Joyner Lucas - I'm Sorry - [phone] (Caution - Suicidal Content)

This brings heavy content to a whole new level. If you're struggling with self-harm, there is help available. Find the courage to be willing to reach out for help. I struggled with releasing this reaction, but fell that this is incredibly important. You are LOVED.

[@AwesomeDude-zf8bz]

Joyner is a great story teller. "Ross Cappichioni" is a great example. p.s. The guy on the couch and crying over the casket is Joyner

[@SmuggledKitten]

Ross cappichioni is a great request and is based on a true story highly recommend

[@skylarhenderson5258]

I was coming to recommend that song, story telling is joyners biggest strength and I feel like that song and this one show it perfectly.

[@justajaguar4004]

It’s not for the soft hearted though

[@Chefbwest]

Facts same here. 🔥

[@cjones5396]

U have to play this I'm a new viewer u need to play this it's a true story please

[@thereseball]

This was my intro to Joyner. He is a brilliant artist (especially his older stuff like this song and "I'm Not Racist" ... a MUST see). I also lost my Dad to suicide.

[@eddyqiu8883]

YES

[@trevor3575]

I’m not sure if our boy Larry can handle I’m not racist😂😬

[@LuisFlores-iv3ip]

Devil’s work is also a good one

[@artsysabs]

@@trevor3575 better reason for him to react to it

[@nabeyta]

Would love to see a reaction video for I’m not a racist.

[@forestcondon]

My father took his own life by a firearm, my brother by drugs. I have struggled with my mental health and suicidal thoughts my entire life. Lots of doctors and medications help but some days are better than others. This song brought me to tears when I first heard it when it came out and hearing it with your reaction brought me to tears again. Thank you for doing this one.

[@Emach76]

❤

[@larryshair]

Wow, I'm so very sorry, Forest. I really can't even begin to imagine. Your life is so incredibly important. Self harm is such the wrong direction to set your sail. You are loved by too many people to consider that as an option, I hope you KNOW that.

[@rebt6096]

I’m thrilled you are on that road of discovery. What works, what doesn’t. Keep at it. You are worth it. Fight the good fight 👍🏻

[@eljay1980]

❤

[@PopNerdStudio]

❤

[@bryceefraimson8177]

i listen to this song when i'm having a bad mental day to remind myself i would be missed. the second verse is so good

[@larryshair]

Bryce, never believe those thoughts in your mind that you would not be missed. You, brother, are loved.

[@STAFFisDEAD]

The other person that is reading the note is Joyner Lucas; this is one of the most hard hitting songs that Joyner has done regarding mental health. On a brighter note; I’m loving your reactions, keep up the good work 🤙🏼

[@larryshair]

Thanks Jack!

[@Whooooooops]

Joyner is an incredible storyteller. I'd recommend Devil's Work, Ross Capicchioni and I'm Not Racist.

[@iRocksteady]

Couldn't agree more. But don't forget to add "Frozen" to that list.

[@zayr]

all of this, please react to all of this and "frozen"

[@Wickit96]

Completely agree on all three of those, legendary storytelling songs

[@mthead89]

Ross Capicchioni… I came here to say this. SO good and entirely based on a true story. Also, if you listen to Devil’s Work then you have to listen to Bizzle’s (Christian rapper) reply!

[@kylelackey1782]

Hopsin- ill mind of hopsin 7

[@timothyomalley9202]

My older brother died 4 years ago on his 37th bday and there was many, many days i thought of doing this to get rid of the pain. But what stopped me is KNOWING MY OLDER BRO WOULDNT WANT THAT, So instead i chose to live for him. wish i believed in GOD but cant believe in someone who took my best friend in world, but it gets little easier if you use it as fuel. R.I.P. JOHNNY miss ya every second evry day

[@larryshair]

I can't imagine. I think that sometimes when God allows this to happen, it can give you the experience and opportunity to reach out to others that have that same struggle. Empathy is something that can't be faked. There are many out there that need your experience and proverbial shoulder to cry on. This is something that can help both people lift each out out of this pit. Here's the catch... It takes the strength of 50 men to find that courage to step up and do it. In turn, you find new strength. I know it's hard to understand, but God truly loves you. It's very hard to see it sometimes when you have this kind of profound loss. I'm so very sorry to hear about Johnny. I'm sorry seems to be too little of a respnce to offer, but I'm grappling with finding those words that will always escape me. Praying for you, my friend.

[@tuckyoufyler9235]

Im glad you decided to release this. This song saved me a couple years back now and I’ve been in another rough patch and saw this pop up. Thank you

[@larryshair]

Thank you so much. I really tossed this one around really struggling on if it was right to release. Reading comments like yours really makes me feel better about it. I'm so sorry to hear about your struggles. You are loved, my friend. You are so very worth being with us. You might need the strength of 50 men to ask for help, but I know you have that strength. Blessings to you my friend. Praying for you.

