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[@a.morujo6073]

this video is actually very encouraging because i tend to procrastinate journaling a lot out of pure perfectionism, so seeing someone actually make mistakes or not figure things out immediately on the first try, and still end up with a book that looks really nice (AND enjoy the experience instead of being riddled with anxiety) is very comforting

[@hv97]

nicely said!

[@frankcoleman4652]

33:07 please don’t edit your videos down to a shorter length. I think all of us here appreciate you as you are and whatever you are able to give us. Just read the comments to know how valued you are

[@MirandaPurpleClouds]

Yes Yes Yes!

[@bonniegirlster]

This!

[@honey_nettle_moon]

True!!

[@lulur2897]

We need to create a journalling club for chronically ill people and neurodivergent folk :) I feel you for the health issues (i was in this state a year ago) and i hope you get soon a better understanding of whats going on and find things that helps

[@glyph-dove]

As much as I love the attic archives, there's something especially nice about the uninterrupted / focused format of a journal with me. Happy to hear you are planning to make more in the future! 💟

[@Mayasum2]

Hi Megan, Would you consider making dividers for filofax such as month, weeks, commonplace, health, and notes? I also think some gloomy bookmarks would be cute. I love your illustrations and feel it would be a great addition to the printables you offer. ❤️

[@katieannwicked]

I have M.E. or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and I can soo relate to the just constant tiredness, brain fog, and it just doesn't stop, it really sucks, along with a horrible immune system too. I'm sorry your going through this, just know your not alone. ❤

[@wplants9793]

Same here 💕 it’s frustrating but it’s real and we’re not alone

[@AshleyRebecca]

Well this was absolutely lovely! I appreciate the weekly videos. I enjoyed journaling while you journaled 🤍✨ and I love the length! Definitely not shorter. Longer is better ☺️

[@katem2458]

I'm definitely in the rewatch camp. I'm going on a trip next week and used this video to prep my travel journal. It's going to take a couple watches though haha

[@Elvorith]

LOL same :D

[@tungstensmum1491]

I love a real time Journal With Me video 😊

[@usertams]

this was lovely :’) i love how long it is, and i think others can attest to that! i love anything about notebooks and thid is wonderful. i appreciate it that way, hearing your thoughts and your process. sending you lots of love, megan! hope your doctor’s appointment would go well.

[@singingsanja167]

I love your videos so much! Please don't make them shorter, and please don't talk less. I am not autistic, but I have been through a rought time emotionally recently, and your vidoes were such a comfort. I am looking forward to Saturdays for each new one, whatever they are. 🥰Also, your taste in music is top notch. 🤟😎 And having a second Nirvana-album just in case is never wrong. 👍😂

[@mosaic2476]

this week has been super chaotic, so i'm really excited to watch this tomorrow during my journaling/afternoon tea ritual ^-^ good night everyone! i hope you all have a lovely whatever time of day it is for you

[@AMiniki]

I actually enjoy very much this kind of videos. And tbh, most of the time I am working when you upload so I have you making me company while I try to survive another day on the corporate world while being neurospicy. So, I am not opposed at all to videos like this at all. You know? I have been feeling exhausted too, I feel like in my case is because I don’t do well during spring and summer, I actually get physically ill during this season, heat is just not agreeable with me. I guess it is my own brand of seasonal depression 😅 I hope it all goes well on your medical appointment, hopefully you get a diagnosis and a solution. I sent you the warmest of hugs and the best vibes.

[@trashcanraccoon]

I think it's really nice to have these longer videos to like body double to and just listen to all the things you want to talk about. It's very nice and calming :)

[@easilydistractedbystickers]

Love the format. I don't mind the long video!

[@themelonpatch_]

I absolutely loved this video. I love long/unedited types of content. I listened like a little podcast and journaled along with you. I know you have been struggling but I don't find it annoying to hear you talk about your life troubles. I find it very comforting. As an autistic person who is also struggling quite a bit it feels good to know I am not alone. These longer talking videos are like little chats/hangouts and it is nice. I hope your doctors appointment goes well. - Juni

[@contrapasso]

I’m so sorry you’re struggling with the intense sleepiness. I hope you get answers soon. This week, I found out I have lupus. I thought it was my bipolar making me so tired for the last 5 years but no, I have an autoimmune disorder. It’s rough out here with chronic illness lol. Here’s hoping your doctor will be a lot of help ❤️‍🩹

[@jennywren8614]

Absolutely love this video ❤ I love planning vids with voiceovers (rather than music), just find it really comforting to plan along with you! As someone who naps a lot and needs a lot of sleep, I hope you can get the rest you need. Good luck with your doctor's appt! 😊

[@levinia333]

I love this style of video honestly

[@graymartin2594]

this was so nice to work along to- I'm loving the longer videos, hoping to see more of this as it seems to helpful to you too

[@padmapanique]

I really enjoyed this longer video. Always enjoy your narration. Looking forward to more of these

[@byshanbae]

you have described my narcolepsy down to the fine details. it is horrible when i have things to do and then my brain throw insomnia on top of that. you can’t force anything when the sleep attacks come on.

