[@dravencheatham]

My momma bear is kicking in. I just want to hug you. I really understand this. But I'm so proud that you're still with us 2 years later. We need you johnnie. I need you.

[@ryleelovesstitch2949]

You're not alone, Johnnie. You're a wonderful human being. Life is never easy but it's not impossible. I'm sending you lots of hugs. Love you Johnnie.

[@Hugs.4.Hannah]

This hurts me so bad. i've always looked up to johnnie, and it breaks my heart seeing you talk down to yourself like this. i'm so so sorry that you felt/feel like this. you are so sweet, and kind, and funny, and you have helped me through some really dark times in life. i hope you realize how amazing, and just perfect you are.

[@shadowskat3r361]

this is exactly how i feel, you're not alone. its good to talk about it and understand it. you're doing amazing i'm so proud of you!

[@CarolineWisdom]

I have just come across your channel and watched some of your more recent videos and even subscribed, which I never do!! You've made me smile, and then I came across this video, which is so heartfelt. I know it was posted a long time ago, but if you do still read the messages on this video, I just wanted to say you are amazing. You are caring, you have integrity (which is something lacking in a lot of younger people), and your style is brilliant. When you feel low again, always remember you are amazing, you are worth it. Mental illness can't be seen, but it's such a hard thing to go through. I know, I understand. Xx

[@AdamariHernandezRojas]

Frrr

[@mackaylas_luv4him]

I’m 17, comin to watch this video to “feel better” because I feel like I can’t find anyone that wants to help me feel better 😢

[@SaraMarie08]

Same I'm 15 but I was feeling really terrible and just had a mental breakdown and decided I needed a distraction to help me feel better and I was watching johnnies videos.when I came across this one and watching this made me feel less alone and I've just been feeling like theirs nobody who wants or can help me and just watching Johnnie has really helped me I hope your feeling better💜

[@cherylpedley1953]

To see one of your idols talking about how bad there metal health is, it's heartbreaking! Considering johnie posted a similar video back when he was 17 says that johnie trusts us for love and support! We love you johnie please do t give up on us please! Just remember you're not alone! You're a great person and you were put on the earth for a reason! Just keep trying. Give life a second chance. Remember we love you and nothing you do will change that! ❤😢

[@smaben17]

I'm 36 live with my sister I've never worked, haven't been in school since I was 11, I have pretty bad anxiety (mostly around people) I used to beat myself even almost hanged myself once, I was in only 1 relationship with someone whom was both mentally and physically abusive took 2years to get the nerve to break it off... I hated myself off and on my whole life being gay didn't make it any easier growing up having to hide who I really was... Anyway I just wanted to add I doubt I'd still be here if it hadn't been for your music 🖤. I don't know if any of that would help I'm not very good at this sort of thing😔.

[@bayley784]

god bless you, adam ❤️

[@Hay_Bay]

🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@amdiary7]

I totally understand. I have Asperger’s syndrome and it’s hard for me to work with neurotypical people because they don’t seem to think the way I do. And I’m an adult so people talk badly about me for that.

[@glitterspree]

Breaks my heart to see you suffering like this, it reminds me of myself when I was younger and struggling, you also remind me of my sons (one of which is around your age and one is mid thirties). I can tell you as a 54 year old, life can be hard, but things will get better. You must reach out for help though and stop hating on yourself for not ''having it together'' yet, none of us do ... life is a journey, please just never give up, even if it's baby steps ... one foot in front of the other and you will move forward. I sought therapy and it has saved my life ... stop expecting so much from yourself, you are a beautiful precious inspiring young man, we love you! ♥

[@heartsfromaisha9939]

I know this is old but I really feel that Jake coming in his life like changed his life to better and I’m happy seeing both of them happy, like Jake made me much happier and wonderful and have a great time with each other filming KZbin.

[@hrts4winter117]

It hurts to see you’re comfort creator going thru sm 😞😞😞 i love you Johnnie you’ve really helped me with your videos so please keep going we all love you so much and we will always be here for you ❤️

[@Alex-gl3mm]

8:12 “then I’m just gonna be really negative towards myself.. and that’s fine, I don’t really care” I literally burst out crying

[@Webber_4life]

It’s been 2 years since this post. I’m 15 and i understand struggles of suicidal thoughts and depression. But i’m glad you’re still here today. That’s what truly matters, Johnnie. You’re my reason why i have faith life gets better. You and Jake.

