pulling myself out of a depressive episode

[@sfaith8958]

i so deeply appreciate how honest you are with us, not just posting the highlights and happy moments, but being real about the tougher times too. it means so much to see content creators do this, you are loved kayli !!

[@amorosavintage]

SAME!

[@adriaclark5683]

I am a mom in her 50s. Thank you so much for sharing. My daughter suffers with mental health issues and this video helps me understand and support her.

[@mia.anderson]

she's so lucky to have you fr

[@sofia_aesi]

She is so lucky to have you.

[@Elohel-g8w]

She's lucky

[@Elham_32356]

Depression becomes very hard and painful when you are involved in it for many years and no matter how much and in any way you fight with it, there is still a corner of your mind and this is really scary as someone who has been dealing with these feelings since childhood and now I am almost 30 years old. I feel really tired because I have to fight all the time. I'm tired because I wish it was only depression. Unfortunately, I also experienced several episodes of mania. I grab something to get better, but it seems like my wound is old. I don't think I will get better again, it has become a chronic and constant pain. I wish there were people who are still dealing with these difficult feelings like me, when I see that everyone is getting better. I feel how much more painful it is for me to continue and be between normal people and those who fight and get better and how lonely I am.

[@lana3175]

Look at you taking hold of your situation and choosing to turn it around. You gained the power back and you are becoming better because of it. Love you girly

[@emmi7883]

I’m a 45 year old mother of a 17 year old daughter - we both LOVE your content. You’re doing great, sweetie.

[@katyagrace3944]

I have been in a terrible depressive episode the last two weeks, and I've felt so alone, and this was literally the most perfect timing, it was just what I needed to see....thank you so much for your realness, I love you!

[@princesspeach7623]

literally same, sending u love i hope things start looking up soon

[@amyboyle6129]

I hope this video didn't just let PpL kno n see how teal life is for some people, i hope even more that ppl see its ok to open up about it and get urself or get help to get everyone ❤️ mentally on track and happy!

[@anonymousleigh8125]

Ah yes same here girlies

[@user-pb4dz6mc6n]

literally me too

[@kimwells8395]

Was looking for another one of her videos, but saw this and hit the play button so fast. I needed this video so much. ❤

[@mahvishjunaidi3462]

you are amazing ! you have no idea how many people you are helping with your beautiful energy and spirit to look after yourself and motivating other people out there to do the same thing.

[@leluxemanicurist]

I appreciate the honesty. It’s refreshing that you share with us, as opposed to making out life is constantly amazing. The social media comparison is the worst, but always remember they aren’t showing everything. Life isn’t always perfect and we all have so many ups and downs. You’re amazing, beautiful and loved by many 🧡✨

[@jadadoesntexist]

First of all… take a moment to look at how far you’ve come. You should be SO proud of yourself for how resilient and strong you are. Depression isn’t who you are, it’s just a part of you. You are so beautiful and so smart. Without you, I would’ve never had the courage to start my nail journey; so thank you for that. So many people are thankful for you, and your channel! You have created such a safe space here for us, and we hope you feel safe WITH us!! Much love from your virtual big sister!! 🥰🖤✨

[@cami.lazzzc]

This is so cliché but taking one day at a time is actually the way to go with mental health, thank you sm for sharing this, and showing that everyone can have bad periods of life and it's ok.❤ Sending lots of love and good vibes🤎

[@leluxemanicurist]

I feel you 100% on that list. When I wake up early and I’m more productive, go outside and ground myself and eat better and not mindlessly scroll on social media I feel so much better. It’s just hard sometimes to take that first step in doing it. I think there’s something about attributing productivity to self esteem, it’s not good but I feel so much better when I’m more productive. Keeping consistently busy also helps me. It’s good that you have a list if things you know that work for you 🧡✨

[@aakankshamukherjee65]

I've been in a bad depressive episode and this was SO helpful, going to try these now. Favourite video ever

[@sharic1871]

im in one as well and she truly did inspire me!