[@0nyce6]

this song also hits me on a personal level. I relate to the first verse but the second one I understand and that's why I'm still here. one of my attempts I got a call during the act and was told I was about to be a father. After that I joined the army and I continue to live mostly for others(I'm working on that). I'm sad to say I still have those thoughts and have started attempts since then but every time I think about people I might hurt in doing so. This song captured everything like he was reading my mind

[@Poeticjustice4ell]

Watching this video all my pain came back to me and I’m sitting here bawling my eyes out rn 😭

[@larryshair]

Yes, this was a rough one for sure...

[@poeticsycosis2713]

No one wants to die they just want the pain to stop. But the pain won't stop, it just gets transferred to your loved ones. It's about finding positive ways to feel negative emotions. Write, draw, exercise, garden, etc. Love to you all! 1 step and 1 breath at a time.

[@doccops]

This

[@jayvon6333]

Joyner is one of the most under rated artists out there.

[@Beckaboo3397]

“If anyone can hear you God can hear you” so very very true. I was thinking the same before you said it. 🙏🏼 Walk with the Lord, his opinion is the only one that matters. Let him guide you, help you and love you, you’re never alone. If you reading this and think nobody cares God does and I do. 💛✨✨

[@rebt6096]

Thank you for sharing this. You said it, I believe it! Not just that, I have proof, and it is myself. God is with me every step of every day. He is my guide to each person He has placed, and will place, in my path. He knows me. He knows His reason for me to still be here. By His grace He will hold me in the darkness and pull me back to His light every time. We journey together and I’m grateful. He’s a big enough God for every suffering person to grasp onto. And! He desires to be my hope, and your hope. Be a blessing and be blessed.

[@larryshair]

Love this. Totally agree. Jesus is everything in my life.

[@Beckaboo3397]

Amen guys! 🙏🏼

[@silvsevie]

I think this song makes us think about how much hurt a decision like this brings, and helps us find a way to get help and continue living.

[@todayicelebrateme]

Depression is a real struggle! The pain is so great!!! Speaking from experience, just hold on another second, minute,hour or day. Seek counseling remember when you walk it again, you are not alone.. God Bless

[@mikeymiiiike9880]

As crazy as this song is…it seriously helped me not take my own life at the darkest moment of my life. Hang in there guys. I promise it get better.

[@trevorsorensen9562]

Joyner Lucas is the most talented man in the rap industry today. He's a true artist. He's never been a banger. He is a smart man. He is a humble being. He is a poet. He is a story telling genius

[@T.T.Top.This1]

This was one of the songs that helped me when I was in a deep pit back in highschool.

[@larryshair]

So glad this music is there to help people relate and understand they aren't alone.

[@T.T.Top.This1]

@@larryshair I didn’t expect a reply, but your reply definitely made my day 10 times better! Keep doing your stuff and thanks for your wisdom!

[@theamazingcj2748]

There's so much symbolism in all of this. Even the track cover. The one black rose in the middle of the red ones. Roses are beautiful and generally give a happy feeling, but that black rose takes that away. Just like in a group of happy people, that black rose, the one who doesn't get help and decides to commit suicide, makes it a sad picture. Joyner puts everything into these and they come out as works of art.

[@domoniccasey]

This was the first song of Joyner’s I’d heard about 5 years ago. At a time where I also lost myself. I cried so much the first time I heard it because I could relate too much. I’m in a better place now - life’s still hard and I still have tough times, but I’m in such a better place now. Thank you for this reaction. I hope everyone finds their happy place. You can do it.

[@teenietiff19]

Some people don’t want to die. They just don’t want to be alive anymore. And I’ve been there and it’s a scary place to be. But realizing you want to live, doesn’t make life better, but it’s great feeling.

[@joshnorton9691]

Respect brother, I lost my cousin hung himself in my aunts basement, nothing takes that pain away, how it could be with him here now.. Thank you for posting this, it's a reminder of the pain and memories that are everlasting.. Joyner is an amazing artist and I recommend continuing down the Joyner road of reactions.

[@larryshair]

I'm so sorry, Josh. I can't even begin to imagine that pain you must feel. It must be such a prison for someone to come to the point in their minds that this is the only way out. I'm so very sorry, brother.

[@Tony_Yo]

Words With Friends And Backwords Are 2 Of Joyners Oldest KZbin Videos And Theyre The First Ones I Heard. Both Of Those Really Show His Lyrical Capabilities. His Versatility Is Why He’s Considered One Of The Goats.

[@dannycrook598]

I’m glad you chose to release this reaction. Thank you.

[@gaberb]

Please more Joyner Lucas. One of the best story tellers in the game.

