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1st Time Hearing NF - How Could You Leave Us • ...This One GOT ME
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[@LFRFAMILY]

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[@Nazyairsengikar]

4:16 it's cool I watch to see what think you are 1 of the good people in this world I believe. 😎😎

[@christianeconomupro.3498]

This is not a good first reaction to nf, it honestly makes everyone hurt. A better song would be, "Real" or "all I have", but its still a bop tho.

[@wellsy626]

Shouts out from down under bro if you like story telling rap pls react to a story by 360 called tiny angle as a father you will understand if you do it .....old as shit but amazing and i havnt seen you do any Aussie rap yet could be wrong but ....always 🔥 reaction brah kzbin.info/www/bejne/gqaymXeVi6dqr5Y

[@mariaisabelrodriguez7875]

Love your channel!!! Keep up the good work 👏👏💪💪 fan from Chile... react to Remember this by NF ... great song!!!

[@kylegoldberg3852]

Bro there ain't shit to be ashamed of when I first heard this song I was tearing up the whole time just goes to show you how talented he is.

[@erikahunter5937]

This was the 1st song I ever heard from NF and I was deep into a heroin addiction and a single mom to my daughter. This song hit me super hard as I pictured my daughter thinking some of these things. This song was the moment that made me change and seek help. That was 17 months ago and I am the sober mom my daughter deserves and has.

[@waverider-17]

Proud of you Erika❤️ Your daughter will be one day too

[@alecminor474]

AWESOME NEWS. KEEP IT UP

[@deevo6478]

So happy to see this comment this gives me hope

[@songbird4330]

You are an absolute superhero. Your kids can now say “my badass mom beat addiction, something that a lot of people can’t do” CONGRATULATIONS! Awesome job!! SOBER FOR LIFE I PROMISE ITS POSSIBLE! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@ericmontoya3447]

I'm a dad! But I can relate.. it makes me feel pain from alot of regret. Im just great full im able to make amends. Its not perfect.. but im free and iv built alot of good relationships that I could have gave up. 🙏💪

[@johnwalker6977]

This is what is so special about NF. He has a song for everyone of us. This one was yours.

[@jon_because]

👍

[@nicholegallo1664]

And mine.

[@trai8]

Yea it’s awesome but it’s a lil ironic/shitty that it’s this one cuz this one makes me drop tears almost everytime

[@corbinsligh1463]

My mom and dad had me listen to this song awhile ago because they realized their wrongs. I remember seeing my dad crying to this. Its deep

[@nicholegallo1664]

Corbin Sligh I wish I cloud be the one to show this to my mom. Her story fits well but she was an angel regardless

[@BunnyGirl580]

She really did pass away from a drug overdose and he's actually really crying in his video it's very sad.

[@fabiandeutschle3372]

He told everyone to get out at the end. So he could do the last bit.... by himself.

[@missnix6151]

This is heartbreaking to hear his pain hurt deeply 😭

[@adversary7038]

@@fabiandeutschle3372 😭😞

[@ayabokti161]

Damn.......😔🙏🙏🙏

[@gabriellelombardi1613]

I heard he asked everyone to leave while he talked and cried at the end...

[@thessalylarissa3261]

"I don't get it mom, don't you wanna see your babies grow?" That part...everytime. every damn time

[@laleinareveira2022]

Yea

[@kamrynborst402]

It hurts so much to hear that line over and over agian knowing you couldnt ever help them

[@thomasb5304]

I don't need a picture of my mom i need the real thing. that part hits me

[@xKotun]

When you realize your parents are selfish and only care about getting throwed. Remember to be better than that fam.

[@peetti3608]

Every time..this song is a hammer.

[@charnegriessel4737]

I've never wanted to hug someone through KZbin so bad...

[@kp-iv2mp]

I hurt for him. Like truly hurt.

[@AlpineArts]

🤗

[@jirehlozano6257]

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🤗

[@zachv3101]

My mom shot herself in front of me when I was 12. Not alone man. Love

[@CarriedAwayChannel]

I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine and am sorry for what you witnessed and had to go through. 😢🙏🏼 My belief and understanding of suicide is that she wasn’t trying to hurt you. She was lost and her mental health caused it. You certainly know more about her, but I just felt like sharing that with you for some reason. Take care.💕

[@raeannaroylance5401]

😳I am SO sorry!

