Lets catch up...

[@ajbombi]

Sammi omg I’ve been watching since thebeautycrush days and this metamorphosis you’re going through is amazing to see. I look forward to all your future endeavors! I can’t wait to shop your summer collection!!

[@ajbombi]

And re-doing your twist on camera? MOMENT! Side note: all kinds of black women who wear twists braid the top part for security!

[@SimpleeGigi]

Yass girl same here I truly missed her and I know she’s gonna be okay she’s a strong women

[@ama.p3nn]

What she said 💁🏾‍♀️

[@piscis120390]

I CAN'T WAIT TO THE SUMMER COLLECTION, can it be shipped to Spain?

[@crystalp3045]

Sameeee!

[@Akanchwua]

Sam, I've watched you since I was about 14 and I'm now 23, it's been such a strange experience watching you grow and evolve over the years, through different experiences and relationships. It's so wonderful to see you standing in your power, despite the difficult circumstances. Sending much love and light.

[@s.robinson971]

Same i feel like I am seeing her grow while i have been growing through my phases life is changing for us all

[@uknaturalhair7027]

❤️ well said

[@goldencrown15]

I have been watching her for the same time, I am 23 now as well, completly relate to your comment, much love Sammi, I have been admiring you since I was a teenager and you were one of the people that inspired my love for makeup :)

[@soniasmith1998]

Same here I’ve been watching her since I was 12 I’m now 21 ☺️

[@Indieviduall]

me too!!! 14 to 23 gang

[@lisadarlington7603]

I’m gutted for you, life is hard, marriage is hard, marriage is even harder when one of you is struggling mentally. Marriage is hard with a first child. My husband and I separated after 3 years of marriage. He wouldn’t divorce me, we just lived our lives separate for a while. He did him. I did me. He did what made him happy, I found myself again and sorted my mind and 18 months later we dated again, we’ve now been back together for 5 years, we appreciate each other more and now have a second child. We grow we change. Take your time. Be you. You never know what the future will bring, but always be yourself x

[@ShadeShannon]

This is beautiful ❤️

[@ravenrichardson5584]

Lovely ❤️

[@pamelad6684]

❤️

[@charlenenorman1679]

💯

[@lenalenalenalo]

So beautiful 💕

[@sorchx]

If you two really weren't meant to be, separating when the child is very young is the best thing you can do. I was traumatised by my parents throughout my life, I used to beg my Mother to leave my father. It was a childhood of screaming, toxic energy, name calling, abusive patterns. They finally separated once I reached 19 but wow I think my life would have been far better and theirs too if they had just been honest that their was no marriage left.

[@keyairah69]

this was EXACTLY my childhood, I completely agree

[@itsme-ij1zm]

but her and jason are not abusive and they should of stayed together, life isnt always perfect for gods sake

[@Pestopasta_]

anna I don’t think they meant Sammi and Jason are abusive but that they could potentially become so unhappy with each other that their attitudes towards each other and their energy in their house could affect their child

[@MerveilleK]

Wow

[@26Sundrops]

@@itsme-ij1zm They should do what is right for them. You don't know what their marriage was like. You can't make that call. You have a lot to learn about relationships and the world if you think that couples should always stay together no matter what.

[@FromKanyisola]

“There’s no tea, that’s not my brand” that’s iconic. Wishing you the best sis ❤️

[@liacharisma]

"There's no tea, that's not my brand." Love that.

[@SelmaaC]

It was her brand with her previous relationship tho, she told she’s been abused and all that on her channel after that break up🙄

[@missb_8816]

@@SelmaaC that was necessary.. that message needed to be out there for people going through the same things

[@SarahFrom5to7]

@Jenny completely agree with this response. Disappointingly judgy comment from that person.

[@optimisticrealismx5829]

So all you can do is lame arse comment..when she just said shes broken up with her baby father.

[@lashielove83]

optimisticrealism *husband

[@dshybella]

You just fixing your braid on camera is the Sam I remember. Hey you’ll be fine girlfriend. ❤️🙏🏽

[@soilgrasswaterair]

When you went to Copenhagen you had this different air to you, like your shoulders were just with less weight on them. I didn’t comment on it because it wasn’t my business + didn’t want to start something that would potentially get the comments going. It’s weird how so many of us females can sense what another female is expressing without saying one word, it’s sort of still somehow communicated with the body language without intention. Might be to do with us often being raised to be attentive of others? You have a good head on your shoulders, you’ll be more than ok💕

[@kadi611]

I also sensed this girl, and before this video started, I knew exactly what she was going to say. I felt it. She is so strong ❤

[@beatriz9024]

me too. saw it coming somehow. the energy between them seemed different. Wish you a lot of happyness Sami. All will be good.

