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[@HittokiriBattousai17]

One of the hardests realities of the world is to understand, truly, that good and evil are just points of view. One man's terrorist is another man's freedom fighter.

[@catzee4720]

Okay, how do you explain child molesters or pedafile with that analogy?

[@SavertonJr]

Reminded me of the black panthers and Malcom x

[@MsThaithai11]

There is no me, in the first place...

[@Chancel388]

I do feel like that's not completely true... there are certain things that are just undeniably wicked without explanation. That come from a sick and hurting person. Just as there is undeniable selfless good that come from happy and healed people.

[@Chancel388]

@Gil that doesn't make that person someone else's "Freedom Fighter".

[@laracrespo5786]

The fear of hurting others is usually an unconscious and hidden desire to hurt others.Its related to repressed feelings of revenge and rage.

[@indef93]

So simple, yet so powerful and possibly devastating to the unconscious mind. 🎉🎉🎉

[@Rob_TheOne]

My father is a narcissist, verbally abusive most of the time. Physically sometimes. Controlling, manipulative, used threts of violence to control me. I was bullied in school because I was trained to cower. The guilt I constantly felt for not being good enough caused serious stomach issues that lead to surgery. I became a "good person" because I seen how ugly others could be. It often leads to overstepped boundaries or being taken advantage of. My morals came from sesame street and cartoons because my parents never talked about anything. The just expected me to do the right thing, get good grades, be happy all the time. Depression made my father angry and I had a lot of it. My mother was a nurse emotionally neglectful and was left to deal all alone. I was treated like another sick person. Never really having any real connection to ether parent. The day I told them what I really felt and walked away was one of the best days off my life. And now it really "just is" and now I sit alone in peace, no agenda. Free to be myself

[@tnt01]

👍🙏

[@Datb2]

Did I write this? Lol wow

[@cboy-ou2hr]

This sounds similar to my experience father was a narcissistic, gaslighting, psychopath and physically(to my mother), financially, and psychologically abusive. My mother enable him to financially and psychologically abuse me I had sisters that experience it too but never as bad as me and my mother did you even up being Ill prepared for the world psychologically underdeveloped trying to rationalize things you were never taught to make a long story short I called the police on him shorty after my mother left the house and cut him off.

[@rodrigoamado8]

We have to let go of false positivity and deal with our own shadow. Behind every false "calm" or "good"person there is a world of anger that needs to be dealt with. Id say dont repress anger but dont get caught in it aswell.

[@Ron-rk6iz]

Surrender to your soul, it's already there for you, just tune in, the resistance is ego.

[@stevenruggles3407]

Im 70 now....and when a lifetime of "Im spiritual" dropped away...there were not even any "parting gifts". All I got was this TShirt that said I was a spiritual seeker....and all I got was this tshirt. But the slow unveiling that you can have as much of THIS as you can possibly devour. What "the spiritual" was actually pointing to . Thank you both.

[@LeftTheMatrix]

The “good person” is necessarily propped up by a LOT of painful judgments about “I” and the “other”. It’s so freeing to see through this belief as the mirage it is. Great discussion!

[@catzee4720]

I decided as a child too that I wanted to be a good person. I was raised in a family where one parent was selfish, mean, lazy, needy, a real narcissist, etc...and the other was my father, a very good person, a real giver and I used to call him a saint for what he put up with but as his daughter if I was going to choose to be like one of my parents which is your primary role models at first, I was gonna choose to be more like him than my mother. So gender doesn't always have to do with it. Daughters following a mother isn't always the case. But lately I realized that my father was a "good person" alot of the times at his own expense and the expense of his children all to serve. He believed serving is all that mattered. But I realized as I'm going through life as a doormat, I realized something didn't feel right as a matter of fact I'm traumatized by something my father said on his deathbed, he was 88, that life is unfair. It broke my heart into pieces...he deserved better, because he was all those things, to be a good person, to serve, all those things you mentioned. I think it has to do with religion as well. My father wanted God to be proud or he wanted to go to heaven, plus he just plain ole at a big heart. A wonderful person. Such a needed topic...thank you!!!!

[@suzanne-chang]

What a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing

[@sarahmountstudios3188]

I have the same story.

[@catzee4720]

@@sarahmountstudios3188 I'm sorry you went through that. Honestly it still affects me to this day and I still have to regulate my emotions when it comes to ruminating or dwelling on it. Watching my father, and myself for that matter, be treated with such disrespect after loving and respecting someone, my narc mother so completely, got my head twisted and sad, but I hope you find peace with it as I am on that journey. blessings to you!

[@littlewillowlinda]

That line breaks my heart.

[@catzee4720]

@@littlewillowlinda Hi there, not sure what you mean?