[@LFRFAMILY]

Damn Zach! I’m so sorry my man🖤🖤

[@eb6973]

Just saw ur comment and I can relate to alot. Even the age 12.

[@CarriedAwayChannel]

Eeeer

[@hellalyfe]

That last part fam, he asked everyone to clear the booth/studio cause he felt he needed to finish that song alone. I connect with this whole song but that last part gets me every. damn. time.

[@eb6973]

Wow didn't know he asked everyone to clear the booth. But makes sense I would need to be alone to record it and even the video & him crying.

[@btackett2]

He is such a powerful artist, not rapper, artist.

[@CDuff86]

I couldn't agree more. He has so many hard hitting songs.

[@shutupnerd6209]

He’s a rapper that makes art

[@a.j.9797]

I completely agree!

[@momsmusic8136]

Him and Tom MacDonald need to do one together, they are both classed ss rapper's but not they sre artists with messages for msny if they just listen

[@NathanWhitlatch]

This comment 👌🏽👏🏽👏🏽 PREACH!!!

[@katblair7886]

I can’t even cry in front of my own family, but NF is here crying in front of us, maybe even for us. His bravery is amazing, and I thank him for telling us that we’re not alone.

[@dfrescki]

Pray…He will find you…

[@josephpena6181]

The spirit God lives all of us u are never alone cus he sent u a comforter holy spirit God bless u sis

[@westleyparker7810]

This song showed me how much I was taken my mom for granted. How disrespectful I was, I called her right after and just apologized with everything I had. Changed my life

[@jordanrayne4779]

I always grew up looking at my peers and the way they would treat their moms and the way they would complain about them and being so sad and jealous. All i wanted was my mom, i would have given anything to have what they took for granted

[@nuffsaid8706]

It’s a very honorable thing to put our pride and ego aside that blinds us…. Jesus Loves You!… Forever Grateful, One ❤️ Love

[@javkhlanankhbayar6421]

i wish i was brave like you

[@brendanwillmore3235]

The last verse, the Producers & Engineers left the studio for Nates Privacy

[@jayzicmatos4791]

I’m a really big fan of NF and didn’t know that

[@AndyProper]

He asked them to leave for the ending.

[@shanepeterman6054]

Where did you see/hear this?? That’s awesome, I love NF. This hits home hard.

[@AndyProper]

shane peterman he said it in an interview

[@shanepeterman6054]

Theking 535 .. thx :)) now I wanna watch this interview lol

[@brennan-az5460]

While recording this, he asked everyone to leave the studio he wanted a private talk with his mom. That pain is 100% as it happened in the song. He is incredible

[@NathanCline12-21]

This song does need a warning label for the feels

[@kaildraconis]

Ive heard the song dozens of times. I dont watch reactions to listen to the song. I got Spotify for that. I watch reactions to see what music means to people.

[@zoeith6]

This gentleman was abandoned at 3 years old and he not only has a very succesful career, but has an incredible family he includes every day in his life. Sir, you ARE the American dream. Keep it up LFR

[@rcrowe88]

I'm almost 41 years old and cried like a baby the first time I heard this. And I don't give a damn who knows. Such an amazing song

[@brettblackledge3411]

I’m 12 and I did to

[@brentkupfer8700]

37, I'm guilty for tears as well

[@1976dracos]

It doesnt make you "unmanly" to shed a tear man. And I truly, truly feel this song to the depths of my soul! I am a "metalhead" and I do listen to NF, because his music is so fucking real! Cry, man! It is allowed to happen! Please, please, please check out more of NF!

[@JonBlaze1014]

This is probably the only song that has ever made me shed tears. My mother struggled with pill addiction when I was in my teens and I almost lost her twice. Fortunately for me, after years of dealing with depression and addiction she got help. I'm not religious, but her faith was probably the biggest factor in her getting clean, along with my sister and I leaving to live with our father. But I could have just as easily been in the same shoes as Nate. So like you, this one hits me hard. My mom's been clean now for 20 years, but those feelings still rise to the surface when I hear this song.

[@ChrisSmith-ci5ii]

Same page brother, only difference is my dad and step mom were the addicts, the bio mom was in prison when I was young, found out when I was 17 that she wasn't in prison for what I was told when young, but actually for pedo shit, so now i don't have a mom as far as I'm concerned.