[@adamdemars8729]

Honestly this song helped me out a lot. I've had many moments where I've wanted to just end it but I couldn't leave my niece and nephew. They have no one and I have to be strong for them. This song always puts that in perspective for me

[@itsame1139]

As someone who suffers from major depression I can tell you, people do not end their life for attention. People that suffer from depression don't want to die. I've been battling suicidal thoughts off/on for over 6 years. My kids are the only reason I'm still here. Depression is a brutal adversary...sometimes it wins.

[@rebt6096]

I agree, we do not want to die. It is that brutal adversary that lies to us. Back at my beginning battle I did think “how do I get someone’s attention? I need help with this. I don’t understand.” I have the utmost gratitude for those who did help me, who paid attention and still do. My fighting voice was from God who helped me see that first social worker. So I pay attention as much as I can here, paying it forward. Soji Truth, my gratitude is to you too. Sharing to help someone, shedding light. Six years, and children! Keep winning, you have, you can, and I believe you will. Peace to you.

[@215obnoxus]

if youre reading this, i love you, hang in there !

[@larryshair]

Thanks King! Love you too, bud!

[@Oatmilllk]

People who have never experienced these dark feelings are frightened by sharing things like this because they think it could be an influence. I promise these songs, notes, artworks etc help so many people get through the hardest times in their life.

[@johnwinning5724]

Joyner is amazing story teller and in general with his lyrics he’s one of a kind. And for my two cents literally a very humble human being for someone at his level of fame and money. He was in my town and a club was promoting him since he’ll be there. I painted a canvas of him and came to the club, the owner loved it and brought it all out with his bottle service in the middle of the club and he immediately asked if the artist was there and had his camp come get me and have me in his section with him. Man made my day and expressed how much my art made his trip worth it

[@chasingcloudsandflavorrevi9817]

I heard this song for the first time with you and I'm glad I did. These situations are tough and we have or know people who have been through this. I was close to death in my drug addiction and I'm glad I survived it. My daughter is 3 and I am going on 7 years sober and I can't believe I almost missed this beautiful opportunity to be a father to such a special little girl. It's not worth the cost and you will go when it's your time and until then focus on you and what makes you and your family happy because there is nothing more important. Thank you for this reaction.

[@rebt6096]

Thank you for sharing your story, blessings.

[@larryshair]

So glad you made it to being a good dad. Blessings to you my friend.

[@jaiedormi]

Joyner lucas - like a river. Youre emotion is so similiar to mine kind sir. I shed tears watching these too. Much love! Keep your chin up everyone!

[@FUJOE-2023]

I’m a disabled veteran. This song has saved me a few times. It’s my go to in certain times. So powerful. Please react to Keep it 100 too.

[@morganwalls7581]

My lil sis showed me this song and my life would end with hers this reaction makes me want to show all the love I have for her but there's no words that can match these feelings he puts in the world with his music it's beautiful

[@jisatsu_exe9329]

I've had depression my entire life, in one of my deepest lowest points. I was ready to end it all, my youngest sister told me to listen to this song. I did and I'm still here 2yrs after being at my lowest. Not 100% but I'm striving every day.

[@that_averagetyp]

Glad you still here. I totally understand you my friend, my first suicide thought over 13 years ago and it's still hounting me. I don't even know how I made it through all those years but I hope it'll change one day. Stay strong bro!

[@krischaddock3611]

I'm glad you did Release this ive been struggling bad today with depression I been fighting that Demon for years now I've gotten so close to the idea Especially tonight This reaction helped me a lot at least for now thank you

[@larryshair]

Kris, I'm so sorry that you are dealing with these thoughts and feelings. You are worth so much more than you might give yourself credit for. I would BET you that others that are dealing with this same issue would love to talk with you. There is no replacement for a path paved with empathy. It has a wild ability to lift both persons out of that pit. I understand that asking for help seems like it takes the strength of 100 men, but you can do this. Too many people love you. Praying for you, brother. Show this world how strong Kris Chaddock is... Love you man.

[@ronniecronniec2615]

Love the way you talked about it by the way. Can have 15 mins of fame that's not really fame but leave loved ones with a lifetime of hurt. It's not worth it. People love you more than you know and don't want you gone. Rip to all that have lost their lives . You said you may not want to release this reaction but I'm glad you did. You could possibly save one of your viewers by doing so. Keep up the great work !

[@larryshair]

Sincerely, thank you for these comments. I truly struggled with releasing this one. I didn't know if the content would be something that would be the right thing to release. It's such a sensitive topic and so very graphic. I have read so many stories tonight that have literally brought me to tears (no surprise there, right? lol). I was very scared this would backfire. There would be no greater honor to know that this helped even one person. It would make all these reactions so very worth it. Thanks again. I really needed to hear this. Blessing brother!