[@alexishess713]

I totally feel the same!

[@SheilaPairADice]

Soilgrasswaterair I had the exact same feeling but didn't want to comment for the same reasons you stated. I've been following Sam since her Beauty Crush days and feel like she's my little sister. She's grown up so much and I admire her, she'll be just fine.

[@dee80ful]

I agree, I sensed a sadness..x..

[@Gin19]

This video had a “coming home” feel. Felt so genuine, liberating, and peaceful ❤️ be blessed!

[@monicadinh526]

The moment you said, "I hope you're honoring yourself & what you need," that hit me so hard. I have been watching you since beautycrush back in 2012 when I was in high school. It has been so beautiful to watch you evolve into the woman you are today. Someone in the comments said that this video had a "coming home to yourself" kind of vibe & I couldn't agree more. Wishing you all the best in the future Sammi -xoxo

[@jessthechess]

I've literally watched you consistently for a decade. And it's weird how you can sense when someone isn't happy despite never meeting face to face. I hope you're on the road to pure happiness because you deserve it! You and Indie xx

[@HeyNellie]

Think this calls for a trip to Guyana (once the borders open up and things settle down), you'll find nothing more healing than a trip to your motherland!

[@Mayrows]

Or the Caribbean

[@glitterheaddentaldiaries5825]

I have been following you since beautycrush when you used rimmel east end snob and MAC Russian red on the regular. DO U REMEMBER THE DAYS?! Seriously I love your vibe your energy everything. You’ve been a huge inspiration to me in so many ways and I really value your presence in this place. Thank you for taking the time to make your videos and share your life. You don’t know who needs it🖤

[@hayleylouise4693]

Same!!

[@glitterheaddentaldiaries5825]

Hayley Louise love her so much!!❤️

[@BurnItUpp2009]

Same here!❤️

[@OhhhhShootGirl]

Yes! I purchased Mac Russian Red because of her lol. ❤️

[@Hannah-ot8bp]

I brought Russian Red because of Sam! And Cherry lip pencil!

[@hfs212000]

I admire your courage for leaving. People are so rushed in getting married when they conceive and then stay in an unhappy marriage because of a child. Women are usually pushed to give up a huge part of themselves when they have a child. Leaving is such a powerful thing to do. I hope the best for you, Jason and especially indie 💙💙💙

[@hfs212000]

@Mrs. Michael Jackson Divinity in motion what!?

[@candygram501]

I swear, you’ve never looked more radiant and stunning. You would actually look amazing with a shaved head!

[@princesslve]

Maaaaaaan I’ve been watching Sammie since BeautyCrush days and seeing how much she’s flourished in every aspect just warms my heart.

[@msf0708]

This is an introvert thriving. Some people just really shine when they are on their own. Not to say that it always has to be that way but she seems calm x

[@balisandra94]

Yes, absolutely

[@melissasmith4372]

Yes, agreed

[@esikazemese]

I don't know who are you watching. I opened this video, and without saying a word I could tell she is grieving.

[@msf0708]

esikazemese Yes I would suspect she is, of course. I agree, but in terms of what she said about the spiritual awakening she’s going through. Seems like she very much knows who she is right now.

[@gapsbetweenstars]

Sam I just want to say I'm so proud of you for embracing this period of change, this is your blossoming and it's going to be hard but so worth it. I've just gone through a break-up of a 5-year relationship and I'm finding out how to be more true to myself in sooo many areas of my life; as a black woman, as someone creative and someone who has lacked self esteem & struggled with my mental health for a long ass time and cared too much about what others have thought that I forgot I mattered and that I deserved to be treated well. I believe us, sending massive love xx

[@snagshorror716]

Well said! 😊

[@nich2.0]

Yay....She is back. For the first time in a long time...This feels like you. I feel that this journey you have been on and continue to embrace has just bloomed. Even the tone of the video had a very warm sunny feel to it. Form the lighting, furniture even just the simple outfit you have on. You seem so much more relaxed, even inviting us in on your hair and how you do the braids. Welcome back...🥂

[@janad.]

