June Favorites - My First Picture of My Father

June Favorites and finding my Dad. I show you the only picture I have of my birth-father. I found beautiful items that I just fell in love with..a great huge tote at Marshalls I love, a new serum to help with under-eye swelling, and I also started using a cool facial balm that refreshes my makeup on bad days. You don't have to touch your face if you use this in the middle of the day. You can roll it on and let it dry. I show you how I color my hair with highlights and low lights at home on a budget.
I also have a heart to heart about finding my Father that I worshiped. But perhaps it was just my fantasy.....he turned out not to be the hero I wished him to be..or so it seems. I needed to talk about what I felt I needed so badly still, from my Father.
A special thank you to my sister Cindy who allowed me to share her story about her childhood here. Her mother was only 16 when she married our Dad and he was 36. She missed her High School graduation.
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― Jane Austen, Emma
Thank you...each and every one of you…for your love and prayers for me and Bill...and I know you are aware I can't see Bill unless he has only a short time to live. I got to talk to him twice this week and it meant the world to me. He sounds good but he misses me and I miss him so much. It was so good to tell him how much I love him.
Thank you for being here....be safe and be well....I love your comments and messages.
HAPPY 4th of July!
Wish me luck in finding more about my Father's life....
Love you to the moon and back,
xxoo Susan & The Dez
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I wasn't there that morning
When my father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say
I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
I'm sure I heard his echo
In my baby's newborn tears
I just wish I could have told him
In the living years
Say it loud
Say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
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[@janefriel6895]

Susan I have learned that sometimes holding on does more damage than letting go.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@monnievaradi596]

Thank you for another lovely visit. I too had a WWII dad. He was in my life until he passed away at age 79 of leukemia. He was a good father but I always wished we had talked more. He was a man of few words. In his last year of life roles reversed and I found myself sitting in doctors offices and hospital rooms with him. He said more words in that short time than he had in all my life. He told me stories of sadness and. Death and war. He was 21 years old and he was flying bombers in Europe. Fighting for his country. Twenty one years old!!! That generation of young men (and women) saw and experienced things we cannot imagine. They grew into scarred men. We families lived with the scars. I hope you can find peace with your father. We are all flawed and perhaps he did the best he could and maybe not. But you are part of him.. so in some ways he helped make you you. And that’s pretty darned awesome.. love you, dear friend. Kiss Desi for me. See you next week!

[@nenagarcia4819]

How great. Just as I was on the verge of tears Desi shows up and made me chuckle! On June 15 I lost my oldest son to heart failure. 49 yrs old. Shattering and just 6 days after the 2nd anniversary of losing my youngest son. These days I walk around pretty numb. I also had a father who walked away and to this day I cannot even watch a commercial that has a tender father/daughter scene. But what I can tell you Susan is that my HEAVENLY father has supplied all the needs I missed growing up and today He is still with me. Bless you my dear.

[@LittlePoet]

Oh Nena, I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your son....I can see why you would feel so numb...I think I speak for so many here when we say we love and are praying for you. You have so much life ahead of you and you will find the strength to go on....not even death can stop all that love between you and your sons....love you so, Susan & Desi

[@seattlegirl2077]

I just feel for you so much and wish you peace.

[@angelajanelomax5540]

Awe i have 2 sons this breaks my heart for you xx

[@karent3004]

Nena, I'm so sorry that you lost your precious son...I won't even try to understand that but I know the love of a son is completely wrapped around our hearts and it'll never go away...hugs to you honey...🤗❤️👩‍👦

[@angelajanelomax5540]

Guys Nena lost 2 sons im pretty sure xxx

[@TamarasTimelessBeauty]

Oh Susan...you touch my heart. Every single week. Love to you and Desi 😘❤️

[@LittlePoet]

Thank you so much...you are so lovely..and so very kind....You have such a great channel!!!

[@kaylabryson1932]

My father was my hero😢. He passed away last year. He was the epitome of a loving, strong, caring protective Dad. By my mom’s side, they raised 5 children in a small house, in a small community that I adore to this day. Both gone to Heaven now. I had no idea growing up, parents could be mean and horrible. I had so much love, kindness, endless support... it was a shock when leaving home to hear about other’s lives. It still can vex my souI. I have three children and grandchildren and my most precious treasure is having parents who taught me how to truly love and having children who now love their own families. My husband’s life work has been working with abused and neglected children. We hope we have given back and done some good. I have always thought being a good parent is thee most important job on earth. Would take care of a lot of suffering in the world . Your father’s story made me cry for you. You turned out so wonderfully. I don’t think I would have turned out good, without both dedicated parents seeing me through life. I truly admire you . Thanks for sharing your fun personality and inspiring life ... love and hugs to you 💕💕💕

[@welcomwelcom9882]

Susan as new subscriber cannot understand why u don't have more subscribers! For me one of the best KZbinrs out there - your unique content beautiful music professionalism your spirituality sense of humour honesty and your amazing community of special ladies. Luv your precious little "gangsa" too. Definitely man/women's best friend. Thrilled to have found your special channel! Luv luv luv u Leanne

[@carolsailer1395]

I Totally Agree!!

[@gloriamoncada2886]

I agree! I look forward to my weekends to listen to Susan.

[@LittlePoet]

I just love you.....there, I said it!!!

[@welcomwelcom9882]

@@LittlePoet U're such a precious lady thank you

[@juliefizpatrick513]

I’m loving every video-like someone said they would watch her put dishes in a dishwasher and at the time Susan said she didn’t have one! I love everything she talks about- my father was mean to me-I got married at 17 just to get away from him! Life -everyone of us has a story to tell. I feel better knowing it just wasn’t me-it’s happened to a lot of us. Ur dad was handsome, Susan and I’m glad you found ur sister and brother.😊🤗💛

[@lorirapp8581]

Oh Susan! I hope you find what you’re searching for! When my dad died of colo-rectal cancer in ‘97 I Iayed over him bawling, thinking, “Why did you have 4 kids who never made you joyful,were never good enough for you and you made sure you made us feel like crap every day of our lives.” Yet, he was there and commited .... but left me numb as to what the heck! And mean! Not physically but verbally, mentally, for no reason! Thank the Lord he gave me an outstanding husband who is a wonderful father. My mom, a narcissist in every sense of the word; may be worse. I define myself through the love of God and the love of my husband, children, grandchildren and friends who truly love me for being me.