[@nolandriedger2658]

Thank you so much for these I lost my job 2 days ago my life is in shambles and sitting here getting through my own emotions with you I appreciate you so much you have changed a life through these videos

[@larryshair]

Hey Nolan, I have lost so many jobs in the past and one thing that I have learned. It can be a real blessing. I'm curious to see what's around the corner for you. Please leave a comment and let me know how this transforms...

[@Kmswithrope.]

I loved this reaction thank you! Joyner Lucas actually saved my life with this song. As i had been suicidal for a long time and had made a couple attempts to end my life, he released this and i reached out to my friends and got the help i needed. I will forever be grateful to Joyner for saving my life.

[@larryshair]

I'm so glad you found help. Now it's your turn. Find others that need to hear your story and lift them from that pit. You've got this! Blessings to you my friend.

[@aaryonfoote905]

I gained a new perspective full of pain and anger when Alex left but at the same time I was happy he wasn’t hurting anymore, but I was so angry we couldn’t get him to that point while keeping him here

[@ebirrel]

I have gone through this and it destroyed my family. I am so glad that you posted this reaction. You made a lot of meaningful and accurate points.

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much Ethan. If this helps one person, I’d be blessed forever.

[@markperry8423]

Joyner has some deep feel songs! Happy birthday is a crazy one.

[@fallleang3l07]

This is a hard song for me, I struggle with severe depression everyday & you are absolutely right...I have to tell myself everyday "I can get through this day, I'm not going to quit." Its not easy, it sucks and it hurts. Having the right people makes all the difference in the world. I wouldnt be alive if it wasnt for my parents, my wife and my therapist. And yet even having that support there are times were that feels like its not enough. Those times....those times are when you come face to face with your inner demons and you have to have the strength to reach out for help because if you dont they will swallow you whole. Another song that promotes suicide prevention and awareness is Logics' 1-800, beautiful song but hard to get through.

[@pjsin9472]

Joyner is amazing. Love his colab with Em

[@arwenblade8113]

I lost my uncle to suicide. That’s been 30 years of my life that I still miss him. But for the grace of God, who’s given me peace that passes all understanding. Great reaction.

[@larryshair]

You and I both know where that Peace that surpasses all understanding comes from. Keep your eyes set on Him, my friend. Blessings to you.

[@SCUMMY4205]

I found Joyner about 6 years ago now. I was recommended his video and was amazed at his talent. He wasnt putting a ton of music out back then, but when he did it was great. He's only gotten better, and he's came a long way, super happy to see him succeed while also spreading messages.

[@crivyeller9845]

Joyner Lucas has another emotional rap video you should check out based off a true story “Ross Capicchioni.” There’s also an interview of Ross in a separate video “Skateboarder’s Unbelievable Survival Story | Ross Capicchioni” for additional perspective. In my opinion, the interview pairs really well after watching the song.

[@onlythebestt632]

lost one of my bestfriends last night and tbh im so blown away by it. hit my like a wave i didn't even know we was fighting demons and that breaks my heart so much.. 24 is way to young

[@larryshair]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss.

[@elainevigil6128]

Thank you for deciding to share your reaction. I think it is an important message that unfortunately has to be shared with folks so that they know there is HOPE, they need to take it one day at a time and not be afraid to talk to someone, ANYONE, about how and what they are feeling. ❤

[@larryshair]

Thanks Elaine. I really struggled on if I should have released this, but I've read some pretty incredible stories that show me that I think I made the right choice to release this one. Thanks so very much for your kind words. Blessings my friend.

[@vendettaproduction93]

Honestly I don't see why you think you shouldn't release stuff like this or Technique's track. It's seems a bit attention seeks. Idk 🤷‍♂️ Unfortunately this real life stuff, we are all adults here.

[@Martian_T]

Loved this reaction. My rack mate ended his life on my first deployment. 9 April 2017. I’ll never forget that day. He wasn’t my best friend by any means, but God does that day still haunt me. It’s of course that survivors guilt or “what could I have done to prevent it.

[@PodtrashRadio]

Oh boy this is a pleasant surprise. Joyner Lucas I didn’t expect you to react to!!! So many great story telling tracks from Joyner. He’s amazing

[@x0xdestructionx]

My dad took his own life a month before my 16th birthday, nobody saw it coming but it turned out he had been planning this for months, if not years.. nobody ever thought/knew he was in such a bad way he literally NEVER spoke to anyone about it.. i turn 27 this year and i still haven't been able to deal with it, still struggle every single day with my own life because of it. please, speak up about the troubles you're going through, ya'll are not alone..

[@JackHarlowComboMeal]

I've known of Joyner Lucas, but never heard this song myself. It was powerful to listen to that for the first time along with you. To offer a slightly different perspective, I've (thankfully) never had to go through the pain of losing someone to suicide, but I have had to go looking for a good friend after he went AWOL with us thinking the worst. He told me that night he was thinking of doing the deed until my other friend and I found him. Look out for the people you love. Please let them know you love them, and that they matter in your life. We all need reminders of that sometimes ❤️

[@larryshair]

I'm so very sorry.