[@blenthusiasts]

this is my new favorite comfort video when i need company while i sketch, commonplace, or read be like someone is with me while im doing it :) hope you make more in the future! i also have been having trouble sleeping since my early 20s that i have to keep track of my sleep as well but its weird like i would sleep for 9 hours for a week then the next week would be 2-3 or none at all it hopes and skips but i also cant nap cause then i wont sleep its very weird...hope we both get it fixed soon!

[@T_N4ever]

This was super nice to journal with. I loved the realness of your talking and just how soothing your voice is. I will definitely be doing your ep. 2 tomorrow. I've just joined, so I was very confused about all the talking of your book or whatnot, but either way, I really enjoyed the video. Thanks :)

[@bowenchanel]

i love this video! the length is perfect - love the unedited nature of it! sending light ✨

[@luciferedpotatoes9261]

I often put on attic archives while I journal, so this was a welcome change of pace! I'm glad you're making choices that work with how you're feeling right now instead of trying to work against the fatigue. Thank you as always for sharing ❤

[@Shogun-c87]

You sound much better this week. Glad to hear it. What you described about your experience with doctor's sounds very similar to the experience in America. That you have to pre-emptively build your own case for why you should be believed in the first place rings so eerily close. I hate that you have to do that, but it is also clear you've been there before and are thus preparing appropriately. Take care Megan!

[@aliciarolsma7532]

I really like this journal with me style.

[@amor_note]

Best of luck to finding out your ailments. I have had a really traumatic medical history as well over the passed 5 years. I understand what you mean with medical gaslighting - and I was told I had anxiety, and I ended up being diagnosed with MS. I know what it’s like to have profound fatigue. Just thinking can be very difficult at times - let alone doing anything physical. I hope you feel better asap! You will come out of this ❤️

[@samanthalissette_]

I love all your chats Megan!! We all appreciate how honest and open you are with us. Your consistency is inspiring. You videos make me feel like I am your friend and always here to listen. xx

[@Abi.Cadaver]

This was so relaxing and I, for one, love the longer videos you do.

[@BrittanyBWrites]

Longer is better and i really like seeing your journaling process, its really nice and soothing :)

[@TolstojsNiece]

I really like that you included how long it takes you to cut a thing!! I very much enjoyed just planning alongside you.

[@jamie5092]

you and your creations are valued and appreciated!! i love long videos and rambles/lots of talking

[@endeavors435]

I love that your videos are long and calm❤

[@gmc.1032]

i really enjoy the vibes of your videos. They're easy to watch and have on in the background while I am getting work or chores done.

[@actualfkingvoid]

I really like this new series Megan! 🤗 I already put your videos in the background as I journal so having a dedicated series to it is definitely a pleasant surprise.

[@merpat]

I really enjoyed this one as i was able to body double with you and actually managed to journal for the first time (i have severe 80hd) but whichever is least effort for you we appreciate

[@Irrlichtwinter]

I like listening to your long and unedited videos. It is really calming to listen to you, and to hear from someone who has similar life issues I am having (I feel you on the fatigue, I have had days where I was physically too tired to sit upright in a chair...). I love crocheting while playing your journal videos in the background.

[@A.M.84996]

I mostly watch your videos for your voice so I enjoy the videos being longer. I also like being able to actually see what you are doing.

[@bujomurphy]

something that might help you out is looking into the seven (/different) types of rest, sometimes there's more to exhaustion than sleepiness. not saying it will fix your drowsiness! I've just noticed you talked about needing rest but needing to do routine things as well, so maybe finding some restful not-nap activities might help with those kinds of days. I personally learned that mental and emotional rest was the main factor in my chronic exhaustion/burnout.

[@home.sick27]

I bought your printables to start journalling (cuz bujoing from scratch hasn't been working for a few years, so i've had artjournal and a very basic diy planner which had no decoration at all just todolists.. but i tend to only hyperfocus on one of them at a time so i'm hoping this will help) so i'm journalling along with the video on sensory nice thick creamcolored paper. Very cozy! I'm in the middle of planning a move even though I'm also still in the middle of an autistic burnout (so I relate a lot to the drowsiness you're talking about, even if it's not quite the same I'm also struggling on staying consistent in routines I really want to keep, partially due to energylevels but also due to brainfog)

[@KetchupCanvas]

Oh my gosh, Plastic Beach is such a good Gorillaz album! They are my favorite group ever 😊😊 Nevermind is good too! ❤ I enjoy your long form chatty videos! It's nice to sit and journal with someone like we're two friends talking together 😊

[@zxmbiemermaid]

This was a really lovely video

[@My.Curiosities]

I really liked this format, I love the long chatty videos :) they help me going off to sleep or relaxing.