This is so clear spoken. Really feels like she’s herself more than ever before. Been watching for years and this video felt like pure clarity and just her being herself

[@teebee4116]

I know I don’t actually know you but I really feel like I’ve grown up with you. You were one of the first KZbinrs I followed religiously especially because at that time most of the popular KZbinrs were American. I related to you so much & it was so fun & heartwarming watching you turn a hobby from your bedroom into a viable career. I’ll admit in the last few years I quietly questioned if you were happy. Although you presented yourself as the smiley Sammi we knew it didn’t always feel authentic. Hearing you’ve been going through a hard time breaks my heart but I’m so happy that you’ve managed to really take the time to find yourself & listen to what to what your heart really wants. As a long time viewer I’ve noticed the change in you, You seem so much more confident & ready to talk on issues you previously would have kept quiet on, you seem to really be coming to terms with who you are as a person & you’re growth & happiness is so noticeable. I know things are difficult right now but please keep pushing through Sammi, you’ve got this!! I’ve been rooting for you all these years & I will continue to do so.x

[@jennyr5642]

I’m so sorry to hear you’ve separated, I sensed this months ago when there was no sign of him on your socials. Well done for leaving a relationship that clearly wasn’t making you happy , it takes an awful lot of strength to do that . Look to the future & embrace this new chapter of your life . It will be hard , but you’ll get through it and have your peace of mind . Take care x

[@MissAdamLambert888]

Exactly. She never really seemed happy nor herself with him...glad she can do better and deserves better too.

[@sophiatownsend4790]

@@MissAdamLambert888 we dont know that. Relationships change and evolve I doubt she was NEVER happy. Sometimes feelings and people change, you grow apart, or you slowly stop growing all together and become a shell. It's not always controversial. Change happens and it's no one's fault. As she said, no tea.

[@shaunasm90]

That's a lovely reply Jenny. I agree

[@FemmePursuit]

She never even said she left him, he might have left her for all you know..

[@Katielomax7]

MissAdamLambert888 really unfair to say, im sure she doesn’t want to see comments like this. We see minutes into youtubers relationships, we never see the whole picture. Very unfair on Jason as well to say she deserves better than him - remember you dont know either of them personally.

[@kanampersand]

"there is no tea, that's not my brand." It's all good Sammi. Wishing the best for you and Indie.

[@pudddingpie]

Ok girl I finally see you coming through being proud of your black self! Show your spiritual side, be you don’t hold back. You seem so much more at peace xx

[@justineleconte]

"To anyone coming for tea: there's no tea". THANK YOU!! 🌷

[@Linda-dc7rl]

In the 10 years, I've been watching you, there's always been a partner in the picture. So It will be interesting and great to see you independent of a relationship. Thank you for being transparent and sincere during such a difficult time! wishing you the very best!

[@up4itgal]

I had a feeling. I felt it around the time you were in Copenhagen for some reason. I know you’ll be fine. You were already independent before you moved. You’ll do better... ❤️❤️

[@ks-1995-]

Me too...

[@MissAdamLambert888]

Exactly!!! She looked SO sad. I felt bad for her. It's none of my business but she deserved better too. He just seemed "there" and that's it. They had this weird awkward energy between them on camera and I always felt they she deserved better.

[@namibianamibia1138]

Exactly what I thoughy too

[@surlespasdondine]

their wedding video though💘😢

[@citrises]

Oh wow so sorry to hear this. All the love to you and your family. Hope you can all heal and find your new normal. It has been such a crazy year alone. Forgive yourselves and look after yourself xx I also agree about the natural hair thing and keeping away from braids so true, subconsciously wanting to assimulate.

[@SamanthaMaria]

Thank you xx

[@SmartistaBeauty]

I am so sorry you’re going through this, but I know there is so much beauty and awakening on the other side. I see so much light already peaking through ☀️ wishing you a peaceful journey

[@gracevidela-nash965]

GIRLLLLLL, I can 100% relate to this. Being of mixed race, I always felt like I had to tame my hair and hide my curls. This BLM movement and the murder of George Flloyd really revealed how much I use to suppress my black roots by trying to assimilate in a white supremacist society. I am now just realizing how proud I should be to have African ancestry and characteristics. Love this video. Thank you x

[@MissBTES]

@TEA WITH MOLLY oh be quiet. The fact that her comment didn’t even target you, nor did she disrespect white people, yet you felt personally attacked and targeted by it. And your comment bringing up George Floyd’s criminal record to try and justify his murder speaks volumes about what you stand for. You’re the problem with society. She’s complaining about white supremacist systems and oppressive attitudes SHE, I and many other people of colour have faced up to, so for you to jump in and try and invalidate that is disgusting. I’ve experienced racism from schools, in job industries, and I’ve lived both in London and the north and the racism I experienced in the north was unimaginable. We would literally get called the n word on the street from people driving by in cars, seen my friend attacked and get her Afro yanked at because she wore it out one day (she had to fight them off), and on many occasions when entering establishments I would get stared at literally as if I wasn’t meant to be there. You even brought in your white whataboutism by trying to shout over a Black woman’s experience by bringing up your own as a white woman when no one asked. Who are you to swan in here, try to silence Black women, and tell people of colour not to speak up about their shared experiences and what they want to see changed. Many white people agree and love the fact that these issues are being spoken up about and are allies to the cause and helping stamp out racial inequality, so it’s actually you and ignorant self centred people like you that are making other white people look bad, certainly not the woman who’s comment you needlessly responded to.