[@JackHarlowComboMeal]

@@larryshair Appreciate the sentiment! The situation could have gone horribly, but my best friend is still with us and is in a much better mind space. I count both of us as lucky 😊

[@jaalenwatson3032]

I almost lost myself in 16 to an od but God had other plans and today 6 years later I’m 21 and glad to be alive and never dreamed of the opportunities I have now at my feet. If any of you reading this are in the same spot I was it genuinely does get better I promise. The harder it gets the better the reward god will have waiting for you I swear on my life. You’re future is worth more than putting your mind at ease because your mind will come to ease you just gotta push through

[@larryshair]

Very well said, Jaalen

[@cathywilliams7636]

This is impossible to get through without crying your eyes out. It is an extremely important topic to cover as hard as it is. Much Respect 🙏

[@Daniel-dp2yc]

I try to listen to his songs once a year just to remind myself how great life is and to not take stuff for granted.

[@BrayBray3000]

I lost my homie to over dose and he was suicidal and this song really helped me look at the thing differently and I wish I had this song to show him cuz it may of helped Rest In Peace for anyone who has lost someone and much love to everyone who is going threw a struggle be strong

[@saylboat]

You wouldn’t believe how much this song right here helped pull me out of my depression

[@larryshair]

I so love that a song like this really helps others.

[@df659]

I want to thank you for releasing this reaction. I’ve battled with depression and suicidal thoughts for a very long time… after my last attempt a few years ago, I found this song and play it when ever I find myself in those situations. I remember waking up in the hospital and seeing the hurt and confusion on my brothers face… and the fact that he was angry, not with me, but with himself for not knowing how to help me or what to do… the second part of this song in some way helps just bring that memory back and reminds me that I have a reason to keep going. That I have people that do love me and that I can’t let down. Years later and this same brother is now a dad. And I can’t help but remind myself that I very nearly gave up the chance to meet my niece and love this little girl and be the best uncle I can be for her. Depression is very real… but so are the people that love and support us. We have reasons to take another breath. To keep fighting. To keep living.

[@rebt6096]

A powerhouse comment. I’m grateful you shared here. So encouraging. Every one can have this outcome, life - abundantly. It’s there folks, grasp hold and don’t let go!

[@larryshair]

Thanks for this story. I’m so happy you were able to rise above this. You’re a very strong person and a great uncle! Blessings my friend.

[@eljay1980]

This is the first I have heard this artist, and I think this is the saddest and most profound music videos and songs I have seen in a very long time, maybe ever and I definitely think it's important content for people to see. I have suffered with my mental health for over twenty years, a number of those years self harming to cope as it felt like the only thing I could control, but hiding it from those around me. I have made two attempts on my life in the past and thankfully neither successful and from those I was able to get the help I desperately needed from loved ones and professionals. In the years since then I have lost several people close to me to suicide and the pain they left behind is indescribable and made me realise how selfish my own actions had been, gave me the strength to change the things in my life which were dragging me downwards starting with getting out of a toxic marriage, seeking counselling and medication and moved forward in life. I am now with an amazing man who knows my background (he lost his abusive father to suicide), is able to tell when I start to slip and help me through those dark times, I have more light days than dark and although self harm is a harder thing to get past, since losing loved ones to suicide it has made me see that this is not the way. My family, friends and those around me keep me here... I would never want to cause them the hurt which comes with ending ones own life. This video is incredibly hard hitting and heartbreaking but it is so important for people to see how these actions affect the people left behind. It is refreshing to see mental health talked about in music from the other perspective rather than the person going through it, but rather the people left behind. I'm sorry to ramble here but this one has hit me right in the feels :'( If anyone ever needs to talk, reach out... if you feel like you have no-one, shout louder, please never feel like this is the only way. Sending love to all affected by mental health and suicide... it's ok to not be ok, but taking your own life is not the answer.

[@larryshair]

Thanks for your comments, Laura. So good to hear you're doing well.

[@eljay1980]

@@larryshair Thank you, still have down days but in a better place with coping mechanisms and know now that it's better to talk to someone when I'm like that than to take things into my own hands xxx

[@coreyrogers8700]

Joyner is an absolute artist and he's able to touch everyone. He's you're favorite rapper's, rapper.

[@ambremanifold6549]

Im glad u posted this reaction. It starts a conversation we need to have as a society all around the world

[@seankaminski7314]

Joyner's probably the best story teller out there 🤯

[@juliehillson4952]

Goodness, Chris, you are taking me on a musical journey I never anticipated. I am experiencing so much through these rap videos. It makes me realize how blessed my life has been.

[@larryshair]

Thanks Julie!

[@marinebrats696]

Joyner is an incredible artist. He keeps it real on ALL his songs. Plus, your reaction is so sincere. Keep it up.