[@karenhill3970]

So sorry for us all why these Dads soo mean or neglectful& or emotionally NOT THERE"??? Why??mine too all these yrs itried & TRIED 2 get Himto love me..!!He was actually mean & a horsey-rear to me off& on my whole life ...would come home cryin fr visit to Monies & Pappys house His parents..my other set if G parents i loved them all & Pappy always saw we good time. But i felt smething CLOSE 2 relief" when came bk home to Mom she was sooi sweet & loving !!I miss Her everyday& my PRECIOUS Leola other gMom we lived w her...THEY where soooo kind & sweet & loved Kim & Me soooo..now my Dadhad passed away in July 2019 ...can barely stand it right now soooglad though i made efforts to visit last 4 yrs!!! We laughed & talked a little ea visit...He ACTUALLY liked my son alot His grandson...ACTUALLY gave a compliment to me one visit "i don't know whose responsible but Russell a good smart boy" .. Or somebody raised Russell RIGHT"!! Or somethin to the effect Dad JUST couldn't give me credit for a thing!!...lolwhy?? Very hurtful...not that i wanted credit but it HAS been me..now my older sis treating me same WAY😞😞💔💔WHY??....💙💔

[@mariapadilla7417]

@@karenhill3970 Hi Karen. Sometimes our parents do what or how they were brought up. Our mom died died at 33 a week before her 34 birthday and on my birthday. We 6 kids from 13 to 3 years old. After mom died we went to live in Mexico with my dad's parents. They were so loving and giving. We never were I'll spoken of or put down for anything. We stayed there for about 2 years. We came back to Houston and I became sick. Well I had so much on my plate. Taking care of my siblings, fixing dinner, bathing the little ones, making sure they did homework and doing my homework. So my dad dropped me and my 2 youngest siblings at my mom's mom's house because I was supposed to have explority operation. My illness resolved after a couple of days. We stayed with her and later my other 3 siblings came to live with us. But this grandmother and 2 of my mom's sisters always put us down, they talked bad about my father, about my dad's family in Mexico and anything they could say ugly to me. Oh I've always been petite, I'm 5'3 and weighted under 100 lbs so they called me Olive girl remember Popeye. I think at age 16 or 17 I tried to commit suicide. One of my aunts would check my vitals everyday, she worked at a hospital and knew a Dr that told her what to do do or look for. I woke up days later. I don't think any of my siblings knew what happened to me then. I have never said a word to anyone about this. Well to top it off my mom married in Mexico and stayed there I thinking maybe 3 to 4 years. Then came back to US. My mom's father helped my dad get paperwork done so he could come. Both I and my brother were born in Mexico. When I graduated I found out I had to get my citizenship and found out laws were changed. I was an illegal. So started my paperwork. For some reason my mom's mom got a letter from federal Judge. She and my mom's oldest sister had to go to meeting with Judge regarding my paperwork and I'm assuming my mom's time she lived her in US. My mother was born in Houston as well as her other siblings. My grandmother lied to the judge. My oldest aunt told the judge the truth and was in tears pleading with the and asking her mother why was she lying. The judge told her to leave the meeting. He had some men come in to take her out. I asked the judge to give some time I could bring some people that knew my mother and that she lived here all that time except when she married. I was crying and pleading with my grandmother. Judge said I was an illegal and had no rights. For me to leave the meeting and had me escorted out also. My brother had to go to Mexico to get into the army and serve a year there. I couldn't believe what was done. My father or my brother never knew what had happened. So I've come to the conclusion that people do things the way they were brought up. Maybe hatred and bitterness is bigger in their lives than love. I found God after my mom's death. God is what has kept me going. I forgive my grandmother and aunts for their wrong doing. I'll be 71 in October and I have 14 grandkids another one on way also 1 great grandson in Dallas. I love them all and I'm happy.

[@Ailish-un5mz]

@@mariapadilla7417 Bless you , you are a wonderful lady xx

[@vicki1120]

You are truly a treasure to all of your subscribers!

[@over50andfantabulous59]

I remember him. He would visit my mom and just look at me. I had no idea who he was. Then at 16, he showed up and knocked on my bedroom door. I let him in. We sat knee to knee facing one another and he said "Lynn, I am your father" I replied "Okay". Why? Because the questions flowed through my mind. "Where were you when my mother cried herself to to sleep", etc. etc. Love you so much blessed and highly favored Sister. We all have a special journey and purpose according to God Almighty ~ THANK YOU for sharing yours with us. You are beloved by many ~ please know that. Love, Your Sister from another Mister Sister Lynn

[@LittlePoet]

You are an angel..,,with every word you right I feel the love and goodness in you....I miss you Lynn!

[@light-yi2me]

PTSD is real and kills soldiers after wars are over! I’m so sorry, but happy that you were spared from bad memories. Yesterday I was angry with my dad for his shortcomings when I was a child and an hour after I sent a prayer to reach his soul for all the gentleness, history lessons, and social grace that he thought me. You look beautiful 🌹

[@cindyk.5822]

Desi is so adorable!! I love your channel. Thank you.

[@brightpurpleviking]

I’ve recently found your channel and adore you! I was the product of an affair and my parents hid it from me until I was an adult. My biological father walked away from me when I was a baby. I found him in my twenties and he walked away again. Now I am in my fifties and he is dying of cancer. He wants a relationship now...but his children are not comfortable with my existence so I keep everything to emails and texts, mostly out of respect to them and out of respect to the man who raised me. It is so hard, so complicated. I don’t know what to do. My father who raised me has passed away awhile ago, and the siblings I was raised with have no opinion either way as to what I should do. I didn’t have a happy childhood, and the idea of grasping at some imagined happy family relationship at this point is only fiction. I can totally relate to many of your feelings about the whole thing. God bless you

[@debra13]

I'm so sorry for your conflict at this time and admire your respect for the rest of his family. Maybe you can see him when you know (or try to find out) that you can meet him alone. The thing is, for both you and Susan, a difficult past can draw us in and in a sense define us if we are not careful- I know that. How I wish Susan could take what she knows now- which includes both negative and positive and not keep searching for answers that really aren't available to her and instead just make her own life, her own partner, the reflection of greatness she needs to find. We are great in ourselves and if people make us feel less so-- we need to say goodbye metaphorically or literally and move on. It isn't easy but it is going to be so much more helpful. xxx Good luck to you.