[@NoaPenda]

2020 is just that one year that is shaking so many things to the core. I guess God is using this year to awaken us to look deeper within ourselves, listen to our inner voice and express how we are genuinely feeling, and just be true to our feelings. Its really a very personal year. I'm glad to see you being all smiling in he midst of everything ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@tristybrooke33]

Yes SIS!!!

[@efe8085]

Yasss, I'm so here for the spiritual content. I think spreading that kind of knowledge and potentially awakening someone to their purpose/calling will be very healing for you. Obviously a separation with a child involved isn't easy at all and everyone has to heal in their own way. But whenever I am dealing with anything heavy emotionally, being of service to other people/spreading happiness is tremendously healing for me. Like you said we are all going to die one day, and above all else, the thing we will treasure the most and leave on this earth as our legacy is the way we have positively impacted people.

[@DanielleLera]

Im so sorry. I know its difficult. Take your time with this. Im 4 years passed my separation/divorce and it just took time and getting up and stumbling, going through the motions, being angry and feeling all the feelings. Leaning on the people who love me. Going through therapy and learning myself again. I know you will get through it. Love and light to you! ❤️

[@laylag76]

“I hope you’re honouring yourselves and what you need, because it’s not selfish to do that.” Absolutely love that, thank you. 💜

[@itsme-ij1zm]

it is selfish to split up for no reason when you have a child together, no marriage or relationship is perfect but people carry on and get ON with life

[@theamethyst93]

I just wanted to say that as a black woman it’s refreshing to see you embracing black beauty and features. Your twists are beautiful, you look stunning.

[@alext3480]

the half black side of her

[@WhoWhatWhereWhy36]

@@alext3480 thank you. So many mixed race people hate to be rounded off as one race or another. I acknowledge each ethnicity im mixed with equally. Although Sammys twists do look 🔥🔥

[@brittsade3713]

I was thinking the same. Love it.

[@destineere9515]

@@WhoWhatWhereWhy36 She never stated that Samantha was a black woman.. The original commenter was saying the she, "herself" was black and that she felt proud that Sam was embracing that side of herself more than she used to.

[@patriciabrown1507]

Of anybody... the black side is beautiful and the white side is beautiful or whatever race There are a lot of "black" biracial people who don't look mixed. Most black people are multi race anyways. All races are beautiful.

[@zoepalfx6141]

I feel like just watching this video you seem so much more natural and you seem more spiritually “free”... if that even makes sense 🤨 I’m excited for your next chapter, do what makes you happy x

[@d26s10]

Zoe Palfreyman yeah she’s talking with so much more strength and assurance in her voice. Go Sam!

[@chamster91]

100%

[@hannahmariajones7531]

although there is sadness, I see so much hope and excitement in your eyes. you're glowing Sammi, and the future is yours x

[@mxyaz748]

I see your inner child. If you feel like your going through a spiritual awakening keep going!!! I recommend meditation

[@The7Marie]

Motherhood catapulted my spiritual awakening as well. It can be a tough journey. Relationships change drastically. Can be super lonely, but you aren’t alone. Bless you Sammy, been watching you for years, you are amazing.

[@mond5601]

"There are many signs of what is actually true to you but if you keep ignoring them.. it just doesn't work" This is so me in my life right now! For some reason this video did not show up in my subscription box but I am glad I went looking. it felt so personal and raw. Like just catching up. Missed you. And am really looking forward to whats to come

[@aliceolofsson3446]

I find it really interesting when you’re talking about “deeper” topics, you have good things to say!

[@JessicaLou15]

Agreed, I throughly enjoyed this video despite the unfortunate news 💕

[@IceIceIfe]

It’s so lovely watching you embrace your blackness through your hair. You look GORGEOUS with braids and in any style but it’s nice to see you grow more confident in yourself and identity.