[@erikanorman928]

Same

[@brianjomoj7628]

Shows you how real God is

[@natemotivation8523]

❤💯

[@adamwilliams2679]

So glad she made it, man. I hope someone who needs the inspiration comes across her example.

[@TYLERNAVYGUY]

THESE are the reaction videos we are searching for. TRUE emotion, unexpected, relatable. I'd be thankful it was given without a description or warning. Hell I fuck'n cried....Never knew my Father. Mom battled addiction all my juvenile life...

[@AussieCreeker]

Van I appreciate your honesty. I used to sit on the front stairs waiting for my dad to turn up, every second Friday. I would sit on those stairs and I would watch every car come around the corner and would get my hopes up that it was Dad and then it wasn’t. I would sit there for 5 hours on the stairs till I would give up. I never break promises to my son. That’s probably the worst part of my memories of Dad. We don’t talk and I’m 50. I’ve only really known him for 20 years as I chased him down in my 30’s and saw him till I was 40. He has shunned me and he has two other sons so I’m some sort of diss appointment to him. I pray that my son never feels about me the way I think of my Dad. He was an alcoholic for the first 25 years of my life and I rarely saw him. He was always angry at me but I think it’s because I reminded him of my Mum. He just wanted to do away with that part of his life. I notice even till this day, I can’t be late for anything because he was late for everything or was a no show. Thank you Van for sharing and respect to NF. I have heard some of his stuff but now I am going to check out his catalogue. Peace and love from Australia

[@jrdnwhtny1]

I went through the exact same thing. Finally caught back up with my dad 20 years later…he’s a pastor and asked me to send him money to be my spiritual advisor

[@fawxiie]

i can tell you're a great man. you're not continuing the cycle, you're breaking it, and that's one of the best things you could do as a dad. i wish happiness for you and your son.

[@AussieCreeker]

@@fawxiie thank you. I have had full custody of my son since he was 13 and he has never gone without. We lost everything we own in a flood in February but I have done my best to give him a stable home life. He’s 17 now and has 2 more years of school and he will be the first person in my family to go to University. I was eligible but I was to poor to afford it. I don’t regret a thing though. Providing him with better opportunities in life is my job. He’s also not entitled and he works part time and has an excellent work ethic.

[@tinabagheri5158]

This song was my introduction to NF. My 23 year old son passed away from an overdose in 2017. The line “I hate the way I remember you” was the one line that stood out for me. I so desperately want to remember my son as he was prior to his addiction.

[@lesliepotestio7266]

Ur a good mom....I hurt my mom so bad with my addictions but I straightened my life up and she never let's me live it down still.....its a bad disease that kills so many!!

[@tinabagheri5158]

Leslie Potestio it is indeed a terrible disease and so many people just don’t understand that. Congratulations on straightening up your life. No matter what, mom’s don’t stop loving you. They might get frustrated and discouraged, but it is unconditional love. I wish you nothing but success and happiness! Stay strong!

[@mslou-dj9oq]

I am so sorry. This hurts me for you. Sending love

[@tinabagheri5158]

@@mslou-dj9oq thank you. December 18 was three years. Needless to say, it has been a tough few days. Thank you for your comment.

[@bibattybobattyboop9567]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine the pain that I’m sure you both went through. It’s hard struggling with addiction but it’s also hard being the loved one that’s left behind.

[@HTHonda420]

I lost my mom this year to overdose... never have I ever heard this song until now... and as I sit her crying typing this... I’m sorry for anyone’s hardships.... I pray for each and everyone of you... we deserved better, Rest In Peace momma...

[@CGJero]

I'm really sorry for your loss my man. Stay strong.

[@djhu306]

Dude... that is heartbreaking. So many ODs this past 16 months. Sorry for your loss. I pray that the Peace that surpasses understanding invades your heart, man. God bless.🙏

[@amu_01]

I’m so sorry.

[@spiritualau8263]

🙏❤️ I hope you get abundance and prosperity!!

[@adamstrunz4557]

Saw your comment and said a prayer for you. Hoping you are doing well.

[@frankieluckett8393]

Hey man, I saw that freeze. You were abandoned when you were a baby???? For real! Be proud!!! You are an, amazing man! Amazing parent! Even if your parents aren’t saying it....we are all proud you are a stand up man! If our paths ever cross I would love to share a drink/meal. Be proud of the man you have become! #Respect

[@Lock2142]

I agree with this guy

[@cheemsburger2830]

he sure is

[@bibattybobattyboop9567]

Yes!