[@cheezleweasel661]

tbh i really like the length in your videos, i like the usual 30-40 min ones as there's a nice ritual to it and this week's was nice !! i hope your doctors appointment goes well + i loveee your new ghost girl hair it's such a serve, i recently re-dyed my hair in a half and half way that looks kind of similar lol

[@anjichurch4406]

I am a retired midwife, as far as being patronized by providers that is an understatement. I used to tell the women who I served in birth, that they have to see their providers as their employees. You are paying your doctor as in you are the boss. And yes you’re right you are living in your body. They are not and what they know they know because of books and experience, but those books in those experiences may not have anything to do with the kind of body. You are living in and the experiences you are having. It’s a part of the whole medical system. They are patronizing because they are patronized and it goes on and on, but just remember you are paying them you are hiring them to give you help. And as far as what you’re experiencing physically I can’t help but hope that it’s just a part of a phase and that it will go away. There’s so much stress in this world right now and we don’t really understand the long-term effects of stress not feeling good only adds to stress. I wish you brighter more week days.

[@Quinkerbell_3604]

This was so soothing. Thank you for sharing your process.

[@heatherk255]

Loved the video, Megan ! Thanks for answering my question

[@katherinewatanabe]

I love your longer videos a lot 🤍 Also your voice is like a comfort sound for me and I like the voice overs. ☺

[@LauravanBarneveld63]

I loved this video! Had it on while I was journaling and I love just the chill vibes, and your talking about things that are going on for you. I'm autistic as well and recognize so much of your struggles. Thanks for sharing and for the lovely videos. I personally prefer longer videos just like this. Hope you can get some answers about your health soon!

[@becauseidontknow4134]

Watching this while feeling anxious and needing something to comfort me. I love this style of video where I can just listen to and try to relax.

[@sar.planss]

I love the longer videos! I listen/watch as I plan. You're video and voice are so relaxing and calming :)

[@candywrap4974]

this was very nice to watch, body doubling is soo useful, i actually got my journal pages for next week prepped for once haha

[@mayakashisagan4025]

I loved the video in this format, it's great to watch it while I do my own planning and organizing

[@gelenamurena]

I love to watch how you fill your journal ❤ so calming and beautiful

[@rowanwax]

Loved the length! ❤

[@MarmiJournals]

Loved loved loved this video, so comforting and nice to journal with you and just listen to you talk! Thank youu for this:) Would love to see your filofax setup and how you go about printing and making your own refills!

[@CrimsonKas]

Loved watching you journal in real time. I hope you get answers soon on the sleepiness issues. I imagine they’ll first check for thyroid issues and vitamin deficiencies, but if those come out negative, definitely advocate to get a referral to a sleep doctor. Many times doctors will brush off sleepiness as depression. Anyway, this was such a lovely video and I’ll probably replay it later when I sit down to do my own journaling. Take care! I’m off to take a nap.

[@RobinPalmerTV]

FWIW hay fever szn is so energy sapping for lots of reasons. The tiredness and/or fatigue is can bring is grossly underrated!

[@ladyindigo9835]

❤I loved this video! The length was great it was very informative and I loved the flip through! The inserts are amazing!!

[@rainbowXpersonality]

The longer video was lovely!

[@septemtriofilia]

Thank you so much I'm in the same place about tiredness I'm so tired and empty of any energy. My medication is so heavy my body is struggling and my mental health is not helping Happily watching and listening to you is very heart-warming I'm ADHD dyscalculia girl and I find myself in you Greetings from France 💙🤍❤

[@septemtriofilia]

P.S: I really love long videos !🥰

[@renarenaldi2316]

I love your long form, unedited talking content! Please do more of it when you feel like ❤

[@orpheousreads]

the length of this video is great, i listened to it while drawing, thank you

[@mlleariane6667]

I love hearing you talk it's so relaxing !

[@MichelleTingz]

My energy levels have been lower than ever these past few weeks and I’ve been sleeping from like 7:30pm through the next morning and getting to work late. It’s been very strange for me and I don’t know the trigger, but I relate heavily to your not feeling well and things being weird

[@gwenmph]

Love the start to this series ❤ Do you think maybe you have a sleep disorder? I ask because I have sleep apnea and before I was diagnosed I was always so tired. An incredible amount of tired, like you described. And I would fall asleep sitting up having conversations. No matter how much extra rest I would get it was never enough. Because my sleep wasn’t sleep, I was constantly waking up just slightly because I couldn’t breathe but I didn’t know I was waking up or not breathing. I just thought I was tired.