[@simpleDIYs]

So much of what you said about BLM really hits home for me -- the anger, the conflicted feelings over whether you should have to expend emotional labor to teach those around you, the desire to reject eurocentric beauty standards in favor of natural black hair. I've been watching your channel for years and I've never identified with you more than in this video. I hope you're doing okay and I can't wait to see how these changes in your mindset translate to new videos (whenever you're ready!). ❤️

[@ariberry11614955]

I’ve felt a lot of that anger too, it’s so strange but years of suppressing it, it’s felt nice to speak up

[@only1lsh]

I second, everything you said in your comment x

[@skdouglas8581]

feel the same way completely

[@MissBTES]

💜

[@a.e2385]

I already had a feeling for years that you weren't happy with him, crazy

[@26Sundrops]

I remember a scene when they were in the car at one point and she was talking about the mental health difficulties that I think Jason was dealing with at the time. That's when I started having a hunch that it wasn't quite right, but I hoped for the best. I didn't even realize they were separating until this video so I accidentally mentioned something about her engagement vlog on her instagram story about her new collection just this morning. Ugh I felt horrible when I realized what happened!

[@pinkyytink]

I felt that way too!

[@rdunyc554]

Yes! Same here. I'm not a consistent follower, but I do remember seeing a video of them and sensing his oppressive presence over her. I thought to myself, I hope she finds someone who edifies her, because he was not it. As someone who doesn't follow her channel, and wasn't really familiar, I sensed that immediately. But now I am a subscriber and can't wait to see her grow and rise in her journey!

[@26Sundrops]

@@rdunyc554 Hey now, we don't have to demonize him in order to support Sammi. I don't think any of us could know what was really going on, all we know is what we see in vlogs. It's possible that they just weren't clicking anymore. It might not mean that he was "oppressive" or anything like that. Let's just follow Sammi's lead and look forward to seeing where her future will take her.

[@MiSmity]

I literally pop to her channel every couple of months to see if she is ok because she always seems so sad. Glad she is on the path to healing🍃🌺🍃

[@louisagolightly5627]

Hi Sammi, i'm so sorry for you. Maybe that helps: I was exactly Indie's age when my parents seperated. They both did the most wonderful job raising me to the women i am today. I've never felt bad about my parents not being together. I'm sure you both will do the most wonderful job with raising Indie as seperated parents. Don't worry, everything will be fine :) xxx Louisa

[@Sheldon1411]

Felt mixed feelings throughout this video. Whilst it's sad to hear about the separation, at the same time, it seems like you're going through a needed change and growth. Thank you for being raw and honest about your current situation and it reminds me about what's important in life.

[@chelseahardrick9362]

Sorry to hear about you and Jason, but I am glad to see you back! You are an amazing person!❤️❤️

[@marip0sa24]

"There's no tea...it's not my brand" You should put that on a t shirt. 💖 it!

[@resu647]

Please!! I would buy it!

[@Lliiv]

This might be a random comment, but regarding the feelings you have towards your hair, I feel like you should read the book 'Don't Touch My Hair' by Emma Dabiri. It's about how black hair has been stigmatized throughout history and the author sharing her journey to loving her hair. Like you, she describes her hair as 'kinky'. I wish you all the best

[@sesayida]

Wow thanks I will read it tol

[@victoriajade9430]

i feel like a lightbulb switched on with the george floyd death and my "blackness". I was one factor that influenced me shaving my hair off. I felt so angry with the world and how many people couldn't see the need to change. People are dying because of the color of their skin! I dont think people understand how fickle that is! It became a time where I woke up and i said "Im going to be unapologetically black, and if that bothers you, i dont give a fuck" Im sure as a mixed race person there are struggles with mixed identity but im so happy to see a new you. Like a new awakening. Dont get me wrong i love my wigs and my inches but i felt like it was a safety blanket and a beauty standard that wasn't me. sorry for the long comment, you video really opened me up!

[@slimcutie08]

2020 the year everybody woke the eff up. This year is symbolic on so many levels.

[@xervia3032]

Lovelife08 I definitely agree with you...you can see and feel it - everything will be just fine 💕

[@Myaccount923]

2020 vision

[@suzlovesyou]

Awwww sorry to hear that Sammi. I’ve honestly watched your content since the beauty crush days. Stay safe and well ❤️

[@erinjoynson-evans1271]

I cannot wait to see what the future holds for you. You seem like you're becoming your genuine self and its SO good to see🌟🌟

[@dollymix347]

I remember even in the beautycrush days you were never happy or content with your hair for long, but now you have braids you seem so much more confident, it’s really nice to see ❤️

[@pharbear]

I’m glad you’re fully embracing yourself and your blackness. You are a beautiful strong woman. You and your baby will be fine, even more so now that you’re back in tune with yourself. Peace and blessings on your new journey.

[@heyglamourkillss]

“i hope you’re honouring yourselves and what you need.” 💗💗💗 sending you love and positive vibes sammi xx

[@HotWingzHotSauce]

I pray God heals your heart and fulfill the desires of your heart. Off topic : I absolutely LOVE these braids on you!! This should be your signature hairstyle

[@fatmabenelkilani5312]

"It's nice to be completely in your zone" That's it girl.