[@richlles8652]

Thank you for Posting this video johnnie is Nice to know there’s a person who understands the hell of mental hell

[@4usprosperity]

You ffffff and a good job to be a little bit ago and I hope that you will be

[@sharonrachel9487]

I'm late to the game but I feel this so hard. The main reason I'm here is because my kids would go into foster care if I wasn't. Gotta keep on going no matter how bad I feel. Johnnie, you're beautiful! Been really enjoying your music and videos. And Grace is so cute and sweet! I'm happy you're in a better place now and you've found the person who makes you feel like you'd rather not be alone. Even though I'm old compared to you, I feel inspired to just be myself because of you. So, thank you. ❤

[@bethy2421]

You are a beautiful person Johnnie, you have value inherently. You are worthy. There is no time table and no comparisons to others are necessary ❣❣ I struggled with self worth before, I know it's not easy. Therapy and meditation helped me loads.

[@spookygoose-q8z]

Jhonnie, I found you less than a month ago, you completely changed my life. I was lost in a dark place of regret, grief, and loneliness. I want you to know that you have helped SO MANY PEOPLE. People ranging from 14-51! We need you, your friends need you, we all need you.

[@Vibetide222]

hey Johnnie ❤ as a 13 year old who struggles with self harm and anxiety, your content comforts me and makes me feel like I’m never alone. You are truly one of my inspirations. I know it’s been 2 years but please know there will always be that light and seeing you reminds me of that light at the end of the tunnel. Love you sm💓

[@MajaVvest]

Hope you get better soon, I’ve been there. It does fade, and you will find a reason to respect yourself for who you are ❤

[@25kjixxy]

@Chivalrous_specimen are you okay now ?

[@ndmuse]

I don't think I was able to post on this vid the first time I saw it because it broke my heart. The world is a better place because you're in it. So many of us feel the same way but very few of us could open up like you do. You help people without even knowing it... With your music, humor, honesty and authenticity. You are way beyond good enough by anyone's standards, self imposed or otherwise. My sincerest hope for you is for you to recognize your own self worth and never second guess yourself of your talent. I get all of the things you say because i struggle in all the same ways. I'm sure many others might say the same. Never stop talking about things and recognize just how far you've come since you posted this. Much appreciation to you for everything you share and just know how much it's valued. You're valued. ❤

[@freezedriedzombi8242]

You keep calling yourself old but you’re insanely young, it just doesn’t feel that way bc you’ve been through a lot. Humans live a long time and our brains are crazy. We are naturally wired to think negatively, so it’s easy to only see the bad side of everything. Don’t be hard on yourself bc you’re just being human. Don’t apologize either, you owe us nothing and we are just here to support and intake. Hold onto anything that makes you happy, maybe go to an upcoming concert to clear your mind for a while. You should try- Every night before you sleep think of 10 things you’re grateful for. Even if it’s a lamp, having a toilet…anything. Just so you can focus on the present and possibly bring you warmth in any way. Maybe even try meditating, so you learn to have no thoughts really..just a clear mind and living in the moment. Pour yourself into whatever you love and what you’re doing. We hear you and we’ll always be here, I hope you keep trying your best to seek positivity💜🖤If you can, just surround yourself with things that excite you. Maybe things that you’ve always wanted like a electric guitar or something, you are more than what you see. Nobody likes to see a good soul go, There is so much more that you haven’t seen that will make you happy💜💗but it’s your job to start that process 🧡

[@4usprosperity]

Kj is a great idea for a new place to work with you and I miss u so much and I will be in love with you and I miss u too much so much I can't even get a free online poker room with a friend that I can be a good fit for me and I am not going through the process of finding out how much you can also make sure to keep the best way to get a job at a great idea for a good time and I will have a better idea of a place to stay and then we will see you and miss u so u ❤💖💙

[@4usprosperity]

G G is a great idea for a new place to work with you and I miss u so much and I will be in love with you and I miss u so love u so u and miss you so much for u so love u so u don't ❤💗💖💕

[@4usprosperity]

T T to the world and I hope you have a good time in your family about the world is a very popular and popular place in this area and I hope you ♥🙏❤💛

[@taco6649]

Life ain't easy, that's the way it is, but it's in us to find what we love and do it. It's hard I won't lie but it's also really beautiful ❤️ hope you get better! ❤️

[@magicslave3066]

Exactly we have to learn how to accept the challenges of life and push through and tolerate it because I believe it happens to help you grow but I still wish him and everyone and earth peace and joy because I hate seeing him in pain like this it kills me and hurts me!