[@vanillacreatesxx]

and i can totally relate with feeing lethargic and tired all the time. i sleep alot too. with so many naps in the day. my energy and motivation gets so drained at times that i just stay in bed all day. and since i live in a brown asian household, my family nags alot about it. 😢

[@ElleAstraea]

Real time plan with me/journal with me are my favourite

[@kseniav586]

Ugh I think all women can relate to doctors being condescending idiots. I feel you. Having anxiety and needing to work up the courage for them to take you seriously is so draining. I hope that sleep diary works :))

[@scenemime]

this was wonderful and i'm a big fan of the long videos

[@MegaTyles]

I love your long videos. Really hope you feel better soon ❤️

[@itsnemnem]

Advocating for yourself medically 👏🏻 I had my doc appointment yesterday. It’s so draining to talk to them.

[@Aqua_Metztli_Janus]

Loved the video. Thank you so much for sharing! ❤

[@ChantelleArts]

Trying to get a doctors appointment in the uk is something else right now 😣 I hope you are able to get some answers soon ❤

[@notablyemily]

I enjoyed this journal with me!! If you’re looking for more royalty free music, I’ve used Chillhop FM songs in my journal with me videos, they have SO many songs to choose from 😊

[@MirandaPurpleClouds]

I suck at napping. I want to be able to actually take 10-20 min of sleep and then waking up feeling better, but instead i have to go through a full sleep cycle or I'll feel even worse than when i started. I do love sleeping and falling asleep is easy, but i dont get recovered from it if that makes sense. I also dream so much and real at night, that it feels like another half day have passed instead of actually resting.

[@mosaic2476]

absolutely love this and the body doubling vibes of it :^) it was so nice having your company and listening to you chat while i wrote in my journal also have you heard much about the fold/parasympathetic stress response? for some, what you're experiencing can be to do with trauma being held in the body

[@laurenregan3251]

I love the long videos😊 I prefer the parts in your videos that are centered around your book and not so much the hauls or walking aroumd town 🤗 Hope you get some good sleeps ❤

[@qeuhhkjsmfdfg]

loved this so much! hope you make more of these :D

[@katievictoria4450]

Sounds like a thyroid issue. If shaking then overactive, if sleepy then underactive. Worth a check.

[@bonumonu5534]

Wednesday is adorable! I prefer long video format

[@jungroe]

It was perfect. I could journal while following along with the video.

[@LifeofaBigTeddyBear]

Hello! Please do whatever is best for YOU! Any format will work for me personally, love all of your videos🥰

[@SecondStar_Red]

loved the video! I do prefer the longer videos, so this was very nice

[@irhonda31]

I liked your long video with voiceover. You might like this book; it’s fascinating: Why We Sleep by Matthew Walker.

[@19blueant76]

Loved the video. I hope you are feeling a lot better soon.

[@sambbbb]

Love your longer videos :)

[@mosaic2476]

for anyone with chronic health issues, how do you remember what symptoms or how much you're sleeping when it comes time to track? like i did a sleep study a few years ago, and i was recorded as waking up hourly through the night, but i had no idea that i was.

[@all-for-one--]

I would love to be able to read the book reviews you make

[@senoritachapman]

I'm all for longer videos!

[@alessandraale1950]

This was lovely! Very interested in the zine! Have you tought about some kind of tarot reading spread? 🥰

[@RegularHuman]

Feel well soon! maybe request your doctor to check for: Mononucleosis (blood test) or B12 deficiency (blood test)

[@ThePixiixiq]

This was lovely ^^ Your cutting mat, what size and brand is it? I've been searching for one smaller than A4 and I can only find cricut ones - no good for hand cutting 😅

[@natasharedmane]

"Make a tracking diary and bring to your gp, they love it /s" No but fr lmao My entire medical experience is doctors getting pissed at me for being observant and curious about my problems. Save for one literal doctor, they all treated me like shit for bringing notes and trackers about my problems lmaooo I had a psychologist that called me a "difficult patient" to my face(!) because I brought notes on my mental health history and asked questions about his approach to therapy. I hope you can figure out soon what's going on! Fatigue and brain fog really sucks. Wish you the best!

[@ohdannie]

absolutely love these long book videos and this is one i'll rewatch for sure!! i was wondering if you or anyone else have recommendations for filofax covers? i think im ready to make the jump but maybe not to the tune of $130 or an etsy dropshipper.

[@juliaa6373]

i do love to hear your voice!

[@a2xjfamily]

Really hope this gets a reply 😅 how do you print images that you glue on your inserts ? What printer do you use too…also love your channel so much ❤❤❤

[@runningdowncorridors]

I was wondering what printer/paper/ink you use to print things for your journal? Your pictures always look really nice in videos and you don't seem to have the same issue I have sometimes with printed dark photos and the black rubbing off. Just curious. And I love this style of video it's relaxing and made me want to journal when I've really been struggling with the energy to actually journal even though I want to.