[@omniversalll]

I lost a close friend (the first friend I've ever lost) to suicide about 9 months ago, and this song burns a thousand times worse than when I first heard it. Check up on your people, 10 minutes of your time could mean the world to them.

[@larryshair]

I'm so sorry to hear that, Andrew. Thank you for sharing as others need to hear this.

[@jax3074]

larry. I am 22, I am not a very smart or academic person (sorry for the poor literature) but watching you react to songs with sad topics is so uplifting because you always make it seem there is another alternative. I am no psychologist but your expression shows me you have been through trauma that relates to most of these reactions hense the passion you show while reacting. I hope things are better for you buddy and I am thankful for how you share sympathetic wisdom to us strangers/subscribers whilst masking pain yourself. I may be wrong in the past trauma I have never been good at reading people but with all my heart... thank you. Love from the UK

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much for your kind words, Jax. I think it’s pretty difficult to go through this world without getting a little touched by trauma here and there, but it’s all good. Thanks my friend!

[@michaeldandrea9648]

I love your raw, emotional reactions. I’m a rather emotional person myself as well as having these thoughts when I was younger. You’re 100% correct. It is NOT worth it. I’m so glad I decided against it. YOU ARE WORTH IT

[@larryshair]

That's great to hear, Michael. Seriously!

[@franwiththeredhair]

I lost my daughter's father. It will be 5 years ago on March 2. This is the first time I heard this song. I couldn't watch it before and then I saw that you did it and I clicked on it without knowing why. I still hit my knees crying but I feel like watching it with you was like watching with an extra layer of protection. Thank you.

[@Stryder-db1zw]

Great Reaction, If you like the way Joyner Lucas portrays his music then I'd recommend listening to "Devils work" and "Will"

[@markhicks2705]

My neighbor hung himself in the basement, his wife and 3 kids barged through our front door. My dad and I found him…I didn’t know how to feel. This songs makes my dad and I feel like we could’ve helped him. This is one of the realest Joyner songs. Keep reacting, being real, and enjoying life…life is precious

[@mox1t820]

Joyner is insane, love all his music. Should react to more of his stuff!

[@skullbreaking]

This song has stopped me from unaliving myself so many times because it just reminds me that I'd be hurting everyone else around me

[@masonescobar3074]

Two very important people in my life have taken this route or made this choice. I have still never really been able to answer the question of, “Why would they think that?” “Why would we be happy without them?” These questions circle my head many times, everyday being reminded of what I’ve lost. This song is a great representation of how it feels. Joyner has been one of my favorite artists for a long time, he writes from the heart, he says things that nobody really seems to deliver in their songs, nobody talks about this stuff like him. Summary; he’s a great artist, love his work, what he does, and “I’m Not Racist” is a great song by him. But the one thing I want to say is, don’t do it, there may not be a clear cut way to get through the darkness, but that doesn’t mean you can’t see light. Don’t do it.

[@redflip123456]

ROSS CAPPICHIONI- JOYNER LUCAS!!! A must reaction! Amazing story telling from 2 sides

[@AlenahRose1122]

I'm very glad you released this reaction. In a very lonely and scary world, you bring a gentle warmth and kind energy that can be seen with your reactions to these hard topics. Although I do not struggle with depression I can literally feel others pain (ever since I was a child) and I my life's mission is to help others, close the divide with love, that's my core belief. It's so refreshing and renews my faith in others to watch such genuine reactions from you. Please know that makes a difference. If you haven't already, I'm slowing watching all your reaction videos. I think Hozier- Take me to Church, you will find powerful. That song gives me chills every time I watch it.

[@AlenahRose1122]

I know you struggled deciding to release this reaction, but in my heart, allowing others to see such a genuine caring reaction will help others see there are people who care. It's no accident that this was your reaction; it was made to spread love and kindness to those who need to see it, just as you picked up about Robin Williams before he said it.

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much for this, AC

[@swellTOMproductions]

Need to do so much Joyner his older stuff is so hard hitting and factual based on real life stories or issues

[@ammr4596]

Man this song was one of the songs that really made me reconsider my suicidal thoughts. After multiple attempts and stays in the hospital, I pushed through and I’m in a much better place. If you’re struggling, reach out for help. People want to help, and you are loved 💜

[@bobbyshores]

thank you for staying with us

[@mattsena7708]

This song had such a huge impact on my life, not gonna go into a story but it came out during my relationship with was with an unfaithful and manipulative girl, insteaf of making me feel suicidal it gave me hope and inspiration for some reason. I had already been a Joyner fan for 2 years at that point

[@lukeslayer]

Phenomenally powerful artist and song. Great reaction as always, I've cried many times to this song and as a man I don't mind admitting that, I've suffered major depressive disorder for over a decade, I'm getting married next week and I love this woman to death but I'm still numb it's the worst feeling in the world I could never explain it and when I try to people say they understand but they really don't. I could have a billion dollars and still feel like this, money, nothing would change it. I've tried everything but I still hold as strong as I can everyday and will continue to do so. You looking into my eyes telling me your experiences with this and saying "I lost, I lost, I Lost!" Really hit me hard, your words were so powerful and motivating to show how all it caused is pain and heartache and I thank you for showing that it does put so much into perspective. I know noone will understand the feeling unless they've been through it but those are words that could save a life, you're a great man and I'm sorry for your losses it does make me really think about it alot. I will never forget those words, thank you ❤ Would love to see you react to Eminem - Beautiful. Much love from Australia to you and anyone reading this struggling or who have lost those who have struggled.