[@cmvrieee]

I’m so sorry you’re having a rough time babe. I haven’t had the best year myself. Honestly it’s been the worst year of my life and sadly it’s not really getting better either. Just know that you have so many people, including myself, who love the shit out of you even though we don’t know you personally and we support you. You are such a light in peoples lives and mine. You’re so talented and really help a lot of people when their world is dark and not just with not just your music. Your videos are such a great escape for people as well. It’s okay to not know what the hell you’re doing. I’m almost 30 and still have no idea. Your twenties and thirties are for exploring, finding yourself, making mistakes, learning from them, and just enjoying life as much as you can. Some people figure their shit out early and some don’t figure anything out at all. There’s no set age, day, month, or year when you HAVE to know what you’re doing. There’s a whooole lot of us who are just taking it day by day and if something happens great and if not it’s another day in the books that we were blessed to experience. And that is okay!! I also feel the same way about not having many friends and being scared to trust people because I’m literally in the same boat. I have a handful of friends and that’s it. I’ve been screwed over by people who were long time friends, almost family, to me and it hurts bad that they would say and treat me like I’m absolutely worthless so I avoid people like the plague now. And my 5 year relationship ended earlier this year and my heart was and still is absolutely shattered to pieces and I will probably never fully heal from it. I feel like I can’t handle or deal with anymore rejection or hurt. Anxiety is also that bitch that never leaves so I totally understand that as well. I don’t have any self esteem whatsoever. I think I’m one of the ugliest things to grace the planet. I really try not to think about it even though it’s hard. It’s hard being a strong 1 1/2 when everyone around you are a minimum of strong 10’s. I blame the acne. My opinion doesn’t count, but your face is nice and is cute. And I don’t want to sound like an annoying broken record and say everything will be okay and stay positive so I will say instead that It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to be frustrated and to cry We all have days where everything is falling apart and things are absolute shit. It’s okay to have negative days. It’s okay to be sad. Not everyone has good, fun, positive days all the time. Life would be boring that way and it keeps us on our toes. We’re all human and deal with our emotions some way some how. Sometimes not in the greatest and smartest of ways, but we eventually learn how to do better. We’re all here for you and we all want you to be happy and content. I’m so happy you’re still here. You have a gift for making music. You do have a purpose to live and your existence is important. Keep listening to music, making it, and writing! I hope one day you can find healing and see the greatness in yourself that we all do. You deserve to be here, you deserve to be happy, you deserve to have trustworthy, loving, caring friends and significant other who will love you endlessly and support you and be there for you no matter where life may lead you. And please don’t feel bad for living at home with your family. Living alone is nearly impossible these days. I think a lot of people are moving back home for a little bit since everything is so high. I’d give you a hug if I could. Maybe one day I could meet ya and give you one. Just remember you’re not alone and sosososo many people love you and support you. I’m so proud of you for trying every day even when giving up feels best at the time. You’re doing great and you should be proud of yourself. Please don’t give up on yourself. Sending you all the love and light from Texas. Love you 🖤💜😘

[@andreawhite7370]

Seeing you now, and where you were three years ago. It makes me so happy that you seem to now have such a good supportive friend group and girlfriend, and you genuinely seem to be in a better place. Im sure you still have your days/ moments. But youre doing so well Johnnie!!! Im proud of you. And my heart is with you. ❤️

[@KyrieIrene]

Wow, u have no clue how much this was posted at the exact right time. I am feeling the exact same way right now. This really helps me feel less alone. Thank you so much. I truly hope you get better soon.

[@laureldreams]

some suggestions: try getting your GED, apply for community college to something you are interested in, makes you meet new people and makes you focus on something that isn't your thoughts, continue your passion for music but also add something new to your life that you might enjoy (try different things, sports, walking, drawing, reading a book, maybe you want to make a video on a subject you are interested in), get some plants for your room and take care of them, open your windows to let fresh air in, try switching your sleep schedule, have regular meals snacks etc, go outside more even if its to go to the shop to buy food

[@BansheeQueenCosplay]

these are great suggestions. little things can make a big difference

[@Deanna1295]

This is a wonderful idea ❤️

[@zackhunter8364]

these may be worked on normal Cases but with depressed individual i think it's best if they avoid crowd cause they at a fragile state because of the depression

[@mcrbrokeup9794]

yeahh. like i understand how it may be different with someone with depression, but especially from our perspective, saying to try out smthn like college and stepping out of your comfort zone may be a good new step to help him out. instead its like...we cant let it seem hopeless. i think there isn't.. there is no harm in trying something new like that and while he is still pretty young. i wish i can just help him out irl and he felt he had someone to talk to but first the priority is some mental training to open up to a close friend since he is afraid and stopping the negative thoughts yknow ;/..