[@lynnsalberg5647]

I had a similar situation . I found my birth mom six months before she died and I told her I loved her and called her mom. I figured since she never had another child I would be there forever her in the end . Showing grace to others is the kindest thing we can do .

[@lisaboling5336]

"In the Living Years"....what a great song! I lost my Daddy 30 years ago this month....to cancer. He was 54. Way too young. I am almost 58 now. I still struggle each day......missing him. He was my best friend. But by the grace of God, I will see him again....one day. Susan--I hope you can find something in your Dad that you can treasure. Something that brings you closure and peace. Something that only You can love. I just adore You. Take Care~

[@Hansilu]

Hi, you know what your videos feel like to me ? Art !!! So beautiful, your voice is so soothing , it puts me at peace! You are so talented. Thanks again for your honesty ! Desi made me smile ! I see he still does a little yoga ! You 2 stay safe and I see you in your next video!!!

[@CharliesObsession]

My goodness! Desi looks adorable! What a love bug he is! They surely keep us smiling when our hearts are heavy. We're all beautifully broken and there's no need to put ourselves back together. It's the brokenness that truly completes us. Without it, we would never find our courage or compassion for others. You are a beautiful soul Susan. No matter how much you discover about your father and what his journey here on earth was like, it will never repair what doesn't need to be fixed. The one thing it will reveal is how broken too your Father was. Continue on this journey to find the answers you need. I bet you'll discover a story that will have you thanking God for how blessed your life was compared to his. You'll find that any sadness or resentment that is hidden in your heart will lift and you'll be free of this chapter that may have held you back from your true authenticity. I cannot tell you how much I enjoy your content. It's like a breath of fresh air. You reveal your heart like no other. I hope you have a beautiful blessed day. xxx~ooo

[@sanguinelynx]

You look a lot like your father, I can definitely see the resemblance! Sometimes we get answers in life, sometimes we don't, but the most important thing is the life we make for ourselves the showing compassion to our fellow human beings.

[@patriciaeisert8483]

Amen!

[@peggyekena9966]

Dezi looks so cute and he looks like he is wearing the headband just to please you. What a sweet dog you have. I have been with you long enough to go on the journey with you to find out any information about your biological father. We never know what men experience during war, and maybe he was running away from those memories. Maybe the drinking dulled the pain too. But, at least you are here on this earth because of the relationship he and your mother had. And, your subscribers have a beautiful lady to visit each week and see the world through your wondrous eye. You are a Woman of Substance and we are all better for knowing you! 💙

[@Kiki-yo4hi]

(A Commentor) How True, and What a Beautiful Thing to Say to Susan, which Is Very True, as well !!!

[@carrienecas9867]

What a touching video, made me think of my biological father, he was wild , he was fun, he was a drinker....and drank him self to death at age 65....had a little relationship with me .....not much.......I was raised by a step-father who I adored and consider my father....thats the man I miss ....when he died part of me died too ....I was blessed that he came into my life when I was little and stayed and raised me lovingly.....I let my bio father go, he had another family and we had a new dad too.......its all so complicated.....anyway, loved the video.....Desi is adorable as always....at the end of every video I get a good laugh at him.....Happy 4th!! enjoy and be safe......Oh, and dont tell anyone, but i still use the Revlon Frost and Glow, lol!!! Love it!! see you next week!! xo

[@sticksdog]

Susan,Frost and Tips takes me way back, good memories.❤️

[@nenagarcia4819]

This is such a kind and thoughtful community. Thank you everyone

[@NelCooper]

Another great video Susan. As other commenters have said we all have faults and flaws. I was lucky to have the father I had. It was hard during my rebellion hippy years. We were different but he cared for the family in every way. Men have always carried the burden of going to war and being 'responsible' for his wife/family. The older I get the more I really feel for men. I just had a man in my life pass away. I knew him for over 45 years. Through out our on and off our relationship, there where many things I didn't understand. I had many unanswered questions. After he passed I started putting it all together. He was just a person. He did his best. He valued his freedom and needed it to become himself. His passing was sudden at 66... a freak accident. I think he needed yet another life reset to fly still higher. Susan you have been blessed. You have made a beautiful life for you and others. I think a women's natural ability to be vulnerable, helps us to grow. Im happy to be a part of your journey. Love to you and the Dez! Happy Independence Day! !! ❤️🌿🌸🌿

[@sewndebisdream6953]

I think it's very important to know who our parents are...like you said it helps us know more about ourselves...My father was an alcoholic I was told and I do remember him fighting with my mother one time and he spanking me once for saying a bad word I heard him say...that's all I remember of him...My grandma said my father loved us kids so much! I was barely 4 when he got killed in a wreck which us 3 kids were all in... I hope you get to find out everything you want about your father. My mother would have been 88 on the 2nd of July but passed away in hospice in April. So my parents are both gone now... Being 65 reminds us that time is going on for us too. 💃Thanks for being there...Desi looks so special in his 4th of July hat! 🇦🇺 Loved your hair color tips and I'm a hairdresser from the70's...Enjoyed it all! Happy 4th!🎆🎇🎆🇦🇺

[@BriangjohnsonTv]

Love your creative camera work my friend.

[@LittlePoet]

Be still my heart....you help grow my soul....xxoo Happy weekend to you and the poodles :)

[@Melissa55]

wow, that sign ..... and you will be loved unconditionally no matter what.". That's a tough one. When I read online that my father died, I immediately said a prayer and told him I forgave him for not loving me. I had to or I knew I would be bitter the rest of my life. But it's still hard. Parents are supposed to love their children, aren't they? I so enjoyed your favorites. And I so hope you find your answers, Susan. We are supposed to be Daddy's Little Girls, and when we aren't, it's sad. I just sent you an Instagram message. I feel your pain, Susan and I'm giving you a hug. Love to you, Melissa

[@LittlePoet]

Oh Melissa....I just got to find your messages and play them on my phone and boy did you make me cry. You do understand...i can tell by the words your choose....you know that pain and you have lived it....that family we saw on TV with the loving Mom and dad would never be ours. So moving....I feel so bad, I don't understand Instagram and I have sort of an odd version of it on my computer so I don't know how to message back or respond to people..or even watch. I have to have my son fix up my phone...but I could play your messages on my phone! I so wish I could do what you do there on that platform......you are so expressive in your message...so lovely in your wisdom....my email is [e-mail] if you should ever want to write me for any reason. I am excited about your video about those of us who can't use Retin-a!!!!! I love you to pieces....it meant the world to me to hear about your Father....and when he passed...oh my gosh...can't type..TBC