[@kimvanveen4037]

My fav yt at the moment :) Watching all your videos back to motivate myself. Youre such a pleasant person to watch and listen to. Love you lots

[@VicGoulart]

Girl, I went through exactly the same thing as you these last few weeks. And it is discpline, just as you said, that is getting me out of it. It's not motivation, it's discipline. It's hard af, but it's what keeps us going when nothing else is working. Thank god

[@evai.3816]

To anyone reading this, I believe in you and your loved..you got this

[@larissashimidt8509]

I’m in the middle of a very difficult moment with my mental health and I’m so glad you posted this video today… thanks for sharing that with us❤ I wish you the best (sending love to you from Brazil 🇧🇷)

[@danikaelle2722]

I’m so glad that someone opened up about how people have to not just sit in their depression or anxiety but they have to do something to help them get better instead of making it worse. I also get that it’s hard, but if your letting it be an excuse for everything in your life when you do nothing to get better, your also hurting those around you by not being reliable. Thank you for speaking the truth kayli ❤️

[@giedrepetkute4745]

Hello from Lithuania! ❤️ I am 37 years old, not that young as you are. But still for last two years I am waiting for your new videos so much, like I was in my 20's again. You are so adorable. Please, never be sad about bad coments, people can be mean and jealouse, it's their nature. There are so many people who loves you. I wish you to be in your best mental state all the time, no matter what ❤️🙏

[@blobster91]

getting structure and a routine helps me in a slump. some days i just let myself be in a depressive hole. that helps too.

[@cherrysplat777]

Kayli ordering her own food is such a good way to see how far she’s come, especially for someone who struggles with anxiety I admired that. I’m so proud of you!! 🤍🤍👏🏽👏🏽

[@kittikotai9817]

girl i feel the same. im so sorry for your loss. i lost my grandpa a weeks ago aswell. my 18th birthday is today and i just feel so shitty. thanks for this video, it made me feel less alone❤

[@Julesasaurus]

Girl I feel you with tiktok, I was so susceptible to doom scrolling. I’ve had it deleted from my phone for 2+ weeks now and it’s been so helpful to my overall mental health

[@cherievictoire]

Kayli, you are such a beautiful person inside and out 🤍 Drop-dead gorgeous, but so humble and relatable and funny and your videos have helped me so so much to look and feel like the best version of myself 🫶🏻 I am so sorry you’ve been going a lot lately. You deserve the world and I hope that the trials you’re experiencing right now get resolved soon! So proud of you for pushing through and continuing to work through it all anyway 🥺

[@sarahkaltenecker]

it's sooo important to take the steps to try and get out of our slumps. it's so tiring and heartbreaking to keep living in a depressive state, but it's 10000x worth it to put in the work for yourself- to make appointments, prioritize healthy sleep hygiene, going on walks or working out, to meditate and practice self care on a deeper level than buying trendy self care items. every so often I fall back into a depressive episode, I started getting them when I was in high school and I'm now 27. by now, I know what needs to be done. it's still not easy but discipline and routine helps a lot. best of luck, thanks for sharing your journey xx

[@ilonak7841]

I lost a family member recently too and I understand how hard it is. Thank you for your honesty, it really helpful to talk about it and to listen each other stories and experiences. It helps to understand that you’re not alone. I hope you’ll be better soon ❤

[@Hope-y5d]

We love you girl! you got this. I have never seen a better KZbin then you!!!

[@Cass0507]

I loveeee your content, especially with how perfect timing this video was. No one in my life understands when I try to describe days or weeks like these so you’ve made me and I’m sure many other people feel not so alone in this strange journey through life. Keep your head up, you’re amazing ❤

[@homebakery75]

I love kayli because she is just so real while talking about her mental health. It makes you feel less lonely to know everyone has problems.