[@stevenhuckabay7997]

Oh man this is going to hit hard for you knowing how you are big brother. Very very deep. Hits close to home for me as a few of his does as well. Very talented young artist indeed.

[@fewen_]

I'm struggling daily with suicidal thoughts and it is hard - and it is very hard to hear this song but thank you for reacting to it and talking about this

[@arachano89]

Keep it up, there is always something worth living for.

[@BryenStarVidz]

There is so much to life. Look deep into that tunnel and you WILL SEE LIGHT. Stay strong. My father took his own life and our entire family struggles everyday with it. It will leave more damage than good. Much love! ❤️

[@rebt6096]

Put your left arm over your right side. Put your right arm over your left side. Give yourself a big hug 🤗. You are important. Then call the phone number.

[@larryshair]

Please always know that there are people out there that LOVE you. Persevere with bravery, my friend. To slay a dragon like this takes an incredible hero like you have been as you have resisted this. It's not worth succumbing to this dragon... Blessings my friend.

[@benzolover1978]

Good that you loaded it up, your words may help someone.

[@rhyanwalker94]

Rest in peace to my mate Mike. 25 years old gone too young we always loved you and always will. I’m sorry I didn’t do more I live with that guilt every day.

[@m6rcy509]

Heard this song for the first time a couple years ago when i was really battling myself mentally. Thank you so much for reviewing this song, there’s a certain comforting tone & ambience in your videos. You’re an absolute champion for taking this request (: Love you brother God bless you & the rest of the viewers!!

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much, M6rcy!

[@greglambert3721]

If you watch when the belt snaps its as he is speaking about seeing if God is real. Just another thing Joyner Lucas does really well in crafting the song, shows that in this person's time of need something or someone was watching out for him when he called out.

[@KristenDeSantis92]

Ever since I heard this song years ago I felt very connected to it with my own depression and growing up with family members suicides. Even more now with My father who committed suicide in 2020 this song really helped me deal with my emotions after his death. Joyner Lucas has so much music with a message and that’s so important

[@captainlevi1568]

Joyner is literally one of the best story tellers ever. both sides of the story told beautifully. Id look at "Im not Racist" by Joyner and see what you think on that one.

[@hightimes7106]

All I can say is the first time I saw this video I was going through feelings of worthiness and thoughts that I wasn't comfortable with, and this song helped me through it all. I now am in a better place in life and feel better about myself and feelings. It does get better, because the world is a better place with you. Everyone needs to reach out at any time and see if your peeps are good even if they seem fine. They could be hiding the pain.

[@poolhallshark]

Man, that was a heavy one. And that number of suicides is sickening. I just have to wonder HOW many could have been saved if someone would just have the guts to ask "How are you?" or just to reach out an arm to let the other person know that you see him/her. You "just" have to be strong enough to tackle an honest answer. And I think THAT is what's causing the hesitation really. Or maybe even the fear of being met by anger. You just have to be mentally strong enough to actually DO it. Just remember that your action may save someone's life. That should make it all worth while. Right ? Hmm... It's a very difficult topic, without an easy or obvious answer (though it should be). I keep experiencing my mind spinning in circles, and feel that my answers come right back at me, ready to hit me in the face. As if to say "Oh yeah? It's THAT easy? I'll show you something.." That is my full circle. The SAFE circle, where I have been so many times before in my mind. I just hope I'll be strong enough to dodge that blow and break the circle when and if I'm faced with it. I think your reaction was absolutely great, and I'm not one second in doubt if you did the right thing posting it. It helps raise awareness, which is always a good thing. Take care, Chris !

[@larryshair]

Thanks man. Sometimes, people that find themselves caught in these thoughts benefit from reaching out to others that have the same issue. Helping others and being able to relate to where they are and that you can empathize let's that person know they aren't alone, and that act of reaching out can help raise them out of that same pit. So many think they are alone and that nobody could understand where they are in their lives. That's the sad part. It can take the strength of ten elephants to reach out and say that a person needs help. It's a very dark and scary place to be left with your thoughts. I almost didn't release this reaction. I really struggled with this decision. I really appreciate your confirming that it was the right thing to do. Thanks brother!