[@judyberends4586]

I hope you are doing well now Melissa. My dad had five daughter's and never wanted sons bc of war. He was kind of gruff but a good hardworking dad& loved our mom .He had a rough childhood. Bless you. I love your personality. 💗🙏🏡💗

[@gigi1332]

My father didn't love me either. I only saw him three times my entire life. Maybe that's why at 63 I am just still so lost. 🙏💞🙏

[@kayking5790]

Sadly i have the same story xx

[@gigi1332]

@@kayking5790 Me too. He never came for me. I once thought JFk was my father as a little girl and that he would come looking for me. I was such a dreamer but the loneliness follows you throughout your life. Love this channel so much 🙏💞😪🙏

[@aujkalenic4203]

I hear your story about the lack of father, my story as well. I'll be 67 soon and still have never met him, however I did have one pic. Quite honestly, I do not even know what happened to it. I've succeeded in this life and was so blessed to learn of my Heavenly Father.He has kept me and loved me beyond measure of any human father or mother ever could. I forgive my earthly father for his cowardness,and pray that he may also meet his fully loving Father of Heaven.....hope to meet him on the other side 🥰

[@milliebargmann1878]

You are hysterical (your favorites portion) made me almost lose my sip of coffee😁! The journey to know your Father /Your Self better...WOW....and last but certainly not least: The Handsomest 4 Leg Butterfly EVER😆!! Happy 4th to All😉

[@latherandlace]

After being adopted, my parents divorced. My father was also in the Navy and he was an alcoholic. He ended up marrying a woman who was jealous of the relationship we had and she prohibited me from staying at their house. I wanted him to stick up for me but he appeased his wife. They never had kids but when he died, everything he said he was leaving for me was a lie. He had to sneak to see me when I came to town. He never knew his grandchildren. It's his loss. I have a good life. And he missed me spending my career in the Navy. Thank you for sharing your life with us. You're beautiful! ~Lori

[@lightbearer3643]

One good thing to remember and be grateful for is that your dad had a romantic union with your mum and created you! How wonderful is that!

[@eileen945]

Bonjour my dear friend, Ya know... I have been alluding to, AND talking about the word “relationship” since Dec. I woke up one day and that word was just imbedded in my soul. This happens to me a lot. There is a theme, and a word that creates a pathway of learning what “ I” need to know. Then.... I watch it unfold in my life. Little did I know that it will not always be happy.... or peaceful... Or even what I pictured for myself. But that’s the growing part. It has taken a while for me to “ stop” kicking and screaming at the feelings of dread or conflict when it presents itself. As I have learned that I am stronger and perfectly resultant ENOUGH to let things come in.... and pass thru like clouds. To my utter surprise, i have lost a couple relationships in these past 6 months. So I am thinking on this also. My mother and grandmother were both alcoholics. They also thought love would save them forever... But couldn’t handle life when it didn’t. We girls have already walked thru that fire, yes??? And here we are. Better at life.. Probably better at love.... and perfectly resilient about learning and leaning on our hearts now. I’m thinking that maybe we both have had divine timing happening at 60+ Why? So we could simply “ Handel”, “ understand ” ... or resolve .. what our mothers could not. Love is wonderful indeed. The dreams, the memories... the vision of passion, But understanding the bits and pieces, the broken parts and the flowing parts, is life at its best. We are still here my lovely friend. As always , Much love and hugs Eileen

[@angelasmith3830]

Thank you Susan, I think active service in World War 11 had a terrible effect on our soldiers and things could have been different for you and your Mum if your Dad hadn't served! Be proud of his service to the free world xx

[@LittlePoet]

So happy to see you here Angela Smith ! and I think you are 100% right about the damage of the war...I hope your new week is a good one. Love to you always from me and The Dez! (Gangsta!)

[@annefrazer6629]

Your ability to forgive is a lesson some never learn. Your father left you and your mother and left a hole in your heart which to this day is a gaping wound. Meeting his other family has helped you in one respect. You speak of him fondly and wistfully. So many can't understand that parents are after all just people with flaws and their own baggage. And kids don't come with a set of directions. So mistakes are made unintentionally. Feelings are hurt. People hold grudges and some to to their grave without ever being resolved. I saw it happen in my family with a sister who ignored our parents for 30 years and never contacted us when they died. But she wanted her share of their money. She never spoke to them despite their dying wish to hear from her and my father asking me while in hospice if I had heard from her. She is cold and happy with herself. So for you to be so forgiving is a testament to your character Susan.❤

[@LittlePoet]

This was brilliant Anne....and I am so sorry you went through that pain with a sister that was so cold. Not there for the love but the money....Thank you for sharing this...you are such rich woman...

[@ladyyaya6782]

Hi beautiful! Love this video! Love little Desi! And Love you too! Thanks again for doing what you do💖

[@SRAshley100]

Oh Susan, you sweet precious woman! I am setting here bawling trying to put myself in your shoes, in your heart. I know there is a hole there that needs filled and I pray God helps you stitch it together piece by piece and find the completeness you are needing. ❤️

[@robyn3349]

Thank you for sharing your heart. Alcoholism steals from us the best that should have been.

[@patriciaeisert8483]

Rob yN Wow, Robyn, that is profound. My Dad was an alcoholic and yes alcoholism does steal from us the best that should have been. I have some wonderful memories of him, but also some very terrifying ones as well. For the longest time I had very bad feelings toward him, but as I grew older and gained some wisdom, I came to a place where I could finally forgive him. I was blessed with a wonderful Mother . She passed in 1999, and there isn’t a day goes by that I don’t think of her and miss her. As far as my Father goes, I finally realized he was doing the best that he could at the time given what he went through in his life and the fact that his own parents were not the best either. His dad was also an alcoholic. What you said brought me to tears because I hadn’t thought of my dad very much because the memories always made me sad. So thank you for this🥰

[@carolsailer1395]

I am one of your new subscribers...I have been binge watching all your videos!! I am truly enjoying each one!!

[@LittlePoet]

I so agree.....yes...

[@MindysPlace]

Sometimes it is to our benefit that we don't get everything we wish for, being raised without your father could be a blessing. I learned at age 26 that my parents were not married when I was born and I was an affair baby. It took me by surprise and hurt deeply, not the fact that my parents "sinned", but that they had lied to me and kept the secret for 26 years. The truth hurts as they say. How well we know. Hugs.