[@Julia96467]

OMG I loooove long videos from you!!! You’re my fav KZbinr ever!!! So pure, authentic and just the best! 💕💕

[@MelitaBintoro]

so relatable, i'm pulling myself out of a depressive episode this whole month. i also had lists of small self care things to do daily and attempt to pick myself back up slowly. i mean now my hair and skin look better than before but my mind and mental chatter... still in slow process. your vids been helping me through this though! thanks and peace and love to youuu

[@arooshbanday3054]

I can relate with you so much. Shutting down , zoning out , hating yourself that desire to run away is so real and just so you know you aren't alone ....❤

[@gesarenyandusi5517]

thank you for posting, the last bit really touched my soul 🤗, you being so real and vulnerable is so appreciated

[@RosieAmber]

hope your dooing better, ive struggled very badly with mental health and its refreshing to hear an content creator be honest about bad times as well as good times with similar issues as me, just know that it will get better ! tiktok all though im addicted is extremely damadging at times which is why i have been watching more youtube but whenever i feel low Kayli you are one of the youtubers i will go to watch you can always put a smile on my face and your kindness is so inspiring - just know that you a lovely person and things will get better soon

[@LuvelyAura]

Honestly, I’m so happy I follow you because you show what the real world is like and what dealing with depression looks like. I have been in a rut lately too and with it raining all the time my seasonal depression gets worse. It’s just nice to see someone show what life is for most people and that everything on social media is mainly just a highlight reel.

[@samanthaklaseen8243]

Just sending love. I think you're so incredibly brave and strong to suffer from depression/mental illness AND still share your life with the world. Thanks for being you and being here.

[@caitlynpereiraaa]

watching these videos helps me out so much, i truly appreciate you for everything you do and everything you put out for us and into the universe & i love you

[@sheenfull]

Hello! I've prepared an aesthetic desk makeover video, if you're interested, I'm waiting for your comments and follow!! Thanks in advance! I'm excited for your feedback.

[@mad_dy00]

Sorry to hear about your struggles and thank you for being so honest. Mental health is so important and it's good people start talking about it more, it definitely spreads awareness. So thank you. Sending hugs your way! 🫶🏻

[@mckennabradshaw2914]

Kayli, thank you for being so raw and real. Your heart is beautiful and strong, and I know firsthand how hard it is to care for yourself while battling depression. The mere action of accepting you're in a bad mental space is hard enough, so I'm proud of you for fighting for your peace. All the love to you

[@fernandarochha]

I really appreciate this raw honesty. Depression episodes are so hard, and having a routine is probably the best thing you can do. Hope these episodes get lesser as time goes by❤

[@martineravnbol4392]

Discipline💪🏼 Love it! That’s why martial arts are so great, they teach you discipline and strength

[@TW40713]

Kayli your my favorite youtuber I love it when people are realistic and not 24/7 "aesthetic" and productive. ily❤

[@lizbarrand7701]

You’ve already said everything. Respect your strength & awareness. I’ve been through this & going thru it right now myself. Sending you ❤

[@ayiraaa]

Your honesty and openness is so refreshing! I love you so much Kayli, you are an inspiration to me, and you have truly helped me so much. You are gorgeous, have stunning eyes, and so pretty 💕Thank you for being you, even on camera!

[@briyanna7008]

Watching your videos has helped me so much to know that I am not alone when it comes to my mental health. Thank you for everything you do ❤you Kayli.

[@gabrielaa0006]

This video couldn’t have happened at a better moment for me. Thank you for sharing this and for serving as a reminder that getting better is an option. I sometimes get stuck as you said in the wanting to get better but not at the same time so I sabotage myself because subconsciously staying depressed is more comfortable because it’s familiar. And a change is weird so I struggle with that a lot. Please keep on talking about this and making these types of videos. It personally really helps me.

[@JustineRichard4647]

Thank you Kayli for doing this, it allows a ton of people who are sometimes struggling just like you to get up and get better just like you ! ❤❤😊

[@T9J4M]

Such an inspiration you are my gosh! Love your outlook and attitude no matter the situation because you’re so real and just genuinely yourself! Even on your hard days you still seemed very aware of what needed to be done and knew you had to keep going (discipline) like yaaas girl! Thank you for being you! Adore and love you and your videos! ❤

[@miasmall5606]

Have been going through it myself as well, and it is scary but all I can do is try to better myself. Watching this video made me feel like I was not alone and this gave me so much comfort. I really admire you for making this video and uploading it. Social media has always been my enemy. I hate it. Watching this video though made me really feel better. So thank you for this.