[@blottings]

As a mixed American follower that has been watching your channel for years now, it's so nice to see you acknowledge the BLM movement and grow more into your blackness by embrace black/protective hair styling. I too have struggled with my blackness, and I think as mixed people we have a unique experience being in such proximity to whiteness by having a white parent and family members.

[@ZoeMay]

"There is no tea, that's not my brand." You are so strong and wise Samantha. So sorry to hear about your separation. You are wonderful and incredibly blessed, things will get better. So much love to you and your your sweet girl 💗

[@shaniemarie14]

I can't explain it but I am loving her whole vibe. I love what she said about honouring yourself, it is never the selfish choice. Wishing you nothing but the best. x

[@JessieOlivas]

Sammi- I've been watching you since the beginning, probably about 10 years now. To see you evolve and being able to relate to you in so many ways is truly comforting. Just know, you have viewers like me that understand 100% and when you speak about your internal struggles even with your culture and society norms- I feel that also. As a mother and a fellow woman, losing yourself and your independence is a very stripping feeling and I am SO happy to see your growth and putting your happiness fiest. You're going to shine, you are evolving into such a beautiful, strong, and admirable woman. Love to see it! Keep doing you babe! Love, a fellow Leo ;) *we ALWAYS have it girl, even if it takes some struggle. We ALWAYS find our way back to us*

[@jessiklovecine]

Sammi its so inspiring to see your growth throughout the years. Of all the channels i’ve been keeping up with since I was a pre teen yours is the one I still connect to and feel like I’ve grown together with. Sending you all love and light! 💕

[@katieseles5290]

"I hope you're honouring yourselves and what you need, because it's not selfish to do that." Sending so much love and positive vibes your way Sam. Thank you for always being so honest and raw even when you're not feeling your true self. I needed this

[@la3900]

OG follower here. Never liked him for you from the start and always felt you were conforming yourself to fit an image that you thought he liked. No need for that. You’re drop dead gorgeous and a kind soul. You used to be so giggly and happy and he had such a draining presence.

[@ShardaeHannaVlog]

You dont know how happy this makes me!, watching you since the begging and you are for once toutching on real black issues on your channel. I know you might not have had the space too before or you didnt want to cause any issues on your channel, but you just toutching on it lightly here is HUGE!. sorry to hear about you and Jason also... Love your channel

[@annaw9687]

I agree! I remember she did a Q&A video a few years ago and when someone asked about race she said she’d never really thought about it. I got the sense that she was just avoiding conflict so it’s great to hear she’s finally ready to start discussing it!

[@ShardaeHannaVlog]

@@annaw9687 I agree! It's like she is finally free! And I'm so here for it. I'm not saying make it a political channel but it's nice to hear some perspective and truth from her.

[@ashleyb1091]

I’ve gonna through a separation and we have a kid. We separated 2 years ago and unfortunately we still struggle coparenting. I’m empathetic towards you and good luck. I’ve gotten a new serious relationship and Im very happy now. It’s an adjustment, but remember it takes time and I have to tell myself that too. Patience and self love is something I learned.

[@maggiecheung5369]

Sammi, you were the first KZbinr I started watching 11 years ago and this may sound cheesy but it’s been a really astounding journey to see how you have changed and grown. I too have developed in troughs and crests, it’s been bumpy but we are here now. I am so sorry that you were having a rough time, I hope that you are kind to yourself first and foremost :)

[@hollycesmina6253]

Hi Sammi I have followed you since beautycrush days too. I have always deeply resonated with you myself being half black raised by my white mum and white family. I have identified with all of the cultural identity conflicts you have spoken about on your channel regarding hair, skin tone and the confusion and learning that goes along with it(I even have the exact same natural hair type to you) I’ve never met you or spoken to you but have always felt like you are a friend who just lives far away. I just wanted to express how much I admire you. Your strength and articulate way of discussing your feelings and experiences is hugely appreciated and making such a difference for me and other mixed people who watch your work. You are beautiful inside and out. Much love x

[@kat0id]

Been following you for years, from the docs and curly blonde hair beautycrush days! I think this is the start of a new chapter for you and you are going to smash it 💜

[@heyruhela6214]

I just knew it in my heart. I could feel his absence. I hope you’re doing well! Sending you lots of love 🤍🤍🤍

[@Nicolebuenn]

Samantha, I'm going through a divorce too, and we also have a beautiful child together who is 9 months old. Divorce is normal, it happens and nothing to be ashamed of! I actually think its something to be celebrated bc u were strong enough to decide whats best for you!! Many people can't do that and stay in situations that drain them mentally and emotionally! So congrats to you for being so strong and wanting whats best for you, jason, and you're baby girl!