[@zerocool4835]

Respect

[@nishanshah7038]

Just came across you. Just wanted to say I love you and you should be proud of yourself.

[@laguerrera2902]

I’m so sorry for your pain sweetie 😥 I am a recovering pain pill addict, 8 years now. My mom and dad had to take my son from age 1-10. This song broke me when I first heard it. All I could think of was my sons pain that he never deserved and how selfish I was to stay in the addiction for so long. I regret it every single day, and this song reminds me that my son needs me and to NEVER use again! For all the kids reading this, or anyone who has a parent with an addiction- please know that it’s not your fault and your parent absolutely does love you. They have a disease and are struggling. It doesn’t excuse that behavior- and I know it may not help the pain that much- but from a mother who once was the mother in this song- addiction robbed you of one or both parents- you are not alone. And I know if every single addict parent could take back what they did to hurt their children, they’d do it in a second. Love all of you guys, and I just want to apologize on behalf of other parents struggling with addiction that is hurting their children. I am so sorry for all the pain and tears. Life is precious, and our children are the most important thing in this world. If you’re a child with an addicted parent reading this- I want you to know that I love you, and you are beautiful and you don’t deserve any of the pain you are feeling. I pray you all find peace and love in life. ❤️🙏

[@TheoryofUltran]

Stay strong. Thank you for this message

[@gg-ro9jb]

God is good. God bless you

[@carpentryfirst3048]

Much love ❤️

[@dawnak.3056]

Kudos for getting clean. I wish you continued success. My brother told my Mom once that drugs will always be an addict's one and only true love. Well, his true love assassinated him a year ago, leaving behind a 22 year old son who is completely lost. For the first time in his young life, he's started dabbling with drugs and alcohol too. I'm sure it's as a means to escape his grief and it scares the living hell out of me. My brother's addiction ripped us all apart for years. I can't watch his son go through it or worse, bury him because of drugs too.

[@gcmotorman6379]

By the 3-minute Mark I'm crying my eyes out thinking of my son. This must be what my son thinks of his mother. He's great, 22 and wise. She's still a mess. I raised him. Proudly and well.

[@Fades2Black]

Deep song. The emotion you can hear in Nate’s voice is heartbreaking. But also powerful in connecting with all of us. Sorry to hear about that Van. But you seem to be a hell of a dad to your children. Respect.

[@eb6973]

Word,I was so wrapped into the emotions he was showing that I forgot that point. He for sure seems like an amazing dad.

[@NoNo-wz5yv]

Anyone who’s been in foster care knows that line about the parent he doesn’t know and a lady in the corner taking notes is the realest bar in the song.

[@paulettaphillips3659]

Not even foster care. My mom layed me in a baby bed and left me when I was 18 months old and my grandmother raised me (my dad's mother). I got that line very clear. It hurts. I wasn't in foster care nor in the states custody but in WV they check on Kids that have been abandon to make sure the person who takes them are fit.

[@legendaryperson5267]

@Isabella Funk I don't want to say this but keep your distance to those who you think don't care about you. Or either you really are doing something that gets on your parents nerves, can't trust everything you say, no offense.

[@Jordyn_loveeew]

I definitely know. I spent many years in the system growing up. Thankfully at 32, it has molded me into the person and parent I am today. With therapy and patience as well. Makes me sad that it wasn’t the same for my 3 brothers. All of them are in prison and substance abusers. There’s some things you just can’t forget and you damn sure can’t forgive. Painful to think about. I hope someday they find peace. I know they’re hurting. Much love to anyone who’s been through it.

[@schloomyschloms]

Adopted since birth basically for me

[@ScottyTownsend91]

Yo I was in foster care for 2 years and homeless a little before that and let me tell you... the system would’ve broke me if I had not believed that my dad would’ve found me and my brother and got us out. I’m hitting 30 this year and I still fight demons from when I was in the system at 7-10 years old. Not trying to preach or be religious but faith is a powerful weapon. And a man who goes without his mother is just as serious as a daughter without his father and vice versa

[@ericmiller9331]

Seen tons of people react to this and it still gets me everytime, never get used to this one

[@jeremyjohnson1336]

Mom passed away when I was 2. Dad abandoned me when I was 4. Drugs and alcohol got the best of him. NF speaks to me on a level that most people can't.