[@marissaross2344]

thank you for posting this! I have been feeling like this on and off for a long time and it's motivating to see you fighting those "just do it tomorrow" type of bad thoughts.

[@TheScarredEclipse]

The ending speech was so true and powerful. Thank you, Kayli. We all need to hear this.

[@lovdrama]

Girl I totally understand you. I've been thru the same situation as you loosing important person in my life and had a few downs at the same time. It gets better I tell you. Early twenty and mid twenty are hard, but it will eventually get better by knowing yourself better. Take some time for yourself and don't be on IG for too long. It makes you envy others and thats bad for you. Make more time for selfcare and selflove. Do something that you love and you enjoy helps. Prioritized yourself.❤

[@sophiaizzy]

So sorry to hear you're going through it, sending lots of love your way and I promise things get better!! I'm always here for anyone who needs to talk / needs any support ❤

[@awaye1]

Sending love! We all go through moments like this, but not letting it define you is winning. Thank you for making others feel less alone xx

[@thatbossybeaver]

sending lots of love to you. you’re special. I’m also tired of being sad

[@MirandaCoxx]

Sending you lots of love and I’m so proud of you! You’re doing great and I love how real you are with your fans and how you talk about mental health and share your experiences. I hope you’re doing better and everything gets better for you

[@itsliterallychloe8388]

i absolutely love your videos Kayli, especially ones like these. i myself suffer with depression and it has so many sides and i am so happy you show this and explain this. it always makes me feel better and not so alone to see someone i look up to go through the same problems. you are such a warrior and i am so proud of you. thank you for showing us all that you and anyone are capable of more!

[@alexisb646]

I really like these type of mental health videos. It’s transparent and you feel less alone knowing that it’s just a temporary human emotion, and EVERYONE goes thru it.

[@p1nkiez9ie]

thank you so much this video truly inspires me to get up and do something about my mental health. you’re a beautiful person 💗

[@Nisaanurrrrr]

I I just discovered you. I was listening to you to improve my English. Also, as I understand from the comments, you are going through or have gone through a difficult process.I'm telling you as a woman that you are a very strong person and you can overcome everything even if it's hard. just believe in yourself. I strongly believe in this. what you believe is what it is. I hope you become a brand new you soon and we continue to see you as a wonderful woman. i love you

[@maeveisherelol]

Turk buldum-

[@Nisaanurrrrr]

@@maeveisherelol I was looking for a stranger too😂😂

[@emaleefaith1204]

as soon as i first came across your channel you motivated me and inspired me to do more for myself, and you’ve actually helped my depressive episodes and mental health in general! i appreciate how real and honest your videos are. THANK YOU 🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@bbhybris]

Super real. I had to give up Tiktok too, just one awful video would ruin my mood completely. Getting through and managing mental health struggles without medication is tricky but worth it, stick with it

[@clorissawalker7412]

What you said at the end of this video omg. Yes preach 📢 I’ve been in such a depressive state but I’m trying to get out of it. Not be so lazy to bend over and pick something up to throw away, little things

[@oogie_11]

Girl this video popped up in my recommend and I’ve been in a depressive episode since January and have been struggling on and off. I really needed to see this video! Makes me feel less alone in this healing journey

[@gigitijarain]

Same. Since January I feel like crap

[@kayedrds2373]

Only 4 minutes and 15 seconds into the video but I love how open you are with us. I really love all of your content, especially when you just talk to us and walk us through how you feel. I wish you all the happiness. I feel like this is crazy timing, because all last week I was in an insanely sad mood and I actually had a panic attack this past Sunday night. A friend calmed me completely down, then all this week I have been in such a hopeful, calm and peaceful mood . So for you to post about a depressive episode right when I'm coming out of one is interesting timing. I love you Kayli ♡

[@shrinikasharma6348]

Gowrllll U DONT DESERVE THE HATE AT ALL!! I’m so inspired by you and literally are my role model ❤ Also ur so beautiful and I love the honesty and vulnerability. You’re so genuine and graceful too! ❤

[@iino07]

This video will serve as a reminder to make sure I practice self care and mindfulness whenever I feel myself spiralling into a depressive episode. Thank you ❤️

[@ladybug21rain]