[@thatswhatisaidCA]

I agree. I actually don't think one should get their self-worth from family. We work too hard to do it on our own, and I think that can make us go backwards.

[@elana81RDH]

My son is an affair baby. His father and I sinned as well and struggle deeply with remorse. Our son is now 3, and we do plan to tell him eventually but I worry he will feel the way you do. His father and I are now married and are raising him together, but I hate that I will have to tell him how things happened. One thing is for certain, even though I made mistakes, HE is not a mistake. He is a pure blessing and he is perfection.

[@MonikaBeautyandLifestyle]

None of us are perfect. Someday I will tell you my hubby's adoption story and finding his biological mom. sometimes we find more than we bargained for. You are a wonderful kind hearted woman and despite the longings and a life of wondering you turned out amazing. I am blessed to know you! Thank you and Happy 4th of July!

[@LittlePoet]

OH I looked for you this morning Monika and I didn't see this comment! I always love to wish you a good weekend...oh now you have me curious...I didn't know Jay was adopted...oh my..what a story I bet....thank you for be so kind...I do see myself and others as not all black or white...just beautiful human....love to you and Jay and your Mom and dad from me and Desi

[@nursekaren63]

i just love Desi! Thank you for another beautiful video. I so look forward to your weekly videos.

[@kaylabryson1932]

Well I am impressed !! Do you know coloring your own hair that beautifully takes talent ?!!👌. I’ve always admired my Beautition’s talent cuz I got none of that☺️. I am cutting my own hair though, and it’s going ok... I follow a utube tutorial 👍. Love the products you showed today! So fun!! Dry lips 🙋🏻‍♀️ not fun .. haha. That hand sanitizer ...need!! Especially for the car scent. Mine smells like alcohol... just for awhile . Have a good weekend gorgeous 💜

[@lilibetfellinger8641]

Thank you so much for a wonderful visit with me today! How happy I am to share time with you. You make a beautiful difference in my life, so far away...

[@wildmeadows8495]

Currently creating a new narrative about my emotionally bankrupt home environment, while still honoring all my suffering and anger. It’s a tough one, but my and everyone’s journey demands a bigger story than simply a black and white one. Cheers to you, Susan, for taking us along on this emotional and windy journey of creating your story.

[@lilliancooper6308]

My father served in the armed forces in WWII, also. At the end of the war, he served in Paris, France; then finished his tour in Germany before returning to the U.S. While In Paris, he met my mother, and married her. She knew he drank, but everyone in France drank, especially wine. And sometimes he drank to an excess. Again, she chalked it up to being in France where he was often treated to drinks being an American G.I. Anyway, they came to America. My father remained in the Army-Air Force, where most days finished at the NCO club. By the time I came along, their marriage was in trouble. Mom stuck it out because her English wasn’t too good and she couldn’t drive yet. My brother came 3 years later. She remained with him 5 more years, then divorced. But she loved him still, so a year later they remarried. It lasted 4 years. My dad couldn’t stop the drinking. He even tried AA for a short time, but he just couldn’t let go of the drinking. I never really knew my father. Most nights he was drunk. But I knew he loved my brother and me because that’s why he remarried our mom. But she still couldn’t put up with his drinking. After the 2nd divorce, he always lived close, but never stopped drinking. Sadly, I inherited my dad’s genetic predisposition to alcohol. And I wasn’t always a nice drink. I didn’t clean up my act until was 42. And I only stopped because my older son found me drunk on the floor in my bedroom.. I was humiliated and ashamed. I didn’t want my kids to grow up with a drunk. I went to AA meetings for over 5 years and turned my life around. My father died at 65 years old. He died in a VA hospital from cancer. The doctors said it was combination of years of drinking and smoking, both of which he started at 15. I am 72. I have outlived my father. He never really knew me or my brother. He never got to know his 6 grandkids. He was never my hero, but I loved him. But because of his life, I got to love my children and grandchildren. I had a second chance.

[@DosSantos64]

As a new subscriber from Sweden - I Love your channel! And do remember that your father is in Heaven and he Loves you So Much. Having a picture of him in your home will bring him to you. He´s around you. All he want is to be forgiven deeply from your heart and be Loved

[@smrccsjc]

Happy Fourth of July! You are one beautiful lady inside and out.

[@magdalenastevense1332]

Dear Susan, the part about getting to know your father is very moving. Desi with his beehat on has me in stitches, too cute!! Take care girl and see you next week.

[@robync2798]

Susan, I know you have hundreds of comments but I just had to add mine as well. You mentioned the new subscribers - and I’m one of those. Although my life wasn’t quite the same as yours I have felt some of those feeelings. I loved in a physically and emotionally abusive marriage for 13 years until I took my infant daughter one day and disappeared. It was shortly after he went to backhand me while i was holding my daughter. In the middle of the night. Like a hallmark movie. I had, at least, orchestrated it to have already (the day of) moved my animals so I could get them later, once we settled, which I did. He never found us again and I learned several years ago that he passed away homeless. I’m older now - it’s been 21 years since then and my daughter is grown. But something about you, your feelings, your expressions, resonates deeply with me. I’m so glad I found your channel! I don’t even know how I did. Thank you. And thanks for Desi. He’s a doll! I have 6 dogs now. (How did you cope with losing Cooper? -is there a video where you talk about that?) Sending you so much gratitude.

[@robync2798]

Actually I should have said like a Lifetime movie! Hallmark movies don’t have that kind of content! 🙄

[@debmarrett212]

Desi is such a good sport. Dreams rarely meet up reality. But both can shape us into a wonderful place. Blessings to you and Desi from Midas and me 😻

[@louisemwaura7348]

Hi Susan i love coconut so I'll be picking up some elf setting spray!Thanks for the tip.you are so graceful and it radiates in all you do.so glad you were able to get a picture off your dad.i myself was a daddy's girl.been over 43 years since he passed.keep those images off your dad i would always say my dad and my mom were my hero.My dear i had to come to realize if my earthly father know how to give good gifts how much more would my heavenly father give me.be encouraged enjoy your family.in each off you there's a part off your dad.ask your heavenly father to help you see the good.until next time,stay safe,Stay Smiling.GodBless.May the peace off God be with you.