[@coryoneil5064]

I need someone in my life I feel safe talking to like this guy has.

[@susanamos6237]

Wow, ❤ reminds me of parents, parenting their children with too much discipline and control otherwise they may go wild and misbehave.. all out of fear… my dad couldn’t stand it if we laughed, he thought or believed chaos would reign… letting go of your perceived self, feels like it is undisciplined. Maybe we are scared of total freedom… what might happen?

[@sinkec]

Your entire life is nothing but already being total freedom just spontaneously expressing itself. The only difference is that on top of that spontaneity this “I am” arises and puts signatures on everything that’s happening and believing it’s in control and capable of managing and manipulating life. Life is already too free and complete as is. It’s so boundlessly free and that freedom also welcomes “I am someone in control of life” to arise in it. Yep it’s that generous 😊

[@countrypicker2819]

So much joy at finding this channel. Not so lonely here now.

[@lunkerjunkie]

thank you both for sharing. I'm also noticing relinquishing control is allowing expression of things I was trying to control in the first place. it's a little unnerving sometimes.

[@cory7424]

"This character was no neglected that the only value it could see is to be there for others."

[@tim2269]

I luv what Angelo said recently. That the individual is like a character in a book.No matter what it can't change outside the books narrative.

[@grahammilne3029]

Although people read the book and then change.

[@brushstroke3733]

Spiritual seeking is like being an actor in a movie looking for the screen. It's completely silly, but to the apparent actor, the quest seems real and purposeful. And of course, the whole story of the actor seeking the screen is appearing on the screen.

[@BecomeConsciousNow]

It's so Complex when you are aware of your conditioned self with all its negative emotions charged with energy pushing you to act out, but your true self with its conscious awareness and presence telling you it's ok, there no need to do or be anything. I guess the more aware we become the less of a person there is operating the show :)

[@wolf-bearchief3705]

I can deeply relate to this one, in recent times I saw this self giving up. For many years there was striving for approval, striving to make a good living and then recognition that the character was failing only to realize there was no real punishment in not measuring up which brought the realization there was no person failing at anything nor succeeding in anything. Hard to describe but it now feels like watching a type of movie 🍿😂

[@liiveinternationalinitiati5004]

lol agreed! hope all is going well with you.

[@brushstroke3733]

Thank you!

[@TheJberrie]

Listening to conversations like these is like returning to True North. Thank you both 🙏🏻

[@macparker3549]

Hi, Jon! Agreed…

[@TheJberrie]

@@macparker3549 Mac, nice to hear from you. Hope all is well. :)

[@kathelapointe]

Really felt/resonated with this sharing Beautiful Thank you Susanne Thank you John

[@cherylchild]

Thank you for this presentation. It really resonated with me. I not only define myself as a "good person", it seems that I have successfully convinced everyone I know of that. I physically recoil from that "compliment" now which only makes other people rush to reaffirm it. It's a very vicious cycle. Sometimes it seems, to be free of all my attachments will require complete isolation, a state that is not at all scary or objectionable to me. It sounds like peace. Even expressing it here sounds like such a silly problem, as in "Oh my, everyone thinks I'm nice." But the effort it takes to stay nice at 75-years of age is now underneath a simmering cauldron of rage. Bottom line my "niceness" presents as so one dimensional, I even bore myself to death. Maybe that's the path this process is taking, my Self will simply die of boredom.

[@theNuclearNixons]

Let go. 🤠✌ Title: The Grudge Artist: Tool kzbin.info/www/bejne/aXO7qniLhNqBmtU "Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will or will not tolerate Desperate to control all and everything Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down Terrified of being wrong, ultimatum prison cell Saturn ascends Choose one or ten Hang on or be humbled again Humbled again Defining Confining And sinking deeper Controlling Defining And we're sinking deeper Saturn comes back around to show you everything Let's you choose what you will and will not see and then Drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again Spits you out like a child, light and innocent Saturn comes back around Lifts you up like a child or drags you down like a stone To consume you till you choose to let this go Choose to let this go Give away the stone Let the oceans take and trans mutate this cold and fated anchor Give away the stone Let the waters kiss and trans mutate these leaden grudges into gold Let go"

[@jamesdougall2886]

Wow beautiful honesty here guys, coupled with a highly nuanced discussion. Thank you!

[@MsTara007]

Thank you for this wonderful share John. You really did said it beautifully. And it so resonates with my process. I kind of see it going on collectively. I also just became too tired to try to manage myself anymore...And besides i saw that it is impossible 🙈

[@alxartzen]

This includes identifying self as non-dual or dual.

[@soindifferent_]

I'm glad you put it other there for us brother! Well said John!