[@jamescorbin876]

My mom passed away when i was 15 bcuz of drugs and like you said he speaks too me on way different level

[@1EnergyInMotion]

:( he really does..

[@kristalascano812]

"I know your gone but I can still feel you." Hit me right in the face.

[@denaeculbreth7980]

I lost my dad to drugs so every time I hear this song it hurts. And at the end I went through those same questions. Him missing my graduation my marriage not having him walk me down the aisle and having my kids.

[@LFRFAMILY]

Wow. 🖤🖤🖤 Thank you for sharing that.

[@shashirekhakamle4655]

M so sorry for ur loss. Rip

[@michm6806]

Girl, me too. I 100 percent know what you're feeling. Mine passed when I was 17. 30 now. Doesn't ever get easier. 😭

[@shanepeterman6054]

My son’s mom is still a heroin addict, just got arrested again... OD’d multiple times, she’s never here for him. This one gets me hard, I grew up with one parent and watching it happen to my son kills me. I can relate to this song wayyyy too much n now I’ve passed it to my son, I hate myself for it but I am the best damn dad I can be EVERY DAY. Love you brother, we all go through it. Respect ✊💙🙏

[@caseaddison982]

Ain’t ur fault. Never blame it on ur self. Be proud ur sticking with him. Ur the guy he looks up to.

[@msbabyboo20111]

Never your fault! As a child of an addict I blamed myself too but always prayed. So happy after 27 years of my 29 years of life my father is finally sober. Keep being that role for your son

[@jacobfromallstate4963]

You're a good man

[@LolGurrl91]

No shame in crying, don't let the whole "men don't cry" lie tell you that because it's a natural human reaction to something that clearly hits you in a deep way. I love this artist, I'm not a big rap person but I love the message in this song and how raw his emotions are.

[@stoffni]

Always makes me think about the Johnny Depp quote, "People cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long." -Johnny Depp

[@simplylearning25]

FYI the ending, apparently asked everyone to leave so he could record what he said. I feel like no one understands how special he is

[@AviationNut]

Hey man it's okay to cry, we are humans with emotions. When you cry it actually shows you have a good heart.

[@byroncatu]

“I know he don’t cuss, I’mma do it for him”😂

[@curtiswilson3569]

Thanks for checking this one out fam. Hits me hard every time since I lost my little brother last year due to similar issues. Stay safe out there family.

[@Kath_klclouds]

Those are Nate's vocal cords!! NF can truly sing, and I can't wait til you hear even more of his voice. If I could give you a hug, I would.

[@shannonwilkerson]

Damn, Van. That one hit hard. I had chills through the entire song, and I felt your pain, brother. God Bless you. Thank you for surviving and being here today for the world.

[@noahpierce8155]

God bless you brother 💜 I'm a single father with sole custody of my boy. His mom left us at the hospital to run through rehabs. I will never give up on my son. I could never. I hope to foster and adopt as my life progresses. Im only 26. My boy has special needs because his mother continued to use. She has never called. I keep the same number and have not moved. I hurt for him, but it fuels me when im feeling run down. He deserves the best. I survived over 10 years of domestic abuse. God will grant the strength to carry all burdens. For that I fear no evil as I walk with him through the valley. Be proud of who you are, what you've built. You are an amazing person. Thanks for releasing some real and heavy content.

[@michaelangel1906]

I am 9 yrs clean from pain meds. It took almost losing my life and my wife and sons to straighten up. Not quite like the song but god damn was close to that. God bless my wife and the good Lord.

[@dusman7]

Thanks for your reaction and sorry. Ususally the NF family gives reactors big warnings before they do this one. When I saw you do your normal intro before this song, I thought to myself “oh no, he’s about to run full speed into a brick wall and he has no idea.” But it’s songs like this that make NF fans fiercely loyal to him. And it’s ok to cry or feel overcome with emotion. I could see this brought up real stuff for you. Respect. ✊

[@eb6973]

Agreed

[@mattconley9589]

Couldn't have said it better my guy. They did him dirty by not warning him man. We all felt this song. Its deep fr.