[@sharonpence6919]

Awww bless Desi, he is adorable and so loved

[@maryremke5215]

My favourite lady ever, you are soooo special! And I just love your doggy.. Thank you for lifting my spirits so often.. Love you Susan B... xoxox

[@tiffanygonsalves1763]

Love your hair when you wear it down. And Desi looks adorable in his Bee hat!

[@MyHelga1]

Having been raised by a German mother and father I did not feel the warmth and love as a child growing up. My parents never said I love you or hug me. I got the comfort through attaching myself to men. Even getting married at 17 so I could leave home. My mother was and is a very beautiful woman and would people down if they weren't physically attractive. She broke my heart. I had my son at 21 and looking into his eyes made me want to be a better mom and I was very protective of him. My father drank too and his demons took over and he must have suffered from his own pain and committed suicide at 47. I love both my parents and I cannot shape my present or future from anxiety of my past. I now am taking care of my mother who has dementia. She doesn't thank me for anything, but I know in my heart she loves me. It's a struggle and your show helps me to get through week by week. Today I will celebrate the 4th of July with my son and my beautiful daughter in law and wonderful fierce grandchildren. I have much love to give them. Sorry for such a long post but it helps me to journal this. Thank you for your channel. I want to work harder on myself and being hugged by my son and grandchildren means the world to me. Desi is adorable and makes me smile. Thank you.

[@LittlePoet]

This really touched my heart...you are a wonderful strong woman and an inspiration to me...

[@annanorth4584]

My husband found his biological father through Ancestry.com. His dad had died from alcoholism in his early 50's. It wasn't what we expected, but brought closure to the mystery. Fortunately, my husband was raised by a loving adoptive dad.

[@starr6465]

He was a great man look at you. Fighting in a war seeing your Soldier brothers dying as well as opposite Soldiers injured and dying is harmful. Who knows how your Dad was treated by his Dad combined it takes a toll on the psyche. Ask about the great things, he gave you life. When men feel lost no way out it breaks their self esteem, then drinking begins many times drugs along with domestic violence. Beautiful thing is you’ve met your Brother & Sister. That’s what was suppose to come out of this. I just want to hug you and Desi TUFS

[@cherylgoodman3753]

Dear sweet Susan, you inherited something very great from someone: The capacity for great love and empathy’ for others.And where ever those genes came from, the love and empathy live on in you every day. You even have people whom you’ve never met who would drop everything and head to Grand Rapids if you reached out and asked for help. Also, the disease of alcoholism has ruined the lives of many people and you had your sweet grandfather as a male role model! That was a great blessing. Love from your subscribers!

[@filippaleedham]

I can’t imagine the anguish you have been through finding info on your father. I was lucky and had a great dad who died on feb 2nd this year at the age of 96. I wish you happiness and closure Susan. 💖

[@gennyjustdownthelane8967]

Love watching you. Thanks for sharing your love and stories!

[@LULC0759]

I love your earrings @ 16:20. I ordered the sanitizer and sent one to my sister. TY for all your suggestions and opening your heart to us. I’m sorry about your dad. I lost mine in February after 4 yrs of illness. I moved into his home where our family gathered for 60 yrs. Bittersweet memories here...because it’s not always picture perfect. We are flawed and some memories are painful but the sweet ones surface too. I hope you find closure now that you know more of him.😊

[@susancrowshaw9878]

Hi Susan, I have only just found you and I'm loving your channel. You are naturally very beautiful and I think it's because your natural default setting is a smile. You have a smile like my mom had - she could light up a room.

[@LittlePoet]

Oh Susan what a beautiful thing to say to me..thank you so much. Have a beautiful Sunday, love to you from me and Desi!

[@terrielliott5911]

Thank you for your visit this week Susan. As always, it was great to see you and Desi. Have a very blessed July 4th!!! XOXO

[@reneelyall6976]

Happy 4th, you are special my dear

[@couturedeana]

We truly are sisters, thank you.

[@robinaokpohare6212]

Thank you.

[@BlingyBea]

Desi is like mom are we done now. please take this off. Such a sweet little boy, blessings and hugs to Desi and you from Dobi and me.💙🐾❤️

[@audreyannmunizlorusso]

Thank you!! I love you. God bless you and Desi 👩🏼‍🔧🐕💕💕

[@debvw9740]

Susan - I have a father. And a stepfather. No men are superheroes. But those women who have dads who love them unconditionally are indeed very blessed. I am 58 and my biological father is more like a child than I am. He is very narcissistic. It makes my heart hurt that he can't tell me that he is proud of me or happy I was born. It is all about him. My stepfather was my hero - until he cheated on my mother. They are still together but my mother is angry and bitter and will never get over it. He fell off of that pedestal I had him on. Now he is another man in my life that is afraid of getting old and is mourning the past and "what could have been." I think we grieve our fathers. They do set the tone for what we expect of men. For some of us that will mean that men leave, men cheat, men are arbitrary with their emotions. But really, they are scared little boys. I was deeply moved by this video. I saw the little girl in you looking for her daddy. I hold you in my heart dear Susan. xxoo

[@cathybrown704]

I noticed you look amazing! Your skin care has really made a difference these last few months. The videos showed it. Susan your father was in the military. That is a great thing! But it can do damage to one's emotional and mental health. Obviously, your mother and your siblings' mother found something so captivating in him that children were born of him. They loved him and he them but couldn't see any good in a relationship that needed more than he could offer. You and them turned out great I am sure. I hope you gain some insight into his life. I hope you embrace a new outlook on life as unexpected blessings come your way. As always take care. Desi is so cute!

[@LauraRaeBeauty]

Dez..you are the most precious pup. Susan... I have a lot of chaos in my mind too. lol I think we all can relate ...having things unsaid. It is so painful to want to appreciate someone and not having the opportunity. This was such a beautiful and thoughtful video. You always are a blessing. Love you...Laura❤️

[@LittlePoet]

😊 thank you.....I have this feeling at times you and I ar eon teh same page....I worry about you in Florida....I know you are brilliant and careful...I still say prayers we can get our lives back soon...Love to you always Laura...Sues

[@DonnaRhodesletstakeupmakeup]

My hand sanitizers stink, lol. Could it be that I bought them at the dollar store?? It's all I could find. Finding out about your Father is both a blessing and a curse. He was flawed, yes, but aren't we all? I think he was a hero, Susan. Every person who served our country in war time is def a hero in my book. We owe them everything. Perhaps that trauma had a lasting effect on him. I'm sure he did his best. He sees you from heaven. he knows you. Des is so cute in his bee ears, LOL!! Happy 4th

[@thatswhatisaidCA]

He probably had PTSD, and frankly, it's hard to be human. I wouldn't let that drag me down, however...