[@deni0404]

Yesss agreed, you said it beautifully John. Thank you both for sharing this. ❤️🥰it resonates so deeply. 🤗

[@smartsuka]

I felt like you were saying what I was "thinking" as I listened to this video. It's a very weird experience.

[@Julia.WildNothing]

Wonderful. ❤️ Love you Suzanne!

[@Gaurav.P0]

Beautiful video 😍 You are so cute Suzanne!!

[@andrewforrest108]

Being good is an understandable, 'noble' ambition....but in the end, it's just another unconscious, fear-based survival trick attuned to the so-called 'higher self' (as being a 'bad' person is attuned to the so-called 'lower self'!). All that apparent division eventually gets totally dissolved, along with the sense of I Am/self. Like you say Suzanne, after that dissolution, harmlessness seems to arise quite naturally. Still, probably needless to say, but there is no-one doing any of that....it's all the undivided beloved/oneness doing all the good/bad/reward/punishment stuff.

[@user-pk1pc8to3w]

Glad to hear this, very helpful. I've got similar fear. It might be sounding very not-done or stupid but I compare (this fear) iwith when one gets Alzheimers and that some people (getting Alzheimers) by times changes so much in personality .. And suddenly become very snappy and hate full. That is what my fear is will happen when the (my I LOL) -I- drops away ..

[@richardlenz2655]

Thank you both for this clear and timely talk 🥰

[@scotttully8572]

I am certain that "being a good person" is a necessary stage in the awakening story. One needs to be able to trust themselves - as they let go of the ego - that they are not going to go out "unsupervised" and kill people.

[@cosmicmoonpie1857]

i have had this realization this week, too. thank you

[@Marcel-Kueng]

Thank you for sharing this. ❤

[@anemandaane5183]

really great conversation thanks lots of things to ponder now

[@jasminet3419]

Hi Suzanne, I'm finding your videos very valuable, I hope you continue making them! I have a question.. I know that THIS is all there is intellectually, but why is it so hard to accept and live this truth? I spiritually awoken in 2019, and had an initial "high" (synchronicity, angel numbers, spiritual ego, etc.) which has slowly subsided. I've arrived at a point where I am mostly aware that past and future does not exist and is just a mental movie.. and emotionally I'm currently experiencing depression, boredom and hopelessness... Not in a super negative way, but just that I find everything pointless, and all I want is to just relax and melt away. I've been here for what feels like a long time now... Why have I not fully accepted that I don't exist? I'm not sure the right question to ask either tbh! Just wanted to share this with you!

[@Theartoflivng]

I’ve watched a lot of your videos and they’ve been really guiding. Like a lot of synchronicities and a deep feeling that we’re not separate. I’m watching myself. But my ego must’ve been really scared to truly fade away… so i took ketamine to get back into the “I” sense it’s known to be an antidepressant…. After that there’s no connection, I feel very isolated in myself. And watching you seems so “distant” God, the ego freaks out sometimes… But I guess that’s another layer that needed to go…

[@gaijinyade]

I think you should entertain the idea that you have just infinitely mind-fucked yourself with esoteric bullshit like this and psychadelics. You are your ego, it is not separate from you, you know this. Deep down. Thats why it all doesn't make any sense, not really... We aren't all "one", we are the opposite of that, separate entities. Its so fucking obvious, but not very appealing. You just want to escape from reality, for whatever reason that escape is more worth than facing your truth. Eroding your identity makes you dissociated and narcissistic. Just like this Suzanne person. Take off the psychosis-goggles. And come back to reality. Its bleak and shitty, but at least it is real. And not the fever-dream of some Eckhart toll mind-virus-spawn the youtube-algorithm conjured up.

[@trinidad111]

I thought the other day how almost all traditions and practices point to this same realization through different language. Years after I discovered Buddhism I remembered hearing quotes of Jesus and thinking he’s sounds like a Buddhist. So I wondered if anyone had looked at the Bible in regards to non dualism. The apostle Paul talks about having this non dual realization and his battle with shedding in a sense the human identity and going back and Forth with it. Like described so often with this conditioning and the battle with it fighting to stay. Really interesting

[@SCgroove]

Thank you.

[@huzurturkish]

beautiful hu man and hu woman...thank you

[@lonlep1831]

Wow, this is clear... thanks. Much recognition over here.

[@aricweishan7680]

Thanks for talking about the things :)

[@santtulintervo]

SO BEAUTIFUL!

[@Jack-xc2ys]

"What If's" or probabilities can be troublesome. Letting go of value judgements that come from self can increase mindfullness. Mindfullness allows one to make decisions and take action that is beneficial to the body, rather than acting on behalf of self, with self and risking detriment. True selflessness is beneficial without being valued.