[@MrBamapride27]

Fiercely loyal. I love that! So true. Out of all music and artists I’ve ever heard in my 31 years of life, his has impacted me the most 🙏🙏🙏

[@JimmyHey]

I'm a 25 year old grown ass man and I couldn't hold it anymore when he was breaking down at the end. I rewatched and relistened to this while still fully crying. I don't know you personally, my man, but I wish you all the best, I think I can tell that this song had just as deep as an impact on you as it had on a lot of us. It hurts. Much love to you!

[@TraciMoore1]

You came to me in recommendations tonight.... This broke me too. I lost my mother to suicide at a young age and always asked the same question why did you leave us. There was four of us kids and we were split up and I was placed in foster homes then later adopted into an awful home.. Here I am at 52 yrs of age and bawling like a baby... I feel you man.. God Bless

[@sidelines4794]

My childhood was really messed up so I heard NF then I now know I'm not alone.

[@kousteven777]

Another child saved. Keep it up! NF makes me know I am not alone as well.

[@fatallove2570]

Same here

[@michaeljohnson767]

My mom walked out when I was 9 months and my dad gave me up for adoption to my grandmother when I was like 10... this song hits so close to home and chokes me up Everytime I hear it.

[@MochaCrochetsandCrafts]

I'm 51 and my mom died a year ago yesterday from complications of drug and alcohol abuse. I felt this song in my soul. Even though she didn't technically OD, she was gone for most of my life, even when she was in the same house. Addition kills...and not just the person who is addicted. I feel your pain.

[@breakbread2907]

Therapy session by NF IT’S really deep and you’ll enjoy it

[@chuckmcdaniel4820]

As a retired career paramedic and firefighter I had seen my share of drug related tragedies amongst families. Pulling out a deceased mom, dad, son, or daughter was never easy on us or especially on surviving family members.

[@kathyduvall1766]

This is my first time hearing this song. Cried my eyes out. I can’t understand how a parent can do this to their children. I loved my babies with all my heart. I’m so sorry you had this life. God bless you all 😢

[@dwaynebillings2103]

Yeah, this one hits hard brother. I just lost my mom back in July not to addiction, she was in a bad car accident. Much love ❤✌

[@LFRFAMILY]

I’m so sorry my brother. 🖤

[@eb6973]

Sorry 2 hear.My condolences

[@sarahgaither7960]

Dwayne so sorry. I lost my mother to addiction 3 years ago. She was never THE mom I wanted her to be. This song hits home so hard. She was 56, liver failure, never changed her life to be there for her kids or her grandkids. Rip mom.

[@sarahgaither7960]

LFR a great song resonates with what we really go through in life. Not the same or the fortune but the real loss and love. my heart and past is with you, I see you and feel you.

[@Jaysun1]

If your eyes don't well up at the end of this video you've got no soul!

[@designcenter1970]

It just breaks me knowing how many ppl go through this. And how blessed I am not to have to deal with this.

[@georgiasmith5655]

"I know he dont cuss, so imma do it for him" I snorted😂😂 First vid of yours I've seen and I'm hooked

[@sallyg.125]

Love to Van and LFR Family! I'm 64 and not on top of new artists and I appreciate you helping keep me up to date. This was powerful and got to me too. I don't know your background but we share so much. Thinking of forwarding to my family but don't know if it's my place to bring up that pain again. Mad ❤ love

[@katmenendez777]

“I hate the way I remember you” was the line that completely broke me. I’m sorry this one hurts so bad for so many of us. The chorus alone tears the heart.

[@eb6973]

TY for sharing your Life,your story. You were always the diamond in the dirt, and look at what is fulfilled through you....smiles & a community to thousands of people🖤🖤❤❤

[@sparklyorchid]

^this🔥✨🖤

[@eb6973]

@@sparklyorchid 💜🙏

[@kyleriopel]

I have a personal connection with this song as I almost lost my mother to pills. So every time I hear this it hits close to home. Check out other songs by Nf like why, time, stress

[@Dave-bo1yk]

It didnt happen to me, but i cannot stop crying everytime i hear this song. NF is a real true artist. I have never had such a strong emotions to an artist like i have to NF. Emotional reaction man! Respect!

[@carrissamcwilliam5757]

This one got me too. My mum left when I was 1 and my dad put me and siblings in foster care at the age of 2. First time hearing this guy. Wow 💕

[@kimberlygoddard7372]

Don't ever ghink you dont have family. We all here. Bc of you. We all fam!