[@lifewithsandrahart]

So sorry to hear about your father, Susan. It’s too bad he never got to know you! Dez is a sweet character! ❤️

[@lindaroberts2282]

Oh my goodness Desi is simply priceless! I hope you will find peace in your heart where your father is concerned.

[@homehelpheart7440]

Beautiful, Susan, as always! Happy 4th to you and Desi. Your father sounds a lot like mine. Mine was an alcoholic and could be very violent at times but also could be so loving and tender at times. He only had two wives that I know of. His first died of cancer when my older brother was a baby and then he married my mom who was 18 years younger than him and they had myself and my younger brother. My father also served the country in World War II and in the Korean War. He was a poet and he felt things very strongly. Fresh raspberries! O those bushes made my mouth water! I hope you picked some. Isn't Queens lace photographic? I don't find them that pretty a flower in person but I have photographed them and they were beautiful in the photographs! Sending hugs. 💗

[@beam8250]

You inspire me, Susan. I love seeing you and Desi each week. ♥️

[@jannalynn1137]

That is the CUTEST hat on Desi, OMG!!!! I am going to just think about that. Happy 4th, Dear Michigander Friend!!!

[@Tammy-Cameron-]

I had a similar experience with my Dad and the thing that helped me most is that he wanted to. He wanted to be your hero, but something in his childhood or the war prevented him. I bet he wanted to do the right things but somehow he couldn’t. He wasn’t what he wanted to be. And he was ashamed of that which made him angry. That, my friend, is enough. He wasn’t what you wanted him to be but, at least he tried. He, like all of us needs mercy. Give it to him, and as you do you will receive mercy as well. He would be so proud of how you are. Your a beautiful lady and a beautiful example for us to follow! Thank you. You have changed my life. 💐

[@catmama54]

I always wanted the type of family you saw on TV,Like Father Knows Best of Leave it Beaver. I didn't have the best childhood but not the worst. You always bring me to tears but I'm such a cryer and very emotional. Your hair color is perfect. I wish I could do my own color but between my bad neck and back and RA I just can't. I want my highlights back but here in FL its such a mess with the virus can't go. I was tempted to buy that eye product when I saw it on HSN and wish I had.My bags have bags. lol xoCathy

[@thriftytowers7160]

I was the last of 4 children brought up in a family where mum&dad hated each other; never showed physical affection to us children; my dad was a misogynist; my mum was a nasty piece of work. As I grow older (I am 57), I am trying to understand and forgive them for what I perceive as their failings as parents. It is difficult. I am very grateful to folks like yourself for sharing your hard experiences. It makes me feel less alone. Thx, Gillian

[@Fyrinspector]

So happy you received a picture of your Dad. It is hard when you are young to not think of your Dad as a super hero. I know my Dad was always good to us, took us camping which my brother and I loved, provided for us in every way possible , taught us to cook, but as I learned later in life he had a wandering eye and my parents divorced after 25 years. We did reconnect after 12 years when he was in a rehab center for a stroke. Long story but I learned to forgive and forget. Desi looked too cute in that 🐝 headband but his beautiful face was saying “get this thing off of me”. Hope you and Desi stay safe. They once again imposed a curfew 10:00p to 8:00a here in our County because the numbers have shot through the roof. Over 10,000 new cases in 7 days. Scary! Happy 4th of July. I hope you take some beautiful photos today. 😎❤️💄Kathy PS: so happy you were able to speak with Bill. I am still “in” for the over the fence covert operation. LOL

[@Kiki-yo4hi]

Don't Believe the News Media, with Their Fear-Mongering of the Inflated Number's. When People are in Fear, they are Easily Controlled, which is What They Want.

[@RandomLifeProductions]

Poor Desi.... As far as fathers are concerned,mine used to beat my mother to a pulp, but also managed to obtain social housing for hundreds a people, he was a gentle kind man at times, but on others he was awful. I try to focus on the positive, and admire my mom for walking away from a toxic marriage but I still love my father. He’s been gone almost forty years...

[@anniemarra6799]

OMG, that hat on Desi, I’m still laughing, he’s such a good sport and you are certainly the doting Mama, I just love it:)!!!! Hugs for you finding out about your Dad, I know it’s a journey, you will be more blessed as you begin to know you brother and sister, besides your Dad giving you life and your Mom love while he was in her life, the forever gift of your siblings is worth all you are experiencing. Please give Desi a kiss from me for wearing that adorable hat, he is one cute little bee 🐝💙💙💙

[@audreyannmunizlorusso]

I love you and Desi.. GOD bless you both👩🏼‍🔧🐕🙏💕💕🙂

[@susanjohnson5653]

Love to spend time with you and Desi, love your outfit, love all your loving thoughts you share , don't know how much longer I'll be around after a years remission cancer came back in liver and may be another place , so surgery and chemo and only God knows what else, tfs, love from Tn 🤟❤🇺🇲 Happy 4th of July

[@patriciaeisert8483]

Susan Johnson Dear Susan...I can’t imagine what you must be going through. But I wanted to share a wonderful affirmation/prayer I say every nite, especially when I’m scared. So here it is: The light of God surrounds me, the love of God enfolds me, the power of God protects me, and the presence of God (and here I add “and my Angels”) watch over me and guide me. Wherever I am God is and I am safe and I am well. That’s it! I believe the power of affirmations is beyond measure and I hope this affirmation/ prayer will help you in the days ahead. It always helps me! With love from Austin, Tx🥰

[@lorainemcgillivray77]

I'm very sorry you've had such a negative diagnosis. All we can do is fight. Take the time to tell everyone in your life just how much they mean to you, but keep fighting until it's time for the fighting to be done. There is a gift in being able to tell people how much you love them that is denied those who have fatal accidents etc and I wish you health if possible and if not then peace. Best wishes to you.

[@debra13]

Susan, you already found that greatness in yourself and in your SISTER! THAT is the greatness of your Dad that is reflected. The rest is just conjecture. Your sister is the gift of your father and so are you. You know enough-- go live your life....xxx

[@judiepollick3178]

lol...Desi! I came down with a case of shingles and needed the laugh! Thank you! Happy 4th of July!!!