[@Nicolebuenn]

@@GJ-mt6ne thank you ❤

[@Jasmine-lj1ou]

One thing I've always thought about you since watching you for several years, is that you are stronger than you know Sammi! Always admired your humbleness, sweetness, how genuine you are. X

[@poppyspinks9198]

I had watched you so much in the past and i stopped because i'd sensed a lack of something i couldnt put my finger on. from seeing your instagram lately, i decided to come back and watched this video. SO glad i did. lovely to see you growing into who you really are because it looks so much better on you! truly hope this is just the beginning of something magical

[@ardenrose]

Yess!! So fucking happy to see you’re back and doing what YOU want to do. 💗

[@aaliyahchilumbu458]

I love how honest and open you are with us Sam. Like other people in the comments I’ve been watching you for so long since you were thebeautycrush when I was about 15 (now I’m 24)! Hearing you speak about your thoughts, feelings and emotions makes me feel more human. We’re all going through shared experiences together and we’re always here for you. We’ve grown together!

[@xSoReckles93]

I 100% understand you on the hair part. It was so weird for me that I had to learn to love my hair. Just thinking about the fact that I hated it before and was trying to change it makes me sad. Happy to see that more black woman are realizing how beautiful our hair is🤎

[@justinelobina5715]

Everything is going to be ok! ✨

[@TheNicoliyah]

Ha ha that’s my line!😂 So true tho

[@uknaturalhair7027]

❤️

[@justinerangel6204]

🙂✨

[@UrbaanMisfit]

As someone who's been watching you for YEARS (literally you were the first KZbinr I started watching), I can honestly say this video made me sooooo happy for you. Obviously I don't personally know you but this made me super proud of you, growth is a beautiful thing.

[@laurenmitchellm]

Ive been watching since beautycrush days and this is really the 1st time in a long time that i really feels vibes from your video..dont get me wrong i love your videos but today you feel so genuinely you..ive seen your growth and i hope you continue to speak your truth..wish you the best

[@ebonyqueen86]

This life journey is crazy isn’t it? Such ups and downs, twists and turns. We are all just doing our very best to navigate it all while trying to keep our sanity and find inner joy along the way. You are a breath of fresh air Sammie. Thanks for being you and sharing your life with us. You make a difference in people’s lives whether you know it or not. May you continue to discover yourself and remain true to YOU. xoxo

[@SoyChaiLatte91]

You are and have always been one of my favorite youtubers! I'm a bit of a recluse and love my me time and i've always felt like you were the same way. I love your fashion sense and outlook on life. It really resonates with me. You also just come off as so chill and down to earth and real. You don't put on a show and I LOVE that. That's the type of youtubbers I love to watch! Anyway I am so glad that you made this difficult choice because I'm sure in the end it was for the best. If you two can end things in a healthy way, there's no reason you can't have a healthy life moving forward. Thank you for sharing this intimate part of your life

[@zombiekillzone]

I really liked you and Jason I’ve been watching you since beauty crush’s and your toxic relationship with the other dude I really hoped it worked out for you this time but I’m glad your positive and hopeful for what the future brings

[@xoxjuliiixox]

I remember this time and this dude just a little bit. Why was the relationship toxic?

[@maudendiaye4313]

I relate to so much of this... being mixed, having a child and a difficult relationship, intergenerational trauma, going through depression and therapy... I wish you the best on this new chapter of your life. I guess this is our biggest challenge, to learn to be ourselves and live unapologetically. I mean shit this is the only life we get! Much love to you Sammy

[@mlj1309]

May I ask you what is intergenerational trauma?

[@KL-nw9mi]

Sap V trauma passed through generations

[@pasalaka]

I felt that you were a bit off and left for a while. I'm actually experiencing a spiritual awakening too, and it's only getting deeper. I felt called to revisit your channel today, what a coincidence. I'm happy that you are following your true self now and I feel grateful to being a witness to that and have another woke person in my life that I can rely to atm (at least virtually). I send you deep love ✨

[@victoriagraaff]

I have also experienced a spiritual awakening recently. Wow 2020 is quite the year for so many of us.

[@talamunda]

I’m happy for you Sam, although the circumstances under which these changes have occurred is sad, it’s important to remember that change is the only constant in this life & embracing personal growth even when it makes us uncomfortable is the best thing for us.

[@dianachamomile]

you’re glowing- we love to see it 💖✨ sending you all the best in this new phase in your life!