[@rucksackzen]

5:42 that’s what I respect about you, Van. I watched the first Patreon Podcast with Brandon and DJ, learned your story and saw you being vulnerable as hell. Men need to step up and give the guys in our lives the space to be authentic, vulnerable and unashamed. The way we are raised to not cry and to “man up” is killing us.

[@TheRealMikeDrop]

Dying a lil more every day too. Letting this damn stress fucking kill me. It’s gotta stop. I gotta fuckin change. “Man up” yeah… till I’m the man down. Heart attacks becoming the norm, I sit here with this pain in my chest wondering if it’s not too late already. God help me please. I don’t wanna die. Not like this.

[@hardtruth7988]

No judgement here bro, we all family in this joint. Thanks Van, emotional reactions are some that I enjoy most. It helps me connect better with the reactor.

[@bigcraiggles9838]

This song is deep...

[@jaipoh3965]

Look how you turned it around with your family. YOU are a good man, LFR.

[@eb6973]

Seriously it does.

[@tolduahunnidtimes]

this hits close to home for me too man, but it’s my dad instead of my mom, my dad is an addict, i haven’t seen him or heard from him in 13 years, i’m 16. your not alone man, i’m sorry, i love you.

[@baileybowman2449]

❤️🙏🏼❤️

[@shyshy4202]

Lost my mom to an overdose when I was 15. She was in and out of rehab/jail my whole life. This song hits me where it hurts. Sending light and love to anyone hurting 💕

[@GS-xt8fu]

That was my mom too....hurts a little bit, for sure. Thank you god for my father who never left. Thanks for my wonderful wife and son. So many years ago but I could feel it, as well.

[@jaipoh3965]

Look how you turned it around with your family. YOU are a good man.

[@williamh.2982]

Its good man let the tears flow, brother I have took in 19 kids over the years and give them all the love and knowledge I could. Brother me up anytime....

[@MartinScheuerJr]

Dude…first time I’ve heard this. This shits heavy man and it’s an amazing song. Bless you and glad you’re doing well after what you’ve been through at such a young age. Keep up the good work and thank you for turning me on to this tune. Subscribed and can’t wait to see more!

[@MamaSally79]

My ex husband died the day after father's day in 2016. My daughter was obsessed with this song for so long. Would listen to it on repeat. Her dad drowned, but had meth in his system, he had been on in for awhile beforehand. She still listens to it every now and then. It gets me now whenever I hear it, especially the ending.

[@jimlively6884]

I'm raising 5 of my Grandkids now because of this same shit. They've been with us for 3 yrs. And doing better than ever. Love them like they were my own.

[@eb6973]

Thank you Van. This joint right here. Hits the soul. I'm just as vulnerable as you are watching this.

[@TrumpTrain86]

This jam really hit me hard i watched my mom struggle with addiction my whole life, and after 24 years the pills and alcohol caught up to her in 2010 when she overdosed. NF is an amazing rapper...dude raps from his heart.

[@oliviar8060]

This is deep. Watching your reaction and seeing the emotions cross your face as you felt them through the song. Real shit. Nf is a legend

[@trentbobo4171]

Bro, I watch A LOT of reactions. It's my way of watching a clip again for the 1st time. I've only recently discovered NF. I'm submersing myself in reactions. I wish this was my first time watching a reaction to this song. So profound. I'm sorry you had to deal with that childhood pain that you must've went through. But look at you. The man and you've raised to great kids. You're still my favorite reactor, Van. You're that dude.

[@tristahunnewell9475]

This my favorite song by NF. My mom was addicted to pills. Lost her to an overdose 13 years ago. Hardest thing I ever had to deal with.

[@sherylh2570]

Thank you for sharing your past with us. This is such a hard song to listen to, but so necessary to understand Nate’s pain.

[@MakoCS2]

ive listen this song 100rd time still almost make me come to tears

[@monopilis9845]

Everything NF said in this song I relate to with my dad. This song has always made me go deep in my thoughts.

[@jasejens]

I come back to this reaction every couple of months. Thanks for everything Van.

[@joereyes7100]

This video hits me Hard Glad to see NF on the channel again!

[@cpope9881]

Damn, y’all broke Van. Dude in all seriousness I just wanted to say I love you (no homo😛) and I appreciate the genuine reaction. I’m proud of your channel.

[@eb6973]

Aww that's sweet. Fo sho love Van.