[@patriciaeisert8483]

Judie Pollick Omg, Judie, they are so painful! I hope you are feeling much better soon. I’ve had them as well and know what you are going through.

[@judiepollick3178]

@@patriciaeisert8483Thank you so much! ❤

[@LittlePoet]

OH NO!!! Are you ok Judie???

[@judiepollick3178]

I'm doing fine thank you! I had trimmed a large bush & thought I had bug bites (bugs in Florida, who knew...lol) until the nerve pain set in & the blistering worsened. Cornstarch on the blisters does wonders! Shingles are definitely painful but with everything else going on in this crazy world I am still very fortunate! Have a great Sunday!

[@hollykurtz3178]

Oh dear little Desi! Hugs to you both!

[@annmeeks9273]

Susan, I never met my father either. I had all of the same feelings growing up that you did. I only spoke with him once on the phone when I was 18 and he spoke to me kindly. We planned to try and meet but that didn’t happen. I got a picture of him when I was 40 and I realized that my son is the image of him! He too was no hero and had hard times growing up and was murdered at 60! I have enjoyed watching my son with his children and experiencing his love for me. I think that having the experience with my son is God’s blessing and healing for me.

[@queens6583]

"Oh the indignation" is what sweet Desi is thinking. I too grew up with an unloving and unhappy father. He was never physically abusive, but his mouth was his weapon. I know it had a negative impact on myself and especially on my brother. I vowed never to be like him with my own children. It's lovely that you've embraced your half siblings and they sound like nice people, so there is that your father gave you in the end. I love your favorites and I definitely want to try the City Lips. Enjoy the holiday!

[@nitahiltner9560]

My dad was a Seabee in the South Pacific in WWII, came home and built houses for returning servicemen. But, he started drinking and he got mean when he'd had too much. He died at the age of only 43 from cirrohsis, leaving me, my mom and two sisters alone. He was a hero, but in the 12 years I had with him before he died, I only had one moment with him, when I shared a bacon and egg sandwich with him on his lap in the middle of the night. I guess I never thought he loved us, but years later, my sister brought out a note he had sent to my mom with a gift. I'd never seen it before. It said To Honey and the Three Little Bees. It was then I knew he loved all of us, he just couldn't fight the memories of the war or the drink. But, he's still my hero.

[@MaxItUpwithMarta]

You are rocking some great animal prints lately. 1000 new subscribers in two weeks. wow, you are great. I, on the other hand am doing horribly and losing subscribers, I must be just awful to watch! OH I want to see how you do that Frost and Design. Beautiful color. I love love love coconut!!! Look at your brother and sister. They are the greatest part of your father. It is wonderful to have family.

[@marilynhodgkinson5299]

Hi Beautiful Susan and Desi you look spectacular. Thanks for another fabulous video. When l think of my Dad , he was a beautiful man. So loving and kind. He was very ill from the war and died when l was just 24yrs old. I still really miss him even though l am 71yrs. It is good that you have your half sister and brother now. That tote was amazing, certainly be able to put a lot in that. Keep safe. Love and hugs to you both xx🐶😍😍

[@patticakesintexas]

I love how heartfelt your videos are. I find myself smiling at Desi's bee band, crying about your story about your father, and feeling like you are the kindest sweetest human in the world.

[@robbinbresnahan8253]

I just found you online...you are one of the most gorgeous 64 year old women I have ever seen. As well your spirit is amazing and dreamy. I loved the side by side makeup from the 80s to now. Wow I loved both. Thanks for being there. I'm 63. Robbin

[@MaryEllenAfter60]

Oh my gosh, Desi looks adorable in his bee hat!! Congratulations to all of your new subscribers, they will be very happy they found you, Susie. I remember Frost & Tip all too well, lol. I made my sister look like a spotted animal years ago. City Lips has a 2 for 1 sale a few times a year, so it makes it more affordable.Your father was a handsome man. Such a shame he never really new any of his children. Hope you have a lovely, and safe 4th of July. Blessings, and love to you, and The Dez...Mimi

[@LittlePoet]

Oh thank you Mimi so much for being here...Oh I have to hear the story now of how you frosted your sisters' hair!!! I look forward to seeing you in a few hours....I hope your holiday was a good one...love to you and Jim, Susan & The Dez ( his hat has gone missing)

[@judyberends4586]

I love your hair .I have natural platinum hair and I love that now.Good thing I got dad's coloring at 74.I use to do my hair with the same way. I cut my own hair .I love your hair so much now .it does brighten up your look. You are doing well at keeping your young looks .God bless you & Desi.💗🐶🙏💗

[@Denise-ki9ii]

I love the Elf coconut setting spray Susan - I rarely use highlighter as it gives a good glow! The scent is very calming for me. I let it dry while I clean my teeth - so glad you discovered it. Am so glad you found out more about your father .

[@Mxtraveler]

Your dad was so handsome! He obviously had some good qualities -and issues also. Your dreams got you through your childhood. You have been a good mom and wife because you didn’t want to be absent as he was. Sorry for your pain but it seems as you tell your story to us, you are gaining perspective for yourself. I love your storied life!

[@nancyolson2784]

your an amazing women with a big heart to share so openly, I am sure that has helped so many people just by sharing. Thank you

[@melissaadams6776]

Bless your heart Always hapoy to hear from you Happy youre reunited with family Have a good week!

[@lightbearer3643]

Awe cutey wee dog so beautiful. Yes we must be grateful and thankful for the ones who made us, without them we wouldn't be here. My mum passed now but my dads still alive. Hardly seen him as he didn't want to see us. Only a few memories i have of him which is probably for the best as there was abuse. My mum brought 3 of us up on her own, she turned to booze to soothe her. I in turn after a broken abusive relationship soothed in a similar way but when my kids weren't home or in weekends when they were away with their dad. A lot of lessons learnt along the way searching for love and respect. Until i found them within myself. We repeat patterns that we see. Each generation can do better, or stay the same depending on their choices. You were blessed not to see that. Your doing great enjoying life fully with what is there around you now! Best wishes ox

[@pollycoleman1746]

I wish you lived next to me! What wonderful neighbors you and Desi would be! Spending time while you is becoming a favorite pleasure!

[@evettewalker1133]

Thank you for sharing your peace. Kindly one who understands.