[@Agnater]

I’ve Been watching you for about 7/8 years I’m 22 now and I can definitely say Sam your confidence has grown and development so much and this video is the first time I really feel we are see your True authentic self and it’s soo beautiful 💖

[@teddy_irl]

I just refollowed you after a couple years off. No shade but it really seems like you are thriving from this break up and it is amazing to see and now I am tuning in to see what other amazing things you will do. I went through a really hard break up myself this year - learning about codependency and attachment style was the best thing I ever did and I am working now on breaking my previously unhealthy patterns within relationship dynamics. Take your time and be kind to yourself, being unhappy alone is much more manageable than being unhappy because of somebody else - its your life. Hope you are having a lovely saturday xx

[@vivianward]

It's crazy reading these comments and seeing how many people had this same experience. I was a subscriber of hers since like 2010 and had to unsub because I couldn't take Jason's presence. I am so excited to resub and see the true and beautiful Sam again.

[@purplegal05]

Sammi, glad to see you back and in better spirits! Sidenote - to get your hair to stay, you need a crochet hook (you can get one at the beauty supply store). Insert the hook under the rubberband, put the extension hair in the hook, pull one side of the extension hair through under the rubberband, and then you'll be able to braid like normal. The hair won't come out because it is anchored under the rubberband! I have fine hair like yours and it works perfectly for me.

[@chantellec624]

Spiritual content would be amazing. 🌙✨. Sorry to hear that you’ve had rough time. I went through the same thing. I’m really enjoying the spiritual journey now that I’m on the right path. 💚

[@ellenrooms_writes9047]

I've recently come out of a grey couple of months as well, I have had them on and off for years now (ever since I stood on the brink of depression, I feel like that's something difficult to walk away from). I have been feeling very unmotivated and uninspired and a couple of days ago I realized that I have been pushing myself in too narrow boxes. I have so many interests, but for some reason I didn't allow myself to really dive into them. So that's what I'm doing now :) I'm starting my own webdesign & social media management business, I have started a new blog to talk about the things I love (books, gardening, writing, witchy vibes). I'm rediscovering myself every day and I really hope you will too. Sometimes I forget what things I like and it's hard to know everyone around you but not yourself. Good luck with the new chapter :) you have so many left to go!! Have fun! (very much looking forward to the new jewellery line!!!)

[@chloeisabella5022]

Feel like you’re already more yourself in this video! I can see the spark again 💖

[@khalilahclark3371]

Sammie this video is so refreshing! I feel as if we've literally grown up together. I, myself have been going through the same exact things. My spiritual awakening, being really into astrology and self love journey. In the spirit of transparency and honesty I stopped watching you a while ago because I simply couldn't relate. I would check back on certain videos and still supported you but sim ppl ly couldn't relate to your content. I'm so excited for your new journey in life of truly embracing your authentic self. We've missed you! You seem so much happier and the way you light up when you talk about your new passions is beautiful. I wish you nothing but the absolute best and I can't wait to tune in and watch you flourish. Cheers to being truly authentic within💕🙏🏿

[@samsimpleton]

I really appreciate you Sam, I’ve watched you for YEARS. When you and your sister did videos and all the way through your relationship before Jason. I can see you’re looking happier and healthier. Whatever reasons you chose to separate aren’t anyone’s business, at the end of the day it’s what makes you happy that matters and I’m so glad for you. Keep shining! X

[@mimid.8346]

Just remember that when you loose something in life, it gives space for a greater thing to come in. You're being blessed by starting a beautiful relationship with yourself now and that's the most important thing in life so stay strong. You got this ♥️

[@novemberborn6563]

SAMMI, it’s so refreshing witnessing this journey of enlightenment. Seeing you navigate issues surrounding blackness and identity. I can imagine it is even more layered as a biracial woman. I kind of had suspicions that this potentially would affect your relationship to some degree. But I know we do not have the full picture. And you are not obliged to over share. I’m just so happy that you are on this journey.. and I wish you all the best.

[@Chlcecg]

I’m soooo interested in self development- honestly have coffee talks just ranting and even working things out as you speak. Have self help sessions on camera with us QnA style! Fashion, home decor (especially!) but can’t wait for you to have fun with content again. Don’t feel you need to define yourself or establish the new you as a brand- just have fun being authentic. Missed you! (Watched you since then beginning!) xx

[@xtashamariax]

If you're up for sharing (I understand if not as it's so personal), I'd find it really interesting to hear more about your spirituality, or even just books you would recommend on the topic. I find it a fascinating subject! X

[@12amic]

I honestly thrive when I am on my own as well and sometimes wonder if im meant to be in relationship? so...happy for you.