[@patrickbseattle]

This song always hits me. NF "Returns" is straight fire.

[@kevingee2064]

Sorry you were abandoned....a lifetime hurt that really never goes away. I was abandoned at 6. I had a house but parents gave up on parenting. Took me a lot of years to get on the right track. Still leaves a hole in your heart. I hope you've healed.

[@tjstrongbone5373]

I don't know if you know, but showing us you, helps brings humanity together. It can't be easy, but know that you are doing a wonderful thing. Thank you.

[@mimic493]

This one gets me every single time

[@TheBrown39]

Can feel you on this one. Waiting weeks for one of your parents to come pick you up (before cell phones) and a lot of times we got a call...sometimes no call at all. Just sit there until 1, 2, maybe 3am looking out the window.

[@deanpower3453]

I had a tear in my with that part hit home hard

[@hitchhikingwithcats7795]

Good for you for taking on this one. A lot of reactors don't have the balls to step up to this. Great reaction! #NFfam

[@nicoleliggett1669]

I was that mom on pills! Been sober since 2016, I still hurt because I did this to my kids. Thank God above I didn't end myself because I could have. All my friends all the people I know who died from drugs and left their kids behind to feel this ever lasting pain. It breaks my heart for them kids.

[@oranganewton]

I've been abandoned by 12 foster homes and 3 adoptions man. NF family will always be here for the hurting, always hoping to help each other grow

[@CarriedAwayChannel]

That’s tough. My 3 sisters and I were left by our Mother when I was 9. I was the youngest. She, and her new husband started using pills because of her “pain”. I try not to blame her today because she’s just a very dependent person with some mental issues, but it’s hard. I’ve taken care of her for 5 years now. After her husband died, she needed someone to care for her and my sisters wouldn’t. There’s a lot of pain even now. She had nowhere to go, she’s disabled & she is still my Mother, so we took her in to live with us. But I still feel the pain from her leaving every time I look at her, even though she’s here now. She’s not the same person she was when she was “my Mom” back then. I look at them as two different people. But I’m trying.

[@raeannaroylance5401]

❤️

[@chrisraven8682]

I'm sorry for your pain

[@perthfalcon]

You have more strength than many of us. Be proud of that.

[@applesauce4389]

There's something special about this song. Even if you don't relate or can't directly connect with the story, the delivery of it and the heartbeat and passion that come through can still get to you. I didn't lose a parent like NF, my parents got divorced when I was really young. Even though my Father stopped trying to be a part of life, only calling when his booze gave him the courage, I grew up happy with my mom and my stepdad, and this song still gets me. Just that feeling of being alone, like you weren't good enough. Cause as kids, we don't get it, and by the time we do understand we still got all this baggage hanging around. This song's not on any of my playlists, but whenever I have a shitty day and need to just be alone and feel all the shit inside, this is one of my go-to tracks. This song will always be in my mind and in my heart.

[@danniellecram9760]

My kids went through this with there dads, never kept there words, last time my kids talk to there dad, he apologized and made a promise to better and had plans that weekend, that evening they spoke and died the next morning, two days before that my youngest daughters died on Christmas and my oldest childrens father died two days later, my mother couldn’t find the words. Life is hard enough and we should show more love and less hate.!

[@dontbetheproblem]

😟I believe this song resignates with so many people around the world especially in the United States. From all different types of backgrounds regardless of your ethnicity it runs deep in the roots of many problems in this country. Starting with abuse and drugs. I've watched many reaction videos of this specific video and song and every time I can never ever hold back any tears it holds true and many parts of my life that I've happened but also in other parts of my family. Not to mention the deliverance of how Nate gives in his voice makes those words hold true incredibly deep.😢

[@arcticsnowfox2220]

"Do you feel the pain in his voice" I can feel it in my stomach and taste it in my mouth......not sure why though.

[@curtispugh4092]

This song is a very powerful witnessing tool it's soooo damn Real..

[@teresabewerunge9594]

yep I am crying. The pain is too much.

[@a.j.9797]

You have me crying from your reaction. I was brought up in the system too. Until you have lived this life, no one could understand...

[@daves6503]

SO...White Guy here. mid 40's, lower income suburban upbringing, and I'm WRECKED after seeing this. LFR...much love. this brought me to tears, literally. I don't know your struggle, but I love you as a brother man. Thank you.