[@teleioswonder]

Hi Suzanne, are you doing Scott Kiloby's inquiry work for the repressed emotions? Post liberation, sooo helpful

[@AndNilsProd]

Yeah

[@fhl60]

Excellent! Suzanne!

[@kendalljoshua]

Exactly.

[@rosa-boom-nonduality]

💗

[@ItApproaches]

Those remnants, are egoic fragments as I've come to call them. Ego will never stop, even after it's been destroyed, there's still miniscule fragments of ego floating around in the mind, or the awareness and they will occasionally float on by your awareness, they are after trying to create a new self, so when you get mad or sad or happy or whatever is just those fragments attempting to build a new self. You have no say in what self is made, as there is no you. The trick is to stay aware, be aware that ego will always try to take hold again and convince itself "a false you" that an untruth is a truth. The trick is when catching those attempts from those fragments, and essentially being playful with them, be like oh ho, thought you'd sneak past huh? Nice try ego, not this time. And you gently push it away back into the nothingness, knowing that eventually it will circle back around and try a new angel or tactic.

[@shawn6306]

i do agree resonate most say these avatar bodies are not our real true from that we are not actual the body at all we are just playing characters that life is like a video game, movie and show it's a story and even the words we say it's all a story that we made up i do resonate with that as well i always knew it words was made up sure i agree the body, time amd words are is an illusion but i do know that i do exist i'm not fake illusion at all do resonate to be free as it act out just to be free to just be i also feel the exact sameway too that it is what it is just to be free to just be express myself

[@alxartzen]

If you identity with good or as a good person or a member of a good group that programming distorts reality

[@kawaidessune6189]

Omg 3:56 exactly

[@TheHonestTruth369]

If life just is, being someone who identifies with the values of being a good righteous man... If yes it is all ideas and i do agree... should we good men allow ourselves to partake in pleasure, does this excuse sin/debauchery(idea yes)... Should we simply let go off all these frameworks, all this pretending to be something and just, be.. Just enjoy without it having any morality attached??? I've always felt separated from this world, on the outside looking in, I've always knew i was simply pretending to fit in, in all honesty i desire nothing, i would like to dissappear into nothingness and be done with this hum drum of human experience... But of course i am tied to certain people and obligations so that option is currently disabled... I've always felt empty, like I'm pretending to be someone and i don't like it, I don't like having to play the game. I've always felt like an imposter in my own skin, fragments of a shadow, an echo, always trying to find the missing pieces, knowing full well it's a fools errand.

[@frv6610]

You need to learn how to correct your emotions. If you feel like an imposter etc, then change the feelings, that's it.

[@madelaki]

@@frv6610 easier said than done no?

[@SavertonJr]

When let go of Christianity, Jesus, and God. Both Jesus and God began

[@gaming_with_jem]

🎈🎈🎈

[@paulmyers9049]

The key world of morality is 'morale' that is truly non duality, not discipline x not hugging the raft life force! Diamond cutter suzanne! Good or great!? 'xD😅?

[@naropayogini1]

Sometimes what’s a good thing to do is to give someone a slap on the face or a kick in the butt. Kindness and compassion need not always be peaceful, soft, nice and gentle. So depending on the situation, one may have to act wrathfully. Look at all the wrathful deities in Tantra, they are not all sweet and smiley. 😂

[@gregoryshields4258]

Nothing you can do? That’s not want Ramana and Nisargadatta said. Something is rotten in Denmark. I feel that every time I watch this channel.

[@patriciaadducci6549]

Something is rotten in Denmark but you keep coming back? Like a good cheese it doesn't smell 'good' and yet there's something about it....and before you know it, you're the mouse in the trap. Me too!

[@karlpainter]

@@patriciaadducci6549 I keep coming back because the contradiction blows me away. This is bizarre. Ramana makes more sense. You cannot deny the I AM ..and denial of the I AM is denial of unconditional love. And when I keeps saying over and over and over that there is no I....I find the contradiction obnoxious. And sure, there may be no substance to what the individual me is saying right now, but that doesn't mean there is no I AM. There is no "just what's happening " without I AM awareness. There is no I, but all they talk about is I. #contradiction

[@karlpainter]

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[@patriciaadducci6549]

@@karlpainter I think she's very good at meeting people where they are. Even if it doesn't make sense, something is definitely happening here. I'm curious.

[@karlpainter]

@@patriciaadducci6549 she is giving advice to people that there is no advice and there are no people. I'm curious about it too

[@Meow-ds7pr]

why do everyone look so depressed?

[@karlpoppe7192]

Hahahahahaha

[@ubuntuber1619]

🍑💨🎶👃🏽💕 umm letting go with Suzanne umm

[@doc-bw4nb]

sure there is try DMT

[@Jo.And-so-on]

Thank you.