I love watching your videos because it feels like we are just hanging out as friends. You are amazing and the good always out ways the bad. Us as pisces have to stick together and I thought I was the only one who gets into these slumps so I appreciate the transparency. Love 💕

[@melindasnyder5974]

I started with a nail video and have been binge watching your content ever since, and this video just kind of hit home for me. I have also struggled a lot with my anxiety, depression, and OCD over the years and while I’m on a med combo that works for me, there are still times when I need to remember that sometimes you just have to focus inward and take the actions that you know will help you. Like exercising…that’s the toughest one for me to stick with even though I KNOW it will make me feel better (and look better, lol). Anyway just wanted to say thank you for being so real and sharing this with the internet, it’s nice to know we aren’t alone in this ❤

[@sharic1871]

ive been stuggling with my mental health for a while. I recently started therapy and so far it has helped me with the amount of overthinking and dealing with my emotions. Ive recently fallen in another depressive episode, your video has really helped me to get me to try again. Thank you

[@andrealopez-tt9fw]

Hi Kayli, I was in a rut myself for a couple days I have been feeling unmotivated. I’m 4 mins into your video and hearing you speak about your situation and mental health already made me feel better. Thank you for sharing and I hope you feel better soon ❤😊

[@Emily.J.]

Yesss, I recognized feeling like crap yesterday and woke myself up early and went to the gym. Exercise is that thing that I don't do when I feel horrible but it always makes me feel better! That's literally thanks to your videos, they're so inspiring and motivating for me. Because you show real life and your real self. I can hardly ever find any other content as real and helpful as yours are. Tysm!!

[@user-pb4dz6mc6n]

I love this!!! I have suffered from depression too. I completely understand what you say about the unbalance between rationality and impulsive depression thoughts.

[@nataliemarie6348]

Self care always helps with anxiety and depression love it!

[@ЛенаПопова-ь4й]

i feel so calm and alive watching you…like im doing all this stuff with you, thank you so much for making this content

[@glowuphandbook]

Great video! I love the honestly. I struggle with depression too so this helps to see what works for others. I totally agree about working to move forward instead is sitting in it.

[@Adinamfeldman]

Loooove the mental health content!! I’m almost done with my masters degree in mental health counseling, and I’m working full time now as a counselor! We gotta keep talking about and normalizing mental health problems. So many people don’t reach out to professionals or do their own research into their mental health because of the shame and stigma. It’s normal to feel well sometimes and to feel unwell other times. We have to get to know ourselves and our mental illnesses, and we have to get to know what makes us feel good or bad.

[@victokita6275]

i needed this. i have been in a slump too, it feels like the world is crashing in. love everyone 💓

[@clarissastevens4915]

i love you Kayli!!! I also just went through the loss of a family member as well. We’re here for you!! We love you sm❤

[@georgiaroberts7421]

You are so strong, and have inspired me to do the same for myself 🥰 thank you, and keep taking care of yourself!

[@TsurenaiYoru]

i'm so sorry for your loss. I know it can be difficult, especially when you have a mental illness. When I lost my Nana it got really bad, out depression was so horrible that I started to SH again when I had been clean for 2 years. It will get easier, doing a detox and refresh is so good for your health and is 100% the best thing to help with mental health

[@tracy361361]

Aww Kayli I hope you feel better. I love your videos. They help me so much with my self care

[@GraceKoenigstein]

Hi Kayli, I really enjoyed this video. I have been recently going through a tough time mentally too, and even feeling overwhelmed and panicked about little things or even the future. Especially as I've gotten older, being 20 now, I've definitely noticed my mental state and been more aware of it. I just want to thank you for making this video, it doesn't make me feel alone and I think I might try out my own list sometime and see what helps me through it :). Thank you

[@newdawn_draws]

I have been going through the cycle of depression and anxiety (sometimes both at the same time yay!) for 25 years. I haven’t been on medication for many years now and I have lots of methods I use to stay mentally healthy but still the cycle is there. I’m crawling out of my latest depressive episode now and the last few days I have been watching your videos because I haven’t been looking after myself and I have been seriously neglecting self care. You have helped so much. I just wanted to stop and say what you do is important ❤

[@LC.1990]

I read an article written by a psychiatrist explaining that if you've been diagnosed with depression that it is important to be on medication, most likely forever, because it may become very difficult to treat the depression otherwise. I guess that it will become worse over time? I hope you're feeling better.