[@alanamikaylaaa]

Bless your soul

[@hailYeahh666]

Crazy how everything you said here is exactly how im feeling. Ive felt so alone and feel i cant tell anyone because then they start acting like they care or leave.

[@melssolar3-x3b]

This is such a sad video to watch knowing that i’ve been through this kind of stuff even at a young age ive been trying to hold it together but you’re so brave of coming up here and talking about this

[@Red-qw2zd]

healing takes time... I know im just some stranger on the internet but im so proud of how far you've come

[@keira_flem]

I’m visiting older videos and I’m so proud of you. I’m sorry you have had to go through so many hardships. You have always been so open about sensitive topics and it’s truly so helpful for all of us. I’m so happy you’re here and so many people care about you. You are so inspirational to so many of us. Thank you.❤️

[@em0shorty]

much love, man🖤I’m in literal tears

[@Linley-ns6eu]

As a 12 year old who has been struggling with depression. I cried so much during this video. You and other youtubers have been my escape from reality and im so happy I found you guys because ive been hurting so much. My life isn’t the worst either. And I feel like im a baby because this shit is so stupid. But i love you so much and you are my best friend. I love you 🖤

[@JustCallMeAng94]

I know this is old, but you’re not alone. This was so hard to watch, partly because I hate seeing anyone feel like this and partly because I also go through this quite frequently. Stay strong. We may only be viewers, but people care and we are here. The world would suck a lot more if you weren’t here. 🖤

[@TRXST.ISSUES]

Hey dude, you’re still young. At 30, what I’ve learned over the years is that I am not my depression. It’s a symptom, not an identity. Try to talk to yourself like you’d talk to a friend. You wouldn’t say the negative things you say to yourself to a friend… so don’t say it to yourself. But don’t judge yourself either if you do. Learn self compassion. It takes daily practice. Have compassion and love for yourself man, you deserve it. You’ll get through this. What happened in the past couldn’t have happened any other way because… it didn’t. That’s life and fate. Can’t change it, so don’t suffer for what’s already done. You don’t have to know yourself. We grow as we age. Sometimes the dreams of a 16 year old boy aren’t appropriate for a 25 year old man. Don’t judge it. Just move forward in your new reality. It’s ok to leave the past behind so you can move on to a better future.

[@emmaleigh4247]

I’m so thankful for you. I’ve watched you since the beginning and I’ve looked up to you. Take the break you need, and make sure you’re ok first. Last time you had a break and deleted everything I worried about you so much. You were in my thought everyday, but I’m glad you came back when you were ready and felt ok enough to do what you love. Stay happy, not crappy. Life’s a bitch. Don’t quit ❤️

[@LuvvBugg.]

knowing how deeply i relate to the things expressed in this video scares me, im not even legally an adult yet and im scared im gonna feel this way until i eventually do 'it' or for the rest of my miserable life. johnnie youre a beautiful soul, you deserve the world and more and you will always have support ready and available - even if it's through a screen. you seem much happier these days but i know you still struggle, each day you stay is an accomplishment and we cant ask anything more as long as you feel your good days beginning to outway the bad ❤

[@jaef764]

Johnnie no matter what you'll always have people who love you some of them you haven't even met. Your strong and handsome and such a amazing person you have a beautiful voice great at music. As Andy Biersack once said we all fall down sometimes and thats okay. Just always know we support you through every step. I love you and I hope things get better

[@BritishOxygenWaster]

If i could do anything to anyone i would give Johnnie a massive hug. This guy deserves the world and i often come back to this video to remember i’m not alone in this world. Johnnie is the most down to earth guy on this planet and i sometimes feel most comfortable in the company of his videos. I love you so much Johnnie.

[@Hope-x4x]

this video is 2 years old but im happy your still with us johnnie im proud of you for pushing through it

[@Summer617]

Commenting this late makes me feel like a new fan but really it’s just because this is my comfort video. Knowing that someone relates to me when it seems as if no one else in my life does makes me feel better about myself so thank you

[@acethedinos]

It's going to be okay.

[@LillyEaton555]

It’s been 2 years since this happend and I am so proud of how far you have come❤

[@Lich0775]

I’ve been struggling so much with myself and feeling suicidal too for some years now.I get you. Life may not get easier but it’s really up to us on how we’re gonna grapple it,please hang in there.Keeping yourself alive even when you really don’t want to be here shows you how incredibly strong you really are.Bless you,you got this!You have many fans who love you and care for you!🖤