[@artsysabs]

That's like one story I heard of an older guy... he walked out of his house with intention to commit suicide, but wouldnt do it if just one person smiled at him. He jumped off a bridge soon after. Damn 😭

[@Khunny_Funt]

Love you’re reactions. Happy birthday was my introduction to Joyner when he released it. Absolute artist

[@alecpascoe6193]

by the way you are becoming my favorite music reaction channel. Love what you do and how you react to these songs

[@larryshair]

Thanks again Alec!

[@TheRealWadfather]

Joyner Lucas has an amazing way of storytelling and making you feel the emotions he’s portraying, such a great artist! Happy birthday is another of his great creations that quite literally had me in tears at the end, definitely worth experiencing

[@WickedJ26]

I think the story of Ross Cappoconi from Joyner is one u would definitely be interested in great story, word play, and a song in general 👍 I enjoy your reactions keep it up

[@meganlynn83]

One thing I have taught my 12yo son is to not make permanent decisions off of temporary emotions. I am so grateful that although I have suffered with anxiety and depression since I was a child, I haven't ever considered hurting myself or anyone else. Please everyone... please know that there is help out there. I know it isn't always easy to ask and it can be scary. Reach out to me if need be. Seriously. 🖤 You are meant to live a full life!

[@meganlynn83]

I lost a close friend to suicide in January, 2006. He was 21 years old. Lost another close friend to suicide in February, 2021. She was 33 years old with three children. Lost my best friend in August, 2004 to a car accident. He was 16 years old. Lost another very close friend in February, 2005 to a freak car accident. He was 21 years old. Lost my first love in Jan, 2021 to multiple organ failure due to alcoholism. He was 36 years old... Lost a lifelong friend in March, 2021 to gun violence. He was 35 years old... And, lost my best friend in April, 2021 to a brain aneurysm. He was 36 years old... So much loss. So much pain. Those are only my close/best friends or my list would be far longer. Not including family or the list would be even longer. We are not promised another day. Savor every second and tell those that you love, how you feel. I'd give just about anything to be able to hear their voices, see their faces and feel the warmth of their hugs again... I miss you all, terribly. Save me a seat up there. I'll see you again someday. 💙 #ContinueRestingInPeace #NJH #RLH #CBG #JMW #PJO #ACP #MEH

[@larryshair]

First, thank you so much for writing this and secondly, I'm so sorry for your losses. Words can't express. So glad that you have this connections with your son. It's so important to keep those lines of communication open.

[@zachcurtis1283]

My first encounter with Joyner was the track he did with Eminem, Lucky You. He is a great rapper, easy rabbit hole to fall into.

[@jasontongue5685]

Welcome to Joyner. Glad you released this reaction if not only for your own reflection. If you want a real hard hitting song to react to look up “happy birthday” by Joyner Lucas. It’s a hell of a roller coaster and will pluck those heart strings. Hope to see you watch it

[@jackgreensmith377]

Joyner is an amazing artist. Some more of his music i would definitely recommend would be "im not racist" it covers the typical stereotypes that people percieve each other, sharing their views. Also, "Ross capicchioni" it is based on a true story so i dont know how easy it would be for you to react to it but its an incredible story

[@Rayvn7]

.....It literally doesn't. It literally has a black character who's personality is exactly the real personality of the real black people that caused racism against black people. And has a white character who is someone who literally doesn't even exist and who says only false "points" that zero non-racists who dislike BLM ever say because the actual problems about BLM are completely unrelated to that. People with the white character's personality do exist, but they exist in white, black, and Indian, and their target is "all homeless people" and "all teenagers who act like teenagers", with absolutely zero of it to do with anybody's race and absolutely zero has to do "stereotypical ghetto personality", although people with this personality would also complain about anyone who sells or uses drugs. The race which has the opinion of the white character most often, might be Arab; at least all Arabs I've met who don't harass me as a female, every single one of them has said the things that that white character says. Joyner Lucas should watch Tom McDonald so that he knows what the actual criticisms of BLM and ghetto people are rather then falsely pretending that it is "because they do not work in an office" or whatever.

[@someofeverything886]

Joyner is a great story teller, he also suffers wirh ADHD, and that is something that alot of us suffer from, it was even the name of his album. Please listen to joyner lucas - ADHD from the ADHD album, so relatable. Love him and love your reactions bro you bring peace to my life.

[@karinlanven3562]

Great reaction! I love to watch your reactions, they are so pure and genuine and it is very refreshing to see. Please can you react to Crypt - Bad friend. Amazing storytelling song and production!

[@iRocksteady]

Joyner Lucas is amazing, this was the first song I heard from him and I was hooked from then. "Frozen" is another hard hitting one to check out. I'm relatively new to your channel by the way and I love your reactions, got a friend in me now😊

[@larryshair]

Thanks!