[@margaritagaona]

So relatable..🥺. I hope you feel better soon. Great job on pushing your self through it ✨ We are here for you.

[@Kufalk.equestrian]

I love this so much! It's so helpful and I feel people need to hear that yes it's ok to be depressed or have anxiety but you can do things to improve those conditions. ❤

[@sassophoto]

kayli 💕 I never really comment, but I want you to know that you are so beautiful on the inside and out. I wish I could give you a big hug + I'm so proud of you for doing your best to pour love into yourself when you need it most. i love you + your content so much, and am so grateful for you❤

[@sera315]

I'm healing on my mental health now. I almost healed a lot and leave 2022's memories out of my brain but in this moment I unfortunately start watching some videos which was totally make me feel bad about myself which was totally unrelatable and nothing to do with my life. I know those people are suck but still I almost developed some phobias on small things. Right now I'm try to eating healthy and stop overthinking about everything and watching those videos which actually suit on my personality ❤

[@honeybunnybunny1958]

Literally what I was doing and what I do! I purposely let myself go down a rabbit hole so that I distract myself but like you I’ve realized this is not healthy and it’s time to dig myself out of this dark deep hole.

[@rebeccapowell7669]

I really appreciate your openness--you're not alone girl!

[@owletsamahelps]

I am so sorry what you are going through. I feel you so much.. My cat died a few months ago, she was with me for 14 years and I still haven't recovered fully, last week my (ex?)boyfriend of over 3 years and I had such a rough spot where we talked about our future and his mother is suddenly switching up her mind about me and he has chosen her side instead of mine and we haven't talked for almost 2 weeks now. I have never been so depressed, sad and lost and nothing really helps my mood or this numb but at the same time sad feeling :( I hope you will be doing fine and better each depressed episode, hang in there.

[@honeybunnybunny1958]

The end of 2022 and beginning of 2023 have been so rough but I was doing okay up on to the last 8 weeks I’d say. It’s really hard after it’s been some time of not having an episode and then having one. I’m grateful for this video because this time around it quite literally feels like I’m crawling out of a battle. On every human level ❤️‍🩹this time…I’m fighting , fighting to not let it keep me down. Thank you for sharing this…it reminds me I’m not the only one ❤

[@nathrossattoo]

hope you get better soon! if you need to take a break from youtube, do it, we wil be here when you feel safe to come back

[@iridescenrose]

it’s so refreshing to see you and your boyfriend living a peaceful, private life. also, you did an amazing job with taking care of yourself. we are more powerful than we think 💕

[@arianahill4305]

I feel you girl... im sorry for your loss. I lost my mother March 2 2023.. love you girl.. your amazing.. keep pushing

[@hhoneyteaa]

im sorry for your loss too 🥺 but i know ur strong and can push thru, even if it takes awhile. God bless you 💕

[@celestevazquez9325]

I truly appreciate you for this video. This was super real and relatable. I hope you are feeling better.

[@WooopieBooopie]

I really really needed those last words about self dicipline right now, thank you kayli

[@עינבחיימס]

Hi, You've said you decided to not look at comments, but I hope you'll read this. Thank you for this important video and thank you for sharing this unconventional subject here. It's not obvious, although a lot of influencers start to raise the issue to awareness. You gave me (and I'm sure for many more people) a lot of strength. Thank you❤

[@peacelovejess.9015]

Proud of you babe! Getting out of these episodes is haaard. You’re looking great, doing amazing. Love all of your content ❤

[@hannahlorettadetlefs5143]

As someone who doesnt eat fast food at all, once you start to not eating it anymore you dont want it anymore cause it makes you feel kinda dirty (cause of the bad ingredients). And I loveee your videos, they are like therapy🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@southernbella8503]

This video was so honest and real. I don't even know you, but I am still so proud of you, Kayli! I know depression can be tough and feel crushing, but you've got this!